Letter(s) to Stephen (USA)

Letter 1

Hello again my new friend Steve! It is me from other part of the world. I am very glad to have the reply from you. I wrote to your profile on the dating site but I did not think that it would work. But now I have the letter from you and I am really glad about it. First of all I would like to tell you a little about me. So you will know whom you are speaking with. You know that my name is Neonila and I live in Russia. I live in the small town called Artemovskiy. This city is situated not far from Yekaterinburg. Maybe you have heard about it. It is near Ural mountains. I was born on the 20th of May on 1975 and I am 28 years old. I am 5'6" and 125 pounds. I have brown hair and brown eyes. I am not married and do not have children. I work in the Boarding school for orphans. I have a lot of different hobbies such as sports, outdoor activities, camping, dancing and many others. I am very sincere and romantic person. I like all romantic things: candles, flowers, nights, moon, and romantic dinners. I think you want to know why I contacted your ad. I want to find my love, my soul mate and second half in this big world. I am one man woman and I want to find the one person whom I will be able to give all my life, love and care and who will be share with me all happy and sad moments of the life. I am new in Internet and I do not know if it will work. I hope it will. I also want to sorry for my mistakes in English. I have skills in it because I studied it in the university. But you know that it is not my first language. I think I should let you go now. I am sending you the picture of me in this letter so you can see how I look like. Hope you will like it. I understand that it is difficult to write everything about me in one letter. I hope we will be able to know more about each other in our next letters if you would like to continue writing. So I am looking forward to hearing from you. Take care and have a good day! Your new friend Neonila.

Letter 2

Hello Steve!!! How are you? It is me again. I am glad to have the letter from you. I hope you are not bored with me. As for me I find our correspondence rather interesting. I think you want to know more about me so I will go on describing myself. You know I live in Russia in the town Artemovskiy. I have been living in Russia for all my life and have never been in other countries. The town where I live is rather small but it is very beautiful. We have very wonderful nature here. There are a lot of beautiful lakes and rivers here. There is big city Yekaterinburg not far from my town. Maybe you have heard about it. I was born in this city. I studied there and graduated the university with the diploma of social worker. Now I work in this city in the boarding school for orphans and bring up children of orphans. I have written about it. This job is not paid very well but I do not care. I like my job because I love children very much. I want to give everything for their future happiness. But it is enough about my job. I have a cat. I will write you more about my interests. I am rather active person and I like outdoor activities. I like camping very much and I try to spend my free time with my friends on the nature. I also like sports. I am involved in fitness. I try to go to sport hall 3 times a week. And try to be fit. I like other sports too, especially sport games. During the wintertime I like skiing and skating. We have a lot of snow here and I can ski very often. If I do not have opportunity for active spending time I like to read classical novels of Russian literature. My favorite novel is "War and peace" written by Tolstoy. I like listening to music very much. Most of all I like slow compositions and ballads. They help me to relax. But I can listen to different music. Sometimes I just like to listen silence. As for my dislikes I even do not know what they are. I do no like lie and dishonesty. I do not like to play with the feelings of other people and do not like when somebody plays with my feelings. I have written that I am romantic person. I believe in destiny and in the love at first site. Maybe it is unusual, but it is me, such as I am. I suppose you can ask why I am searching for someone in the Internet. I exactly do not know why. My past relationships were not good. I met one man here. He was very nice and kind. I failed in love with him. Everything was good but then he became to drink a lot and I was on the second place for him. I suffered some time from his attitude but one day he hit me and I was not able to stay with him more. So I left him. He make me feel pain and I was in depression for some time but now I am beginning my new life and I have decided to try to find the right person who will be able to love me and care about me in the global net. I do not know if I will be able to do it. Only time can show it. Maybe it is a little strange that I write you such things and do not know you rather well yet. But I want to be honest and open with you. Hope you will appreciate it and will be honest with me too. So you know some more about my life and me. I do not know what exactly you think about me, but you always can tell me about it. I also would like to know more about you, your life, your likes and dislikes. You can always write me about it if you want. All right I need to go now. I am writing you from the Internet cafe in Yekaterinburg. I do not have computer with phone at home because I do not have opportunity for it and there is no Internet cafes in my town. So I have to use services of Internet cafe in Yekaterinburg. It is not very far from the place where I work. But it takes some time to get home from here. I have to take the bus to get home. I do not have car, you know. I will go now, ok. I will think about you and I will be waiting for your letters with big impatience. Sincere your Neonila.

Letter 3

Hello Steve!!! At last I get to the Internet cafe and can write you. How are you these days? Hope everything is fine. As for me I am rather good. It is really excited that I met you. I do not know you very well but I really find our connection very interesting and delightful. I do not know what exactly made me contact your ad. Perhaps it was some kind of intuition. I am really glad that I wrote you and I hope this intuition will not lie to me. I think you want to know more things about my life here. You know that I have been living here for all my life. I spend all my childhood in Yekaterinburg city. I do not like to remember that time. I explain you why. I am the orphan and I do not have family. I even do not know my mother and father. I was brought up in the boarding school for children orphans. You know that it is not happy to live without parents. I wanted to find my parents when I brought up but then I forgot about this idea. That's why I decided to work in the boarding school and give all my love and care to children who do not have love from parents. Now I live with two my girlfriends. We rent the room together. Their names are Yuliya and Mariya. We know each other from the childhood. We were together in the boarding school and they like my sisters now. They work on the textile plant. We spend a lot of time together. I think any person can have only few real friends. I have such friends and I know that I always can hope on their help and support. I also have some friends from my work but we do not spend a lot of time together. I think it is because everybody has her or his own life. But sometimes we gather together and go for picnics or cinema. Most of all I like to watch comedies and romantic films. What else I can tell you about me? I believe in God. I am Christian but I think that the main faith is in the heart and not just in going to the church. There are a lot of people who go to the church just for view or fashion. I am against such faith. You know that I like romantic things. I like flowers. I like all flowers but most of all I like roses. It is the flowers of love. My favorite color is blue. I had one dream in childhood. I wanted to sea Blue Ocean. I have never seen ocean. Hope I will be able to see it one day. Now I have more serious dreams. You know that I want to have my own family, my own micro world. I live with my girlfriends now but I want to have close person who will understand me in everything. I want to share all moments of the life with him. I want to have beloved man who will love me and will care about me. I dream about having a family and to have close friends, to gather together and to spend vacations, to have picnics, to go out together. It is dreams again. I hope that they will come true one day. I think I should let you go now. I have written you a lot of information about me in my letters. I spend a lot of time writing letters because I type very slowly. Hope my typing skills will be better in some time. If you want to know anything you can always ask me about it, ok. Maybe it is strange but I thought about you. You know that I am very interested in you and our connection. Hope everything will be fine with it. Well, I need to close here. Sorry I do not have opportunity to send you the photo with this letter but I will send you one next time, ok. I need to go but I will think about you. I already think about you a lot. I am looking forward to hearing from you. Your friend Neonila.

Letter 4

Hello dear Steve!!! I am very happy to read your words. You know that I wait for your letters with so big impatience. My life here is so usual. I wake up and go to work. I like my work and children are the only good I have here and I give them all my energy. I work since 8:00 till 17:00 five days per week but sometimes I work more hours. Then I go to sport hall to work out and home and just have a rest till next morning. And so is every day. Only on weekends I have some free time to relax. Sometimes I feel that I am alone and I want to have real close for me person. I do not know what I would do without Mariya and Yuliya. It is my girlfriends I have written you about them. Also my cat helps me to forget about loneliness. I do not remember if I wrote to you that we have a cat. Her name is Murka. She is very kind and clever. But now I have met you and you like a new breathe in my life. I begin to miss you when I cannot read you letters. I usually go to the cafe after my work and your letters full me with new energy. And then I go home. You know that I do not have car and I get home from other city by bus. It takes an hour to get to my hometown but thoughts about you help me to pass away the time. By the way I have told my girlfriends about our correspondence. They are a little skeptical about all of this. They told me that there are so many lies in the Internet and you cannot believe anybody but I hope we will change their mind, will we? Oh, I have remembered that I need to cook supper. My girlfriends will come home rather late today and I need to feed them. I do not remember if I have written to you that I like cooking. My friends like my cooking. I like to cook something delicious and then invite my friends to taste. I think you would like my cooking too. Maybe you will be able to taste it one day. Everything can happen in this world. Am I right? I am really glad that we have met each other. And I am not afraid of anything. Time will show to us everything we want to know I think. Am I right? I have the feelings that we will have a lot of wonderful moments in the future. Sorry dear, I need to go now. I need to get to home as quickly as possible to cook the supper. I will try to write you more next time, ok. As always I will wait for your letters with very big impatience and will think about you. Your letters are becoming very important for me. Have a good day. Your friend Neonila.

P.s. By the way I am sending you the photo of me with my cat I wrote you about. There are her kittens on the photo. We with girlfriends gave them to our friends a couple of months ago. They are very nice, aren't they?

Letter 5

Hello my dear Steve!!! I begin to think about you almost all the time and every time I go to the Internet cafe is like a date with you. You know that you have become important part of my life and I wait for every moment when I can write to you. Everything is rather good here. My girlfriends ask to say great hello to you. As for me I am a little tired on my work today. One boy in my group caught cold and had high temperature. I went to the medicine cabinet for the drugs from flu but there were nothing. It is like a rule in our country when government does not give enough money for the social sphere, health and medicine of its organizations. I had to go to drugstore to buy some medicine for his recovering. The medicine is very expensive here but I do not care and I bought all medicine he needs for the recovering. I do not have good feelings and thoughts about my country in such moments. Food, medicine, everything costs rather expensive but sometimes people do not get their salaries for several months and government do not pay attention on it. I hope you will not think that I am complaining to you. I just want to share with you everything. After all this day I was so tired. You know that I give to work all my energy and it takes a lot of time. But I want to do it and I like my job you know. But I am better now because I can talk to you and share with you with the part of me. I would like you to be near me so you would be able to help me to relax much more. But it is just a dream. But perhaps it will be happened one day. But it is enough about me. How are you? Do you have anything interesting to write? You can always write me anything you want. You know that I want to know everything about you. But I am sure that you will write me anything you think I should know. Steve, I am really happy that I met you. I have only warm thoughts about you. I hope you do not mind me thinking about you. I want to thank the God that he gave me the opportunity to find you in this big world. I hope the God will help us on our way. I need to close here and go home. Sorry dear but I do not have opportunity to write you a lot. I can't write you long letters because the services of the internet-cafe are very expensive, but it does not have matter. I will always find the way to write you because you are becoming important for me. I will miss you and will wait for your wonderful words. You know that you mean a lot to me. Take care dear! Remember I think about you. Forever yours Neonila.

Letter 6

Hello dear Steve!!! How are you? As for me I am rather fine. I did not do anything special these days. Snow covers all the ground here and the temperature of the air is even bellow zero sometimes. The weather is cold and there is no mood to do anything. Only your letters warm me inside. You know that I am very happy to read your words. I begin to miss you when I cannot do it. You know that you have become important part of my life. I think about you so often and even sometimes I cannot think about anything else. I wait for every moment when I can talk to you. I understand that there is half of the world between us and I feel a little bit sad about it. But I suppose that any barrier can be broken and everything can happen in this world. I am sure that everything must be all right between us. I have the feeling that I know you for a long time already and my feelings become stronger with every day. I am really afraid to lose you and I hope that it will never happen. It does not have matter how much it costs to use internet services. I always find the way to write you. Mariya and Yuliya are fine too. They had the day off from work today and they went to the cinema. I would like to go with them but I had to go to work. But I am happy that after my work I can go to the Internet cafe where I can write you and I am much happier to spend my time with you even it is not reality and just Internet. You know that I dream a lot about you. I dream that you are near me and I can feel your warm and care. I would like to share every happy and sad moment with you and that you always would be able to help me. I hope that my dreams will come true one day. I really want that we would be together. I want to touch you, to hold you, to enjoy the time we spend together, to watch movies, to cook together, to listen to music, to go to the nature, to go for a walk and to do a lot of other things that man and woman can do! But I think I will better stop here, because I don't want you to think that I am weird. I am really crazy about you and I am so excited that I have met you. There is no minute when I don't think about you. I will come to home today and I will feel alone again. I think that it would be great if you were near me. You would be able to make me forget about this loneliness. As for your questions I have 30 children in my group. I like all artworks. All right, I will better stop here. I am sending you the photo which was taken near the lake last summer. I will go but I will wait for your letters. I will miss you and will wait for the moment when I will be able to read your words again.
Yours Neonila.

Letter 7

Hello my dear Steve!!! Again I am here in the Internet cafe. I like your picture. You know, it is the best moment of my day when I can read your words and write to you. And I am very sad when I cannot do it because of some reasons. When I wrote you for the first time I did not know that it will work and that I will have such feelings to you. But now I know that you are the man whom I want to have near me. In spite of the fact that I have not met you in real life and I have only your letters I can say that I want to share my life with you. I want to be always with you, to feel your warmth and care. Maybe it seems strange for you to hear such words from me. But I have the feeling that we know each other for ages. I have never had such feelings to nobody. Hope you are not scared with all these words and you understand me. I hope that you can feel it too. I know that my feelings are real. You know that I do not like to play with the feelings of other people and do not like when somebody plays with mine. I hope you will never do it. I always want to be honest with you and hope you will be honest too because I think that honesty have very big meaning between to people. Without love, honesty, respect and understanding there cannot be relationships between woman and man. I wanted to find the man with whom I would be able to share all these. Now I hope that I have already found such man. By the way I saw you in my dream yesterday night and I woke up with the smile on my face. I will tell you about it, ok. We have weekend after busy week. We have decided to go for picnic. We have invited all our friends with their families. We make kebabs or barbecue. We have a lot of fun together and tell a lot of interesting stories. In the evening we have remained alone and all time is ours. Night, moon's light shines our faces. We have romantic dinner with candles. We are alone and nobody can prevent us. Then we turn on the music and begin to dance slowly. I look into your eyes full of emotions and you look into mine. We enjoy every second and try to catch eye of each other. I see your lips, so soft and I want to kiss them. We love each other and the minute is an eternity. Tomorrow one more week will begin and it will be even better… I woke up with good mood in the morning and went to the work. I hope you are not bored with it. I hope it will come true one day. You know that I have nothing special here. I have my friends and children on my work. But now I have you and I am happy that the God helped us to meet each other. I will go now but I am waiting impatiently for your reply. Hot kisses and hugs for you. Your Neonila.

Letter 8

Hello, honey Steve!!! How are you today? As for me I am fine but I miss you every second when I cannot talk to you. Your letters make me feel happy and full my life now. I cannot imagine my life without your letters now. The weather is getting warmer here and it is sunny. But thoughts about you warm me much more than the sun. I am a little bit sad because you are far away from me and there are so many problems here. You know that I have some problems that upset me very much. I have already written that the Internet cafe services are rather expensive. It is rather difficult for me to write long letters. I still haven't got my salary and I almost don't have money. This fact upsets me very much. I hate this situation. Money is nothing. But at the same time we cannot live without it. I hope you will not think that I am complaining to you. I just want to share everything to you and have your support. May I? And you should not worry. I will always find the way to write warm words to you, because I want it and because you are very important to me. And it does not have matter how much it costs to use Internet cafe services. You know that the only thing that has matter is that I can write you and read the words you wrote me. It is the main thing for me now. And I will do everything I can for it. I have already written that sometimes I feel alone here and there is nobody who can understand me. But now I have the man who understands me most of all on the Earth I think. This man is you. Am I right? I am really happy that I have met you and you have become the part of my life, the best part. I will go to church and will pray for you and for us and I will thank the God that I have you in my life. Also I want to thank you for being in my life. I really need to go now, dear. You know that I miss you and will wait for your letters. Your one and only Neonila.

Letter 9

My darling Steve!!! You know that I miss you always when I cannot read your letters. My life was so usual before. You know I looked for the one man who would make me feel happy every second of my life. Now I have found such man. Now I have very close person who always can understand me and make me feel happy. He is you. I even do not know what I will do without you. By the way there is Mariya near me in the Internet cafe. You know she is my girlfriend I wrote you about. She would like to tell you some words if you do not mind. I will try to translate it to English.

"Hello Steve!!! I am Mariya, Neonila's girlfriend. I am honored to know you. I see how Neonila likes you. These past days she looks so happy. I am really glad that there is man in this world who can make her feel happy even if he lives so far away. I hope you will never make her feel pain. She is like the flower that need care and love. I am really happy for you and Mariya and wish you only happiness. All right I will let Neonila to talk to you and leave you together. Good bye"

It is me, Neonila, again. Sorry dear if something wrong. Mariya really wanted to talk to you. Hope you do not feel uncomfortable. If seriously I feel a little uncomfortable. She has gone from the cafe already. She went to work for evening. I watched one film yesterday. I do not know exactly how it is called in English. Perhaps "Sleepless in Seattle". It is about one man who said the story about his life on the radio. One woman had heard this story and she is failed in love with this man even she did not see him and did not know him well. She went to meet him and when she met him she understood that he was the one whom she looked for. I believe that you my second half and the destiny has helped us to meet. I think it is our chance to be happy until the end of times and we cannot miss it. I understand that we do not know each other for a long time and we have not met yet, but I have the feeling that I know you all my life and I have already written about it. I think you have this feeling too. I know what I feel inside and what my heart tells me. You know that it is the first time when I met somebody through the Internet. I would never believe that I can have such feelings to the man I have never met in the real life. But now I know that everything can happen. I have experienced it. I met you and everything changed in my life. I am happy now and I do not need anything else. You are the closest person for me now. I trust you dear and I know that you will never make me feel pain. I know that you trust me. I did not give you any reasons for not trusting me. I hope you will always trust me and care about me. I have only serious intentions about you. Just write me that you trust me and that you do not think that I am weird. You know that I am very sensitive and sensual person. You mean everything to me now. You are my life now. I think that you even can feel it on such big distance from me. I cannot imagine my life without you. I know that my life will be empty without you and I do not want to lose you. Please be sincere with me and write that you trust me and that you will never hurt me. I will let you go now but I will wait for your letters. I will think about you and you will feel my thoughts. You are in my heart. Forever your Neonila.

Letter 10

Hello my one and only Steve!!! I am so excited to hear from you. You know last weeks of my life since the moment when we begin to write each other is like new life for me. I really begin to live and not just exist. You have become the dearest for me person. You know that there is no minute when I do not think about you. All I need now is you. You know that it is very hard to be apart from the beloved person. It is very hard for me to be apart from you. I cannot keep my feelings inside me anymore. I know now what I feel and I am happy that I can love again. Yes I love you dear and I do not afraid to say it. I hope that you will not be scared with my words. I do not care that we have not met each other in the real life. I am like the woman in the film I wrote you about. I just know that you are the best what I had, have and will have in this life. The thoughts about you make me feel happy. I want to be with you and I know that I will be happy with you until the end of times. I feel you with my mind now and I want to feel you with every cell of my body. I know that you want it too. You are the man whom I have looked for all my life and at last I have found you. I am ready to go anywhere just to be with you. You have changed my life. You have changed my imagination of the world and make me love again. Now I have the man whom I love more than anything in this world. I want to be with him most of all on this planet and in the universe. I want to share every moment with him as his woman, his wife, his friend and his lover. I know that we will be happy together and I need not anything more. I am ready to do everything to be with you. There is no barrier, which can stop me. My love solves all problems on the way to each other. I believe that we will be together. I will cross the ocean just to be with you. I am sure that I am ready to do this serious step to you. I just want to see you, to look into your eyes, to touch you, to kiss you. I know that I have found the man who will do everything to make me feel happy every second of my life and I know that I will do everything for his happiness. You are the reason to live for me now. And there is no life for me without you. Please, don't hurt me and tell me that you understand me because my heart will not be able to go through such painful hit again. I want to be with you and I will know everything I need to be with you as soon as possible. I will go to the Consulate. I will know about everything I need to do to come to you and let you know, ok. I will better go now but I will wait for your letters and write you soon. Hope to hear from you very soon. I miss you dear and you are always in my heart. I give you my heart with all my love. Neonila.

Letter 11

Hello my dear Steve!!! I live in the fog now. I love you most of all in this world and I am very happy that I can love again. I am crazy about you and I know that you are too. I miss you and it is very difficult for me to be apart from you. The idea that you are there and I am here makes me feel pain. You are my life now and you know it. I want to look into your deep eyes full of emotions, to touch you, to kiss you. I know that everything will work for us and we will be happy together. I often imagine our wonderful life together. I can feel you even on such big distance we have between each other. But I want to delete this distance. I want to be with you so much and I thought about the ways for us to be together. I wanted to do something for us and our happiness and I went to the Consulate as I wrote to check what I need to come to you. I had talk with the people there and I have known that I need to do some paperwork and get visa to come to you. The visa I can get in easiest way is a tourist visa. I was told that I will be able to get it without any problems. It will take some time and I need to pick up many documents from my side. But I will do everything what depends on me. But I have one problem which upsets me very much. It is not convenient for me to ask you for help but I will not be able to do it without your help. You know, I need to pay for getting visa and doing all paperwork I need to come to you. And you know that my salary is too small for it. I have the great desire to come to you, to see you at last, but I will not be able to do it without your help. I do not want to complain but I do not want to lose you. I love you very much and I will not be able to go through it if I lose you. I do not know whom I can ask for help except you. You know that I am always honest and sincere with you. I hope that you will understand me and will help me to do this step. When I was in the Consulate I gave them some documents and they made a file for me. Now I need to pay them and they will begin my visa process. They gave me quotations for paperwork I need to do. So it will be 100$US for the visa and 30$ for registration. I also need to pay 80$ for foreign passport, 45$ for medical exam and 40 for interview and for some other expenses I can have. In general I will need about 300$US to cover all expenses. You know that I do not have such money and I can hope only on your help. Also I have known that there is Western Union office in our city and you can send the money using this bank system to my name. I was told that it is the quickest and safest way of sending money. My full name is NEONILA MENZELINTSEVA. You also need to know my address. My home address is Russian Federation, Artemovskiy, Mira street 19, apt 4. I have written about it. After you send the money you will need to send me your full name, exact home address, amount of money and Money Transfer Control Number(MTCN). I was told about it in the bank. I will not be able to get the money without it. Honey, I will need to pay them during the week, so, please, try to send it as soon as possible. I really hope that you will understand my situation. I want to see you very much but I will not be able to do it without your help just because I don't have such money. I will understand if you do not want to help me but it will make me feel terrible pain that I will not be able to be with you. Sorry, dear, if it upsets you. I just think that we need to trust each other, to be honest and to share everything. I hope you are agree with me. I imagine that we can meet soon and I have tears of happiness on my eyes. I do not want that there were problems which can prevent us. But I can hope only on your help, dear. It will be the happiest moment of my life when I meet you, hold you. I love you so much. You are the best what I have in my life. I want to be with you more than anything. I miss you, dear and wait for your reply with big impatience. Your Neonila.

Letter 12

Hello my love Steve!!! I love you so much and I am so happy to know that you understand me. You know that I want to do this serious step and come to you. I know that it is everything I need now. I want to be with you and share every moment of my life with you. I want to give you all my love, heart, body and soul. I know that I will miss my girlfriends but I also know that I will not be able to live without you. You are the meaning of my life and you are everything to me. By the way I do not think that it is good idea for you to come here. You know that it is very dangerous here, especially for foreigners, and I will worry about you. Moreover I think it will be cheaper for me to come to you. The ticket costs approximately 800-900$ here. Frankly speaking, I am so tired today. I was very busy at my work. You know that I have to do a lot of work here. And at the end of the day, I can move neither my hand nor my leg. I write you about it just to have your moral support. I spent time with my girlfrieds yesterday. We just drank tea and talked about everything, as usual. They are very happy for us. They always support me in all my decisions. I baked a taste chocolate cake and my girlfriends liked it very much. I know that soon I will be able to cook something delicious for you too. I hope you will like my cooking. I have a dream about our meeting. You will meet me in the airport. We will run into the hands of each other. I will hug you with all my power and kiss you with all my emotions. Then all time will be ours. We will be together and we need not anything else. We will do everything we want and will enjoy every second of our life together. I know that this dream will come true. It is just the matter of the time. It is so hard to be apart from you. You can understand it as nobody can. I love you dear and this love helps me in my life now. I really need to go now, dear, and I want to sorry that I do not have time to write you a lot but I will write you later. I will wait for you letters. Remember, I love you most of all in the world. You are always with me in my heart. The most loving woman in the world Neonila.

Letter 13

Hello dear Steve!!! What have you been doing? As for me I am so excited now. I can think only about you and about our meeting. You know that you give me the reason to live. I love you and it is the best what has happened in my life. Every your word is your particle and the particle of your heart and I am happy to have it with me. My girlfriends Mariya and Yuliya say great hello to you. I told them about my coming to you. They are very happy for us and wish us to be happy together. They know that they give me in good hands. I am sure that they are right. I had very nice dream again last night and I want to share it with you. I saw us together. It is very good sign. We were sitting together in a big room. There was a fireplace, you were looking at me with love and care in your eyes. It was Christmas. I was in a beautiful blue dress. Christmas time is a wonderful time for the family, when all close people gather together, give and get presents and congratulate each other. I felt so happy in my dream and even when I got up I still had that feeling of happiness. It was amazing! Oh, darling, I want it to be true so much!!! I know that my dream will come true and we will be together. Every night I close my eyes and pray the God. I pray for us. I ask the God to help us. I know that he will always help us because my love to you will never die and love is a feeling which is made on haven. I love you, and I am not tired to tell you this. I will love you always, no matter what would happen. Remember that I love you and think about you always. And I will never forget about you, because you are my life and my reason to live. I miss you so much. My heart is yours forever. Yours, Neonila.

Letter 14

My love Steve!!! How are you today, dear? As for me I am rather fine, just a little bit tired. I went to the gym yesterday and was training there for about 2 hours. I forgot about the time. I was training and thinking about you. All my thoughts are always with you. You even can feel it I think. And sometimes I even forget about the place where I am and about the time when I dream about us. I have a new dress, specially for you. It is almost the same as I saw in my dream. It is blue and it is very nice. I want to look beautiful for you. I try to be in a good shape that is why I am training a lot. Everything I do, I do it for you. You are the meaning of my life now. I know that you will do everything for me and I want to do everything for you too. I often dream about us, honey. There is no minute when I don't think about you. I close my eyes and I see you , your eyes, your hands are holding me, you are looking at me with love and care and I am flying from happiness. I have never thought that I could love anybody so much. But now I know that I can. I feel it with every part of my soul and body. My heart belongs only to you. I kiss you every night and every moment in my dreams. Sorry, sunshine, that I am so sentimental. But when the woman loves, the whole world doesn't exist for her. Her thoughts are only with her beloved man and all her dreams are about him. When the woman is in love, she becomes silly and foolish. It is a fact. I am kidding, dear, but it is really so. By the way I want to warn you that I will not be able to write you this week. There will be May holidays in the end of this week in Russia and all services will be closed. But I will write you on Monday when it will be open, ok and will wait for your letters. I love you most of all in this world. Your loving Russian girl, Neonila.