Letter(s) to Charles (USA)

Letter 1

Hi, my new friend Charles!
I am very glad that you have answered my letter. Thank you that you have found time for answer. I do not know what to write to you in my first letter because I never wrote letters and did not get acquainted on the Internet before. But I think will be correct if I will start to tell about me from the very beginning because I was first, who has written first letter. I really do not know as far as my life is interesting to you, but I think, if something will be not interestingly for you, you will tell me about it. Probably you will be very much afflicted when you find out that I live not in your country. But I very much hope that it does not frighten you, because I the same lady like many other ladies living in the different countries. I the same person with heart and soul. And if your interest is not limited by distance or borders, I really will be very glad.
My name is Olesya as you know. I am 30 years old. My birthday is on the February 23, 1976. My height is 168 cm (5 feet 6 inches). My weight is 52 kg (115 pounds). I live in the village of city type Kabardinka. Kabardinka is located in 10 miles from the city of Novorossiysk, Russia. Novorossiysk the big and known city in the south of Russia on coast of Black sea. In the childhood I dreamed to become a film actress as all girls, but it were children's imaginations only. My education consist of three steps. School - College - University. I began to get education in the comprehensive school. After I finished it I entered the medical college. I finished it with excellent results and entered the Medical University. Till now I worked in a small polyclinic. I worked as a assistant to the surgeon. Very interesting work but unfortunately for me it was necessary to leave from this work. There paid a very little. Now I work as the manager in a bureau of registration of a marriage. This small bureau in our village. It is very interesting work. I love the work, is especial when I look at happy persons of a newly-married couple and you speak to them " now you the husband and the wife ". I have a small house with a small garden. I live one, I do not have children and boyfriend. I already adult woman to me 30 years already, and I look at a life with a philosophical shade. But as though I did not try to inspire myself that I absolutely happy woman, I cannot do it. I have fine girlfriend, I have work and house. But there are things without which people cannot be happy. And for me it's not material things, but spiritual. I have written to you the first and it means that I am ready to share with you my thoughts. I am very glad and grateful to you for that that you have answered me because I have decided to take only one chance in dialogue through e-mail. And if my letter to you would remain without your answer, I think I would not use this way second time. Anyhow, I hope that you, as well as I, have interest in our dialogue, and I will wait your answer. I with pleasure will tell to you about it in my next letter if you really want to learn more about me. Do you like your job, Charles? Have you ever had experience in correspondence with a friend from other country?
I thank you for your answer beforehand. If you do not want to answer this question, please do not answer. It simply my female curiosity. I send you my photo. I understand that all people have various tastes and interests, but I sincerely hope that my picture and my appearance will be pleasant for you. But if my appearance does not conform to your tastes and interests, I will understand you, of course.
Many thanks for your picture. You a very handsome man. You really have pleasant appearance.
I am sorry that I did not answer your letter at once. Forgive me, but I had no opportunity to take advantage of a computer. I have no computer of a house and consequently I use a computer on my job. If you some time in the future not will receive my letters it does not mean I do not want to write to you more, it only because I very much busy on job or have no access to computer But I shall try to write to you is more often if you want to talk to me in the future. I very much hope for it.
With the best regards.

Letter 2

Hi Charles!
How are you today? I hope at you all well. I also feel well because you have written to me. I am very glad to this. Now I on work also write to you the letter. I spoke you already that I have no computer of a house and I shall write to you from job when I shall have a free time and a working computer will not be borrowed.
Likely you want to know why I do not search for destiny in Russia. I have collided the big cruelty and disrespect. There is one very weighty circumstance because of which I have no the friend here, and do not want. The young and beautiful guy has acted with me very much cruelty. I am not ready to tell about it yet. It is difficult and hurt for me. Can be later. But I can tell that first I could not find to myself the friend in Russia, and now I do not want. I do not believe Russian guys. I cannot go to travel across Russia in searches of prince. But I have decided to try to find my destiny through the Internet.
I am looking for a man to share lifelong love. To share with him all pleasures. For the sake of him I will be ready to pass through all misfortunes and misery. For love there are no barrier and borders. If I will find love, for me also there will be no barrier, borders and distances.
Many thanks for your picture. Very pleasantly. You such strong and handsome man. You really have a nice face.
In the last letter I have no written about my family and I want to make it now. I was born and now I live in Kabardinka. I do not remember the Father because he did not live with us. I was brought up by mum since the childhood. She was very good woman and we lived with her very well. She was for me my best friend and the most close person on the Earth. Unfortunately now she is not present with me. She for a long time had a cancer of a stomach and in 2002 has died. To me there were 26 years, but I felt like the unprotected child whom has remained alone. I very for a long time grieved for her death and could not believe that I have remained without my most favourite person - without my mum. I felt emptiness in the soul. I till now recollect her kind eyes, a soft voice and caring hands. I had very happy childhood because near to me there was my mum. Many people do not remember the childhood but I remember the childhood very well and I am grateful to mum for happiness which had in the childhood especially remember one case. Up to school I visited a kindergarten. Once I played with other children and have casually twisted a foot. To me rendered medical aid and have called my mum from her work to tell about happened. She has come to me and wanted to conduct me home. But it was hurt for me to go. Mum has taken me on her hands and to bear on hands up to a house though it was very far. This case has remained in my memory for all life. Then I have especially felt love of my mum when on her hands I felt heat of her body and her care of me. There can be you will think that it is a trifle, but for me this case is very important. I think that with you in the childhood there was something similar. I am right?
Now I live one in the house. It is the small house but very cosy. After death of my mum I feel very alone. I have no brothers or the sisters, close relatives at me are not present also. Now the relatives for me is my friends. I have many friends but only two friends for me close. It Natalja and Nelli. I to be friends with them since the childhood. Friends of the childhood the most reliable and I can always address to them for the help and support in a difficult situation. Unfortunately now Natalja has left to live for other city. She has married and husband has taken away her from our village. But we frequently write each other letters. Nelli lives near to my house and we meet with her every day. Her care and support for me are very important now. I think that the friendship is important and necessary for each person. How you think? You can tell to me more about yourselves and about your close people? If it will not be difficult for you. You can ask me about something also. I shall answer your questions with pleasure.
Today I send you a picture of me and Natalja which have left for other city together with her husband.
It is very a pity, but I have a little time for the letter. I wanted to tell much more about myself. I hope you be interested in me and my life. I shall try to tell to you more in the following letters. You will be patient? (Smile).
With the best regards.

Letter 3

Hi Charles!
How your mood? How is weather? I have not heard from you some time. I hope you are all right. Today I had difficult day on work but now I have a little free time on work and have decided to write to you the letter.
I want to tell to you about my interests and hobbies. I hope to you it will be interesting to read it. (Smile) I like various music. All depends on mood. I like to listen classical music. I like Dunaevski And Chajkovsky. I like to listen simply instrumental music. Such music allows to relax and have a rest. Under such music I like to think. I like to listen to guitar masterpieces of Joe Satriani. I very much like group Dire Straits. I like Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is great group. I like Madonna, Robbie Williams and George Michael and many others. In America many great musicians. I like many Russian musicians. For example Philip Kirkorov, Valeria or groups: Chaif, Splin. But you likely do not know them. I very much like cinema. In Russia create few good films. I like works of such directors as Tarkovsky, Konchalovsky, Mikhalkov. My favourite movies - Siberian Barber and Tired by the Sun. It's masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The American movies in Russia use huge popularity. The American movies is considered the greatest. I very much like the American movies and I like many American actors. For example: Gladiator, Brave Heart. Mel Gibson - good actor. I like films - The Sixth Sense, the Rainman, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Gone with the Wind, Magnificent Seven, the Godfather, Groundhog day, The Scent of a Woman. My favourite actors - Bruce Willis, Al Pacino, Kevin Costner, Samuel L. Jackson, Julia Roberts, Tom Hanks, Demi Moore, Kevin Spacey. I have some favorite shows. For example - ''Wildlife'' from BBC. They show extremely beautiful views of the nature and animals. I very much like to look programs about nature and animals. I like to watch games of NBA very much. It's a fantastic show. But unfortunately NBA games practically do not show. I like to look games NHL. Especially when show the best pucks. Likely to watch this in real life is much more interesting than in the TV. I am glad that our Bure and Fedorov have big popularity in your country, I'm right? I know that in your country is very popular the American football. It is magnificent show as well. The biggest ratings on TV have Criminal Programs where tell about crimes occurring during day and week, leaders and authorities of criminal Russia, juvenile murderers and rapists, addicts, maniacs, etc, because the crime level in Russia is extremely high. These programs like to watch the majority of people, but I do not like. I prefer to watch some musical and entertaining shows, but as a rule it is our programs and you do not know them of course. Now you likely think that I all days only sit in front of TV-set with full mouth of popcorn (smile). But it's wrong at all. Actually I watch TV-set extremely seldom. I have no time and forces to watch TV-set. My health is the supreme class. I do not brag. I really have good health because I always support me in the good form. I every morning jog, I try to spend time in the air as much as possible. I have no car and I use transport extremely seldom. I get contrast shower. I since the childhood lived in conditions of cold winter and damp autumn. Such climate toughens health very well. I do not smoke and I do not drink alcoholic drinks. I really like a healthy way of life. And I am proud of it.
My hobby if it is possible so to say, this sewing and knitting of clothes. In the winter I love a ski and skates. It is possible endlessly to speak that I like, but I want to tell that I do not like also. I do not like jealous people. I do not love lie and a deceit. I do not like cruelty and roughness. I also do not love people drinking alcohol a lot of. But I repeatedly heard that Americans do not use alcohol as in Russia. I think that each person should know the measure of opportunities. This quality of strong-willed and responsible people. I not against if a man like to sit in a bar with friends together a mug of beer or to invite lady in restaurant to a glass of champagne. Also to not like me bad meal and cloudy days. (Smile)
I would like to share with you a picture so you will know now about my best friend Nelli.
I should finish the letter. I have no more time for letter. I shall write to you later still.
I shall wait for the letter from you.

Letter 4

Hi my Charles.
Sorry it took me so long to get back to you. Today fine day. How your mood Charles? I have fine mood, but I miss your letters. I hope you are all right. Now you are my friend and I worry about you. I hope, that you have not lost interest in me, and you only too busy on work.
Yesterday I had bad mood.Yesterday there was a strong rain. I spoke you already I live in the house. My house beautiful and cosy, but old and in some places during a rain the roof has leaked. It very much afflicts me, but I cannot repair a roof of a house itself. Man's hands are necessary for this purpose. I caused recently the carpenter and he fixed my roof, but has told that it is necessary for me to change all roof. Yesterday, during a rain I have decided to change a roof in the near future. It now is necessary especially. I probably have tired you with my small problem. Fairly to tell I want to repair the house completely. But it only my plans for the future. Nelli has told that she will help me with repair. She always offers me the help. I am glad that I have such good friend. She for me as native and we frequently spend time together. By the way, I spoke her about you and she is very glad, that we with you write each other. Nelli speaks that is necessary for me good the man which would help me and loved me. Really frequently it happens me very alone by one, but I do not despair and I believe in the good destiny. I believe in the God and in his help. I do not remember spoke you whether or not but I have a cat. His name Barsik. He is very beautiful cat. I like to look after and play with him. Barsik very tender cat and loves me also. Every day he meets me when I come home and sees off me for work. You will laugh but for me it is very important to know that me someone waits for a house, even if it simply my kitten. I hope you like pets. I heard that if the person likes pets and to care of them he the good family man. I believe in it. Nelli also has a cat of a house and our cats like to play with each other. I probably is tell with enthusiasm about it, it is probable to you not interestingly, but I wanted to tell to you about most close and dear to me.
In the days off I shall be probably prepared for fixed of roof and search the people which can help me. I in the thoughts already present my house after repair. I think after repair it will be a fine and cosy house.
Forgive me Charles probably I has written the boring letter, but I thought that it will be pleasant for you Charles to know my ideas.
I shall finish the letter and I shall try to write to you soon. By way, Nelli asked me to tell to you Hi from her. I have told to her about you, I hope you are not offended on me for it.
With the best regards.

Letter 5

Hi, my dear friend Charles! I hope you not against if I say so.
Thank you for your letter. From day to day I feel more necessity to get your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter.
I work in a bureau of registration of a marriage, you remember? Today there was an interesting case from one of young pairs. It is young nice pair. They have arrived to a bureau on five beautiful white cars together with friends and relatives. It was really the noisy company. When all were directed upwards on a ladder for an official part the bride has broken a heel on a shoe and has not fallen nearly. She was seized by the groom and by that has dropped him downwards on a stairs. First there was a silence among friends and relatives. Then all have started to laugh silently. People speak it is a good sign. Such cases happens seldom much. I understand them. Ceremony of wedding very responsible and many young pairs very much worries and happens many different incidents. Even happened as at movies - the young pair reconsider to marry directly ceremony of wedding. But basically all ceremonies pass easy and precisely. Therefore the majority of people are very superstitious. Especially it concerns to young generation. In Russia it is a lot of divorces and this parameter every year grows. I think that because of these adult mistakes suffer our children. A full family of mother, father and children is important for everyone in the family. Especially for the young children who need love, affection and education from both parents. Do you agree with me?
I work here two years already, but my work seems to me same interesting as in the beginning. In our bureau an atmosphere always celebratory and consequently my mood always good also. The woman who is responsible for the book of registration of a marriage works 42 years already in bureau, she is 67 years old. Her name is the Aunt Vera. She very clever and the fine interlocutor, but she till now one. Many people who knows her are perplexed. The aunt Vera has worked many years in a bureau of registration of a marriage, but itself is single till now. It really is very strange, but in Russia many women remain lonely till an old age. Charles in the USA many lonely people also?
I should finish the letter.
With the best regards.
Your Olesya.

Letter 6

Hi my Charles.
I miss your e-mails. I hope you are OK and all is well with you. I hope, you only too busy on work. Your letters are necessary for me every day more and more. These make me happy.
Today I was late for work. In the morning to me has come the neighbour - the old grandmother when I only have woken up. She very good woman and we frequently address to each other with different trifles. She lives one. Her husband has died five years ago and at present she do not have nobody to help. But she is not lonely. She has son and the daughter. But they very seldom come to her. To the senior son 39 years and daughters 34 years. They already for a long time have own families and have moved to live in city. Certainly they too can be understood. Children need good education, which it is possible to receive only in city. I certainly do not blame them. But to forget about old mother it is impossible. Do you agree with me?
Today she has come to me with a small problem. Her lock on entrance door has been spoiled and she could not close it. I have gone to look her door. I have tried to make the lock by myself, but could make nothing. The locksmith from me has failed (smile.) It was necessary to call the expert. Mariia Sergeevna (is name of neighbour) was afflicted certainly but that can make two women when the expert is required. I have a little calmed her, she the sick and her is impossible to been afflicted. She should to lay in hospital but she has not agreed and now I make to her injections every day. I have promised to her to call the expert. On my work the man which looks an economic part in our bureau. He drinks alcohol much, but has "able hands" (so in Russia speak about Craftsmans who very well know and perform the work). I want to ask him to help the neighbour with her door. Today I did not see him still but when I shall see I shall necessarily tell to him. The help is necessary for old people. Especially our state is very bad thinks about old people. Their pension very small also is not had any social protection. The medicine are expensive paid and all money they to spend for medicines. Certainly it is not fair, but economy of Russia in bad condition. Certainly I am not interested in a politics but the question about social protection always interested me. I heard in the USA social protection of the population on top-level or not?
Forgive me, but I should finish. I have no time more.
I shall write to you later.
Your Olesya.

Letter 7

Hi my Charles!!!
How you? How do you feel? I hope well. Now I have a little free time on work and I write to you the letter. I hope you like to read my letters? (Smile). I think yes. Because your letters are necessary for me also.
Last night to me came the neighbour again. I promised her to call the craftsman. I was very glad, when I have met the craftsman on work. I asked him to help the old neighbour and he has not refused. He sacrifice working hours and has gone to my neighbour to make a door. I have told to him where it is necessary to go. After two hours he has returned for work and has told to me that he has repaired a door. I have thanked him for his kindness. He has told also - neighbour offered him a bottle of vodka for his work and the help but he has refused a bottle. It was even more pleasant for hearing for me. In Russia many people which offer vodka as a payment for the help, and our craftsman likes to drink of alcohol but did not take from the old grandmother a bottle. Sometimes I am surprised about kindness of Russian soul. Russian are ready to help unselfish to other people and to not demand instead of anything. It very much high quality. I think my neighbour have remained is pleased door. She will necessarily thank me also when I shall come to her to make injections. Most likely I shall not refuse her tea with pies, which she a bake itself if she will offer it. I love her pies. These remind me my mom. My mom to bake pies frequently and as well my mom has learned me to this but if to speak fairly, I a bake pies in the days off and on holidays only.
Girlfriends speak that my pies are tasty also. The American women to bake pies?
Unfortunately I should finish the letter. Today I wanted to come home earlier. It is necessary for me to make some homework and to go to neighbour. I shall write to you later necessarily.
With the best regards.
Your Olesya.

Letter 8

Hi my Charles!!!
I have some free time on my job and I write to you with pleasure. I hope you waited my letter and you wish to receive my letters always (smile).
Yesterday to me at last have fixed a roof. I caused craftsmans from a municipal services. I have paid not cheaply for it but now I shall be quiet. And for me any weather conditions will not be terrible (smile).
I do not remember spoke to you whether or not about my former boyfriend. I have got acquainted with him when to me were 23 years. Certainly till 23 years I met with guys also, but with Sasha (so his named) I was closer than with the others. I thought that I love him. He liked to drink a vodka frequently and roughly manhandle with me. In Russia such cases are very often also I thought that it should be and is not differently. I suffered insults and humiliations with him for a long time when he was drunk. Nelli and other my girlfriends frequently spoke me that I threw him and have found the good guy to myself, but I really trusted that he loves me. He frequently spoke me words of love when was sorry about me and I forgave him. I do not know as but I could dare to leave from him nevertheless. Now I do not regret about it. Really we both with Sasha could not be named relationship normal. I cannot introduce myself Sasha as my husband and to conceive a child with him. I would not like to give birth from such person as he. Certainly I do not want to tell that the Russian men are bad everything, but basically it so. In Russia many men to drink a vodka much and it ruins them. They become rough and badly address to women. Probably therefore I began to search for the destiny in the Internet and have written to you. Now I am glad to this and I hope for the happy future. Charles what do you think of it?
Many thanks for your new picture.
I should finish the letter and I hope you write to me soon.
With the best regards
Your Olesya.

Letter 9

Hi my Charles!
The day is wonderful today. To add to all this I have got your letter and my happiness doesn't have limits. May be today after work I will go home by foot. I like to walk along the street and to breath fresh air. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. It is very boring and lonely at home. Sometimes I don't mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But enough about it.
In the 19th century one Russian poet wrote about Russian woman: "Russian woman can enter in the burning house and she can stop frightened horse running towards her". The only thing she lacks is simple warm and caress, which she wants to receive from a man. This is the problem of Russian men. The Russian lady does everything for the man but doesn't get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple of tender words and gentle touching of his hands. Is it really so difficult? Is it really difficult to present your lady a romantic evening and a supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady for a man, but not a man for lady. When a woman carry heavy bags in the street no man will help her, he will only turn his look away and go farther. That's why the Russian lady never feels happy at her heart.
Many thanks for your another picture.
I have to finish my letter. I don't want but I have to. I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Charles? Now I am happy to get your letters. I am also happy that I have friends. I think thank that you my friend too.
Sincerely and with best wishes.

Letter 10

Hi, Charles!
How you? How your mood? I hope at you everything is all right.
Today it was especially pleasant for me to read your mail and also to write to you. Now you will understand why. Today I have fine mood. My chief has called me for discussion of working questions in the morning when I have come for work. After discussion of working themes he has told to me that one of our employees soon leaves a vacation for work and I can take a vacation. I did not expect such news and at once have thought of you. I always hastened for work faster to look your mail and to write to you letters. Every working day was for me as a holiday for this reason. Thus, if I shall take a vacation I shall not have access to a working computer. I have been afflicted from these ideas. I have told to the chief I do not want to take a vacation for me. The chief has been surprised very much and has asked the reason of my refusal. I have explained to him all and have told about you and your letters. I have told also I shall not have an opportunity to write to you Charles. He has been surprised a little and has told that I can use the vacation as I want and to meet you. I silly also could not think of it itself. It is really big chance for us and our meeting. Why I have not thought of it at once? Certainly I have agreed with the chief and have been very much pleased with an idea on our future meetings with you. He has told that I can take the vacation (24 days) at the beginning of July when another will come the employee for work from a vacation. I hope you are glad to this also. But there is other problem nevertheless. I have the passport for travel abroad but I have no the American visa. For application of the visa to the USA is needed a time and if I am going to visit you that for me shall be necessary to prepare for the visa already. I have decided to not postpone it and to address to agency of travel.
I believe and I hope that I have not angered and have not offended you. I believe and I hope that you want to meet me. It can be outlined in advance by destiny. I sincerely hope that my letter has brought pleasure to you. And I sincerely hope that you want to meet me to spend some time together. And I sincerely hope that you would be happy to meet me.
Many thanks for your new picture.
Your Olesya.

Letter 11

Hi my Charles!
How your mood? Any your mood today I want to try to make even better.
I yet do not know exact date of my vacation, but they give to us notice in advance. As soon as I find out something about my vacation, I at once shall inform to you. We receive a vacation once a year and it only 24 days when to me will give an opportunity to have a vacation. When I shall arrive to you, I can stay the greatest only 3 weeks if certainly you will not be against. I can to stay in your place? I shall not be confused thus. I shall feel like more safe with you because I do not have anyone friends or family in USA, you only the man in USA and in general abroad which I know.
Today I have addressed visas agency. I wondered how much it will cost for me to make American visa. They told me that consideration of the application on reception of the visa costs 100 dollars. This sum does not come back even in that case if my application will not be approved. And for getting a visa is necessary to go to Moscow where there is an American consulate. They have told that I will must visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions both in Novorossiysk, and in Moscow. It is necessary to wait for a long time the queue. It is a usual way of getting a visa and procedure of reception can be delayed for some months. Besides if my application will not be approved, it will turn out that I squander money all for nothing. I said I can't wait so long. To me have told that is possible to avoid set of problems and to make all in faster terms if to use full package of service. Full package of service includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for Interview with commission, interview. The full package of service costs 335 dollars, but the visas agency remove all problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excessive delays. I asked how long time it will take to get a visa If to use a full package of service. They have answered that it will take about 3 week. Maybe 4 weeks if there will be some troubles. I have told that this variant satisfies me and I agree. I have asked, whether there will be troubles with visa, because there were the terrible terrorist actions in USA and the conflict with Iraq. I was answered that they will request information about me in the police. And if in the police they will be answered that I the law-abiding citizen, I will get the visa. I have never outraged the law. And I have never done anything unlawful. I will have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the visa. And I really have registered the visa application with great belief and with great hope that you will be glad to meet me, with belief and with hope that you want to meet me. I really want to give you a gift - our meeting. I understand that our relations are not long yet. I know that you did not expect that I will tell all this. But it is possible to wait eternally. But in fact nobody knows that waits for us tomorrow. Maybe such opportunity will not be presented any more. I have opened to you my heart and soul. I speak what I feel. I am not confused by my feelings. I speak straight and openly. The loneliness has made me courageous. You can think that I hurry events. But I have found new feeling which never had. I am happy right now. I seem I has found what searched for long time. In Russia speak: "under a lying stone the water doesn't flow ". It mean that it is necessary to do a step onward to achieve something. I should use this opportunity. In my heart never was such confidence and feeling. And I am afraid to lose it.
Many thanks for your picture.
Much tenderness from Olesya!!!

Letter 12

Hi my Charles!
I am very happy that I have received time to write to you. I should inform you that I have deep feelings to you my Charles. It is valid so. Today at night I could not fall asleep for a long time. I thought of you, about our future meeting. How it will be wonderful.
I have good news for you my Charles. Today I went to agency of travel and to me inform that they have submitted my documents for the visa already and it will be necessary for me to hand over various analyses and to wait for the special invitation for interview which is necessary for getting visa. I am sure that I shall get visa and I shall come to you necessarily. I believe in the God and I think that He will help me and our meeting. In agency to me have told also that I should bring to him the characteristic from my work. The chief promised to write me it.
By the way, I today saw dream. I saw the sky, and in the sky a bird. It was the big beautiful bird of blue color. When I have woken up I have thought that it is dream about me as I hasten to you. You trust in dreams Charles? I always dreamed to be near to the loved person. I hope that I am not mistaken also I have found such person to myself. (Smile) When beside the loved person this big happiness. In Russia speak "with loved person it is possible to find paradise in a tent". It is valid so. Now I understand this saying. To me is necessary Charles beside. I always dreamed to look after the loved person, to be near to him every day and every night. Probably my dreams will come true sometime...
I would like to send you a picture taken at autumn of last year, but I should tell to you, that only 2 persons saw this picture it is me and Nelli. I hope that anybody except you not will look it. OK?
Forgive me, but I have no time more. I shall write to you next time.
Remember I always think of you and only about you my Charles.
With the best regards your Olesya.

P.S. 1000 kisses.

Letter 13

Hi my Charles! How you today? I hope you have fine mood.
Unfortunately I have no good mood today because of happened in the morning.
Today the automobile has flown near me in the morning when I hastened for work. This automobile had the big speed and has not had time to brake, when the dog has run on road. The road was slippery. Probably therefore the automobile has twirled and it has brought down a poor dog. The dog has not had time even to begin to whimper and has died at once. I have been very much afflicted with it and have burst into tears even when stood and looked at a poor dog. Drivers in Russia very much frequently drive with the big speed on roads and I sometimes even am afraid to cross roads. It happens even drunk drivers behind a rudder. And if on road instead of a dog have run out the person or the child? It would be awful. Really a life it is very short and you never find out for what reason a life can break. I believe in destiny and I think that the destiny has prepared to me not such terrible death nevertheless. Forgive me for sad thoughts, it is probable you do not want to read about sad things. But I sometimes reflect on the further life. Suddenly my life will be torn off by any drunk driver? In Russia many such cases. Certainly I not so strongly am afraid of death, I am afraid that I shall not leave anything after me. And anybody is possible will not notice loss of me except for my friends. It is really terrible and I do not want to die in loneliness. I want to live with the loved man in care, love and caress and never to think of such things. Probably I have really bothered you with the sad thoughts, but it was necessary for me to be uttered to you. I hope you will understand me. There are such moments in a life when it is necessary to state the thoughts to the close person. For me such person YOU Charles.
You speak I is beautiful. I recollect sometimes the school days. Then I was not such beautiful as now. I carried braces on a teeth and was ugly. I did not like to look in mirror at myself and all children named me "sabre teeth" at school. Probably you are dared now, but I felt unfortunate myself at that time. Mom calmed me and spoke that I shall grow the beautiful girl and I be happy. My mom was the most close person for me always. You recollect the school days? What is boy were you? Do you been happy at that time?
Forgive me. I should finish the letter.
With the best regards and kisses
Your Olesya.

Letter 14

Hi my dear Charles!
I talked with Nelli about you Charles for a long time yesterday in the evening. I told her that I wanted to meet you. Nelli supported me in my desire. She said that I could not miss a chance to see you. Nelli is very glad that I have got acquainted with you. She wants me to be happy. I hope, Charles, that one day you and Nelli will be friends. I believe that Nelli will be close to you as me.
Now I often think of you before sleeping.I think about our letters to each other. I often ask myself what will be then, when we will face to face. Charles, you know I have a plant Dieffenbachia at home. It is very beautiful, and needs much care. Now I call it Charles. I hope you are not against of it. Every morning I say to plant "Good morning, Charles". It is pity that it can't speak to me. It is very interesting how long would we be able to talk when we will met for the first time. What do you think of it? It seems to me that I want to tell you much and it will take me several days to tell all about myself.But I am shy and can be confused when I will meet you for the first time. But I think that we are more than friends that is why we will be able to speak of what we want.
I saw a plane not long ago. And I thought that these "Iron birds" allow to meet million people who are happy to see each other every day (for example Charles and I). But when I think about my future flight on board of the airplane I can't forget catastrophe of two planes. It was terrible to see grief and tears of relatives of the dead people. Now our government is sure that terrorist acts took place here. I believe that guilty people will be severely punished. They have no right to prevent peaceful people from living. I hate terrorism and violence! You should know that fear of terrorists will never stop me. I will be able to fly on board of airplane and to be not afraid of nothing. I heard that passengers are very well served during the flight. I am interested to see it.
I should finish the letter. I want to tell to you that I think of you always and I love you my Charles. By the way, Nelli says to you "Hi".
With many kisses for you.
Your Olesya.

Letter 15

Hi my Charles!
I wanted to write to you much. It is a pity, but I have no opportunity to write very long letters. But I am glad to acquaintance to you and we write each other.
Today I slept at night a little. Because the one woman's husband from our village has come drunk at home. He has banish from home the wife and children. They is such small, boys of 11 and 9 years. The husband drunk not first time. He frequently manhandled on wife, but she suffer him because if she there will be alone, that she cannot bring up children and have enough money. Also she has the small salary and it will not suffice for -feeding and clothing for children. When I have found out about problems of this woman for a long time I have told that she always came to my home and never was one with children in the street when her husband expels. I am always glad to shelter them at any time. Today also. Approximately at 2:00 A.M. she was knocked on my window. She cried. I has let her with children go in my house and calmed for a long time. Then we drank tea and talked. Children slept already. She apologized, but I have told that there is no necessity for apologies and I understand her trouble. In the morning she has gone to her home. Her husband slept and has not recollected that was at night. People in our village are abuse him frequently for it, but it is without result. Nevertheless he drinks vodka. It is very much pity to me of his children. Sometimes they come to me and help me in a garden, but I do not allow them a tough job. They only watering and then frequently play with water. But I do not swear, on the contrary I also play with them.
I spoke you about a monastery? I and my friends frequently visit a shelter for children and we help there. We bring toys we play with them and we teach them. Them there is more 40. Government of Russia finds money to contain prison for criminals but does not find money for the contents of such children. It is insulting very much. Recently I and Nelli painted a playground for children in a monastery. Many children tried to help us. It was very much amusing. Children are pleased to our coming because we frequently play with them. But it is hurt for me to look at children. They do not have parents. I never would throw the child. Many of these children have parents, but their parents are deprived the parental rights because they alcoholics or criminals. They require parental caress. Once one girl has named me the mum during game. I did not know what to tell to her for it. How to explain to her? It is a pity to me this girl. I understand her. Then I could not sleep as well thought of her. She is only of 5 years old. But I hope that in her life all will be good.
I wanted to send you a picture is surprise taken at office where I work, it is a little romantic, but I hope that you will like this picture. If you are wondering what has been written there in Russian "oaeo? ia?ii, oaiy Ieany", it was "kiss tenderly, your Olesya".
Charles I am very much tired today, but I am happy that could to write to you. Now I shall stop and I shall go home. I should go to bed earlier. By the way, Nelli has told to you "Hello".
With the best regards
Your Olesya.

Letter 16

Hi my Charles! Today I have fine mood and I wish you good mood also.
I do not know why, but today I have woken up earlier than usually. I could not fall asleep again. In the street already was sunlight. I sat near a window and began to look at street. Unexpectedly the small birdie sat down on a windowsill and began to sing. She so beautifully sang. I have opened a window, but she was not frightened and continued to be there. She looked at me and sang. The birdie at all was not afraid of me. I looked at this birdie and thought that you now somewhere there, far. I have thought that maybe you sleep and see me in your dream. And I have thought, if I was a birdie, I too would sit down to you on a window and began to sing my song. I have told to a birdie: "Fly off, my small birdie, and sing this song to my far but close friend Charles. Tell him that I think of him". And in this moment the the birdie flinch and fly off , as though she has heard my words. And I have thought, maybe this birdie really will fly to you and will sing her beautiful song. So if you Charles will see near to yourself a small birdie which beautifully sings, know that I have sent this song to you.
Now I every day think of you and about our meeting. I try to imagine it and always I present it differently. I do not know as there will be our meeting but I will be sure that it perfectly. Do you thought of our meeting Charles? Now we are far apart but our hearts together. You believe in love on distance Charles? Earlier I thought that it is impossible but when I have to get acquainted with you I think differently. I think - the main thing in the person it his soul and heart and it is not important as far he to be. You Charles have fine soul and heart and it have subdued me. Now I sit and I look in a window when I write to you. Behind a window a sundown. It is a fine sundown, but it is one more evening without dialogue with you. I shall sit in the house one and to think of you mine Charles. But I see off the sun without a regret because it will shine now to you. I hope that the sun will give you safe day and happy mood. Sun will remind you of me. I dream sometime to observe a sundown together with you Charles. I think it would be romantic very much. Are you romantic, whether not so?
Now it is necessary for me to go home and to be engaged in Housework. I would like to cook for you Charles vegetables from my garden. They have special aroma and taste and these are useful to an body also. Later for me laundry is necessary.
I should finish the letter and go home. Nelli says "Hi" to you Charles.
With the best regards.
Your Olesya.

Letter 17

Hi my dear Charles!
I have not heard from you some time. I hope you are all right. One more day has passed and it means that less and less time remained up to our meeting. Anyway I hope for it. I believe by all my heart that we will meet and it will be delightful.
By the way, I just talked with Nelli and she said that acquaintance with you has changed me. She said that I began to laugh frequently and spend near a mirror of more time than usually. I do not notice it in myself. But Nelli sees all. I must tell that she is very glad that I became such. I have blossomed like a flower under warm beams of the sun. And it is valid so. I feel constant pleasure in heart and even when I alone at home. Nelli said that if I will meet you she will be happy not less than I.
Today I speculate about you and about me. It so is surprising. As a matter of fact we live on the different sides of our planet, but we are so similar. I never was even outside of my country. To travel outside the seas and oceans for me in general outside a reality. I cannot imagine it as though I not tried. And always, as likely many people Never seeing anything except for native house, I console myself by thought, that you have the same blue sky and the same life. Maybe life behind ocean is more cheerful and rich, paints are brighter and the summer is warmer. But also as here, people cry when they feel a pain, people suffer when lose close people, women in torments give birth to children. It is identical everywhere. You and I have the same cares and problems. Every day I try to imagine that occurs in your heart, do you worry or not, do you think of me or not, do you imagine us together or not.
It is so unusual to me, and in same time I feel so conveniently as if I know you the whole eternity. And I am sure that it not accidentally. And it is not important what waits for me in the nearest future, I know that I already have found a remarkable, kind and good man and possible the future husband. And if I will see him, if I meet him and I can look in his eyes, I can tell to him everything what I cannot tell in letters, I will be madly happy. Now, today, this minute not important, where will bring me this way. I know that it is true road. I live not by the future, - I live today, and exactly today I live by bright and happy life.
I have question for you Charles. If your beloved lady would love rare flowers which are not sold in store, you would search for these flowers to present to her or you would buy other flowers, beautiful too but not her favourite?
OK! I should finish. But I shall look forward tomorrow's day to receive your letter again and try to write to you back.
With the best regards.
Your Olesya.

Letter 18

Hi my Charles! How are you today? I hope at you is all wonderfully.
In the beginning of the letter I want to tell to you "Hi" from Nelli. She asked me to make it at once. She has told that I can forget it and Nelli will worry. Do not laugh only. She really speaks to you "Hi" but sometimes I forget to write it and she takes offence at me.
Today is a very important day. I worry very much. Today I got a invitation on the conversation with the commission which deals with giving visas. It is the most important in the process of getting visa. The commission will make a final decision after the conversation - to give me visa or not. The conversation is very difficult but I am prepared. This is a difficult test which I have to go through. And I am ready. I want to meet you very much and my desire will help me. Where there is a will there is a way. Children from orphanages where I help already for several years, together with tutors have written letters for the commission to support of me, the petition and the characteristic. It will help me when the commission will make a decision. I am sure that all will be OK. I hope you will pray for me? (Smile) Also I have told to the chief about my possible getting of the visa. I have told that I need in a vacation especially when I receive my visa. I want to arrive to my Charles. The chief has understood me and has told that I did not worry. I shall have a vacation, but have not told exact date nevertheless. But you should not worries also. I shall arrive to you in any case. I am tuned on our meeting.
Today on work my colleagues began to ask me whom I write. I never spoke to them about you. Only be not jealous to me, colleagues - women with which I work together. They knew that I write to someone only. But they saw changes in me. They speak I has changed in the best party lately. I have good mood always, I smile. I began to come for work the first and to leave - last. And each free minute I sit opposite to a computer. I always hid my feelings to you from them, but today I have told them the reason. I have told them about you my Charles, about our feelings and about our future meeting. They were glad for me and for us. Also joked over me. They have told that I always made happy other people on work when I registered marriages, but never had the happiness myself. Now I have happiness - YOU Charles. Yes, you my happiness and my future, I hope. Probably I am naive a little but I want to trust in the our happy future only. I hope you also. I have ocean of feelings to you. My ocean of feelings is more, much more than Atlantic ocean which shares us. But I believe - distance between us not an obstacle and we shall be together. I am really happy, but my happiness will be full when we shall be together. You feel also?
I can eternally write to you words of love, but, to a regret, I have no so a lot of time for it. I should finish, but you remember - I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU MY Charles.
I shall wait the letter from you with your warm words for me. (Smile)
With the best regards
Your Olesya.

PS. I need the name of the closest airport where you can meet me.
I want to study the best price of the ticket up to you. You will tell to me it?

Letter 19

Hi my Charles!
I write to you the letter and I smile. I am so glad. All time I think of you and I can not concentrate my attention to something else.
I never thought that the commission will ask such unusual questions. They asked about my sexual life, they asked about children, about work, about patriotism, about my attitude to America, about my conversance and awareness of events which happened in the world and in America, about my religion and belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about everything fairly how it is really. They have told that my answers are unexpected and as a rule applicants do not answer such questions so directly and openly. They have not got used to hear such answers, but they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Children from the orphanages also have made the big impression and rendered the big influence on the commission. They have told that I the first lady who have such support from children - orphans. Now I should wait the decision. Now I agree with expression: "Expectation of death is worse than the death " I cannot concentrate on anything. My heart so worry, I can't work. They have told that the decision will be accepted tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. I so worry. I so want that this small dream was come true. I simply want to see my lovely friend. I think the God will help me. I simply want to meet you. I already see us together and I sink in dreams. I want to construct with you the ship to float under sails in boundless ocean. I want to meet with you a dawn and to see off a sundown. We will float on our ship and our love will illuminate our way. We will look at night at stars, we will be pleased in the afternoon to the sun. If there will be a storm, our love will protect us. If there will be a calm, our love will be a wind. Our love will be a beacon for us. We will be floating at ocean of love and oblivion and nothing can separate us. We will name our ship - Dream. It will be the small ship, but very strong. Because we will make our ship from belief, hope and love.
It is impossible to wait, when your dream will fall to you from the sky. It is necessary to go to the dream. It is necessary to clear and build the road itself. If in heart there is a belief and dream, if in heart there is a love and hope, it is necessary to achieve the dream by all means. I always go to the dream. I do not sit on a place. In my life there were very few light moments. On this I try to make everything that my dreams have come true. I understand that now it's only dreams. But these dreams brighten my life. I hope that yours also.
Nelli say Hi to you Charles!
I should finish my letter. I shall wait yours letter with impatience and with warm words for me.
With the best regards and with millions kisses
Your Olesya.

Letter 20

Hi, my Charles.
There is a finest news for me and for you - I got the visa!!! I am so happy!!! When I have learned that I shall receive my visa I have gone to my chief at once and have told to him that I want to take vacation for me as soon as possible. I have explained my situation to him and about that I want to arrive to you, my dear Charles, during my vacation. My chief thought for a long time and he has asked me to come in his cabinet at the end of the working day. He has told that I can take my vacation. I thanked his for it. I was very happy when my chief has told to me that he has given the order to worker of staff of our bureau to legalize all necessary documents for my vacation. I will get my vacation on July 10, 2006. It is the first day of my vacation.
Today I went to the company which reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Dallas and how much it costs. They answered me that the ticket costs $ 1320 USD. I asked them to find cheaper tickets, because this price is expensive for me. They answered that they had a cheaper ticket and the beginning of the flight July 12, 2006. It costs $ 1157 USD. I asked them to reserve a ticket. But they refused, because they have a lot of clients at this time and they can't reserve my ticket without advance payment. I spoke with them for a long time and asked to reserve the ticket for me without advance payment but they didn't agree. Then I wondered if it is possible to pay a part of the money now and the other part later. They didn't agree. I spoke with them for a long time and I managed to persuade them. They agreed but provided that if I will not pay the remaining sum, I will lose already nested money. We agreed that I would pay a part of the price today and the other part later.
I paid $ 750 USD. But it was little for an initial payment. Then I went to the pawnshop and pawned my and Nelli's silver and gold jewelry for $ 86 USD. It was my last money. The number of the flight on which I reserved the ticket is Delta 31.
The time of departure from Moscow is 1:15 pm.
The time of arrival in Dallas (DFW) is 9:09 pm.
I will change a plan in New York (JFK), number of the flight American Airlines 1389.
After this I will fly to Dallas (DFW), to you Charles.
It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything what I could. I paid visa. I paid a part of the ticket. But this money is not enough. I didn't want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. And now I feel so guilty. I thought that nothing can prevent our meeting. But I have to pay the remaining part. It is only $ 321 USD. I have to pay this money before July 5, 2006 evening. Otherwise I will lose my money and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. Now I have extremely unpleasant feeling because I could not fulfill my promise to make all by myself, independently. I remember that I promised it and I always do all what in my forces to fulfill my promise. I am very ashamed to address to you. But I couldn't get money which I expected on my work. It so-called vacation money. It would solve my problems and I really was sure that I can get it.
When we get a vacation, we get vacation's money besides salary. But unfortunately this money pays to us after ending of a vacation and sometimes even in some months. I have addressed with request to get this money now because I very much need in it. But unfortunately my inquiry has been rejected. They have told that they can give out vacation money before terms only in case of serious illness or death of close relatives.
Probably I simply must tell to you that I can't meet with you in this vacation because at present I cannot provide completely my travel. I understand that I should not asked you. But at the same time I can't simply say that I will not arrive to you. I too much have made and have passed to achieve our meeting. If I have simply refused our meeting, all my diligence would be spent in vain. I have made so much to meet you, and I can't now just say that I cannot arrive to you. I address to you and I think in it there is nothing shameful. I understand that it is a big money. But also comprehension of my position convinces me, that any person could get in such situation. And only one thing that I should make now - I must say that I can't meet with you. But I can't say so, because I want to meet you and therefore I say sincerely that I need your help.
I understand that I put you in inconvenient position. But I am simple person, I am the simple woman. I am ashamed to ask the help but in the life there are various situations. I am not the wizard. Any person could get in a similar situation. Of course you are not obliged to help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. It is bad too but not fatal too. And these $ 335 USD that I have given for the visa, and these $ 836 USD that I have given for the ticket is the huge money for me. But I don't regret that I have made and have given all what I had for our meeting. Actually it simply money and our jewelry it simply metal. Sense of the life not in money and not in this metal. That's why I was the first who took the first step. I do not want this all to be wasted. If you really want to meet me, If you can help me to make our meeting, please, send money to the help before July 5, 2006 evening. I don't want you to doubt my honesty and that's why I send you the view of my visa.
If you can help me I send you my coordinates. I have addressed in the nearest bank. I have been told that they have system of ''Western Union''. They have told that it is very convenient office for me. There is other remittance system, but at present unfortunately it works not always because at this time there is made some renovation and upgrade of the equipment and signalizing system. But they have told that system - ''Western Union'' works always and reliably. I give you necessary elements for sending money with the help of ''Western Union'':
phone (7) (861) 7641363
for Olesya Zefyrova.
In bank I have been told that to get the money, I must tell to employee of bank
1 your full name,
2 your full address,
3 exact sum which I should receive
4 some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number).
This number will give to you in your bank if you will send your help.
Only at presence of all this information I can get your help.
Please forgive me all my words. I say so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will have no use. I need you and I want to be with you and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. I understand that it is a very big money for you. I did not want to ask you. I thought that I can make all myself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without help, and to rely only on myself. I ask somebody for help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. And of course I will give back all your money at the earliest opportunity. Probably I have offended you. But I need you. I do not know if my letter have brought to you a pleasure or only frustration, but I have written to you honestly and sincerely.
I am waiting for your reply.
Kiss you.
Your Olesya.

Letter 21

Hi my Charles!
Oh my love Charles, if you can send me of money that I could pay the remainder of money for the ticket make it as soon as possible.
I have gone in the company which reserves airway tickets and have told, that I cannot pay for the ticket yet. I for a long time talked to them that they have waited with payment of the rest of money, and they have agreed.
If you really can, I repeat the name and the address of bank where I can receive money with the help of Western Union:
PERVOMAYSKIY BANK The name of bank
RUBINA, 1 Street on which the bank is located
NOVOROSSIYSK, 353900 City and the number code for the area
phone (7) (861) 7641363
for Olesya Zefyrova.
You should inform me the sum, your full name, a home address and Money Transfer Control Number (MTCN) it to you will tell when you will send money.
Unfortunately anybody from my co-worker cannot give me money, they have no that kind of money at present. There was an opportunity to borrow money at my chief if it would happen five days ago. But he has bought the new equipment for our office of a bureau, and now he cannot lend money to me.
I never travelled abroad earlier and consequently I could not know about these difficulties to travel to your country. Therefore I ask you a pardon. I can hope only, that my dreams of you meeting me at your airport, will be a reality. I with impatience shall wait for yours the answer.
I should finish my letter. The most gentle kiss.
Forever your Olesya.

Letter 22

Hi my Charles! How you today? I hope you have fine mood.
I have found money. I borrowed the loan at bank. But for this I had to leave my house under the pledge, I have told to people in bank that I shall to compensate money after returning from America. Do not worry. Soon we shall meet.
Today in the morning I ironed my dress. I was pensive about you, and I forgot to remove the iron from a dress. I simply stood, looked out of the window, thought of you, I have ceased to ironing and have simply stopped a hand with a iron on a dress. You can imagine? I have burned my dress. Now in my dress the big hole. First I was upset and angry with myself. But afterwards I sat on a chair and have laughed. To me was so funny. It's a pity that you did not see me during this moment. I sat and laughed in the whole voice. It is really ridiculous. I laughed because i have understood, as far as strongly I love you. I constantly think of you. I am afraid, that if I soon will not see you my house will burn completely (smile).
I considered us. Our acquaintance can be named miracle. I never trusted and could not think that I can meet my favourite person on the Internet. I did not trust in the happiness and could not assume that I shall find to myself the beloved in my life. I have been disappointed by men and I did not trust that men can love and bring happiness to women. I looked on TV and read love novels as many women in Russia, but did not trust in these. In such novels all life in pink color and the happy end always. All such novels are similar each other. When I read these I lived of my soul a life of heroes from this novel. I was afflicted for these heroes and was happy together with them, but never thought that I can feel the love novel also. For me such novels were illusion only, but not a reality. My heart died, but I have got acquainted with you. And I HAVE COME TO LIFE. I feel a life in my heart. I know that I am necessary for you my dear Charles. And I am happy. This fine feel when I know that I am necessary for someone. I hope that it you Charles. I speak now as the little girl. But my feelings to you are strong really and I cannot speak in other words about it. I hope you do not think of me as about the small silly girl? You have made me happy, but I hope for full happiness - when we shall be together. Probably you wait for our meeting as I also. And I hope the our future will be fine and happy. I am afraid to speak now about it. In Russia there is a bad sign - to speak about the future. Otherwise such future can not be. But I believe.
Forgive me. I should finish the letter. Probably I can tell it to you face to face soon. I shall speak you only the most good that probably between us. I shall write to you later again. Be patient.
With the best regards.
Your dear Olesya.

Letter 23

Hi my Charles!
I am happy to write to you letter again. It for me huge pleasure. I so want that these days passed faster. I would like to close eyes for one instant. Then to open and see you. But as though I did not try, I see the same things.
I never flew in a plane before. And I should tell that I am afraid. I so frequently saw in TV-news about accidents, planes falling when all passengers perish. I really am afraid. And I am afraid that I will have feeling of a nausea. You should teach me how to not worry in a plane.
Also I would like to know your phone number that I could call you from the airport if suddenly we shall miss each other and shall be lost at the airport when I shall arrive. Also my plane can be late because of weather conditions, I many times heard about it. I would not like to be there one and not to know what to make and where to go if suddenly there are any troubles with my plane or you on the various reasons will be late in the airport then I can always call you. I hope, that you will write your phone number.
I would like to give you Charles a song. But I am afraid, that it is hardly possible. I do not know such wonderful melodies and words. All in comparison with you is insignificant.
I would like to give you Charles dance, the most important on your life. But if music will cease to play, likely I at once will die.
I every day and every night call happiness. I have lost the way in a dark wood. Only you in my thoughts. All my hopes and dreams are connected only to you. I want to be with you.
I would like to give you Charles the sky together with the sun which is born in the East. There where dreams, not reducing flight achieve its purpose, and are embodied in a reality. There I and you will not be lonely.
I would like to lead you Charles in a garden, there where my good dreams ripen. Only hardly I can go beside you, because I will become transfixed with your breath.
I would like to give you Charles happiness, that nobody will challenge. But frequently my heart torn on parts, because between us ocean.
The God has give me a voice and I would like to sing a lullaby to you. But the pain has captured my throat. This pain cannot be removed with hand, it is impossible to remove with prick. Only your kiss can relieve me of my tortures. I have gone mad for love to you. My life in your hands.
Whisper to me on an ear that you miss me. And I will be the happiest woman on Earth. For me you the Angel Divine. Without you it is terrible. Give me light in your window. And I will pay to you my fidelity and tenderness. Take my hand. Tell, that you will be always with me. For the sake of these words I am ready on all. I will give for you a life.
With the best regards
Your Olesya, only for you Charles!

Letter 24

Hi my dearest Charles!
Thanks for your letter. My heart calms down when I receive your letter.
I want to confirm my flight. I fly from Moscow at 1:15 pm. And I shall arrive in Dallas (DFW) on flight American Airlines 1389at 9:09 pm on July 12, 2006. If suddenly there will be any changes I shall necessarily inform to you.
Unfortunately I have no phone. Please, not be surprising. In Russia many people have no phone. To get a phone it is necessary to write the statement, to pay the big sum and after to wait for a long time queue. Many people wait during several years. But I can try to call you from the international item of communication. Can you give me your phone number? I with very big pleasure will call you.
Your love is the air that breathes life in my body. It is the sunshine in my soul. The rain that creates rivers of emotion, that flows within me from head to toe. Your love is the warm hand that lifts me out of myself and into a world unknown till now. Leaving past sorrows behind, we will awaken in our dream together. A new beginning, a new world, with limitless possibilities. All things we thought were valuable are meaningless now. For in our love, we have found the treasures of the heart and soul. Our ways and means that had guided us well, no longer serve two hearts that are now one. We will be as innocent children, needing to taste, touch, and smell all these new things. And as adolescents, we shall taste the fruits of the flesh as if for the first time, like Adam and Eve once felt in the Garden of Eden. It will be a paradise we have never known before. With gentle caress', and kissing of lips, our passions will grow. Our hearts will beat faster. And when time stands still, we will unite mind, and soul. Our hearts will beat as one. It is then we will truly know, that we have finally found each other, and our love will forever grow.
My girlfriend has insisted that I have allowed her to write some lines for you. She wants to make it without my help. Please do not judge her strictly. Her English is far from perfect.
>Hi! My name is the Nelli. I am write to you by my hand and by my
>brain. If I am write badly that you can laugh. I am know your language
>bad. But Olesya is know your language well. I am is want to tell to you the
>thank you. Because I am never to saw Olesya with so big the smile. She is
>laugh in the all day long. She is do not to want to work. Olesya is was never
>so is happy. You is the good man. I hope you do tears at Olesya never.
>I wish the you and the Olesya have time well. Good-bye. Nelli.
It's me again, Olesya.
Forgive me. I want to finish my letter by words:
I do not know what will farther. But now you have made me happy lady.
I for the first time have felt desired and necessary. I always think of you my Charles!
With the best regards and kisses
Your Olesya.

Letter 25

Hi my dear and loved Charles!
How you? How your mood? I hope you think of me and take pleasure when receive and read my letters. I like to write to you, I do it with pleasure always and I present you, I recollect your kind and warm words. These are necessary for me. I like to read your letters and these bring to me happiness and confidence on the each tomorrow's day always.
Thanks for your phone number, I shall have them in case of an emergency. I can call you from New York when I shall change the flight, I hope, that I will have enough time to call and tell to you that all OK.
Charles, when I shall be at the airport, I shall be dressed in white blouse and black a dress in a white square and pink shoes. Also with itself I will have a white handbag with my documents. Also I shall take big sports bag with a wide red strip, but she will be probable to be to the baggage claim.
Last night I have made a special calendar with your name on which I began to mark days which remain up to our meeting. I am excited very much, I think of our meeting every day and for me difficult for believing in the happiness. Really we with you shall together soon??? When I think of it my head starts make dizzy from happiness? This pleasant feeling very much. Probably you feel like also. Yesterday was big a rain in the evening. I sat alone at home, as always, watched TV and thought of you my dear Charles. I like a a rain and during a rain I have lyrical mood. I like to dream, when it is a rain. I think of the future at this time, I recollect the happy moments of my life. Basically, I had such moments in the childhood. But I am not upset also I believe, that I shall have the happy moments in a life many times else. Now I have you, my dear Charles and I can not already think of a life without you. Now I connect my and your Charles happiness in a single whole. I believe - you will make me happy. I shall bring to you happiness also. Believe, I can make it. Necessary between us the mutual understanding and love for this purpose only.
I should finish the letter. Remember, I love you and I wait for our meeting with impatience.
With the best regards and
With 1000000 kisses.
Your Olesya.

PS. Up to our meeting remained a little. We shall together soon.

Letter 26

Hi my Charles!
This last letter for you which I write to you from the work.
The day today is so wonderful. The sun is shining. The weather is good. I wanted to be this day be near to you. I have presented, that we sit at a little table, burn two candles, in glasses sparkles champagne. Silent music plays, and you invite me on slow dance. I snuggle to you, and put my head on your breast. You gently embrace me and whisper gentle words to me on my ear. I close eyes. You gentle - gentle kiss me. I thaw in your embraces. Then we extinguish candles and we remain alone with our desires and feelings. I very much wanted it. I believe, that will be so. Get my kiss.
My dear Charles, you are everything that is beautiful in this world.
When there is Hate, you are the Love that conquers it.
When there is Sadness, you are the Smile that brings happiness.
When there are Tears, you are the Hands that dries them.
When there is War, you are the Peace that calms it.
When there is Pain, you are the Medicine that heals it.
When there is Suffering, you are the Joy that ends it.
When there is Love, You - heart which is filled with this love.
Now I will inform you very important information. I should arrive to Moscow beforehand to have enough time for arrival in the airport, registration of the ticket. Moscow is very big city and I should have enough time for this purpose. I will arrive to Moscow tomorrow early in the morning. I will try to write to you from Internet - cafe. I will tell to you about my trip. In Moscow I will stop in a waiting room. There I will spend night. I will write to you from Moscow. You do not imagine how I worry. I want to ask you prayed for me while I will be in road. Promise me.
I so worry.
With the best regards
Your Olesya!!! I kiss you!!!

PS. I send you the voice message. I hope to you it will be pleasant to hear me. I very much hope that you can hear me.

Letter 27

Hi my Charles! I cannot get registration and the sanction in anti-immigration committee. I have been informed that according to the law for Citizens of Russia who leave our country with visa without residence permit, if I go to your country I am obliged to have cash as confirmation that I possess monetary resources. I can't receive sanction to get registration at the airport. I am obliged to show them 300 dollars. If I have 300 dollars I will receive registration and the sanction of anti-immigration committee. But I have only 27 dollars. The law obliges me to have money as confirmation, that in your country I will have money resources for existence and livelihoods during that time which I will spend there. I should show 300 dollars. If I will show money, I will receive confirmation that I possess monetary resources and I will get the official sanction to leave my country with the visa. Otherwise they have no right to let me go to your country. Please, as soon as possible send me 273 dollars. I will show this money and I will receive the sanction. This money are necessary for me only to show at anti-immigration committee. I will give you this money right at the airport Dallas (DFW). I should not pay anything. I simply should show money and then I can leave customs house. Please, use system of Western Union because here there is several banks, which uses this system of a remittance and I can receive your money. Charles, my nerves on a limit. I got the formal notice, according to which I should have money to leave my country according to the law. I cannot write much because I use the Internet - cafe. Here only three computers and so many people. I should spend night in Moscow in a waiting room. It is much more terrible than I thought. Tomorrow I again will use Internet - cafe to receive your letter. Soon already evening. I should receive the sanction of anti-immigration committee as soon as possible because I cannot be in Moscow for a long time. I am nervous very much. With love. Olesya.
MOSCOW, 141410
Phone (7) (095) 7774073
for Olesya Zefyrova.
To get the money, I should tell to employee of bank your full name, full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number), which will give you, when you will send the money.

Letter 28

Hi my Charles! I'm OK! I have spent night at the airport, but I practically did not sleep, because here only rigid armchairs and all the night I sat in this armchair. I could not fall asleep because here very terribly. I was awakened some times by policemen and they checked my bag. They spoke that if I want be here all the night long I should be cautious. But enough about it. I have only a few minutes. Today I will spend the night again at the airport. If I can, I again will try today to receive your letter. If I cannot today, I will necessarily make it tomorrow. I should afflict you, I have already missed my plane and you should not meet me at airport Dallas (DFW) today on July 12.
I was directed to anti-immigration committee, and I informed, that I no have 300 dollars, but I should fly necessarily on this flight as you will wait for me today in Dallas (DFW). I has told them, that you will be provide shelter, and liveable accomodations for me, but it was not capable to help with our meeting because I have the tourist visa if I had the visa of the fiance then I could receive registration.
Then they informed, that I can receive registration on one of the following flights, and I have agreed. But I should show them, that I have 300 dollars, that to receive registration and the sanction of anti-immigration committee. I cannot find money here in Moscow, I do not know anyone who could help to find to me of money. I do not know that to me to make I am bewildered also weeping tear now when I write to you. I have not calculated my forces and I ask for the help a man for whom I did all this. For whom I lived all this time, I ask a man, who are more than a friend for me, I ask you Charles, unless it is bad? Together we are much stronger, and to go thru obstacles together is much easier. I will hope for you and I also will search money here. But I really haven't anybody more except of you my Charles.
If you can find 273 dollars, as soon as possible to send them of me that I could show it the men from anti-immigration committee and then I receive my new flight. Probably you receive your letter in the morning, and our banks will not work any more, and I can receive money tomorrow then I can inform you about new date of my flight.
I never thought as far as it difficultly to meet with my beloved through half of way across the world. But we should struggle together with our difficulties and then we can overcome and find love and happiness.
I shall wait for your letter. Kiss for you my Charles.

Letter 29

Charles I yet cannot get registration and the sanction in anti-immigration committee. The law obliges me to have money as confirmation. I must show $300 dollars. When I will show money, I will receive confirmation and I will get the sanction to leave my country. Therefore I ask you, please, send money for Natalia Maksimova. She is the inspector of airport. I will go in bank together with her. Send money for her name because my ID and visa are in custom house now. When we will receive money, I will show them this $300 dollars and then I will get the other flight up to Dallas (DFW). Charles I should receive the sanction of anti-immigration committee as soon as possible because I cannot be in Moscow for a long time. Now I have no money even to go home, I cannot live at the airport, I should undertake something. I am nervous very much. Once again, as soon as possible send money for Natalia Maksimova. I will receive money together with her. I very much wait your letter. Your Olesya.