Letter(s) to Gustavo (Argentina)

Letter 1

This night I saw a dream, there was a man in it...
it seems to me that you have something in common with him :)
I don't know if it is ok when the woman is writing the man first, but I am new in the internet and I think that if I do something wrong you will help me, because I am a pretty woman who wants to be taken care after. I will wait your answer with impations, you can contact me at at korolnadezhda@mail.ru
bye bye for now,
and don't make me wait too long!
best regards,
Nadezhda.
(you can contact me at korolnadezhda @ m/a/i/l/ dot ru )

Letter 2

Hi, my new friend!
Friendly speaking I feel a bit confused, because I have never wrote to the man through the internet and I even don't know what to start with... Well, I will start from the very beginning. My name is Nadezhda and I live in a small Russian village which is called
Orshanka. this is a very nice place especially in summer and there are a lot of good people here.
I was born on the 31st of July, 1980, I am 26 years old, and I think that this is very nice age to start new life! I work in hospital, and I am a children doctor by profession. I love children and this is very pleasant to deal with them. My work is rather interesting, but it is not easy, because very often I am responsible for a kid's life and this is hard to be responsible for such a serious matter! but I am in my place and I think that I would never change my work even if I was offered a million dollars! and what is about you? tell me what you are and what are your ambitions in life!
I live together with my Mother, my Father died when I was 15.
he was crossing the street at the criss-cross, but unfortunately the driver was drunk and he didn't notice my Dad... and it so happened that I lost my wonderful Dad, whom I loved immensely... it was a hard time for my and Mum but we were together and overcame everything. Right after finishing school I entered the medical University, which was located in the nearest city (I didn't want to leave Mum alone) and after graduating from it ( I am not showing off, but I am proud to tell you that I graduated with honous!) I came back to Orshanka and was offered a vacancy in our Hospital. I agreed without thinking it over,
because I thought that this is my vocation and I was not mistaken, because i never felt pity about my choice since.
No much changed from that time, but one day I realised that I am tired of life here, tired of being alone and tired of the same faces. and one when i was walking home after the night in the hospital, I saw the advertisment of the dating agency. we have never had such before and decided to try, I made some photos and wrote some words about me and
brought them to the agency. They asked me some questions and here I am writing you my first letter! I don't know what it will lead me to, but at the moment I feel very interested in you! please, write me more about yourself and don't forget to send me your photo! I will look forward to your answer and will come here tomorrow again!
with my best regards,
Nadezhda

Letter 3

Hi, darling Gustavo!
here I am again in the internet cafe reading your letter... during this day this is the only pleasant moment for me... thanks a lot that means that i?m an important person for you like you to me dear nadezhda because this day was not a very happy one and I feel sad. this day is 7 years since my Father's death. and we had the small day of memory. I?m so sorry i will pay if like to do and I will pray for you and your mum!! Yes, it changed very much since he is not with us... Do not worry my Nadezhda .Look at me my father forgot us after he divorced my mother and he look likes if he were dead because he did not answer about us.Is like to be dead and alive at the same time it?s so sad for me and I do not know Iwhat of our situations are the worst .You loose your father but his soul and his memorie are living in you and in your mum .If you forget him you let him die definitevely.
Remember him its a form or a way to keep him deep in you and i your?s mother hearts.I have suffered just the same things like you . Me and my mum we passed a lot of proves very difficult so in a time we have not money to pay the food so we had to sell newspapers tompay our food.and now we are a little better tha these days I mentioned . everything was very different when dad was alive. We never had such difficult time as we have now, he was the real man and could find the way of any situation. and now, when we are alone, I feel sometimes that I can't find the right dicisioun... the first years after his death we were running the greatest moral and financial difficulties,we have suffered the same things(my mother and me)Do not worry if you give up your career I will not judge you .
Just like your mother my mum has got a depessive state for all things she tried to cope with ,also the die of my sister by an erroneous diagnostic (wrong praxis-wrong medical practice).
Do not worry that i?m an unemployed by the moment .Ihope not discriminate me for this reason because I was a student and Mum was keeping the house while he was alive. But after that she had to go back to work and with the misarable salaries in your schools were were having very hard times. Yes I know my mother was a teacher but she became a librarian for 25 years and now she?s retired I don't know how we managed to survive, but now the situation is a bit better, at least I am not a student any more and I can earn a bit for our living but since that I never felt safe. This is very hard to lose people to who you love.
Darling, I wish you had such terrible occasions not often... better never.thanks a lot!!
ok, I will go back home now, because when I went here my Mum was crying and I am afraid that she will fall into deep depression again, like my mother.!! Did you think how aour lives are so extremely similar so it will be better if i am with her all the day round.just like me You are in the same situation like me.I understund you in the way you cannot imagineBecause my situation is the same. but she says herself that it is necessary to start new life and she want me to do it for her. she want s me to be happier then she is. she is a great WOMAN, my Mum.Your mum and my mum are great!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, and I am sorry for the sad letter,Do no t worry about the sad leeter It?s impossible not to be sad with this leetter but I will pray for all of you, Iwill be with you spiritually in this moments I hope that I haven't made you sad... to make it a bit better I will send you a nice smiling picture of me, to let you know that I am not that pessimistic creature. Do not worry I?m not thinking you are a pessimistic creature You and me we have a lot crosses we are carring in our backs.You know what I mean !!
I will come here tomorrow and I hope to find your answer.
bye bye,
Nadezhda.