Letter(s) to GB R. (USA)

Letter 1

You received from me this letter? If yes, why you have not answered? I am not interesting to you? Inform me it and I shall not look forward to hearing from you more, and I shall not send more to you the letter.

Hello GB!!!
How are you today?
My health has recovered.
Well, as I promised I am going to tell you some more about myself.
My name is Julia. I am 28 years old (still young but mature enough to know what I want in this life).
Julia is a full name but you can also call me shortly Jul. This what usually people who know me well call me. But also there are different ways to call me tenderly, like Julichka.
My height is 167 cms(it 5.5 foots), my weight is 56 kgs. I am in a good shape. I am not skinny but look really nice. I am not boasting, it is true.
I take good care of myself as I care of my appearance but I am not fanatic.
I have a higher education. I studied on the faculty of Russian language. So I am very good at Russian as you see I have also finished courses of a medical nurse and can make massage too. I should say I am rather good at it.
My family is not really big. I have a step father and stepbrother. Unfortunately, I don't have really close relations with them.
Sometimes we gather for holidays but it happens very seldom.
I feel very sad saying this but my mother died from the cancer. I loved her very much and I miss her badly.
I live alone. And I have to learn for my living. I could work as a teacher of Russian. But teachers get very small salaries in Russia. And I need to earn for my living myself. That’s why I have finished courses.
Now I work as a medical nurse in the private clinic.
And I also do massage, it is my extra work. Thus how I earn for my living. I am not complaining but it is really a hard work. I should always be kind and polite though with some people it seems to be impossible. I don’t want to loose my job. So I try always to be patient even with rude people. And what is more important, I get moral satisfaction helping people. It is my contribution into the world.
The city I live in is called Surgut. It in a southern part center of Russia. It is not big but very nice.
We have many places of interests and lots of historical places. I enjoy walking there. Also we have some theatres and cinemas. When I have a chance I go to the theatre with my best friend. Her name is Lena and she is a very nice girl. But she is married. And we try to meet together to spend time. I want to have my own family very much. You know, family is like a castle. Nobody can’t break it if you really love your family and fight for it. It is a place where you come with joy and happiness.
And you feel bad and sad your family will always support you. This is what I am looking for. I am looking for a person who would be with me in bad and in good times. It is so important to know that there is a person who need you and that you are not alone in this world any more. Do you agree?
I have promised to send you my picture. So it is attached to this letter, hope you will like it.
Now you will have an idea of who I am.
Ok, I will stop here and tell you more in my next letters.
I will be waiting impatiently for your reply.
Enjoy your day!

P.S. If you do not remember, where we have got acquainted?
I have attached my first letter to you. I have written to you it on a site of acquaintances.
Here it:
I wish to warn at once, that in my structure the correct information is specified not.
Therefore do not pay to this attention.
I even don.t know what to start with as it is the first time I ever do this.
I am sure that others would write many good things about themselves.
I am not going to do this. The time will show who I am and you will get a good idea if we start and continue our correspondence.
I just want to tell you that I really liked what I have seen and read about you.
I think you are just an amazing person. And I wish you could give me a chance to get to know you better.
Perhaps, I should tell you some words about myself.
I am 28 years old. I have a higher education but do not work on my specialty.
I have really many interests. I am fond of reading ( most of all I like Russian classical Literature ). Music . it usually depends on my mood, but listen to everything from pop to classical music. And there are really many other things which interest me but I will tell you about it in my next letters if you want me to. Unfortunately, I can.t tell you anything about my family.
And I am very sorry to say that my parents dies in a car accident.
I don.t like to talk about this. Perhaps, one day.when we luckily become close people. And my biggest dream is to have my own family, to feel complete.
My husband will always be on the first place for me and I will do my best to make him the happiest in the world. I will give him all my care, my love and tenderness. You know, I am a very family oriented person. I like to have a cosy home, I am very good at cooking, I like to spend evening at home and just enjoy the company of my beloved people. Also I would like us to go to many different places and to share impressions. I don.t want to be lonely any more.
And perhaps, you are also tired from loneliness. So we can try to get to know each other and see if we could be those two halves in one whole.
Feel free to ask me any questions you have. I will answer them with pleasure.
I am looking forward to your reply.
Have a good day!!!!!
P.S. If you will answer me to my email, and I promise to send you the photo!!!

Letter 2

Hi GB,
So you don’t want to correspond with me. Can you tell me,
please, the exact reason. Are you scared of the difficulties connected with that I am Russian. Or is it the distance that scares you?
You have no reasons to worry. If we like each other, I will find the way to come to you. We’ll discuss it. But if you decide to come here, you are welcome too.
Please, write me your thoughts of this.
But if you don’t want to correspond with me, please, let me know and I will not bother you with my letters any more.
I will understand everything.
I wish you good luck and much happiness.
Take care.


Letter 3

Hi dear GB,
It is a pity to hear about your mother!
What a surprise!!! You can’t imagine my joy. I have checked my mail and what did I see there – a letter from you. Thank you so much for your very nice message. I really enjoyed reading it.
I would like to continue our correspondence very much , of course, if you want the same.
Though I am a little old-fashioned and I think that a man should make the first step, but I really don’t feel sorry that I did it and had written a letter to you.
Sometimes I come to the Internet cafe to check my mail or to find some necessary information.
And some of the windows were opened while I was checking the information and suddenly I saw your add. And somehow you have captured my attention.:-) I decided not to miss my chance though I was not sure it was right and that I had to make the first step. But I have no regrets now. I feel a little lost and confused writing all this as you don’t know me at all and I don’t know you too. But it is so pleasant to get a letter from you.
Well, I hope you are not yet tired from my talking...
Perhaps, you wonder if I write this letters myself.
I speak and write in English rather fluently. I have been studying in the University for 5 years. Also I have been to Canada in the middle of 90s . I worked there in McDonald’s.
It was a small city called Gaspe.
At that period we had very difficult times in Russia, it was very hard to find any kind of work and there were no work places. So it was the way for me to earn some money. It was not easy for me, I was young and my language was not very good. Also I didn’t have any language practice. But any way, it was a good life experience. I made some friends and after work we enjoyed our time. And we had much fun. Unfortunately we have lost our connection. But I still have very good and warm memories about that time.
I am afraid to make you bored with my talking. So I will better stop here.
Just one question for you. Why are you looking for a woman the way like this? I think it is very good to have an Internet as it connects people from different parts of the planet and it is great!
If you don’t like my question, you don’t need to answer.
I will understand.
And now I want to wish you to have a very good day or night.
It depends on the time you will read this letter.
P.S. I am also sending you my picture and will try to do it each time I send you a message.

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Letter 4

Hi darling GB,
Your letters make me feel so relaxed and rested. Not always, of course, sometimes I am so excited that everything falls down from my hands. It has happened right now. All my papers fell down on the floor and my pen too. And everyone who was in the Internet cafe looked at me with the surprise. But I wanted to laugh so much and couldn’t put away the smile from my face. Now I realize how silly it looked from aside. But I don’t care, I am writing to the best man in the world. You see, I write letters at home on the list of paper and then go to the internet and type them there.
Hope you will forgive me for sharing all the details of my life with you.
Well, we still don’t each other very well but I already feel that we are getting closer to each other.
I am not going to use you for money. I am very sorry that you had a bad experience before. But you shouldn’t judge of all women by that experience. There are women who are honest and sincere and who are really looking for love and for close relations.
So, please, don’t think that I am interested in money.
I am interested in you as a person.
Of course, I would like to visit you to understand if we could be a good match. And I think I will do it in the nearest future. Internet can’t give you the whole idea of the person you are communicating with. I would like to come to your place for some days to understand this.
But first, we should write letters and understand each other better.
I will now continue telling you more about myself.
Perhaps, more about my interests…
Well, cooking is my hobby. Salads, different soups, pasta, souses, cakes and pies– it is just a short list of what I cook. I like very much to try new things. I also like very much going to the restaurants. Unfortunately, I can’t often afford it to myself. I do it very seldom, usually it happens when some of my friends has her birthday party. I like trying new cuisine and trying to guess what are the ingredients.
What’s favorite dish?
Watching movies is one of my adorable things to do, especially at the weekend. I have an old model of a video player. Though it is rather old but I still can watch movies on it. So at the weekend I rent some videos or ask my friends to give me some and enjoy it the whole day. Most of all I like to do it in a cold winter day. I stay in my bed with some food, hot tea and enjoy it. I like love stories very much, comedies and sometimes even horror movies. But I get scared too fast and turn it off What’s favorite movie? Any favorite actress and actor?
I like Tom Cruise very much and Angelina Jolie. I think she gorgeous.
Also I like studying languages. I try to improve my English and also I would like to learn Spanish very much. I have a phrase book and trying to learn something though sometimes it is rather hard. It is better when someone teachers you and correct you.
Sports is my other hobby. I do jogging, it helps me to be fit. And I also go to the swimming pool as I think it is a very good exercise.
What else…I even don’t know. I had so many thoughts in my head but they disappeared as soon as I thought of you personally.
I hope you are enjoying our correspondence as much as I do it and I hope to get your reply very soon.
Please, feel free to ask me any questions you have.

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Letter 5

Hi my dear GB!!!
It so nice getting letters from you.
And in spite of all the difficulties in my life, though the weather is very dull and there is no sun, I feel happy.
Only a person who was lonely could feel this. The world and the life are now colored with bright colors. You get up in the morning knowing that someone is thinking of you, maybe even at this minute he is thinking of you, wishing you to have a very good day and even sending you an air kiss.
Your letters woke up a poet in me. And I like this feeling very much.
I am in a very strange mood today. I want to sing as birds sing in the morning, when the sun is so tender and the sky is so blue.
I have remembered one song right now. I am sure you know it. It is a very famous song called “Stand by you.” I am sure you will understand me better after reading this. This is what I would like to have in relations with my beloved person:

Oh, Why You Look So Sad?
Tears Are In Your Eyes
Come On And Come To Me Now
Don't Be Ashamed To Cry
Let Me See You Through
'Cause I've Seen The Dark Side Too

When The Night Falls On You
You Don't Know What To Do
Nothing You Confess
Could Make Me Love You Less

I'll Stand By You, I'll Stand By You
Won't Let Nobody Hurt You, I'll Stand By You

So If You're Mad, Get Mad
Don't Hold It All Inside
Come On And Talk To Me Now
Hey, What You Got To Hide?
I Get Angry Too
Well I'm A Lot Like You

When You're Standing At The Crossroads
And Don't Know Which Path To Choose
Let Me Come Along
'Cause Even If You're Wrong

I'll Stand By You, I'll Stand By You
Won't Let Nobody Hurt You, I'll Stand By You
Take Me In, Into Your Darkest Hour
And I'll Never Desert You, I'll Stand By You

And When, When The Night Falls On You, Baby
You're Feeling All Alone
You Won't Be On Your Own

I'll Stand By You, I'll Stand By You
Won't Let Nobody Hurt You, I'll Stand By You
Take Me In, Into Your Darkest Hour
And I'll Never Desert You, I'll Stand By You
I'll Stand By You,
Won't Let Nobody Hurt You, I'll Stand By You
Won't Let Nobody Hurt You, I'll Stand By You
Take Me In, Into Your Darkest Hour
Won't Let Nobody Hurt You, I'll Stand By You

Just wanted to show my feelings with you...
I have a higher education and I have graduated from the faculty of Russian language.
I have also finished courses of the medical nurses and I can also do massage.
Though I like animals very much I do not have an opportunity to have pets now. I am lack of spare time. Most of all I like dogs and cats. And I think that horses are very clever.
I am not going to use you what to move to America!
I would also like to ask you to send me your address if it is possible, please. I would like to send you something by regular mail. And I will be just happy if you send me something in return.
So here is my address:
Julia Kirilova (my full name),
Sadovaya str.-6, apr.-3
Surgut, 628402, Russia.
And I will be waiting for your address too so I could make you a surprise.
And one more, don’t please, send me anything expensive. I am afraid it could be lost as our mail system doesn’t really work well.
Also do not send me flowers and perfume. I have an allergy on flowers and sharp smells. I do not wish to feel badly. Ok?
I will write you more next time.
Take care.

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Letter 6

Hi sunshine GB!!!
One thought came into my mind today.
I would like to ask you what you value in a person most of all. An And what you value in a woman most of all?
I do not have a boyfriend. I was disappointed many times in Russia. My last relations finished because my boyfriend took too much alcohol. And I was patient for long time but could not stand it any more.
Russian men do not appreciate Russian women at all. And I want to have happy and loving relations.
I am writing only to you. I am interested in you also.
I tried before to have correspondence with the foreigners.
But they were not serious and I was very disappointed.
But then I decided to try it once again.
Dushechka it is soul, only it is tender.
Do you ever watch French movies, old ones and new?
You know, there is something that I like about French women?
Something in their eyes, how they move, how they look at you, how they smile. They are real women. Maybe it is only in movies, but I like this type of women very much. They are very sensual and sexy in their own way.
Appearance is very important but what is more important is one’s soul.
When the soul is beautiful, a person looks more beautiful too. But when the soul is dark and dirty, you can always see it on his appearance. I appreciate very much honest, open, easy-going people. The one I could trust and tell what is inside myself. And also a kind person could always make you feel better with his kindness, care and love. I miss my mum so badly. She was a wonderful person, a very caring one. And she loved me very much. She will always be a very important person for me.
I know she is somewhere there in the Heaven and she watches me and protects me. And I try to do good things in life so she could be proud of me….Sorry, I am trying not cry writing this. It is very difficult. Thank you for being there and listening to me. I feel your support even though you are far from me. But the distance is nothing when two people like each other and feel comfortable with each other. One day there will be no distance between us and we will look into each others eyes and will say everything we feel to each other.
Sorry but I will close here for today. I feel very sad and vulnerable now. I will go home thinking of you. I want to get your letter very much, it will uplift my spirit and I will feel I am not alone any more.
Miss you and your letters...
I have attached 1 sexual photo. I have made it for you.
Now you see, that I have a good body. But, please, do not ask me to send you sexual photos more. I have no more.

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Letter 7

Hi dear GB!!!
How are you today?
I was waiting for your letter so much. I hope you already know how much they mean for me and how I wait for them.
Unfortunately, I can’t concentrate today. I could sleep yesterday and had been crying the half of the night. I felt very lonely.
I feel better today. Please, don’t worry.
Next time I will try to be stronger and keep myself in hands.
May be I am just too tired. I have to work some extra hours.
My salary is rather small, it is only about $100 if to convert it in american dollars. $100 - It month.My colleague is sick and she is at home. That’s why I need to do her work too.
I do massages instead of her. And you know it is rather difficult.
Also it is necessary to be very patient. And you know people are different. Someone are very thankful to you for your help.
And others think that should do everything they want. They can’t understand I maybe tired too. I dream of a desert island. Sun, blue sky, warm water and you near me. Isn’t it a wonderful dream. And nobody there, only you and me.
Well, enough of my dreaming...
Thanks for a photo!!!
I do not have a phone but I will try to find some way to talk to you.
I go to the Internet cafe in a day and I pay 15 $ in a month.
To my brother of 24 years.
Tell me something nice, please. Make me feel good. If I was there I would make you a massage with an oil to make you rest.
You deserve. And you would pay me for it with a sweet kiss.
Dear, I want to thank you for being in my life, for giving me an opportunity to share my feelings with you. You can’t imagine what a relief it is and how important it is for me.
I appreciate your moral support very much. I feel it between the lines of your letters.
Please, be careful for me. I want to see your other letter very much. And to feel your warmth.
I send you my sweet kiss for free too.
P.S. Sorry, but I have forgotten to bring today a photo with myself in Internet cafe. I shall attach it in the following letter.

Letter 8

Hi sweetheart GB!
Hope you don’t mind me calling you like this. But you are such a sweet person. And I am so happy having you in my life.
I am sorry for complaining sometimes in my letters. But I trust you very much and I accept you as a very close person and sometimes I allow myself to be a little weak with you.
I wish I could make something for you to thank you for everything.
Hope one day we will meet with you and be sure massage is waiting for you. I am sorry for complaining in my previous letter.
I just wanted to share my feelings with you. Please, forgive me.
Sometimes I am trying to imagine how it would be when we meet.
And I am getting so romantic at this time that can even imagine this situation in all colors.
Do you want me to share this with you?
I am staying in the airport and there is a glass wall dividing us from each other. I see you standing there with a bunch of red roses. And I see myself in a light pink long dress. The wind is blowing at my hair and my lips are so soft and I have a pink gloss on them. I am trying to say something to you but you don’t hear me. I start laughing as you can’t understand what I am trying to say to you. And then you start laughing too.
I am coming closer to you. I feel so nervous and excited at the same time. I see that you feel the same. I open my lips and you hear at last what I tried to say some minutes ago.
“Thank you. I am happy!” Simple words but there is so much in them. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for being with me. Thank you for make feel complete. Thank you for being in my life. Thank you for everything.
Please, accept these words. This is what I feel now...
I shall do for you a photo of my city and an apartment.
I do not collect a figurine of animals.
I wrote to you, that in Canada I lived in city - Gaspe. I do not know it in what part of Canada is.
Please, answer my question, do you want me to come to you or not?
Of course, it will be in some time but I would just like to know that one day we will meet with you and that you really would me to be in your life. I can come to you with the visit for 10 or 15 days. I just want us to see each other and if we like each other, we can start thinking of our future together.
You see again and again I share my feelings with you. Something strange is going on with me. I feel butterflies inside my stomach.
And this feeling makes me feel very happy but scares me at the same time. I think I have to think carefully what’s going on with me. All these drives me crazy but in a good way. I like this feelings very much. Everything looks different from the time I met you through the Internet. I myself look different.
There is something in my eyes, they sparkling. Even my friends say this. They have noticed that some changes are happening in me.
Well, I will not torture you with my thoughts any more.
Thinking of you...

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Letter 9

My dear GB!!!
Please, don’t be shocked with what you will read now.
I was scared myself when I understood it yesterday. I was thinking of what was going on with me. Every morning I get up with the thought of you and every evening I go to bed with the thoughts of you. There is some kind of chemistry in the air. I can’t live without your letters. I got used to you so much. All I need now is to get a letter from you, to know that you are well and you are thinking of me too. I can’t do anything, I can’t concentrate. I go to work and it is a torture for me as I can’t really do anything, talk to anybody. All I do is thinking of you. I think I am in love with you. I know what you think now. I am scared myself as it is unusual for me too. But I will die if you tell me you don’t need me any more. I would give everything in the life just to be with you right now, to see your wonderful and kind eyes, to understand that you feel the same. Every part of my body aches for you.
I am mad at myself. This shouldn’t happen to me. At least I shouldn’t tell this to you. This is wrong. But what can I do. I can’t just stand aside. I need you to understand me.
Perhaps, you don’t feel the same about me. But I feel that you have something for me too. If you don’t, I will understand.
But I want you to know that I long for you. My love will be enough for two. I know I can make you happy. I will be the best friend for you, lover and a wife if you only allow me.
I am so much scared that you will not allow me to love you.
But you should know this feeling will always be in me as you have captured the biggest part of my heart. And this will last forever, I know. I have never felt this before especially to the person I have never seen in real life. And I will be happy only if you say that you feel just a little of what I do for me.
Please, take your time and write me. I will be counting minutes till the time I hear from you.
Miss you badly.
I am attaching you a naked pictures. But I have blocked my face.
I am afraid that my pictures could get to any of the porno sites in the Internet. I didn’t on purpose as I don’t want to have my naked pictures anywhere. My best friend Lera has helped me to take it. Hope you don’t think that my photos is vulgar and please, don’t think bad of me. I did it just for you.


Letter 10

Hello my dearest one GB!!!
How are you today? As for me I am not really in the mood.
I have a feeling that I did something wrong.
I have never thought this could happen to me. That I could fell in love with the person I have never seen in my life.
I want to less the distance between us so much, to take your hand, to look into your eyes and to see that you understand my naive soul. I know I shouldn't be so open. I have to be strong and keep everything inside.
I am too emotional but I don't want you to be scared and run away. If I could be closer to you and if I could show you my feelings. I want you so much to see me, to feel my touch. I would kiss your eyes and say how I love you.
Again I am acting like a silly little girl. I am mad at myself.
But at the same time I can't stop. I want you to know my feelings. I even thought of coming to you. And I have even went the tourist agency to check about the visas. And now I know that the best way for me to come to you is to get a tourist visa. It will not take much time.
And they told me at the tourist agency that I have a very good chance to get it. Do you remember I told you once that I had been to America. And it is a very good reason for giving me a visa. I’ve checked that a visa will cost $194.
You know with my salary I just can't afford it. And I will need your help. It’s up to you, of course. But I really hope you will be able to help me with getting visa.
Please, think about it and let me know. Do you want me to come to you?
Do you want to meet with me at last? I want it very much.
Hope you too.
I will give you the information for the case you decide to do it.
The best way to send money is to do it via Western Union or MoneyGram. It is an easy and quick way to get it.
It is necessary to know the full name of receiver.
My full name is Julia Kirilova. And after sending money, the one who is getting money should know an MTCN ( Money Transfer Control Number ).
And the sum of money that was sent.
Well, I hope that you will think on this information.
You have lots of food for thought.
Please, write me as soon as possible. I am waiting for your reply.
Love you.
P.S. You can send money to any Western Union of my city.

Letter 11

Hello my dearest one GB!!!
I cannot write the greater letter.
Here the proof - I am real! I Hope, you now trust me?
Please, send me of money for the visa as soon as possible.
Or to me will give up in reception of the visa.
It is a photo I has made 1 hour back with Lera.
Miss you...

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Letter 12

My darling GB,
I even don’t know what to start with.
Don’t want to start this conversation but I have to any way. You know I would always try to understand you and this is what I ask you for too. Please, listen to me and try to understand me. It is very important not only for me but for both of us.
Nobody wants to do charity now, especially Embassies or tourist agencies. If I don’t pay for visa in some days, we will loose the time and the chance. The paperwork will be done very quickly because I have already been to Canada once. You know how I want to be with you. I think and I want to believe that you want it too.
I need your help very much. I am useless without it. Please, don’t make me miss the chance.
I have to pay for visa and you know I can’t afford it myself.
You already know me very well and you know my position.
I would do my best just to get it. And I feel shame asking you for this.
But you know yourself, nobody will do anything for you if you can’t pay...
I answered your questions. I have only 2 friends. It Lera and Lena!!!
My birthday on December, 23rd.
Now at us it is cold. It is late autumn. In some weeks there will be a snow and winter!
I do not know the time difference between us. Usually I write you letters at a lunch time or a little later after the afternoon.
I am able to get visa for 1 week. It will be very fast!!!
And it will be valid 3 months.
I would arrive to your place as soon as I get visa!!!
Or we can do it in the way which is more convenient for you.
But you should understand that I ask you for money as I have a very good chance now to get visa without any problems. In other case I willl be not able to get it for long time. And we will not meet with you then.
You cansend money to any bank in my city. The main thing I should know is MTCN ( digital number ). We should hurry up with this. As it is necessary to start the process as soon as possible.
I will do all I can and in a best way. Now everything depends on you.
I hope very much for your understanding and for your help.
You are the only one I can rely on.
Please, think about it and write me as soon as possible while we still have the time.
I am waiting for your reply.
Love you very much and need you badly.
Truly yours,


Letter 13

Hi my darling GB!!!
Don't worry, dear. I will find money for the tickets.
My boss will give me money. And I will use this chance only if you help me with the visa. That is abig sum of money for me. If you really want me to come and to see me, please, do it for us.Much depends on you now.
I will do everything necessary from my side.
Send me only money for the visa of 194 dollars.
Please, understand me! I am able to get visa for 1, 2 or 3 months. This depends on the Embassy. This time is enough for us to get to each other better. I want to come to you not to marry you but you get closer and to see if we match each other. But if I don’t pay for visa now, I will never get it then. I will come to you as soon as I get my visa. Or at any other time which is convenient for you. You should understand that I ask for money now as I have a chance to get visa without a problem.
Now I have only a week, or to me will give up in reception of the visa! And later I could not get it.
And in this case, we will not be able to meet.
Do you know what? I am going to tell you one thing now.
Promise that you are not going to laugh at me, please...
I feel shame telling you my dream. But it happened and it was so real.
Ok, here we go.
Imagine… dark room, you are sitting on the sofa having cocktail.
Suddenly you see a flash in the middle of the room. You see a chair in the middle, dark red walls and a slim woman in the black suit and in the black hat. You can’t see her face but you feel that you know this woman very well. She has a red lipstick on her lips and a long cigarette. She is smoking and it looks so sexy. Then she starts dancing. She slowly takes her clothes away till the moment when she has little fluffy pants on her. She still has her hat on. She is dancing slowly and then faster and faster. Her naked body is so sensual. She comes close but you still can’t see her face.
It is very dark inside and there is only a candle light.
She sits on your knee and starts kissing you. Her hands are very tender, you feel them everywhere on your body and your desire gets stronger with every minute.
Then you feel yourself inside of her and your body and hers is one whole.
You lay down being very weak, relaxed and satisfied.
She takes her hat away and you see me.
My lips are red from your kisses. You see my eyes and my lips and feel that you want me again and again. And our night of passion continues….
Writing this I feel that I am already very excited.
I want to be close to you so much. This is only my dream.
But I want it so much to come true.
love you.
And miss you badly.


Letter 14

My sunshine GB!
I haven’t got a letter from you. I don’t understand why.
Maybe you are not interested in me any more. Or may be it is because of the money I asked. Please, let me know if you still want to talk to me.
You will send to me of money? You do not want to help me to get visa?
I feel so sad and lonely without you.
I wish you were here right now. We would put a warm blanket on us and would do different silly things under it. How do you like the idea? Or we could go to have a shower together...
I feel bad without you. I need your love so much. I want to feel your strong touch, you manly body, to feel the smell of your body and to feel your arms around me.
Dear, it is very important to share all moments in life with each other. To be in happiness and in sorrows with each other, to love each other, to take care of each other, to be close when someone feels sad, just to sit and to talk not to have misunderstandings.
This is love for me and what’s love for you?
I think it is better to go to bed now. It is still raining outside and I wonder what the weather there. I wonder how you feel and what you do at this moment.
I want to share my life with you so much. Please, be with me always. Take care of me and I will give you all my life too.
Without you my life is empty and I am nothing. I live only with the thoughts of you. I live with my dreams about you.
Hope to meet with you in my dream tonight.
Love you very much.
All my kisses and hugs are for you.
P.S. I can’t send you my pictures any more. The scanner I have used in the Internet cafe is broken. And I really don’t have time for looking for another one.
I have a very busy work schedule.