Letter(s) to Ken (USA)

Letter 1

Hi Ken! How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letterbecause when I have received your letter I really was delighted. Manythanks. Do you want to know how I will write to you my letters? Iwrite to you letters during all my working day by small parts - inthose short time intervals when the computer will not be occupied. Iwork in children's branch. If you want, I can tell to you about mywork. Only tell.Oh! I promised you to tell what music I like. Now I have some freeminutes and with pleasure will spend this time to tell to you about myinterests. I like various music. All depends on mood. I like to listenclassical music. I like Dunaevski And Chajkovsky. I like to listensimply instrumental music. Such music allows to relax and have a rest.Under such music I like to think. I like to listen to guitarmasterpieces of Joe Satriani. I very much like group Dire Straits. Ilike Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is great group. Ilike Madonna, Robbie Williams and George Michael and many others. InAmerica many great musicians. I like many Russian musicians. Forexample Philip Kirkorov, Valeria or groups: Chaif, Splin. But youlikely do not know them. I very much like cinema. In Russia create fewgood films. I like works of such directors as Tarkovsky, Konchalovsky,Mikhalkov. My favourite movies - Siberian Barber and Tired by the Sun.It's masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The American movies in Russiause huge popularity. The American movies is considered the greatest. Ivery much like the American movies and I like many American actors.For example: Gladiator, Brave Heart. Mel Gibson - good actor. I likefilms- The Sixth Sense, the Rainman, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest,Gone with the Wind, Magnificent Seven, the Godfather, Groundhog day,The Scent of a Woman. My favourite actors - Bruce Willis, Al Pacino,Kevin Costner, Samuel L. Jackson, Julia Roberts, Tom Hanks, DemiMoore, Kevin Spacey.What else to tell about me? Ken, I never was married and I haven'tchildren. I am lonely and the reason of my loneliness not only in me.However, I do not know if it interestingly for you. I live honestly,and it brings pleasure to me. I am optimist and I like to smile,because a smile - mirror of soul. For happiness is not required manythings. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love.People without love cannot be happy. But when near there is a closeperson whom you love, life becomes fine irrespective of where you liveand what you have. But the loneliness fills a life with sadness. But Ido not want to speak about sadness anymore.I have some girlfriends, only one best girlfriend. Her name Elena. Weare friends 18 years. She the true friend and always helps me, as wellas I help her. She has very kind heart. For the sake of our friendshipwe can return all what we have. I am very glad that I have suchgirlfriend. Such friends as she - the big rarity. I and my girlfriendElena became girlfriends because we lived in the nearby houses andalso together went to school. I rent flat. There is a one room,kitchen and bathroom. I understand that this is a little flat but Ifeel convenient in it. And it is not far from my work. It takes me 20minutes to get to the policlinic. I often walk to my work when I amnot late and the weather is good. Sometimes I get to the policlinic bybus. But I don't like it becauese the buses are always full and it isnot convenient to stand there.Whether I can to you, Ken some questions?! You have the big family?Is the nationality of a person important to you if you are to care forthem? If you do not want, you may do not answer my questions. I don'thave such prejudices. the nationality is not important for me. I don'tlook at eyes, colour of the skin. And I don't think where a person wasborn. I want to find a man with kind heart. I love kindness and I hatea rage. For me the most important in a man - honesty and kindness.Without it is impossible to create the world of harmony and love.Roughness destroys love. I am ready to give all my love to a man whoalso is ready to give me his love. I think that in any relations themain thing - mutual respect and mutual understanding. I think it notso much. The rest is not important for me. Kindness. Honesty. Respect.I am glad that I have an opportunity to write to you and I am gladthat you write to me. And at present it really causes a smile on myface.I hope to receive your letter soon. Sincerely and with the best regards.Annap.s. Ken, you can send me your picture? I very much want to see you!:-)

Letter 2

Hi, my dear friend Ken! I hope you not against if I say so. Thank you for your letter. From day to day I feel more necessity to get your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I should say that when I have good mood my patients cry less :-). So healthy smiles of our children now depend on your letters :-). I told you about my visiting Zoo and I want to tell you about it. My colleges and I were very surprised that there were so many different animals. But the most excitement was caused by the moment when we saw an elephant. This was a very big animal. Also we liked a tiger. It lied in the hutch and looked at us tenderly. but I know that this is a very strong and dangerous animal. I saw a camel. Oh, have you seen it? This is a very proud animal? I was impressed by his constant tranquility. We walked in the Zoo for long and got hot. Therefore we with the girlfriend ate much ice-cream, and drank cool Coca-cola. I very much love Coca-cola! After Zoo we have together come back home, we were cheerful and pleased.I live in the city of Ioshkar Ola. Very silent And beautiful small small town. Here air Constantly pure because it is a lot of woods around. The population not big. It is located on distance From Moscow of 850 kms.Ken, by the way, when I came to work today my mood was bad, because my girl-friend fell ill and now she is in the hospital. :-( The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 28 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But have already talked with the doctor and I will be allowed to spend the evening in the her chamber. In the evening I will bake a cake, buy balloons and go to the hospital. I want very much that she have good mood on her birthday. This my best friend. By the way, she works with me in the polyclinic. As matter of fact I have only two real friends - Elena and Veronica. Elena is that lady who is in the hospital. Veronica has left to the north for three months. Her grandmother lives there. My friends are not married too. We are friends for 18 years already. Elena and I are like sisters. Elena and I like to walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. This are the houses which were built before the second world war, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well or in a pit. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. There she grows potato, tomatos and cucumbers not to buy them in the market, because it is expensive!Still, i like . Many people know each other. We have little buildings - maximum 16 floors. Veronica says that she wants to live in a big city. I don't know where it is better. Big city is a big traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres. It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our small city is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfort no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there were no criminal the place could be considered as a paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately criminal in Russia is situated on a very high level. But I don't want to tell about sad things. I have to finish my letter. I don't want but I have to. Today when I will come to Elena we will speak about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Ken? Now I am happy to get your letters. I am also happy that I have friends. I think thank you are my friend too.Sincerely yours and with best wishes. Anna

Letter 3

Hi Ken, again. I began writing the letter in the morning. Now it is 2 p.m. already. Can you imagine? I have just cured a little boy's teeth. I asked him: What do you dream about? He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't have problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often remember childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we can't to sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for long. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. Ken, you agree with me? I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. Do you like when your friends come to your home? I like very much when my friends come at my place. I like to cook and that's why I regale them different tasty dishes. Elena is a good cooker too and she often helps me. We often cook different dishes and regale each other. I also like to watch films with my friends at my place. It is a pity I don't have VHS or DVD players. But in we have 8 TV channels and sometimes go to movie. Our flats are very bad equiped for live. I even don't have telephone. In few families have home telephones. I know that it sounds wildly, but you have to understand that Russia began to develope several tears ago.Ken, i told you that I visited Elena in hospital. I was there for two hours and Elena was very happy that I would spend her birthday with her. She told me that may be she wouldn't be in the hospital for long. She has not complicated inflammation of the throat. I brought Elene a chocolate cake, flowers and balloons. These balloons are one colour, blue - this is my favourite colour. And I hope that Elena like it too. And do you like blue colour? Elena and I spoke about you.I said that you are a very good man. Elena told me and wished good luck in my relations with you. I like usually Russian foodstuffs - pel'menis, soups, and pancakes. But I also love the Chinese foodstuffs and cuisine of the Russian Georgia. And I very much would like to try yours hamburger.I will wait for your letter with impatience. Anna

Letter 4

Greetings the my dear friend. With you that that happened? Why you to me Do not write. I waited for your letter for a long time, but have not waited and Has decided to write itself. You have forgotten me? Answer me please.I shall wait your answer. With hope your Anna.

Letter 5

Hi my friend, Ken!!!! I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks. You have again raised my mood and have placed a happy smile on my face. By the way Ken, today I went to job being absolutely confident that you write to me today. Earlier I always went with an thought that you probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with an thought that your letter waits for me already Elena is a doctor as me. We work together. I a dentist and she an assistant of the dentist. But Elena is not my assistant, she helps other dentist. Today I will go to her in hospital once again. I hope that soon Elena will be healthy and we will be happy to meet in our polyclinic.I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all the men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few of them. Men frequently speak dirty words (not normative lexicon) when speak with lady and consider that in it there is nothing bad. I had boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me with bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became another person - rude and evil. Has taken a great interest in beating me, frequently struck and knocked me by hands and the next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing had happened. I began to be afraid of him and and I have left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make myself get acquainted with another man. Now I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid to give my love but get in lieu thereof the roughness. If you have disagreements with lady, you can apply roughness?But I don't want to finish the letter with not good words. So, Ken I will tell you about Elena. Soon she will recover. Elena feels good and sais hello to you. I hope that soon she will be at home and returns to the work. I feel lonely without her. We spent good time during the dinner in the policlinic canteen. The love does not submit to any laws and rules. Many consider that to understand true love, years are necessary. But so frequently people spend years to study each other, to understand that are created to each other, try to understand love it whether or not. Years will pass, life will pass, and people understand that they were mistaken. But at the same time so frequently is enough one glance to understand that this person - destiny. I think and I am sure that the love does not happen identical. For love really there are no laws, barrier, rules and textbooks. I feel, that with each letter you become closer, we search for the same things in the person, but at the same time I should be sure in my feelings to you as will prompt me heart. In ours of the recipe we also use tablespoon and teaspoon measurements, therefore you can not worry about it. After reception of your letters children also are happy because I am happy. And they have healthy smiles.I shall wait, to miss, kiss!!! Your Anna!

Letter 6

Hi, Ken! How your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but after my letter your mood became superfine :-) Likely I too self-confident. But I am happy again because I have again received your letter. I so waited this minute, when I can write to you. Yesterday I went to Elena and told her that you told her hello. I think you don't mind it? I hope that sometimes you will get aquainted. You will understand that friend can be more that brother or sister.Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Tomorrow I again work in dental mobile car. I did not say it to you yet. But it happens only once a week. Dental mobile car - automobile which is more than passenger car, but is less than a lorry. Two years ago I and Elena have written to Ministry of Health the offer to allocate the automobile to make dental mobile car. At that time we with her have consisted in society of volunteer help weak and ailing people. As a rule it is old lonely people which are not capable to live without help of extraneous people. These people could not visit hospital because they could not go independently. We have suggested to come periodically to such people on this automobile with the necessary equipment to not carry these people in hospital. This offer was approved and now we already visit more than fifty settlements in our area. Unfortunately tomorrow I will go without Elena. On this it will be difficult days. In total in our area five such automobiles. We go in small villages and settlements where live people, which for the different reasons cannot go in city to cure a teeth. In our district a lot of such people. Now we help not only to such people, but also children living in children's orphanages. We have many orphanages, but this orphanages have no personal dental cabinet, on this every week Elena, I and ours colleague - dental surgeon, we go in various orphanages on dental mobile car. We became friends with all children and all children love us very much, because also we visit this orphanage in the days off to give help of various sort. The state allocates very few money for the maintenance and contents of orphanages. Buildings are very old. But children do not have anybody to help them and to give them financial support. That's why some people voluntary render the feasible help. We help to repair rooms. Many walls do not have even wall-paper and stucco. The floors and beds are very old. The conditions are terrible. The meal is awful. The children practically have no toys. When I look at all this there are tears in my eyes. My girlfriend and I help to do repair. We glue wall-paper and paint the windows. We bring children new toys. You cannot imagine how children are pleased when we come. And they are glad not only because they wait for new toys, they wait for us. They require kindness and caress very much. Again I write too in detail. Ken, forgive me, please. I simply wanted to tell that I do not know if I can write to you tomorrow. Maybe I can write, but only some lines because I will not have time. Sometimes to us come junk e-mails, and some from them comprise viruses, on it informs a computer. Such letters at once will be removed to avoid infection of a computer.Oh ken! I should go. Sincerely and with the best regards.Your Anna.

Letter 7

Hi my friend Ken. I write to you what to congratulate on coming year. Also I want to wish you of the big good luck, huge love Also that your mood always would be good. Still I want to write to you that you would find that love, Which searched. Also that in your life there would be only positive moments. Forget all problems, which Were the last year. Also meet this New Year Happily, as never. Also be sure, that the next year Will answer you same.About love Anna.

Letter 8

Hi, my far, but dear friend Ken. Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you. I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it was required all the day to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Ken, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day.Today I have happy news. Elena has recovered and now she already at home. Elena came to me at the work to see and please me. She said that soon she will work. I was happy that soon I will be able to see Elena more often. I told her that I worked at mobile car. Elena was upset that she didn't help me. But I said that we worked little, because l ittle people complained of teeths. We visitted only one village. Villages it is small settlements in some tens houses, they are everywhere around of the big cities. It approximately on distance 10-20 miles. We visit villages every week and when we leave, we agree when to arrive next time. In Russia it is a lot of orphanages because young and inexperienced women give birth to children and then understand, that have no means of subsistence, therefore throw children in the street or hand over in orphanages. In our city is present 2 orphanages. Father refuses the child and his mother, therefore mother one is not capable to bring up the child. Frequently children appear in orphanages, because their parents alcoholics.Ken, I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience... I hope that your reply is not of a harsh nature, and I look forward to its arrival. With tenderness, Anna.

Letter 9

Hi my Ken! How your mood? Any your mood today I want to try to make even better. This morning I didn't go to my job, because this morning I flew to my job. Today I came to my job beforehand. And I was first who came to the office. And I was happy all the day. My colleagues were surprised. They have asked me why I'm so happy. And I have simply answered that I have good mood. I have understood long ago but was afraid to admit to itself, that I have found to you feeling which did not feel before. I want to understand what in my heart. I want to feel your breath. I don't know, what's happened with me. Likely I can be named strange lady, but I have grown fond of your soul and heart. The rest is not important for me. For me the material world is not important. Only the world of calmness, fidelity and pure heart. It didn't happen to me before. The weather is sunny today. The sun brings joy. I'm glad that I have friend Ken, and Ken has me, Anna. Tell me about your thoughts and dreams. I want to know all about you. Absolutely all! :-) BUT! Yesterday my boss informed me that I will have a vacation approximately in 1 or 2 weeks. But I did not expect that I will receive a vacation. I have imagined that I should spend my vacation in my apartment, between four walls. I will aimlessly wander on streets and every night fall asleep with tears on eyes. I waited my vacation the whole year and now I receive them but it do not bring to me pleasure. I have imagined that I should spend some months without you and in my heart has appeared awful emptiness. All world around became uninteresting for me. And I have told to myself: "NO! It not for me!" Last night I thought of us. About you and about me. About us together. I couldn't fall asleep. I thought what I can do to see you. I decided to spend this vacation with you. I thought what can I do to meet you. Simply to meet. It's all that I want now.You do not think, that I have overlooked about your questions. No. It was simple at me has put much, vanity. Now I with pleasure on them shall answer. Though fairly to admit some questions I simply has not understood, so if I shall answer not all your questions do not take offence. Basically I with you communicate on work but when I do not work or the computer is simply borrowed, I go to the Internet of cafe. I know the English language very well, probably because I am engaged in him since the childhood. I can and read and write on it freely.I live in the city of Ioshkar Ola. Very silent And beautiful small small town. Here air Constantly pure because it is a lot of woods around. The population not big. It is located on distance From Moscow of 850 kms.Today I have addressed visas agency. I wondered how much it will cost for me to make visa. They told me that consideration of the application on reception of the visa costs 160 dollars. This sum does not come back even in that case if my application will not be approved. And for getting a visa is necessary to go to Moscow. They have told that I will must visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions both in , and in Moscow. It is necessary to wait for a long time the queue. It is a usual way of getting a visa and procedure of reception can be delayed for some weeks or even months. Besides if my application will not be approved, it will turn out that I squander money all for nothing. I said I can't wait so long. To me have told that is possible to avoid set of problems and to make all in faster terms if to use full package of service. Full package of service includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for Interview with commission, interview, insurance, medical survey, tickets. According to the contract, the agency will prepare me for all documents for travel, to buy for me the ticket and to deliver me to the plane. The full package of service costs 465 dollars + sum includes cost of tickets, but the visas agency remove all problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excessive delays. I asked how long time it will take to get a visa If to use a full package of service. They have answered that it will take about one week. I have told that this variant satisfies me and I agree. I will have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the visa. Cost of tickets to me inform later. I do not have money to tickets, but I heard, that it is possible to take the loan in bank. At Elena one works familiar man in bank and he promised, that will try to help me with registration of the loan. So, money - for me will be not a problem. :-) I really have registered the visa application with great belief and with great hope that you will be glad to meet me, with belief and with hope that you want to meet me. I really want to give you a gift - our meeting though I am not sure if you really want to meet me. Can you imagine that if everything will be well, in two weeks we can meet? If it would happen, would be it as a gift for you? Would be you happy if we could spend some days together? I understand that our relations are not long yet. Many years I ask myself one question: "Why everything depends on money?" I think that the money is not main thing in life. The main is when the people can and want to understand each other. I have a wild desire to meet you, to embrace you. I have some savings. I do not want to cause you a monetary outlay. I will make all myself. I know that you did not expect that I will tell all this. But it is possible to wait eternally. But in fact nobody knows that waits for us tomorrow. Maybe such opportunity will not be presented any more. I have opened to you my heart and soul. I speak what I feel. I am not confused by my feelings. I speak straight and openly. The loneliness has made me courageous. You can think that I hurry events. But I have found new feeling which never had. I am happy right now. I seem I has found what searched for long time. In Russia speak: "under a lying stone the water doesn't flow ". It mean that it is necessary to do a step onward to achieve something.During all my life I spent my vacation in my village or travelling across Russia. But now I can spend my vacation with my friend, with you! It is big happiness. I should use this opportunity. In my heart never was such confidence and feeling. And I am afraid to lose it. May be I hurry events, but I am afraid that all will be terminated, and then I will go mad. You my dear friend, and friends meet sometimes. I shall receive a vacation, it's my vacation and I want to spend it with my dear friend. I think it will be wonderful. I apologize, if have offended you. I hope, that you do not regard my words as impudence. I simply want to meet and spend some happy days with you. What will be after, I do not know. But all people meet. The distance does not frighten me. But without a meeting there can not be a continuation. I hope, that your feelings to me have not changed after that. But I want to see you to slightly becalm my tormented heart. Tell me please, can you meet me? Tell me please, you will be glad to meet me? You will be glad if I will arrive to you? I believe and I hope that I have not angered and have not offended you. I believe and I hope that you have feelings to me. I believe and I hope that you want to meet me. It can be outlined in advance by destiny. I sincerely hope that my letter has brought pleasure to you. And I sincerely hope that you want to meet me to spend some time together. And I sincerely hope that you would be happy to meet me. Would you be happy? Sometimes I come home and if I feel tired I fall asleep early, but I never find yourself awake in the middle of the night, I wake up only in the morning.Much tenderness from Anna!!!

Letter 10

Hi my soul Ken!I with trembling heart waited your letter. Thank you for told all what you think. Thanks for your letter. You have written to me and it means that one more day I will be lived with good mood. I want to describe to you my day completely, since morning and till the night. At 6:30 rattle my alarm clock. I do not love my alarm clock. Because it so loudly rattle, that each time I jump as scalded. I rise with good mood because in dream I saw you. At 6:35 I go to a bathroom And I THINK OF YOU! I wash and I clean a teeth. At 6:45 I dress my sports suit, I go on street And I THINK OF YOU! I jog. I run in the mornings always when it is not cold to support myself in the good form. When in the street coldly, I sleep till 7:00. At 7:20 I cook a breakfast, as a rule strong tea or coffee and a sandwich. I drink tea and I THINK OF YOU! At 7:30 I go to work. Usually, if weather good, I go on foot And I THINK OF YOU! I like to go on foot since morning. Air clean and fresh. To job I come vigorous and cheerful. At 7:55 I go to a cabinet where works my girlfriend . As a rule she already on work at this time. If there is an opportunity I receive your letter. If the opportunity is not present I receive it later. At 8:00 I start to work And I THINK OF YOU! At 10:00 I go on street and I THINK OF YOU! I breathe fresh air of 10 minutes and come back to work. At 12:30 a dining break. I go home for a dinner And I THINK OF YOU! I reach up to a house by a trolley bus. At 13:00 I eat and at 13:10 I go again for work And I THINK OF YOU! I go by a bus but I abandon a trolley bus earlier, than it is necessary, to again take a walk on fresh air And TO THINK OF YOU! At 13:30 I again work And I THINK OF YOU! (though in my work is impossible be distracted and think about something another except for work) :-) At 15:30 we with my employees do a small break and we drink tea for have a rest. I was not capable to drink tea because I THINK OF YOU! During the working day when there is an opportunity I answer your letter. At 17:00 I go home. I go on foot, slowly. I feel itself perfectly because I THINK OF YOU! At 17:40 I take a shower and I imagine that YOU WITH ME! :-) At 18:00 I have supper, alone, but I smile, because I imagine that YOU SIT OPPOSITE TO ME! At 19:00 I go for walk with my girlfriend (but it happens seldom). We walk in park. I THINK OF YOU! If I do not go for walk, I listen to music, I read the book, I watch TV, I knit, I make various homework And I THINK OF YOU! (of course not all simultaneously) :-) At 23:00 I lie down to sleep. Usually I fall asleep very quickly because I THINK OF YOU!Today we with Elena went to bank, there have met with her familiar. He informed, that I should write the application on reception of money and then bank will consider my request and will solve, allow to me of money whether or not. But he has told, that it will not cause what problems and that he will help with it. To know what sum to take in bank I has taken an interest in agency how many tickets will cost. They have told, that the prices for tickets very much frequently vary, and probably tickets will cost from 900 up to 1600 dollars. I have filled in the application on 38000 roubles. It approximately 1420 dollars. Now I need to wait some days and then to go in bank. By the way, one more important detail. I hope, that my application for the visa will approve, therefore it is necessary for me to know the international airport nearest to you in which you can meet me. I hope you write to me it!!!! Only do not think that all my days pass so. It is an approximate variant. Every day passes on miscellaneous. To visit your country it is necessary to have the visa, without the visa I cannot arrive to you, it is obligatory. But is that peculiar to each my day: IT'S MY THOUGHTS OF YOU!!! Your and only your Anna.

Letter 11

Hello Ken!Today we have quarantine on job. All cabinets of our polyclinic will be cleared with special chemical solution to destroy all microbes. This procedure happens every month. I cannot use a computer because right now in this cabinet will begin process of clearing .Today I passed the commission! :-) I never thought that the commission will ask such unusual questions. They asked about my sexual life, they asked about children, about work, about patriotism, about my attitude to your country, about my religion and belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about everything fairly how it is really. To me have told that my answers are unexpected and as a rule applicants do not answer such questions so directly and openly. They have not got used to hear such answers, but they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Children from the orphanages also have made the big impression and rendered the big influence on the commission. To me have told that I the first lady who have such support from children - orphans. Now I should wait the decision. Now I agree with expression: "Expectation of death is worse than the death " I cannot concentrate on anything. They have told that the decision will be accepted tomorrow. I so worry. I so want that this small dream was come true. I simply want to see my lovely friend. I think the God will help me. I want to meet you Ken. I never did not so worry before.I have been told already to leave a cabinet. I will stop. Please forgive me and pray for me. I worry very much. Bye my love! I do not want to finish but I should. Your Anna

Letter 12

Hi my dear Ken! Today fine day. But only for one reason - I have received your letter. And all the rest become unimportant for me. I do not know why, but today I have woken up earlier than usually. I could not fall asleep again. In the street already was sunlight. I sat near a window and began to look at street. Unexpectedly the small birdie sat down on a window and began to sing. She so beautifully sang. She looked at me and sang. The birdie at all was not afraid of me. I looked at this birdie and thought that you now somewhere there, far. I have thought that maybe you sleep and see me in your dream. And I have thought, if I was a birdie, I too would sit down to you on a window and began to sing my song. I have told to a birdie: " Fly off, my small birdie, and sing this song to my far but close friend Ken. Tell him that I think of him ". And in this moment the the birdie flinch and fly off, as though she has heard my words. And I have thought, maybe this birdie really will fly to you and will sing her beautiful song. So if you Ken will see near to yourself a small birdie which beautifully sings, know that I have sent this song to you.O'k Ken, I have for you good news! Today I went to agency! Visa is made! I have received the visa!:-) But me it is necessary for receiving in Moscow. In there is no embassy of your country and consequently I should go there and to take away her, up to the plane to you, my dear!! In agency have told, that they will prepare my tickets for tomorrow's day aboard the plane. Tomorrow I shall go and I shall find out it. All turns out very quickly and well for me. The destiny helps me to be with you beside :-)The blue sky, the bright sun, stars in the night sky, your letters make of me happy. I like to read your letters. Your letters makes me happy and they it is valid make me smile. Forgive, but I should go. I want to send you my kiss if you do not object. Your Anna

Letter 13

Hi my Ken! Thanks for your letter. My heart calms down when I receive your letter.Sometimes I look in a window, there, where the sky and the ground merge in a single whole. I try to be lost in this imagined world, I try to weaken my sight, that all what I see became indistinct, dim. And then your image has emerged before my eyes. And I already see how you go along the street though I absolutely have no idea what your street look like. But I see you, I see as you smile, as at cinema in the slowed down action you come nearer to me, and your image becomes more and more precise. You speak something but I do not hear you. But I read on your lips, and my heart with fatal delight understands what you speak me. And these your words burn me from within. During the some moment I so sink in this world of illusions that I cease to understand where a reality. But the next second all breaks off and again before my eyes the grey sky, the white ground and people which at all do not suspect what occurs in my heart. It is so unusual to me, and in same time I feel so conveniently as if I know you the whole eternity. And I am sure that it not accidentally. And it is not important what waits for me in the nearest future, I know that I already have found remarkable, kind and good a man and a friend. And if I will see him, if I meet him and I can look in his eyes, I can tell to him everything what I cannot tell in letters, I will be madly happy. Now, today, this minute not important, where will bring me this way. I know that it is true road. I live not the future, - I live today, and exactly today I live by bright and happy life.I went to agency and to me informed cost of tickets. The ticket for me will cost 1350 dollars. It in one party and back. As soon as I to pay this money they to me at once will tell all data of my plane (time of departure, number of flight, etc). I should pay this money in agency. Elena has told to me, that in bank to me can give such money and I at once to give their agency. I promised, that I shall make it the nearest days. Already tomorrow I shall go to bank, to take money, and then at once in agency, to give this money :-)I should finish the letter. In relations with lady are you a dominating part? I have in view of - you like more to be the leader and to make all decisions personally or you like to discuss questions with lady and to make a decision together? I think that it is good when the problems are solved together. Even if the problem is of one of the spouse. I think it is good when the spouses tell each other their problems. Kisses. Your Anna

Letter 14

Hello my sweet Ken!!!At me not so good news to you. Since the morning I had excellent, cheerful mood. But it has very strongly deteriorated after I have visited bank. Today I went in bank and to me have given up with the loan. I was simply in a shock! I could not assume such situation. I trusted, that this the man can help me. I have asked him why to me cannot give money and he has answered, that it precisely does not know why such has taken place. Bank that has not told. Probably all they were afraid of that at me the small salary and that I cannot pay to them this money. In our country and in our banks very much frequently people take money and then cannot pay up to the end to bank that money which have taken, and most likely, they were afraid, that with me there will be a same situation, as with others. At me remained about 200 dollars. But where to me to take 1150 more??? I need to pay money to agency. But at me they are not present!!! I very much hoped to the aid bank, but he has denied assistance to me!!! It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything that I could. I paid visa. I have spent a lot of time and nerves when waited the visa. But this money is not enough. I did not want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. Now I should pay the rest of the sum to agency. It is only 1350 $ dollars. It is very a shame to me to speak about it because I do not know that to me to do, where to me to get such big sum? And now I still had last hope, it you, please, help me with the money on ticket. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Of course if you do not want, you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. I cannot arrive to you. IT IS BAD TOO BUT NOT FATAL TOO. I paid 465 $ dollars for making visa. It is big money for me, but MONEY IS NOT THE MAIN THING IN THE LIFE. I trust you, and I know that YOU ARE A MAN OF HONOUR AND YOU ARE A GENTLEMAN. If you can help me, write to me about it in the following letter!!!Ken, please forgive to me all my words. I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will have no use. I need you and I want to be with you and the word of honor, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. We will pass through difficulties and barrier, it is much easier to do it together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I understand that it is the big money for you. I did not want to ask you. I thought that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without help, and to rely only on myself. I ask somebody for help very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make your step towards me. I hope that I have not offended you something. I need you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step between us. I am waiting for your reply.Kiss you. Your Anna

Letter 15

Hi my KenGratitude for your letter, but to me was a little sad to read him. Yes, I understand your fears, that you can deceive. Means you have no full trust to me. It is insulting for me because I trust you. Though we did not meet in the person never. But I have no opportunity to find such money. All my friends and familiar have no such money. What banks cannot give me money. It simply destroys me! Now all your and my dreams will be destroyed only because I have no money. Think, if I had money I would not ask you about the help. I have understood, that I was possible has again found my love, but money solve all! I hate money because now everyone decide only money. And if the person has money he can make everything and if the person has no money he cannot make that. But for me money not the main thing. But without money I cannot arrive to you and except for you to me not to whom to help with money. I promise you when I shall come to you I be employed and I shall gradually give you of money. But all right. If not will trust me, all right. I leave the option to you! I want that you listened only to the heart! Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of wife and husband or union of boy-friend and girl-friend or union of business partners. I do not want to be hypocritical. That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman whom you will not trust. Also I would not like to give my love to the man which I will not trust. It's a first check for us. And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other. That's why I was the first who made the first step. Step to you. If you decide to send money I shall come to you! And it is possible we shall be happy up to the end of our lives. I shall not speak more about money. I want that you have decided that you to do. But please make a correct choice. But if you decide to not send money I shall understand you it is your choice and a choice of each any person is solved correct. You will help me to pay a meeting? What proofs of my intentions you will demand? You in general want, what I arrived to you? I the alive girl and am necessary for me alive the man, instead of the virtual friend. Write to me about it. The world and LoveAnna

Letter 16

Greetings the my dear friend. I am very glad to that I have such friend as you. And though we did not see in alive, but nevertheless I feel heat which proceeds from you, my lovely friend. At me good mood at present and I want will share with you. I send you this poem and I want, that you were very happy.I not dreamed to express timeAll that you mean for me,Searched unique phrases,Searched for words, that so are rich,But speech is not subject to feelings,Also I as have accepted inevitability,That I can not invest with wordsInexhaustible tenderness.I hope, that at you the mood will rise. Know, that I shall always remember you though we were very poorly familiar. And, please, do not forget me. Also write to me. I shall be always glad to your letter. Strong I embrace also whole.Your Anna.

Letter 17

At me all perfectly my friend. I am very glad to that you have written to me. Excuse me that I cannot answer your letter very longly because I in general do not have time. It is a lot of work. But I think, that you will not be upset. I necessarily shall write you the long letter but only when time will be enough. I hope you will wait my letters and always them to answer. I shall be always glad to your letter. Thanks you for all. I am grateful to destiny that I have such friend as you.Your Beautiful Anna.