Letter(s) to Patrice (Belgium)

Letter 1

Hi, my new friend, Patrice!!!
I am very glad that you have answered my letter. Thank you that you have found time for answer. I think that you have many questions about myself. I will try to answer them. I don't know what to begin with to tell you about myself. OK, I will try to begin. My real name is Irina.
My friends call me Irina too. In caressing form my name sounds Ira. You can call me how it is more pleasant to you. I am 28 years old. My birthday is on the October 20, 1980. My height is 171 cm.
My weight is 58 kg. Probably you will be very much afflicted when you find out that I live not in your country. But I very much hope that it does not frighten you, because I the same lady like many other ladies living in the different countries. I the same person with heart and soul. I live in the city of Cheboksary It's the big and known city in Russia. After I finished it I entered the medical college. I finished it with excellent results and entered Medical University. At present I work in a small Dental clinic. I work as a dentist. We have a little collective, but very friendly. Patrice, I shall have an opportunity to send you letters only from Monday till Friday, because I haven't got a computer at home. I use a computer at my work. On work I can use a computer almost freely. So it is more convenient for me to write you from my work. Though it too depends not from me. With a computer works another employee. I have not bad relations with her, but she can give me a computer only when she has a free time. For this reason I hope that you understand me. Patrice, answer my questions, if you can: Do you like your job? What is your favourite film? What kind of music do you like? Have you ever had a friend from the other country?(the friend on correspondence). I thank you for your answers beforehand. My new friend, you may not answer these questions if you don't want. In my next letter I shall necessarily answer other your questions. I will tell to you what music and what cinema I like. I send you my picture. I hope to you it is pleasant.
I will waiting for your letter with impatience. As it will be very pleasant for me to see your photo in the following letter. OK! I on you shall hope and wait from you the answer with your photo.
Yours faithfully Irina.

Letter 2

Hi my friend Patrice!!!
How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when I have received your letter I really was delighted. Many thanks.
I at once to you want to tell, that games are not necessary for me.
Serious relations are necessary for me only. I cannot go through if to me once again will break my heart. I have gone on this site, with the purpose to find for myself worthy the man with whom I want to begin our new and happy life. I am simply tired from loneliness and I want simple human happiness. I want to tell to you many thanks for your remarkable photos. It is very pleasant for me to see you. You fine the man and me it will be very pleasant to find out well you.
At once I want to tell to you about my opportunities to write letters to you. I hadn't time to tell about it in my last letter. I write to you letters on my job because I have no a personal computer. The computer is in an accounting department. Lady who works with a computer will sometimes allow me to use a computer in my interests, but only when this lady has a free time. It depends not on me unfortunately. I work five days in a week - from Monday till Friday. It is the standard established in Russia. On this I shall not be capable to write to you and to receive your letters on Saturday and on Sunday. But sometimes I work on Saturday and even on Sunday. On this maybe I will can write to you letters even on Saturday or on Sunday. Maybe. Do you want to know how I will write to you my letters?
I promised to write to you about the hobbies and about the way of life.
I spend quiet enough way of life and it is reflected in music which I love.
I listen to various music. I like to listen to classical music. I like Bah and Mozart. I very much like Chaikovskiy! But except for classical music I like to listen to modern music. To me very much like Madonna, Ricky Martin and others. Except for foreign I like to listen to executors Russian Pop and Rock stars. For example Philip Kirkhorov, Katya Chehova or groups Zveri, Splin.
I love the English language. But I should tell to you, that I know English not in perfection. I think, that you have already noticed it. I know many words in English, but my knowledge are limited, because Russian is my native language. Therefore I use the translator of language when I write to you letters. But I translate only some phrases which I do not know.
I learn the English language easily. At present I attend courses of the English language. I want to know this language perfectly. I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you won't angry.
What else to tell about me? I never was married and I haven't children. I am lonely and the reason of my loneliness not only in me.
However, I do not know if it interestingly for you. I live honestly, and it brings pleasure to me. I am optimist and I like to smile, because a smile - mirror of soul. For happiness is not required many things. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love cannot be happy. But when near there is a close person whom you love, life becomes fine irrespective of where you live and what you have. But the loneliness fills a life with sadness. But I do not want to speak about sadness anymore. I am glad that I have an opportunity to write to you and I am glad that you write to me. And at present it really causes a smile on my face. I should finish my letter.
You have the big family Patrice? If you do not want, you may do not
answer my question.
I hope to receive your letter soon. Sincerely and with the best
Yours faithfully Irina.

Letter 3

Hi my friend Patrice!!!
Today remarkable day and only for one reason because I again see your letter and all rest becomes not important for me. I am frankly glad that again I have a possibility to write you.
My dear Patrice I now shall answer your questions. I never was abroad, but always dreamed to visit and look there as people there live. At you civilized countries and absolutely other life. And I have decided to find for myself worthy foreign the man with whom I want to try to start our happy life. Games are not necessary for me. Serious relations are necessary for me only. I want simple human happiness. Now I to you want to tell about my family.
Today I saw my mother in my dream and thought that I have to tell you about my mother, because when I say about her - I tell about my family.
It is really so because I have never seen my grandfather and grandmother and I don't have brothers or sisters. I was the only one child in the family, and my family consisted of two people - my mother and I. I know nothing about the father. When to me there were 13 years ours the neighbour started to live from my mum. I named his uncle Sasha. All was good, but then he has left from mum to other woman and has moved to other city. I too do not want to recollect him now. Now you will understand why. I really feel great proud when I say about my mother because she was a very good woman. But together with this, every time the recollections about my mother cause tears and I can't keep them. My mother died when I was 18 years old. Two years before her death my mom has damage in road accident. She was standing in the street and she was knocked down by a car. Probably the driver was strongly drunk, because the witnesses said that the car moved by zigzag and suddenly appeared on pavement. As a result of collision my mum was paralysed. She spent two years in the wheelchair. I looked after her did all that was in my forces to make a life for which she was fated since this moment - easy and joyful. I spent little time with my friends and practically all my free time I spent near my mother. I was crazy happy when mother smiled, because she smiled very seldom. She was ashamed of her helplessness. Every time when I was going home after school I looked at the window and every time my mother met me. She was looking through the window and smiled. It happens always. She met me every day and never forgot. That's why I felt alarm at once when 11 years ago I looked at the window and didn't see my mother there. I understood that something is wrong. I rushed home with tears in my eyes. When I oped the door I understood that I stayed alone. As usual my mother was sitting in her chair with the smile. But she was dead. I remember how I stretched my arm and touched her pulse. It got dark in my eyes and my feet didn't obey me. I couldn't stand. I thought I would go mad. I have felt that I lose consciousness and lain on the floor. I sobed and couldn't quiet down. I couldn't imagine that I will live without mom. This was the person I lived for. All I did in my live I did for her. She was such a good mother. She taught me everything I can do in this life. My mother dreamt to bring me up as an honest and decent lady. I was the only child and mother gave me endless love. And I tried to do all to be worthy daughter, to be worthy her love. And I hope that I became such a lady as my mother wanted to see me. Now I appreciate the difficulties of that time in a different way. Difficulties train the character. I lived without help and support, I went through different difficulties about which I don't want to speak. But I have gone trough these difficulties and remember this I feel that everything I have done correctly. My mother always told me that one should look at difficulties with smile not mentioning that there is a shout of despair in the throat and there are tears in eyes. One should be strong and proud - as my mother was. Forgive me that I have told you about this so in detail. But I say about my mother seldom. But when I say about her I can't do it in couple words. I loved her very much and that's why I told you little things about her. Forgive me. I decided to share my recollections with you as with a friend, because I didn't speak about her with anybody for a long time. Forgive me that my letter is a sad, big and uninteresting. Simply when I begin to say about my mother I can't stop. But I promise not to write such letters anymore.
Is important For you the nationality of the person if this person - object of your sympathy? What makes you happy?
I have to finish. Sincerely with best regards.
Yours faithfully Irina.

Letter 4

Hi, my dear Patrice!!!
Today remarkable day and only for one reason because I again see your letter and all rest to become not important for me. I with impatience waited for this minute when again I can write to you my letter. Thank you for your attention to me. From day to day I feel more necessity to get your letters. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I should say that when I have good mood my patients cry less. So healthy smiles of our children now depend on your letters. It with me in a photo my best girlfriend our childhood Elena. By the way, when I came to work today my mood was bad, because my girl-friend fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 30 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But have already talked with the doctor and I will be allowed to spend the evening in the her chamber. In the evening I will bake a cake, buy balloons and go to the hospital. I want very much that she have good mood on her birthday. This my best friend. By the way, she works with me in the polyclinic. As matter of fact I have only two real friends - Elena and Nadezhda. Elena is that lady who is in the hospital. Natasha has left to the North for three months. Her grandmother lives there. My friends are not married too. We are friends for 20 years already. Elena and I are like sisters. Elena and I like to walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. This are the houses which were built before the second world war, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well or in a pit. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. There she grows potato, tomatos and cucumbers not to buy them in the market, because in winter the prices of these products rise very high. Every winter Elena and I make a big Snowman by big snow balls. We make a carrot instead of nose and potatos instead of eyes. It is very funny. All neighbor's children come to see it. First time we made such a Snowman 16 years ago. Since that time we do every year. This is a tradition for us. We pour it with water to cover with ice. So it stands for the whole winter.
I have to finish my letter. I don't want but I have to. Today when I will come to Elena we will speak about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you that you do Patrice when on your soul poorly or well? What was the best gift you got and from whom?
Sincerely yours and with best wishes. As I with impatience shall wait your new photos in the following letter.
Yours faithfully Irina.

Letter 5

Hi, my dear Patrice!!!
I am again very glad to see your letter and all rest becomes not important for me. At once I want to tell to you many thanks for your new fine photo. You fine the man and me it is always very pleasant to see you.
The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. May be today after work I will go home by foot. I like to walk along the street and to breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. It is very boring and lonely at home. Sometimes I don't mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. But my flat is empty and I have to be in full solitude. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down in an arm-chair and look at the window. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as my blood flows in my veins, I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I don't know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But enough about it.
Today I again shall go to Elena when I shall write to you the letter.
I hope she is better today. She was very glad, when I have come and have wished her happy birthday. We ate a pie and talked. By the way, about you also. I told to her about you. You are not offended on me for it? She asked to tell to you Hi from her. I talked with doctor and he has told, that nothing terrible with Elena and she will soon recover. I am very glad to this.
Can you imagine? I have just cured a little boy's teeth. I asked him: What do you dream about? He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't have problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often remember childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we can't to sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for long. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me?
I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. Do you like when your friends come to your home? What clothes do you like the lady wear?
I will wait for your letter with impatience. Now I should say goodbye to you till Monday and wish you to carry out well your week-end. Do not miss me.
Yours faithfully Irina.

Letter 6

Hi, Patrice!!!
Today remarkable day and only for one reason because I again see your letter and all rest becomes not important for me. I am very glad that you have written me. Thank you very much. I like your letters very much and wait for them every day. I am simply happy, that now I have such remarkable man and me very pleasantly that we could find each other. It's strangely, but weather so influenced on mood of people. People do not notice beauty which surrounded them. But only not I.
In me such weather wakens the big energy and fine mood. I remember once upon a time I have suggested to Nadia to walk, when in the street was a strong rain. But she is surprised spoke: "In the street a puddles, the rain and a wind. I am not a lunatic to walk in such weather. I shall better sit at home and to watch TV. " Then I have told to my girlfriend that it is necessary to be able to search for the positive moments in negative. And necessary to be able to enjoy what you have at present. I have described to her the rain so, how I see it. After she has listened to me, we at once have gone to walk. I like all seasons. I like autumn in Rogachevka. Yellow leaves, gold trees. It is so wonderful to walk in the park and to listen how leaves rustle under feet, and to feel in the air the smell of arriving winter. And clouds floating in the sky; and birds are departing to the warm grounds. And at night the sky begins to cry. The rain knocks on windows and roofs. A lightning illuminates for shares of second the empty streets. It is fine. In such weather it would be desirable to appear in a small room with a warm fireplace. Weak light and singing of a cricket. And if near there will be a beloved - it will be paradise. How you think Patrice! What can be finer than romantic evening in rainy day? I at all do not know what season I like more. As well as all people, I wait for the summer in the winter, and in the summer I wait for the winter. But all the same Siberian winter is delightful. All the world around is white. Only fur-trees with the green clothes heat a look. And falls of snow bewitches. Especially in the evening. Flows of light from a window, and on a background of black sky, small snowflakes are similar to stars. If during this moment for a long time you look at the sky - it seems that you flies through these wonderful snowflakes towards something unknown. I like spring in Stepanovka. The world as though is born again. Air is filled with freshness. All troubles and failures thawed together with snow. The sounds of the baby birds chirping for the first time. Summer is a fine mood, the desire to learn the world, to have a rest and enjoy life. I feel that I rambling on. Forgive me. Simply now I have romantic mood.
Patrice! I want to share with you a picture, but I hope this picture will not offend you. You a first man who will see this picture. I hope you will not think that I lead a dissolute life. In Russia each lady dreams to make a similar picture. And many ladies make such pictures only for themselves. Nadia about which I told to you, worked in a photographic studio. She has made this picture. But I showed nobody it. But Nadia has told to me that it beautifully and I should share it with you Patrice! And I feel that I am ready to do it.
Sincerely, Irina.

Letter 7

Hello my lovely Patrice!!!
I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks. You have again raised my mood and have placed a happy smile on my face.
Yesterday I have visited Elena in hospital. I have told to her Hi from you, I hope you not against it? Elena also has send Hi for you.
By the way, she has told, that her quinsy has recovered already and tomorrow her will let off from hospital. I am very glad, that her health in norm now. Patrice, today I went to job being absolutely confident that you write to me today. Earlier I always went with an thought that you probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with an thought that your letter waits for me already. I went on the street and I smiled. I could not hide my smile. People which passed near to me looked back on me. Ladies in Russia smile rarely, because life is filled with different problems, cares, difficulties and obstacles. All this prevails over little fortunes which the lady has in her life. In Russia the lady stands on the same stair as the man already for a long time. She can do the same work as the man can. Very often In Russia the lady does the man's work - the heavy physical work. In the 19th century one Russian poet wrote about Russian woman: "Russian woman can enter in the burning house and she can stop frightened horse running towards her". The only thing she lacks is simple warm and caress, which she wants to receive from a man. This is the problem of Russian men. The Russian lady does everything for the man but doesn't get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple of tender words and gentle touching of his hands. Is it really so difficult? Is it really difficult to present your lady a romantic evening and a supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady for a man, but not a man for lady. When a woman carry heavy bags in the street no man will help her, he will only turn his look away and go farther. That's why the Russian lady never feels happy at her heart.
You say that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not considered like a beautiful lady. Russian men, practically all of them, usually treat to ladies disrespectfully. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash cloths and entertain the man when he wants. For the Russian man it is a usual thing to offend a woman. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all the men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few of them. Men frequently speak dirty words (not normative lexicon) when speak with lady and consider that in it there is nothing bad.
I had boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me with bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became another person - rude and evil. Has taken a great interest in beating me, frequently struck and knocked me by hands and the next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing had happened. I began to be afraid of him and I have left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make myself get acquainted with another man. Now I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid to give my love but get in lieu thereof the roughness.
If you have disagreements with lady, you can apply roughness?
Do you capable to transform quarrel into the peace, pleasure and a smile?
I have to you small request. Make please for me your new photo. It will be very pleasant for me to see you. I shall wait. OK!
Yours faithfully your Irina.

Letter 8

Hi, Patrice!!!
I am again very glad to see your letter and all rest becomes not important for me. I with impatience waited for this minute when again I can write to you the letter.
My dear Patrice, yes I start to understand, that I have to you strong feelings and I am confident, that my feelings I shall very soon pass to the big love to you. You cannot simply present yourselves as I am happy, that now I have worthy man and I am proud of you.
How your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but after my letter your mood became superfine Likely I too self-confident.
Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Tomorrow I again work in dental mobile car. I did not say it to you yet. But it happens only once a week.
Dental mobile car - automobile which is more than passenger car, but is less than a lorry. Two years ago I and Elena have written to Ministry of Health the offer to allocate the automobile to make dental mobile car. At that time we with her have consisted in society of volunteer help weak and ailing people. As a rule it is old lonely people which are not capable to live without help of extraneous people. These people could not visit hospital because they could not go independently. We have suggested to come periodically to such people on this automobile with the necessary equipment to not carry these people in hospital. This offer was approved and now we already visit more than fifty settlements in our area.
Unfortunately tomorrow I will go without Elena. On this it will be difficult days. In total in our area five such automobiles. We go in small villages and settlements where live people, which for the different reasons cannot go in city to cure a teeth. In our district a lot of such people. Now we help not only to such people, but also children living in children's orphanages. We have many orphanages, but this orphanages have no personal dental cabinet, on this every week Elena, I and ours colleague - dental surgeon, we go in various orphanages on dental mobile car. We became friends with all children and all children love us very much, because also we visit this orphanage in the days off to give help of various sort. The state allocates very few money for the maintenance and contents of orphanages. Buildings are very old. But children do not have anybody to help them and to give them financial support. That's why some people voluntary render the feasible help. We help to repair rooms. Many walls do not have even wall-paper and stucco. The floors and beds are very old. The conditions are terrible. The meal is awful. The children practically have no toys. When I look at all this there are tears in my eyes. My girlfriend and I help to do repair. We glue wall-paper and paint the windows. We bring children new toys. You cannot imagine how children are pleased when we come. And they are glad not only because they wait for new toys, they wait for us. They require kindness and caress very much. Again I write too in detail. Forgive me, please. I simply wanted to tell that I do not know if I can write to you tomorrow.
Maybe I can write, but only some lines because I will not have time.
Oh Patrice! I should go.
Sincerely and with the best regards.
Your Irina.

Letter 9

Hi, my far, but dear friend Patrice!!!
Today remarkable day and only for one reason because I again see your letter and the everything else to become not important for me.
I with impatience waited for this minute when again I can write to you my letter.
Many thanks for your attention to me. I am really madly glad to receive your letters. I am really glad that I have found you.
I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it was required two days to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you.
I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Patrice, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
With tenderness,
Your Irina.

Letter 10

Hi my Patrice!!!
How your mood? Any your mood today I want to try to make even better.
This morning I didn't go to my job, because this morning I flew to my job. Today I came to my job beforehand. And I was first who came to the office. And I was happy all the day. My colleagues were surprised. They have asked me why I'm so happy. And I have simply answered that I have good mood. I have understood long ago but was afraid to admit to itself, that I have found to you feeling which did not feel before. I want to understand what in my heart. I want to feel your breath. I don't know, what's happened with me. Likely I can be named strange lady, but I have grown fond of your soul and heart. The rest is not important for me. For me the material world is not important. Only the world of calmness, fidelity and pure heart. It didn't happen to me before.
The weather is sunny today. The sun brings joy. I'm glad that I have friend Patrice, and Patrice has me, Irina. Tell me about your thoughts and dreams. I want to know all about you. Absolutely all!(smile). BUT! Today my boss informed me that I will have a vacation approximately in 2 or 3 weeks. But I have not been pleased. I did not expect that I will receive a vacation. But schedule constituted by accounts department not change. I have begun to cry, because it means that I cannot write to you. I cannot use a computer. Then I have found out that lady which gives me to use her computer, maybe will receive a vacation right after me, and if it will take place I can not use a computer two months. I have imagined that I should spend my vacation in my house, between four walls. I will sit without an opportunity to read your letters, I will sit in loneliness and to think of you. I will aimlessly wander on streets and every night fall asleep with tears on eyes. I waited my vacation the whole year and now I receive them but it do not bring to me pleasure. I have imagined that I should spend some months without you and in my heart has appeared awful emptiness. All world around became uninteresting for me. And I have told to myself: "NO! It not for me!" Last night I thought of us. About you and about me. About us together. I couldn't fall asleep. I thought what I can do to see you. I decided to spend this vacation with you. I thought what can I do to meet you. Simply to meet. It's all that I want now. I have not a passport, but I don't a visa to your country.
The international passport to cost 50 Euro. It does not need many documents. It is possible to do the passport for one week.
Today I have addressed visas agency. I wondered how much it will cost for me to make visa. They told me that consideration of the application on reception of the visa costs 300 Euro.This sum does not come back even in that case if my application will not be approved. And for getting a visa is necessary to go to Moscow where there is an consulate. They have told that I will must visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions both in Cheboksary, and in Moscow. It is necessary to wait for a long time the queue. It is a usual way of getting a visa and procedure of reception can be delayed for some weeks or even months. Besides if my application will not be approved, it will turn out that I squander money all for nothing. I said I can't wait so long. To me have told that is possible to avoid set of problems and to make all in faster terms if to use full package of service (FPS). Full package of service includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for Interview with commission, interview. The full package of service costs 450 Euro, but the visas agency remove all problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excessive delays. I asked how long time it will take to get a visa If to use a full package of service. They have answered that it will take about one week. Maybe 2 weeks if there will be some troubles. I have told that this variant satisfies me and I agree. I have asked, whether there will be troubles with visa, because there were the terrible terrorist actions in the World.
I was answered that they will request information about me in the police. And if in the police they will be answered that I the law-abiding citizen, I will get the visa. I have never outraged the law. And I have never done anything unlawful. I will have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the visa. And I really have registered the visa application with great belief and with great hope that you will be glad to meet me, with belief and with hope that you want to meet me. If it would happen, would be it as a gift for you? Would be you happy if we could spend some days together?
I know, that you will be happy. But I to want to hear confirmation. I want to hear, that you will be happy to meet me at the airport. I to trust, that we can have a meeting. We can have dialogue through the letter long time. But it will not do us closer. But at a meeting we can solve all. My honey, very much it is not pleasant for me to ask this question. Because you can understand me not correctly. But I should be sincerely with you. I cannot find such sum for reception of the passport and the visa. To do all necessary documents (the international passport, physical examination, the visa) it to cost 450 Euro. It is very big sum for me. My salary of 250-270 Euro, in a month. It to surprise you? You should not be surprised, I still to have the good salary. Other people to earn on much less. Therefore I to have boldness to ask you. You can help me with this sum?
I understand that our relations are not long yet. Many years I ask myself one question: "Why everything depends on money?" I think that the money is not main thing in life. The main is when the people can and want to understand each other. I have a wild desire to meet you, to embrace you.
I know that you did not expect that I will tell all this. But it is possible to wait eternally. But in fact nobody knows that waits for us tomorrow. Maybe such opportunity will not be presented any more. I have opened to you my heart and soul. I speak what I feel. I am not confused by my feelings. I speak straight and openly. The loneliness has made me courageous. You can think that I hurry events. But I have found new feeling which never had. I am happy right now. I seem I has found what searched for long time. In Russia speak: "under a lying stone the water doesn't flow ". It mean that it is necessary to do a step onward to achieve something. I am afraid to lose an opportunity to communicate with you because I cannot eternally use office computer. But I will receive soon a vacation. During all my life I spent my vacation in my village. But now I can spend my vacation with my friend, with you! It is big happiness. I should use this opportunity. In my heart never was such confidence and feeling. And I am afraid to lose it. May be I hurry events, but I am afraid that all will be terminated, and then I will go mad. You my dear friend, and friends meet sometimes. I shall receive a vacation, it's my vacation and I want to spend it with my dear friend. I think it will be wonderful. I apologize, if have offended you. I hope, that you do not regard my words as impudence. I simply want to meet and spend some happy days with you. What will be after, I do not know. But all people meet. The distance does not frighten me. But without a meeting there can not be a continuation. I hope, that your feelings to me have not changed after that. But I want to see you to slightly becalm my tormented heart. Tell me please, can you meet me?
Much tenderness from Irina!

Letter 11

Hello my love Patrice!!!
My life Patrice, I is again very glad to see your letter and glad, that today could answer on your letter.
At once I want to tell to you many thanks that you could understand me and will help me with money of that to me would make my documents for travel to your country. You have made me the happiest woman in this world because due to you our meeting will take place also all our dreams will be carried out.
My loved Patrice, very much it was not pleasant for me to ask you the help, but without your help I could not arrive to you, because it for me very big money. In fact you know, that I one and to ask the help to me any more whom. In fact I have made it only for one reason because I want to be with you.
My angel Patrice, for all our time of correspondence you began roads for me and I have grown fond of you all my heart. I want to carry out with you my holiday. I want to arrive to you, what in a reality to find out our relations between us and to decide, that to us to do further. I am happy, that I could find to myself worthy the man and I thank the god, that I have found you, and you have found me. I want to love you and to be loved only for you and for all our life because I have understood, that we are created the friend for the friend. I very for a long time thought about us with you and I have made the choice.
My choice, it you my dear Patrice. Me pulls to you and I want to be with you. I always spoke you only the truth and from my heart. I shared with you all my last life. I wanted, that my future the man would know all about me and the choice has made. I am confident in one, that when we with you shall be together it there will be the happiest days in my life.
I have now called to the agent and have asked him as you can make transfer of money. The agent has in detail explained to me, how you can make it. You need to go in the Western union and you there can make transfer of money. The agent as has explained to me, that it is the fastest and reliable way of transfer of money. As soon as you will do transfer of money, my data will be necessary for you. I send you them.
Country: Russian Federation. (RUSSIA).
City: Cheboksary.
Surname: Bavykina.
Name: Irina.
All this the data which are required for transfer of money. As soon as you will make transfer of money, your data will be necessary for me also. It.
The full address of the sender:
Full Name and Surname of the sender:
Confidential number. (MTCN):
The exact sum of transfer of money.
Knowing all these data I without any problems can receive your money and pay to their agent, that they would start to do my documents for travel to your country. But you should know one. We still have not enough time and we need to have time to make all my documents, prior to the beginning of my holiday. So if you to me can help with money for my documents it is necessary for you, as soon as possible to make transfer of money. I only need to hope for you and to wait from you the answer already with details of transfer of money.
My loved Patrice, you should know only one. You always in my ideas and all my dreams only about you and about our meeting because I love you and I send you again my gentle kiss. Kisskisskisskisskisskiss.
Yours faithfully and love, your Irina.

Letter 12

Hi my Patrice!!!
Good morning my love Patrice. I am again very glad to see your letter and the everything else becomes not important for me. I only with impatience waited for this minute when again I can write to you my letter. At once I want to tell to you many thanks for your remarkable photos with colors.
It is very pleasant for me to see them.
I want to close eyes and to appear near to you, to feel and outlive all, about than you and i dream. I want to feel heat and tenderness of your hands and taste of your lips. I am ready to go with you though on edge of the Earth. I am ready to spend with you all days and night even in a tent, and for me it will be paradise, because you that the man about which I so for a long time dreamed also you cannot simply present myself as I am happy, that my desires have come true also our meeting will take place already very soon. In fact it means, that we with you can find out in a reality our relations between us and prove each other our love. My angel Patrice, my girlfriend has insisted that I have allowed her to write some lines for you. She wants to make it without my help. Please do not judge her strictly. Her English is far from perfect.

Letter 13

Hi Patrice! My name is the Elena. I am write to you by my hand and by my brain. If I am write badly that you can laugh. I am know your language bad. But Irina is know your language well. I am is want to tell to you the thank you. Because I am never to saw the Irina with so big the smile. She is laugh in the all day long. She is do not to want to work. Irina is was never so is happy. You is the good man. I hope you do tears at Irina never. I wish the you and the Irina have time well. Good-bye. Elena.

Letter 14

It's me again, Irina. My life Patrice, I has made for you my new photo and I have changed the style and have recoloured the hair. To me Elena has told, that this color of hair approaches me more. I want to find out your opinion. It is very a pity to me, that I have not made for you that photo which you wanted to see. But I shall make for you a surprise. You will see me in a black miniskirt when you will meet me at the airport and I am sure, that it will be very pleasant for you to see me in these clothes.
Now I should to finish my letter by words:
I do not know what will farther. But now you have made me happy lady.
I for the first time have felt desired and necessary. As soon as I shall receive your money I at once I shall go to the agent and I shall pay to them your money, that they would start to do my documents and then I at once shall write to you the letter. OK!
You always in my ideas and all my dreams only about you and about our meeting because I have grown fond of you all my heart and it is very fast you in it be convinced. I send you my passionate kiss. Kisskisskisskisskiss.

With all my love, your Irina.

Letter 15

Hello my life Patrice!!!
My loved Patrice, I now can write to you only not the big letter because lady which works behind a computer have now a lot of work and does the accounting report on our work and for the last month.
I to you want to tell one, that I love you all my heart, and you find out all rest at our meeting. We shall enjoy the friend the friend and to make love it is so much, how many it will be necessary also it there will be the happiest days for us. You will not regret about the choice because you now have worthy woman and you are very soon convinced of it.
My angel Patrice if you to me write the full phone number, is a code of your country, a code of your city and your phone number I in week-end shall go to the telephone company and to you I shall call. It will be very pleasant for me to hear a voice of the favourite person and we with you can discuss all by phone. OK! In fact at our conversation by phone we with you can answer any similar questions. I with impatience shall wait for this moment. You should know only one.
You always in my ideas and all my dreams only about you because I love you and I send you my passionate kiss. Kisskisskisskisskisskiss.
With all my love, your Irina.