Letter(s) to Duane (USA)

Letter 1

Hello Duane!!! It is me Svetlana from other part of the world. Exuse me that I could not to write you earlier, but I am a teacher and we had a check from the Ministry of Education. So I had so much work. I am new in the Internet things and I do not know how everything works in it. I contacted your ad but I was not sure if you would write me back. But you have written and I am very excited about it. You were able to see some information about me on my profile but I think you want to know more about me. You know that I live in Russia in the town called Kotelnikovo. It is very beautiful but rather small town. I think it looks like your countryside. It has population of 21000 people. If you want to look for it on the map there is one rather big city not very far from my town, approximately 190km. It is Volgograd city. I do not know if you have heard about this city. It is situated on the Volga River in the southan part of Russia. I was born on the 3rd of May in 1976. My height is 5'6" and my weight is 125 pounds. I have never been married and I do not have kids. I work in the school as I teacher of Russian Literature. I have a lot of different interests. I like reading. It goes from my job as you see. I am rather active person and I like to be active in live. I like sports, outdoor activities, camping, fishing and etc. I think I am also rather romantic person. I like romantic things like flowers, dinner with candles, and walk under the moon. So it is brief information about me. You should be interested why I contacted your ad and why I am looking for somebody from so far away. I look for the right man who will be my friend and my soul mate. Who will love me and will understand me, who will share with me all happy and sad moments of the life. I am one-man woman and I will be able to give all my life, love and care to the right man. Hope I will be able to find him one day. All right I think I should let you go for now. I am sending you the picture of me in this letter so you can see how I look like. Hope you will like it. I understand that it is difficult to write everything about me in one letter. I hope we will be able to know more about each other in our next letters if you would like to continue writing. So I am looking forward to hearing from you. Take care and have a good day! Your new friend from far away Svetlana.

Letter 2

Hello my friend Duane!!! I am very glad to have the letter from you today. You know I find our correspondence rather interesting. All this is new to me. I also want to sorry for my mistakes in English. I have skills in it because I studied it in the university. But you know that it is not my native language. Anyway I think it is enough about it. I think now you want to know more about me so I will try to write you about me in more details. You know I live in Russia in the Kotelnikovo town. I have been living in Russia for all my life and I have never been in other countries. I have never traveled out of Russia. I have never been in the USA too. I even have never thought about coming to the USA but I am not against it. Everything can happen and maybe I will be able to visit it one day. I have written that there is big city not very far from my town. I graduated the university there with the diploma of the teacher. Now I work as a teacher of Russian literature in school here in Kotelnikovo. I like my job in spite of the fact that it is not paid very well. I like it because I love children very much. I want to give everything for their future happiness. But it is enough about my job. I will write you more about my personal things. I have written that I try to be active in life and do everything to be in good shape. I do not smoke or drug and do not drink alcohol. I can drink a little champagne but only on great events. I like outdoor activities. I like camping very much and I try to spend my free time with my friends on the nature. I also like sports. I am involved in fitness. I try to go to sport hall as often as I can and try to be fit. I like winter sports too. You know we have rather much snow during the wintertime here though not like in Siberia. I like to skate or snow skiing during the winter. I have some opportunity for it here. I also like to read Russian literature or poetry if I do not have opportunity for active spending time. Sometimes in the evening I like listening to music. Most of all I like classical music but I also like modern. From modern music I like pop, rock and other. I can listen to different music. It depends on my mood. I have written that I am romantic person. I believe in destiny and in the love at first site. Maybe it is unusual, but it is me such as I am. As for my dislikes I even do not know what they are. I do not like lie or dishonesty. I do not like to play with the feelings of other people and do not like when somebody plays with my feelings. I guess I do not like common bad things as any person do not like. All right it is enough about it. I hope you know much more about me now. As for my goals in life I have written that I want to find my love in this world. I loved one man here but my experience is rather sad. I was hurt with my past relationships. I have one boyfriend here but my relationships were not good. I met him a couple of years ago. He was very kind and nice. I failed in love with him. Everything was good and I thought that I was happy but then he became to drink a lot and I was on the second place for him. I suffered some time from his attitude but one day I had known that he had another woman. I was hurt so much. Then he left me for that woman. I suffered very much from the pain that he maid me to feel. Now I hope you understand why I am searching for someone in the Internet and why I do not look for anybody here where I am. I have decided to try to find the right person who will be able to love me and care about me in the global net. I do not know if I will be able to do it. I hope I will but only time can show it. Maybe it is a little strange that I write you such things and do not know you rather well yet. But I want to be honest and open with you. Hope you will appreciate it and will be honest with me too. So you know some more about my life and me. I also would like to know more about you, your life, your likes and dislikes. You can always write me about it if you want. All right I need to go now. I am writing you from the Internet cafe. I do not have computer with phone at home. So I have to use services of Internet cafe and it takes some time to get to home from there. I do not have car and I have to take the bus to get home. I will go now, ok. I will be waiting for your letters with big impatience. Hope to hear from you soon. Sincere your Svetlana.

Letter 3

Hello Duane!!! How is everything there? I hope everything is all right. As for me I am rather well. I am really glad that I met you. I do not know you very well but you know that I find our connection very interesting and I hope we will go on our correspondence. Sometimes I feel alone here and I am so happy that I have new friend whom I can share anything. You know I have rather sad life story and I do not like to talk about it. I had some doubts if I should tell you about it but I do not want to have secrets from you. I am the only child in the family. I do not have brothers or sisters. Moreover I almost do not remember my father. He died when I was 5 years old. I was brought up only with my mom. She gave all her power to grow me up and gave everything to me. I am very grateful to her for this. But now both of my parents are dead. One year ago my mom died in the hospital. She died during the operation on the heart. They told me that they were not able to do anything but I do not believe them. I was in depression for some time. I have not forgot about it yet and I cry sometimes when I remember my mom. Sorry dear about sadness in my letter. I think I should stop talk about sad things. If I am telling something inconvenient you can always tell me about it, ok. Now I live with my girlfriend. We rent the room together. Her name is Nadezhda. I met her when I studied in the university. We became the best friends for each other. I think we are like sisters now. We spend a lot of time together. I think any person can have only few real friends. I have such friend and I know that I always can hope on her help and support. I also have some friends from my work but we do not spend a lot of time together. I think it is because everybody has her own life. But sometimes we gather together and go for picnics or cinema. Most of all I like to watch comedies and romantic films. What about you? What movies do you like? What is you favorite color? I want to know everything about you. But I do not want to be persuasive. I guess you can write everything you think I should know. As for me my favorite colors are white and blue. You know that I am romantic person. I like flowers very much. My favorite flowers are roses and lilies. But I like other flowers too. What else I can tell you about me? I am Christian. I believe in God but I think that the main faith is in the heart and not just in going to the church. There are a lot of people who go to the church just for view or fashion. I am against such faith. You know what I am looking for in my life. I have written that I want to have close man who will understand me in everything, who will love me and whom I will love. I want to have beloved man who will care about me, the man whom I will be able to give all my life and love, who will make me to feel the happiest woman on the planet. It is dream but I hope that it will come true one day. Maybe it is strange but I thought about you. You know that I am very interested in you and our correspondence. I do not know what exactly made me contact your ad. Perhaps it was some kind of intuition. I am really glad that I wrote you and I hope this intuition will not lie to me. Hope everything will be fine with it. I hope you are not bored with my letters. I think I should let you go now. I have written you a lot of information about me in my letters. I spend a lot of time writing letters because I type very slowly. Hope my typing skills will be better in some time. If you want to know anything you can always ask me about it, ok. Well, I need to close here. Sorry I do not have opportunity to send you the photo with this letter but I will send you it in my next letter, ok. I need to go but I will think about you. I already think about you a lot. I am waiting impatiently for your reply. Your friend Svetlana.

Letter 4

Hello dear friend, Duane!!! I am very happy to read the words from you. I wait for your letters with so big impatience. You know I think about you rather often. It is unusual for me. I have just met you and I already think about you a lot. Do you think this is normal? I have written that sometimes I feel that I am alone here and I want to have real close for me person. I do not know what I would do without Nadezhda. She is my friend I have written you about in my last letter to you. But now I have met you and you like a new breathe in my life. I begin to miss you when I cannot read you letters. My life here is so usual. I wake up and go to work. I work since 8:00 till 17:00 five days per week but sometimes I work more hours and six days. I try to go to sport hall three times a week. You know that I try to be fit. This is my usual life here. Only on weekends I have some free time to relax and have a rest. But now I usually go to the Internet cafe, and your letters full me with new energy. And then I go home with nice mood. Yesterday I told my friend about you and our correspondence. I do not know why but she is very skeptical about Internet things. She asked me to be cautious and told me that there are so many lies in the Internet and you cannot believe anybody. I hope it is not such thing and you do not lie to me. I want to believe you and I believe you. I hope we will change her mind, will we? I do not have a lot of time to write today. I need to go home and to cook dinner. Nadezhda will come home rather late today and I need to cook something. I do not remember if I have written to you that I like cooking. Most of all I like to cook traditional Russian food. Today I think I will cook Manty. It is Siberian dish from meat and dough. It is almost like Pelmeny. Maybe you have heard about it. Sometimes we with my girlfriend like to cook together. My friends like my cooking. I like to cook something delicious and then invite my friends to taste. I think you would like my cooking too. Maybe you will be able to taste it one day. Everything can happen in this world. Am I right? Duane, I am really glad that we have met each other and I am not afraid of anything now. Time will show to us everything we want to know I think. I have the feelings that we will have a lot of nice moments in the future and I hope my feelings will not lie to me. Sorry dear but I need to go now. It takes some time to get home from the Internet cafe. You know that I do not have car and I use public transport for transportation but thoughts about you will help me to pass away the time. I will try to write you more next time, ok. As always I will wait for your letters with very big impatience and will think about you. Your letters are becoming very important for me. By the way I am sending you the photo of me and my girlfriend I wrote you about. I hope you will like it. Take care and have a good day. Truly yours Svetlana.

Letter 5

Hello dear Duane!!! It is nice to hear from you. I begin to think about you almost all the time and every time I go to the Internet cafe it is like a date with you. You know that you have become important part of my life and I wait for every moment when I can write to you. I hope you will not think that I am weird. You know, I agree with you that it's better to find someone closer to my age and has no health problems, but I think that is much more important to find someone closer on mind and feelings. Don't you agree? And I think that you are very close to that. Everything is rather good here. My girlfriend asked to say great hello to you. As for me I am a little bit tired today. I had rather hard day on my work. You know that I give to work all my energy and it takes a lot of time. But I want to do it and I like my job you know. One boy in my own class where I am the curator caught cold and had high temperature today. He has very difficult family situation (his parents drink frequently), therefore sometimes I try to help him more than to other children. I went to the medicine cabinet for the drugs from flu but there were nothing. It is like a rule in our country when government does not give enough money for its organizations: for the social sphere, schools, health and medicine. I have heard that there are a lot of private and commercial schools in your country. But we have different situation here. You know schools belong to the state here in Russia. So I had to go to drugstore to buy some medicine for his recovering. The medicine is very expensive here but I did not care and I bought all medicine he needs for the recovering. I do not have good feelings and thoughts about my country in such moments. Food, medicine, everything costs rather expensive but sometimes people do not get their salaries for several months and government do not pay attention on it. I hope you will not think that I am complaining to you. I just want to share everything with you. After all this day I was so tired. But I am better now because I can talk to you and share with you with the part of my life and me. I think it would be great if you were near me so you would be able to help me to relax much more. But it is just a dream. But maybe it will happen one day. All right, it is enough about me. How are you today? Do you have anything interesting happened in your life? You can always write me anything you want. You know that I want to know everything about you. But I am sure that you will write me anything you think I should know. Well, I need to close here and go home. You should know that I am really happy that I met you. I have only warm thoughts about you. I hope you do not mind me thinking about you. I want to thank the God that he gave me the opportunity to find you in this big world. I hope the God will help us on our way. I will miss you and will wait for your letters. You know that you mean a lot to me already. Remember I think about you. With best regards yours Svetlana.

PS: oh you know last time I have brought not photo I wrote you about. Excuse me, please.

Letter 6

Hello dear Duane!!! How are you? As for me I am rather fine. Thank you very much for your nice photos. I am very glad and like to see all of that. And that give me to know much more about you. You know, I did not do anything special these days. The weather is frosty and it is rather cold here now and there is no mood to do anything. Only your letters warm me and help me to feel better. You know that I am always happy to read your words. I begin to miss you when I cannot do it. You know that you have become important part of my life. I think about you very often and sometimes I cannot think about anything else. I wait for every moment when I can talk to you. I understand that there is half of the world between us and I feel sad about it. But I think that any barrier can be broken and everything can happen in this world. I am sure that everything will be all right between us. I have the feeling that I know you for a long time already and my feelings to you become stronger with every day. I am really afraid to lose you and I hope that it will never happen. As for others everything is good here. By the way the boy I wrote you about in my last letter is feeling better now. He has almost recovered. Nadezhda my girlfriend is fine too. She had the day off from work today and she went to the cinema. I would like to go with her but I had to go to work. But I am happy that after my work I can go to the Internet cafe where I can write you and I am much happier to spend my time with you even it is just Internet not and reality. You know that I dream a lot about you. I dream that you are near me and I can feel your warmth and care. I hope that my dreams will come true one day. I really want that we would not be so far from each other. I want to touch you, to hold your arms, to enjoy the time we spend together, to watch movies, to cook together, to listen to music, to go to the nature, to go for a walk and to do a lot of other things that man and woman can do! But I think I will better stop here, because I don't want you to think that I am weird. I really feel excited about you and I am so happy that I have met you. There is almost no minute when I don't think about you. I will come to home today and I will feel alone again. I think that it would be great if you were near me. You would be able to make me forget about this loneliness. I am sending you the photo, which was taken this summer on Caspian sea. I will go now but I will wait for your letters. I will miss you and will wait for the moment when I will be able to read your words again. Your Svetlana.

Letter 7

Hello again dear Duane!!! I was very glad that I have found a way to write you today. Because today is Women's Day here and it's a day off. That is so pleasant to talk to you and that is like a gift for me today. But that is not so pleasant that I can't write much today, because the Internet cafe will be closed earlier. But I wanted to tell you that I think of you. Well, excuse me, but I have to go. Hope to hear from you very soon, and promise to write you as soon as I can. Bye for now. Your Russian girl, Svetlana.

Letter 8

Hello my dear Duane!!! What have you been doing these days? As for me I missed your words till now. You know it is the best moment of my day when I can read your words and I always wait for the moment when I can get to the Internet cafe and write you. Thank you very much for your pleasant eCard, for so many photos and for that red rose. I am very glad to see you. But you know, as I wrote you earlier, I have no phone, therefore I can't call you, though I would be very glad to hear your voice. When I wrote you first time I did not know that it would work and that I will have such feelings to you. But now I am sure that you are the man whom I would like to have near me. In spite of the fact that I have not met you in real life and we only changes the letters I can say that I want us to meet someday. I want to be with you, to feel your warmth and care. Maybe it seems strange for you to hear such words from me. But I have the feeling that we know each other for ages. I have never had such feelings to nobody. It is unusual for me but I can do nothing with it. Hope you are not scared with all these words and you understand me. I hope that you can feel it too. I am always honest with you and hope you will be honest with me too because I think that honesty have very big meaning in relationships between people. Without love, honesty, respect and understanding there cannot be relationships between woman and man. You know that I do not like to play with the feelings of other people and do not like when somebody plays with mine. I hope you will never do it. All right I think it is enough about it. I saw you in my dream yesterday night and I woke up with nice mood and smile on my face. Do you want to hear about it? I think you do. I saw us together. I do not know exactly what place it was. I just know that it was weekend. There were a lot of our friends with us. I think it was some kind of party or picnic on the nature because we made kebabs or barbecue. We had a lot of fun together. But in the evening we had remained alone and all time was ours. It was night with full moon. We had romantic dinner with candles. We were alone and nobody was able to prevent us. Then we turned on the music and began to dance slowly. I looked into your eyes full of emotions and you looked into mine. We enjoyed every second and tried to catch eye of each other. Every minute was an eternity for us. I woke up with good mood in the morning and have good mood for all day long. What do you think about my dream? I hope you are not bored with it. I hope it will come true one day. You know that I have nothing special here and sometime I feel so alone. But now I have you and I am happy that we were able to find each other. I need to go now but I am waiting impatiently for your reply. I am thinking about you. Hugs and kisses. Your Svetlana.

Letter 9

Hello my dearest friend!!! How are you today, Duane? I hope everything is all right. As for me I am rather fine but I miss you when I cannot talk to you. I am sorry that I could not write more some days because of my illness. But now I am OK. Thank you for your pleasant eCard again. Everything is usual here with my life and only your letters make me feel happy and full my life with joy and happiness. I cannot imagine my life without your letters and your words now. The weather is warmer here but there is snow still. But thoughts about you warm me from inside. I am just a little bit sad because you are so far away from me. Do you think if we will be able to meet someday? I think we will. Everything depends on us. I have already written that sometimes I feel alone here and there was nobody who can understand me. But now I have the man who understands me more than anybody I hope. This man is you. Am I right? I am really happy that I have met you and you have become the part of my life, the best part. I want to thank you for being in my life. I really need to go now, dear. Sorry dear but I do not have opportunity to write you a lot now. I will go now but you know that I will miss you and will wait for your letters. I am sending you the photo with this letter. I hope you will like it. I am waiting impatiently to hearing from you. Maybe it is strange but I already miss your words. Have a good day. Your Svetlana.

Letter 10

Hello my darling Duane!!! I am very glad that I can write you again. But I would be much more glad to receive a letter from you. I hope that everything goes well there for you and you just a busy, but I will receive your letter very soon. I will not be able to write you for some day because of weekend, therefore I have decided to write you before it. How are you today dear? As for me I am rather fine. My girlfriend Nadezhda is fine too. She says great hello to you. I think she is changing her mind about the theme I wrote you about in one of my previous letters. But she worries about me a little. I understand her and try to calm her. But she has good thoughts about you because she sees that I am happy. You know that my life was so usual before. You know I looked for the one man who would make me feel happy every second of my life. Now I have found such man. Now I have very close person who always can understand me and make me feel happy. He is you. I even do not know what I will do without you. By the way I watched one film yesterday on TV. I do not know exactly how it is called in English. I think it is called "You've got a mail" or something like that with Tom Hanks in main role. It is one of my favourite film and favourite actor. It is about man and woman who met each other through email like we do. They liked each other through the letters but they were competitors in real life. They sold books in different stores. Then they understood who was who when they had met. They had some problems with it but love broke all barriers they had between each other. In the end they met and stayed together. They understood that they were made for each other. I like this romantic film very much. Do you like this film? I thought about you and about us when I saw this movie. I too believe that you my second half and the destiny has helped us to meet. I think it is our chance to be happy until the end of times and we cannot miss it. I understand that we do not know each other for a long time and we have not met in real life yet but we can make it happen. I have the feeling that I know you all my life and I have already written about it. I think you have this feeling too. I know what I feel inside and what my heart tells me. You know that it is the first time when I met somebody through the Internet. I would never believe that I can have such feelings to the man I have never met in the real life. But now I know that everything can happen. I met you and everything changed in my life. I am happy now and I do not need anything else. You are the closest for me person now. I trust you dear and I hope that you will never make me feel pain. I know that you trust me. I did not give you any reasons for not trusting me. I hope you will always trust me and care about me. I have only serious intentions about you. Just write me that you trust me and that you do not think that I am weird. You mean everything to me now. You are my life now. I think that you even can feel it on such big distance from me. I cannot imagine my life without you. I know that my life will be empty without you. Please be sincere with me and write me that you will never hurt me. I hope it is really so. I think I should stop here. I will let you go now but I will wait for your letters. I will think about you and hope you will feel my thoughts. Forever your Svetlana.

Letter 11

Hello Duane!!! I am so exited to read you words. I really want to be yours. I want to say that I am so grateful to you. Last month of my life is like new life for me. I really begin to live and not just exist. You know that I had rather hard life here. You helped me to forget everything sad I had. I want to thank you for it. You have become the dearest for me person. You know that there is no minute when I do not think about you. All I need now is you. You know that it is very hard to be apart from the beloved person. It is very hard for me to be apart from you. I know now what I feel inside and I am happy that I can love again. Yes I love you dear and I am not afraid to say it. I hope that you will not be scared with my words. I do not care that we have not met each other in the real life. I just know that you are the best what I had, have and will have in this life. Thoughts about you make me feel happy. I want to be with you and I know that I will be happy with you until the end of times. You are the man whom I have looked for all my life and at last I have found you. I am ready to go anywhere just to be with you. You have changed my life. You have changed my imagination about everything I had and make me love again. Now I have the man whom I love more than anything in this world. I want to be with him most of all on this planet. I know that we will be happy together and I need not anything more. I am ready to do everything just to have one chance to meet you, to see you, to hold you. And there is no barrier that can stop me. I believe that we will be together. I will cross the ocean just to be with you. I am sure that I am ready to do this serious step just to be with you. I just want to see you, to look into your eyes, to touch you, to kiss you. I will know everything I need to be with you as soon as possible. I will check with the Consulate here and I will know about everything I need to do to come to you and let you know about it, ok. I know that I have found the man who will do everything to make me feel happy every second of my life and I know that I will do everything for his happiness. You are the reason to live for me now. And there is no life for me without you. Please, don't hurt me and tell me that you understand me because my heart will not be able to go through such painful hit again. All right I will better go now but I will wait for your letters and write you soon. As I wrote I will let you know all information about coming to you as soon as I know it. Hope to hear from you very soon. You know that I miss you dear. You are in my heart. Your loving Svetlana.

Letter 12

Hello my love!!! Hello my dear Duane!!! How are you? I hope you are fine. I am so excited now dear. I am crazy about you and I know that you are too. I miss you and it is very difficult for me to be apart from you. The idea that you are there and I am here makes me feel sad. You are my life now and you know it. I want to look into your eyes full of emotions, to touch you, to kiss you. I am sure that everything will work between us and we will be happy together. I often imagine our wonderful life together. I can feel you even on such big distance we have between each other. But I want to delete this distance. I wanted to do something for us and I went to the Consulate as I wrote to check what I need to do to be able to come to you. I had talk with people there and I have known that I need to do some paperwork and get visa to come to you. The visa I can get in easiest way is a tourist visa. I was told that I would be able to get it without any problems. It will take some time and I need to pick up many documents from my side. But I will do everything what depends on me. But I have one problem that upsets me very much. It is not convenient for me to ask you for help but I will not be able to do it without your help. You know, I need to pay for getting visa and doing all paperwork I need to come to you. And you know that my salary is too small for it. I have the great desire to come to you, to see you at last, but I will not be able to do it without your help. I do not want to complain but I do not want to lose you. I love you very much and I will not be able to go through it if I lose you. I do not know whom I can ask for help except you. You know that I am always honest and sincere with you. I hope that you will understand me and will help me to do this serious step of all my life. When I was in the Consulate I gave them some documents and they have already made a file for me. Now I need to pay them and they will continue my visa process. They gave me quotations for paperwork I need to do. They said that I need to pay 100$US for the visa and 30$ for registration. I also need to pay 75$ for foreign passport, 50$ for medical exam and 40 for interview and for some other expenses I can have. In general I will need about 300$US to cover all expenses. You know that I do not have such money and I do not know where I can get it. I can hope only on your help. I have known that there is Western Union office in our town. It is not very far from my home on the same street. You can send the money using this bank system to my name. You just need to know my full name and address. I was told that it is the quickest and safest way of sending money. My full name is SVETLANA BELOVA. My address is Russian Federation, Kotelnikovo, Chkalova street, 7, apt #3. And zip code is 404352. After you send the money you will need to send me your full name, exact home address, amount of money and Money Transfer Control Number (MTCN). I was told about it in the bank. I will need it to get the money. Honey, I need to pay them during the week, so, please, try to send it as soon as possible. I really hope that you will understand my situation. I want to see you very much but I will not be able to do it without your help just because I don't have such money. I will understand if you do not want to help me but it will hurt me that I will not be able to be with you. I trust you dear with all my heart and I hope you will never hurt me. I will never hurt you too. I just think that we need to trust each other, to be honest and to share everything. I hope you will agree with me. I imagine that we can meet really soon and I have tears of happiness on my eyes. I do not want that there were problems that can prevent us. But I can hope only on your help, dear. It will be the happiest moment of my life when I meet you. I love you so much. You are the best what I have in my life. I want to be with you more than anything. I miss you, dear and wait for your reply with big impatience. Your Svetlana.

Letter 13

Hello my love!!! My dear Duane!!! You know that I want to do this serious step and come to you. I know that it is everything I need now. I want to be with you and share every moment of my life with you. I want to give you all my life, love and care. I know that I will miss my friend and children on my work but I also know that I will not be able to live without you. You are the meaning of my life and you are everything for me. And that is rather sad to hear that you can't or don't want to help me. Maybe you don't trust me, but I think that I did not do anything bad. I just wanted to meet you. That would be very good to meet in June, but I have already made inquiry to reception of the visa, and now it should be paid in the limited term, differently they will block my inquiry, and that will be much harder receive the visa then. Maybe, I have hurried, but I thought that will be pleasant for you too. And I was in consulate, not in any agancy, and I don't know how to send the money to there. It is so hard to be apart from you. You can understand it as nobody can. I love you dear and this love helps me in my life now. I really need to go now, dear, and I want to sorry that I do not have time to write you a lot right now but I will write you soon. I will wait for you letters. Be sure that I love you most of all in the world. You are always in my heart. Your Svetlana.

Letter 14

Hello my dear Duane! How are you? I hope everything is fine. As for me I miss you so much. I am rather upset to hear that you do not have opportunity or do not want to help me, or you are afraid of something. But you know that I am trying to do everything to come to you. I miss you so much and want to be with you more than anything. You know about it. And I don't know how to send the money to consulate. So I have some good news. If you don't want to risk I think I have found the way that will be able to help us to meet each other. My girlfriend knows one girl who married the American and went there with him. She contacted with her and wrote her about us. She and her American husband are very happy together and they decided to help us to be happy too. I do not know exactly yet how they want to help us but I hope I will find out soon. I will write you about it as soon as I know, ok. I hope to hear from you soon too. I will go now. Remember I love you and I do everything possible to meet you soon. Your Svetlana.

Letter 15

Hello dear Duane!!! What have you been doing? Hope everything is all right. As for me I am really excited now. I can think only about you and about our meeting. You know that you give me the reason to live. I love you and it is the best what has happened in my life. I'll try to get their number, but I can't promise anything. My girlfriend Nadezhda asked to say great hello to you. You know that I told her about my coming to you. She is very happy for us and wishes us to be happy together. She knows that she gives me in good hands. I am sure that she is right. I had wonderful dream about us last night and I want to share it with you. I saw us together. It is very good sign, isn't it. We were sitting together in a big room. There was a fireplace; you were looking at me with love and care in your eyes. It was some holiday, maybe my birthday. I was in a beautiful white dress. Birthday time is a wonderful time when all your close people gather together, give presents and congratulate you. But the best presents for me are you, your love and that we will be together. I felt so happy in my dream and even when I got up I still had that feeling of happiness. It was amazing! Oh, darling, I want this to be true so much!!! I know that my dream will come true and we will be together. Every night I close my eyes and pray the God. I pray for us. I ask the God to help us. I know that He will always help us because love is a feeling that is made on haven and my love to you will never die. I love you, and I am not tired to tell you this. I will love you always, no matter what would happen. Remember that I love you and think about you always, because you are my life and my reason to live. I will wait for your letters. I miss you so much. My heart belongs to you. Your Svetlana.

Letter 16

My love, Duane!!! How are you today, dear? Hope everything is fine. As for me I am rather fine, just a little bit tired. I went to the gym yesterday and was training there for about 2 hours. I forgot about the time. I was training and thinking about you. All my thoughts are always with you, you know. You even can feel it through such big distance I guess. And sometimes I even forget about the place where I am and about the time when I think about you and our meeting. I have a new dress. It is specially for you. It is almost the same as I saw in my dream. It is white and it is very nice. I want to look beautiful for you. I try to be in a good shape that is why I am training a lot. Everything I do, I do it for you. You are the meaning of my life now. I know that you will do everything for me and I want to do everything for you too. I often dream about us, honey. There is no minute when I don't think about you. I close my eyes and I see you, your eyes, your hands are holding me, you are looking at me with love and care and I am flying from happiness. I have never thought that I could love anybody so much. But now I know that I can. I feel it with every part of my soul and body. My heart belongs only to you. I kiss you every night and every moment in my dreams. Sorry, sunshine, that I am so sentimental. But when the woman loves, the whole world doesn't exist for her. Her thoughts are only with her beloved man and all her dreams are about him. When the woman is in love, she becomes silly and foolish as a little girl. It is a fact. I am kidding, dear, but it is really so. I love you most of all in this world. I will let you go now but I will wait for your letters and write you soon. Your loving Russian girl Svetlana.

Letter 17

Hello my darling Duane!!! How are you? Everything is as usual here. I think about you every moment of my life. You know that my life was so dull and boring before. But now every minute I feel that I am happy. I have been changed a lot. You changed me and now I know that I am not lonely anymore. I have you in my life and you are everything for me. I have no any thoughts that I will not like you, I think that our meeting will make our love only more and more every day. Everybody here says great hello to you. My girlfriend is fine. She is happy for me very much. As for me I did not do anything special these days. I miss you very much dear and wait for our meeting with so big impatience. I want to thanks destiny that it give us chance to meet each other and be together forever. I have written that I believe in destiny but I also think that we make our life with our own hands. And we need to do everything to be happy. I know that we will be happy together and nothing will be able to prevent us. I cooked very tasty pancakes for breakfast today morning. Someday I will do it for you. Soon we will be together and I will cook breakfasts for you or we will cook together. We will have a lot of wonderful moments together. I like to cook very much and I am very good at it. I am not boasting, it is really so. You will experience it soon. Well, dear I need to close here. I will be thinking about you. I love you very much. Your Svetlana.

Letter 18

My love, my life!!!!!! I am a little bit sad today. You know that I love you but to be apart from you is very hard for me. I know that soon I will be able to hug you and to kiss you. I just need to be patient. But believe me, it is really hard for me to be apart from my beloved person. I am sure you feel the same. But it is not long for us to wait for it. I know that we will be able to be together. Our love can do everything. I believe in it, and think you believe too. Only one thing is bad, that to wait for our meeting is so painfully. But I am ready to suffer from this pain because I love you and I will be waiting for you. What are you doing, honey? I hope that you are not too busy. But remember that I love you and may be you feel it now. I am always with you in my thoughts and dreams. Take care, my love. Thank you very much for being in my life. I love you a lot. Forever your Svetlana.

Letter 19

Hello my one and eternal love!!! I miss you every second of my life. I am so sad when I cannot talk to you, read your wonderful words. I love you and I want to say this to you until the end of times. I live in a fog now you know. All my thoughts are only about you and about our meeting. I know that soon we will be together. My girlfriend Nadezhda is very happy for you and me you know. She sees that I am in love. I am as a little girl who falls in love for the first time. It is such wonderful feeling to love. You know it too. I always imagine our life together. We will be very happy. When we meet we will never leave each other. I will cook for you and will bring breakfast in the bed. Or you will do it for me. We will do everything we like together. We will walk, talk, make love, do different interesting things and just be silent. Only one thing will have matter that we will be together and every moment will be like forever for us. All right I stop here. It is better to do everything I said. Soon we will be able to feel all these. The Internet cafe will be closed now for the night. So I must hurry. You know that I love you and will love you always. I feel every your thought. Your love is the best for me in this life. I will miss you. I will write you soon. I know that you miss me too. Love you. Your loving Svetlana.

Letter 20

Hello again my dearest Beloved Duane!!! I really miss you very much. I want to see you, to kiss you, to do everything you want. I will do everything to be with you as soon as possible. I know that you will do it too. I know that my life with you will be very happy. I will miss my children from my work. You know that I love children very much. I will miss my friend. But I know that I will not be able to live without you. I will not be able to live without your breathe, without your touch, without wonderful words you say. I love you most off all. My love to you is my life now. I live only for you now. You must feel it as I feel your love. I understand about the money but I have some bad news. You know that I have made an application for visa. People in the Consulate want to know when I will pay the money for the paperwork. They said that they would not wait for a long time. They asked me to hurry up. They can block my application and I will not be able to get the visa. So dear try to send the money as quick as possible and let me know, ok. I will ask them to wait for more time but I do not know if they will do it. Today I bought some presents for you. It will be the surprise for you. That is not big but hope very pleasant. I think you will be very glad to get some presents from me. I will be very glad to make you happy. I stop intrigue you. Soon you will see everything yourself. I will let you go now. You must have a rest I think. I will write you soon and know that you will write soon too. I love you forever. I miss you so much. I want you with all my body, head and soul. Your Svetlana.