Letter(s) to Buddy (Canada)

Letter 1

I think, that I would be pleased to visit you, but I want to inform, that I have not so many money, which are necessary for our meeting. You see, that I work as a dentist. And my wages is very small. Probably you will not believe, but I receive from the state within one month of job 70-80 $. And on this money to me it is necessary to live, to put on and to buy materials of the foodstuffs by and large.
Therefore I at all have no any money for entertainments and more so for travels to you.
Because my wage is too small in bank said that they dont give me a loan. Therefore if only you could help me with travel to you, that we could meet.
I think, it would be what is it magnificent!

At me not so good news to you. Since the morning I had excellent, cheerful mood. But it has very strongly deteriorated after I have visited bank. Today I went in bank and to me have given up with the loan. I was simply in a shock! I could not assume such situation. I trusted, that this the man can help me. I have asked him why to me cannot give money and he has answered, that it precisely does not know why such has taken place. Bank that has not told. Probably all they were afraid of that at me the small salary and that I cannot pay to them this money. In our country and in our banks very much frequently people take money and then cannot pay up to the end to bank that money which have taken, and most likely, they were afraid, that with me there will be a same situation, as with others. At me remained about 200 dollars. But where to me to take 1150 more??? I need to pay money to agency. But at me they are not present!!! I very much hoped to the aid bank, but he has denied assistance to me!!! It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything that I could. I paid visa. I have spent a lot of time and nerves when waited the visa. But this money is not enough. I did not want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. Now I should pay the rest of the sum to agency. It is only 1350 $ dollars. It is very a shame to me to speak about it because I do not know that to me to do, where to me to get such big sum? And now I still had last hope, it you, please, help me with the money on ticket. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Of course if you do not want, you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. I cannot arrive to you. IT IS BAD TOO BUT NOT FATAL TOO. I paid 465 $ dollars for making visa. It is big money for me, but MONEY IS NOT THE MAIN THING IN THE LIFE. I trust you, and I know that YOU ARE A MAN OF HONOUR AND YOU ARE A GENTLEMAN. If you can help me, write to me about it in the following letter!!!

John, please forgive to me all my words. I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will have no use. I need you and I want to be with you and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. We will pass through difficulties and barrier, it is much easier to do it together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I understand that it is the big money for you. I did not want to ask you. I thought that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without help, and to rely only on myself. I ask somebody for help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make your step towards me. I hope that I have not offended you something. I need you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step between us. I am waiting for your reply.

Kiss you. Your Anna