Letter(s) to Peter (Belgium)

Letter 1

Hello Peter this is my picture i took two back in Canada and i took the other one in Ghana when i first came here and i hope You will love my pictures too

Letter 2

Good morning my dear.
how are You doing ?i hope You are doing great and all is well with You because i can feel it in my veins that You are doing ok and missing me as much as am missing am..am so happy to hear from You this morning,You have no idea how is feels to wake up every morning to know that You have left me a mail it make feel like i have someone in my life who cares for me .when we met for the first time is as fresh in my memory of my past relationship so i was scared to trust any man again but You have giving me reason to learn to trust You and it feels my heart So much has happened in a very short time. My world is permanently changed and I am altered beyond what I can express with language. If I never thought that I would be this happy again in my life this deeply. Yet what has been awakened within me would remain as a permanent reminder that my heart is not yet dead as I had long thought it was.

How do I express the feelings growing inside me without seeming to be lost in some obvious state of delirium and euphoria? My answer is “I can not”. Science says the initial attraction between a man and woman creates a sort of partial insanity. Then that explains it. I am insane over you my darling and I revel in my madness.

How well I know that life never brings a path filled only with joy and delight. To think things are so is a true hallucination. I know what fills me now will be intertwined with challenge, trial and difficulty. Am I a lunatic to think now that such moments can be borne with grace upon the back of the love I have discovered? No. I do not think I am crazy to think that. What is built in the future upon the rock of what we are sharing, can withstand most any force a human can bear. Of that I am certain.

Yes, I dare speak of love knowing it has not been spoken between us so far. Am I am a coward for writing here instead of looking into your eyes as the words are formed by my heart and released through my voice? Maybe so, but my feelings are true. I write because my poetic soul within is determined to use beautiful words to express itself. The depths of my feelings demand I can do no less.

Yes, my sweet… I am in love…. with you. As I write this mail I know as certainly as the moon will rise later tonight and the sun will follow in the morning, what is expressed here typing dependable and true. My restless soul seems to no longer be searching for something unknown for now the purpose of its quest has been found: YOU! Without confusion and with complete clarity I say again, I love you. I speak first of what I am nearly certain is within you in like form. With all my being I hope my perception is accurate!
What we are sharing is admirable and sincere. Our enchantment is real. Our bliss is genuine. I know someday when we share the delight of our selves in physical form our delight will be heightened and multiplied beyond what I ever could have hoped for. For now I am glad we have resisted what could have happened so easily. It is a testament that we guard what has been discovered and so want only the best for the gift of love between us. May we continue to take the time to build a love strong and lasting while resisting haste.

So please know my sweet darling you have touched me as I have never been touched before. You have reached me on a deeper level than I thought possible. It has been said by some that loving another makes them feel more complete, yet I question the accuracy of that. I do not feel more complete by loving you, but I do feel richer and as if I have discovered so much more of myself through knowing you. It is as if you were the light I needed in order to glimpse who I really am and all I can be.

After reading this mail, I wonder every minute until then how you will greet me when next we meet online. My heart vibrates with hope that you meet me then knowing you have found a match for what you hold inside for me.

I love you my darling,

With much gratitude that I am able to do so, I wrote the above openly and without reservation. The words traveled from mind to fingers to screen at the moments I thought them just as I thought them without editing. No longer do I feel the need to hide away any element of my hapless romantic soul. I no longer fear the real me within and instead here and now express my thankfulness again for it. and i hope that You will feel the same way for me anyway i dont want to write to much so i will end here and hope that we meet tonight..kisses and more hugs

Best regards

Letter 3

Good morning,honey
how are You doing ?i hope that You are doing great and You are having a good day at work and i hope that You slept well last night..thanks darling for the morning message i will always be fulfill if i wake up every morning like this to see a message from You..anyway honey i don't think You should question destiny because life has so many ways of bringing happiness and joy into someone life in a short time i also never knew that i will be able to fall in love again and here i am today so much in love like never before and i know what ever reason why we are together today is for the best and for the future. so i ask again how are you my dear, are you tired, are you ok?' and lots of questions like these I always ask you. Not because I just want to ask or curious, but every question comes from inside of my heart. I know we are so far apart from each other and I try so much to be with you. I know, this is so hard but nothing on earth can make me lose my true love for you. You bring out so much in me that I am just beginning to see. It's like when we are together the rest of the world disappears and nothing else matters but us. I hope I feel this way forever. I want to spend the rest of my life loving you with everything I have. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve someone as loving as you are. Do you know how long I have wanted someone like you in my life???

It wasn't luck that brought us together. You are a blessing to me and I wouldn't trade the way I feel about you for anything in this world. You are the reason why I smile today . You are the first thing on my mind when I wake up every morning and you are last thing I think about every night before I close my eyes, but our time together doesn't end there because you are the only thing I dream about. I really do want to spend the rest of my life with you if you will allow me to my darling Peter. Nothing is too much for you. I feel like if you're not happy then the world needs to shut down until you are.

Peter, I just want to thank you for loving me like you do and I am forever in your debt just for you being good to me. You know, it's strange how I had to go through so many bad situations before you came into my life. I guess it really is true when they say good things come to those who wait because I've waited for someone like you all my life and you really are the best thing that has happened to me.

Although we've never met in person, I still really love you. I don't know when I started to love you, it started charting everyday wishing you a good morning and good night with a lot of feeling in them. Then, one day, I found myself loving you and couldn't stop this feeling. Just you knowing me more and more each day and how you understand me in everything, that's why I love you more and more. Every time you say hi, you brighten my life.The distance is our problem but if we look at it in a different view, we will know this is the thing that can prove our true love and i know that with the love we have for each other we can make this work forever..honey i will not like to talk much so i will just end here until we meet later tonight just always remember that i love You so much and am always there for You when ever You need me..so enjoy the rest of the day..kisses and more hugs

Your one and only true love
Karyn Aheto