Letter(s) to Johnny (Canada)

Letter 1

Hi my new friend Johnny!
From the first lines of the letter, I ask to forgive me for that that so long did not answer your letter. The reason in that, my birthday was on November, 17th and to me on my work have given a gift. To me have given the permit in sanatorium for 5 days of rest. But at that time while I could not write to you, I very much missed you. Please not be annoyed on me, I had no opportunity to write to you more likely. I hope, that you are not offended also I shall try to answer you as it is possible more soon. I am very glad, that you have answered my letter. Thanks, that you have found time for the answer. To me it will be very pleasant, if you will send me photos in each your letter, it very much will facilitate our acquaintance. I do not know what to write to you in my first letter because I never wrote letters and did not get acquainted on the Internet before. But I think, will be correct if I shall start to speak about me from the very beginning because I was the first who has written the first letter. I do not know, how much my life is interesting to you, but I nevertheless shall tell to you about myself differently there is no sense of our acquaintance. You are probably very broken, as I live not in your country. But I very much hope, that it the same lady as many other ladies living in the various countries does not frighten you, because I. I the same person with heart and soul. And if your interest will not be limited by distance or borders I shall be really very glad to our further acquaintance. My country - Russia. Russia - very much greater country also borrows very much greater area. The capital of Russia - Moscow. I was born, and I live now in the small city of Kazan. In the childhood I dreamed to be the doctor, But at conscious age my interests have changed. When I have appeared before a choice - where to receive higher education, I have understood, that I wish to be To teachers. I very much like children and to open it road to the big world, for me it is very serious. I always showed the big interest for knowledge of this area. My formation consists of three steps. School - College - Institute. I have started to receive formation in uniform high school. After I have finished it, I was included into college. I have finished it with excellent results and have entered into Institute. At present I work in one of our schools. I train children till 10 years, but in the near future me are going to translate for training of more senior children. Very interesting work though many my girlfriends disagree with me. I already spoke you, that my name - Elena. I wish to tell to you, that I am The brunette. My height - 5 foots of 6 inches. My weight - 115 pounds. And certainly you should know, that to me of 26 years. My birthday - on November, 17th 1979. I understand, that all people have various tastes and interests, but I sincerely hope, that my picture and my appearance will be pleasant for you. But if my appearance will not correspond to your tastes and interests I shall understand you, certainly. I the optimist at heart and it - often help me with my life. I already adult woman, and I look at a life with a philosophical shade. But as though I did not try to inspire me, that I absolutely happy woman, I cannot make it. But there are things without which people cannot be happy. I have written to you the first, and it means, that I am ready to divide with you my ideas. I am very glad and grateful to you of that you have answered me because I have decided to take only one chance in dialogue through e-mail. And if my letter to you would remain without your answer, I think, that I would not use this way to second time. Anyway, I hope, that you just as I, we have interest in our dialogue, and I shall wait your answer. In the end of my letter I wish to ask to you the most banal questions. I wish to ask you, you love what music, you prefer what films and have - whether favourite cinema. These questions are really interesting to me because I love the American films and the American music very much. I with pleasure shall tell to you about it in my following letter if you really wish to study more about me. You love your work. You ever had experience in the correspondence to the friend from other country? Probably you more qualified in this plan than I? I thank you for your answers in advance. If you do not wish to answer these questions, please do not answer. It simply my female curiosity. For me it will be very pleasant, if you awake to send me your photos. I regret once again, that I did not answer your letter during long time. Forgive to me, but I had no opportunity to exploit a computer. I shall explain to you later - why. With the best regards.
Yours Elena.

Letter 2

Hi Johnny
Why you do not answer my letter?
You consider, what we should not continue acquaintance?
It is good, if you so consider, I shall not disturb you any more.

Letter 3

Hello dear Johnny.
I am very glad to receive your letter, but to me is very sad from that that you so badly read my letters. If you closely read my letters you would not ask me how many to me of years. Well, I shall answer your question, to me 27 years recently were executed. Today I had so much work that I was afraid that I wouldn't have time to get your letter. And I have to say that this frightened me. But now I have found free time and very glad. Thank you for your kind letter. My last letter was sad. That's why today I will try not to write about sad things. Then now I am smiling and have a good mood. Actually today all colleagues have good mood because to us there comes the Moscow zoo. This is a great news because The Moscow Zoo Is the biggest zoo in the country. So everybody discuss only this news. Everybody wants to visit the ZOO because the tour will last only for several days. I like animals very much and I have never seen Moscow Zoo. I like horses very much and think that these are the most beautiful animals in the planet. As matter of fact I have always dreamt to have some pets - a cat or a dog. But when I think that a little puppy will wait for me at home alone I feel pity. That's why I don't have pets. I always wait for weekends with impatience, because I get tired mentally and physically at the work. That's why weekends are the only possibility for me to rest and to get new forces. Weekends I spend differently. Sometimes I want simply to rest in my apartment. I like my apartment - little and cosy. On weekends I always clean the apartment properly. I like purity. And though I always try to keep my apartment clean, there is always something to do about the house on weekends. But when I want really to relax I listen to music or read books. I like to read books especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I like to spend time in nature in the open air very much. The camping is very popular in Russia. I adore to go to the forest and to live in a tent though now I have seldom such an opportunity. I like to look at night fire. I like to look at the stars very much. In August the sky is strewed with stars. It is incredible beautiful. I like to cook on the fire. There is no more wonderful when in the air the fragrances of forest, river and smoke mix together. I am romantic undoubtedly. I really like cooking. I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well don't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the man's heart. May be she is right. I like Russian dishes and my favourite dish is hodgepodge ( in Russian we call it okroshka). I am not sure if you know such dish. This is a Russian national dish. What dishes do you prefer? I have to finish. I hope my letter was not stodgy and uninteresting. I will wait for your letter with impatience.
I wish you peace and kindness. Yours Elena.

Letter 4

Hi Johnny!
I wish to congratulate you on the last holiday, day Thanksgiving. I am frankly glad that again I have a possibility to write you. Today I saw my mother in my dream and thought that I have to tell you about my mother, because when I say about her - I tell about my family. It is really so because I have never seen my grandfather and grandmother and I don't have brothers or sisters. I was the only one child in the family, and my family consisted of two people - my mother and I. I really feel great proud when I say about my mother because she was a very good woman. But together with this, every time the recollections about my mother cause tears and I can't keep them. My mother died when I was 16 years old. Three years before her death my mom has damage in road accident. She was standing in the street and she was knocked down by a car. Probably the driver was strongly drunk, because the witnesses said that the car moved by zigzag and suddenly appeared on pavement. As a result of collision my mum was paralysed. She spent three years in the wheelchair. I looked after her did all that was in my forces to make a life for which she was fated since this moment - easy and joyful. I spent little time with my friends and practically all my free time I spent near my mother. I was crazy happy when mother smiled, because she smiled very seldom. She was ashamed of her helplessness. Every time when I was going home after school I looked at the window and every time my mother met me. She was looking through the window and smiled. It happens always. She met me every day and never forgot. That's why I felt alarm at once when 9 years ago I looked at the window and didn't see my mother there. I understood that something is wrong. I rushed home with tears in my eyes. When I oped the door I understood that I stayed alone. As usual my mother was sitting in her chair. But she was dead. I remember how I stretched my arm and touched her pulse. It got dark in my eyes and my feet didn't obey me. I couldn't stand. I thought I would go mad. I have felt that I lose consciousness and lain on the floor. I sobbed and couldn't quiet down. I couldn't imagine that I will live without mom. This was the person I lived for. All I did in my live I did for her. She was such a good mother. She taught me everything I can do in this life. My mother dreamt to bring me up as an honest and decent lady. I was the only child and mother gave me endless love. And I tried to do all to be worthy daughter, to be worthy her love. And I hope that I became such a lady as my mother wanted to see me. Now I appreciate the difficulties of that time in a different way. Difficulties train the character. I lived without help and support, I went through different difficulties about which I don't want to speak. But I have gone through these difficulties and remember this I feel that everything I have done correctly. My mother always told me that one should look at difficulties with smile not mentioning that there is a shout of despair in the throat and there are tears in eyes. One should be strong and proud - as my mother was. Forgive me that I have told you about this so in detail. But I say about my mother seldom. But when I say about her I can't do it in couple words. I loved her very much and that's why I told you little things about her. Forgive me. I decided to share my recollections with you as with a friend, because I didn't speak about her with anybody for a long time. Forgive me that my letter is a sad, big and uninteresting. Simply when I begin to say about my mother I can't stop. But I promise not to write such sad letters anymore. Unfortunately I should finish the letter. Sincerely with best regards. Yours Elena.

Letter 5

Hi, my dear friend Johnny!
In the beginning I want will apologize for my delay with the letter. Thank you for your letter. And please do not forget about photos in your letters. From day to day I feel more necessity to get your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I have perfectly understood your question, my birthday on November, 17th, and it means my sign on the zodiac "scorpion" By the way, when I came to work today my mood was bad, because my girl-friend fell ill and now she is in the hospital. I have only one real girlfriend - Nadezhda. Nadezhda is that lady who is in the hospital. We are friends for 20 years already Nadezhda and I are like sisters. Nadezhda and I like to walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Nadezhda vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. This are the houses which were built before the second world war, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well or in a pit. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Nadezhda vegetable garden. There she grows potato, tomatos and cucumbers not to buy them in the market, because in winter the prices of these products rise very high. Every winter Nadezhda and I make a big Snowman by big snow balls. We make a carrot instead of nose and potatos instead of eyes. It is very funny. All neighbor's children come to see it. First time we made such a Snowman 16 years ago. Since that time we do every year. This is a tradition for us. We pour it with water to cover with ice. So it stands for the whole winter. It is a lot of people in our city know each other. Our city to not name small, but also greater it too you will not name. The Population approximately 1 100 000 person. But our city is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfort no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there were no criminal the place could be considered as a paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately criminal in Russia is situated on a very high level. But I don't want to tell about sad things. I have to finish my letter. I don't want but I have to. Today when I will come to Nadezhda to hospital, we will speak about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you what makes you happy? Sincerely yours and with best wishes.
Yours Elena.

Letter 6

Hi my dear Johnny!
The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. The sun is shining all the day. To add to all this I have got your letter and my happiness doesn't have limits. And what about your weather? May be today after work I will go home by foot. I like to walk along the street and to breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. It is very boring and lonely at home. Sometimes I don't mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. But my apartment is empty and I have to be in full solitude. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down in an arm-chair and look at the window. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as my blood flows in my veins, I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I don't know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But enough about it. I often remember childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we can't to sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for long. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me?I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. Do you like when your friends come to your home? I will wait for your letter with impatience. Yours Elena.

Letter 7

Hi my friend Johnny!!!!
I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks.
You have again raised my mood and have placed a happy smile on my face. By the way Johnny, today I went to job being absolutely confident that you write to me today. Earlier I always went with an thought that you probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with an thought that your letter waits for me already. I went on the street and I smiled. I could not hide my smile. People which passed near to me looked back on me. Ladies in Russia smile rarely, because life is filled with different problems, cares, difficulties and obstacles. All this prevails over little fortunes which the lady has in her life. In Russia the lady stands on the same stair as the man already for a long time. She can do the same work as the man can. Very often In Russia the lady does the man's work - the heavy physical work. In the 19th century one Russian poet wrote about Russian woman: "Russian woman can enter in the burning house and she can stop frightened horse running towards her". The only thing she lacks is simple warm and caress, which she wants to receive from a man. This is the problem of Russian men. The Russian lady does everything for the man but doesn't get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple of tender words and gentle touching of his hands. Is it really so difficult? Is it really difficult to present your lady a romantic evening and a supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady for a man, but not a man for lady. When a woman carry heavy bags in the street no man will help her, he will only turn his look away and go farther. That's why the Russian lady never feels happy at her heart. You say that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not considered like a beautiful lady. Russian men, practically all of them, usually treat to ladies disrespectfully. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash cloths and entertain the man when he wants. For the Russian man it is a usual thing to offend a woman. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all the men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few of them. Men frequently speak dirty words (not normative lexicon) when speak with lady and consider that in it there is nothing bad. My girlfriend had the friend. They had good time together. It was kind. But it liked to drink. When it got drunk, it became absolutely other person. It{he} spoke bad and dirty words. Time has passed, and its love to alcohol became a habit. It became other person - rough and malicious. Was interested in beating, often struck and punched its hands, and next day it has smiled and spoke To it as though nothing happens. It has started to be afraid of it and and has left it. The soul has been wounded very much. After that it could not force to get acquainted itself with other person. I am afraid to give my love but get in lieu thereof the roughness. If you have disagreements with lady, you can apply roughness? Do you capable to transform quarrel into the peace, pleasure and a smile? Well, I shall finish the letter and with impatience I shall wait your answer.
With sincere heat, your Elena.

Letter 8

Hi, my far, but dear friend Johnny. Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you. I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Johnny, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. I with impatience shall wait for your letter and please do not forget to send me the photo.
With tenderness, your Elena.

Letter 9

Hi, my dear Johnny!!!
I am very glad to receive news from you again.
It is very pleasant for me, that you send me pictures in your letters. I read your letters, it seems to me, that I also know you long. I am tired from a life here without the person, which I can become loving, and you - unique, who warm me, and give me force to live. You see, that we became much closer, than ever before. I do not wish to speak ahead of time, but I would like the big and reciprocal love. You cannot imagine in all that you mean for me. You mean much. You can ask, it why. I do not know. But I really know - that you for me became very close person. I never knew such beautiful soul as yours. You have opened it once for me and were never closed. Now I open my soul for you. I give you my heart and my offer. I thought of you last night. I think, you unbiassed and is fair to me. Now I completely trust you, and you have begun for me to relatives and the native person to which I can open heart. I speak All of you it yours faithfully, I am not going to deceive you and to play with your feelings, and I hope, that you also will be fair under the attitude to me. I like to read through letters from you. My heart always passing when I see when I see the message from you in my box of the letter. Then I it as a whole a line and only the ambassador whom I read to it carefully some times. See, I become the grasped aspiration from you. I do not want it, you have been put forward with my feelings. Excuse me if I am too expressive. Possibly, you did not expect it from me? But something has changed a way of my life recently, and I believe, that it - you. I think of you each hour and every minute. It is a pity to me, that we not friends during long time. I know, that there can be, I - hopeless romanticism, but I really believe, that to ours the Meeting through the Internet - the best thing which could, happened with us. I certainly would like to know as you lived up to a meeting with me? How many at you was women in the past? Why you have decided to find the woman in the Internet? Well my dear Johnny, I shall not take away from you many time, I shall write to you more in the following letter.
I wish you remarkable day! Elena.

Letter 10

Hi my dear Johnny!
I think, that for that time that we with you are copied we very much pulled together and between us the feeling has appeared, I think, that we are necessary each other. I constantly think of you, you have taken a place in my heart. On work I became a little inattentive also my girlfriends speak, that I on myself am not similar, whether joke you have fallen! in love. I do not know that to them to answer. I was never so is happy. I have absolutely changed about it my girlfriends and familiar speak. It is all because of you. I as though fly in heavens as at me the person to which has appeared is possible to trust and which it is possible too to me trusts. I do not know, how you will react to my letter, can, will count me more thoughtlessly. But I wrote to you, that I am very romantic and impressionable also I think that I LOVE YOU! I thought of our attitudes and concerning our feelings. I already on have become attached to you so much, that I miss each day your letters. I always, think of you. I of nothing can do with myself. I think that I am in love. Yes I love you!!!!! I think that we should meet; we should see each other look in eyes because through the Internet emotions are lost and it is difficult to understand each other. We became frank with you, and I think, that you want to learn about my sexual experience. In Russia all men only dream to drag you in bed, but I do not want it, I to not want to be given to the first comer that it has taken pleasure. It something from above she gives love to the person to learn happiness in this life, and men represent her only as sex, I think, that it is not correct also I hope, that you with me agree. I want to be with the only thing the man with which I shall feel like loved. I shall give myself to it completely both a body and soul. We together learn all depths of pleasure. Our passion will be poured out for limits of love, and we shall enjoy the friend the! end all life up to last moment of our existence. Today we with the girlfriend walked on city, went shopping I waited for the moment, that you will write to me the letter, and I have waited it. I feel, what our hearts are beaten in one rhythm, and you feel it? I wait for your letter, whether it is important for me to know you share my ideas.
Forever yours Elena.

Letter 11

Hi my love Johnny!
You - one of the best people with which I ever informed in my life. Though we communicate through e-mail, I believe, that it - is not a lot of from various from real a dummy a dummy of conversation. In the past I ignored the Internet-communications with whom is and did not understand, that it could be so bright and is delightful. Before the letter to you so! mething has changed in my opinion which has told to me to try. And now I am happy, that it took place. And now I read your letters, they are full of emotions of a heat and Sympathy to me. I start to understand, that my life is not meaning without you because I love you, I think, that during that time, that we we write each other, we have very much passed together and between us, the feeling has appeared, I think, that we are necessary the friend the friend. I constantly think of you. I afflict without you very much. You are in my heart. I know, that I demand you very much, and it is very pleasant for feeling for me, that you demand me also. I always think of you, about our meeting, about our feature. Now I feel, that you - my second half. And I wish to be with you most of all on this planet. I lonely and now I have found you in this huge world. I wish to inform you to it, my feelings and words concerning you always were yours faithfully, and I always understood, that we have the big trust, that our union would be real. Now I am assured to be relative all of 100 %, which I can to you to trust. And you - that person who is necessary for me. When I read your letter, I saw in it your sincerity and fidelity to me. I have made your letter for me directly greater conclusion which is possible to express in three words, I LOVE YOU!!! I spoke with my girlfriend that, possibly, I shall leave, it only was glad for me, it thinks, that this my happiness. Today I weigh day thought only of you as we shall meet you. I to present it to me is direct, as you meet me and we search, the friend the friend to an eye, we find, and we rush into embraces the friend the friend. Today fine day, but I it is sad, because we while separately. Between us huge ocean, but in ideas I it is direct. I to love you and for ever in your ideas. I wait your letter it is important for me.
For ever yours Elena!!!

Letter 12

Hi my lovely Johnny!
I thank God every night for that I found you. You came into my life when everything seemed so dark but you provided the light to find my way. I've never been so certain of anything in my life like I am of us. You have totally changed my outlook in life and I thank you for that. Be not surprised, but under influence of an anticipation I have decided to change a hairdress, I send you the photo in the updated kind, I hope to you it is pleasant? I love you very much. I feel as if I'm walking over clouds just thinking about you. You make my life complete. I love you so much and I know you love me too. You - my magic prince!!! I know that others, looking into our relationship might think that we're saying too many foolish things too soon but they just don't know how we feel about each other. There's nothing foolish about the things I've told you, I meant every word I said. I love you and I would do anything for you, I love you so much. You must know how I feel myself so happy, when I read your letters. Maybe someday I will be able to find all the correct words, to be able to tell you. And the main thing is that I have found you! I have suchstrange feeling inside. I miss you. I need you very much. I think it's time to solve what we will do. I think, it will be better, if I'll arrive to you. I know agency through which my girlfriend Maria has received the visa and tickets. Visa was making for very short time, and a month later she has departed from Moscow by airplane. I want to arrive to you very much, I never travelled on such long distance, but for the sake of you and for the sake of our meeting I am ready to make improbable things I want, that you have met me at the airport, it will be the happiest day in my life. What you think of it? I hope for your consent if you agree I'll go and I find out all about the visa and how can I arrive to you. In the following letter I'll tell to you all about it. Write to me about yourself. Is all good with you??? It is a very pity, I would like to write to you about much, but I must go, my dear Johnny. I will miss you, I LOVE YOU and I want to be with you for ever
Your and only your Elena.

Letter 13

Hello my lovely Johnny!
I have gotten your answer, it's so happy for me to receive your necessary love for me, your warmth words my dear. When I read your letter it seems that I feel your presence near to myself, I feel your breath and warmly of your hands. I love you so much that I can't without you now my love, you and your messages are so necessary for me, you are the inseparable part of my life. I say about it very seriously! Because you know how much I love you my love Johnny! All days, all seconds I'm dreaming about our meeting, I can't wait a moment when we will meet in your airport my love, I want it so much my darling! I'm a happiest woman in this world, because we have met each other. I want to wish to all people to love each other very much, because I have tested this feeling with you my dear, it happen so quick my dear and through Internet, I want to say to you my dear, that all people, who want to find a love man or woman, this man or woman will find the love necessarily, I'm sure in this, because I found you my love through the Internet, and we love each other so much, and I know that our love is most dear feeling from other feelings that exists on this small light-blue planet. Now all my ideas only about you and this night know that I shall think of you. I see in the sky, among dark clouds the lonely moon, I see in it an outline of your face. Now I think, that is very good that I have got acquainted with you, let even we did not see each other actually, let between us large distance. I do not know that occurs to me, my soul is torn to you, I have what that strange, inexplicable feelings. Close the eyes and do not think of anything bad, let you will be left by all problems and care. Present that we beside. You feel me, my touch of hands, my gentle kiss. Now about travel to you, it is difficult to receive the visa to the lonely Russian women The majority of people of Russia are compelled to wait approval of the visa a lot of time, from 6 months about one year In some cases, it is especial to girls, refuse, but due to my familiar (she works in embassy of Moscow) it easily. Are necessary to pay registration of necessary documents only If you really seriously concern to that that I have visited you, I can settle these formalities Whether I should know you are capable help me with the finance for the visa and air tickets? Inform me the closest international airport, I want to look flights and cost of air tickets. I remember, that Maria spoke, for registration of the visa necessary time from 2 - 4 weeks. Maria has learned how much cost a visa and a foreign passport too. She have called in embassy and there have said to her that it will be better for us, if I will have the visa of a tourist. This tourist visa B-2, the visitor visa will valid during six months. On this type of visa I'll can travel till abroad without any restrictions. The price of this visa, as Maria was informed in embassy, is 160 US dollars. Besides the process of the registration of the visa costs 90 US dollars. Maria also has taken an interest about other kinds of the visas too, as to her have said, that there is a set of kinds of the visas. For example, visa of a bride. She thought, that it is the best variant for us, but her in Embassy have said that this visa costs more expensively and visa's registration costs a lot of money, and the registration of the visa will during seven months, it is very long and expensive! From it because the tourist visa B-2 is the bitterest variant than visa of bride now for us my love Johnny! My love, I want to ask you one thing, I will need to ask your help with a financial charges for the getting all necessary documents for my coming to you. As probably, may be you know an economic situation in our country, it's simply awful. Our government explains it to those that simply they don't have a money, it's a difficult financial situation, and they don't have a recourses on the salary for the any kind of the job in total. My dearest, my love Johnny, I have a great desire to come to you, to see you at last and only recourses separate us from each another. I love you so much, honey, and I don't want to lose you. Nobody can help me with it. Of course, I asked my friends to help me with this expense on the necessary documents for my coming, but my friends doesn't have such money though they would like to help us. My dearest Johnny, in general, I'll need for 715 US dollars. It's certainly large money, you probably have thought what is it more than the total price of the visa and visa's registration, but I will must to get the foreign passport too of course the price of which is 220 US dollars. Also I will need to pay for medical exams, it will be 50 dollars. As the insurance is necessary for me, it is obligatory also it there are 110 dollars. And of course I will need to pay for the coming from Kazan to Moscow, I have learned about the price of the airplane ticket Kazan - Moscow, it will be 2500.00 Russian rubles or it is around 85 US dollars. Maria will try to find the cheaper prices of the air ticket for going to you. She said me, that will try to find a cheaper air tickets! I so happy from this so happy news! But now, at first, my angel, I will must begin a process of the registration of all necessary documents, in total I will need 715 US dollars. My love, I understand completely that it's a large money, but to me any more on whom I can to rely and on this I ask you about your help with this expense. My lovely Johnny, we love each other very much and we will together, I sure in it!!! I'm waiting and I'm dreaming for a moment of our meeting in your airport my Johnny. I will cry in this moment, when I will leave from an air gangway and when I will see you my angel, because it will from our happiness. I close my eyes and I am imagining about this so happy picture. My love, I dream as we will live together my darling, to go for a walk, keeping for our hands. I want, that you will show me your native land, a places where you like to go for a walk and where you like to spend a more of your time. Also I want to get acquainted with your relatives and closest friends so much! I want to be with you very much and I miss you !!!!!!!!!!!!!! My darling, on this I will end my e-mail to you, I will wait for your next e-mail with my great love desire!!! You must know, Johnny, how I love you! Well, it is time to me to go, I will think about you so much, I love you, and I want to be with you as soon as possible my love!!!!! More kisses and hugs.
Your love, Elena.

My address:
City - Kazan
Street - 50 years of October, the house 11, an apartment 45
Index - 420000

Letter 14

Hello my love Johnny!
Today I re-read your letter, have read all your letter, I enjoyed each your letter. I again speak you and I can repeat to you one million more time, I love you and very much I want to be with you. Also trust me, that everything, that I write it sincere words which proceed from my heart. And when we shall meet, we shall enjoy each minute lead together, my lovely and tender Johnny! I so want to nestle on you all body, I want to feel your breath, your smell. Johnny, I so passionately want you, I do not know that with me, such never was that I never seeing the person, and me to him so strongly pulls. I want, that you have felt, as I now miss you. I want to feel your gentle kisses, your strong body, in my opinion, to a body the pleasant shiver runs, I want, that you did not cease to kiss me, to embrace me, to caress me. Recently I think only of you, fairly, I cannot of anything the friend to think, except for you. I wake up and I fall asleep with ideas on you! I likely the happiest girl on light, in fact at me am the most remarkable and very beautiful, loving me my Johnny! I cannot describe the love words, it is just necessary to feel. And I feel, that in my heart there is only a love to you. And I, promise you, that you it will feel, when we shall meet. My love, you force my heart my heart to beat faster, you have helped me to look at the world other eyes, to breathe other air. With you I feel easy, freely, unchained. Thanks you, loved, that you are at me, and I is at you. I believe, that to us with you nobody will prevent to love each other, I shall allow to make to nobody of it, I shall better die, I shall die for love, than to leave you, I cannot simply go through parting with you, my heart is simple it will not sustain. I promise you, that I never shall make to you a bit too. I believe, that itself by destiny is intended to us of happiness. Of your occurrence in my life which I expected, had a presentiment, which the best proof of that it so was confident how you have appeared in reality. To me to be valid very much near to you. I ask the god that all was good. Also I want to speak that I write to you beforehand sometimes and only then I send to you. So I only wait for that moment when I can enter into the plane. I have learned from my girlfriend Maria in occasion of reception of your remittance and Maria has advised me To take advantage of services of system " Western Union " Maria speaks, that such system is almost in each bank. That you could send me of money, you should know my full name and the country. My full name: Elena Suvorova. You already know my country. And to receive your remittance, I should know your full name, the country, the state, city, a home address and 10 figures which to you will tell in bank. My dear Johnny as soon as I shall receive your remittance, I at once shall address in this agency and I shall be prepares. Well my love, on it I should finish my letter, but I with excitement shall expect your answer.
With the most sincere and gentle wishes, your bride Elena.

Letter 15

Hi my dear Johnny.
I understand nothing, you that did not receive my letter on January, 30th?
Your questions force me to worry. Why you do not understand my letters?
In this letter all is in detail written, to what these superfluous questions?
You should not know concrete bank so we in Kazan have many banks with system the western union.
I can receive your remittance in any of these banks.
I ask you, read please my letters more closely!!!
Well my love Johnny, I shall finish my letter, but you read through this letter which I have attached to my new letter and you will see all answers to your
Kiss you, forever your love Elena.