Letter(s) to Jerry (USA)

Letter 1

Hi, my new friend,Jerry!I bring apologies for that that not at once has answered you. I am glad that you have answered me. I was not sure that you would write. Thank you that you found time for the answer. I think that you have many questions for me.I will try to tell you everything about me. I hope that you will tell me about yourself too. I don't know what to tell you about myself at the beginning, but I hope that you will understand me.
OK I will try to begin. My name is Tatyana. My friends call me Tanya. You can call me as you want. I won't be offended. I am 30 years old. I was born on February 10 in 1974 year.
My height is 5 feet 6 inches. My weight is 115 pounds. Probably you will be very much afflicted when you find out that I live not in your country. But I very much hope that it does not frighten you, because I the same lady like many other ladies living in the different countries. I the same person with heart and soul.
I live in village Shchekino. Shchekino is situated near town Tver, Russia. Tver' is 167 km west from Moscow. There are near 2 thousands people in Shchekino. It is a very old village.
I began to get education in the secondary comprehensive school. After I finished it I entered the medical college. I finished it with excellent results and entered Medical University. At present I work in a small Dental polyclinic. I work as a dentist. We have a little collective, but very friendly. Jerry, I shall have an opportunity to send you letters only from Monday till Friday, because I haven't got a computer at home. I use a computer at my work. On work I can use a computer almost freely. So it is more convenient for me to write you from my work. Though it too depends not from me. With a computer works another employee. I have not bad relations with her, but she can give me a computer only when she has a free time. For this reason I hope that you understand me.
My new friend, answer my questions, if you can:
1. Do you like your job?
2. What is your favourite film? 3. What kind of music do you like? 4. Have you ever had a friend from the other country?(the friend on correspondence).
I thank you for your answers beforehand. My new friend, you may not answer these questions if you don't want. In my next letter I shall necessarily answer other your questions. I will tell to you what music and what cinema I like. I send you my picture. I hope to you it is pleasant.
I will waiting for your letter with impatience.

Letter 2

Hi, Jerry!
Today I had so much work that I was afraid that I wouldn't have time to get your letter. And I have to say that this frightened me. But now I have found free time and very glad. Thank you for your kind letter. My last letter was sad. That's why today I will try not to write about sad things.
Unfortunately I had no opportunity to write to you earlier. Please forgive me for a delay. I hope you are not offended on me. But better later than never.
Happy birthday to you!!!
Happy birthday to you!!!
Happy birthday Jerry!!!
Happy birthday to you!!!
In Russia usually speak the wishes for hero of the day. I want that all your dreams came true. I wish that any troubles and misfortunes have forgotten road to your house. I wish for you only the enjoyment, only pleasure, only Love. I very much regret about that that could not write to you earlier. I on work had problems with a computer. Something has broken and him took away in repair. But have brought only today in the morning. At me was not valid opportunities to write to you. I hope that such not repeat any more. Once again I ask to forgive me for that that did not write to you long time. Today my colleges have good mood because today all our collective goes to the circle. This is a Moscow Zoo which has come to Twer for a week. This is great news because The Moscow Zoo Is the biggest zoo in the country. So everybody discuss only this news. Everybody wants to visit the ZOO because the tour will last only for several days. I like animals very much and I have never seen Moscow Zoo. I have never seen alive tigers and bears. Have you ever seen a tiger or a bear? The biggest animal I saw in my life is a horse. I like horses very much and think that these are the most beautiful animals in the planet. As matter of fact I have always dreamt to have some pets - a cat or a dog. But when I think that a little puppy will wait for me at home alone I feel pity. That's why I don't have pets.
I always wait for weekends with impatience, because I get tired mentally and physically at the work. That's why weekends are the only possibility for me to rest and to get new forces. Weekends I spend differently. Sometimes I want simply to rest in my apartment. I like my apartment - little and cosy. On weekends I always clean the apartment properly. I like purity. And though I always try to keep my apartment clean, there is always something to do about the house on weekends. But when I want really to relax I listen to music or read books. I like to read books especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I don't like to read western or detectives, though lately I read stories about Sherlock Holmes with pleasure. I like to spend time with my friends. I have two best friends. We are friends for 20 years. When we meet with friends the air is filling with laughter. We like to walk and communicate, we go to movie and to the park. If you want I can tell you about my friends. I like to spend time in nature in the open air very much. In Russia camping is very popular. I adore to go to the forest and to live in a tent though now I have seldom such an opportunity. I like to look at night fire. I like to look at the stars very much. In June the sky is strewed with stars. It is incredible beautiful. I like to cook on the fire. There is no more wonderful when in the air the fragrances of forest, river and smoke mix together. I am romantic undoubtedly. I really like cooking. I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well don't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the man's heart. May be she is right. I like Russian dishes and my favourite dish is pancakes. I am not sure if you know such dish. This is a Russian national dish.
What dishes do you prefer Jerry?
I don't know if I told you about my father. It is unpleasant for me but I have to tell you about it. I have never seen him. My mother told me that he had left us when I was very little. That's why I don't remember him. I have never asked my mother abuot him. And she didn't tell me. To tell the truth I don't want to know where he is and what he is now. I have a question for you. Are there many devorces in USA? In Russia it is a very frequent thing. Many men in Russia are alcoholics and that's why women can't live with them further. My mother didn't married anymore and that's why I don't have brother or sister.

Letter 3

Hi, my dear friend Jerry! I hope you not against if I say so. Thank you for your letter. From day to day I feel more necessity to get your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I should say that when I have good mood my patients cry less (smile). So healthy smiles of our children now depend on your letters (smile again).
At your work are you an actual dentist that pulls teeth and repairs bad teeth or are you an assistant to the dentist?
I not a assistant. I am dentist. I have a assistant who helps me, but I am not a assistant. I have passed a full curriculum and I have professional practice during three and a half of years. I make root channel and I remove a nerve, I fix dowel. I fill cavities, drill, polishing. But I do not do surgical operations.
Do you know the time difference between us?
I cannot tell precisely, but I think that about 8 hours ahead of you. I told you about my visiting Zoo and I want to tell you about it. My colleges and I were very surprised that there were so many different animals. But the most excitement was caused by the moment when we saw an elephant. This was a very big animal. Also we liked a tiger. It lied in the hutch and looked at us tenderly. but I know that this is a very strong and dangerous animal. I saw a camel. Oh, have you seen it? This is a very proud animal? I was impressed by his constant tranquility.
By the way, when I came to work today my mood was bad, because my friend fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 30 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But have already talked with the doctor and I will be allowed to spend the evening in the her chamber. In the evening I will bake a cake, buy balloons and go to the hospital. I want very much that she have good mood on her birthday. This my best friend. By the way, she works with me in the polyclinic. As matter of fact I have only two real friends - Elena and Veronica. Elena is that lady who is in the hospital. Veronica has left to the north for three months. Her grandmother lives there. My friends are not married too. We are friends for 20 years already. Elena and I are like sisters. Elena and I like to walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. This are the houses which were built before the second world war, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well or in a pit. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. There she grows potato, tomatos and cucumbers not to buy them in the market, because in winter the prices of these products rise very high. I like Shchekino. Many people in our village know each other. We have little buildings - maximum 4 floors. Veronica says that she wants to live in a big city. I don't know where it is better. Big city is a big traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres. It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our village is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfort no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there were no criminal the place could be considered as a paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately criminal in Russia is situated on a very high level. But I don't want to tell about sad things. I have to finish my letter. I don't want but I have to. Today when I will come to Elena we will speak about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Jerry? Now I am happy to get your letters. I am also happy that I have friends. I think thank you are my friend too.
Sincerely yours and with best wishes.

Letter 4

Hi Jerry, again.
I began writing the letter in the morning. Now it is 2 p.m. already. Can you imagine? I have just cured a little boy's teeth. I asked him: What do you dream about? He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't have problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often remember childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we can't to sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for long. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I hink that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me?I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. orgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please.
Do you like when your friends come to your home? I like very much when my friends come at my place. I like to cook and that's why I regale them different tasty dishes. Elena is a good cooker too and she often helps me. We often cook different dishes and regale each other. I also like to watch films with my friends at my place. It is a pity I don't have VHS or DVD players. But in Twer we have 8 TV channels and sometimes go to moovie. Our flats are very bad equiped for live. I even don't have telephone. In Twer few families have home telephones. I know that it sounds wildly, but you have to understand that Russia began to develope several tears ago. We don't have telephone even in our little policlinic. People have to come beforehand to make an appointment with a doctor. But I can try to call you from the international item of communication. Can you give me your phone number? If I can call you I will inform to you. I with very big pleasure will call you.
Yesterday I went to Elena and told her that you told her hello. I think you don't mind it? I hope that sometimes you will get aquainted. You will understand that friend can be more that brother or sister.
I will wait for your letter with impatience.

Letter 5

Hi my friend, Jerry!!!!
I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks. You have again raised my mood and have placed a happy smile on my face.
By the way Jerry, today I went to job being absolutely confident that you write to me today. Earlier I always went with an thought that you probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with an thought that your letter waits for me already. I went on the street and I smiled. I could not hide my smile. People which passed near to me looked back on me. Ladies in Russia smile rarely, because life is filled with different problems, cares, difficulties and obstacles. All this prevails over little fortunes which the lady has in her life. In Russia the lady stands on the same stair as the man already for a long time. She can do the same work as the man can. Very often In Russia the lady does the man's work - the heavy physical work. In the 19th century one Russian poet wrote about Russian woman: "Russian woman can enter in the burning house and she can stop frightened horse running towards her". The only thing she lacks is simple warm and caress, which she wants to receive from a man. This is the problem of Russian men. The Russian lady does everything for the man but doesn't get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple of tender words and gentle touching of his hands. Is it really so difficult? Is it really difficult to present your lady a romantic evening and a supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady for a man, but not a man for lady. When a woman carry heavy bags in the street no man will help her, he will only turn his look away and go farther. That's why the Russian lady never feels happy at her heart. You say that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not considered like a beautiful lady. Russian men, practically all of them, usually treat to ladies disrespectfully. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash cloths and entertain the man when he wants. For the Russian man it is a usual thing to offend a woman. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all the men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few of them. Men frequently speak dirty words (not normative lexicon) when speak with lady and consider that in it there is nothing bad.
I had boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me with bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became another person - rude and evil. Has taken a great interest in beating me, frequently struck and knocked me by hands and the next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing had happened. I began to be afraid of him and and I have left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make myself get acquainted with another man. Now I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid to give my love but get in lieu thereof the roughness.
If you have disagreements with lady, you can apply roughness? But I don't want to finish the letter with not good words. So I will tell you about Elena. Soon she will recover. Elena feels good and sais hello to you. I hope that soon she will be at home and returns to the work. I feel lonely without her. We spent good time during the dinner in the policlinic canteen.
Your Tatyana.

Letter 6

Hi my Jerry!
How your mood? Any your mood today I want to try to make even better. You have asked if I ever traveled to another country? My knowledge of other countries are limited by television show. Unfortunately outside Russia I was not. Likely it is very interesting. When I leave somewhere from city even if it is not far from my city, I am glad very much. Hardly it's can be named travel. But, for me it so. I am able enjoy what I have. This morning I didn't go to my job, because this morning I flew to my job. Today I came to my job beforehand. And I was first who came to the office. And I was happy all the day. My colleagues were surprised. They have asked me why I'm so happy. And I have simply answered that I have good mood. I have understood long ago but was afraid to admit to itself, that I have found to you feeling which did not feel before. I want to understand what in my heart. I want to feel your breath. I don't know, what's happened with me. Likely I can be named strange lady, but I have grown fond of your soul and heart. The rest is not important for me. For me the material world is not important. Only the world of calmness, fidelity and pure heart. It didn't happen to me before. The weather is sunny today. The sun brings joy. I'm glad that I have friend Jerry, and Jerry has me, Tatyana. Tell me about your thoughts and dreams. I want to know all about you. Absolutely all!(smile). BUT! Yesterday my boss informed me that I will have a vacation approximately in 2 or 3 weeks. But I have not been pleased. I did not expect that I will receive a vacation. But schedule constituted by accounts department not change. I have begun to cry, because it means that I cannot write to you. I cannot use a computer. Then I have found out that lady which gives me to use her computer, maybe will receive a vacation right after me, and if it will take place I can not use a computer two months. I have imagined that I should spend my vacation in my apartment, between four walls. I will sit without an opportunity to read your letters, I will sit in loneliness and to think of you. I will aimlessly wander on streets and every night fall asleep with tears on eyes. I waited my vacation the whole year and now I receive them but it do not bring to me pleasure. I have imagined that I should spend some months without you and in my heart has appeared awful emptiness. All world around became uninteresting for me. And I have told to myself: "NO! It not for me!" Last night I thought of us. About you and about me. About us together. I couldn't fall asleep. I thought what I can do to see you. I decided to spend this vacation with you. I thought what can I do to meet you. Simply to meet. It's all that I want now. I have a passport, but I don't a visa to your country.
Today I have addressed visas agency. I wondered how much it will cost for me to make American visa. They told me that consideration of the application on reception of the visa costs 100 dollars. This sum does not come back even in that case if my application will not be approved. And for getting a visa is necessary to go to Moscow where there is an American consulate. They have told that I will must visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions both in Tomsk, and in Moscow. It is necessary to wait for a long time the queue. It is a usual way of getting a visa and procedure of reception can be delayed for some weeks or even months. Besides if my application will not be approved, it will turn out that I squander money all for nothing. I said I can't wait so long. To me have told that is possible to avoid set of problems and to make all in faster terms if to use full package of service. Full package of service includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for Interview with commission, interview. The full package of service costs 335 dollars, but the visas agency remove all problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excessive delays. I asked how long time it will take to get a visa If to use a full package of service. They have answered that it will take about one week. Maybe 2 weeks if there will be some troubles. I have told that this variant satisfies me and I agree. I have asked, whether there will be troubles with visa, because there were the terrible terrorist actions in USA and the conflict with Iraq. I was answered that they will request information about me in the police. And if in the police they will be answered that I the law-abiding citizen, I will get the visa. I have never outraged the law. And I have never done anything unlawful. I will have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the visa. And I eally have registered the visa application with great belief and with great hope that you will be glad to meet me, with belief and with hope that you want to meet me. I really want to give you a gift - our meeting though I am not sure if you really want to meet me. Can you imagine that if everything will be well, in two weeks we can meet? If it would happen, would be it as a gift for you? Would be you happy if we could spend some days together?
I understand that our relations are not long yet. Many years I ask myself one question: "Why everything depends on money?" I think that the money is not main thing in life. The main is when the people can and want to understand each other. I have a wild desire to meet you, to embrace you. I have some savings. I do not want to cause you a monetary outlay. I will make all myself.
I know that you did not expect that I will tell all this. But it is possible to wait eternally. But in fact nobody knows that waits for us tomorrow. Maybe such opportunity will not be presented any more. I have opened to you my heart and soul. I speak what I feel. I am not confused by my feelings. I speak straight and openly. The loneliness has made me courageous. You can think that I hurry events. But I have found new feeling which never had. I am happy right now. I seem I has found what searched for long time. In Russia speak: "under a lying stone the water doesn't flow ". It mean that it is necessary to do a step onward to achieve something. I am afraid to lose an opportunity to communicate with you because I cannot eternally use office computer. But I will receive soon a vacation. During all my life I spent my vacation in my village. But now I can spend my vacation with my friend, with you! It is big happiness. I should use this opportunity. In my heart never was such confidence and feeling. And I am afraid to lose it. May be I hurry events, but I am afraid that all will be terminated, and then I will go mad. You my dear friend, and friends meet sometimes. I shall receive a vacation, it's my vacation and I want to spend it with my dear friend. I think it will be wonderful. I apologize, if have offended you. I hope, that you do not regard my words as impudence. I simply want to meet and spend some happy days with you. What will be after, I do not know. But all people meet. The distance does not frighten me. But without a meeting there can not be a continuation. I hope, that your feelings to me have not changed after that. But I want to see you to slightly becalm my tormented heart. Tell me please, can you meet me? Tell me please, you will be glad to meet me? You will be glad if I will arrive to you?
I believe and I hope that I have not angered and have not offended you. I believe and I hope that you have feelings to me. I believe and I hope that you want to meet me. It can be outlined in advance by destiny. I sincerely hope that my letter has brought pleasure to you. And I sincerely hope that you want to meet me to spend some time together. And I sincerely hope that you would be happy to meet me. Would you be happy?
Much tenderness from Tatyana!!!

Letter 7

Hi, my Jerry.
There is a fine news to me and to you - I have received the visa. I send you it. I shall have also vacation on July, 20.
Today I went to the company which reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Atlanta (ATL) and how much it costs. They answered me that the ticket costs $ 2003 USD. I asked them to find cheaper tickets, because this price is expensive for me. They answered that they had a cheaper ticket but the beginning of the flight 27-July-04. It costs $ 1684 USD. I asked them to reserve a ticket. But they refused, because they have a lot of clients at this time and they can't reserve my ticket without advance payment. I spoke with them for a long time and asked to reserve the ticket for me without advance payment but they didn't agree. Then I wondered if it is possible to pay a part of the money now and the other part later. They didn't agree. I spoke with them for a long time and I managed to persuade them. They agreed. We agreed that I would pay a part of the price today and the other part later.
I paid $ 952 USD. But it was little for an initial payment. Then I went to the pawnshop and pawned my silver and gold embellishments for $ 320 USD. It was my last money. The number of the flight on which I reserved the ticket is Delta 31.
The time of departure from Moscow is 1:30 pm.
The time of arrival in Atlanta is 10:47 pm.
I shall arrive in New York (JFK) number of the flight Delta 1285. I will change a plan in Washington DC (DCA), number of the flight Delta 883.
After this I will fly to Atlanta, to you Jerry.
It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything that I could. I paid visa. I paid a part of the ticket. But his money is not enough. I didn't want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. Now I have to pay the remaining part. It is only $ 412 USD. I have to pay this money before 17-July-04 morning. Otherwise I will lose my money and ornaments.
If you need me, if you trust me and if you want to see me, please, send the money for the ticket before 17-July-04 morning. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of wife and husband or union of boy-friend and girl-friend or union of business partners. I don't want to be hypocritical. That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman whom you won't trust. Also I would not like to give my love to the man which I won't trust. It's a first check for us. And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other. That's why I was the first who made the first step. Step to you. Of course if you don't want, you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. IT IS BAD TOO BUT NOT FATAL TOO. I paid $ 335 USD for making visa, and I paid a part of the ticket- $ 1272 USD. It is big money for me, but I TOLD YOU ALREADY THAT MONEY IS NOT THE MAIN THING IN THE LIFE. But I trust you, and I know that YOU ARE A MAN OF HONOUR AND YOU ARE A GENTLEMAN. I don't want you top doubt in my honesty and that's why I am sending you the view of my visa.
If you can help me I send you my coordinates. I give you necessary elements for sending money with the help of ?Western Union?:
Bank Baltiyskiy
Zhelyabova st. 3
Tver Russia 170624
for Kuzminyh Tatyana.
To get the money, I should tell to employee of bank your full name, full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number), which will give you, when you will send the money.
Please forgive to me all my words. I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will have no use. I need you and I want to be with you and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. We will pass through difficulties and barrier, it is much easier to do it together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity.
I understand that it is the big money for you. I did not want to ask you. I thought that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without help, and to rely only on myself. I ask somebody for help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make your step towards me. I hope that I have not offended you something. I need you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step between us. I am waiting for your reply.
Kiss you.
Your Tatyana.

Letter 8

Hi Jerry!
I would not ask you about the help if all went well. As you remember I wrote to you about that that who that tried to break my door. (you at all would not know about it). I had to insert new. I do not want to live in an apartment in which it is easily possible to get to the thief. In the second I expected for holiday money. In Russia give out holiday money only when the worker comes to work after a vacation. I wrote the official report to the boss that to me have paid money up to a vacation. But to me have explained that can pay them only in the most important cases: death of the close person or on wedding process. I too strongly expected for this money. But my chief has given up. I have more to ask about the help not of whom. Therefore I have addressed to you Jerry. now I ask you about the help when there was only a step up to our meeting. I made all to organize our meeting, but have failed. More I have nobody to address except for you Jerry. you my last chance.
Of course I am guilty in it. I knew that I should rely only on myself. I really expected to make all. But I could not find all sum and on this I have addressed to you. I have got used to live without any help. But there are moments when I really need help. In it there is nothing surprising. I the person. I am lady. And if I ask about the help a man, I am not ashamed it. I never asked anybody to help me; I always did all what in my forces and never complained of my distress. Pride did not allow me. But I am not omnipotent. I have overcome myself and have addressed to you for the help. I am not God and not all in this world depends on me. And if I ask the help, it only because I really need in help. The word of honor if I could do without your help, I would not began to ask you about the help. I was helped by Elena, I have sold dear to me things. I did not want to ask you. But now I stand in front of necessity to address to you. You are last person to whom I has addressed for the help, but not a first. I wanted to make for you a surprise. But I could not. But I have you, you my hope and my support and I think that if I ask you the help, it not a sin. I really want to be with you. I understand that I should make all by itself. But I could not and I leave my destiny in your hands. I need you. Please forgive me. I hope for you. With all my love and hope.
Today I tried to call to you. But us could not connect. I shall try to call also to you tomorrow.
Your Tatyana.

Letter 9

Hi my soul Jerry.
Many thanks to you for that that you have understood me but I had not to take advantage of your money. I have found all money and have paid residual cost of the ticket in time. I was helped with it by Elena. She has asked this money from the aunt and has told that we shall necessarily give little later. And such chance for me has dropped out only once in a life. And I believe her, she cannot advise me bad, in fact she my best friend.
Yesterday I began to knit a sweater for you. It will be my gift. I knit a sweater of Angora wool. Do you like a sweater? Do you like wear a sweater when in the street cool? But I am absolutely sure that you will like this sweater. I make it with such big love. I make it so studiously. It will be the best sweater in America. Color - is slightly darkest than white. Very beautiful color. I want to make on a forward part of a sweater an inscription - a name. First I wanted to make name - Tatyana or Tanya. But now I want to make a name - Jerry. And I do not know that you want. The name will be not big. You have 4 days to make the decision - what name you want to see on a breast. If you do not write to me, I will take the decision by itself, but I will not tell you. I will give you this sweater at the Airport. Do you like my idea?
Soon we will be together and it will be wonderful. If we fated to become single whole, I believe that it will be. Our hearts are like two great oceans. They are vast and very deep yet calm an peaceful on the surface. Our feeling run very deep and they are very strong. Sometimes we get afraid we will be pulled under by the current. I dream that our two oceans will meet in a powerfull wave that will shake the very earth. And when all is done there will be one vast beautiful ocean, beautiful, powerful and forever...one heart, one ocean. Jerry you have given me much more than you can realize. You are my prayer, my shelter from hopelessness and despair, only you can keep the spark in my soul burning bright.
Your Tatyana.

Letter 10

Hi my dear Jerry! Right now I'm in Moscow and I write you this message from the Internet (Cyber) Cafe. And I have one trouble. I have paid money for my visa. My ticket we have bought together with you. But it was insufficiently for our meeting. The men from Airport Service has told me, that I should have extra money (not less than 500 USD) to get to USA. I have answered, that I haven't extra money, and it was the truth: when I've left my home I've had American visa, air-ticket up to Atlanta, the train-ticket and a little money (about 800 Russian rubles for a meal and other charges) They have explained me that extra money is necessary to convince the American Government, that I'm a decent (right) girl, and when I will get on the American territory, I shall not become the tramp or the prostitute, and that I should have money for the hotel as any tourist. I have told them, that I really am tourist and I have shown them my tourist visa. But the man has smiled and has told me that he never saw tourists without money. These words have offended me very strongly. I have told them, that in Atlanta I will be met by my beloved man, and that I fly directly to him. I wanted to give them your phone number, but they have refused call to you. Unfortunately your phone number was for them not too convincing argument. He has demanded from me to show him at least 500 American Dollars. And I have answered, that I have no such money. I was confused. I for a long time swore at them. But in any case I should pay 500 USD. Otherwise I will not get aboard the plane. But you should not worry, because I will get this money back, when I arrive to Atlanta. My love Jerry as soon as possible send me 500 USD.
Yours Tatyana.