Letter(s) to Hans (Sweden)

Letter 1

It’s a great pleasure to write you.
Do not think that this letter is a mistake. I do write you.
I want to explain the reason of my writing. And tell you a few words about myself. Please, do not be afraid of my letter. That is not spam.
Well, first of all, my name is Lidiya. I’m 32. I’m single and do not have children. I live in Russia in the city Murom.
There were a lot of different moments in my life; there was happiness, sorrow, joy and disappointment. But now I face a great problem, it is a problem of loneliness. I was married but at this moment I am a widow. I couldn’t believe it for a long time ... I couldn’t believe that I’m alone...
You know, after my husband’s death I was loyal to him but now I’ve realized that life goes on and I should continue my life as well. However for me the word “to live” is to be with a loved person and give him all my love.
That is why I addressed the international agency Dating. It is in my city Murom. I wrote a letter to you and left my photo. Well, I suppose, if you read this letter it means that the manager of the agency wrote you. His duty is to inform you and to find right partners to each other.
So, I’ll continue writing about myself. I’m looking for serious relations. I’m looking for a man who will be able to love me and to love me as I am. A person who will be able to love my inner world, my body, my appearance, well, to love me all.
My picture will help you to get a first impression about me.
As for me, I’d like to say that my heart is open for a new love story. I realized that I have to live, to love and be loved. I want to live and enjoy this life, but not alone. And I want to make it with you.
I’d like to say that age difference is nothing for me. It doesn’t mean anything. It is much more important what personality a man has.
What concerns me, I’m affectionate and considerate. I’m fond of cooking and doing housework. However I also have a desire to have adventures. I love pets as well.
I want it so much to make our correspondence possible.

I will be very happy to see your letters ONLY to my personal e-mail: lidiyaforhappy@gmail.com

Wish you all the best.
Take care.
Your Lidiya.

Letter 2

Hello my dear friend Hans!!!

Thanks a lot for your answer.

I will answer all your questions with pleasure.

I think it is better now to learn about each other as much as possible. I guess it is early to speak about meeting.

I’m really happy. Well, I guess, my letter was a bit unexpected for you and maybe you were surprised. Frankly speaking for me all this is extraordinary, it is the first time I’ve come to the Internet cafe and used the Internet to meet a man. Well, I’m a little confused and even do not know what to start with.

As I have already said I’ve never used this means of communication before. When I saw your profile, I decided to write you as you are a handsome man. But I really didn’t expect that you would answer.

And now a few words about me. Well, my name is Lidiya, it is my full name, but my friends call me just Lida. They say I’m a kind and generous person. I’m also a religious woman and go to church regularly. As you know, I’m 32. I used to be married but my husband died 3 years ago and now I live just with my dad. I’m quite a tall woman (170 sm) and weighs 55 kg. I was born on the first of June, 1976. I am Twins. And as it is the beginning of summer, I like when it is warm outside and all is green.

My favourite colour is red. I like tulips very much. These flowers are associated with spring and sun. They usually bloom in March. Like many women I also like roses.

I can call myself a backwoodsman as I was born in a far away Russian city Murom. To be more exact in a village nearby but after some time my parents decided to move to the city. After finishing the school I studied in State Pedagogical University at the faculty of History. At first I worked as a teacher in a school but for the last 4 years I’ve been working in a library. Though I do not earn a lot, I enjoy this job greatly. Sometimes I’ve got a chance to have some extra work, e.g. give some private lessons at home, and prepare students to exams and entering to some Institutions. However it is quite hard to combine all this as I work 5-6 days a week and from time to time I have to take some work home. Besides we’ve got a lot of extra events at work such as exhibitions, open classes, meeting with writers, poets and painters.

Well, I hope you are not bored reading all this. What else can I tell you?

As for my hobbies I’m fond of cooking very much. I’m really good at it and can imagine a great number of recipes. It is only necessary to have some free time, a lot of products and then I can cook a magnificent meal.

Well, I guess that is all in short. It is a very serious step in my life as I decided to get acquainted with a man, write him first and do all this with the help of the Internet. I just wanted to find my good fortune here. Anyway nothing ventured, nothing gained.

I just want you to know that I’m a very serious person and I’m not playing any games. I’m an educated middle aged woman and want to find a real man. It doesn’t matter how old he is, whether he is rich or not, the most important thing is to love and respect each other and all left can be gained together. Besides that is not important where he lives as I will come to him anywhere if I feel that he really needs me. However I’ve never been to other countries but do believe there can’t be any obstacles for a real love. Maybe I’m naive and still believe in love. But I am sure I’ll be happy.

Dear, Hans I will look forward to getting your letter. Could you write me about yourself, your family, traditions, where you live, what countries you visited and what you know about Russia.

So, wish you all the best.

Take care.

Regards, your new friend from Russia, Lida!

Letter 3

Hello!
I am very glad to write to you. Unfortunately I cannot write to you from my old mail box lidiyaforhappy@gmail.com
I write to you from my new mail box! I with impatience shall wait for your letters!!! my new e-mail - rulidiya0106@gmail.com!
With the best regards!!!
Yours Lidiya!

Letter 4

Hello!
I am very glad to write to you. Unfortunately I cannot write to you from my old mail box lidiyaforhappy@gmail.com
I write to you from my new mail box! I with impatience shall wait for your letters!!! my new e-mail - rulidiya0106@gmail.com!
With the best regards!!!
Yours Lidiya!

Letter 5

Hello my dear friend Hans!!!

Thanks a lot for your answer.

Unfortunately I can not chat in msn and any other messenger, the best way for me is just writing mails on e-mail.

I’m really happy. Well, I guess, my letter was a bit unexpected for you and maybe you were surprised. Frankly speaking for me all this is extraordinary, it is the first time I’ve come to the Internet cafe and used the Internet to meet a man. Well, I’m a little confused and even do not know what to start with.

As I have already said I’ve never used this means of communication before. When I saw your profile, I decided to write you as you are a handsome man. But I really didn’t expect that you would answer.

And now a few words about me. Well, my name is Lidiya, it is my full name, but my friends call me just Lida. They say I’m a kind and generous person. I’m also a religious woman and go to church regularly. As you know, I’m 32. I used to be married but my husband died 3 years ago and now I live just with my dad. I’m quite a tall woman (170 sm) and weighs 55 kg. I was born on the first of June, 1976. I am Twins. And as it is the beginning of summer, I like when it is warm outside and all is green.

My favourite colour is red. I like tulips very much. These flowers are associated with spring and sun. They usually bloom in March. Like many women I also like roses.

I can call myself a backwoodsman as I was born in a far away Russian city Murom. To be more exact in a village nearby but after some time my parents decided to move to the city. After finishing the school I studied in State Pedagogical University at the faculty of History. At first I worked as a teacher in a school but for the last 4 years I’ve been working in a library. Though I do not earn a lot, I enjoy this job greatly. Sometimes I’ve got a chance to have some extra work, e.g. give some private lessons at home, and prepare students to exams and entering to some Institutions. However it is quite hard to combine all this as I work 5-6 days a week and from time to time I have to take some work home. Besides we’ve got a lot of extra events at work such as exhibitions, open classes, meeting with writers, poets and painters.

Well, I hope you are not bored reading all this. What else can I tell you?

As for my hobbies I’m fond of cooking very much. I’m really good at it and can imagine a great number of recipes. It is only necessary to have some free time, a lot of products and then I can cook a magnificent meal.

Well, I guess that is all in short. It is a very serious step in my life as I decided to get acquainted with a man, write him first and do all this with the help of the Internet. I just wanted to find my good fortune here. Anyway nothing ventured, nothing gained.

I just want you to know that I’m a very serious person and I’m not playing any games. I’m an educated middle aged woman and want to find a real man. It doesn’t matter how old he is, whether he is rich or not, the most important thing is to love and respect each other and all left can be gained together. Besides that is not important where he lives as I will come to him anywhere if I feel that he really needs me. However I’ve never been to other countries but do believe there can’t be any obstacles for a real love. Maybe I’m naive and still believe in love. But I am sure I’ll be happy.

Dear, Hans I will look forward to getting your letter. Could you write me about yourself, your family, traditions, where you live, what countries you visited and what you know about Russia.

So, wish you all the best.

Take care.

Regards, your new friend from Russia, Lida!

Letter 6

Hello my dear friend Hans!

I’m so glad to get your answer.

I am very glad to write to you today!! For me it is greater pleasure to write to you to this lunch

Break!!!
Today excellent weather!!! +21 degree!! What weather at you??

How passes your working day?

Yesterday I had very complex working day, I could not write to you at all!!!

It is a pity but I have no computer of the house!!

And it is really fascinating for me to read your letters and learn about you more and more. I was sure that you are a very interesting person to talk to and a good friend as well.

I’m happy to know that it is a pleasure for you to speak with me. I want to say a lot about myself and to know much about you as well. Unfortunately I can’t write long letters to you. The reason is that I have to use the Internet cafe that is quite far from the library I work in. We do not have a computer at home as we can’t afford it (it is expensive). That’s why I can’t use the Internet often and have to write you from this cafe. It is not very convenient but still as I like speaking with you so much it’s ok to spend some of my free time.

Dear, I should also let you know that I won’t be able to write on Sundays because the internet cafe doesn’t work this day. It is quite expensive for me to spend an hour here therefore just ask you to pardon me. Anyway I will try to answer you letters at once. I write very quickly, so if there are some mistakes, do not be angry, please.

I do know English and can speak and write in it. I learnt this language at school and at Uni. It was for a long time. I hope you understand all and I try to correct mistakes if I make some. Could you write more about yourself in the next letter? You see I want to learn as much as possible about you.

It is very important for me to make friends with you. Well, how do you do on the whole? Do you have children? Were you married? What is the weather like in a place you live? Please, write about your city and everything you are interested in.

As for me, I do not have my own flat in Murom. It is my father’s with whom I live now. My mother died 6 years ago. It is hard to speak about it but God took away all dearest people from me. My mother was wrongly operated on and she passed away. She was the best woman in the world, the best friend and the best mummy.

As for my husband, he was a military man. We had been living with him for 3 years but then he got in a road accident and died. Frankly speaking I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to live after all this. First mother, then he. But life goes on. Anyway my husband was the one and only for me. And all others are moral monsters except my dad, of course. Well, I guess it is not necessary to write you about addicted Russian men and their bad habits. Let’s drop this subject and do not come back to it. It is hard for me.

I thought I was a failure ... my dad saw how sad I was, I didn’t eat and drink ... and just a year ago I realized that I should go on living and I should be happy. I used to pass my time at work, reading or doing some housework. I even almost didn’t go out.

My best friend could help me. She just took me out of this rut and put me on my feet. Now just my dad and I are left and we support each other in difficult situations.

Thanks to my friend I decided to write you. She said that it is impossible to find anything in this country and more evident even to lose more. Her acquaintance has recently come to Russia and she is extremely happy being married to a foreigner. And I realized it is that very thing I’m looking for.

So, this is the story how I got to know you.

As I’ve already told you I’m fond of cooking, especially at holidays. And my favourite holiday is my birthday. All my best friends come to me and we have a party up to the morning. You know that it is on the first of June (the first day of summer) and it is usually warm outside.

My favourite dish that I like to cook and eat, of course, is chicken with spicy sauce. I usually serve it with baked potatoes and cheese. I’m also crazy about sweets, cakes, tarts and pies with fruit filling. Though I like pies on the whole, still prefer fruit ones.

My hobby is collecting fridge magnets where different cities are shown. My friends usually bring them to me from various places and my fridge is already full of them. Anyway I like them a lot and some of them are very dear to me. I also have a great collection of ancient books; it is the pride of my family.

Tell me, please, about your belief. Do you believe in God on the whole? What traditions and canons do you have? My family is religious, we are Christians. We go to church on holidays. My city is full of beautiful old and modern churches. So to say it is a city-museum. Though many monasteries and temples do not work now, I like to come there as it is really very nice and relaxing.

My city, Murom, is 320 km north-east from Moscow, capital of Russia. It is also not far from a well-known city Vladimir. My city is very beautiful. It seems that time has just stopped in it. If you want I will send you some pictures.

Well, I’ll have to finish writing. I want to know you so much as there are so many things that are unknown to me.

Write me about everything. I will also try to speak about all you are interested in.

I’m looking forward to your answer. God bless you. All the best.

Best regards.

Your Lida.

Letter 7

Hello my dear friend Hans.

How are you? Well, as for me, I’m great.

I am very glad to write to you, today I have finished the working day. It was very complex.

Today my working week has ended and I am very happy that I can to write to you!! For me it is greater pleasure!!!

Today we had a rain...

What weather at you? Than you are going to be engaged in these days off??

You had beautiful lorries!!!

Thanks a lot for your answer. It is really great that we keep our communication. I read your letters with a great interest and get to know you better. You are such a wonderful, clever and honest person! I want to ask you one question, what kind of person are you? I mean what type of people can you be referred to? Personally I am a romantic woman. Choleric, optimist and at the same time I’m a realist.

I’ll tell you a bit about my interests. And I’d like to learn about yours as well. How do you usually spend your free time?

I’ve got one unusual hobby, I suppose. I collect my dreams. I’ve got a special copybook where I put them down. Dreams from my notes are not just pictures and sounds without any sense but they are real stories. Something like fairy tales. I even give titles to all my written dreams.

What else can I write about myself? Really don’t know.

It is quite boring to write about work. All this is connected with books, magazines and newspapers. As soon as I’m at my table, I’m just switched off from real life. Being among books I even forget about time and it flies there. However sometimes time crawls and I even have a desire to throw down all the books form shelves and then put them again to their own place. At least I try to find something to do.

I do not get great money for my job. All combined is about 8000 rubles a month. It is really little but as I live alone it is ok. Of course I’d like to get more, buy nice clothes and perfume like any pretty woman. I have to save to buy something good later. I think I’m a woman of taste and if I’ve got something in my head I’ll do it in any case.

When I’m free, I try to spend time outdoors. Fresh air and nature are my guarantee of health and beauty. And it doesn’t matter what weather is outside. I also like swimming. And thus with my friend we go to the swimming pool sometimes. We also go to the gym. Well, I’m a young pretty woman and want to look great.

I want to learn to skate a lot. Every time when I watch figure skating on TV, my heart sinks. I was born in a settlement and just after some time my parents decided to move to the city. However they couldn’t afford to but skates to me and there wasn’t even a place to learn to do it. The most popular kinds of sport in our settlement are skiing and skating.

However I am thankful to my parents for giving me a good education. They always said that every person should be rich in soul and wealth is not so much important. They were brought up in USSR, when a person was prohibited to have his own point of view, there was no freedom, and they had just a party and an opinion of totalitarian leaders. Nowadays we live in a different country where everything is different. We’ve got a lot of wishes and possibilities.

There are much more chances in the city now than in my settlement. We’ve got a garden there, but we haven’t gone there often since my mum’s death. The nature is gorgeous at this place and sometimes we go there with my friends.

I like everything in my city. It’s my native land and all seems good but still I do not have a person whom I can love. I’m looking for a kind strong man who will take care of me and, of course, who will love me. I’m sure that I won’t be able to find such a person here.

Well I do not know how to explain it. You see, it is a hard topic for me. I’m so much disappointed in Russian men. You are absolutely different from all men I know and from all Russians in the whole. It is true that most of Russians are bad people and addicted to alcohol. Well, our male sex is dying like dinosaurs. Especially in villages and settlements. In cities at least they work and in other places it is difficult to find a good job and so many of them just drink. And this credit crunch also affects and leaves many people without work. Of course there are rich businessmen but they have a lot of women. And frankly speaking they are not interested in them even.

I want to be happy, but in a different way. I need a person to take care of. And he should also be very attentive to me. After my husband’s death I tried to find someone else. But that guy was rude and arrogant and after speaking with him for a while I realized he was a wrong partner…

I’m very cautious about men. I haven’t met good men for ages. I just have my colleagues and my friends’ husbands to talk to. But I trust you in all. I can’t explain it but I can tell you all my thoughts and wishes. I see and I feel that you are a good person that’s why I want to try to find that special someone here. Well, I feel from your letters and words that you are very kind.

I’d like to know you better and get more pictures from you. It is interesting to learn you as a personality and it is important as well. I do believe in our friendship and do not want to lose it.

Well, I’m finishing now. I’ve got a lot to do and have to go.

Look forward to your answer.

Take care.

Your Lida.

Letter 8

Hello my dear friend Hans!

I’m so happy to write you. It is a great pleasure for me.

I am very glad to write to you to this Saturday evening. I had to wait greater turn to write to you the letter!

But I am very happy!! Today I have the day off, but weather in the street bad, all the day long it is raining and consequently

I today did not leave anywhere the House. I did cleaning on the house and prepared to eat.

Than you were engaged today? Tomorrow I am going to go to church!!

I am again fascinated by beauty of your photos!!
You have very big house!!!

For work I go on foot!

It is literally only 10 minutes.

How are you? How do you feel? And in my life still work takes most of the time.

Today I want to tell you about the city I was brought up in. What it was and what it is now. There are a lot of sights in my city, a lot of Institutions and libraries. But ours is the biggest one.

A great number of Russian films were shot in our city. And on the whole this city is really beautiful; we’ve many parks and green lawns. There are also man-made ponds where you can see swans. You can have a rest here, visit a cafe, relax and enjoy great sceneries.

It goes without saying that as in any other Russian city we also have some problems here. For example, many factories and plants are closed, roads are in a horrible condition, there is not enough light in the streets. However these are not only problems of our city but of the whole country unfortunately.

A few words about the history of Murom. It is situated on the left bank of the river Oka, 137 km from Vladimir and 320 km from Moscow. The name of the city goes back to the Finno-Ugric tribe “murom” that was first mentioned in the Russian Primary Chronicle of 862. More than 131 400 people live in Murom. This is the city of a 1000-year history. It is an ancient city and I will attach some of its pictures. Now you can see what a wonderful city we have.

Well, I also want to learn about your interests and hobbies. What music do you like? Do you visit theatres and cinemas? What kind of films do you prefer? And I will write you a bit about my hobbies.

So, I do not have any particular passion as I’m interested in many things. It all depends on my mood. Anyway I cannot imagine my life without music. It plays a very important role in it. I’m fond of classic music. I like Shopen, Grieg, Beethoven, Mozart and others. These composers have real masterpieces that I do admire.

I can’t say that I listen to some definite kind of music; I like many genres if it is made with talent. Thus, for example, the rock-opera “Jesus Christ is Super Star“ influenced mo soul so much that I couldn’t listen to anything but these arias. As for dance music, I have quite a lot of favourite singers. But I do not have a chance to go out often. That is why I listen to music on the radio or somewhere in a cafe … I used to go in for classic dances in my childhood.

There are also situations when this or that song is connected with some moments of my life. If I feel bad and hear any melody at this time it will be always associated with this event. I like listening to Grigorij Leps, Vladimir Kuzmin, Alexands Vasiliev (the band Splin), Vladimir Visozkij and others. I guess you’ve never heard of these names. As for foreign singers I prefer Era, Chackie Ray Harrelson, Joe Dossen, Adriano Chelintano and many others.

When I’m at work I like to listen to retro radio and sometimes even chanson. I love ballad songs as well, so-to-say, songs by singer poets. From time to time in our library we have such meetings when students gather and sing their own songs playing the guitar. Once I stayed at work for longer time to listen to this performance. They touched me to heart. I remember a few lines: “I was looking for this woman among the stars but she was walking nearby” or this one: “We stole happiness to present it to each other”. They moved me to tears! Well, things do happen.

And what is your attitude to art? Not just painting but art on the whole? Well, I can’t live without it. It is such a great thing that we lack nowadays. In my days off I try to go somewhere and get energy from theatres, museums or some exhibitions. It really brings me good mood. I love theatre and cinema. I can’t say that I watch all but I try. They often bring invitations to our work and I usually take them. I have a lot of favourite films. It is one more hobby of mine.

Cinema. Cinema. Yes, there is a great number of favoutite films and actors that I can write about over and over again. For instance, “Leon”, “Tango in Three”, “Between heaven and ground” etc. I’m sure even a whole letter won’t be enough to describe all this.

Well, as for TV, I almost do not watch it. I’m so busy at work and when I’m back home there is nothing interesting on but news brief.

Do you Hans believe in real love or all is based just on passion? I do believe in real love and look for serious relations.

Oh, I completely forgot to write you in the beginning I told my dad that it has already passed several days since I met such a wonderful man like you. I said that we had met in the Internet and now write letters to each other. He accepted it with respect and is glad for our friendship and correspondence. He sends you regards.

My father is a great person and the most important thing for him is his daughter’s happiness. I want to tell you a lot about him but it seems that I have already learnt a lot about you and your family as well as you have. It looks as if we’ve known each other for ages. Well, thus you appeared in my life and became a very close and dear friend.

So, my family has always celebrated different holidays together. And what about your family traditions?

Still, I have to go. I say bye to you. Please, answer all my questions. It is so important for me.

Good bye my dear friend!!! I will look forward to your answer.

Your Lida.

Letter 9

Hi-hi my dear Hans

I’m so glad to write you today.

I am very glad to write to you to this Sunday! Today since morning I went to church, there I asked the god about ours with you happiness!!!

Today at us again rainy weather. Cloudy also it is completely not visible the sun.

Now I should go home to erase clothes, probably at you in the country everyone has an automatic washing machine?

I have no it, I erase all clothes hands, for a week at me I has collected much and

Dirty clothes of the daddy. I shall wash it today. It is very heavy and tiresome process. I try to not think of it.

In fact for me the big happiness to write to you!!!

It is a pity, but I have no phone!

By the way my dad always asks me about you, about our correspondence. He often jokes that we make a good couple. However just two people know about you: my father and my best friend Irina.

When I get your letters and answer them, I always imagine as if you are nearby and we speak to each other. When the weather is not nice or I am in low spirits, your letters help me to feel better and I forget about all bad things. It is so nice after your warm words, I smile and I am happy all day. Many of my colleagues notice some changes in me. They say that I’ve changed a bit and of course changed for better. But they can’t imagine what is happening to me, what is on my mind and in my soul.

I suppose the less people know about our friendship, the better. You see we’ve got such a saying in Russia that the less jealous people know about your happiness, the happier you will be. That is the reason of my silence. And what about you Hans tell your friends about us?

Well, as you already know there are only two people who know about our correspondence, my dad and my best friend. I told Irina, my friend, that I made friends with a wonderful and honest man. And she in her turn said that I’ve changed a lot and all this does good to me. I used to be very sad all the time. I was all in books and work. I didn’t notice anything or anybody. However one person could change my life and my attitude to men. Before meeting you I even didn’t want to hear of them. It was hurt and disgusting to think of anyone but my husband. But it turned out that life goes on. Time is the best healer. It is really so. No doubt my heart aches from time to time. You know at work I deal with women mostly and they say such horrible things about their husbands. But I do hope that not all of them are so bad. There are good people though even far away.

By the way tomorrow is my friend’s birthday, we used to be group mates at Uni and then she went to Moscow as many of my friends. I will send her a birthday card.

Just few people stay here, people mainly go to bigger cities to settle their life. I can say that though my city is beautiful there is nothing to do for young people. They can’t find good work and right partners for future life.

Irina is my best friend, she was and she is very close to me. But unfortunately this evening will be a bit sad as I will be alone. It is a pity that you won’t be near as well. If you were I would introduce you to my friends and my dad. By the way his name is Anatolij Alexandrovich. He is 59, he is a pensioner at the moment. Both of them are good people. I do not know why but Irina has always been my best friend. We are friends since childhood and supported each other at school and at Uni.

I love nature a lot. I like all seasons. I have already told you that I prefer spring. However I like summer as well. And there are a lot of great things to do every season. It is much more important to be in high spirits but to think of when, where and how is not a problem. Thus we always have fun outdoors. As I said before, it is really nice in our settlement. It is a great place for rest. You can pick berries and then make some stockings for winter. Well, forest, field, river, all is in one place.

We also organize different competitions and sport contests with friends. We swim and have a great time together. I like swimming greatly. And after a swim you usually have a great appetite. Then boys catch fish in our river and girls make fish soup. We also make barbecue. It is really tasty.

When I was small, my parents took me to the Volga twice. It is a great Russian river. These memories are very sweet. This time is unforgettable for my family. I remember once my mother was given a sanatorium voucher to the Volga and we lived there for 2 weeks. This river is like sea for Russian people. However now it is really expensive to have a rest there. And if you want you should save for a year and eat almost nothing. That is why many people do not have such an opportunity to go somewhere.

I will think of you all day and miss you. You will be in my thoughts and I will feel better as a result.

I do desire you to make me the happiest person in the world. But we should be together for it, I hope it will be possible in future. I was looking for my fortune so long.

Promise that we will be together. Promise that you will think of me every day.

I will wait for your letter.

Regards,

Your Lida.

Letter 10

Hello my dear Hans!!!

I miss you so much.

I am very glad to receive your letter. The darling, I so am glad, that we can meet you. I think, that our meeting will be the most significant event for both of us.

I am very glad to write to you to this Tuesday!! For me it is greater happiness!

Though I today also had a complex working day. And I worked long. But I am happy because I can write to you! Today at last at us the sun began to appear! For me this big happiness!!!

Because of great volume of work I could not write to you earlier!! Excuse for a delay!

I even can’t explain all those happy feelings I have while reading your letters. They are like air that I breathe in. When I read them I always imagine you. I can see your eyes and hear your voice. I want to hear it so much but still … it is not possible now. However I will look for any opportunity to realize my dreams.

I do want to know how you are. How is your job? I hope all is fine. And my life is still the same. Nothing has changed. The greatest event is my acquaintance with you. I’m so glad that I found you. And I’m also happy that we get along well. It is a great pleasure to write you and I feel that it is mutual. I enjoy speaking about myself and at the same time learn something about you. I’m really happy that we met. Sometimes I think about it and it seems so strange that people living so far away managed to find each other. And I’m glad it happened to us.

I wondered for a long time if you believe in fate. I used to be skeptical about it but now I really believe in it. And I’m eager to learn your opinion about it.

I love spring very much and believe that this season will bring me good luck. In Russia it is the most beautiful time of the year because all around is waking up after winter sleep. It is exciting to watch this awakening when trees begin to cover with millions of green leaves. It’s a delight for me to keep an eye on it. That is why I like spring most of all. Besides summer comes after it.

I also wake up. And spring is in my soul as well. It doesn’t matter what season it is now because my heart sings. I go to bed with a smile as I think of you. And I wake up in a good mood as well because I think of you. You are the joy of my life now.

Hans, more and more people notice some changes in me. And what about you? Have I changed?

I’d like to know your opinion about family. It is really interesting for me. If it is not so difficult, tell me about it, please. I often think about my being single. However it doesn’t confuse me. Of course as others I feel sad sometimes but my dad and Irina help me to come out of depression.

Do you feel sorry for anything that you’ve made in your life?

I already get used to my way of life but I can say that to have a family and to have a person who loves you is the greatest thing. It is really horrible to lose it as it happened to me. But now when I have you I do not think about it so much. I used to think a lot about my mum, husband… and now I think only about you. I know I would be very happy to be near you one day.

Would you like to have a big family? Or it is enough to be together for being happy?

You know, my friends tried to meet me with other men after my husband’s death but it didn’t work, all this was not for me.

Again I was speaking with Irina about you. On weekends we went to our friends’ cottage and on our way we spoke about you. Though she is older than me we understand each other very well. I always like speaking to older people because they teach me. We’ve got such a saying in Russia –“live and learn”. However Irina and my dad are not happy that we speak with you just in the Internet. I said it is ok. They are happy to see me smiling and in high spirits. They accept it as they think of my future and want me to be happy. And I want you to know one thing. I do not want to rush things. Anyway we are to learn each other better. It is very important for me. And I hope that you, Hans, will understand me correctly.

Irina asked me about your parents and your work, what person you are and so on. It was so amusing to watch her asking all the details about you. She wonders how we can speak and write in English and how I decided to get acquainted with a man in virtual reality. I printed your picture and showed it to her. She liked you a lot.

I finish writing here. Good bye.

Your Lida!!.

Letter 11

Hello my dear Hans!!!!!!

I was extremely happy reading your letter. I am so pleased with everything that you write. You are so wonderful! And I want to say that I am sure of your sincerity.

Today I had a heavy working day. It is normal for the end to working week. Today there were many visitors!

Today at us warm weather but nevertheless only +15 degrees!!

I am very glad to write to you at last! For me this big happiness! Because I very much miss on you!

How has passed your today??

I’m really sorry that I can’t answer you every day. I just do not have a chance to come to this Internet cafe so often or I just have some problems with it. Well, I do try to write every day. From time to time I think that something can happen and then we won’t be able to write each other any more. It would be horrible as your letters are an integral part of my life now. They are very important for me. Like air!

Travelling is one of my dreams. As you know I’ve never been abroad. I’ve always wanted to visit different places, learn other nations’ traditions and customs. But unfortunately I have never had such an opportunity. And I wish I had. Most of all I’d like to visit some islands. I think it is the most mysterious place. They are eternal. They can sink in the ocean and then no one will ever see them. It is the most mysterious place for me. But I can’t say for sure what attracts me so much in them. I’d like to see the sunset lying on the sand and breathing in the smell of the ocean.

Hans, tell me, please, what do you do in the evening? How do you spend your weekends? I want our relations to be honest. I speak with my dad and my friend about you but no one has ever read your letters. I suppose it is something personal and nobody can see it. I hope you agree with me. I wonder, what is your attitude to our relations? I want them to be based on trust. I feel that my heart doesn’t lie to me. And I like what I feel now.

I’m full of emotions. And I can feel that it is mutual. I don’t want there is any lie between us. I want everything to be honest. I suppose that it is very important in people’s relations. I’ve always told you the truth. And I’m sure that any relations should be based on it. And what do you think about it?

You are a very kind person. I do want to find a good man with whom I can have serious relations in future, in whom I’ll be able to see a true, loving and caring person. I like thinking of you. I like imagining you. I quite often think how our relations can develop in future. Do you think about it? Tell me, please.

I appreciate when a person is honest and sincere. I hate when someone lies or betrays. And I want to believe that there are people on our earth who think like me. I want to meet a person who will be able to share with me joy and happiness as well as sorrow and misfortune. All 50-50. Well, the most important thing is when people support each other in different situations. What do you think Hans?

It is very hard for me to explain everything I want to say to you. I’d like to tell you a lot of things about myself and I like it when I write you about myself.

Do you like your job? Write me, please, what part of your life does it take? What is the most important for you? What is family for you? What is more important?

As for me, family plays an integral role in my life. I guess, now my dad and Irina are the closest people for me. But I want to find my half very much. As soon as I find him I will give him to no one. Though it seems to me, I have already found a man who … is right for me … and for whom I can do everything... and a man I will follow everywhere. And the only necessary thing is to have your strong shoulder near mine.

I do want our relations to be honest. I do not want to hurt you and do not want to hurt myself as it is really hard to believe a person again after betrayal. But I think it is not about us and we are safe.

Well, I will finish here. I am really sorry that I can’t see your eyes when I talk to you …

I look forward to your letter.

Your dear Lida!!!

Letter 12

Hello my dear Hans!!

I’m happy to see your letter again. I was looking forward to it.

I am glad to write to you after the working day of Monday. As it was usual for the beginning working week very difficultly. I am tired on my work.. Today we almost all the day had a rain!

How your working week has begun? I hope it it was not too complex!!!

What weather at you??

Yesterday as well as you I were on a cemetery! Also visited tombs of mum.

It is like air that I need so badly right now. Your letters are like a connecting link between us. I am so much bored when I realize that you are far away. It seems that I fall in love with you more and more every day. I want to be happy and want serious relations. I’m tired of being alone. I want to be wanted. I need my loving man. I was waiting for you so long. You just rushed into my life so unexpectedly and aroused thousands of feelings that I had already forgotten. At first I even feared but not for me, for both of us. How will we live without each other? How did we live without each other all this time, I wonder? I existed but didn’t live. I was walking, falling in love, losing close people, hurrying to work, missing buses, laughing, crying and … feeling empty at the place of heart. Only now I’ve realized that I was waiting for you for ages. Yes, it was hard without you, I did make mistakes and then regretted. But who doesn’t make them?

With a strange feeling of love another feeling was born in my heart: fear. It turned out that I had been alone all this time though there had been hundreds of people around: close and not close, friends and just acquaintances. Lonely. Such a sad, empty cold word. And now when I have you I’m frightened that this nagging emptiness can appear in my heart again. When I say your name, I pronounce it gently and tenderly as if tasting it. You know I remember all letters, everything that is connected with you. I do dream of the moment when you will touch my hand with tender fingers. My eyes make me look at the world and all around in a different way. Eyes … it is so hard to look at them in your pictures as I gasp for breath because of some strange feeling, being delighted with realizing that you are to be nearby... that I will be able to touch you, your hair, to touch your cheeks with my lips. I’m dying. Yes, I’m dying without you; I’m melting in the air full of you. I like those numerous thoughts I’ve got on my mind. Sometimes they force me to cry a bit, sometimes to sparkle like the sun. However more often you can see tears in my eyes.

You taught my lips to smile as I know that I breathe thanks to your letters, walk happily in the street as if trying to find you in the crowd. I look at this world with your eyes and my heartbeat coincides with yours.

It is strange I’ve never missed someone except mother and husband. I tried but it didn’t work. But as soon as I enter the Internet cafe, I step into a new world and at once I feel nerves at my fingertips, a great feeling of loneliness is trying to penetrate my soul, the place that I cherish only for you. Please, curl up in this small space that is full of webs and dust because of loneliness. You won’t need a heater as my heart is a flame. It burns me down but it will warm and protect you.

I understand that it is impossible, it is wrong, it mustn’t be so. But how should it be? Please, explain. What shall we do to be together?

You are experienced; you are like wise Buddha with a cold and reasonable heart and mind. Tell me, do you know what to do with me and my heart? Crush it? Spread it on the ground and then clean the boots with a blue duster from the trousers? Break it into two pieces with a knife? Just forget about it? Or let it love you greatly, beat as if it is for the last time.

They say there's no way to make up for lost time. Please, be near; do not allow loneliness to penetrate into my soul. But do not trample, do not leave marks. Do not criticize my thoughts, they are all about you. Believe me.

I love. I like this word. It is so soft, warm and great. I will tell the whole world screaming, whispering and crying how much I love you. I want to hear your voice so much. I do not want to lose anyone no more.

Unfortunately I do not have a telephone.. I’d like to talk to you on the phone, to hear you and feel your breath in the receiver and just imagine that you are near. I heard that it is possible to ring to other countries from the call office. I will try to find out how I can call you and I will do it as soon as possible. I need your contact details for it. And thus I’ll be able to call you. It is also can be your work number. Well, it is up to you. As soon as I learn it I will let you know. Well, would you like to hear my voice as well?

So, what do you think will be with us? Write me Hans, your thoughts about it. You see, before our meeting I knew for sure what and how I would do, I was aware of my plans for a few next months. And now I’m at a loss. I can’t think about anything, to say nothing about work. You are always on my mind. On the one hand it is good but on the other this situation frightens me greatly. And the greatest problem is that there are hundreds of kilometers between us. And it worries me most of all. If you were near everything would be different and maybe there wouldn’t be anything at all. I know that some power leads us in our life. And everything that happens to us is not a coincidence.

I believe in fate but still know that there are things that a person chooses himself. I mean the way he follows in life. Some mysterious power of love leads me to you and I do not want to resist. I want to let things ride for the moment. And if there are some obstacles, I want that we will cope with them without nay problems.

I do not want to lose these relations. I’m afraid to lose the link that connects us. And I’d like both of us to try to do everything to strengthen it.

I will wait for your answer Hans.

Kiss you tender.

Your Lida.

Letter 13

Hello, darling Hans!

It is so pleasant to realize that there is a man in this world who loves, appreciates, respects and is afraid to lose you as well as you are afraid to lose him. How are you, honey? What is the weather like there?

I’m so happy to write you after such a hard day at work. I work a lot but since this Friday I will have tree days off and it will be a deserved rest for me.

Today we had many sun and weather there were approximately +22 degrees!

Many thanks for that you have told to me your phone number! I am very grateful to you for it!

I’ve been looking forward to this moment… I even didn’t think that I would be so happy. Well, just Night and Silence know what is really on my soul and mind. Only at night I let myself get rid of the mask, only Night will keep my heart away from other looks. And Silence listens to me patiently, it lets me speak and just cry …

The Internet now is the only way to be a bit closer to you … but it is so hard! … I want to hide from everything. My fingers print sacred words and they do not want to stop …

I want to escape from this reality, from my work, people, from this tremble and hatred to myself just because I can’t control the situation and just have to trust time at the moment.

Well, this is the first time I’m smiling through tears. I smile as I’m happy that I have such a person like you. I cry as I do not want to part with you either for a month or a week or a day. I don’t want to lose you. Even parting for a few hours is horrible for me. When, for example, I wait for your answer.

I’d like to know that you are near me, that you are in the same city with me. I want to feel you here. I feel sad and depressed when I think that you are there and I’m here. Well, I promise that I will write you daily wishing good morning and good evening. I will check my e-mail in the hope to see your letter. I will definitely answer and speak about my life without you. Not so long ago I even couldn’t think that the Internet can connect me and you. Did you think about it?

Sorry, that the description of my life won’t be so bright. But you are not near. Colours fade without you and some of them even disappear. Bit I will try to encourage you so that you won’t be as upset as me. I do not want you to suffer. As you feel everything. I promise to miss and dream of you. Can you hear? I promise! I’d like to send all my kisses to you by mail.

My love Hans, you are like a dream, so fantastic, colourful and mysterious. If only it would be possible to record this dream as I wish this dream to last forever. Let I feel like a sleeping beauty but my prince will see the same dream and I do not need anything else.

I love you with all my heart and soul. Sometimes it drains me as I desire to be yours forever, to give me all to you. However it gives me more power and energy than any hero has ever had on the earth.

Well, all 4 seasons are combined in your image. You are my spring as you smile so sweet and can cheer me up in any case. You are my summer as you are warm. I feel so warm and cozy with you, I’m less afraid when you are near and with you I do not pretend I am as I am – free in my thoughts.

Coelho wrote that: “Love leads to freedom”. I didn’t agree with him, I was sure that love obliges you and you depend on it. But now I’ve got absolutely different ideas, to depend on you is the greatest thing, to respect you is an honour, to look in your eyes and try to guess your thoughts is the most interesting mystery in the world.

Life is an amazing thing, we live, live and live but when we fall in love we understand that we just existed before … Wings appear on our back, we can fly and now the most dangerous thing is a fear of falling down.

I live on trust and love, they always warm me up. I believe that we will meet not in dreams but in real life. You Hans, know it is enough for me just to look at you to be happy. I don’t know why but at these very moments when I think about you tears full my eyes...

I’ve understood that I will be able to love you no matter what. It won’t be important for me whether you are good or bad, rich or poor, handsome or ugly. The most essential part is not this. People really love for nothing. And if someone ever asks me why I loved you I will answer: “Just because he is and lets me love him …”

It is wonderful when someone loves you but to love is the greatest happiness. Your and my life is two parallel lines which aren’t supposed to meet. However they cross at definite moments of life. We’ve found each other and it is the most important. There is such a great number of people in this global net and we managed to meet.

Our love is an ocean where I sink and choke trying to get out of it. But you do not have such a possibility and over and over again suck me in these feelings. Why there is you and me but there isn’t US?

Best regards,

Your Lida!

Kisses

Letter 14

Hello honey Hans!!!

I want you to be happy so much and I will be grateful to you if you let me help you in it.

I am very glad to write to you today!

At us today provisional +22 degrees. My working week at last has ended!

It was very complex working week and I am happy to write to you!!!

I will present you the sunset, the moon, its light and stars. I’ll give breeze as well; it will be as soft as touch of lips. I will present you myself because I love you. You warm my soul and light up my life. With you I’m like in a happy dream. You are a miracle and I understand day by day that I love you very much.

Only your words help me to be sure of the future, they calm me down and make me laugh. I dream of being together, I will do everything for you. Cook for you, kiss you back, walk by hand and squeeze my fingers so that you will warm them. I will go mad after your kisses. I will breath in the smell of your divine body hiding in your neck. I will hug you and feel how you’ll kiss my hair. I will feed you with your favourite sweets. I will kiss you from morning till night.

I would give a lot to prolong morning, to fall asleep on your breast and feel your strokes on my back, to wake up and pass by on tiptoe not to disturb you, to be sure that nothing will separate us. It is just impossible. I know we are to meet and to be together.

I want to wear your clothes and then feel your smell for a long time, to sign postcards and write there how I love you. I will wait for you the whole day and then you will be all mine forever. I want to wake up at night and look at you, smile, hug you and go on sleeping in your arms. I want to walk with you, just stroll along the streets when there is no need to hurry and thus kiss you all the time and feel your tender.

I want to hear compliments from you, think about you and miss you, need you, get crazy and then to be the happiest person. I am sure that all will be like this. And that is not just my dreams. I know and I feel that you think the same and want it as well as I do.

I love you, my dear. Love you with all my heart and what is important - mutually.

Well, I’m the happiest person for so many days already. I’ve found YOU Hans!!! Where were you before? I’d like to speak about my love all the time everywhere and to everyone. We had been living without each other so long; we had passed a long walk separately and finally met each other.

They say God does it on purpose when we meet wrong people first so that after meeting that one and only we will be grateful. I’d like to go to church this weekend to thank him that I can love again. I’m thankful to God that I met you. No one has ever cared about me as you do now. No one has ever supported me and understood as you. No one has ever written me such words. No one has ever loved me as you love. My thoughts mix up when I think about you when I reread your letters. I want to be with you all the time. I love you as I’ve never loved anyone and I will love you even more. I promise, my sweetheart.

Well, maybe one day our love, love in which I believe will become true … would you like this, Hans?

You know, I’ve read a lot of romantic books where people communicated with the help of letters, sent then to each other in different ways and waited for the answer for ages. Well, we are lucky, Hans, we’ve got the Internet and e-mail. And now it takes just a few minutes. And we should be happy.

It is hard for me to speak about anything but feelings. Well, how are you, honey? How do you feel?

At the very beginning of our correspondence I had a serious talk with my dad. He said that it was not just a fun and simple acquaintance. I was looking for serious relations. At that moment I even couldn’t imagine what would happen to us and our feelings. However I knew for sure that I was ready for everything to be with my sweetheart. But still I told my dad that wherever I would be I would always remember about him and help him in every situation. And in his turn, he promised to do everything not to break my happiness. It was a difficult and long conversation, and so I couldn’t but cried. My father calmed me down and said that I should be happy. But he asked me to tell him about you? Aren’t you against? Maybe you want to tell him something?

All my friends and my dad are happy to hear that I’m in love … My heart tells the truth.

I wish you a good day and a good night. I want to kiss you greatly but as I do not have such a possibility I blow you a passionate kiss. I’m looking forward to our meeting and I’m ready to fly to you as soon as it is possible.

We have born loneliness for a long time, we have lived without each other and we deserve to be together and love.

Best regards.

Your Lida.

I kiss you and love you …

Letter 15

Hello my love Hans!!

That is again me, your Lida …

I am very glad to write to you today. Today my birthday..

I have already finished the working day, for me the best congratulations became your letter!! I waited for it with impatience!

I shall not celebrate very much the birthday. On this holiday, will be - my daddy, Irina and I. It is a small holiday I now I shall bake a pie and we shall drink tea, we shall probably drink some a few red wine.

Today at us remarkable weather - about +21 degree Celsius.

I certainly give you my address, do not worry about a gift! For me the best gift is your letter!!!

Russia

City Murom Street - Lakina the house 9

apartment 18

index 602252

Lidiya Shkryabina

I am extremely happy to write you in this wonderful day. Well, I’d like to say that my dad and Irina send regards to you. They are happy to see my eyes full of passionate love. And this love is just for you!!!

All our readers in the library reproach me for my absent-mindedness … but I do not listen to them. As I don’t care about it! It is much more important for me that I love you. You know, I think about you very often …

I miss you greatly and dream about you. I want to get warm in your arms and touch your lips. If someone asks me “What is happiness?” I’ll answer that my happiness is you Hans.

You even can’t imagine how I feel when you are near. Your presence is very important for me. And I want to be together at last. I want to feel your breath, hear your heartbeat, look into your beautiful eyes or watch you when you sleep. When I think about you I’m full of tenderness, I’m ready to give all I have to prolong these happy minutes.

I didn’t notice how beautiful the sky is but thanks to you I know it for sure now. I always look at it and think that you being far away also look at it and think about me. It is evening and it is a bit cold in my room and I dream of cuddling up to you not to feel cold. Sky, such a charming sky with stars, I look at it and realize that if stars light up, then someone really needs it. And we need it. When I feel sad I think of you, of our meeting and then I begin to smile and any depression goes away. I feel like a little girl who is protected and you make feel it. I do not pretend with you. I can trust you all my secrets. Thanks a lot that there is you in the world.

Days and weeks pass and I realize that my feelings for you become stronger. I want our fairy-tale to long forever. I want to think only about good things, about us and our happiness.

Maybe you will smile when you learn that I’m jealous of you but that is true … it is really hard to stay calm when I think that I do not see you and you can speak to many girls there and can present your sweet smile to someone. I know that there are no reasons for jealousy and that you are an honest person. But still this happens because I’m not near you Hans.

If I do not get your letter I begin to feel nervous. I think where you are, with whom; sometimes I’m even angry but as soon as I hear from you all negative emotions go away. When you write some sweet words I’m ready to burst into tears because of happiness and emotions that fill my heart. I’m in the seventh heaven. Thanks just for your being. Thanks to you I’m not afraid of problems as together we will overcome all difficulties. You are the greatest person in my life, you are the best!!!

I hope that very soon we will be together forever. Every day should bring me closer to you. Do you understand? Well, it is fate that presented you to me. Let’s hope for God, that he will give powers to live till our meeting. Oh, God, haven’t I suffered enough to ask just for one meeting? Haven’t I got a chance to touch my sweetheart after all these lonely nights and days?

Honey, my love is becoming stronger day after day. When I think that very soon we’ll meet I go mad. Sometimes I feel so horrible because I can not kiss you, hug you and say that I love you! But I know that you feel the same and wait for me.

Honey, I kiss you tenderly.

All the best.

Your Lida!!

Lots of kisses for you!!!

Letter 16

Hello sweetheart! Hello my dear Hans!!!

I’m happy to write you now.

I am very glad to write to you to this Sunday!

It is very a pity to me that yesterday did not work the Internet of cafe because I very much wanted that we could communicate to you!!

Today I waited greater turn to write to you, but all the same I write to you and I am very happy!

Today we had a hot weather provisional +22 degrees! I today was cleaned at home and prepared to eat, to me girlfriends tomorrow will come as you know I tomorrow I shall have birthday!!

I become assured that we can in the happiest pair in it to year!!!

I always rush to the Internet cafe, go down the stairs jumping over 2 steps. When I was going to the cafe I almost fell down. And here I am. I wait for your letter so impatiently. And here it is, in front of my eyes.

You can ask why I have been looking and waiting for you so long. I will keep silent. Maybe all the troubles happened to me by chance. It is necessary to go through everything and to gain happiness after all suffering.

Many-many years ago, when I was a little girl I was dreaming of a prince on a white horse. Well, any Russian girl who is brought up on old Russian tales thinks about it. And it is clear because there are no lies or illusions; characters love each other and die on one day when they are 100 and happy. I also dreamt of it, saw it in my dreams, maybe without a horse and a faraway kingdom, but I was waiting for the dearest man with whom I would feel as safe as behind a stone wall. I was growing up but there wasn’t that very prince I was waiting for. I didn’t give up, go on searching and I was sure that he was somewhere on our planet, and that we would meet one day. And now I’m still that young girl but hidden under the face of woman who suffered a lot. I was dreaming of becoming the one and the only. So, I won’t speak about all the troubles that I had in my life, you already know about it … all this is in the past.

Now I’m happy that this spring I met you. And though I’m here in Murom and you are so far, you are always on my mind.

Well, life examined me from all sides and thus my character tried to adjust every time and as a result became so unpredictable sometimes. But then you appeared in my life and managed to change something inside me. And now at last I can declare to everyone that HE is here now, that very person whom I’ve been waiting for so long. Well, that Hans, confident and sure of his words and actions, brave and strong, just and wise. Well, at last I’m in such strong and reliable hands as a small bird in palms of a real man who knows that he won’t offend her in any case.

I’ve become the happiest woman in the world and it doesn’t matter that you are so far. Deep in heart I do wait for our meeting and hope that my expectations will realize. You’ve found me and you are that very prince.

I want to hear your voice all the time, I want to talk. From silence my tongue will soon be out of order and then I’ll become a fish living in aquarium, swimming peacefully and eating seaweeds. It is impossible to tell dad everything that I feel. And at these minutes I am so sorry that my mum is not here. I would tell her all.

I hope, believe and wait that my hero will be near one day, he won’t betray and will help me to get rid of all these stupid problems and just will be near in a difficult situation. This life is full of different ordeals but we much cope with them together. We should help each other.

It appears that it is quite hard to change for somebody but at the same time it is pleasant. I feel that I become a different person. It is so important to be necessary to someone with all your merits and demerits and you can just close your eyes to all drawbacks as it is not necessary to rub each other the wrong way.

Well, ability to make a compromise forgetting about your pride and principles is a talent. I will do everything to make you happy with me. And I want to be the happiest and the most beautiful with you. My dear, my darling Hans, you are a prince form my childhood dreams.

It is strange you are so far but I almost do not feel this distance, you are maybe even nearer than many people around me. It is impossible to measure love by distance however our love has already been checked by time. I love you greatly and will do everything to make this distance temporary. I want to be near you. I don’t want others to kiss or hug me, don’t want other eyes, lips or smile as I have you. I LOVE YOU Hans!!!!! And I want to come to you very much.

I’m so happy that I met you. When I think about it I’m about to cry and even now I’m full of tears. Sorry, honey but I can’t keep calm. I want to be with you a lot. I’m just a weak unprotected woman who wants to be together with his sweetheart.

You know that I love you more than anything, more than life, more than sun or sky. You are my life, you are my happiness.

But still I can’t say it looking into your eyes, I can’t be with you. I can’t because we are still so far from each other. Anyway nothing can ruin our plans.

I will finish this letter now will cry again. It’s time to go to work. I hug your letter. I will read it over and over again a bit later.

I look forward to your answer.

Kiss you, honey. Millions kisses for you.

Your Lida.

Letter 17

Hello my dear Hans!!!!

I can’t explain feelings I’ve got right now, feelings I daily live with.

At last I have finished my working day. For me it is greater pleasure. I am happy to write to you to this Tuesday.

Today we had a lot of sun but as there was a small rain! How your weather? I so am glad that the summer at last has come!

I with pleasure shall answer your questions, after death of the husband I did not enter any attitudes with men!!!

It looks like I go mad. I need you as air, water and everything that gives life. It is wonderful that I have you. You are the most unusual person I’ve ever met and I can’t understand your secret. There seems to be nothing extraordinary but at the same time I go crazy at the very thought about you. Your only word or breath in any letter make me lose my head. You’d come from a different world. You differ form all other men. And you brought this world into my life. You have good manners, perfect taste and such a great charm. When I’m with you and when I read your letters, I forget absolutely everything. I want to be with you, look into your eyes, hug you and to see nothing else around.

As I’ve already told you, I’m ready for everything and now I know that the only thing I really want is to connect my life with you. And so, the only way to do it is to come to you. It is really hard to think about everyday things when I read your letters. That is the world of mystery that I’m to understand. I’m ready to go ahead as I’m sure then I’ll be rewarded. And you will be this prize and you are the only thing I need now. I just won’t be able to live without you. However I’m sure that I’ll cope with this to be with you. I hope you will be near and will help me in all. Really? I’ve already decided everything and I’m ready to go to the world of our happiness. I realize and foresee all the difficulties that I’ll face. I realize that an absolutely different life is waiting for me, that I’ll have to change. And life in a different country will change me. It will be hard to leave close people here. But I’m ready for this sacrifice because of you and our love.

Of course, lots of things scare me but I’m ready for all to be with you. I’m ready to change my life completely, to leave this one and start a new one, still unknown to me. I’m strong and will cope with it. If only you want it as well and help me. I’ll know that you are near and it will be easier to overcome it. Well, I do understand that it is important for you to know what is going on with me. Honey, I hope you understand what I will have to face. I rely on you and believe in your help.

I read every letter like I’m crazy, I think over every phrase. I try to feel you and understand your thoughts, to catch your breath. I want to feel your life Hans, to learn how you are there. I see you in my dreams every night. I want us to be always together. I miss you greatly.

It’s my destiny to meet you and be with you. I ask God to have you nearby and to have you all. I take care of our happiness and our love and will let no one spoil everything we created. But it’s very hard to be here alone. My dad and Irina see how I suffer and they understand what I feel. They realize that very soon I’ll leave Russia but at the same time they are happy for me. My soul hurts as we are not together. I suffer every day as we are still far away from each other. I got peace of mind with you and at the same time suffering that keeps me awake. I want to connect my life just with you Hans. I want to love you and take care of you.

I thank all close people for everything they made for me. They know that I want to be happy and at the same time they know that I’ll be far. I can imagine how sad it will be, what worries we’ll have. But we are people and we are to go through it. Thus we become wiser, understand and appreciate this life. Now we should live in a simple way, just live and enjoy that we are.

I look forward to our meeting. I’ve imagined it a few times already. Our hearts will beat rapidly and our thoughts will be behind. And I will think: “well, here is this moment, well, speak”. But I won’t have words at this time. I’d want just to look at you and listen to your heartbeat. Well, that is all LOVE!!!!

Honey, can you recall all the words about love? Could you count all the time it has been living? Do you know it created this world? Can you feel fire that it burnt in our hearts?

People who do not believe in love are so absurd and silly. But that isn’t their blame as love leads them and makes their opinion about itself. It exists as all we do. It has its own character and its whims. It laughs at us, uniting opposites, it punishes us, taking away closest people but more often it is generous. It breaks into milliards of pieces to be in every heart. We can consider it unjust, cruel and deceitful, it can test our passion and we, weak people, will wait for it anyway. It can be near us all life but still doesn’t touch. It can be unrequited, but even then you will feel its warmth. It plays with us every minute, putting obstacles here and there. But it does all this as it looks for those who deserve an ideal life without sorrow and grief, without argues and offences, but with hot looks and charming smiles, with tender and purity, with teddy bears and dates under falling stars. Do you agree with me? Write me about it, please.

Tell me, how you imagine our meeting. It’ll be very interesting for me to know what you think about me. I do hope to feel it very soon as it is in our hands. Let’s live with hope that tomorrow will come and we will be together. And there won’t be any need to rush to the Internet cafe and write letters, we will be able to say everything aloud.

I hug you and share my thoughts …

I will share my secrets with you,

I’ll speak briefly about my tenderness and sadness

I will vanish in you with dust of love

And with love I’ll come to you from ground.

Your Lida,

Hundreds of kisses to you.

Letter 18

Hello my love Hans!!

My eternal love! Love forever!

I am very glad to write to you to this lunch break! For me the greater pleasure to write to you today!!! I cannot easy work, I think only of you!!!

Today at us cloudy weather! And not so warmly!!!

When I have drunk some a few wine I only began to dream of our meeting more!

I wish to tell, that certainly I shall work to not hang on your financial neck! I wish to help you with all!!!

My man!! I like calling you like this. I don’t want to call any man in the same way besides there aren’t so many people who can be called so. But you are my ideal, my perfection. I used to think that all this is possible just in movies but I do know for sure now that at least one person like this exists. It is you, my darling. I’ve been looking for you so long! I still can’t believe it. I’d like to have an opportunity to see you.

Honey, please, tell me, what do you think if tomorrow I’ll go to the agency and learn what is necessary for my coming to you? There is a touristic agency near my work. What do you think of it? Are you ready to help us to meet? Do you want our love to be real now?

However I understand it will be hard for me to pay for this trip. When I started this internet meeting I thought we wouldn’t be able to get more than just speaking here. But thanks to you I managed to forget all my losses, I managed to overcome all this. And now I’m sure that I’m made for you.

I alone have to pay for the flat and all utilities, to buy food, cosmetics and clothes. Well, my salary is not high but it is more or less ok for living in Russia. When I think that maybe my salary won’t be enough for coming to you Hans …

Well, when I think about it I’m full of tears.

I need you badly, honey. Though I wouldn’t like to ask you for help, I have to. I can’t imagine my life without you. Please, tell me, could you help me to come to you? It is so hard to ask this question … but I can’t do anything ... my heart asks me to be with you.

I see you every night in my dreams. And in the morning when I wake up, I feel horrible as you are not there as in my dreams we are always together, near each other. You need me as well as I need you. And we trust each other completely. I want to make you the happiest person in the world. I believe that soon I’ll be yours, dear.

When I dream about us, I see perfect minutes of happiness. They appear in my mind occasionally. I dream about loving you all night, about awakening in one bed with you. I try to wake you up with a passionate kiss and you answer me in the same way. We go to the bathroom together to take a shower and make love there. Ohhhh!!!! That is great!

In the evening you take me to the restaurant. There are a lot of candles and everything is great. We drink red wine and look into each other’s eyes. There is fire of our love. And then, later, we are going home by moonlight. Thus we sit in a beautiful park, on the grass and hug each other. We look at the sky and watch falling stars. It is so romantic!!!

Night comes and we go home. Near our house you take me in your arms and bring me to bed. I take off your clothes and you take off mine. We kiss each other with tender. You give me all your caress and petting and warm kisses cover my body. We make love over and over again. Up to morning. And then we fall asleep in each other’s arms.

I love you. I want to come to you to be together and to give you all my love. I look forward for your letter and hope for our meeting.

Your Lida!!

P.S.: I’ll write you tomorrow about my visit to the agency.

Letter 19

Hello my Love Hans!!!!

How - you?

I hope, that at you good mood! And my letters lift it, and it remains good during all day.

I am very happy to write to you today! Today I am tired very much on my work. I had a complex day and now I am happy to write to you!!! Today for some reason all put I go sleepy, it probably because of that that on street cloudy and was the small rain!!!

I very much miss on you!!

I am happy to see your letter

Yes you completely have correctly written my address! As call your friend!? Ideas on you do not leave my head! After your last letter, having come, home, I very long thought of us and about our attitudes. These feelings, they very warm, and also cool time which it is a little, they as the moon in the dark evening sky. If you have time, look at it, and you will understand all depth of my feelings. At us today half of moon in the sky.

Its one half are you. This half is captured in easy and a heat,

And other half from this I, dark and cold, disappearing, in itself secret. Stars around of it are people who surround us.

In them the heap has placed, and in me one, and I cannot it to you. You know to me, it seems, that you very good person, and I can be opened with you. You fine, sensitive, kind, you deserve the most good words, and your attitude to me the finest in my life.

It - is enough only with abusings love. I shall speak directly,

And to me I which should inform. It seems that to you about it. I LOVE YOU Hans!!! Yes you have understood me, and it means, it since this moment instead of which my heart belongs only against you than whom it - is more.

Now only you can solve, which my words for you mean.

I am very happy to your letters, I always wait, when I shall enter into the Internet

Both I shall read, and I shall write to you! Heart checks mine, you have left a wound in my heart,

And this wound is closed, when I read your letters! I do not accuse you, did not exist opposite, I am happy to it! I wished to find people similar to my soul, and I think, which I have found! It you! Soul, your feelings to me!

I wish to thank you for the big attention to me!

I try to understand you and to write more about me directly! But I do not deny, you are necessary for me. You became important in my life and necessary for me!

While we should strengthen attitudes! I think, that we shall have fine time! Walks, entertainments, viewing of films, suppers at candles together! My character is very loyal!

To my biggest disappointment my time has expired, also I should finish this letter!

I - the end to write this letter, but I shall think of you!

I hope, that we shall together soon!

I shall wait for your letter!

Bye-bye my love!!!

I love, I miss, it is gentle also passionately whole you.

With the best regards!!!

Yours Lida

10000000 kisses for you!!!

Letter 20

Hi, my gentle and love Hans!

How at you business? How you feel yourself today? I think, that all is good.

I am very happy to write to you today! For me it is greater pleasure!! Today at us warm weather.

At last I have finished the working day! And I am happy that I can to write to you. Tomorrow there will be a Friday. These weeks millet fly by all! I have not time to notice at all as there is time! Because I can write to you!!!

I shall not go to anybody except for you! I hope, that our meeting will be soon possible! Write please when you can contact your friend!

Today, all the night long, I thought only of you, about our joint future. I want, that our life together, was much better, than a life in loneliness. I am assured, what exactly and will be.

I all the night long could not sleep. I represented our first meeting. I dream only of you. You never leave my ideas, soul and heart. I wish to embrace and kiss only you!

My love angel Hans, you know, you have really presented me the finest feeling on the ground. This feeling love! Even that you are now far from me, for thousand kilometers, I all the same feel heat which leaves your heart to me.

How your weather today? In Russia good weather. The fine sun in the street cheers up.

How passes your day? Than you are engaged? Today I worked much and is tired.

I very much wish to be near to you now. I would like to meet you from work, to prepare you to eat, do cleaning of the house. My angel Hans, I promise you, that I shall do everything that you were the happiest the man! I wish to present you my love!

I every day pray to the god that it has presented us happiness in a life. As I ask from the god health for you!

Thanks for all that you do for our future! You the best! I love you!

I cannot express my feelings to you in words. You should feel my love in a reality! I shall prove to you my feelings to you!

I wish to be with you Hans! You all my life! You my angel whom the god has presented me!

I with impatience wait your new letter to me.

With the best regards!!!

Your small princess from Russia,

Lida!

One million kisses only for you!

Letter 21

Hello my the most love Hans!!

I am very glad to receive your letter. The darling, I so am glad, that we can meet you. I think, that our meeting will be the most significant event for both of us.

I am very happy to write to you today!

At us today has passed very strong rain with a thunder-storm at night! Today all the day long did not work the Internet of cafe! I did not find to myself a place because I had today the day off!! Only has now earned the Internet and I can write to you!

I did cleaning on the house and prepared to eat, as I erased the clothes and daddies! Than you were engaged today???

I am glad to write to you today! Tomorrow Russian orthodox church marks a holiday - a Trinity. I shall go to church and I shall ask the god about ours with you happiness!

It is very a pity that your friend already has left! Then I wish to tell about that that to me have told in a travel company!

Today before to go to a travel company I talked on work and to me have told, that as I within two years did not take holiday

I can take it for 2 months. That is you should solve for what time I can coming to you!! I wish to connect completely the life with you!!

Today I went to agency, it has appeared, that my friend there works for me and it wishes to help us and to make all documents for a reduced price. I have learned what documents will be necessary for me to arrive to you. I think, all over again we should issue the visa and the passport because its registration will borrow most of all time, and necessary to begin with it. Cost of the visa makes 140 euros, the passport costs 150 euros. The commission of a travel company is included in this cost for registration of these documents in consulate in Moscow and representation there. And as this money reception of these documents guarantees me of 100 %. To me have told, that for its reception it is necessary to pay at once all while I shall not begin to cry money that my application, on its reception it will not be considered. This visa of the tourist which will stand out for the period of 3 months! All these documents are made out in current of 7-10 days!

The travel company incurs all the charges connected about reception of the visa and the passport and as support and reception of necessary documents in Moscow!!

I have no such money, you could help me with this sum my favourite?

My love I earn 8000 roubles that makes only 170 euros. From for falling of a rouble exchange rate, it is simply inconceivable sum for me! I do not know what to do to me!!

I very much wish to be with you! Please tell, whether you can help me!??

The ticket can be ordered at any time so, that on this account it is possible to not experience. Just in case if you will want to help me I to you I shall tell as it is possible for you to send money.

You in city should have branch Western Union. (you can find the address of the nearest on a site www.westernunion.com) to send me of money to you my data it are necessary:

Russia

City Murom Street - Lakina the house 9

apartment 18

index 602252

First name Lidiya

Last name - Shkryabina

And that I have received, money number MTCN will be necessary to me. This number to you will give, when you will send me of money. Still your full name, the address and phone will be necessary to me.

And as city of sending of money.

The most important, that is fast we with you we shall meet. You represent, I leave the plane, and you meet me. You take on hands, and we with you merge in a passionate kiss. It will be a fairy tale which you can present me. I think, that the present gentleman, such as you, will make everything that its favourite it was happy.

I so am glad, that we shall meet you. Since most my early childhood I had a dream.

When I looked at clouds, it seemed to me, as it is fine to be a bird who carelessly soars in the sky. It is inexpressibly fine to observe of clouds, to lay on a beautiful green meadow, and to observe of this miracle of the nature as they change the outlines.

I so wish to soar between them, observing for their beauty through a window of the plane.

When the sun leaves for a line of horizon, painting all around of itself in scarlet colors, and ahead only an infinite distance. As though I wished to see all this!

Favourite, we with you are divided only with distance. In my ideas you always beside with me. Every minute my life I think of you. About that, as though to me it was inexpressibly good, if you were during this moment with me. I know, that you want the same.

Yes, I according to to fly to you yes though on edge of light, the main thing to you. Feelings overflow me, you have turned to me a head. I cannot without you.

All in your hands, you can create to yourself paradise on the ground if you will be with me.

I look forward to your answer.

With the best regards!

With love forever yours Lida!!

1000000 kisses for you!

Letter 22

Hello my love Hans!!!

I am very glad to write to you to this Sunday! For me it is greater pleasure!

Today we have the day off today a church holiday and any work is forbidden.

Today I went to church and asked the god about ours with you happiness!

Today at us variable weather - that it is raining the sun shines!

If we shall know well enough each other I marry you! I wish to tell, that I have certainly a bathing suit!

Today I went to a travel company and to me have told that tickets aboard the plane almost in any airport of Sweden with a start from Moscow in two parties will cost about 350 euros - except for it gathering the airport at a rate of 50 euros for each ticket will be raised, and the ticket for a train will cost 70 euros. That is the total cost of my travel to you will make 810 euros!! We can spend remarkable time!!

My love Hans, I very strongly love you. My Hans, I every day think of you, I every day dream, as we with you shall live together. You are very necessary to me, I still never met such fine person, as you. Without you I cannot and live and minutes. My love Hans, you are necessary to me as air. You know, that without air no person can live, even the strongest, and here as I cannot live without you.

Hans, I very much grieve without you. I would like to arrive somewhat quicker to you, and to remain with you for all life, to look after you, to love you.

If there would be at me an opportunity, I have thrown all and right now would sit down in the plane and have arrived to you. I very much love you, I cannot live without you.

Love washing, you my LION. I very much grieve without you. Before laying down to sleep I think of you when I go to a bath I I think of you when there is early in the morning I I think of you. My most treasured dream it to see you somewhat quicker. And I am very glad, that soon my DREAM to be carried out, and we with you shall be together. And it will be the happiest day in my life. I very strongly love you.

I wish to show you all love to you as I can. It is a pity, that now I am not near to you. I so strongly wish to be with you, that all my feelings to not write on a paper, to not express in the letter. You will see all, when we shall meet you. I shall show all love, and our love will be envied by many. I wish to love you, and to be love Hans. I know, that you love me. And I am very glad, I am happy. You have presented me the love, you have shown me as it is possible to love. You careful, you the remarkable person. And I am more with anybody I do not wish to be except for you, I wish to be only with you. With you to me it is good, with you I feel the happiest girl on all ground.

Nobody is necessary to me except for you, you are necessary to me, and only you.

I very much love you. And I have more except for you than anybody is not present. Nobody is necessary to me. I love only you.

On it I finish the letter.

Write to me, I with impatience shall wait from you the letter.

I love, I miss, it is gentle also passionately whole you.

With the best regards!!!

Yours Lida.

P.S. I LOVE YOU, And ONLY YOU. NOBODY is necessary to me. At me ANYBODY is not present. I WISH TO be With YOU, And ONLY With YOU. I very much LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!