Letter(s) to Roland (Netherlands)

Letter 1

Hello my Lion.
There are fine news to me, and to you - I have received the visa. I shall have holiday in 4 days. Today I have gone to the company which reserves tickets of an air line. I have asked them as I can reach your country, and how many it costs. They have answered me, that the ticket costs USD for 435$. I have asked them to find cheaper tickets, because this price road for me. They have answered, that they had cheaper ticket, but the beginning of flight in 5 days. It costs USD for 454 $. I have asked them to reserve the ticket. But they have refused, because they have many clients at this time, and they cannot reserve my ticket without advance payment. I spoke with them during long time and have asked to reserve the ticket for me without advance payment, but they disagreed.
Then I was asked by a question, whether probably to pay a part of money now and other part later. They disagreed. I spoke with them during long time, and I have managed to convince them. They have agreed. We have agreed, that I shall pay a part of the price today and ther parts later. I have paid USD for 150 $. But it was a little for initial payment. Then I have gone to a pawnshop and have put in pawn my silver and gold for USD for 110 $. It was my last money.
Number flight on which I reserved the ticket

5:25 pm Depart Moscow (SVO)
Arrive Amsterdam (AMS) 10:35 pm Wed 24-Aug
Duration: 7hr 10mn Alitalia 561 / 7724
Connect in Milan (MXP)

7:55 pm Depart Amsterdam (AMS)
Arrive Moscow (SVO) 5:10 am +1 day Fri 16-Sep
Duration: 7hr 15mn Alitalia 7725 / 7014
Connect in Milan (MXP)

It is very difficult to tell for me to you about it. But I have made everything, that I could. I have paid the visa. I have paid a part of the ticket. But this money - it is not enough. I did not wish to burden you. I wished to reach you with my own money, but unfortunately I suffered failure. Now I should pay a remaining part. It - USD 175 $. I should pay this money in currents 4 days. Otherwise I shall lose my money and ornaments. If you require me if you trust me and if you wish to see me, please, send money to currents 4 days. I understand, that it is the difficult decision for you, but we should trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible, if it is the union of the wife and the husband or the union of the friend and the girlfriend or the union of business partners. I do not wish to be hypocritical. For this reason I wish to tell to you the following: I do not think, that you would like to give love to the woman whom you will not trust. Also I would not like to give my love to the person man to which I shall not trust. It is the first check on us. And very much depends on it, there can be all. We should trust each other. For this reason I was the first who has taken the first step. A step to you. Certainly, if you do not want, you cannot help me.
It is bad, but not fatal. I shall lose my money. IT is BAD ALSO, BUT NOT FATAL ALSO. I have paid for to do the visa 140 USD, and I have paid a part of the ticket - USD 260. These are greater money for me, but I HAVE told to YOU ALREADY, THAT MONEY - NOT the MAIN THING In the LIFE. But I trust you, and I know, that YOU GENTLEMAN. If you can help me, I send you my coordinates. I give you necessary elements to send money by means of the Western Union:
KAZAN , 420073
For Anna Shadrina
To receive money, I should tell to the employee of bank your full name ,the full address, the exact sum which I should receive and some confidential Number the Control Transfers . which will give you when you will send money. Please forgive to me all my words. I speak so because I am in despair and the disorder . Now, when only one step is separated us, I am afraid. I am afraid, that you will not help, and all my diligence will have is useless. I require you, and I wish to be with you, and a word abuse, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. We shall pass through difficulties and a barrier, much easier to make i together. I wish to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I understand, that it is greater money for you. I did not wish to ask you. I thought, that I can do all directly. The loneliness has made me strong. I was in the habit to live without the help, and to rely only on me directly. I ask someone the help very seldom, but now I ask, that you have helped me. I have made a step forward. Do your step to me. I hope, that I have not offended you something. I require you, and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step between us. I look forward to hearing from you. A kiss you. Yours Anna
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