Letter(s) to Joe (USA)

Letter 1

Your profile is good. Can we talk a little?

I am 31 years old. Professional. Don't have children, never been married, nice appearance and soul, great sense of humor.

I am looking for soulmate to create healthy family and start new life. I am kind, cheerful and honest person. Put family to the first. Expect respect and love from the man and ready to give the same in return.

I like animals and children, outdoors and sport. I love to live and know how to do it beautiful. As for personality I consider myself charming and multiple.

I live in Russia and coming to the USA soon. This is why I looking for US residents only.

What I want? The usual man with good soul and big heart. The man I could rely and share everything in my life. Good man without big problems which believes in true love and clear relationship for life. The person that respects his life partner's opinion and keeps himself as gentleman.

If you think it is about you please send me a message to krushenica@yahoo.com

My profile was unabled for some reasons and I can't make it to work. I will reply with my picture as soonas possible. Thank you.


Letter 2

Hello Joe.

Thank you for your reply. I am really glad to see your message.
I havn't checked my email box for long ago and it's why I havn't written sooner.
Hope you understand.

I am new on the Internet and Internet dating. Please, don't be too strict if something is wrong... I am a little abashed :-) I don't know how real it is and how I should behave...

Well, I guess I should tell a little about myself so we could start the conversation.

I am Russian. I was born and I've been living in Russia all my life. My birthday is on the 25th of January, 1974. Big girl :-)

I am a doctor. I work here in a hospital as a physician. I have good education, university graduate. I like this work, I like to help people and see their gratitude. :-)

I keep healthy life. Don't smoke and drink rarely. Prefer red wine or a small buttle of good beer. I enjoy sport and outdoors. Bicyclyng is my favourite pastime.

I also have many hobbies and interests. For example history, geography, reading, music and so on. I am trying to be a many-sided person (not sure if this word is correct). I know English and I am working to improve it. :-)

I am afraid I won't be impartial telling about my personality but I'll try.

I am loyal and honest. I have good sense of humor and natural curiosity. I like animals and children. I like to be happy and make people around me happy too.

I wrote that I am from the USA at my profile. Don't think I lie. I will come there in a couple of months. And I'll stay for about a year. I've never been outside of Russia and I would like to have a friend in the USA... ;-) Don't think that I im interesting in friendship only. I've forgotten to say I am single. I've never been married and I have no children... And yes, I am looking for my love. :-)

What person I want? Nothing extraordinary. I don't need a prince or a rich. I want a good guy. Really good guy with soul and heart. Who can love and respect his woman. Who can support and understand me. I like decent and honest men. I have just a few things I can't stand in the man: rudeness and vulgarity. Hope I didn't scare you :-)

Well I think it is enough for the first letter. I will continue next time. Please tell me a little about you. What you like and what you think?

Yours truly, Krusha.

p.s. The pictures are attached. This is me ;-)

Letter 3

Hi, Joe!
Do you remember me? I'm Krusha! I wrote you on match.com.
Please, tell me why didn't you answer me?


Letter 4

Hi Joe.

Thank you for your reply. It's nice to receive your note.

I am very pleased you interest in me. Joe I want us to keep our correspondence and to know each other better. Write me about your life, send pictures. I promise to do the same.
But if you will send the pics, please, resize it, ok? Just I must pay for the information from Internet (traffic). If your letter (with the pics) will be > than 1 Mb, I will pay for that. But if the letter (with the pics) will be < than 1 Mb, I will not pay. It's easy. If you don't know how to resize the pics, you can do it in the program "Adobe Photoshop". I use this program and my pics have a small size. I know you have a great speed Internet, but here in Russia it's hard to have. It's expensive.

Also, I use an Internet in my work. I haven't my own computer and a phone to have Internet in home. So, my boss said that we can't use Internet every day. I will try to write you every other day, ok? Also I can't write on weekends.

By the way Joe if you note any mistakes in my letter don't be shy to report them to me.
I have been studying English for some years at University and then by myself. I like to read books in English. And I still think I am not good enough to speak and to communicate easily. Your corrections would help me much. I write it by myself with a dictionary and I want to improve my language skills.

You know our meeting was a chance. I have been surfing Internet for some months. The first time I used Internet was for my work. I read about new methods in treatment. Then I started to surf Internet for two or three times a week. And now it is one of my favourite things to do. Recently I have interested in dating service and decided to try it. I choose several profiles and you replied. :-) Others havn't wrote me (I know that I'm not a very beautiful woman:)). I am glad we've met.

Joe I still can't imagine you are in the USA. Sounds silly? :-) I have never been to the States. I know your country just from the movies and TV. I would like to learn more about it and your people. I think we could give each other more full images about our countries by corresponding. I also hope to visit the USA some day. I like to travel very much. It is great to see the world all over. I haven't travel much. I was in several russian cities and once at the Black Sea.
My favourite city is St.Petersburg. Very beautiful place. I live in Kashin (it's a little town in Tver region). If you want to know more about my town you can see a web-site: http://www.towns.ru/towns/kashin_en.html.

It's in English!
Now I have a great chance to move in USA. It's so great for me. It will be a trip for the work. I will write you when I will know exact about it.

Well, I am a little confused and I don't know what to say. I hope all this stuff is not too boring to read. :-)

Joe I have already told you that I want to find someone through Internet. I just wanted to say that it is my serious intention. I am interested in you and I want us to be good friends.

Write me back. Waiting for your letter.
I'm sorry, sometimes I couldn't answer on all of your questions. You see I use Internet in my work and can't write much. But I will try to answer.


Letter 5

Hello, my friend.

I thank you for your letter and your interest in me. Joe, it is interesting to read your message. I am sorry I couldn't write you earlier. But today I have a time and I want to write a long letter.

So, let me begin:) Thanks for the English lesson:) I speak only Russian and English. Also I received your pic. And I like you very much. You are very handsome man!
I want to know more about you. Please, tell me more about your family, friends and people that you know. What is your usual day? I will also tell you what you want to know about me.

I have good time to correspond with you. I enjoy it. I can say it is becoming one of my favourite things. I don't remember if I told you about my hobbies or things I like to do for fun. It seems to me that people who wants to have some relationship must have the same ideas and goals in life and also the same ways for rest and fun.
I like different activities like sport, walking, going-out and outdoors. I can't say that I am engaged in sport. I just like it. I like bicycle-riding, swiming and beach especially. Also I like to dance. I dance classic and modern dances. I am an amateur not a professional. I think the real woman should be beautiful both soul and body. My mother teached me to play piano. I also can sing. I will try to learn some english songs. Hope you can hear them someday.

I enjoy cooking. I prefer italian and russian food. My favourite dishes are different soups and salads. I cook great Ukrainian borsch. It is a soup made of beet, meat, cabbage and carrot. Very tasty. Smile.

As I said I like reading. I read different books, but prefer books about history and countries. I read a lot of Russia and America. These countries are great.

As for fun, I like the same thing like all people. Movie, walking, theatre. I like to drink tea with friends in cafe. We talked about everything and nothing. Smile. I don't have a lot of friends, but all they are good people. To be honest I don't like 'empty' people. My friends are almost my friends from childhood and youth. They are already almost married. Don't think that I am close person. I like to meet new people and make friends. I am easy-going and I easily strike up new acquaintance. From another side I am not easy approachable woman. I am serious. I think it is from my upbringing.

Joe, I don't remember if I told you about my family. I live alone. My mom died about two years ago. And I have never seen my father. The most close person now is my uncle, my mother's brother. He lives with his family, but I am not close to them. His wife thinks my uncle is my lover. Actually we just friends. I think he is like father for me. Silly woman, she can't understand the friendship between man and woman. I am not angry at her. I am just sorry she is so narrow-minded.

My mother was a doctor too, a surgeon. She was a member of charitable organization and she came to Chechnya when there was a war. Mother always wanted to help people. She was the kindest person I knew. She was killed there. The truck detonated at the mine when they transported wounded people to hospital. Everyone was killed. I wanted to come with her to there, but she didn't allow me. Now I know why.

From my birth my mother wanted me to become a teacher. But I didn't. I had enough strict upbringing. I had been not allowed to date with boys until I got 20 years old. My mother was old-fashion person. Probably it is not bad. I loved my mother and respect her. She could give me good upbringing. We didn't have any conflicts. I always try to understand her. She loved me too and just wanted me to be happy. It was the most hard time in my life when she died. I thank my uncle, he was with me and supported me.

I talked with my uncle about you. Are you surprised? We often had confiding talking. He understands me in full. I said him that I meet a man on dating service in Internet. And that this man is from another country. Uncle said that it is great. I asked him what he thinks if I would like to visit this country and maybe to move there. He said that it is OK, if I feel I want it. I am glad with this.

Well, hope it is not too boring to read. Smile. You see sometimes man must sit and think about his life and about what he is and what he wants. It seems to me that I have this time now.

What I want? Simple things. Happiness, family, careful husband. I put spiritual life to the first, not material things. I am not looking for better life or getting rich. I am looking for full life. Why I can't find husband here in Russia? I can, but I don't want. I see how my mother lived, I see how other people live in Russia. Yes, here is bad economics and I don't want to live here. I love my Motherland but I don't like the State. I want to have comfortable life and don't always be in searching good job and better salary. I want to dedicate my life to my husband and my family. I don't want to say that I am lazy. I like to work, but I don't want to dedicate my life to my work. I hope you understand what I am talking about.

I see that many russian women try to go out from Russia looking for better life. They marry foreigners to get citizenship of another state. Then they divorce. I don't like them. I believe in marriage for life. I want to marry for love.
So, about my coming in USA. I will be in the exchange program. I know you want to know about it. How I want to know!!! But I don't know now. I haven't a news about it. I only know that I will know some information in next week.
So, let's see...
I can tell only that it's an interesting program. I went to the Moscow to have an interview. Every year the Ministry of Health of Russia carry out the international exchange of doctors between different country. This year they enrol doctors for groups that will come to the US. Russian doctors will work on probation for 10 months. After that they will pass the qualifying examination and get the medical license.
I don't know right now the result of interview, but I will know it very soon. If I will pass the interview, I will go to USA very soon!!!

Joe, I want you to understand me in full, until we will make some any steps.

Tell me what you think about this all and what else you would like to know.

Well, this letter seems to be long, so I will close.
Until next time.

Yours Krusha.

p.s. I forgot to tell about my pics. I have some pics on the computer.
Some of them was taken by my friends, my uncle, my last boyfriend (I will tell you about him). Some of them was taken by digital camera (last boyfriend had digital camera, but now I haven't it), some of them - real camera and scanned. My newest pic was in previous letter. It has name "me.jpg".
This pic was taken in a hotel when I was on Black Sea. It was a time when I saw the sea first time in my life.

Letter 6

Hi Joe.

I couldn't wait when I can come here to computer to read your letter.
It really brights my day. Smile. I am really happy to get your reply.
And I like we both enjoy our talking. Your letters mean a lot for me.
I like your house and of course I like you very much! You look nice:))
Well... Do you want to know about exchange program???...
I have some good news about it. So, I got a official letter, there they said that I passed an interview. :) But it's a first step. Second, I must have a test. It will be a test about English language. I don't worry about it alot, I know English. Also it will be a written test.
I must only write (if I have an oral test, I will worry very much:)) So, it will be very soon, I hope I will write you about it in next letter:) Are you glad for me?
I have learnt that doctors would come to several cities in the US.

Tell me the closest cities near you.

Maybe I would be able to choose the city closer to you. Smile. There are some another details. The US government will provide housing for russian doctors. And their work will be paid.

Joe, yesterday evening I told with my uncle about you. He is exciting about our friendly relationship. I read him some parts from your letters. Not all, just some sentenses. Hope you don't mind I share that with my uncle. He is the only close person to me and I trust him.

He thinks you are worthy man. But he said I must be cautious. I can understand his feelings. But for me you are honest man and I don't think you can ever deceive me. I know I may be mistaken with my thoughts about you. Only time will say the truth. Smile.

To be honest we discussed about my possibility to move to you. Smile. Don't worry, it is just an idea. I understand that it is too early to think about it. But who knows. At first I want to get a vacancy in exchange program and meet you in person in the states. We would be able to see each other 10 months. Anyway my uncle said that he will support me in my choice and don't mind if I move.

Joe, I don't know what is going on with me. I found myself thinking of you often. It seems to me that you are more than just a friend to me. I hope I didn't scare you off with my thoughts. Smile.
I wonder what you think about me as your possible life partner? Do you think that we could have common future? I understand if it is too straight question. But I would like to know your opinion. I am honest with you and I want you to be honest with me too. We must trust each other. It's very important in relationship.

As for me I see you as my possible partner for life. I know we have great distance between us. But with our letters I feel you close. I believe you are the man with nice soul. I think personal contact is more better than letters via e-mail. But now it is enough to know each other better and see if we realy can have something common in the future. I hope we will meet one day... if I can pass an test.

Well, I continue to tell about me and my life here. My usual day is not too intersting. I get up at 6 o'clock and at 8 I must be at my work. It takes me about 20 minutes to get there by bus or about 40 minutes on foot. I like to go to work on foot because it is very invigorative. Morning, fresh air.

I work in a medical unit at near military base. I start my day making a ward round. Then I do physical examinations for patients. Other time I consulate nurses and doctors, write different medical certificates and papers. Also I make the report to my chief every week that takes much time to prepare. To be honest I don't like the organization of work at military. They need too much papers and reports. The most of my time at work I write some papers and documents. But I'd like to make more practice. I have an idea to open my own clinic, at least consulting room and start my practice. Unfortunately it is impossible in Russia, only in big cities like Moscow or St.Petersburg. You see we have free medicine because many people can't pay for medical service.
From the other side free service decrease the quality of medicine.
Well, I must stop here. I can talk very much about it. Smile.

I couldn't leave it because of my mother. She worked here too with me and I couldn't leave her alone. Now I would like to leave this job, find my life partner and start new life.

After work I return home, it is about 5-6 pm. Make some domestic things like cleaning and washing. Three times a week I go to gym, make some aerobics and dances. Sometimes I go to library. Sometimes I visit my friends. When I don't want to go anywhere I stay at home to read a book or play piano, I like to learn a new music composition. In the evenings I watch some film or show on TV.
As for movie and music. I like different music: rock, jazz, pop, classic. e.g. Scorpions, A. Lavigne, Bah, Mozzart, Jazzamor, Placebo etc... As for movies. e.g. I like an old American film "Breakfast at Tiffany`s". Did you see it? Also I like old Russian comedies etc.

Today I got my salary at work. That small pleasant event always makes people to love their work if only for a day. Smile. I don't earn large sum of money. Don't know should I tell it to you or not? Well, I let you know. It is 3600 rubles (about $130 USD) for a month. But I am enough satisfied with it. I wish I got more money, but I don't want to become crazy about it. I saw many people who wanted to get much money.
Some of them gained it. But they almost changed their personality.
They can't talk about anything, only money. Yes, it is difficult to make good money in Russia. But money is not my life goal. For my salary I can buy something of clothes and it is enough to buy food.
For russian standard I have about average earnings. I have a TV set and tape-recorder at home. I don't have a car, but I can drive it. I have my bicycle and I enjoy riding it. Smile. Not sure how interesting it is to read about these things but I want you know.

I know that we have different life levels. But it is interesting what are expenses for living at you. I pay about $50 USD for my flat and electricity. In winter I pay additional 20 for central heating. I am lucky I live in my mother's flat. This flat was given to my mother by the department where she worked. Actually it is not my accomodation. I can just live here. I have two rooms and a kitchen. I don't want to complain of something. It is usual things here. I want to show you life here.

I thought about my life and recent events. You know from my last relationship with man I understood that the connection between man and woman is very delicate. It needs efforts from both sides to be supported and developed. You can't just date, make love and say words.
It is more deeper. My last boyfriend was a photographer. Some my pictures were made by him. He was more than just a photographer, he was an artist, a creator. Our parting was not a tragedy. In the certain time we both understand we are not together and decided to break it. I don't miss him. It was the best we could do. Joe I don't know why I tell it to you. Now I want to create full relationship and I know how to do it. I will try to give all my soul to my man and I need his one for me. Well don't get it too close. It is just my thoughts and I'd like to share it with you.

Well, I must cut my letter here. Write me more. Everything you think and do. I need it.

Looking forward to geting your letter.
Take care.

Letter 7

Hi, Joe!
It's me - Krusha. I have a problems with my yahoo e-mail and I did this new e-mail address.
Please, send me a letters to this e-mail.
ps I will answer after the weekend.

Letter 8

Hello Joe.

How are you? Hope you are OK. I am all right. I missed you these days when I was unable to read your letters. Smile. I don't know how it may happen so fast but I feel that we have been friends for years.
I like your pic. Yes, I received it and I like you very much!
How does your trip?
What happened with you these days? Here things are the same. You know sometimes it seems to me that life stopped here. And you live the same day everyday and it scares me. I may live all my life and I can't notice that life is going away. Joe you make my days another.
Full of life and joy.

Thank you for your writing. It really brights my days. Don't think that is just words. I always mean what I say... Or at least I try to.

Joe I can't still believe you are so far from me. Yes, I understand it but can't imagine it. Yes, computer and Internet are like a window to the world. It is fantastic.

You know our acquaintance made me to think a little differently about people living in the world. Good change. Of course I knew about other countries and people but before it was like an idea, that I saw on TV, read in books and newspapers. But mass media can't give you the real situation about another country. With your letters I can feel your real life. Understand me please, I have just touched to different culture, life and people through you. And I saw it is real. Joe I am a person that doesn't believe until he touchs. Smile. I realize you are the same person as I am. We speak different languages, live in the different countries but we want the same things in our lifes. I feel that I am a part of something very huge and important. Thank you for giving me this feeling. I want to travel all over the world, to meet new people and to get new experience. I really think it is great fun and useful. What do you think? I actually may look naive but this is what I think. Smile.

Yesterday I met my friends. We usually meet at someone's home or go to our favourite cafe. This is pretty nice place. It is small and very cosy. They don't sell alcohol there so it is not very popular. It seems strange? I am not sure you know but usually russians drink a lot.
Some russian comic said "the drinking is Russian national pastime".
Smile... It sounds funny but it is not too good in real life. It is always loudly where alcohol is on sale. Russian people in common don't know when to stop in doing something. Smile... If they drink they get drunk. If they love... they fall in love. Smile...

My friends don't like to drink too as I do. They are almost my friends from university or childhood, and girls from my work. We talk, drink tea, coffe, joke, have fun. Very nice people. I like them all.

It's a pitty we can't meet often but a time or too in month. They almost are married and have family and children so they are constantly busy. Well the matter is that I told them about you. They were really happy for me. They already asked when I come to you. Smile.
I explained we are just friends but they still bantered me all evening. They say hello to you. I would like to introduce you to them one day.

And one thing... Important thing! I want you to know my real name:)
"Krusha" - my nick name. My full name is Ruzieva Alina. Alina - is a first name. So if you want you can call me so. You must understand why I didn't tell you my real name. But now I thin we have a trusting, yes? Well I must go now. I will try to write you sooner.


p.s. Joe I really glad we "met". Smile. Keep more writing.
p.p.s. This pic did my last boyfriend in Photoshop:)

Letter 9

Hello Joe.

How are you? I am fine. We have good day today and I have time to talk with you.

Don't think I forgot about you. Smile. No, I think of you often. I am very intersting to know you more and I like we can talk via email. Is it OK for you that I can't write you everyday or regularly? I will try to write as often as I can.
You know, I can tell only "WOW!!!", I saw the pic and I like it so much! Handsome man and great view on the back! it's so beautiful!

To be honest I am a little nervous. Joe, you may ask why I feel so. I am a little scared about having new serious relationship, particularly, a relationship with you, because I want a relationship with you to work out. I want it to happen, to mature, and excel.
Another reason I am nervous is because a serious relationship is a big step. A big step for both of us. And, lastly, I am nervous of the possibility that you will say something like "You are a great friend, and I think we should keep things that way". I think I want more. It is based on what you have written me, what you have told me of you, and what you have told me of your thoughts, life and so on.
I think that I really want to develop our relationship. I know it may be premature for me to think this way. But I do because I feel this way.

Joe I had an English test today... And they took me. Smile. I am very happy. It is really stirring event for me. It is like the new birth.
I even don't have any words to express my feelings.

You know yesterday night I had a dream. And I saw that I pass this test. I saw airport and big airplane, than I saw new beautiful country and our meeting. Smile. When I went to the test today morning I was sure I would pass it. My thoughts about our meeting helped me to do it. Smile.

Last days I thought about you a lot and I thought about us. I thought may it be possible for us to meet each other one day. I thought how real is Internet. How we can learn each other throught it. Really it seems to me that there is no difference what way we communicate. The important thing is that we can learn each other and to have image of our character in our minds. And it is great.

Joe tell me what is happening in your life?

Tell me what holidays do you celebrate? And what holidays mean anything for you personally?
As for Russian we have too much holidays! New Year, Christmas, February 23th (it's a men's day), Women's day (March, 8th), Easter; April, 1st; May 1st, May 9th, June 12th, September 1st, November 4th, and more (I don't remember all). What do you think about it?
O, BTW, I'm 5' 6" too:)) We have a same height!
I have to go now. I will write again soon.

Yours Alina.
ps That's my address, but you must promise to send only postcards! No presents ok? I just don't want you to waste money:))

Ruzieva Alina,
45/3 Lunachrski Street,
Kashin, Tver's region,
Russia, 171600.

Letter 10

Hi, Joe.

I am really happy we are in touch. Thank you for your letters. They make my days. I think of you constantly. You are very close to me. I don't know how it could happen so fast. It is amazing. I feel you very close.
I received your pic. And I like you very much. You are very handsome man! And I like a background too:)

You see we both are sincere with each other. I think it is the way people must comunicate with each other. I think that we mustn't hide our feelings and thoughts. I do it. I am ready to give myself to the destiny. I believe in fortune. I think I am lucky to find you.

I know I may seem too excited talking about "us". I just want you to know about my feelings. I like you and I want to develop our relationship. Joe I miss you in the evenings. Sometimes at nights I dream of you. I see you smiling and whispering my name. You know I wish you were here next to me or I were near you. I want to touch your hand, to see in your eyes and whisper your name... Smile.

I believe we are compartible and we could be a great couple. Joe I want to know your honest thoughts about us. Would you really like to meet me in person? I want it.

I thought a lot about situation. We met in virtual space. We found out that we have common thoughts and ideas for living. We both need someone in our lifes. We like each other. And we will meet soon.

What if we don't like each other when we meet? I know it is silly to sit here and think about all these "what and if".

I think we must meet and see if the things will work out between us, see if we will fall in love with each other. Without meeting in person we can't create full understanding of person. I want to meet you and to develop our relationship. I know we met in Internet but we met each other. It means a lot. Well I will be strong and wait until we meet.

Smile... Oh, yes! About women's day. It's a International Women's Day (I can't understand why it's "international"). It's a day of women's rest:) All of women must rest on this day (It's not a legal holiday and women must rest only in home). It means that a men must do all for them women. To prepare dinner, supper, to wash, to clean etc. Understand?

Joe I have already applied all papers to our department. Next week I will get my visa and passport. You know I still can't believe they took me. It was like a dream for me and it comes true. It is impossible in my mind but it is happening in reality.

I have learnt great news. They said I will have a salary while I am working in the US, also they'll supply an apartment for me.
For 10 months I will earn about $30.000. I can't believe. I will be able to move to a city and buy my own flat. Or I can stay in the US and start my own business. Joe I am so happy. I don't like money for what they are. I am happy what possibility this travel opens for my future. You are also in my plans... Smile... at highest position.

Our trade union promised to pay my travel. It includes an air ticket, food, transportation and hotel until I settle in a new place. But I am a little nervous, what if they can't pay. There was a precedent when our trade union gave the promises and never held them. I know good person in our trade union. His wife worked with me and we are good friends now. He is dealing with finances and salaries for our workers. He said they are waiting for federal funds and money didn't come yet. Sometimes it didn't come for half of year. Health care is slow supported from the state in Russia and our trade union is not good one. Well stop, I hope everything would be allright and money comes in time.

Joe I can't think anything else, only this travel. New country, new work, new people and our meeting, all this excites me a lot.
I don't want to stay friends. I want more. Smile. I am crazy, we never met. Not at all. I hope everything will work out between us.
I just wanted you know.

I talked to my uncle about this. He is very exciting for me too. But he doesn't mind. He said "it is your life and you are worth to have your happy". He just said me to be cautious there with new people and you. Smile. I am not a small girl but he still thinks I am. Don't be mad about his words. He just want me to be safe.

I learnt that 20 doctors from different places of Russia will come to the US for this exchange program. 3 doctors are from our region. The first we will fly to New York city (New York state). There they will collect 4 or 5 groups and send them to different states. Your state is in the list. The good moment is that I can select the state. But I don't know what clinics or hospital we will work at.

Joe I am so excited. Especially I am excited thinking about our meeting. I surely want to embrace you and I will do everything that depends from me to make us met. Please, write sooner what you think.
I am a little nervous about coming and I want you to uphold my spirit.
All this is very new to me. This letter have might been mess. I am sorry.

With love.
Yours Alina.

p.s. I forgot to tell you. I will come in the end of December. I don't know the dates yet.
I'll let you know.
p.p.s. What is "Berka"?

Letter 11

Hi, my dear Joe!
I'm sitting and write you this letter. I think it's great that we met. Your letters are very important for me.
You can ask "Why". But I think you know the answer, because you feel a same way:) I hope and I feel it from your letters.
I like your joke! It's funny and I laugh alot about it!
You wrote alot about you in another letter! it's great. I understood all that you wrote. Thanks for sharing this things with me.
Also thanks for the pic. Great sportsman!

Well, I'm ok. Now I must only wait... Wait the documents and money.
Joe, do you like to wait? I hate it. The waiting for me is a misery. But I think the long waiting the big happiness of results:) Do you understand? I remember when I tried to enter in University, the hardest exam was a biology. It was a summer (I remember it), it was a July, 3th.
We had a 2 exam of biology - verbal and written. The verbal exam I passed - "good" and I must wait a results of a written exam. It was a hardest time of my life (for that period of my life). It was a 1 day of hard waiting! All my life depended on it! I must got only "excellent". And I got it:) When I inquired about my mark, I jumped with joy and laughed a lot:) !!! We can get a formula of happiness from waiting results!
So, "H" - it's a happiness.
"P" - it's a power of happiness from waiting results.
"T" - it's a time of waiting.
The formula must be: H = P*T.
:) I liked a mathematics in a school:))
Well, it was a small reasoning about the happiness:) But, anyway, I hope the "T" will be not very big:)
Today was a hard day in my work. I had so much patients! We have a cold weather now and many of people has flu. Some of them has quinsy!
One woman had an very bad aftereffect and she will have a surgical operation! She was very sad...

So in Kashin we have a cold weather. Sometimes very cold wind. But sometimes it's sunny also:) And snow...
It's nice here, but now I want to be in another country:) I think you know about this country:)

It's very nice for me to read your letters. I think we have a same feelings and hope we will like each other when we'll meet.
So, I must go. Hope to hear from you soon and I hope you will be ok.
Yours Alina.
p.s. Again a pic:) I had a berka on my previous pic just for fun:)

Letter 12

Hi, my dear Joe!
I'm so sorry for my silence. I'm glad that now I can write you. We just lost our Internet access. I don't know exactly why. Our programmer worked all weekend to correct it. Again, sorry, but it's not my fault. Don't be mad:))
I'm sorry, it will be short. Just you must understand that I work:)

I must work, must do my papers for work in USA etc... I think I will get my visa and passport very soon, may be it will be tomorrow!
I'm glad.
I told you about my friend in our trade union in Tver. His name is Andrey (I don't remember if I told you about it). He helps me with all hardnesses in it and I'm glad about it.
I'm glad that you're happy with me and you understand my feelings.
You know I learnt about the places where I can work and I choose Phoenix.
It was a nearest place to you. I don't know a clinic yet, but I think it will be not very important:) What do you think about it?
So, tell me your position in our relationshops. Tell me, if we will meet, what will you do to amaze me? :) Just a joke. I think that you amazed me with your letters and I think we will be together. Now I don't mean that we must marriage etc... I think we will have 10 months to learn about each other.
And it's great! We had a good start in Internet and I'm sure we will have a great continuation of our relationships in reality. I hope you feel a same way.
I saw the pic of "casino" that you sent me. It's not a casino. In Russia we have alot of "Playing halls". It's smaller than Casinos.
Also I like your pic. I like your family:))
Well, I must go now. Today I'm very tired.
Hope to hear from you soon.
Yours Alina (my name sounds like: are-lean-are. The accent is on "lean").

ps This photo was taken my last boyfriend. I helped my uncle to hang the blinds on the window:)

Letter 13

Hi Joe.

I am glad to come here, sit at the computer and read your letter. You give me good charge of the energy for days. I enjoy to talk to you very much.

Joe this letter will be short because I have a lot of things to do here. I must arrange all papers at my work and pass evrything to another doctor. I even didn't think that it takes so much time. Hope you understand and you are not mad at me. Smile.

I have got my passport and visa. They are nice. Smile. Don't laugh at me. This is my first american document. And this is my way to my future. I want to show it to you because you are the part of my future life too. I want you to understand me right way. You are the only man I know in the US. And I want to meet you as soon as I come.

I have a small plan for us. I will let you know the exact date when I will come to New York and you will wait for my phone call that day. I will call you from New York. I will try to learn what clinic or at least what city I would go and let you know. Than we will discuss another details about our meeting over phone.
Don't think that I will work in NYC all the time:) It will be a first city, after that I will be closer with you:))

Joe hope you understand I would need your support at first time when I come. I will come to absolutely different environment with another language, people and culture. You see I am preparing for this travel but I will need you in any case. You are the man I know and I can trust. You will show me the place around, tell me about your traditions and habits. I will need you. Joe to be honest the closer time the more I worry. I am not afraid of new emotions and experience. But I can't do anything to stop it. How do you think is it OK?

I will come to our trade union today to talk to Andrey. He said there is serious thing to talk about and I don't know what to think. I want to come to the US very much but what if they can't pay my travel.
Well I will tell you about trade union after I know.

ps I like your dog:)

Letter 14

Hello Joe.

I didn't write you for a while. I am sorry. I know I had to think about you and just write you a short note earlier. I had something I had must solve before I write you anything. I know you worry for me.
As you see from the subject of my letter things doesn't smile at me. I am sad and confused. I don't want to tell it to you. I know you want to meet me. But I will be unable to come to the US by my own. I need a sponsor to pay my travel.

Joe I want to explain you the whole situation.
In my last letter I told you I would have a talking with Andrey about funding my travel by trade union. I met him and he said that our trade union will not pay my travel. I asked why and how it may be? They carry out this exchange programm without funding it? He said it is not right. Our government arranges traveling papers, visas, contract with American government. They also pay salary and supply place for living for american doctors that will come to work to Russia. Travel expenses must be covered from local hospital budget or our trade union. My hospital refused to pay travelling and trade union can't pay for it too because Moscow didn't send money. Andrey said it is because of the non-coordination of our government.

I asked him what I can do? He said I can pay my travel by my own or find a sponsor. I asked who will pay me the salary for work in the US?
He said when I will come to New York, we will contract with American government and they will supply the appartment and the salary for us.

Well, I asked him how much I must pay. When he said the sum I was very confused. It is $950 USD. I knew I didn't have such sum and I even can't borrow it from someone here. Andrey was very sorry for me. He said such things happen often. The government carry out some programm and doesn't fund it.

After that talking I went to bank trying to get loan. But when they leant I am coming to the USA they refused to me. I talked to my friends trying to find money but I knew they didn't have such sum.
This is my salary for 8 months. I tryed to ask for sponsorship in some commercial companies but they don't want to deal with me because they don't see any profit.

Andrey said I need to find a private sponsor and I thought about you.

Joe I didn't want to ask you for any help. I wanted to do everything by my own. But I don't have any other options. Andrey said my plane is on December 26th, 2005.

I must be in Moscow with money by this time. I will fly to New York if I have money and I won't fly in other cases. I have not enough time to find money here and I want to ask you to be my sponsor.

Joe I understand everything you may think about me. I hate asking people for money and I always try to do everything by my own. But now I really need your financial assistance. I estimated everything. I will reimburse you this sum in one month. I also can pay you extra money back. I will work in your state for sure. I don't know what clinic. They will tell it in New York. I will earn at least $3000 for a month and I will have a place to live. You see I will be able to return you the money.

Joe you are the only man I know in the USA. I don't want to mix our relationship and money. But I don't have anyone else to ask for this help. I know if things even will not work out between us we will stay good friends.

I don't want to lie you and say that I love you. I can't say it to the man I have never met. But you must know that I have the warmest feelings for you and I want to develop them. You know what this travel means for me. It is my only chance to come to America and start new life. It also maybe new life start for you... or for us. I am honest woman and I honestly tell you that I will never hurt you or cheat you.
I will be there for ten months. This is more than enough to make a decision about us.

Joe I have already told you about my plans for future. I want to come to the USA, earn some money to start my own business and find good man to love each other and enjoy our life together. I think I have already found this man... Smile. YOU. When I heard from Andrey that my future ruined I was so stressed and confused. I don't want to give it up. I still have my hope. You are this strong man that can help me.

Joe, be my sponsor! Help me with travel expenses, please.
I will wait for your answer with all my hope.

Yours truly.
ps Now I don't know about how to get the money, but I'll try to learn about it.