Letter(s) to Michel (Canada)

Letter 1

I never saw war as bad. Now I know why it is so evil. It keeps me from all that makes me happy, all that makes the day beautiful, and all that leaves me breathless - all that I love.... There is only one good thing about being away from you, and that is the feeling I get when I see your pic for the first time. It is the love I have for you multiplied by the days we have been apart. I love you. I wish there was a word that could describe how much, but maybe it's better that you don't know. You would see I do love you more. I love you more than I can understand.This is my way of showing you how much I truly care for you. I can't really find the words to explain the way I feel when I see your face... on the pics all I can say is that I like the feeling that I feel.love lovester,

Letter 2

I remember looking in your eyes, but I don't remember their color. I remember your smile, and I will always remember it.I remember wanting to kiss you and wondering if you wanted the same. I remember my heart kept pounding when you were close, when our eyes met, I could not help but want to see your soul. When you told me you thought I was pretty I thought my heart had stopped! When we were saying good bye and you send me a kiss I did not want to let go, and when we kissed those times on the net I was in heaven!! I replay that memory in my mind hundreds upon hundreds of times. I kept wishing that I could turn back the hands of time to spend just a few more precious minutes with you. I would not change a thing about that night, what about you? It's the end of the day and I was thinking about you, as usual. I want you to know how much I sincerely love the times we've spent talking. It means so much to me. It truly seems like I've known you forever and I honestly can't imagine life without you now. There will be no looking back, no second thoughts and no regrets. I want you and need only you ... and that love will only grow stronger. Do not be scared my love. Sometimes life hits you with unexpected things that take you totally by surprise. All I can say is you're the best surprise life has given me and your capacity for love, caring, and understanding never ceases to amaze me. I've truly been blessed by finding you and I'll never let you go

Truly,

lovester.

Letter 3

Dear Michael,

Hey nice, I just wanted to do something simple to say I love you and to put that smile I love so much back on your face. I want everyone to know how much you mean to me. Ever since you have entered my life, I've been flying on Cloud 9 and I have not come down yet.

I tell you this everyday, but you are the most Nice person I know, inside and out and I see that more clearly with each passing day. I love everything about you, about us. You do something to me that no other has, you have made me so happy, the happiest I've ever been. You give me the most amazing feelings inside, the feeling of being in love with you.

I still don't know what I did to be so lucky to have you in my life, my dream come true... I am so thankful though. In this short time that we've been together, we have grown so much and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us. I love you, Michael, with all my heart and soul, always and forever!

This is the letter I'll never send to you. What's left of my heart is in this letter, and if only it were as easy as to give you this letter, I would. I never knew love until I knew you. I shared with you my mind, body, heart, and soul. We shared a feeling so deep that simply cannot be put into words. We shared our lives together; through family, God, our dreams, passions, goals in life, through love.

The love in my heart for you will never change. I was told that time heals everything. I've come to believe time just makes things a little easier to deal with. But the truth is, I still dream of you, I still cry myself to sleep thinking of you, and I still look up at our star wishing you were near me. I get dressed every day only to impress you in case we see each other. I still look out the window hoping you will pull into the driveway. I check the caller ID ... just in case.

Most of all, I pray that you will accomplish your dreams with strength and pride and honor. I still love you and want you to have the best of life. I just wish I was a part of it. I never knew that someone could ever hurt as much as I do. What scares me is I'm sure the pain in life gets worse. I guess I just want you by my side to ease it,
love u Michael, from ur love Lovester,

Letter 4

HEY BABY SORRY, AM TRYING TO SIGN IN YAHOO MESSENGER BUT IT IS NOT WORKING, WE GET PROBLEM IN YAHOO.IT IS EVEN GOD GRACE THIS WORK OUT FOR ME TO SEND U THIS MAIL,SO WHEN IT WORKS OUT I WILL LET U KNOW OK,LOVE U BABY, I REALLY MISS U,LOVE LOVESTER

Letter 5

Dear MICHAEL,

Baby, I can never explain the feeling I have had over this last week, it seems months, maybe it is because every moment you have been gone has been filled with memories playing over and over in my mind, beautiful memories. The fear that clenches my stomach is beyond comprehension, to live another day with out you would not be living, you are my breath, my pulse, you make me whole.

At night I am afraid to go to bed, though I am so weary from emotion. When I fall, I wake when it is still dark and try as I might to go back to sleep, I cling to my pillow and know that I must occupy my mind to keep from dying of pain. All the things I have seen, everything I have believed in, my instincts and knowledge guide me. For the first time in my life I felt like a real person, knew my life was about to change, to become normal with no more pain, and then the worst agony that I could ever imagine replaced that joy that was to be. I fill my days with anything I can possibly do, I don't stop, as though I am running from the thoughts of you trying to bring my tears. The house is immaculate and renovated, my muscles are sore from exercise, I have seen every movie currently in the cinema and been to every shop in town. But no matter what I do, you are right in front of me, everything reminds me. Romantic movies, the things we were going to buy, you are in every corner of my house. The little heart cushion in my shower to the balcony, to the street, to the stars, Baby! I am exhausted and tonight I stopped running and it caught me, the tears won't stop and I am so afraid... where are you, when are you coming home, are you coming home to me?

Sweetheart, come home to me! Please!! I beg with all I have and as I have said, promise you a lifetime of happiness and love. Come dance on the moon with me. You are all there is, I neither need nor want anything else at all. You are my heaven on earth and I need to live there, if you go ... I need to as well, I have two angels and I need to be with one of them.

I am empty; fill me with passion for life once again ... please.

Love always,

Lovester

Letter 6

Dear Michael,

You are a blessing that my entire being is very thankful for. I feel that we were made to love, listen, understand, and work through all times in our lives together and individually.

I feel that we have shared more time together than we ever will and I know there are many more special occasions and moments in our lives that will surprise and bring us closer.

You are my soul mate and nothing, and no one else feels more right than you!! I love you eternally and unconditionally. God's love has answered this prayer I've wanted and been almost too anxious for so long. I miss you more than words can say and my love will reach any distance and fly to be in your dreams and heart each evening that we can not be together. I physically long for you each night and will see you in my dreams until we find ourselves wrapped in the love that grows stronger and deeper each day, into our future together. I believe and have faith in you.

Love Always,

Lovester

Letter 7

Dear Michel,

I love you from now until death do us part. Right now, you living so far away from me is killing me, but I know in my heart that we are doing the right thing. And, you are trying to get things straight so we can live there forever and spend a lifetime together. I don't want to lose you for anyone else or anything that anyone has to say about you. I want you to know that I love you from the deepest part of my heart. My love for you is unconditional. The love for you is so strong and the most powerful feeling that I have had in a long time and I am just at a lost for words when it comes to you. I just wish that their was another way that we could be together without living so far apart right at the time being. I want you to know that I love you and always will and there is nothing that will ever change that about how I feel...I love you.

Love Always,

Lovester