Letter(s) to Gavin (Australia)

Letter 1

Hello my new friend!

I am very happy that you became interested in me. I was not sure that you would right me. Thanks that you found time for the reply. I think you have lots of questions for me and i will try to tell you everything about myself. And i hope you will do the same and tell me everything about yourself.

I don't know with what shall i start, but i hope you will understand me. My name is Galina. I am 26. May be you will be expressed when you will learn that i don't live in your country. I live in Russia! But i hope it doesnt scare you, because i am the same woman like all women in different countries all over the world. I am a person with the same heart and soul. I was trying to put my profile from Russia, but i couldn't and made it from other country. I was born in a very small city Pavlovo only with 100 000 people. I studied there in the middle school. After i finish the school i went to the medical colledge in Nizhni-Novgorod, because it was very hard to get education in my town. I graduated from it only with excellent marks and continued to study at the Medical University. Then i stayed to live in Nizhni-Novgorod. Now i work as a dentist in a small polyclinic for about 3 years.

Gavin, I use computer at work because i don't have it at home. At work i can use it free . That's why it's better for me to wright from clinic. But it doesn't depend on me, another person also must work at the computer. I have good relationship with her but she let me to use the computer only when she is not busy with it. Otherwise i can visit Internet-cafe and send you letters from there. My new friend. please answer theese questions: 1. Do you like your job? 2. Whats your favorit film? 3. What music do you like? 4. Have you ever had a foreign friend? I'm thankful for your answers. You may not answer if you don't want. But in my next letter i will answer all your questions. I will tell you what music and films i prefer. I send you my picture. Hope you will like it. Looking forward for your reply. Your new friend Galina!

Letter 2

Hello Gavin! How is your day? I hope you were really glad to get my e-mail, because i was very happy to get yours. Thank you very much. Do you want to know how i wright you e-mails? During the whole working day i wright small parts when nobody works at the computer. I work at a children apartement. If you want to know more about my job i will tell you. Just ask me.

O! I promise to tell you what music i prefer. Nowi have some free time and will tell you with pleasure about my interests. I like different music. Everything depends on my mood. I like classic: Dunaevski and Chajkovsky. I like also instrumental music. It helps to relax and to have a rest, i like to thik while listening it. I also prefer to listen guitar, masterpieces of Djoh Satriani. I like Pink Floid, they are wonderful. It's a great band. I like Madonna, Robby Williams, George Michael and so on. There are so many musicians in the USA! But i like russian pop-stars too: Filipp Kirkorov, Valeriya and music-bands:Chaif, Splin. But unfortunately you don't know them. I prefer to watch movies too. There are not so many good russian films, i like films of Tarkovsky, Konchalovsky, Michalkov- film directors. My favorite movies are The Siberian barber and Tired with the sun. Theese are the greatest masterpieces of russian cinematography. Amtrican filma are very popular in my country, i like them to and some americans stars also. Gladiator- courage man, Mel Gibson- goog actor. My favorite films are The Sixth Sense, Rainman, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Gone with the wind, The Magnificent Seven, The Godfather, Groundhog Day and others. I like Bruce Willis, Al Pacino,Kevin Costner,Samuel L.Jackson, Djulia Roberts,Oii Hanks, DemiMoore, Kevin Spacey.

What can i add about me? Gavin, I was married one good man, but we don't have children. I met him when i worked as a dentist in other place. He was one of my patients.When i married him i stopped working, because my husband wanted woman to take care of the house and he earned money himself. I was 21 when married him. He worked at the oil-company and often had lots of business trips. During one of them he had a car accident and died. About 2 years i didn't want to see anybody near me but later i understood that i don't want to be alone and i need a man who will take care about me. But i don't want to remember it up any more.

I have some friends, but my best friend is Elena. We are friends since we were 17. She is a real friend and we always help each other. She has a kind heart. We are ready to give everything for our friendship. I am happy to have such friend because we can found the real friend very rare. We became friends at colledge then we entered the same university. I live alone in a flat, where i lived with my husband. There is living room, bathroom and dining room. It's small but i feel comfortable here. It's close to my work and it usually takes me only 20 minutes to reach the clinic. Often when it's not late and the weather is ok i walked to my work. Sometimes i go by bus but i don't like it. Buses are usually overfilled and it's not comfortable.

Can i ask you, Gavin, some more questions? Do you have a big family? Is the nationality of the person who plays a big role in your life important for you? If you dont wish you can not answer. But nationality isn't important for me. I don't pay attention to theeyes, colour of the skin. And it doesn't matter where the person was born. I want to find a man with a kind heart. I like kindness and hate anger. The most important things for me are kindness and honesty. Without theese feelings love and harmony can not exist. Anger destroyes love. I am ready to give all my love to the man who will also adore me. Iam sure that the main things in every relationship are to respect and understand each other. Othr things are not so important.Only kindness, honesty and respect. I am happy to wright you and to get your answer. And now it makes me smile.

Looking forward for your promt reply. Sencirely yours Galina!

Letter 3

Good afternoon, Gavin!

Today i had so much work that i was afraid that i couldn't read and answer your letter. And i must add that it scared me. but no i found free time and i am very happy. Thank's for your letter.

And now i want to tell something about me. I really like cooking. I can do in very well because my mother tought me cooking when i was a little girl. She told me that the lady, who is good at cooking has no disadvantages, because tasty food is the way to the man.s heart. may be she was right. I like russian dishes, and my favorite is pancakes. Do you know what is it. A pancake is a round thin bread and we can fill it with meat, jam or some other food. And what do you prefer to eat Gavin?

I dont like to talk about my father, it hurts me, but i must do it. I have never seen him. My mum told me that he left us when i was a child. That's why i don't remember him. And i never asked my mum, because i am not interested in my dad anymore. He did wrong when he left my mother and me. I have a question for you: how many devorses are in your country? In Russia it happens very often. A lot of man are not interested in family life. After my dad left us. vy vother didnt marry anymore, that's why i dont have brothers or sisters. I love children very much. Children are our future, they make us happy. If i have children, i will love them more than my life. I don't know how many children i want to have, this desicionmust be accepted with the future father of my children. My husband wanted 2 children but because of his business we didn't have them.

Dear Gavin, I would like to talk to you by phone to hear your voice but unfortunately i don't have it. Plese give me your full number with the country code and i'll call you as soon as i find the opportunity to do it.

it's a pity but i have to finish my letter here.
Looking forward for your reply, always yours Galina.

Letter 4

Hello my dear friend Gavin! I hope you are not against that i call you so. Thank you for your letter. Everyday that ifeel thati want to get your letter more and more. My mood rises up when i receive your mails. And when i am in a good mood my little patients shout less:) That's why healthe teeth of the children now depends on your letters :)

Gavin, by the way, when i came to work today i was in a very bad mood, because my friend became ill and was taken to the hospital. She cought a flue and her temperature is very hight- 39. It's rather dangerous, but i hope that everything will be fine.

Unfortunately she has a birthday today, she is 27 and she has to bring this day at the hospital. Itold with the doctor and i was let to spend evening with her. In the evening i will bake a cake and buy some baloons and will go to visit her. I want her to be happy at her birtyday. This is my best friend she works with me at the polyclinic. I have only 2 friends-Elena and Veronika. Elena is in the hospital and Veronika flies to the North to visit her grandmother. They are not married and we like to go for a walk all together. Usually we walk at the park,but we also like to spend time at Elena's garden. Her grandmother left her an old wooden house. Earlier Elena used to live at the common flat. In such flats there are no private kitchen,bathroom and wc. All people who live there use them. Elena was very happy to move into the house. We like to spend time at her garden. Potatos, tomatoses and cucumbers are grown there.

I am sorry, dear... but i must finish my letter here. I would like to wright you more, but i dont have time. I will say hello to Elena from you, ok? I want to ask what makes you happy Gavin? As for me my friends and now also your letters make me very happy!

With best wishes, sincerely yours Galina.

Letter 5

Hello Gavin! Today I started to write you the letter in the morning as soon as I have come for work. But already 14:00. I have written some offers and to me patients have come. I have just cured a teeth of the little boy. That he was not afraid, I have asked it about its dreams. He has answered that Dreams to become adults because adults do not have problems with a teeth. :-) It was so amusing. I often recollect the childhood. I always dreamt To become adults as soon as possible. As each child I believed, that adults in general do not have problems. I liked to dream in the childhood and I love we dream now. Certainly, the world of dreams the illusory world, but we live actually, therefore to dream it is necessary very seldom :-) It become always a pity that our dreams not a reality. The person applies many efforts and aspires to that its dream has come true, but not all in this life depends on us. When the dream during long time does not come true, the dream stops to be that star, Which was for you a beacon at ocean of a life which shined Your way. But anyhow, I think, that it is impossible to live without Dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. Dreams - those things which do us by people, it Distinguishes us from fauna. Dreams Bring a variety in a usual and grey life. Dreams force to think, To analyze, come to conclusion. Belief and Hope - eternal companions of our life. Gavin, you Agree with me? I am surprised, that I write you all it. I never had the person with whom I could divide the thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive to me for my frankness. If I have told something superfluous, forgive me please.

Tell, it is pleasant to you when your friends come to your house? It is pleasant to me very much when my friends come to me. I like to prepare and for this reason I treat with their various tasty dishes. Elena too well prepares, and she often helps me. We often prepare Various dishes also it is treated each other. I usually like the Russian dishes - pel'menis, soups, pancakes. But I also love kitchen of the near east.

Gavin, I have told to you, that I have visited Elena in hospital. I was there approximately Two hours and Elena were very happy, that I have spent its birthday together With her. I have brought Elene a chocolate pie, flowers and balloons. Spheres were different colours, Elene it is pleasant, when many different colours. Wash favourite colour - dark blue. And what colour is pleasant to you? Elena and I spoke about you. I Has told, that you are very good person. Elena asked to send you regards and has wished good luck In my relations with you.

I will look forward your letter.

Letter 6

Hello my friend, Gavin!!!! I am very glad, that you have written. Big Thanks. You have again lifted my mood and have placed a happy smile on My person, having written to me the letter. By the way Gavin, today I went for work from the absolute Confidence, that you will write to me today. Earlier I always went with Thought, that you possibly nevertheless have not written, but today for the first time I went with thought, that your letter waits for me. Elena too the doctor as I and we work in one polyclinic. She The assistant to the dentist. But Elena I assistant, she helps To other dentist. Today I will go to her in hospital once again. I hope That soon Elena will be healthy, and we will be happy to meet in ours To polyclinic.

I like to prepare and I love cleanliness, but sometimes I would like To receive simple tenderness, love and attention. I do not wish to offend all Men. Certainly in Russia there are good men, but it seems to me that them very little. Men often say dirty words (not standard lexicon), when Speak with girls and believe, that in it there is nothing badly. My husband concerned good people, but now it did not become. After death of my husband, approximately in a year I wished again to try to renew relations with the man. I had a friend. Together we well spent time. He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he got drunk, he became absolutely other person. He Spoke with me with bad and dirty words. Time has passed also its love To alcohol became a habit. He became other person - rough and malicious. Sometimes he beat me because of various trifles which did not like it. And next day he talked to me as though anything bad between us was not. I have started to be afraid of it and I have left from it. After that I did not get acquainted with other men. Now I do not trust the Russian men. I am afraid to give my love, but to receive instead roughness. If You have disagreements from the lady, you can apply roughness?

But I do not wish to finish the letter a bad theme for conversation. So, Gavin I will tell to you about Elena. Soon she completely to recover. Elena Feels well and sends regards to you. I hope, that will be fast she at home Also will start to work. I feel lonely without it. While she is not present, it is nobody me will share the feelings. But I am glad that I can will share the feelings with you!

I will look forward to hearing from you!! With a kiss, yours Galina!

Letter 7

Hello, Gavin! How are you? I hope that before you've got my letter your mood was wonderfuland after my email it will become better. May be i am too self-confident. But i'am very happy because i have got your new letter.
Yesterday i visited Elena and said hello to her from you. I am sure you are not against it. She also asked me to say hello to you.

Tomorrow i'll have a very hard day. I haven't told you about it yet. It takes place once in two weeks. Two years ago Elena and i wrote a letter to the Ministry of Publik Health and suggested to create a mobilecar for dentists. That time we were volunteers and helped weak and ill people. As usual theese are old lonely people who can't take care of themselves. They can't even visit the hospital. We suggested to visit such people sometimes in this car and we bring all necessary tools with. This suggestion was adopted and now we visit more then 50 districts of our region. Unfortunatelly tomorrow i will work without Elena. In general we have 5 such cars. We visit small vilages and settlements where live people who can't visit the dentist in our city. There are lot's of such people in our region. Now we help not only adults but also children in children's home. We have lot's of them. but there are no good dentists there. That's why Elena one more doctor and i go there by our mobile dentist car. We made friends with many kids and they like us so much, because we also visit them in our free time and help them in different ways. The goverment doesn't support such houses financially. Buildings are very old. But theese children have noone to help them. Thats why some people help to equip children houses. We help to rebuild rooms. Of course there are some small houses convenient for children but in general the all need to be repaired capitally. Children have few toys. When i see it i'am ready to birst into teers. My friend and i help to do the repairs. We glue the wall papers and paint the windows. Bring new toys. You could't even imagine how happy they are when we come. And they are waiting for us but noy only for the new toys. They need kindness ans caress. Sorry, Gavin, that i wrote too much about the problems of kids and old people. I just don't know if i wright you tomorrow. Hope i'll find free time to do it.

Gavin, I must go now. With best wishes Sencerely yours Galina.

Letter 8

Hello my distant but dear friend Gavin. Than'k you so much for your email, it was really long-expected. And i'am very happy to get it.I'am full of emotions that idid't have before i found you. My heart and my mind say me that i have to tell you about all my feelings now because it's a part of our relationship and i must share it with you. I want to add that i've spent the whole day to wright it because i want to explain clear what i think. I don't want to offend you but i was worried that you will understand me not wright. I 'am always speaking from my heart, but sometimes one should choose the words. I feel devastated when i cant use the computer to read your letter. I feel wonderful only when i think about you.I felt it only when my husband was alive. And now i have such feelings again. I have never tried it up in my life (i mean to make friends with a foreighner). I dont know if you have a desire to start making relationship with person from other country but i hope that you want it too.
I think that people in couple must be best friends, who trust each other and share with feelings. I am trying to wright so that you'll understand me.

I trust in God and i think i must face difficulties before i will meet my beloved man whith whom i will stay all my life, valuing, loving him and taking his love, which he could give me. Hope that my words arenor boring for you, but it's more than words-theese are my thoughts and feelings and i'am sending them to you. I'am anxious that you will find the same feelings in your heart and that you are ready to build relationship with me. I want to know you closer. I also want you to share your dreams, hopes and feelings with me. I really want us become closer than simple friends. Please don't call me stupid because i think so.

Gavin, when i talk or think about you it doesn't matter what the others think. You are very handsome for me. I mean that you are not only an attractive person but i'am also talking about the beauty of your soul, but unfortunatelly one can meat this type of beautyvery rare. Most men have handsome appearance and bad soul. It's very important for me. Your words show your soul. I am sure you are really beautiful and i can't express all my feelings. I feel that we are becoming closer and i am enjoying our friendship. I'm trying to learn everything about you and i hope you also think that our relationship can be more than siple friendship.

Today i have goog news. Elena was let go home. She visited me at work. Soon she'll start working. I was happy to know i will see her more often. I told her about mobile car, and she was upset because she couldn't help me. But it was ok. Our car was broken when we were in the village but it will be repaired soon and we continue to help people.

Gavin, looking forward for your letter, with tender Galina.

Letter 9

Hello my Gavin. how are you? Every your mood i'll try to make better today. And today i did't go to work i "fly" there. I came first to the office and i was very happy the whole day. Everybody who asked me could hear the answer that i'am so happy because everything is wonderful. I understood but i was afraid to believe it that i have a feeling for you that i never had. I don't know what's going on with me. I want to understand my heart. i want to feel your breath. One can call me strange but i fell in love with your soul and heart. Other things are not important fot me. The material world is not important. Only the world of calmness and love.

The sun is shining today. Sun brings joy. I'am happy that i have you Gavin, and you have me. tell me about your thoughts and dreams. I want to know everything about you. Everything!!! But yesterday my boss tell me that i will have a vacation in two weeks. But i didn't expect it. I didnt want to spend it at home alone. I 've been waiting it for one year and now i'am not happy. I donn't want to spend the whole month without you. All world became dark for me. And i told myself NO It's not for me! Yesterday evening i thought about us and i couldn't fall asleep. And i thought what can i do for our meeting. I decided to spend my vacation together with you. This is the only my desire now.

Today i addressed to the travel agency. I asked how much it will cost me to make the visa. They tod me it's about 160$ and they won't giveit back even if i don't get my visa. People from the agency also told me that i have to go to Moscow and then to visit a lot of departments ( state and medical) in my own city and in Moscow. It will takes lot's of time weeks or months because lot's of people want to get the visa and i will have to wait. And in case i wont get the visa- i will waste my money. But it is a standart way of getting documents. And i told that i can't wait for so long. They told me that there is another way to if i will take the full contract that includes extra payments for the cathegory of visa, work with counsel,help with the interview in the ambassy, interview with comission insuaranse and tickets. According to the contract the agency will prepare all my documents and buy the tickets. It costs 465$ and the summ of the ticket, but the agency dont have any problems wit agency and gives me a garanty that i'll get the visa in short time. It will take only one week and i told that this variant passed me.

I will be prepared for the interview in the ambassy. It will help me to get the visa. The prise of the tickets i will learn later. I don't have money for ticket's but my exhusband had some in the bank and i will take it from his account. So, money won't be a problem for me:). I made an application for visa and i hope that you will be happy to meet me. I really want to present you our meating thought i'am not sure that you want it. Can you imagine that if everything is fine we'll be together in two weeks? Is it a real present for you? Will you be happy to spend some days with me? Of course i understand that we know each other not very well yet.

Many years i ask myself why everything depend on money? Money is not the most important thing. The main thing is harmony between people when they understand each other. I am anxious to meet you! I have some money and i'll pay for everything myself. May be you didn't expect that i'll tell this. One can wait for eternity but we don't know what gonna happen tomorrow. May be we won't have a chance to meet any more. I opened you my heart and my soul and i am not ashaimed of me feelings. Loneless made me strong. I found a feeling that i never had. I am happy.

After my husband died i spend a vacation with my mum in my city. But now i can do it with you, Gavin. I am happy. And i must take this chane. I was never so confident but i am really sure. Hope that you wont call me insolent. But i just want to spend some happy days with you. I don't care about the future and i am not afraid of this. We cannot talk about future without our meeting. Hope you feel the same and you will calm me down. my heart. Will you be happy to meet me? Really happy?

Hope my letter will make you happy With lot's of tender Galina.

Letter 10

I was really excited while i was waiting for your letter. Thanks that you told me everything what you think. Thanks for your letter. You wrought me and it means i will have one more happy day. I want do tell you about my day. I wake up at about 6:30 in the morning with very good spirit, because i see you in my dreams. At 6:35 i take a shower and clean my teeth. And i think about you!!! At 6:45 i put my sport suit and go out. And i think about you!!! I always jogging in the morning if it's not too cold to be in good fit. But when it is, i wake up at 7 and at 7:20 i make my breakfast: tea and sandwitch. I drink tea And i think about you!!! At 7:30 i go to my work. If it's warm i go on foot And i think about you!!! I like walking in the morning, it gives me energy and fun. At 7:55 i go to my friend's working room and get your letter if it's possible. Or i do it later. At 8:00 I start working And i think about you!!! At 12:30 i have a break. I go home And I go home by trolleybus. At 13:00 i have lunch and at 13:20 i go to work And i think about you!!! At 13:50 i start working again And i think about you!!! Thought i must be very concentrated on my job:) At 15:30 we usually have small break for a cup of tea, but today i didn't take it because i thought about you!!! At 17:00 i go home on foot. I feel very good because I think about you!!! At 17:40 i take a shower and i think that You are with me!!! :)) At 18:00 I have my dinner along but i smile because i think that You are near me:) Sometimes i walk with my friend at the park at 19:00 And i think about you!!! If i stay home i read books, listen to music, watch TV or work around the house And i think about you!!! Not everything at the same time:)) At 23:00 i go to bed and i fall asleep quickly because And i think about you!!! Today i was at the bank with Elena. We asked about the money of my husband. I feeled some papers and now we must wait for their reply. Hope i will get the visa that's why please wright me the name of the nearest international airport. Will you meet me there? But don't think it's my casual life! Every day i have something new especially WHEN I THINK ABOUT YOU.

Only yours Galina

Letter 11

Hello Gavin Today the policlinic Doesn't work. All rooms will be cleaned specially. It takes place every month. My letter will be short today. Today i had an interview! :) They asked very special questions. About sex, children, work, patriotism, my religion. I told them the truth. It was a surprise for them. They are not used to such answers. Kids from children house also helped and support me. I was the first woman who have such support. Now i must wait for the desicion. But now i can agree that it's better to die than to wait. I can't concentrate on anything. I will hear the desicion tomorrow. Iam so worried. I want to see you, my Gavin.

God will help me. I want to see you! I haven't worried so much. Sorry i must finish my letter.Iam so worried. Bye my love Galina.

Letter 12

Hello my dear Gavin. Today is a wonderful day only because i'v got your letter! I don't care about anything else. Today i woke up earlier than usual. I couldn't sleep any more. It was dark in the street. I looked at the window. But suddenly a small bird fly to me and began to sing very beautiful. I looked and thought that you are so far. May be you sleep and see me in your dreams. If i were a bird i will fly to you and sing. I told the bird to fly to you and to say hello to my close friend Gavin. Tell him that i thought about him. She flied as understood my words. If you will see my... a bird near you singing a beautiful song remember that i asked her to visit you:))
Gavin, I have good news. Today i was at the agency they told that i can come to Moscow because I've got my visa. There is no embassy at Nizhni-Novgorod. They will prepare my tickets tomorrow. Tomorrow i will learn the details. everything is going on fine. Destiny helps me to be close by you.
Blue sky, bright sun, stars and your letters make me happy. I like to read them and they make me smile. Sorry but i must go. Send you all my kisses. Yours Galina!

Letter 13

Hello my Gavin
Thanks for your letter. My heart calm down when i get it. Sometimes i look at the window where sky and land joint each other. I feel that you are close to me, i imagine in my mind that you are in the street, thought i don't know how it looks like. But i see you smiling, everything is like in a movie and i see you better and better. You are trying to speak but i don't hear. But i understand that you are saying my name. And they burns me inside. Sometimes i don't see the difference between the real world and illusions. But next moment everything breaks up and again i see grey sky and people who don't know what is in my heart. It's so unusual for me but at the same time it's a pleasure. I am sure it's not by chance. And it doesn't matter what is waiting for me in future, I know that i have you, kind person and alsomy friend. And if i see you face to face i will tell that i'm really happy. Now. today, this minute it doesn't matter where this way leads me. Iknow it's a true way. I live today, and i live a very bright a nd happy life.

Today i was at the agency and learn the prices to come to you. Return tickets will cost me 1400$. As soon as i pay it i will learn the details of my flight ( time, date...). I must pay this money to the agency. I was at the bank and now i know that my ex-husband has 45000$ on his account. I was really surprised to hear about such big summ and i know this money will be useful for me and for us. As soon as i get it i will go to buy the tickets to be closer to you! I must finish the letter. Do you like to take desicions at the relationship? I think it's good to make and to discuss desicions together with your lady.
It's nice when a couple do everything together.

Kisses yours Galina

Letter 14

Hello my dear Gavin!
I have bad news today. I was in a good mood in the morning. But it became worse after i visited bank. Today i was told there that i cant take the money of my husband. I was really shoked! I couldn't even imagine that it could happened! I asked the reason and as it happened, my husband left the testament, and i didn't know about it. It is written there that all money can get only my future husband. Only he will take it whoever he is. But i cant take it, My husband always told me that i musnt work and i must take care about the house. And my husband will earn money. I think because of this he left all money to my future husband. And now i must marry smb to take it. And only then my future husband will pick up the money. I asked the lawyer why my husband left the testament while he couldn't know that smth could happened to him. The lawyer told that it was the kind of insuarance because his work was really dangerous. He didn't tell me this because didn't want me to worry.

I have 200$, but i don't know where i can get 1200$??? I must pay it to the agency. I was sure to take the money of my husband. But i can't do it!!! It's very hard for me to tell you this. But I've done everything that i could. I've done the visa. I've spend so much time and energy. I did't want to trouble you. I wanted to pay for everything myself but i didn't have a success. Now i have to pay to the agency the rest part of money. It's 1400$ It's a shame for me to tell you about this but i didn't know where to get it. You are my last hope. Please help me to buy the ticket. I understand that it's difficuld for you. Of course if you don't want you can not do it. It's bad but not fatal. I will lost my money. I wont come to you. IT'S NOT FATAL. I've paid 465$ for my visa. It's big money for me but money is not the most important thing. I trust you. YOU ARE THE MAN OF HONOUR AND YOU ARE A GENTLEMAN. If you can help me wright it in the next letter!!!!

Gavin, Please forgive me all my words because i am in desperate.
Only one step is beetween us. I am afraid you wont help me. I need you and i want to be with you. Together we are more stronger we will avoid all difficulties. I want to give you all my love. I didn't want to ask you about money. I was lonely and became strong but now imust ask you to help me please. Hope i didn't offend you. I need you i think you wont leave me.

Kisses Galina