Letter(s) to James (USA)

Letter 1

Hello my dearest James!!

I am very glad to receive your letter. I hope that you can understand my letters. How at you an affair? How mood?
I think, that at you all is good. I shall ask the god that you were healthy and happy. Today at us solar weather and it is very good. I today worked and had the conflict to my boss. It has shouted at me and I was upset, I all the day long went with bad mood. But it that, I have pleasure in a life is your letters. Yesterday with me there was a unpleasant case. I have gone in the evening to take a walk, and when came back home to me teenagers have stuck, it is good that the neighbour the dust has left to bear and has interceded.
I wanted to tell to you about my payment at work and it only 80-90 dollars per one month to me pay also it very little even for Russia.
And I am very much interrupted and it is very difficult to save in such complex difficult conditions. I work and I learn teach children of 4-6 years and so difficultly smile to them each day and to explain when sometimes it is not necessary to eat in the morning at all. So it is difficult to work as the teacher and for it pay I very much a little was mistaken in a choice a trade but there is only that that this work very much is pleasant it to me understand for me all I so I want the child and while at me him is not present the much is the whole 24 the child with which I addresses as with the and still I very much love children. Children it is flowers our life and they simply brighten up our life. And I would like to call to you soon but I do not know when give me a payment from work so if you have a little bit superfluous dollars you might not give me I so want to hear your voice. I simply was very unpleasant to ask about it but I nevertheless shall try. So I expect give me on a bell whether or not?
I have gone home and have told all to parents they have begun To calm me but I all night could not fall asleep, I was in a shock. Well, I wanted to tell to you, that my heart began to beat more often when I think of you, my heart is beaten so when I think of you!!! I ask you that you have sent the photos which at you are. They will help me to feel your presence near to me. I want to feel you, your gentle sight, your smile, your hands. I so need in heat and care and I think, that I ask not so much. I search for pure ove and romanticism in attitudes I love when all beautifully, perfectly, gently and romantically!!!
Desire to have the family, the favourite person beside, feeling, care and constant support in a difficult minute to what to aspire each person in a life and I too. To me already it is so much years, and I and have no, about what to you I speak. I was close fortunately in the past. But my trust is broken. I should trust the person with which I all life, trust his ach word, gesture, a sight, a smile.
In the world now so it is a lot of meanness sand a deceit that is necessary to concern to people which surround you very closely .I do not speak you, that is necessary to concern with mistrust to everyone, just necessary to know the person so what to be completely confident it . I know you not for a long time, but I can tell, that you very good and open. And it very much involves me and gives me to trust, that I can love and be loved !!! My mum learns me that I should be always open. I have told to it , that our attitudes develop successfully and she is happy for us. She dreams, that I at last was not one and had family. We are far apart. But it does not prevent our dialogue. Though I already thought, that dialogue through the Internet needs to be understood each other more strongly. What do you think of it? I would like to see you not only on a photo. But I do not know as it probably, because we very much far apart. You like me also I think that our attitudes can be deeper. I do not know as to explain it words. I simply feel it. Your letters do my mood high. To me to become joyfully on soul.
I think that sometime we with you shall meet. I would like to arrive to you , to meet you to look as you live. I want it because I start to understand that between us there is something more than friendship. This feeling of trust to each other seems to me that, it seems to me that it is love. It seems to me that you too feel it. I now very much wanted to talk about you! I so want to share with you pleasure personally. When I see your eyes and a smile of that I am glad. I want to see your pleasure and to divide her with you. I want to know, what does you happy? And I shall try, what everything, that I do was the present happiness for you. Give me chance to make it!!!! And still I want to tell you that to my letter to you I wanted to apply not only my photo but also my voice that you might hear my voice and I hope to hear your voice and I was very glad if I hear as you speak to me that or I have written down this small file in the Internet of cafe and paid for this service.
Let me chance know the favourite and loving woman. I wait for your beautiful letter and I promise, that I shall think of you every minute.

With love your friend Svetlana!!!