Letter(s) to Nigel (UK)

Letter 1

Hello....
You gave e-mail on zoosk. I hope that you did not forget it? :) My name is Anastasiya. I live in Russia. I hope that it will not confuse you and we will be able to continue with you acquaintance!
I send the photo which made recently... I hope that you liked it and you will be able to write for me soon...
At present I deal a little at work... I think that could write about herself more in the following letter a little later.....
Now I began to worry. I expect to receive, your following letter...
But I am afraid that you will reject me. I hope we give chance for each other....
Anastasiya....

Letter 2

Hello, it is Anastasiya again....
I had a little time now and decided to tell about myself a little more.....
I do not want that between us there was a misunderstanding concerning registration on the website....
I tried to have registration on the website and to specify Russia and my city Pervouralsk. But unfortunately at me it did not turn out.
I for the first time to have registration on a dating site and therefore badly I understand in it. I specified your country at registration because I can speak your language.
My age 36 years, my growth of 167 sm, my weight 51 kg. As I already told, I live in the city Pervouralsk. My city is located in the center of Russia.
If you are able to take google map, then you will see my city! :) If you give information where there is your city, then I will also be able to see it!
I to have registration for the website to find the serious relations, to find my soulmate.
If our relations develop, then I could come to you, to your country, meet you....
Of course, I want to have the good man who will love me and to respect! It is important for me!
I nevertheless hope, you also in search of the serious relations?
It is interesting to me that you know about Russia?
You had communication with the Russian woman earlier?
I also want to receive your photos in the next letter....
Pleasant day and remarkable mood!
All the best for you.
Anastasiya.

Letter 3

Hello Neil....
I am very glad to receive your letter today! Thanks for your answer.
I worried that after my letter, you will not want to answer more me, because of distance.... But it does not frighten me at all!
Thanks for your beautiful photo which you sent in the letter. I very much liked it! You very lovely and handsome man!
Likely you to have popularity among women in your country.... I will be glad to receive more than your photos!
I am very glad that you told about yourself a little.... Now I know about you more! I hope that we will be able to know each other better every day!
How is the weather in Edinburgh? Warmly or cold?
Unfortunately, I have no Facebook. I not to be in social networks at all because to be tired at work and had not the power to be there.
In this letter I want to tell about myself more. I not to have own children... You would like to have children in the future?
I work in the newspaper in my city..... No, I am not the journalist :) I work here to edit texts into Russian and to do it completely competent....
Earlier I got an education as the linguist of Russian..... Perhaps I could also teach you to Russian once :)
At my place there is an Internet 3G and also laptop. My laptop very old webcam also broke... but it does not prevent to write you letters.
I will be able to answer you every day. But sometimes I will also be able to use the computer at work to respond to your letter.
Today I want to tell about myself a little more.....
Neil, I was married..... My ex-husband hurt me very much - he to hit me......
That day he was drunk and to make scandal...... I could not forgive him for the fact that he to hit me..... We to leave forever.
It was the difficult moment in my life. Then I could not even go on work because I had a big depression...
After a while I found forces to live further. I was lucky because with me there were friends who helped me in this difficult moment of life. And I am very grateful to them for it!
It is unpleasant to me to remember it. I ask that you not to ask me about it. Ok?
Neil, you will be able to tell about your family? For you it is not a problem? You will tell?
My mother died from cancer 6 years ago. I to have the father. He lives in rural areas near my city. I not to have the brother, I not to have the sister. I live alone in the apartment.
After parting with the ex-husband, I decided that I will not have relation at all..... But later I understood that I want to have love in my life.
I decided to try the relations with the man again. I tried to find the relations in my city.
But men in my city wanted to have entertainment and nothing any more. Their intentions were not to have serious relations and to build love...
I tried to build the relations several times. But I was disappointed in the Russian men and therefore decided to find the relations with the help of the Internet.
Of course, in Russia and also in my city to exist good men... But they have a family long ago - the wife, children! I do not want to break others families. I am not such!
I need the man who will love me... I want to trust my man. The trust is very important!
I want to be convinced that you are a good, serious person. And you seem such.
I decided to try the relations on the Internet. But I was afraid of acquaintances on the Internet....
I hope that acquaintance to you will not give pain for me.
I want to find the sincere, serious, kind person with whom I will be able to create happy couple.....
Yes, happy couple..... The wedding for me not to be important.... I already endured it and I think that the most important in life it feelings to each other...
Neil, you can tell about the last relations? Your happy or sad moments...
You to have good friends? Tell me about it.
Than you do in the spare time? In free time I like to walk on the street with friends, to go to the cinema or just to sit in cafe, to discuss some news!:)
Sometimes we to go for city boundaries in rural areas to arrange picnic! Usually we to do it in a warm season - in the summer.
I will be very glad if you are able to send your foto in letters. I will wait for it in the following letter!
In this letter I send the foto which I made on a workplace. It was birthday of our young colleague.... She had 21 years.....
I also send a photo together with my friends....
Write me! I will wait for your answer! I hope that my second letter was not big and tiresome for you...
Anastasiya.

Letter 4

Hello Neil!
How do you feel? What interesting today in your life?!
I hope I do not distract you the letters? Is not present? Tell honestly...
Thanks for photos of the meadows... It was pleasant for me... I understand what you are not pleasant to do selfie...
But I will hope that I will be able to see your photos in the following letter....
For me your letters only pleasure. Even at work noticed that I began to smile much... :)
In total thanks to you Neil... To your pleasant letters... Thank you that placed a smile on my face.
I am very glad that you told about yourself and answered my questions. It is very pleasant to me that you tell about yourself!
Thank you that you told about your family. I understand that you also lost your father.....
I know on how many heavy to lose dear people. I want to express my sincere condolences.
I read the history Dunblane.... I learned that in 1996 there was a tragedy when to kill many children at school.... It is very awful....
Why you told me these awful events? I do not want to know about similar again.... It to do me very sad....
Now I want to think more of you to try to forget these sad news....
But I did not understand about Quorn burger... Perhaps you will write about it more?
I am very glad that our acquaintance continues and we write each other! I thought of how we will be able to make so that we could have more communication.
Last night to me the thought of that being used by Skype came. I tried on 3G modem, to establish Skype. But Internet speed too small... Not admissible for Skype.
Neil, you have phone? You will not be against if I call to you in the next few days?! I in an anticipation to hear your voice...
If you tell me the number, then I will be able to call you! I of course have Mobil phone. My number +79227065979. but I have no international network! You understand?
It will be better if you tell me the phone number... Well?
Neil how you plan to spend free time in the evening today?
Today I am going to leave for lessons of dances. I dance Salsa. But so far only I study. You will be my partner in dance? :)
You would like to dance with me the dance salsa??? I very much like to dance.
We could embrace each other and dance till the morning. How to you my offer? :) I also like to skate.
You have pets? I to have a cat.... But I also love dogs.... My father has a dog in rural areas.
In this letter I want to send some foto with me and with my cat.... I to apologize that a photo on the street not really high quality.
I will be glad to receive your fotos in the following letter.
I wish you the good termination this day and pleasant rest! I will wait for yours the answer soon.

Anastasiya.

Letter 5

Hello my Neil!!!
At you everything is good? How your mood?! You saw your mum, sister and nephew? I hope that you have a good time together with them!
I am at work now and I write you the letter. It cannot be done, but I hope will see nobody.
did not want to wait for evening and decided to answer you now. It is already so important for me, to read your next letter...
Today my colleagues ask why I to have a smile upon the face now... I answer that good mood!
But we with you know from what at me a smile upon the face. Of course from your letter Neil... :)
Yes, I read about the tennis player of Andy Murray now.... Thank you that you wrote about it.....
Sorry, what I did not understand your joke.... I think that I did not get used to the English humour yet.... Your jokes to be good, I will get used to it....
Of course, I could teach you to skate and dance Salsa.... I think that we could become beautiful couple :)
Tonight my girlfriend invited me to a disco. but I do not go for a long time to similar places any more...
I will not go on a disco... I will stay at home, read the book.
I do not love noisy places... I prefer other more quiet places for rest. I like to go to cinema, I try to look at all novelties of movies.
Romantic comedies and melodramas are the most interesting to me. What movies are chosen by you?
I can also go to theater in my city. I like to see some new performances. You like to visit theater?
It would be pleasant to me to go with future man and to visit theater... Mmm, I to present it already a little :)
I also like an outdoor recreation. Possibly, it so because I lived often in the village at the grandmother in the childhood. I had a remarkable, cheerful childhood.
My grandmother always took me to gather in the wood mushrooms and berries... And my grandfather took me on fishing.
Neil, and you is pleasant to catch fish? Perhaps you will take me sometime with yourself? :)
I do not want to force events, but during this time, I to you very much became attached.... It seems to me that at us everything very well develops... How you think?
Tell Neil to me about the travel?! You like to travel and visit other countries? To study culture and life of people?
You have a place which you very much want to see, but never before there was? I dream to see Eiffel Tower in Paris....
You sometime saw it? If this is so, then what it?! Very high? :)
For all life, I could visit only Ukraine. We together with girlfriend had a rest on Ozovskoe the sea.
Yes Neil, imagine, I had never a rest in other countries. Likely it surprises you?! :)
But I try to watch all news in the world. but very much afflicts me when on TV speak about war. I try not to watch such news, at once it becomes sad!
Tell me Neil if you want to learn more. It is really good to receive news from you and to read your letters.
Embraces and kisses, from me!
In this letter I also send a photo of my rest in Ukraine in 2013 and also from the best girlfriend.

Anastasiya.

Letter 6

Hello Neil!!!!
I just had an opportunity to read your letter. How are you doing? I'm fine!
Thanks for a photo together with your friends also which you sent in the letter....
I found free time to read your letter and to write you the answer!
I want to tell that I am very glad to receive your letters. It became more pleasant to me to come on work waiting that I will be able to read your letter!
I am again glad that you answered my questions.... I see in you the pleasant interlocutor and the handsome man! I am glad that the destiny acquainted us!
I understand that recently you visited the doctor and he told that you are suffering from 'post bereavement stress' following the death of your father.....
I hope that I could help for you with everything.... I want to give for you support in everything....
I understand that you to ask several questions for me and now I want to answer it with pleasure.... I like very much that you are a tall man!
It is not pleasant to me little men of my growth.... I think that the man has to be very high.... I like it! Therefore you should not worry about it....
I think that you can call me by Nastya is the my reduced name... Of course, I not to have communication with other men on the website!
I write only for you.... You are the first man with which I to have communication on the Internet.... I hope that I also am the only woman for you...
I have no car.... But I am able to drive and I have the driver's license...
Today I would like to tell you about how there passes my usual day. My day begins at 6:30 in the morning. I to rise, take a shower. Then I go to have breakfast.
Usually my breakfast consists from salad. I also to drink tea with cookies or jam.
Then I begin to gather for work. My way to work makes about 25 minutes if I walk.
When on the street rainy weather, I to take public transport to reach my work. And then my way makes 7-8 minutes.
Today I went to work on foot because my mood was good! I went and Neil thought of you! :)
You thought of me today? Tell me about it!
My schedule work to be various and I can have the day off, for example on Monday or Thursday.... Or any other day :)
Everything will depend on that how many it is necessary to edit texts into Russian and to do it completely competent.....
Usually I to come to work by 8:00. At work I to have a lunch break. I to have dinner with colleagues in the public dining room near my work....
Usually my working day comes to an end approximately at 18:00. After work I come back home. When I houses, take a shower and to make a dinner.
Today for dinner I am going to make mashed potatoes together with chicken and sauce. I am pleasant to prepare food. My friends to say that I to cook tasty food.
Last year in our newspaper there took place the competition of culinary art among workers.... I to win first place there :) In this letter I send a photo of the diploma which I received for this first place.....
Neil, what food is pleasant to you more? You like fish, meat, vegetables?
After I have supper, I like to watch TV or to read the good book. I like to read romantic books. I think that it is my passion - to read romantic books! :)
Neil is pleasant to be read to you?
How you will spend evening today? What will you be to prepare for dinner? What did you want that I to prepare for you for dinner once?
Neil, you will be able to tell when there is yours birthday? Mine birthday on June 15, 1979. My zodiac sign Twins.
I will wait for your answer. I give for you a kiss.
Anastasiya.

Letter 7

Hello Neil.
Thank you that you wrote to me! How you to spend this day? I missed you!
Thanks for a photo which you sent in the letter..... Now I see not only the building where you work.... But I also see a general view of your city...
It is very beautiful architecture.... I think that the chief architect of your city to be a good person and made all buildings beautiful....
Neil, I am very glad that yesterday we could speak by phone! I could hear your voice!
When I heard it, was very glad. Your voice very beautiful..... I was glad to speak by phone!
My darling, I am very glad that you answered my questions and wrote date of your birthday. Now I know about it!
I understand that I your show "Masterchef" was finished.... But I think that when we could meet, we would make our own culinary art of the house at you :)
Of course we could meet soon.... I know that the meeting is a serious step... Therefore I will think of it more and then we could discuss it.....
I had to have holiday recently..... But I decided to refuse it.... I think that in the next few days I could talk to my boss about it again....
As soon as I have news about my holiday, I could report to you about it in the letter....
I remember a name of your sister... But unfortunately I do not know a name of your mother.... You will be able to write a name of your mother in the following letter?
Neil I think to us it was very lucky that we could find each other. Even usual letters, can bring a lot of joy and positive emotions.
Though we do not know each other close, but I am sure that you are a kind and sincere person... I feel it heart...
In you there is what I felt when in other men. In you there is something unusual that attracts to you... I want to communicate with you more and more.
I have very few close people to whom I can tell problems, success, pleasure, disappointment. I cannot share with everyone it...
But now in my life there are you Neil... And I trust you also, concerning my father and the best friend... Only they, for me the closest.
I hope that you will not enjoy my trust... I very much am afraid to be disappointed in you... You will not make to me badly??
I trust you Neil.... I also want to deserve your trust! I can count on it?
But I very much am afraid that you will use me, only for to carry out free time or entertainment... Now I worry about it much... I want to understand, on how many you serious to me!
I cannot see you, touch you. And it very much upsets me. Gradually I want to learn you more. But nevertheless I very much worry. What your intentions to me?
Serious or only for entertainment?
Neil you were not tired of my fotos? Is not present? if you were bothered by my fotos, then tell me about it. Well?
Appearance it not the main thing.... The most important that the person was able to love, to appreciate, respect... This is important!
The fact that in the person, human qualities is important for me. And in you, I see these qualities!
It is interesting to me that my father and friends will tell about ours with you acquaintance? :) I want to tell them everything!
Neil, what things in life does you cheerful? What things in life on the contrary to do you sad?
Also I send a little more fotos without cosmetics, I hope that they will are pleasant for you... You were not frightened of me without cosmetics? :)
With love and kisses.
hope to receive news from you soon...

Anastasiya.

P.S. I want that you had no doubts in me.
I will make a small surprise for you, in the following letter... Wait and you will receive it soon... :)

Letter 8

Hello my darling Neil.
What at you today mood, Neil? Excellent? I will hope for it very much, very much... :)
Thanks for a photo of a dog who is pleasant for you.... This is really big dog... But likely very kind....
On a photo I also see the little girl.... Likely it is the daughter of the owner of a dog?
I understand that you will never play with my feelings and will be serious with me.... It is really very important for me....
Neil, I will also be serious with you and I will never play with your feelings.... I want to continue to develop the relations with you...
I also understand that you do not want to have children in the future.... I think that it is not a problem for me...
My age already quite big. And therefore I think that during pregnancy there can be difficulties. I do not want to have any problems.....
Why you say about no what you have a big salary and to live in modest the apartment? Unless you think what I looked for the rich man for myself?
If you think in this way, then you strongly are mistaken..... I did not want to find the rich man...
I want to find the man whom I will love and also he will love me mutually.... It will be the most important for me.....
Money will never be able to make any person happy! Therefore you in vain thought of what I wanted to have the rich man...
Your thoughts even offended me a little.... But I think that you did not want to offend me it...
Thank you that you told what to do you joyful and also on the contrary.... I hope that in our life there will be only positive moments....
I would like to know yours any song and also your most favourite movie.... You will be able to write it for me now?
Today my working day began a little later..... The chief told about that I to come by 10 in the morning because there was no many work today.....
This morning I read the book, beautiful verses on love... I in general very much like to read.
Maybe you know, the Russian poetess of Anna Akhmatova?! She wrote amazing verses on love!! I read her verses with pleasure.
As I already wrote you earlier, for me similar love movies, books, also romantic songs are pleasant... At once I have a desire to have the loved man close
In general I am very romantic... And it is pleasant to me if you are same...
of course, I very much already think of you Neil... And of course I already have some thoughts and plans.
now I am ready to finish seriously with my loneliness forever... And I begin to have warm feelings to you!!!
I do not even want to think that we will finish our communication. NO, NO, NO. I do not want to think of it.... We will not stop communicating? Tell me...
I would already like to take your hand... I can touch your face and give you a kiss.... I can see your movements. But it is dream, now only...
The Internet cannot give us such chance of touches... And it becomes sad.... :(
But my feelings only increase to you... Because our dialogue develops further and further. I want to call you sweet kind words... But I do not know what will be your reaction.
I hope you have the same feelings to me, as I to you... At us it is mutual??
I took to you the picture which promised. And I used free time to make a photo.
The photo of bad quality because it is shot with phone. But you have to see that it especially for you. It was my surprise, for you. :) It is pleasant to you?!
I to spend yesterday evening together with friends. We went to play bowling. You play bowling? I can teach you. I even beat out Strike... Sometimes. :)
I seized the moment and told girlfriends about you. My news was apprehended very well. And all were glad for me.
From all my company of friends, only I lonely have also no man... Therefore such news, caused in all pleasure...
You told Neil to somebody, about me? What was reaction? Tell.... it is very interesting to me...
Tomorrow I took day off at work. and I am going to go to the father to the country. Time came to tell my father to it about our communication. We wait for reaction of my father. :)
I absolutely forgot to ask, you not against if I call to you DARLING?
strong embraces and kisses

Anastasiya.

Letter 9

Hello dear Neil.
I knew that I will surely receive your letter today. I very much waited, your answer... How today weather in Edinburgh? Warmly?
Yesterday I called to you..... But unfortunately we could not talk because you did not take the call of phone and I left for you a voice message....
I like music and also a lyrics which you wrote in the letter..... I understand that you have 1000 songs... It is very big collection.
In the last letter I also asked you about the favourite movie.... But you did not tell about it.... You will tell now?
I understand that I your friend and the colleague of Miki could find love in Ireland.... I think that this one more example of the fact that our relations are doomed to success....
Already several days my head is stuffed only by thoughts of you, Neil...
It is so pleasant to think of you, to dream about volume day when I see you... I notice from you, mutual interest in me. It pleases me very much!
There passes day, night, and thoughts of you become stronger... I want to develop our feelings even stronger. I do not want to stop.
I do not think that letters, it is a limit of our communication... I think about more also. And it is very disturbing and pleasant for me!
I hope that you will never break my feelings.... I am afraid to have suffering again... but I have a trust of Neil to you...
You will not allow me to suffer and feel lonely?
Today I at last, visited my father... His name Anatoliy. we did not see each other so long ago, because of my employment at work.
The father seldom comes to the city. he does not like city bustle. He loves silence, murmur of the forest and forest fresh air.
And only when you are in the village, you begin to understand how it is exciting to be in a distance from city life...
MMMMMMMMMMM I thought how it would be healthy if we had together a rest outdoors... romanticism, kisses, embraces... :)
Neil, I also told the father about our communication. I wanted to observe what my father will have reaction...
I could not even think that he will be so glad, to hear my news... The father told that for a long time it is time for me to have serious relations with the man.
And ours with you the distance, should not stop and frighten us. The distance has to strengthen our feelings only!
My father, also told that - "if destiny to send you the man, then you will surely meet by Anastasiya this man!!!" I agree with my father...
I believe that I will surely find the beloved with whom I will live very happily!!! I hope that I already met this person......
Neil, is possible our acquaintance not accident..... and we were fated to find and meet each other? :)
I very much like dialogue with you, in your letters, there is something native and close for me.... I hope that I am also interesting to you!
I even together with the father went today to church in the village. I put for you a candle! And I had a prayer in church, for ours with you the relations, for our future!!
I know that god will help us with everything!
In this letter I send foto together with my mother... This photo were made not for long to my death mother....... I hope that you will estimate importance of this photo.
My father does not like to do a photo at all..... He has no a photo independently..... Therefore I could not send a photo together with my father....
I also send a photo which made today when to go to church.....
I also found Neil in the village mine the old diary. And I found the poem which composed itself, many years ago in him.
can be already then, this poem was for you Neil? I believe in destiny... YOU TRUST?
I with pleasure will wait for your letter. for me it is so important to find out, your opinion on my letter!
Embraces and Kisses...
Your Anastasiya.

ps. my poem:

You stand at a threshold again,
Uneasily you are silent and you long
As it is cruel and as it is lonely
You in silence the speak!
You are not able to tell that you forgive,
Pride in your heart fights,
But the roving glance promises,
That we will be together soon.
Turns parting pain
In pain of hope, my dreams.
I admit, it was not right. I recognize. I recognize.
But you are silent, again you are silent!
You not in forces to renounce - sob,
Because is weaker than separations,
You suffer, I see, suffer,
From the torments which are thought up by jealousy.
My executioner, my savior, my demon,
I incline before you,
I am not free any more, I am a captive,
Only I ask, be gentle with me.

Letter 10

Hello my dear Neil......
Thanks for music which you sent for me in the letter.... I like it.... You are right that music always to tell for yourself...
How your mother Jean? I remember that you visit her each weekend... I hope that today you also to visit her?
Ufffff.... You do not even represent what today I to have day..... In the morning I to go to work and thought that when I arrive there, I will read at once your letter....
But all to go absolutely not so... On the road for work I saw a small-little puppy.... He was absolutely alone, is near expensive....
Likely to this puppy only several weeks... When I saw him, it to go on the carriageway... Likely some more meters and he to appear under wheels the car......
When I saw it, my heart just stood..... I took to the heels to rescue this a puppy.... I managed to take him in hand and to remove with the carriageway....
I decided to carry this puppy in an animals shelter which is near my house. Thus, I had to return back towards my house.....
I to give this puppy to an animals shelter and then to go back to work..... But because of it I to be late there and there to be boss....
This is very angry woman...... She to give many shout.... She did not even want to listen why I to be late.
After that I some time could not become quiet..... It is not pleasant to me when to shout at me....
But thoughts of you helped to forget for me about boss... And now I to have only positive emotions!
Thank you that you wrote about your favourite movies.... I also saw some of them and it is interesting movies.... My favourite movie is Ghost....
You watched it? It was pleasant to you? It is very touching movie.... I to cry when to watch it...
It is already necessary for me, to receive your letters every day... Your letters, became important part of my life!
I can communicate with you about everything... and I am sure that you will always understand and will support me... To me Neil is good with you.
I have long ago no desire to communicate with other men... I already have you. and I will not stop communicating for anything with you...
Only if you, want to stop our communication... Neil, it is necessary to ask me you a question. Only answer sincerely!
You communicate with other girls? I am the only girl to whom you write letters?
It is important for me... I do not want that you suffered because of me... I am afraid of it.... If you already have a woman, then I will not understand such act...
At night before going to bed, I think of you... About us... I represent that, we together..... also I represent, your gentle kiss...
And I will not need to wait for your letter because you already with me...
And photos.... Eventually they will not be necessary - we would be together.....
Neil, you very much are pleasant to me. And I very much want that at us everything was serious... Not only on the Internet, letters and photos.
Now we are divided by long distance, but it cannot be a problem, for the serious relations...
Everything that I test to you, happens to me for the first time. Never, I was such happy yet... I feel, the happy little little girl.
Ourselves have to go towards the aim... And only the efforts, we will be able to achieve it....
And the main thing, I will be able to touch you, to hear your loud laughter and just to feel your proximity.
I very much think of this opportunity... Last month I had to take vacation, but I refused...
And now I will speak with boss... I want to take vacation that we had an opportunity to meet.
I hope to receive holiday in 2,3 or 4 weeks... I have to specify, everything depends on the solution of boss.
Now for me communication by letters is not enough. I want something more, than just the letter and a photo.
Now I seriously think of our meeting.... But of course it is important for me that you think of it Neil? There can be you in general, do not want our meeting? :((
Neil, I will finish the letter... but I wait impatiently, your answer... write to me rather, I very much wait.
I kiss you and very much I embrace.... I hope, my intentions do not frighten you.

Embraces and Kisses.
Anastasiya.

Letter 11

Hello my dear Neil.
As your mood, darling!?
At me thanks to your letter, everything is simply excellent... the only thought of you and day becomes fine.
I understand that you wanted to know about how I made an audio recording for you.... For this purpose I used the old laptop....
Thanks for a photo which you sent together with your mother in the letter.... I also saw a photo of the house and a car....
I am glad that you can spend good time together with your mother, visit also a grave of your father.....
Neil, me it is very pleasant to know that you have no communication with other women. I trust you. And I know that the trust is very important in our relations.
Of course, I also not to write other men..... You are the first and only man for which I to write the letter....
I am pleasant to listen various music, such as pop, classic, rock and sometimes also electronic music. I to do it depending on my mood.
Thank you that you wrote about your favourite movie.... I did not see it earlier, but I heard much... I hope that I will also be able to see it once....
This morning, before writing you the letter I listened to radio..... And there I heard the song Lee Hazlewood - Heaven Is My Woman's Love.....
At first I could not understand why this song to seem for me to the acquaintance..... But then I remembered that it is your favourite song....
I at once to think of you..... I to be filled with heat when to have thoughts of you....
Neil, I think of you very much.... You madly are pleasant to me... I want to tell you very much, but to express everything in the letter, it will not turn out.
So there is a wish to see you at last... No, not in the photo.... I want to see you Neil in reality.....
For me it is so important to understand your plans of rather future life - to be lonely as now, or to have constant love and support in me?
I want to feel support and love in you!!! I think that our meeting will be very important for us....
It is a simple step for me,
And I hope that it is a simple step for you also....
Now I am not afraid of you any more. I had some fears and doubts... You know about it, I spoke to you before.....
But now I am quiet and sure of you...
There is nobody better you.... Was not and not to find.... We were connected by heart, one love story... We created with you this paradise where there will be only we...
I tried to learn about my holiday yesterday... But boss was occupied and therefore I could not have this conversation. I hope that tomorrow I will be able to talk about it.
In general I have to have a holiday lasting 4 weeks!!! And we can be together all these days and weeks....
But of course, I want that you planned it together with me.... It is a pity, but later I will have no holiday at work... I not in forces to change, the vacation schedule...
You are happy, to reflect on our meeting? About our romantic evenings? By the way, wash the Birthday on May 29. You did not forget? :)
I want to carry out it with you. You would like it?? You like to celebrate the Birthday? New Year, Christmas? I very much like to have fun....
Last night I to take a shower before going to bed..... After that I decided to tell for mine a cat of Musya, about what to get acquainted with you.... My cat still did not know about it :)
And then I decided to make video of it and to send you in the letter..... You see that my cat of Musya to be jealous me :)
I very much want to see you Neil.... To speak with you.... To touch you.... Now we have such opportunity. and we have to use it.
And I do not want to miss this opportunity!!! This meeting, will solve our general future..... I do not want to be lonely further.
I have a confidence in you... And I want that you were a person who will give me happiness and CONFIDENCE!!!
I already - the adult woman, and I want to lead the life having darling is close to me... To give for you love and tenderness. I will use the best efforts for our meeting....
It is very serious step to lives... and I made the choice.... I want to try to be with you..... Now this only thing which I want!!!
Neil, I think, you understand me... It is important for me that you think of it.... Answer me, please.....
Very much I wait for your answer today...
Anastasiya.

Letter 12

my dear Neil.

today my day began with the fact that I again to look at your photos and to think of you Neil...
I understand that you have some rash on your face.... How you feel now? I hope that it to leave...
How today your working day? I hope that you not to be tired there much also have time for rest....
Thanks for good music which you sent for me in the letter.... I liked it very much.... Unfortunately I do not know about Werner Herzog....
I also liked photos which you sent in the letter.... It were amusing photos and to give for me a smile :)
You do not represent how I am very glad that we could speak by phone! My darling, I feel very happy.... To give your voice to me it is a lot of joyful emotions!
Yes, you are right that my birthday on June 15.... But even before May 29 there will be my name day... It is also big holiday...
And we in Russia to call it the second birthday in a year.... You have a similar holiday in UK? Tell me about it....
Thank you that you gave for me the website where I can see news.... I it is rare to watch news not to receive sad news....
I with big nervousness, expected your letter today. thought very much what you will write to me? What will be your reaction, on our meeting?
I hope that I will not wait more for my dreams to touch you, to embrace, kiss..... I would like that all this there was a reality.
Eventually, so there is a wish to feel man's care already.... I think of your gentle whisper in my ear.... Your the first I will kiss, on my neck...
All our situation, does me very disturbing... Now I will count up days, to our first kiss...
And today I have news, about my holiday... I have to begin holiday, after June 6... it is my one and only holiday, this year...
And does not disturb me at all if you have no holiday... Neil, it is not terrible... I do not ask to spend with me 24 hours a day!
To me will enough spend with you evening, night... MMMMMMMMMM night, it will be a fantasy....... :)
Neil, I am an excellent cook... and once you try my kitchen, you will refuse all restaurants at once... I promise you. :)
You sleep, but the breakfast already waits for you... you come from work and I make for you a tasty lunch... and in the evening, we are waited by romantic evening.... In total for you native....
Neil, you became very important for me, I very much got used to you... But I also have experiences...
I was today on a visit at the girlfriend. We together work.... And we spoke, about our possible meeting with you....
She spoke with the husband... He works in Police.... He speaks, such trip is dangerous to me....
He told about frequent cases when women go abroad, and they do not come back home.... They disappear there, and nobody can contact them.....
They disappear completely.... He told that I have to be careful.... I was very much frightened by these words...
I heard about similar stories earlier.... I many times, observed such cases on TV.... Girls from Russia disappear in other countries and become slaves....
My girlfriend told it because she worries for me, she is afraid that I can be also lost in other country......
Neil, I do not want to offend you by these words. On the contrary!!! I trust you Neil completely.... Therefore I am ready for this meeting!!!
I do not think that you are capable to ill effects.... But my girlfriend asked to leave your phone number.... Will be so quieter for her.
Neil, you are not angered? my dear, I trust you.... We have to trust each other....
I hope that you with understanding will treat my letter.... Your opinion, is very important for me..... I do not want to lose you....
I want that you were part of my life.... I am sure, we are waited by the happy future together...
Neil, I read that in Edinburgh there are several theaters.... I like to visit theater very much.... You remember it?
And it would be very pleasant to me if we could visit it together.... We already have date of mine vacation on June 6....
Perhaps you will be able to buy for us theater tickets for June 10-12? I think that when I come to you on June 6, I will be tired after the airport...
Therefore this day we will spend house time.... We will be able to eat, watch some romantic movie together.... And then we will go together to sleep...
Answer me rather with a Neil....
In this letter I send the photo which made last summer.... I like summer....
I also made some of our photos together today..... I hope that we will be together not only on a photo already soon, but also in real life...
You liked what I made with our photos?
Embraces and kisses, for you
Your Anastasiya.

Letter 13

My heart Neil....
thank you that made my day such fine... I live only minute when I am able to see your letter. this minute the most valuable in my life now.
Thanks for music which you sent in the letter.... It was pleasant for me....
But for me the voice message which you left for me also very much was pleasant.... It is valid to give good day for me now!
to see your letter huge happiness is for me. there is nothing better, than to wake up and read your beautiful letter.
It is a pity to me that I not to have opportunities to write you more often because I work hard and to be tired at work.....
Thank you that you showed on google maps the place, where do you live.... Now I see it :) But unfortunately I did not see how you to go on the street... Possibly I to have a poor eyesight? :) Joke....
My darling, I know and is sure that you are a decent man who will not do to me badly... I will speak once again with my friends completely to calm them in this plan.
I made a choice and made the decision... very serious and important decision, for our future.... I would like to see you, I want to arrive to you....
I want to spend with you completely a free time that you acquainted me with the friends and the family.... it is important for me also...
I want that you showed me local sights, and we will go together a hand in a hand, to walk in park.... I want to fall asleep with you and to wake up closely to you...
I would like to see, feel you... I hope that you see the future life with me... I want to be near you always...
It is so important for me.... I want to study in you all good... Because you are an extraordinary man.... you are not such as all others...
in you there is something surprising and attracting... to me Neil is so good with you... even despite distance more than 4000 km...
I am not frightened at all by our distance... Now the 21st century and distance cannot be a problem... we will be able easily to overcome it...
Neil, and I do not think at all that we hurry... at our age, "We hurry" to speak, it is not reasonable at all...
I do not want to be lonely, in 36,40,50 years... I do not want to live life alone. and I do not consider that we force events...
I watched now representations which will be in theater.... Perhaps we could go on Chicago The Musical (The Playhouse) on June 13? I would be glad to it....
You will be able to buy tickets now for us that we could have it in advance? I was glad to it...
I would be very happy if our meeting takes place... Our meeting is separated by only a few hours of flight... But I am ready for this step, for our general happiness...
Tomorrow I agreed to have the day off. Tomorrow I want to go to travel agency and to find out everything, for our meeting.... And then my holiday will begin, and we will be together!!!
I really want it.... whether you want this Neil??? I am sure that we met each other not by chance... it is destiny...
As my father "spoke if there is such man who is sent me by destiny, you I will surely meet this man!!!" I ALREADY MET THIS MAN! You are Neil!
And if we have a destiny to be together they are we will surely meet, and nothing will stop us! I want to hear your opinion of Neil....
Today with me by phone to speak my father..... And he told that he planned to call to you today....
Earlier he did military service and was a translator there. Therefore he can speak English a little...
It is an important call from my father. I ask that you did not pass it...
I also have questions to you. important questions, for our meeting...
1 - You already know, my holiday begins after June 6... duration is 4 weeks. I want to issue the visa for 4 weeks! You agree?!
2 - The name the airport where it is more convenient to you to meet me?!
3 - I will live with you or in hotel? It is important! Think well of it...
4 - Tomorrow I will go to travel agency, I think that you have to write me your address that I could explain to them where I want to arrive.
5 - What now weather at you? What clothes to take me? Warm, summer, spring?
I already dream to make to you a breakfast before work... And in the evening we will have a romantic dinner in candles.... I want to give happiness to you and your house....
It is impossible to transfer all my thoughts and desires in the letter now.....
I feel now, the happiest... I hope my photos, will make you happy also...
photos from a trip to Ukraine! they are more frank.... but I trust you... :)
embraces and kisses, for you darling.....

Anastasiya

Letter 14

Hello my heart Neil....
how today mood at my lovely Neil? I think that at you everything is excellent. soon we with you will be together....
Thanks for your voice message which you also sent for me.... I also as well as you to thank God for the fact that he to acquaint us!
I so regret, but I have no news from travel agency... :(
Unfortunately, today I was called for work, and I had no free time.... I am so engaged at work, because of my holiday now... uuufffff I was so tired...
I have always a lot of work, before holiday... preparation of documents and also correction of mistakes in the text for the newspaper takes a lot of time... and there is no force left and time at all... :(
but tomorrow I will surely go to travel agency to find out all information on paperwork... you are not upset my heart?
By the way, today boss issued the statement for my holiday... My application was considered and approved.... I am such happy... :)
As I already spoke to you, my holiday will begin after June 6 and there will be 4 weeks..... I think to us this time, will be enough....
I very much regret, but this only time to which I can arrive to you... I will not be able to have other time for holiday...
Of course, if you want, then I can leave home earlier. any problems... I will be able to understand your decision.
But I hope that our meeting will not disappoint you... You are confident in me?! You are confident in my photos and letters? The trust is very important!
I to you more than once, proved the sincerity... the photos and letters... I hope you will estimate my actions...
I tried to deserve your trust... you already have my trust... and I want also, to have your trust... I have it?
Neil, I promise you that at the airport you will not see the gray-haired grandmother of 80 years... :) Because there will be I. Your Anastasiya... and by the way, me only 36... :)
Neil, you well understand my humour? you have a good sense of humour? I like to laugh... The laughter gives good mood and to increase life.
I want to live long... for the life, I saw so a little... but first of all, I dream to see you in reality. to give you a kiss and strong embraces...
I have you, but you is far from me. And my desire to be with you, only becomes stronger...
This morning to me to call my father.... He told about your conversation which to pass yesterday.....
My father told for me that you are Neil, really serious man and he trusts you completely. My father wished for us good luck again!
ehhhhh, I hope that all questions of our meeting, will be solved as soon as possible... Darling... It is possible a question... Well???
On how many it is serious, you treat me? What your expectations, from our meeting? What do you test to me?
We write letters, and we think of the friend the friend constantly.... you always in my thoughts...
But I am afraid that you leave the Internet and forget about me... Though now I think that you constantly think of me :)
I am grateful that you answered all my questions which I wrote for you in the letter.... It was important for me....
Now I want to answer your question also... Unfortunately I have no WhatsApp..... My phone very simple and therefore I cannot establish whatsapp there. My phone is not android.
My phone is not Iphone.... My phone very simple.
I had still questions to you. also concern our meeting!
1 - How your family, friends, colleagues, belong to our meeting? very important question, for me!
2 - What best time for you to meet me at the airport? What to choose ticket time? Morning, Day, Evening, Night?
3 - I will not need additional things, for example bed linen, a towel, the hair dryer, the iron?
I like cotton bed linen.... You will also be able to buy for me house-shoes? It would be pleasant for me.....
4 - What thing, you want that I brought to you from Russia? Tell that you want, I will surely bring! Only not Vodka... :)
5 - You will be able to make a photo a bed where we will sleep when I come to you? I was glad to see it now...
I think at us everything will turn out and we will be able to plan our meeting soon....
If everything is as it should be, then tomorrow I will give you all information from travel agency...
I am very glad that you to buy tickets for us in day of mine the birth.... It will be very big gift for me!
I have the driver's license.... But I do not know whether I will be able to use it in UK? I ask that you to look at it and to tell me about it in the following letter...
I think that it would be convenient for us in the future if I am able to use my driver's license. You agree with me?
I send kisses and my care about you. Write to me soon
your Anastasiya

Letter 15

My honey Neil.....
Your letter, as always lightens me mood, the smile does not go from my face...
I hope your day began also perfectly as well as at me... You can have a rest after the unlucky working day yesterday? I hope for it.....
Thanks for funny of a photo of a dog which you sent in the letter.... I like and to give it for me also the smile...
Thanks for your care of that I could receive my visa.... It is very pleasant to me....
Today I after all to have the day off and I can go to travel agency to find out information concerning mine a trip to you.
Neil, we have only one chance in this life therefore we should not miss him... We have to use this chance, for our future life...
In general, I was ready to meet at once, but I had to be sure of you... Confident in your desires, emotions, plans for the future... I am sure of you for 100%.....
Now I want a meeting, most of all in life! I want to capture you... I want to have kisses in the morning, in the afternoon, in the evening, at night - is CONSTANT!!!!!!!!!
I want to feel all your attitude towards me in reality... I do not want to be more lonely...
I hope that you are ready to leave lonely life and lonely nights on a bed every day......
Neil, I have remarkable news to you...
I decided to go to travel agency today, and I went there... Anyway, I would have to go to travel agency because I work nearly an every day...
And I have a minimum of free time because of my expected holiday...
I was in travel agency several hours!! I long waited... It is horror!!! It is a lot of people who travel....
All my body is very strained for fatigue.... Neil, I would like to receive your massage, on my back and legs now.... MMMMMMMMMM :)
I could talk to personnel of travel agency and I obtained full information... I have good news...
In travel agency I was told that I have every chance to receive the visa to your country... Fine news!!!!!
I already have my international passport... I made out him, for a trip to Ukraine! It very much reduces time, for paperwork...
Therefore only 10 days are necessary to process other documents... as soon as documents are ready, I will be able to come to you at once....
The tourist agent told that it will cost about 32500 rubles. These are 345 pounds.... I was delighted because I expected to hear the sum more...
I had no money to pay this sum... But tomorrow I will find this money and I will pay all expenses in travel agency...
I already issued the contract, with travel agency today... good agency... I liked service service...
In this letter I send you the copy of the contract which I signed today... I want also that you to be glad to it!
Tomorrow I will go to travel agency again to write the application for receipt of a visa to your country.....
You are glad to my news? What do you feel? I am a good fellow what could resolve all issues? :)
I have a great mood today and I want that your mood was same fine.... therefore I send you the fotos from my work...
I also gave for you a gift which I will be to bring with myself..... I thought what exactly to bring for you from Russia...
I decided that it will be a symbol of Russia - a bear.... But I decided to take a beautiful teddy bear :)
And also last night I bought a frame to place your photo there..... Now your photo always near my bed.....
embraces and kisses for my man Neil.....

your Anastasiya

Letter 16

my love Neil...
today very bad day... my mood very bad... and Ted Dee and music to give only your letter of a photo with your friend to me support at this difficult moment.
I cannot please you with the letter... I know that I promised to bring always to you only joy... but I cannot keep the promise... forgive. :(
Today I have no mood.... no, not because of your letter Neil. because of problems which at me arose...
I had problems. Now I will explain everything to you:
Yesterday I was in travel agency.... you already know about it... I also rejoiced, all information which I found out. But not everything is so good!
Yesterday I concluded the contract, with travel agency... And today I paid 52 pounds, for registration of the insurance certificate...
I was at work today and took holiday money!! As always to me paid out only 30% of my wages! In Russia such laws... holiday money, only part of a salary!
And I could receive at work, 7140 rubles - 76 pounds... these are 30% of my salary. I wanted to ask other part of money for my father...
Unfortunately I did not do monetary accumulation... Now I am sorry about it... You appeared in my life so suddenly... :(
My father cannot help me too.... My father - the pensioner... and he spends all money for products, and medicines... Life in the village, heavy!
Therefore I begin to worry... Possibly I should cancel travel... Yes, I have 24 more pounds, but it is not enough... I will not be able to find 25300 more rubles - 269 pounds...
I also cannot cancel the holiday... I cannot take vacation even in the summer... Can take vacation, only the management in the summer! I have no such privileges!
Neil, I am not a magic fairy, I cannot make miracles.... My salary will not be enough to pay our meeting... I think, we have to cancel a meeting... I do not see other decision...
Of course, if you could solve this problem, then I will be able to go to travel agency and to ask the bank account.....
But to return you the spent money, I will be able only after holiday... when I receive other part of a salary... not earlier than Neil... only after holiday.
Excuse me Neil if you feel that you have to make more, than I can make... I apologize at you... I did not expect that everything will be so....
Of course, I understand that you, are possibly angry with me, but I really do not know as me still to find these means.... I very much am ashamed before you, to ask these means...
But my desire to be together with you, is one many stronger, than my pride.... I want that our relations proceeded...
I really hope that we have a chance.... To me nearly 37 years now... And time flies quickly... Life leaves quickly... I do not want to have other person already. I want to be with you!
Neil, I am ready seriously for our meeting........
I believe that we will be together...... I will hope to hear it.... I worry.... but I believe in our success... and you, trust?

Anastasiya.......

Letter 17

Hello my love Neil.....
I received your short letter..... Why you wrote for me so a little?
Earlier I explained to you completely why our meeting is important in your country. You remember it? You did not forget it? You showed consideration for each my letter?
My love Neil, our meeting has to be in your country... It should not be in other country or in my country. Why? I want to explain you it once again. I will be able to meet you only during my holiday....
My holiday will last 1 month. I will not be able to carry date of my holiday because the chief recorded it....
Therefore we have to use time of our meeting it is most useful for development of our relations! You agree with me?
I have to come to you that we could see development of our relations and I could also get used to life in your country!
During our meeting I will do the decision to remain with you forever or not. You understand it?
Our meeting has to be turning point for our relations! If our relations develop, then we will surely make the decision that I to remain with you forever!
But if our relations do not develop, then I will be forced to go back.... You understand it? I also have to see and feel life in UK, feel the atmosphere, people, to see tenor of life.
Of course, I can read once again about it on the Internet. But the full picture will not give it to me...... And you perfectly understand it!
My love Neil, I ask that you understood that our meeting is important in your country.... Only the meeting in your country will bring for us a benefit maximum for development of our relations.
My darling, I hope that now you understood it and we will be able to discuss with you preparation of a meeting. My holiday begins already soon. I hope that we will not lose precious days.
Now it is really very heavy to me to find money for travel to you. If I had such opportunity, then I would never begin to ask for your help.
Really it was a shame to me to ask your help..... My love Neil when I wrote you the letter that I have to pay 269 pounds and I have no this money, it was very a shame to me...
Of course I am an adult woman and I have work. I to have normal work. But unfortunately now not to give me holiday money completely. And therefore I could not pay travel preparation completely.
My love Neil, you know that I here to live alone, I to have only my father..... My father the pensioner and to receive is insignificant small pension. I cannot even come to my father with a request to help me.
I have my friends. But all my friends already to have the family. And you know that the family demands expenses... My friends to have children who need to pay study.
And therefore my friends do not know where to find more money to give to the children good life. Therefore my friends could not help me in any way...
Before asking for your help I at once went to my friends and said with them about that they to help me. I spoke with them that they to lend this money....
I to explain to them that I will give them it a little later. But unfortunately they really could not help me in any way.
My boss was my last hope. I to come to boss with a request that she to lend me money for a trip to you.
She also cannot help me because now has the credit on purchase of the new car. And therefore she has no spare cash now to help me.
My love Neil, you see that before asking for your help, I at first tried to find this money here, at me in Russia..... And if I to have an opportunity to find this money, then I would never begin to ask for your help.
It is really a shame to me to do it.... But I have no other decision in this situation. My love, I do not know how now you to arrive.
You can refuse to help me and it will be your right. But it will mean that our meeting will not be and I will remain absolutely alone here.....
I have to you big feelings and very much I want to come to you, to be with you together and to give you warmly which to be in mine smothering also heart!!!
My love, I hope that you will not throw me and will be able to help me from 269 pounds that I could pay my documents and come to you. Except you I have nobody to ask for the help....
I learned about for fear of interception now. But there is no it.... Nobody to intercept your money.... There are reliable ways for transfer....
Or you just do not want to make it? I think that you have to tell about everything honestly.... You will tell honestly?
Your love Anastasiya....

Letter 18

Hello my love Neil......
Neil, my love, really you think that I can steal your money? I am not a little girl to play with you. I am 36 years old and I very much value my life.... You know as theft in Russia is punished?
People who steal money here - go to prison. You think that I want to go to prison?? You think that I have nothing to make more as though to go on the Internet and to deceive men?
I look for my happiness.... I want to find the correct man for me. Now when I met you, then I think you that man whom I want for my life. I am not going to deceive you....
My love Neil, I send for you a photo with my Russian passport as the proof of my honesty.... It is the serious document in Russia. It is possible to learn a lot of things about me if you have this document.
But I trust for you and I am not afraid to show it. I love you and I hope that we will be able to organize our meeting soon....
I will wait for your letter....

Your love Anastasiya.......

Letter 19

Hello my love Neil.....
I received your letter this morning.... When I read it, I began to move to travel agency to talk to them about how you will be able to help....
There for me explained that now my documents are not prepared yet. I to have the contract about travel agency.
According to this contract I have to pay preparation of documents and tickets in travel agency.
It is the law of the government of Russia that payment was done by that person who goes out of borders of the country to have control of a flow of citizens which to leave the country.
I hope that you understand that it is the law. And therefore we have to make quite so.
My love Neil, I do not understand why you doubt me? Earlier you said that you have trust to me 100%....
Then why you spoke that I to prepare my travel? You agreed I came to you....
I spent money on preparation the insurance certificate... I signed the contract about travel agency.... Eventually I to spend on it it is a lot of time and nerves....
And now you say that you do not want to take part in helping for me? I do not need to lay down conditions which you made....
You have to help frankly for us..... It is our meeting! It is not a meeting only for me!
Because of 269 pounds you suited all this circus? I think that it has to be a shame to you with similar behavior.... You are a man.
Therefore you have to behave as the man.....
You will not stand at the airport one.... I will come to you... I pledge you the word! And I will be to constrain it....

Your love Anastasiya...