Letter(s) to Charles (UK)

Letter 1

Hello,my dear angel,
how happy I am to meet you here !
Every your next letter brings bright light to my life !
It's not simply the words ! You really means a lot for me now !
Letter by letter you become very important part of my life !
I feel like I have been knowing you for a long time ! So easy to communicate with you !
You are very special for me ! I'm so afraid to loose you.
You know, once when I was a little girl I had a kitten. It was a nice,fluffy grey, friendly kitten presented me by my Granny one day.
He was my everything. He was my small world,I loved him with all my heart, I took care of him.
He meant so much to me and I couldn't imagine my life without him. I felt like when I loose him,
I will loose everything. I needed him like the air to breathe. And one day I woke up after the midday dream, like an every child and I was told the terrible news. My kitten was lost.
My world crashed down that minute...I have been crying for several days, my parents made an announcements trying to find my Haze, but there were no result. I walked down the streets,
whispering his name, hoping that he will hear me. I even tried to convince myself that it was just a bad dream and when I open my eyes my fluffy miracle will jump up to my hands, as he always did, but he never came back.
Such an awful word... never. I felt pain and despair, because I've realized terrible meaning of this fatal word- never. And there is no chance to remedy something- NEVER. The only thing that I had were memories,that made my heart suffer. I never had a cat after that, as I was afraid to loose again. And I am sure that people are not absolutely right who tell that time treats and rub off all the love and the soul will find another one. Can you imagine how awful it is when you don't have a beloved one in your life? And you will never be happy with another one and you realize it quite well,as you need another heart in order to love another one.
You may be surprised with everything I wrote, but it's just now I feel that I am loosing you and I am so afraid that it is possible that I have to come through all that once again...
I never meant to hurt you and I am sorry if I offended you, but anyway I tried to explain you with this story that you mean so much to me and that I need you so much in my life, as you make my life brighter, every day when I get your letter is a holiday for me.
I feel for you and I don't want to let you go, but there is one thing that make me think about it.
As you know, my English is not very good to communicate with you by my own, so I had to use the services of translating firm "Nika". I don't want you to think that I am a lazybone, of course not as I have been learning English by my own. Sure the results right now are not the best, but I am sure that I will reach my goal as I have a strong reason for it and this reason is you...
So, all this time I have been using the services of translator and every letter costs me $5. I am sorry but it is too much for me, I can't pay for our correspondence anymore. You may think that I am one of those who search for money. I am sorry that our women have such a reputation and I am sorry that due to them our women do not have a chance to find their destiny even if they are serious in their intentions.
You may advice me to use the Internet cafe, I already thought about it, it will just be the same price for me as I am as bad in typing as my English is and it takes much time of Internet using and costs nearly the same price.
I am so sorry to realize that it is the time to stop...as I thought it was just the beginning...
I don't want to say good bye to you, but if you decide that the best variant for us is to stop right now, I am not going to judge you, but I still; hope that it is just the beginning, but not the end...
Anyway, if you are still interested in me, you may contact nika_1990@mail.ru
to get the detailed information of payment for their services.
I will be thinking of you and I hope to hear form you...
Sending you my sweetest kiss,
With all I feel for you,
Marina