Letter(s) to Mark (UK)

Letter 1

I am very happy to receive your new letter. Each your letter bring happiness for me. My ideas always only about you. You have changed all my life. I do not understand that happened with me. When I at home, on work, in the street I think of you always. Every day I think of you. I happy to write to you again. I think of you very much.You are always with me: in each my step, in each my deal, always. My parents had wedding in 1953 and they live 34 years are happy. My parents very happy together, and I really hope that may be someday you and I will be together and will be same happy couple. How it could be sweet to be together with dear man. If you don't think about it, you may not notice it. But there is some emptiness in the heart, when you have no beloved person near with you. And this emptiness can't be filled with job, joy, food or something else. It's emptiness in soul, and I truly feel that you begin to fill it. I feel so strangely and unusually. Just peace of happiness came to me from heaven, and I enjoyed it.I frequently in the evenings look at the moon and I ask the god that he has helped me to find my destiny and to not be mistaken. Sometimes I like loneliness but sometimes I hate to be one. Happens that I pay at night because there is nobody near to me in a bed, there is not strong man's shoulder to which I can to nestle in sleep and to embrace.... Minutes of a melancholy frequently overtake me and then I start to reflect on sense of my life.... What with me will be farther?... Really I shall lead my stayed life in loneliness?... But no, I shall never despair! I should live a life adequately! And I shall be happy! Sometime.

With the best regards your Elena.