Letter(s) to John (USA)

Letter 1

Hi my John!

I'm very glad to write you again. John, I was thinking for a long time how I can spend the free time between the finishing working in the bureau and the beginning working in the clinic. We have no internet - cafe in Anishino. I'm afraid that I won't be allowed to use the computer in the bureau, I won't be able to write you during the whole long month. Yes, to me promised an opportunity to write to you. But I'm not confident... I imagine that I'll have to waste my time at home, locked in the 4 walls. Or I'll have to wander along the streets and to sleep crying the whole night. I can't imagine that I'll have no chance to communicate with you during this time. My heart bacame empty when I imagined all this. I have come to the conclusion that all this is not for me. I want to spend my vacation with you. I must do something to take the chance. Just to meet you. That is all what I need, that is all what I want now. I know one of visas agency. I wondered how much it would cost for me to make American visa.
They said that only the examination of application for visa will cost me 100 dollars USA. This money won't be returned even if the application is rejected. To gat visa I must go to Moscow where is the American Embassy. I'll to visit a lot of agencies, offices and organization in Tula and in Moscow. This is the usual way to get visa, it may take me many months. I said to them that I could't wait for a long time. And they offered me to solve the problem and it will take me less time if I use Full Package of Service (FPS). FPS includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for interview with commission. FPS costs 335 dollars USA, but the visas agencyremove all the problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excessive delays (I can get a visa in a week or two). I thought for a long time and came to the conclusion that this variant is the only right for me. I agreed and registeredmy application for visa, hoping that you'll be glad to meet me. Can you imagine that we'll spend some weeks together? I'm immensely happy when I'm thinking about the opportunity. I howe some money and I don't want to ask you about it. I'll be able to come to your country paying my own money. I'll be everything myself?
May be you think I try to do too quickly, probably you suppose it's too earty everything us to meet each other. But I can't wait for ages, I'm happy now at present time. Necessary to begin moving to howe something in your life, it's important to go ahead, to overcome difficulties to take aim. Very soon I'll leave the bureau and I'll be able to spend my vacation with my friend, John. I have never been abroad. but now I have a chanceto meet you. It's a dream. You are my friend, and friend sometimes meet each other. I think it will be great, wonderful, fantastic. I hope you don't think that I'm too impudent. I just want to mut you and to spend some time with you. I suppose you haven't changed yoyr attitude towards me after this letter. I'm lookingforward to seeing to calm down my heart. Please tell me you be able to meet me? Will you be happy to face me? I hope you'll!!!

Excited Tatyana.

Letter 2

Hi my dear John!

How are you today? I hope are in a high spirit. But unfortunately I'm in a bad mood today.
Today in the morning I was hurrying to my bureau. A car rushed near me on a high speed. At that time a dog was crossing the road and the car couldn't stop at once. It was snow in the morning and roads were slippery. May be that was why the car didn't stop, it knocked the dog down. The dog at once, it even didn't whimper. I was shoked and even burst out of crying. Don't think that I'm an easily touched person. But sometimes I can't prevent myself from crying. To tell the truth I'm a brave woman. Russian drivers often drive a car on a high speed and sometimes I'm even afraid of crossing the road. Sometimes drives can be drunk. And can you imagine that it could be a child or a man or woman who crossed the road instead of the dog. It would be terrible. Life is really very short and one never knows when it will stop. I believe in fortune and hope that it didn't prepared me such a horrable death. I'm sorry for so sad thoughts, probably you don't want to read such lines. But sometimes I think over my future life. What if a drunk driver will stop my life. There are a lot of such accidents in Russia. Of course I'm not very afraid of death, but I'm afraid of the fact that nothing will be rest after my death. Probably only my friends will notice that I have gone. It's really terrible and I don't want to die as a lonely person. I want to live in a care and tenderness and love with my sweetheart and never think of sad things. I think you are really sick and tired of my silly thoughts but I must share my feeling with you. I hope you will understand me. There are such moments of life when one must explain his or her feelings and thoughts to a daer person. This person for me is you, John. By the way I forget to tell you one more news. I have finised to collect documents for the clinic and now I give my analyses to be cheked for a medical comission to ofter them to the Embassy. I'm waiting for the invitation from Moscow to take part in the interview in the Embassy. They say that they will ask a lot of difficult question and some personal questions. John, I'm very nervous. But I'm eager to meet you and now I think I will over come any difficulties. I'm ready to do a lot just to meet you.
> By the way,, in last letter I've asked the name your the nearest the >airport in which you could meet me. I hope you write to me it. Now many people say that I'm pretty and beautiful. May be people just want to plead me. Sometimes I remember my school years. At that time I was far from being beautiful. I was wearing iron cramps on my teeth. I didn't like to look at myself in a mirror, everybody called me "saberteeth" in my school. Probably you are laughing now but I felt me ill at ease at that time. My mom tried tocalm me down and she said that would be a very beautiful lady in some years. She said that only bad people could say such terrible things about me. My mom had always been the dearest and the closest person for me. Do you remember your school years? What were you like? Do American school children often give nicknames to their schoolmates?
I'm sorry. I must finish my letter. But I think I will able write you again very soon. And you John don't forget to write me more and more.

My best regards and hugs.
Kiss you. Your Tanya.

Marina has say "Hello" to you.. And us has together wished good relations. I've told to Marina "Thanks". And from you too.

Letter 3

Hi my dear John!

Yesterday I was very tired. I had a lot of work at home and collecting in Moscow. Now I near Embassy the USA in internet-cafe. I write to you the letter and I worry. I think, that my destiny today is solved. Hope to me'll give the visa and I can meet you. It will be the greatest day in my life!! It's a pity, that I cannot write for a long time. Probably soon it's necessary for me to go in Embassy. Here it's a lot of people. I never thought, that many people want to arrive in the USA forever.
I hope, that I can soon write to you about results of visit to Embassy. If I can't write from Moscow I shall write from Anishino.

Your and only your Tanya.

Letter 4

Hi my dearest John!

I write to you the letter and I smile. I'm so glad! If I could, I would speak with you for a long time for a long time. But unfortunately now it is impossible. But I am confident, that our meeting will take place also we shall speak in person.
John, I want to tell to you about the commission in Moscow. I hope to you it interestingly!!! I can probably have the visa. Because I tried for it much. I worry, you should understand it.
I never thought that the commission will ask such unusual questions. They asked about my sexual life, they asked about children, about work, about patriotism, about my attitude to America, about my conversance and awareness of events which happened in the world and in America, about my religion and belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about everything fairly how it's really. To me have told that my answers are unexpected and as a rule applicants don't answer such questions so directly and openly. They haven't got used to hear such answers, but they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Children from the orphanages also have made the big impression and rendered the big influence on the commission. To me have told that I the first lady who have such support from children - orphans. Now I should wait the decision. Now I agree with expression: "Expectation of death is worse than the death" I can't concentrate on anything. My heart so worry, I can't work. They have told that the decision will be accepted in several days. I so worry. I so want that this small dream was come true. I simply want to see my lovely friend. I think the God will help me. I simply want to meet you. I already see us together and I sink in dreams. I want to construct with you the ship to float under sails in boundless ocean. I want to meet with you a dawn and to see off a sundown. We will float on our ship and our love will illuminate our way. We will look at night at stars, we'll be pleased in the afternoon to the sun. If there will be a storm, our love will protect us. If there will be a calm, our love will be a wind. Our love will be a beacon for us. We will be floating at ocean of love and oblivion and nothing can separate us. We'll name our ship - Dream. It will be the small ship, but very strong. Because we will make our ship from belief, hope and love.
It's impossible to wait, when your dream will fall to you from the sky. It's necessary to go to the dream. It's necessary to clear and build the road itself. If in heart there is a belief and dream, if in heart there is a love and hope, it is necessary to achieve the dream by all means. I always go to the dream. I don't sit on a place. In my life there were very few light moments. On this I try to make everything that my dreams have come true. I understand that now it's only dreams. But these dreams brighten my life. I hope that yours also.
Now my boss does not speak anything about when I shall finish work in a bureau. But anyhow I shall ask him to let off me when I shall receive the visa. Nothing will keep me to arrive to you John!!! I send you a picture. You can see a monument of ancient Russia.
It's a fortress, which near Saint Petersburg. The man it's dressed specially for tourists to see as soldiers in the eighteenth century put on. Hope you like my picture.

With tenderness your Tanya.

Letter 5

Hi my lovely John!

How are you doing? Today it's very freezing! But anyhow as New year. Practically all people joyful, because soon a holiday. Today in Russia very small quantity of people will sleep at night. By tradition new year meet equally at midnight. President Putin will have speech to all population of Russia. Then at 00 hours of 00 minutes on TV will show a chiming clock on the Kremlin and all people in Russia will drink champagne. By the way, in Russia this holiday the most important. I know, that in the USA also celebrate this holiday. I want to congratulate you Happy New Year and to wish you of good luck, success and love.
Now I stop and I wait your letter with impatience. Hope you write to me very quickly!

Your, only your Tanya.

Letter 6

lovely John!

How are you? Hope all is good. Sorry, I didn't write to you for a long time. But the god sees, that I'm not guilty. I could not write to you. Because now holidays in Russia. I don't know, maybe you will be surprised. But in Russia till January, 11 days free works. Practically all Russian don't work owing to new year. The first working day on January, 11. Our bureau has been closed up to today. Oh, John, you don't know as I is happy. I didn't know than to engage these days. I missed dialogue with you!!! I worried all these days. But now I'm glad and quiet, that I can write to you.
Practically all these days in Russia were fine weather. We had no winter cold. Of course not summer, but not North Pole also. John, I've already got used to winter and it's pleasant to me. You should not think, that I sat at home and stayed idle these days. I was in Moscow. I very much want to receive the visa to arrive to you. I talked to people which work in embassy. They have told to me to not worry. Results of the application of the visa will be soon known. Me have encouraged!!! They have told, that in embassy now celebratory mood. And it promotes for approval of the application. John, I think, that I can have the visa next week. Hope you it's glad as I. It's necessary to wait slightly. John, I'm confident we can to wait some days!!!
Today I and Marina again for a long time spoke about you. It's pleasant for me, that she appreciates our relations. Marina speaks me: "don't miss the chance! Don't lose John!" I speak her, that I'm not so silly to lose dialogue with you. I shall be glad to meet you. Probably we shall speak for a long time when we shall meet. You it agree John? By the way, Marina say "Hi and Happy New Year" for you. I join to congratulations. John, I wish all kindest wishes for you. Hope all your dreams and plans will be carried out. In Russia there is a tradition - Each person exactly at midnight thinks out desire for itself. Desire should come true this year. I hope my desire will be carried out and I meet you in person.
Now about your letters. John, I'm disappointed. Today I ran in a bureau very quickly to read your letter. But I didn't find it in my e-mailbox. Why? You didn't write? Of course I'm not offended. But I hope you write to me soon. I shall be happy to read your letters. Please, write to me soon! I shall be glad. By the way, tomorrow in Russia Christmas. It's a great holiday. But I shall try to write to you. I want to congratulate you orthodox Christmas. I think you have no insult? (smile) Hope to read your letter tomorrow.

Your Tanya.

Letter 7

Hi my dearest John!

Today I had very intensive day. I'm very tired, but glad to the staying forces for a writing of the letter (smile). Today in a bureau we had a lot of work. We cleaned all room. Never earlier I thought, that it so is difficult. My home I clean with pleasure. But a bureau not my home. And why that for me it was very difficultly. You should not think, that I the idler. It was probable to me difficultly because I thought of you. All the day long I dreamed of our assembly. Now I every day think about it.
Then, after cleaning a bureau I had a free time. I went to shop to buy a suitcase. Of course I have it for travel. But my a suitcase very old-fashioned and I hesitate to have it in hands when a meeting of you. Anyhow now I have a new, fashionable and modern suitcase. By the way, it has wheels. Never earlier I had a suitcase on wheels. I saw such suitcases at other people. But now I have understood advantage of wheels on a suitcase. John, my a suitcase brightly red color. Hope you can quickly see it in the airport???
Marina again speaks you "Hello". She helped to choose a suitcase for trip. I'm glad, that I have such friend as Marina! Because idea red color for Marina's suitcase. She has told: "Tanya such suitcase that John quickly could see you in crowd is necessary for you". I agree with her. John, I think such trifles as this idea are very necessary in friendship. It's pleasant for me to understand this care. In friendship the main thing is care. Hope you agree John.
Today behind a window a blizzard. It something unpleasant in the winter. But to not escape anywhere from winter. And consequently I'm compelled to go home quickly to not freeze. I don't want to catch a cold. On our meeting I should be healthy!!!
By the way, I regret, that didn't see yours of 4 letters. But hope now I shall receive all your letters.
John, I finish my the letter. Hope you write the answer soon. Because I miss your letters. Sorry, I can't write to you every day. But I shall try to write to you constantly. I hope to receive my the visa after the expiration some days. And I should inform you constantly.

Your gentle Tanya.

P.S. I send you a picture last New Year. We sang songs. Unfortunately I don't remember what song, but I think something about a holiday. Hope it's pleasant to you when I can sing for you!

Letter 8

Hi lovely John!

I want to inform you the important news. Today I have received by mail the invitation in embassy in Moscow. Tomorow I shall go in Moscow. I'm very much excited. Because I think, that tomorrow deciding day. Probably tomorrow to me infarm result of the application the visa. I don't know when I can write to you more in deteil. But I shall try to write soon.
John, now I shall stop. But I promise to write to you soon. I think you worry too. Tomorrow realy the importont day. What will tell in embessy??? I'm very much excited, and my idees are confused. I can't write well. Sorry, I shall write later.

Your excited Tanya.

Letter 9

Hello my dearest John!

I have good news, very good for me and for you! I have looked forward to this day. Yesterday I visited American Embassy in Moscow again. I have got the visa. I'm immensely happy. I will leave the work in the bureau on the 17 of January and I willbe able to come to you. I will be able to see you in person!!!
I addressed the company which sells tickets for plans. I asked them how I would be able to go to Memphis on the 18 of January, and how much it would cost. They said that the ticket would cost $1274 USD. I asked them to find a cheaper ticket, because the price is too high for me. But as it turned out I wouldn't be able to have a cheaper ticket so quicly, the date is too early. Tickets must be reserved long beforehand. I asked them to offfer me other variants of the flight. We found the most suitable one. The flight, is on the 20 of January 2005. The ticket costs $1097 USD. I asked the to reserve the ticket for me. But they refused to do it having said that they had a lot of clients. They can't reserve my ticket without adwanced money. I was imploring them. But it didn't work. They said that they would help me with great pleasure but they couldn't. The rules are so. I was in a panic, I was so disappointed. Then I asked themif I could give just a part of the money. But they didn't agree again. I asked them for a long time saying that my fiance John is waiting for me. If I asked them a little bit longer I would burst out of crying. Maybe God heard my prayers, and the service worked agreed to reserve the ticket on my conditions. But I have too little time to pay, for the ticket. They said if I didn't day the rest of the ticket price, I would loose the money I'd already given to them. I was angry, but they explained that it would be very difficult to sell the ticket for the plane which is flying. They would have to lower the price. I agreed. They told me to pay $700 USD. But it was too much for me, because I had only $550. I asked to wait for me during 2 hours. I went out of the room. Marina met me at the door. I told her everything. She understood everything and adviced me to pawn our treasures to a pawnshop. John, it was very difficult for me to agree to do it. I didn't want to burden Marina. But at the same time I want to meet you, John very much. We pawned the treasures, I got $150 USD and I paid the part of the ticket price $700 USD. It was my last money, it was for the plane by which I'm going to come to you.
The date and the number of the flight Delta 31.
Departure from Moscow is 1.10 pm
Arrival to Memphis (MEM) is 9.02 pm.
I change the plane in New York (JFK), number of the flight Delta 175.
I also change the plane in Atlanta (Hartsfield Intl.) , number of the flight Delta 1431.
After it I'll come to Memphis (MEM) to you, John.
It was very difficult for me to tell you this story. I have done all what I could. I have paid for the visa. I have paid for the part of the ticket. But this was not enough. The money was not enough. I didn't want to burden you. I wanted to come to you with nobody's help. I thought my money would be enough. But I failed. Now I feel guilty muself. I didn't manage to do all myselffor our meeting. I thought nothing would prevent me from meeting you. But I must pay the rest of the money for the ticket It's just $397 USD.I must pay it till the 18 of January. Otherwise I will loose the money I have paid and i will loose the chance to see you. And our treasures will be soldby the pawnshop. Now I feel guilty that I could not do what i promised to come to you with my own money. I always do what I promise. I feel il at ease now, I'm ashamed of asking you to help me. Unfortunately the bureau didn't pay me the money I'd earned. I really hoped to get this money. It would solve all the problems. But I'll get the money from the bureau in a month or two. Because it's very typical for Russia to hold up the payments of salary. I asked the bureau to give me my money earlier, but thay refused to do it. Now the bureau doesn't have the money necessary for me. Our bureau depends on the budget, it didn't get money for a long time. I think it's because of the terrorist acts in Moscow and in Beslan.
Probably I must say to you that I won't be able to meet you becouse I won't be able to pay the whole sum of money myself. Of course I realize that I shouldn't ask you to give me the money. But at the time I can't just that I won't come to you. I have done too much to organize our meeting. If I refuse to meet you it will mean that everything was in voun. It's torrible for me to refuse to come to you, I have done all what I could. Now I want you to help me and I think there is nothing horrable if I ask you to help me. Of course I realize that may be you have no feelings to me and may be you you're not interested in our meeting. I understsnd that the sum of money is too big. I know it and that's why it's more difficult for me to ask it from you. But at the sametime any person can find himself in my conditions. And now there is only one thing which I can do. I just must say that I will never come to you. But I don't want to say so, because I want to meet you. That's why I must be honest, I need your help. Of course I understend that I mustn't do it. But I'm an honest person. I'm ashaneed of asking you to help me, but life is a difficult thing, everything can happen. Of course it's up to you to decide if you want to help me or not. It's bad, but not fatal. I will loose my money. It's bad but not mortal either. $335 USD which I have paid for the visa and $700 USD which I have paid for the ticket are too much for me. But I'm not sorry for what I have done for our meeting. In fact money is just paper, our treasures are just metal details. That's why I was the first who decided to meet each other. But I don't want all my efforts to be spent in vain. If you really want to meet me, if you can help me to organize our meeting please send me the money till the morning of the 18 of January, 2005. I don't want you to think that I'm not an honest person. That's why I send you the copy of my visa. I wanted to show it to you (but not to ask for the help). I asked people from the Embassy to scan the visa by cd.
If you can help me, I send you my coordinates. Marina said that you can use some sistem. I addressed the nearest bank. They said they have "Western Union". They told me that it's the best way for me to get money. There is other remittance system, but at present unfortunately it doesn't work all the time, because some renovation and upgrade of the equipment and signalizing system are made there. But they say that "Western Union" always works and people trust it. I give you the necessary details to send me the money by "Western Union".
PROMSVYAZBANK
Oktyabrskaya st.. 36
Tula 300002
phone: (7)(0872) 39-45-45
E-mail: promsvyazbank@tula.net
for Sreberco Tatyana
They said to me in the bank that to get money from you I must say to the bank workers your full name, you full address, the exact sum of money, which I must get and some confidental numbers (MTCN this 10 digitals). This number will be given to you by your bank, if you send me your help. Only in the case when all the information is sent to me I will get your help.
Please forgive me my words. I say so because I'm in despair. Now when just one step can connect us, I'm afraid. I need you, I want to be with you, I need you help, believe me, I'm honest with you. I didn't manage to estimate my forces. And all my efforts spent in vain. I understand that the sum of money is too big for you. I didn't want to ask you. I can do everything myself. My loneliness made me strong. I had always been living with my own efforts I always relied on myself. I asked somebody to help me very selcom, but now I ask you to help me. I will give you all the money back as soon as I'm able. Maybe I made you offended. But I need you. I don't know if my letter satisfacted you or disappointed. But I have written you an honest letter. I'm looking forwarol to you answer.

I hope for you.
Your Tanya.

Letter 10

Hi my John!

How are you? How your weather? Today we had a small morning frost. Now practically the snow everywhere lays. And all Anishino white. It's very beautiful, but colder. We've approximately-10C degrees.
John, I should tell as I is happy today. I've received your money. And now I shall pay the ticket completely. I know the most important. Now there are no barrier to our meeting. My heart blows up with happiness. Soon I shall see you in person!!!!!!!
Today in the morning I ironed my red dress. I was pensive about you, and have overlooked to remove an iron from a dress. I simply stood, looked out of the window, thought of you, I've ceased to ironing and have simply stopped a hand with an iron on a dress. You can imagine? I have burned my dress. Now in my dress the big hole. First I was upset and angry with myself, because in the spring I paid for a dress of $67. . But afterwards I sat on a chair and have laughed. To me was so funny. It's a pity that you didn't see me during this moment. I sat and laughed in the whole voice. It's really ridiculous. I laughed because I've understood, as far as strongly I think of you. I constantly think of you. I'm afraid, that if I soon will not see you my house will burn completely (smile).
I considered us. Our acquaintance can be named miracle. I never trusted and could not think that I can meet my favourite person on the Internet. I didn't trust in the happiness and could not assume that I shall find to myself the beloved in my life. I've been disappointed by men and I didn't trust that men can love and bring happiness to women. I looked on TV and read love novels as many women in Russia, but did not trust in these. In such novels all life in pink color and the happy end always. All such novels are similar each other. When I read these I lived of my soul a life of heroes from this novel. I was afflicted for these heroes and was happy together with them, but never thought that I can feel the love novel also. For me such novels were illusion only, but not a reality. My heart died, but I've got acquainted with you. AND I HAVE COME TO LIFE. I feel a life in my heart. I know that I'm necessary for you my dear John. And I'm happy. This fine sensation when I know that I'm necessary for someone. I hope that it you John. I speak now as the little girl. But my feelings to you are strong really and I can't speak in other words about it. I hope you don't think of me as about the small silly girl? You have made me happy, but I hope for full happiness - when we shall be together. Probably you wait for our meeting as I also. And I hope the our future will be fine and happy. I'm afraid to speak now about it. In Russia there is a bad sign - to speak about the future. Otherwise such future can't be. But I believe.
Forgive me. I should finish the letter. Probably I can tell it to you face to face soon. I shall speak you only the most good that probably between us. I shall write to you later again. Be patient.

With the best regards.
Your dear Tanya.

P.S.Sorry. I've overlooked to tell to you "Hello" from Marina. She hopes, that our meeting will be happy. I've told, that I and John we think also. You agree?:)

Letter 11

Hi my dear John!

I'm happy to write to you letter again. It for me huge pleasure. You have written "Thoughts of you and I together consume my mind and I can not think of anything but you.". I have identical ideas. Every minute I think how are you. I with impatience wait day of our meeting. It will be great day in MEM. (I remember a code of the airport) Unfortunately I have no phone. But I shall necessarily call you before flight. As a last resort I can call you from the airport. I so want that these days passed faster. I would like to close eyes for one instant. Then to open and see you. But as though I didn't try, I see the same things.
Last time I flied by the plane very much for a long time. In the childhood. And I should tell that I'm afraid. I so frequently saw in TV-news about accidents, planes falling when all passengers perish. I really am afraid. And I'm afraid that I'll have feeling of a nausea. You should teach me how to not worry in a plane.
I would like to give you John a song. But I'm afraid, that it is hardly possible. I don't know such wonderful melodies and words. All in comparison with you is insignificant.
I would like to give you John dance, the most important on your life. But if music will cease to play, likely I at once will die. I every day and every night call happiness. I've lost the way in a dark wood. Only you in my ideas. All my hopes and dreams are connected only to you. I want to be with you.
I would like to give you John the sky together with the sun which is born in the East. There where dreams, not reducing flight achieve its purpose, and are embodied in a reality. There I and you'll not be lonely.
I would like to lead you John in a garden, there where my good dreams ripen. Only hardly I can go beside you, because I'll become transfixed with your breath.
I would like to give you John happiness, that nobody will challenge. But frequently my heart torn on parts, because between us ocean.
The God has give me a voice and I would like to sing a lullaby to you. But the pain has captured my throat. This pain can't be removed with hand, it's impossible to remove with prick. Only your kiss can relieve me of my tortures. I've gone mad for love to you. My life in your hands.
Whisper to me on an ear that you miss me. And I'll be the happinest woman on Earth. For me you the Angel Divine. Without you it's terrible. Give me light in your window. And I will pay to you my fidelity and tenderness. Take my hand. Tell, that you will be always with me. For the sake of these words I'm ready on all. Give me spring. Give me autumn. Give me the fallen yellow leaves. And I will give for you a life.

With the best regards
Your Tanya, only for you John!

Letter 12

Hi my loved John!

Today I've specially come to a bureau to write to you the letter. I have persuaded the colleague to allow to use to me a computer.
She is very glad to my visit to you. I very much worry about a meeting. I hope you'll not overlook to meet me in the airport (smile). Tonight I go in Moscow. I go to Moscow beforehand, because I'm afraid to be late aboard the plane. I can't write to you many, it's indecent to tear off the colleague from work for long time. I shall try to write to you tomorrow from Moscow!!! By the way, Marina has told "Hi" for you, John. She hopes to see sometime you in person. I promised her, that she can to meet with you later. Hope I and you we can visit Russia together sometime. By the way, she asked to bring pictures of ALL your friends for her. I ask her "All, all, all???" She said "Of course!" I think you help me? Now I should stop. Soon I go on station to go to Moscow. I'm very much excited!!! You can think as I is excited? I'm happy to see you very soon!!!

Happy and with love Tanya.

Letter 13

Hi my loved John, I shall soon see you!!!

Now I in Moscow. John! I've specially arrived beforehand to not be late aboard the plane. But now I've a problem. I can't get registration and the sanction in anti-immigration committee. I've been informed that according to the law for Citizens of Russia who leave our country with visa without residence permit, if I go to your country I'm obliged to have cash as confirmation that I possess monetary resources. I can't receive sanction to get registration at the airport. I'm obliged to show them 500 dollars. If I've 500 dollars I will receive registration and the sanction of anti-immigration committee. The law obliges me to have money as confirmation, that in your country I will have money resources for existence and livelihoods during that time which I will spend there. I should show 500 dollars. If I will show money, I will receive confirmation that I possess monetary resources and I will get the official sanction to leave my country with the visa. Otherwise they have no right to let me go to your country. Please, as soon as possible send me 500 dollars. I will show this money and I will receive the sanction. This money are necessary for me only to show at anti-immigration committee. I will give you this money right at the airport. I should not pay anything. I simply should show money and then I can leave customs house. Please, send me money as soon as possible because I've no money. John, my nerves on a limit. I got the formal notice, according to which I should have money to leave my country according to the law. I cannot write much because I use the Internet - cafe and I've no money for that. Here only three computers and so many people. I should spend night in Moscow in a waiting room. It's much more terrible than I thought. Tomorrow I again will use Internet - cafe to receive your letter. I can't be in Moscow for a long time, because I have no money for a meal and a for the night lodging. I only have slightly of meal that I took at home for my trip in a train. Now already evening. I should receive the sanction of anti-immigration committee as soon as possible because I can't be in Moscow for a long time. I'm nervous very much. With love.

With love your Tanya.