Letter(s) to Gary (NZ)

Letter 1

Lol, I doubt it. Why would I run from such a beautiful women? I was thinking it would be you who would take one look at me and think "OMG, What was I thinking". I hope not though.
You know it's not going to be easy to do unless we find a portal to the other side of the world all of a sudden.;-)
More problems with work again overnight, this is starting to become a bad joke!.I'm fairly sure this is not related to our company but for some reason we have to prove it is someone else's problem first, ARGH!
I see the phone going all day again
So what are you plans for the weekend?. Do you catch up with friends? bake something yummy?
Do you like any sports and going to any live games?
Gary

Letter 2

Hi dear,
I am American.
I was in New Zealand when i added my profile to the site. I love New Zealand and wouldnt mind relocating there if i find a man i can love for the can love for the rest of my life there. I would love to know you better. Am looking for friendship for a start and maybe a relationship with commitment. A relationship where both partners know why they are in the relationship.
I do believe love is mature and not childish so that means both partners should be tolerant and understanding.
What about you, what kind of relationship are you looking for?
So what do you for fun?
A little about me, I am into Humanitarian Service. What do you do? I do enjoy what I do for a living. I am presently in England. My jobs gets me traveling some times which I totally love and that makes it interesting.
Some times that is good and some times it is bad.
I am at the point in my life where I want to start slowing down my work and begin enjoying time with my special man. I believe in working hard but also playing hard, if you know what I mean. It's the playing part that I need attention to and want to, of course, pay attention to the love of my life.
I like the outdoors a lot and I also enjoy the indoors especially with a loved one. do you enjoy your job as well?
Cheers....
Criss

Letter 3

Hi Gary,
Thanks for your compliment! Was in NZ 2weeks ago. Distance is not a barrier babes for friendship is not measured by the miles, it is measured by the hearts. Let me tell you a little bit more about myself... I am sexy with good sexual desires, love to be respected and treated like stunning woman that i am. I have a philosoFphy......."you had better not go beating the bushes looking for the right one, because you never know what may run out!"
Forgive me if that sound cynical.
I believe that whatever is good and meant for me will find me and not vice versa.
Let's see.........my hobbies are baking and giving the goodies away!!!! My specialities are chocolate cake, snicker doodles, brownies, hard rock candy..........all from scratch. It is relaxing for me to get in the kitchen and bake. I like trying out new recipes too.
I am sure that if you take time to carefully read my email message, you will realize why I am alone at this point in my life. But I don't really feel alone...it has gotten better the past several months. I better the past several months. I have busied myself with family, friends and travel. My friends are ALL shades of the human rainbow. I am non-judgmental too. If you gathered all of my friends in one room, the only thing they would have in common is yours truly. They are young, old, rich, poor, naughty, nice, sinners, saints, etc.
I think that I am very up front and honest. Life is too short for gameplaying.
My friends would describe me at loyal, generous and dependable. Although I think that I am a bit too introspective at times......my ex once said that I was too "deep".
I just want to find one serious, caring, loving man that wont take me for granted or for a joke. Tell me about your experience on the dating site and have you ever been in contact with any woman online before me?
Everyone has baggage, one just has to decide it they are willing to carry the others. Lasting and genuine relationships are forged during the trails of life. Perhaps it will enhance your life and add something to it. I feel complete, though I must admit I do miss cuddling.........
Take care always...
Criss

Letter 4

Hello Gary,
My weekend has started well thanks. My stay here is indefinite but that won't stop me from coming to is indefinite but that won't stop me from coming to meet with you when the time is right. It is true men ask me out but i don't just jump into dates at anyhow, i am a very careful woman i know what i want. This is something that I want to do......I want to share with you about my previous hurts, mistakes, disappointments.......You don't have to do the same......this is just something that will help you get to know me better.
My first case of "puppy love" was in the 3rd grade.
His name was Tracy Davis. The reason he caught my eye was that he was a little chubby ;0). But things got complicated when another little girl vied for his affections too. Since I have never like any type of conflict. My diplomatic solution and suggestion was to "share" him. That meant alternating on who got to sit next to him on the school bus home. Not long after that, our schools were desegregated and I never saw him again.
While in high school (secondary) I was a pretty much of a recluse. I stayed to myself and did not get into the dating scene. Never attended parties. I guess I was mostly a movie buff and bookworm. I had a part-time job after school and during the summer had work as a sales girl and doing housework. I played and enjoyed basketball, though I was not really that good at it. We did not have a school prom my senior year, but rather a banquet. I decided to attend at the last minute and was very nervous about being alone with a boy on a car ride home and the thought of my first kiss scared me to death. His name was Andrew. Would you believe that he ended up living the gay lifestyle and one of his lovers shot and injured him after a lover's spat!!!
Off to college I went after secondary school and it was a fun time. I made lots of girl friends and we had much fun in the dormitories. Toward the end of my schooling, I met a guy named Martin. I begin to care for him a bit. One weekend I drove to my hometown(35 miles away) and when I returned to school I found him walking arm and arm with the school's leader. he never explained and I had to endure the final semester of my college year watching them together. It was so humiliating.
I moved to California were I met my Ex. Richard and I were married only after knowing each other for no more than a year. my daughter (Jessie) arrived less than a year after we were married. I will not attempt to blame Richard for the break-up of our marriage. he was a good father. But while married, I began to lose respect for him. I sensed trouble and he would not attend the marriage classes. he was quite immature and at times I was naive perhaps and hopefully I am wiser now. My only regret is that the divorce hurt my kid and if I could do it all over, I would have stayed at least until she is of age. I made some mistakes and it took me awhile to forgive myself. But I know that I have learned from them or at least I am determined not to repeat them.
No one has my heart at the moment. I am not on any type of rebound. I have believed that I will probably be alone the remainder of my life. To be completely honest, a small vestige of hurt, cynicism and distrust remains. Deep down, I still keep my guard up so that I won't be hurt again.
So that is the saga of Criss Brandon........ As I said it is just something that I wanted to share with you.

Letter 5

Hi Gary,
I am in London, my daughter is 12 she is back in the States. I am sitting here thinking about you today………… How do you deal with stress? I believe that people should talk, talk, talk........it always makes things better. And of course ask for help. In time I hope that you will feel comfortable sharing things with me. Until then, just know that you can, if you so desire. What makes you laugh ??? Smile!
My sleep patterns at times are kinda off. Many times I will awake around 2:00am fully rested and then I will crash around 5:00am .
around 2:00am fully rested and then I will crash around 5:00am .
Anyway, lately I have been like a kid at Christmas wanting to see if I have a message from you in my email inbox.....What kind of food do you like? As for food.... I have never tried Indian cuisine......only tried sushi once(it was okay). Feel the same way about fresh food. At times I try not to think about what is going on in a restaurant kitchen.
I love chocolate and do believe that it will be in heaven ;0).
I have my degree in psychology. Got a few graduate hours in gerontology. Worked at a mental hygiene clinic with the elderly before going on to my last job of adult protective services and Humanitarian Aid.......I investigate reports of abuse, neglect and exploitation of the elderly and disabled, charity homes, directly help students, families and others in need. It is stressful... I feel that my life is rather full, busy and occupied. Although I did sit with a few elderly patients several years ago to supplement my income.I have done much volunteer work over the years......was a hospice volunteer, at school, church, etc. I have even done mystery shopping.
I don't lack anything really and am not impoverished. I have an advantage over most people....I have much free time and can pretty much travel when I want, do as I please, etc..
As I told you earlier my ex's said some mean things to me and I will never forget those words. Though I have forgiven him.........I could never trust him to be there for me in a hour of need. As I said before, it is important to care for a person because of who they are, not what they can do.... I am very patient. I guess that the only thing I can say is that impatient people make me nervous...I can wait forever in a line........I just busy myself with something constructive. Are you an impatient driver? I had a very impatient "man" give me the "finger".....all because I was not driving fast enough for him. Not sure.......I guess it is good that you recognize your impatience. I am very, very easy-going. Perhaps that is why I loved my work with the elderly and they loved me. Many things that I have gone through in my life have made me more patient.
Criss

Letter 6

Hi Gary,
How was your night? We have lots of time to meet and get acquainted, if you so desire.......You have wowed me with your letters, A good joke or comedy can make me laugh......one day I hope to look into the windows of your soul, those sensitive eyes......what will they tell me???? Will they be happy, sad, disappointed or wistful???
I love writing to you.........I have never felt safe expressing myself the way I have with you........I have always felt silly expressing my romantic side...no one has ever appreciated it.....as I mentioned before, someone once told me that I was too deep.
If you will read 'em I will write 'em......don't feel obligated to reply to them all.......I know that you are a busy man........ your work.........other friends, going into your "cave", etc.
Criss x

Letter 7

Hi Gary,
I can almost feel you beside me as I write this letter Last night, in my dreams, I saw you on the pier. The wind was blowing through, and your eyes held the fading sunlight. I was speechless as I watched you leaning against the rail. You are handsome, I thought as I saw you, a vision that I could never find in anyone else. I slowly began to walk toward you, and when you finally turned to me, I noticed that others had been watching you as well. "Do you know him?" they asked me in jealous whispers, and as you smiled at me I simply answered with the truth, "Better than I know myself."
I stop when I reach you and I take you in my arms. I long for this moment more than any other. It is what I live for, and when you return my embrace, I give myself over to this moment, at peace once again. I raise my hand and gently touch your cheek and you tilt your head and close your eyes. My hands are hard and your skin is soft, and I wonder for a moment if you'll pull back, but of course, you don't. I know that this is the moment I have been waiting for, and I pray that the moment never ends...
I was in NZ for 2 weeks and was there for n official assignment. My hobbies are baking, cooking, reading, swimming...
Criss

Letter 8

Hi Gary,
How was your night? You are the only one am talking to. First of all I want you to know that I spent almost (1) hour everyday since i met you. Most of the time was spent thinking of you and listening to my music. It was such a wonderful and relaxing time. So good to read your email.....Since you have read all of my previous emails....I hope that you take time to reflect and think about my words to you........they ALL are true and heartfelt.......
Would you believe that I scolded myself for feeling and thinking of you romantically also. After my last relationship failure, I vowed never date anyone. But you know, we have begun to lay the best foundation for a strong relationship......and that is HONESTY and COMMUNICATION. Often time’s people will begin a relationship on material things and superficial actions.
While thinking of you today, I decided that no matter where things may go, I want to be a positive part of your life.
Basically I want you to be happy. Having been hurt myself in the past, I know that time is the best remedy, not necessarily a replacement. But I do know that you are in my life for a reason........and we are going to make the best of our time. I am going to do my best to be completely honest and communicate my feelings. I am often super-sensitive to harsh words. I remember being the butt of jokes by family because I cried about a bird that my late father shot with a B-B gun when i was a kid. Recently I have learned to accept myself totally and not to be ashamed of my sensitivity. I am an extremely merciful person.
I need to make a confession......would you believe that I save all of your emails and re-read them at least once a day...it is kinda like my daily dessert ;0) I save them in a folder entitled.
Criss

Letter 9

Hi Gary,
How was your night? I like all types of music except rap. I live in Godliman. Do you know that I am of 5'5".
I think that i am a homebody. I have always been, especially at night. I enjoy occasionally dining out or seeing a movie, but I can do that at home as well and be very content. I like to read also, but I enjoy reading stuff on the computer. As long as it is straight to the point, it keeps my interest. I love to be inside when it is rainy and cold.........with the aromas of a pot of stew, cinammon, etc emanating from the kitchen.
With my feet up and relaxing. I love Law & Order reruns, mysteries, National Geographics(animals), History, some Sci-Fi as long as it is doesn't insult my intelligence. But I don't care for the current sit-coms, they just are not funny to me. So I don't watch very much prime-time t.v.
I am attracted to humble people, especially when they have something they can brag about.....loud people kinda turn me off after awhile.
Don't care for habitual liars.
I am the only child of my parent and I was "mrs. goody two shoes" when i was a kid. I never gave my parents any problems and Green resented their favoring me. My father is/was such hard ( contractor) worker when it came to his job. I am thankful for his example and I have hopefully instilled that into my daughter. But on the other hand, after sometime, my dad was lousy at relationships due to not knowning and having a good example from his dad. His relationship with his kid was pretty much null and void. He was very possessive of my mother and resented me for requiring her attention. After his heart transplant he softened and thank God he, he, my mother and myself reconciled prior to his death...
I could go on and on........but we will have time later.
Criss

Letter 10

Hi Gary,
How was your day? I can't skype as my comp is an old school desktop sorry. The rest of the week is just going to be work and work. I grew up in the States like told you in my third email and like you yourself said pieces for now is better than nothing so gradually we are getting to know each other better.
Aiight………………………..Sorry about so many questions, but how else am I to get to know you better? I never want to seem pushy in any way, so if I am, please tell me...okay? I thought about you a lot today. I have become very fond of you.
My mum might be getting out of the hospital tomorrow.. Oh joy, I know she is more than ready. Not sure what they are going to do about her cancer though….Guess I will just have to wait and find out.
I am one tired puppy. I have been up since 3 :00am. Could not get back to sleep. Was thinking about you. How do you handle having to wait for things in life??? Do you swear, gnash your teeth or just seethe with anger? I am very uncomfortable with anger ,whether over or passive anger. I rarely get angry and when I do, I don't like the way it makes me feel. I remember my parents arguing when I was very young.... it was very scary to me. So tell me please, how do you handle your anger?
KNOCK, KNOCK..........
Who's there...........
OWL...............
Owl who..........
OWL ALWAYS LOVE DEAR!!!!!!!! Would you believe I just made that one up!!!

Letter 11

You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I will be there
I will reach out my hand to you, I will have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I will be there
I will be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, Im so glad that I found you
I will be there with a love thats strong
I will be your strength, I will keep holding on
Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well thats all Im after
Whenever you need me, I will be there
I will be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and I will be there
If you should ever find someone new, I know she'd better be good to you
cause if she doesnt, I will be there

Letter 12

I can wait another day until I hear from you
You've only got my heart on a string
And everything a'flutter
But another lonely night might take forever
We've only got each other to blame
It's all the same to me love
'Cause I know what I feel to be right
No more lonely nights
No more lonely nights
You my guiding light
Day or night I'm always there
May I never miss the thrill of being near you
And if it takes a couple of years
To turn your tears to laughter
I will do what I feel to be right
No more lonely nights (never be another)
No more lonely nights
You my guiding light
Day or night I'm always there
And I won't go away until you tell me so
No, I'll never go away
Yes, I know what I feel to be right
No more lonely nights (never be another)
No more lonely nights
You my guiding light
Day or night I'm always there
And I won't go away until you tell me so
No, I'll never go away
And I won't go away until you tell me so
No, I'll never go away

Letter 13

Hi dear,
I am American. I was in New Zealand when i added my profile to the site. I love New Zealand and wouldnt mind relocating there if i find a man i can love for the rest of my life there. I would love to know you better. Am looking for friendship for a start and maybe a relationship with commitment. A relationship where both partners know why they are in the relationship. I do believe love is mature and not childish so that means both partners should be tolerant and understanding. What about you, what kind of relationship are you looking for? So what do you for fun?
A little about me, I am into Humanitarian Service. What do you do? I do enjoy what I do for a living. I am presently in England. My jobs gets me traveling some times which I totally love and that makes it interesting. Some times that is good and some times it is bad.
I am at the point in my life where I want to start slowing down my work and begin enjoying time with my special man. I believe in working hard but also playing hard, if you know what I mean. It's the playing part that I need attention to and want to, of course, pay attention to the love of my life.
I like the outdoors a lot and I also enjoy the indoors especially with a loved one. do you enjoy your job as well?
Cheers....
Criss

Letter 14

Hi Gary,
Thanks for your compliment! Was in NZ 2weeks ago. Distance is not a barrier babes for friendship is not measured by the miles, it is measured by the hearts. Let me tell you a little bit more about myself... I am sexy with good sexual desires, love to be respected and treated like stunning woman that i am. I have a philosoFphy......."you had better not go beating the bushes looking for the right one, because you never know what may run out!" Forgive me if that sound cynical. I believe that whatever is good and meant for me will find me and not vice versa.
Let's see.........my hobbies are baking and giving the goodies away!!!! My specialities are chocolate cake, snicker doodles, brownies, hard rock candy..........all from scratch. It is relaxing for me to get in the kitchen and bake. I like trying out new recipes too.
I am sure that if you take time to carefully read my email message, you will realize why I am alone at this point in my life. But I don't really feel alone...it has gotten better the past several months. I have busied myself with family, friends and travel. My friends are ALL shades of the human rainbow. I am non-judgmental too. If you gathered all of my friends in one room, the only thing they would have in common is yours truly. They are young, old, rich, poor, naughty, nice, sinners, saints, etc.
I think that I am very up front and honest. Life is too short for game-playing. My friends would describe me at loyal, generous and dependable. Although I think that I am a bit too introspective at times......my ex once said that I was too "deep".
I just want to find one serious, caring, loving man that wont take me for granted or for a joke. Tell me about your experience on the dating site and have you ever been in contact with any woman online before me?
Everyone has baggage, one just has to decide it they are willing to carry the others. Lasting and genuine relationships are forged during the trails of life. Perhaps it will enhance your life and add something to it. I feel complete, though I must admit I do miss cuddling.........
Take care always...
Criss