Letter(s) to Brian (Canada)

Letter 1

Greetings it's is Leida. I'm from Turkmenistan. I'm a goal oriented, very cheerful and a very smart girl. I like leading an active lifestyle from babyhood and I used to go in for figure-skating. I'm very plastic, flexible and versatile. I'm very positive and joyful, so you will never feel bored with me. I'm always in a great mood and I like start doing something new.

Letter 2

Leida is it's. I'm from Turkmenia. I find yourself very calm and treatate woman. I am always ready to help. Also, I am cheerful and kind fellow that helps me to have a lot of friends. As every serious lady I am very modest. I am fond of dancing and it helps me to take our life much easier. I like to read books about different cultures. That helps me to understand people better. In my spare time I like to read books about psychology too. I am seeking for a calm and reliable man who will love me deeply fromre. I wish him to be kind and considerate as me. I am sure that in this way we will easily find common language.

Letter 3

Hi my new friend Brian. Today, my mood is much better, because I see your response to my first letter. And I hope you're interested in further relations and correspondence with me. I really hope that you liked my picture I sent you last time. I think you're a serious person, and you will take serious consideration to the correspondence with me! I do not want to waste my time on a some games with feelings on the Internet. I never play such kind of games. I'm serious, lonely girl, and I want to have only a serious relationship in future. So I live in a country Turkmenistan, this country has borders with such countries as Azerbaijan, Russia. But Turkmenistan - is an independent country. I got your e-mail in the dating agency. I want you to know that the age difference does not matter for me. My age is 29 years. My birthday is November 23, 1984.
All my friends tell me that I have a look younger than my real age. I think it's very good thing when girl looks younger than actual age. Do you agree with me? I work in a big company as Economist. I will write you in my next letter more information about me. Unfortunately, writing letters by e-mail, this is the only way for me to communicate with you for a while. And also I want to ask you that you added me to your address book.
To my letters always reach you. I think it's not too much trouble for you.
I will write you about my life more, and I am sure it will be much clearer for you. I promise to write you long letters. I hope you will find some free time to write me letters as answer. Now I'll check my email more often, and when I see your answer, then I'll write you back. Also, I’m sending you with this letter my newest picture. I do this so you could see that I’m real. Leida!
P.S. I write to you with my own e-mail. And I'm sorry that my foto is not quality.

Letter 4

Hello Brian, thank you for your answer. I'm always happy to receive news from you, it always makes my normal day more interesting. You already know that I can not be absolutely happy in my country. Since my religion and the principles of life in my country, it's not allowing me to do that. I have never had a serious love relationship. And all I know about it is only a theory. I've seen a lot of this in various romantic movies or read about in romance novels. Of course, this is all very beautiful. But I understand that in real life would be much different. In real life, there will be difficulties, problems, and some hard situation. That need to be decided jointly. I understand that, and I'm ready for that. I also believe that it is not so important where to begin serious love relationship. It can start from meeting on the street, in a museum or even the Internet. If you make an effort, any such relationship can develop into something more serious. If two people have a common interest and make steps towards each other if their relationship is in constant development, then they can expect a very good reward for it. I truly believe that even Internet dating may one day grow into a serious relationship that will bring a lot of joy. Also, now I'm trying to avoid the manifestation of the religion of Islam in my life. My clothes are plain, I do not dress in religious clothing, I did not close the open parts of my body dark clothing. Of course, many people are judgmental looks when they see me on the street, but it's my choice. I also do not agree with some of the main parts of Islam with regard to the relationship between a man and a woman. In Islam, a man may have several wives official. And I can not take this! I believe that every man should have only one favorite wife. So I finally decided for myself, my husband to be out of Turkmenistan. I think now you understand better why I'm looking for a man for marriage from another country? And why do I have the loneliness at the age of 29 years old! In general, I want to tell you that religion is not important for me. And I think that one day I can change it. I really like the Christian religion, because in this religion all men are equal, and the ratio of girls is much better. I wish I could still tell you more about my hobbies, I like to cook food. They are constantly experimenting with it. Maybe one day you'll be able to try my cooking food, and you're sure to like it. I know how to cook a variety of salads, meat dishes and a lot of tasty.
Today was a normal day for me. Not there was something special. I told you already, which is usually after work, I have a very good mood. And today it was too. But sometimes after work I have fatigue. Because most of my work day goes on feet, and also some fatigue in the neck. To get rid of this, I spent some time after work to just lie in my bed and rest. Sometimes I do yourself a neck massage to relax it.
I'm also very fond of watching different movies. I have already told you that I love historical novels, and film Troya, this is one of my favorite historical movies. I also love watching movies fantasy, such as Garry Potter, Hobbit and etc. And when I have a happy mood, I love watching romantic comedies.
Today, after work, I came to the internet cafe to see your answer.
Then I want to go with my girlfriend to have a female conversation in the cafe. I have a best friend Zhisel. This she did most of my photos that I send to you. It is really a very good photographer, and the pictures she made me very loving. I only ask that you never asked for my nude photos. Because I will never send it over the internet, I just stop communicating with you after such requests. It's just reminding.
How was your day? Do you have something special or interesting?
Now I will finish my letter. I hope you will answer me soon again. Leida

Letter 5

Hi my friend Brian, thanks for your answer. I am pleased that our relationship continues, and now I will try to write you more information about me.
I told you in my last letter, my age 29 years old and I live in the country - Turkmenistan, and it is a Muslim country. This is my home, and I love my country. You can learn more about it in the Internet, I think there is enough information. People living here are very kind and understanding. They are always ready to communicate. In my country, a very mild climate. And usually within a year the temperature is always plus-value. It is rarely cold, only in those parts of the country where there are mountains. Also my country bordering the Caspian Sea. But the only thing that really worries me is the religion of my country. Most people practice Islam, and strictly comply with all the basics of this. I also confess this religion. I was not able to choose it, and I had to follow these principles from childhood. I live in a small town Miana, it is located not far from the capital of my country city Asgabat, about 225 km. Now I live alone, I rent an apartment. I left my parents' house a few years ago.
And now I have an independent life, and not depend on my parents. I left their house, because I do not agree with the position of my father about me. In our religion, women have few rights and freedoms.
Men top everywhere. And so my father tried several times to look for a husband for me. Such traditions in our religion. But I did not agree with that. I had a big row with my dad, and then I ran away from his home. My parents do not know where I live now. I know that my father wants to find me and return home, but I'm doing all that he could not do it. I'll tell you more about this in my next letter. So I've never been married and I do not have children. Because in order to find a husband myself, I must receive the consent of my father. And it will not happen. So I'm lonely. And I'm sure that at my age, it's time to have a family and a serious relationship. So I took the decision to look for a man in another country. For me this is the only way to be happy. For this, I turned to the international marriage agency, which is in the city of Ashgabat. There they gave me your email address. I pay them a little money for it. I hope now you know how I found your e-mail? I think is not important the way I got your address, more importantly, we are now able to communicate and get to know each other. In the same time I never left Turkmenistan, I have never been in other countries. And everything that I know about other countries, all the information I get from magazines, books or the Internet. I want to tell you that it was very difficult for me to start an independent life. But I was able to do it. Now I have a good life, I have a permanent job, close friends and a quiet life. But I do not have the most important thing, I do not have a loved one with whom I will build the future.. Perhaps we can develop our relationship into something very serious. Who knows. Even if we just stay friends, this is also a good result. But deep inside, I hope that we will have a more serious relationship than friendship. Because that's my goal. And when will be the right time, then we can discuss personal meeting.
In our present world is not an easy financial situation, many people are starting to get a lot of problems in their lives. It is very sad when people's lives have a negative cash impact.
Now I have enough money to buy food, rent apartment, and some money left for entertainment. I spend it to go to the theater, or in a cafe with a friend. This is my main way to spend free time. Also, my job allows me to have constant communication with people. It is always very exciting and brings a lot of positive emotions. I have several hobbies. I love listening to music, national Turkmenistan. Sometimes I listen to foreign artists such as Madonna, Enrique Inglesias.
I love listening to romantic music. I also like to read books, romance novels, such as "Twilight." And historical novels. I think people must know their history, the history of their country and other countries. When people remember history, it helps him not to make some mistakes in future. I believe that when a person reads a lot of books, it helps them to communicate better with other people. I love to make sports, go to the gym, or doing jogging. I love going for walks in the park to enjoy the beauty of nature. I also very much love animals. Especially horses. Unfortunately I do not have a pet. Do you have a pet? do you love animals? I ask you, because there is an opinion that if a man loves animals, then it means that he is kind, calm, and able to present sincere feelings. I understand that for the best of our communication needs are also other ways. Unfortunately I do not have a cell phone so you can call. I live in a small town, and I do not need to have a cell phone. But I promise you that when we get to know each other much better, I can buy a phone card and call you.
So you can hear my voice. I can speak some English. I write you letters from Internet cafe. And now it is the only way for me to keep our communication. I do not have an account in social networking sites such as Facebook. Since this requires a lot of free time, but I do not have it. I can not always be in the Internet cafe. Internet cafe manager also said that their overall speed Internet is not very high, and thus there are a large number of computers. Therefore, it is not enough to have a conversation with Skype. I hope you can understand all of this correctly. And we can continue to communicate via e-mail.
Now I will finish my letter. I hope I did not bore you with this long letter, and you can write me back. I would also like to receive your pictures. And I hope that you also write me a nice, long letter.
I want you to tell me about your life, your hobbies and your work more. I wonder is all that you are willing to tell me. I look forward to your reply. Leida!

Letter 6

Big hello to you, my friend Brian. I am so excited that again receive a letter from you. I understand that my letter is also interesting for you. And I try to write you more. I love our writing very much, so I can see your reaction to my letters. I wish that our correspondence one day will grow into a more serious relationship. But as I said earlier, it needs more time. Both you and I have to devote to this much effort. Because long-term relationship should always build both person, and only in this case is strong and solid relationship. Do you agree with me? Unfortunately I do not know the feeling of intense love, as here in Turkmenistan, I couldn’t feel it. I have all kinds of views and ideals, I do not have experience. But I really want to get it. I want one day to feel something like this - Look forward to seeing each with my beloved man, waiting for his return from work. I really want to try all of this in the future. And I really want to leave Turkmenistan. But I'll only do it for the man I love. Leave Turkmenistan - is not the main goal for me. The main thing - is to find true love. Our country is really not the best place to build here my happiness. And if you come here, for you, it would be very hard.
Because here absolutely other traditions and culture. For a man from your country, many things would have seemed strange and unfamiliar. At the same time, here are not very like men from other countries. Today I wake up early in the morning, earlier than usual. Since I have the desire to take a walk and feel the beauty of nature. I love to walk in the early mornings, when the city is almost empty and quiet.
In my town there live not many people. in my country lives about 5 million people, but each of these people have their lives, problems and joys. And on this planet lives a few billion people. And I begin to think about such a thing as fate. Do You believe in fate? I begin to believe it, after I meet you and begin a correspondence.
You're a man from another country, which up to this point for me to look very far. But now, when we talk with you, I feel that, in fact, it's not very far. Your letters make you much closer to me.. I hope you understand what I write? Also tell me how is your day? I bear in mind your normal daily schedule. I find it very interesting. Most importantly, what I want to talk to you today, it’s trust. Understand me correctly. In my letters I write and I'll write you a very personal thing, and I'm not afraid to do it. I really want you to know me better. Therefore I tell you all frankly, and not to hide anything. I see that it's interesting for you, I see it in your answers. And the fact that you write me, it means you have an interest, and maybe some plans. I think one day you also tell me more. I always write you nothing but the truth, and do not hide from you anything. Since I want you to trust me. Trust - is the foundation for any relationship.
Without trust, there can not be friendship. And even more, without trust, there can not be love. Trust, understanding and love are three most important principles on which build and keeps the family. When two people are not afraid to tell each other the truth, it means a lot. Truth is often bitter, but it's true. Lies are always sweet. But the lies can kill any relationship. Lying destroys everything good.
When a person begins to deceive, he deceives himself first of all.
Honesty in our nation in the blood. I was brought up in such traditions, and my parents always taught me to tell the truth. Despite the fact that I was away from them, I still love them, and be grateful for the education they gave me. Unfortunately, I was their only child.
I never had any brothers or sisters. But I always got the maximum love from my parents. But honestly, I would like to have a brother or sister. But now it's too late for that. I'm not going back to my parents as they will not accept my position. I know how to correctly understand the truth, so I ask you to write to me honestly, and only the truth. Never be afraid to tell me the truth, I have always understood it, and take. So it is the best way to communicate, and the best way to get to know each other. I hope you agree with me? I understand that we know each other just for a not so long time, and write to each other only a few letters. But I want that at the beginning, we build relationships based on trust and honesty. Our relations began with sincerity. If we can achieve this in the beginning, then it will be much easier. If we have disputes, then it will be easier to solve it. I also want to tell you about my character, but for me it is not so easy to do. I'm doing this for the first time. But I'll try to do it the best way. I am a very open person, I think you've already seen this in my letter? I love the sincerity and honesty, and always adhere to it. I love when people do not hide their emotions. When people are able to express their feelings and show it to people they know. I really love people who have a sense of humor. I believe that humor is also facilitate our life, and laughter prolongs life. Do you agree? I also have good intuition and understanding of other people. I see, when a sincere person, and when he is not talking the truth. I avoid contact with people who speak not the truth. Like any girl, I really love everything about romance. I like love poems, beautiful romantic stories. My favorite color - white, as it is the color of purity and innocence. When I was a teenager, I watch cartoons. And two of my favorite cartoon is "Cinderella" and "Beauty and the Beast." This is such a beautiful fairy tale, fairy tales about princes .. When I watch these cartoons, I always imagined that I’m dancing with the prince. Or that one day, any ordinary person can become a prince for me. It is only necessary to love, and then the person open up to you with a completely different side. I guess every girl dreams of a prince ..
But just few of these girls meet him. Also today, after the Internet cafe, I want to meet my friend Zhisel. We planned to go to the cafe, and just talk. It is always interesting to know the changes that have happened in her life. And I'll also tell her about myself and my news.
Meet friends, this is what I love to do too in my free time. After such meetings, I always have a good mood. Now I will end this letter, I hope that my letter today to let you know me better. And you can begin to understand me better. My principles and my views. I hope that my views are not different from yours, and we will continue our dialogue on. To know each other even better. I really want you to find the spare time to write me back. I really want to get from you the following letter, which will be a great and rich your thoughts. I hope for your understanding. Do not forget about me. Embrace. Leida!

Letter 7

Hello, my dear friend Brian.
Thank you for your answer. How are you today? How is your health? I notice that every time I receive your reply, then my mood always improves. And it's really good. When I first wrote you a letter, then I really felt a strong loneliness. Yes, I have many friends, all my friends live here in Turkmenistan, I have friends in other countries.
But even these friends do not give a complete happiness. Because it is full of happiness, I want to have a serious love relationship. That ultimately will lead to marriage. A wedding is a very important step in anyone's life and it should be a conscious step. Before you take this step you need to get to know people better, to live life together for a while, test your feelings for this man, and only then to make such a big decision such as a wedding. That's my goal, and I am eager to do so. Perhaps our correspondence with you one day will develop into a more serious relationship. But this requires some time. Because it's all very serious. Yes, I am very emotional girl. And I have a quick habituation to humans. But if I talk about my feelings, it's true. I told you in my last letter that I used to tell people the truth. So, if I feel something for you, I just say that. I will not hide it from you. I promise. If we constantly develop our relationship with you, and it will develop into a more serious sense than just friendship. Then we can discuss our meeting in the real world, but I think it's too early now to talk about it. I would like to tell you a bit more about their dreams. I love watching adventure. In which I can see different countries, exotic places. To be honest, my dream is visiting Mexico. For me it is a very interesting and mysterious country with a rich history. I would love to visit it one day. I think that if I had the opportunity, then I would have been traveling frequently. And then I would have loved it. But unfortunately, I never left Turkmenistan, and I did not go to other countries. I understand that in the world there are so many interesting places to visit, who knows, maybe one day I will be able to attend it. I understand that the preparation of any visit, it is a very difficult process.
Necessary to obtain various documents, visit the embassy to do so. But I think if there is a set such a goal is like a journey, then I will do my best to do so. I will put every effort to do so. But it's only my dreams. Do you love to travel? Which countries have you been? What is the most interesting thing you saw there, and can you tell us about that? I would love to hear your answer to this question. Sometimes I have some sadness. Because most girls my age, there already have families and children. And I'm still very lonely and do not have it.
Although I would love to have a family. I think this is the most important thing in the life of a girl. It is her role in the family, to become a mother, and to keep the house. I think I'm ready for that.
And I can be a good wife and a caring mother. I'm even willing to accept a man, if he has children. I could take care of them as well.
Now I'm really happy because I communicate with you. This fellowship brings me much joy. I do not feel this loneliness. I am ready to talk to you a lot, I'm ready to write you big letter. But I understand that it may bore you, such a reading. So I'm trying to write a normal letter, so you can read it and respond to me. That it does not take up much of your free time. And what thoughts do you have about our correspondence? Are you glad that we communicate with you on the Internet? I hope you like the pictures I sent you? I promise to continue send it to you. I also always wait for your new photos, and if I get it, then I'm very happy. Today is my day was completely normal. My job takes up a lot of my free time. And I think that's normal. I can not imagine that I just sit at home and do nothing. I do not understand how people can live like that. I used to work, to earn money for their own lives.
After the Internet cafe, I'll go home and rest. I want to read something. Maybe I'll start to read a new novel. I really love to read romance novels, everything is so beautifully written. I have a very good imagination. And every time I read through my mind draws a vivid picture, as if I were watching a movie. I know that real life is not as beautiful as it is in the books. In real life, you have to be ready for the challenges to combat this. In real life it is not always a happy ending. I understand it and ready for it. Reading books, it's just my hobby. I very much hope that our relationship with you will continue to develop. And we will strengthen it. I expect that one day we will be writing a completely different letters. But it will be later. I told you that I know a few English and can speak it. I think that for a person for whom English is basic, my speech will sound with an accent, my pronunciation is not perfect, and it takes more practice at it. Now I will finish my letter, and I will wait for your answer. I would be very interested to read it. Hugs. Leida!
P.S. My full name is Leida Zakir.

Letter 8

Hello my dear friend Brian. Today my day filled with joy, because you wrote me again. I come internet cafe to see your letter, and my heart sinks when I start to read it. I have a feeling that reading your letters, and writing letters to you, it become a good habit. I am always very happy to receive a letter from you. Because you're a very nice person, you know how to understand what I write to you. Thank you for that!
How pass your day? How is the weather? I'm fine. The weather is very good, I like such weather but I did not pay attention to the weather.
Because in any weather I rush to the internet cafe and read your letters. Even if the weather is awful, I will still be happy when I see your new letter. Your letters always make my mood better. Only you can lift my spirits, and do it by best way. Now you're the only man with whom I communicate on the Internet. I write letters only to you, and I do not have other friends online. Now I can not remember why I chose YOU from the many profiles. Something attracted me in your profile. And now I am very happy that I made the right choice, and we can build our relationship now.
I want also to add some words about what I wrote you in my last letter. I really do not have any sexual experience. This is true. I never even make masturbation or self-gratification. I assume this is not correct. And it will not be as much fun. Because most of real pleasure available to get only in sex. Since I've never had it, I do not have a constant need for it, or thirst. Now I'm waiting for the only man in my life. And I hope that maybe this man will be you. I am very attached to you in this short time. I understand that not much time we know each other. But anyway, I have a good impression of our friendship ..
In our country, girls marry very early. Sometimes this happens when a girl under 18 years of age. That is, many girls marry very young. I do not think it's good. I considered getting married at an early age can not be happy. This step should be done consciously. It will take time to fall in love with each other, to learn better partner to have a full understanding. 18 years is too young an age to create a family, to have children. I think at my age, it is time to have children. I would like to have 1 or 2 children. I think that's enough. But on the other hand, I do not understand that when people live together for many years without a wedding. This is not right. I believe that it is enough to live a few months together, to understand whether it is possible to get married. If you live together for several months, then you will see the different quality of your love partner, you will see his habits, you'll be able to have sex all the time. And it will be enough to make a decision about the wedding. Our life is too short for just expect something. It’s necessary to do things. Even if it would be a mistakes in any case it will be experience. Therefore, it is difficult for me to understand people who check everything several times, which are constantly questioned, and are afraid to take the first steps. Insecure people tend to have few accomplishments in life.
A person should clearly understand his desire to make the necessary actions. Do you agree with me?
Maybe it’s seem strange to you all my similar reasoning. But these are my views and my beliefs. I understand that in real life everything would not be so perfect. But I'll try to make it less and less bickering various grievances and misunderstandings. I will follow his convictions, and his views. And maximum efforts in order to have the best and strong relationships. What are you willing to do to maintain a relationship with the person you love??
I don't know why but today I remembered my uncle. He was really good man.
He was not like my father. He was different. 2 Month ago he dead.
Last years he lived in Europe. He had some business there. He loved me very much, because he didn't have his own children. I'm sorry if it's not interesting for you, I just write you all what I thinking about right now.
Today I released early from my job. And before I go to a cafe and read your new letter, I meet with my girlfriend Zhisel. She ask me to go with her, because she buy new clothes. She say that I have a good style and it is important for her my opinion. So we spend a few hours in different stores, choosing the appropriate things. As a result, we buy some great things. Both me and my friend were very happy. I believe that for women going shopping this great holiday is to give a good mood. And even if a woman is very tired, she will still be very happy. I like that. I love going shopping, unfortunately, I do not have a lot of opportunities for frequent purchases. We walk with a friend a few hours of shopping, and did not even notice the time. Do you love to shop and make purchases?? After buying things, my friend invited me to the outdoor cafe, drink some tea and chat about life.
First she talk about her life, about all the changes that occur in the last days. I see her often enough that it does not say a lot. Then she asked me how I was faring. I see that she have a lot of interest. And I talk to my friend about you. I tell her about how to find you, start talking to you. She listened with great interest, and I see that she's actually happy for me. She says that I have to appear gleam in his eyes that I become more happy and cheerful. She was very interesting to listen to me. She says that you have to be a very good man, judging by my stories, and besides, she see me change for the better. Then she set me an unexpected question. "Hey friend, maybe you fell in love?
"For me, the question was unexpected, and I'm a little embarrassed and confused in words, told her that while I myself do not understand it until the end. Then I quickly change the topic of conversation. We chat a bit further, she go home and I go to an internet cafe and check my mail from you.
Now I will finish my letter. Some sad thought now coming into my head I very much hope that this year, something will change in my personal life. And it will be the best gift on my next birthday on November 23. I still have a question of my friend in my mind . I doubt that I can fall asleep fast today. Because her question, "I'm in love with you or not ?" making me think hard. I have to work it out for myself, I have to figure out what I feel for you. I have to ask my heart and trust it. In my heart, I understand that you become more to me than just a friend. I start to think of you, how about a loved one. I'm starting to experience some of the feelings and emotions that I did not experience before. And these feelings are growing every day, with each your new letter. And every night before going to bed, I have to think about it. The more I think, the more I realize how much I get attached to you. I think these feelings grow stronger by the day, because I go to sleep alone. Because you're a very nice man, While I can not say exactly what it is feeling. And to call it. I think that very soon I will be able to write you more. Write about feelings is not easy. This is a very personal thing, and I want you to get it right.
I hope that does not scare you much by my own words? Tell me if you believe I have to hurry up with that!? But it is my feeling, and I can not control that. I do not want to hide it from you. I promised to tell you all that I think and feel ... And I do it openly. For me it is important that you understand all of this correctly!
I wish you a nice day, mood and success. I look forward to your reply.
Embrace and a kiss. Leida!

Letter 9

Hello my dear friend Brian. Thank you for your answer. You know, it's always interesting to get for me. This is very important for me. Thank you that you keep writing me letters. I'll tell you right from the beginning of this my letter. This letter is very personal. I will write here quite a personal things, and it's not so easy to do for me.
So I hope on your understanding. It is very important that you read it correctly and understood. By my writing I’m doing the first step, and I hope that you will do a step towards me. Today I was at work, and my head was full by thoughts about you. I do not know how continue my work, and my hands were shaking a little bit from excitement. I do not know what it was, but it tells me and I say it to you that you are not indifferent for me, you're one special for me! I wish to reach a wonderful future with you! I have a lot of good ideas about this future! I can present it to you. Last night I went to bed alone, about 23 o'clock in the evening, in my cold bed! And I thought about us, and wanted you lay next to me! Since I do not want to live alone anymore.
When you came in my through letters then I think I changed my views to relationship. I have already started to imagine, if you and I were together! I think that if you are now with me, we can talk to you all day and night! And we can tell each other the most wonderful words looking in eyes. If you were next to me - then I would hold your hand and would look in your eyes! And do not miss any sight! I would have looked at you and trying to understand what you're thinking about me.
In your eyes, I immediately knew it would be. I think your eyes were shining like, and you'd be smiling. We would be even more fell in love. You're a very good man, with an open mind and a big heart. Only a part of your heart, you have to give to somebody you love, I think!
I know already - you're a real man and strong. And you can always take care about me. I think that you're a man who could give me joy for life, and just be with me always. Always love and respect, always support and help. Never disappoint, and never cheat. As I’m a girl and I need care and affection. Every time I dream at night, when I get tired very much, so I can just put my head to your shoulder or chest, and just be close to you. I want to go to sleep and after sleep want to see you're next to me. And that you watched over me and protected!
I love to dream about it very much , because it is what I strive for!
And tell me please, what will you do when you come home very tired? We live in the real world, and to be aware of our actions! I think that you and I have a lot in common interests and views on life, and unite us alone! I am confident that it will be very interesting together!
Now I really want to ask you - what do you prefer to do with your girlfriend? How would you want to spend your spare time together ? I hope you answer me that! Still a lot of thoughts in my head right now, about the course of the future with you! But if you think that we hurry to much, please tell me. But if in your heart you have the same as I have - very serious and great feeling, and a lot of thought. Then you write me. I imagine our lives together! But I think it should be!
I understand that in this case, my knowledge of the language can be a hindrance to full communion. But I promise that I'll be teaching your language better, I know some of the basics things, I even think that I can communicate with you. So that you can get right, all my words and thoughts. It will be very necessary in our relationship. I understand that, and I promise to learn your language. Besides, I'm sure you will help me in that! Is that so? I already have the feeling that I was falling in love with you more. And this feeling getting stronger day by day. With each letter, I begin to understand that I love you. And I want this feeling grow. I understand if you say - it is too early for such a serious feeling. We have communion only a short time. But I really feel the love. And I want to treat you as my beloved man. I want to have full love relationship. My words of love for you - it's my feeling. I already know you well enough, and I love you. I like all your qualities. I believe that after a long time been able to find true love. I told you in a letter that if I feel for you, I will immediately tell you that. And I think now is the best time to do this, I can not expect more, and keep it inside myself. Obviously, you have some time to completely convinced of this. Because it's all very serious, and I'm afraid to make mistakes with it. But now, I really feel that I love you. I'm not afraid to say it. I hope you will understand me properly, and you can reciprocate. Maybe you need more time to determine your feelings towards me. I'm willing to wait. But I really want to hear in response to this letter - that you love me too.
But I'm also ready for another answer. So I ask you to be honest about your feelings, if it is present. The letters we know each other figuratively - but even these letters can create the beginning! The beginning of love, relationships. Start a new life in which you can forget the past! Where you can start a bright future. And the ability to create a family! If we both want it - it's possible! It needs to aspire to. And that would be the best moment in my life, unforgettable joy and responsibility! Now I finish my letter and I will be exciting to wait for your answer! It would be nice if your thoughts were similar to mine. I am sending you the most warm and tender kiss. Maybe one day come a day when I can feel the taste of your lips in real life. I believe this is the most sweet and delicate flavor. I also want to tell you that if you do not mind, then in the next letter I write to you some of my fantasies. You know that I do not have any sexual experience, but I have my fantasies. Because I read some romance novels, and I have some dreams as well. I hope you're ready to read it. This will be another very personal letter. I hope you will be interested in it? Your Leida!!!

Letter 10

Hello my love Brian! My most gentle and caring man on this planet. My sun, my happiness and my real love! I am so happy to receive your new letter, read it now. That's all I wanted today as waiting your reply with great impatience. Since I can’t live without your letters like a fish out of water. This is of course just a comparison, because I really can not live without your letters. You write very gently, that's how I like it. And I always want to hear from you these words to me. Always and everywhere. I do not care where we will be and how many people will stand around us. I am confident.
That I'm going to kiss you all the time that I will never be upset with you because you are my light, for which I want to live, and strive for the best for the future!!! And everything that I dream is about when we meet in the future will be for us!! My love, I really liked how you wrote and told me. I've just been waiting to write you!!
Yesterday I met with my friend, as was going. We sat in the cafe, drank tea and ate a delicious dessert. And during all this time we have fun talking, she told me her news and events. I spoke a little bit about you, about what I am very happy now, and I really love you.
My girlfriend wish us success in our future relationships! I saw that my friend was genuinely happy for me! Then I went home and thought about our love and affection that I want. I wish that it was all very romantic. You will like it? If you're going to come after work and I'll be waiting for you always!! Every day, and only you, because I only need you!! If we met now, and would already be together. Then when you get home - and I meet you with open hands, and a cheery smile because you're back. You undress and took place in a bathroom. To take bath and to come to the table, you already clean and dressed in house clothes. Then I sit down at the table! I think I will never dine without you ever been waiting for you, and together we will sit down to supper. So it will be more pleasant for you to have dinner with me, I think. Yet while we have dinner and drink tea, we talk about it after us again. We tell each other the most wonderful words that we want. I'll call you my prince, and my love - my ideal and dream. After all, the way it is! You are the most kind and gentle man in the world!
And I think that you are ready do everything for me and I appreciate it!! I feel your great love for me, your kindness and your gentle hands, your body and your breath. I continue ... after dinner when we - we can relax a bit, and then all of a little walk! You can show me the most fabulous places in your city. As I already said - I want to know everything about you, you showed me everything connected with you. Perhaps you'd like some place, maybe it will be romantic! You memorize it please. And then together we go there to spend time with.
You're telling me something about it, and I will listen to you very carefully! We can then immediately return home or go somewhere else!
I’m sure you know more interesting places to visit, so you see me off!
We can go where people will sit, there are places with you, I'm sure.
Then we will walk together and hold hands. Then all the people will look at us and smile. So I think we will be a great example of a couple that happy together. Such a pair that has a purpose in life, we will always seek what we want to achieve together. I do not even doubt cute!! You are my favorite man, very caring, and I never will leave you. the main thing that you would not want to go away from me, or I just can not keep you! But I do not think about it, because you're a man and hope you can choose a life partner! With wit, and with a desire to! But these are only my dreams. I really wish that it was becoming a reality. And now all my dreams are just that. Still cute, I want to write more! As I told you, I asked you last time about sex.
Since this is also a very important part of a relationship and is very beautiful. Because only with you, I want to translate into reality my thoughts and dreams. And I think that if you are helping me in this - will have absolutely great! I want to. You understand - I am very gentle, and you want to start always with gentleness. I want to massage your back a little bit to relieve tension. At the same time feel your regular breathing. Probably every man loves a massage from a woman's sensitive hands? I know how to do it, and you'll have lots of fun to teach from it! When I finish, I let to you around your back my breasts, if you want it!! And then I just have to iron in your ear and tell you quietly that I love you, honey!! You are my good and gentle!
My hand then walk slowly to your pants and I touch your penis! First through his pants and stroking it very gently! When I have my hand between her legs you will - it will be very good for you! I think that by the time your body will already be up and does not suffer anymore!
is this true? Then you just turn around and we see face to face and look straight in the eye! To be aware and have all the same contact, that is just an invisible thread - which connects us. Our minds! You place hands on my body and make me feel as a strong desire to make love! And then you start to take off my clothes so I was naked. Next, I think the same thing that you also like this! Then all the same what your fantasies? I continue to take your penis and start to dream, gently touching the tip! You get from most excited to just simply hug me and are already beginning to love! But I just want to pinch my breasts. To its heat and massage! You tell me if you want more! When we will be in this state, maybe I can take it with your lips to kiss!
From this you will be more fun? I'm ready to do it just for you! And I must say - that never before did not do it, but I want to try it with you! Only with you - a man whom I love very much and I do not want anyone else to give! But I want to tell you all my fantasy talk!! Just so you know, and then waited for this moment! So when we both have an excited state, then you have me real pleasure! That he was ready to give me pleasure. Here's what I would be like in sex cute, so I see it!!! To bring you up to this maximum possible state so that you will never forget it!! I want you always been good to me so you went satisfied. Since this is important for me too! I think I've also always be with you satisfied. And I said - yes, it was something nice, this has not been with me such pleasure and love test! I want this, and I think that I could tell you what I think! What do I think at night! What I dream deal with you! I think you write me your opinion?
I look forward to your letter again. And I will answer you always!
Always tell me what you think and how you imagine! I just want to say one more time, that's all I wrote to you here - it's my dream. I read earlier many romance novels, and it was so exciting. I want our relationship with you, it was just beautiful and romantic. I think we can make our relationship more beautiful and more emotional than any book novel. We ourselves will find better ways for it! Can you imagine life with me and all that, as I wrote to you today? Do you want this?
Do you want now? I really want to carry it all in a short time. Even now, I'm seriously thinking about our early meeting in reality. In my next letter, I will write to you in detail what I plan about our first meeting. And that, I think to do that! I think this is the next level in the development of our relations. I believe we need to know about each other. It is unlikely that in the letters you can learn a lot more. Now the only meeting in real life, can give us a complete picture of our desires. I understand that we have to work very hard at it. To eventually become the happiest couple of people on Earth. But I believe our love will help us in this. Now I will finish my letter, I hope not very shocked you my letter? I love you. yours Leida!

Letter 11

Hello, my biggest love in this world Brian!
Thank you for your answer. I very much expect to receive it today, and I'm glad that I can see that. Now I am full of energy and strength, and a good mood and full of positive. This is what I really need! How are you doing, how your mood, how is the weather? The weather here is warm now, I love this weather! In this weather I like to walk slowly down the street and enjoy this weather.
Now I am very happy and I really want to visit you, and therefore knowledge about you is very important for me! But in the letters you can’t see all this - you need to see it through your eyes. There's always better to see everything in person, instead of reading about it! I think that there is very important thing I have already know!
It’s how much I want to see you now. This is my only desire, and I would very much like this now! If I could do everything, then I fly to you by the sky, and come right to your house. Was standing on the threshold, and you would have met me. I want to tell you today, important news, I went to Ashgabat, and visited a large travel agency. I asked the approximate cost of travel to your country. They informed me that. But this is only approximate. To know the exact cost, I need to know the closest international airport to you. I hope you will say to me in your next letter. And I can write it in a travel agency. That they informed me the final cost. They also warned me that I was very cautious. Since in this big world, in many civilized countries, there is a lot of evil. There is still a slave, to get people to sell organs and to sell girls doing prostitution. It was scary news for me. But I'm sure you're a good man, I can trust you with my life. I have such a feminine feel, therefore I am relaxed about it. I read a lot of good reviews on this travel agency. Also my uncle has one of his childhood friend working there. I never told you about my uncle. But he is really very close person for me. He does not live in Turkmenistan, he had left it. Sometimes I write him a letter, to learn the news of his life, and also talk to him about my news. He's a man and has a different view of life, so his advice and his experience is very interesting for me. And this is the only person in our family who understands me and does not judge. So I can fully trust this travel agency. This travel agency has a good connection with the embassies of different countries, and a great experience. Therefore, preparation of travel documents for them is not difficult. I went to a travel agency because this is my first experience of leaving the country. I do not want to make mistakes with it. If I'm going to do everything by myself, then it will be very difficult for me. I've heard a lot of stories about how people have tried to do everything on their own, and in the end they were refused a visa. So they even could not properly fill out paperwork. I want to talk more about our relationship with you. I do not doubt that our future relationship will be no doubts and distrust each other. I'm sure our love will live a long time, it can pass any test. When two people love each other, they can overcome any obstacle. Do you agree with me? I believe you, I believe in every word you say. I do not consider myself naive, but my heart tells me that you are sincere! What you really want only the best for me! My heart is not wrong! I know that's for sure! I love you and that's important, I think so, and if I meet you and together we will - then I become the happiest girl on the planet. I will never leave you, my beloved man! I never think badly of you. I am a girl who knows how to forgive, and if there are errors, then I do not hurt - they're right! This will also be present at my side, and depend on me, and on whether you know how to forgive. You can not doubt my words. So as I write to you just what I think and what I dream of! And all my promises - it's not just words! It's true, and if properly understood, then you can see the real me! I'm sure you already know me well. You know my feelings for you, you know my hobbies and many of my thoughts! When I will come to you, I will say much more! You'll be able to see me, watch me. You'll be able to see and feel all of my feelings for you. I really want this! I want to give you my love, and also to see and feel your love to me! I hope that this will develop into a very large and serious feeling. We may even be able to create a family. And if between us will have such feelings and full of confidence. Then we meet, no matter what. I'd like to feel you soon, iron and show you all my care and love for you, my caring prince. I realize now that my life depends on you! And I think that you look at it from the correct side! I want to see you, to be your favorite woman. So you can never leave me! You have to remember, for the love, I'm ready for anything! I'd like to hear from you the same words. If you think so, then you will write to me. It will be very difficult to meet, and we need to understand both.
I've never flown anywhere else outside of Turkmenistan. It will be very difficult and not easy! I think - that our meeting will be spending all of our efforts and endeavors, it will require the support and care from you!! But we are ready and we will strive for this, right? We will not give up!!! I would also like to discuss with you a very important question. Full cost of the trip to you, it enough large sum of money for me. I have a decent salary to live here in Turkmenistan. I can spend it to pay for housing, food, clothing, and some entertainment (cafes, cinemas). But this money is not enough to pay for my trip to you. Unfortunately, I do not have much savings. And I can only pay 30-35 of the total cost of the trip. This will be enough to start the preparation of all required documents. So I do not have any other means, I have to ask you to help me. Can you help me with the payment? You see, for me now it is very difficult to ask this of you.
Since I've never done this, and now I have a not very good feeling.
But, unfortunately, there is no way that we can meet with you without it. So for me it will be very important is your answer. I really hope you can help me soon. And then we'll be together and be happy. I really want this. I hope that you, too, want to do this? I ask you, that you did not forget me tell your nearest International Airport.
When is the next time I'll get your answer, then I'll know all your thoughts and your desires. I ask that you not afraid to speak all your thoughts. I will understand it and accept. I promised you I will soon be able to call you on the phone, so you can hear my voice, and I could talk to you. So I ask you, that you told me your phone number, which I can easily use to call you. Number of your cell phone, which is always turn on. I LOVE YOU Brian, my gentle and caring
man! I give you my most passionate kisses. Your forever Leida!!!

Letter 12

Hello, my biggest love Brian! I see your letter, thank you! I am very happy to write you an answer! And I just wanted to tell you all what I think. I'll be honest with you. Absolutely, because it's my human quality. I really love your writing! VERY MUCH!! I have no doubt that in your letter you write me nothing but the truth, and when we meet, I will see something similar. And I can love you even more!
Because your writing is very thoughtful! And so I'm honest with you!
And would never betray you. Since in our country the word "honesty" is the principal! I see that you are sincere with me, I can feel it! I trust you, in your every word. Because I love you much! That's love for you makes me do it all! I'm starting to learn all about the cost of my trip to you. I really want to come to you soon, but I will need your help. I want to be with you, in reality, be spending a lot of time together. And I know that our first meeting - it will be a test of our feelings. I'm sure everything will be fine. We can make sure that we a perfect match. And only then we can talk about things such as wedding and life together. I want you to calm down, because I am an honest girl. I Was raised from an early age to be honest and tell the truth. At the same time, I live in Turkmenistan, with strict traditions!
The truth is that I found you. And yes - I agree! We are know each other only through Internet. But if we do not trust each other - then all of what we have written is useless! I just want you to believe me 100! Love is not built at once, but by pieces. The bridge of love, that invisible thread - that is between us. I can feel it!! I see this thread, and already feel. Because I - I love you!!! By my letter I want you to be treated seriously. I want you to believe me honey. my prince!! I have not lied to you. You know my age, and I do not want to lose all my life! I found you, I want to meet you, to be with you. I want it now. Since I already can not stay here in Turkmenistan. I want to leave this to you. To be near you, to get acquainted better with you, your family and friends. I'm a single girl. I'm also afraid of many things!! I'm afraid of what the agency told me - about prostitution. BUT I KNOW YOU DO NOT DOING THIS TO ME! I'm afraid that you reject me, after my arrival. But these thoughts immediately go away from me. I try not to think about the bad. But I have a very strong desire to visit you. I want this. I want to come to you right in your hands. And everything we dreamed of - that you met me at the airport. I dream of that, and I want it to be, as soon as possible. I believe the travel agency at 100! If they said that they will be able to prepare my passport, visa, and tickets - then it is certainly true.
Because the floor of their work. I will get a visa in Asgabat, the agency will submit the documents that I received it. And then, after payment for all documents and tickets, I'll fly to you from the International Airport of Asgabat. Besides, I told you, I learn many good reviews about this agency. Regarding the visa. The agency says - that will make me an official, tourist visa in your country. And with no problems. This requires about 10-14 days. But we are willing to wait? I think so.
Agency told me that the first time I can only go on a tourist visa.
Because it is the easiest and fastest way. And they give all the guarantees that will help in getting this. The first time I could get a visa for a period of 3 months. After that, the next time I will be able to request a visa for a longer period of time. Or even ask for a different type of visa. Next time I can already ask for a visa, which I can marry you. But, I think it is too early to talk about it.
Because first we have to meet, get to know each other better. Learn better our character, habits. That then we could make such an important decision. A wedding is the most important step in the life of every girl. Therefore, you should prepare for it well. I want to get married only once in a lifetime. So I have to be absolutely sure of my choice. Also, our government has a requirement that all travel documents and tickets was bought only here in Turkmenistan. And they need this be done by travel agencies, which are licensed to operate in the country. This is done to protect the people who leave Turkmenistan.
And if a man will disappear, then the first thing the police will go to the travel agency through which this man was leaving Turkmenistan.
Order the tickets doing immediately when the documents are submitted for visa. Travel agency booking the tickets, and after the visa is ready, they are buying these tickets. As for the payment. I do not want to upset myself, but it's so much. I'm ashamed to ask for your help!! But the trip is very expensive. Full cost of my trip is 1500 USD. It includes cost of all documents, passport, health insurance, tourist visa and plane tickets to your country and back.
And this cost is final. I told you that I have only 30-35 of the total cost. That is, I am ready to pay 350 USD. I can do it very soon, for travel agency could begin to prepare the documents. But for this I need to be confident that you can help me with the rest.
This amounts 1150 USD. Can you help me with this in the near future? For me it is very important to know your answer. Because I want to sign a contract with the travel agency. And if you can help me, then I'll see that you're really an honest man, and want to see me! This will show me your full trust in me, and the desire to meet with me soon as well. Unfortunately, I can not pay for the whole trip itself. I also do not think you're a rich man. For me it does not matter how much money you have, and how much income you have. I do not care. I was brought up on Poverty and truth. For me, the money never had much meaning. Money is only a means, a resource necessary for life. And therefore no wealth I do not care. I want you to understand this clearly. I'm concerned only your concern and love. I want you always watched over me. Because I want to caress you. Because in all my life did not feel anything. In your letters, I was able to understand that you are really gentle and caring. That you truly love me, and want only the best for me. I believe in what it is you can make me happy! And I want that. In our case, money - it only means for we can meet! Do you understand that? This is the only material question. I really hope it does not become an obstacle in the way of our happiness. What it can not prevent our meeting? I'm doing a big step if the food to you. And doing it already thoroughly ponder. This is not a spontaneous decision. This is a deliberate step, and I am fully confident that this step is correct and necessary. So that we can get to know each other better. To enable us to carry out our dreams. To make our love grow stronger and bring us pleasure and positive emotions. Only our meeting will help us to get it all! Do you agree with me? And I do not want to stop. I did not rush at all. I'm just looking for the truth. If you want to - we meet. If you do not want to date right now for any reason. Then I can not wait for long. I will be very upset. because I can not live without you. I'm going to cry, and the pain will not go away for a long time. But that's life, is complicated. I can not write letters to you on the internet every day afterwards. Since it is difficult for me. To be away from you, it's very hard. My feelings require implementation in real life. It will consolidate and develop. Do you understand that? We can write hundreds of letters, long time. We can share photos. But it will not bring us a lot of pleasure and joy, like a live meeting. One meeting can give a lot more emotions, memories and joy. Letters will never be able to replace it. Do you agree with me? I always dream of you, I say to all of you. So I call this feeling - love!!! And it is the most pure and true love. This love has great power! But if we wait - all this will disappear for me and for you. do you understand? We're just going to become pen pals. I do not want that! I want a real relationship, live emotions and feelings. I like that. and I can not change that. But if I see you now as I want. Then I'll be happy. I want to. so you thought. thinking a lot and gave me your answer tomorrow. Love you. Your Leida!!!

Letter 13

Hello my biggest and strongest love Brian!!!! I'm happy now, because I see your letter, I read it and reply you now. I have enough time for it now. I'm really happy - and my joy up with every new day and new letter from you! After seeing you letter my heart is beating very strongly, more than you can imagine, and I have feeling it may jumps out soon! Then if it jump from my body – the big part of my heart, it will fly to you through the sky to your house - and there joins you. By this I want to tell you I’m ready to give you part of my heart. I want. And give all my spirits and joy, all my love for you.
Tell me how is your mood today? I think that all is well and you write as you spend your day and night? My day was usual, nothing special.
Last night I was thinking about us again. I do not watch TV! I suddenly thought that if all of what we write can be in reality, as well as our words! That so fast people can fall in love with the letters. I write you only the truth about my feelings and my love to you! About my thoughts about sex, I just think a lot of us and fantasize. What I think, and I absolutely can not display it in words! So much I want relationship with you. Closer to you, I fell in love with your inner world - what's in your heart. And you tell me about it, and I think that you're the man I want. Yesterday I was thinking about us and a lot of planning. I already can not live without you. Letter - this one, and we know about each other some, but we did not know each other in real life. And if we can meet one day - then it will be a moment that immediately shows that we are made for each other, or not. I never doubted - that if I see you in real life - then all will be good between us. And if I'll be able to look into your eyes, then I'll see everything, all their brilliance, which will go from your eyes to me. Then I just smile, then I'll understand everything at once, all of your feelings and love for me. Yes, just by the look! And if I see all of your actions, which have shown concern about me or courting. It is necessary for me to know and see in you! I am confident that I imagine you just so as in your letters, would like to see, and what you really are. I have good intuition and this is always confirmed in life. My intuition tells me that you are the best man for me, I want to be with you. I would like to start a new life with you, that I would allow to completely forget all the past, which was happened! For do not remember it. I still do not think about it, just telling you. Now, all my desire is to meet you. But if you're going to come to me? You have such a desire? I think that this is not a good option. Because if one of my friends here in Turkmenistan recognizes me. They will immediately report this to my parents. And my father would see and know - I'm with you. I can not allow this. Since the law will punish me later!! BUT!!! If I come to you my dear. Then I have the right to leave Turkmenistan, and then to build my life as I want. Here in Turkmenistan, I can not be with you. This is a very important condition!! In my head, and I can not think of anything else. All of those things, the apartment, the parents, my family and my work - it's all I can leave! Although friends and parents forever in my heart, and I can visit them one day, with you! If I come to you, then I can leave my work in Turkmenistan, and to work with you, in your city. And I think that you are helping me with this! I think to the work in hospital in your city, and everywhere dentist need.
Professionals who know how to work with people. That is I want to tell you that at first we can meet for a while to learn - can we be together or? What do you think? And if we see it, and have 100 confidence will approach each other, thus living together. Then we'll talk about the wedding ! I love you very much and would love to meet you too. I'll be waiting for your answer to this idea!!!! Yet when we meet. I say - that's different, it's not writing. Letters bring a lot of joy and a lot of desire, a lot of dreams!! But they can not show all the feelings that I have for you. All those emotions and my mind! You can not look at my eyes. That's why I say all this to you now! I understand if you say it's still too early for a meeting. I can understand that. But I want you to know my thoughts correctly. Now our relationship in the sweetest period. We are at the beginning of the way that can lead us to happiness. We now have the most vivid feelings and emotions. And I want it to be developed in order to bring it even more fun and joy. If we meet - then all what we write to each other can do, and we can put into reality. We can make love in bed, and can walk on different streets and the most beautiful places. We can every night bring each other pleasure to be happy. I would like you to massage you any time, every form, and when you're tired. I would like to make love to you, with each of our common desire. All that you write as you could do it! You write as you love me and you want a great love. We can do it soon! I thought yesterday that last dream, as it is more a desire to meet. If we do not meet in the near future, then it would mean that our relationship will not develop. You and me, we will become pen pals, we will always write letters to each other, and maybe through a long time we meet. But then it will not be the same feelings of the brightness and joy of relationships. Then we get together and just be friends. I do not want that. I want develop our love in the real world. Tell me, do you want this? Because I want to learn all about how to come to you soon. To start, I just want to get information. I want to go to the city of Ashgabat, in a large travel agency. I want to know the total price of my trip with you. Then I'll tell it to you. You have objections to this? I have so much wait your answer! In general, what do you think? Tell me your thoughts, and then we are dealing with! I'll eagerly await your letter! And I want to say again that I love you !!!!!!!!!!! Leida