Letter(s) to Cody (USA)

Letter 1

please write me! I need to see a letter from you....
what are doing this week end???

What happened? Are you busy?
Please write...


Hi, my precious!!!
I hope that nothing happened and you are in a good mood. Please, be careful, and take care of yourself. Reply me as soon as you can.
I will be waiting for you, I promise. I would very much like to ask you to send me some more photos of yours. Chose those best that you have.
I am planning to print them and set them in a framework. Than I will put the framework on my desk and will watch you from time to time.
It will make me feel closer to you.
Some mornings, when I wake up I just try to figure out if everything is real; I mean if you are real or was it just a dream.
These moments I just need something to prove that you exist. So your photo will help me.
You are the sun that shines and lets me see the way in a dark and dump world. Have no other words to describe my feelings.
I have a smile on my face when I wake up, because my first thought is about you!!!
Can I ask you for something?
Could you please send me some your best photo, so I could hang it on my wall and every morning before waking up see you again and again?
You know, I had an amazing dream last night. We both were on some unknown island; it was beautiful, isolated from all the rest of the world.
There were just two of us. You were holding my hands and you were silent. No words were needed. That was great. We were so close to each other.
I felt to be the happiest woman in the word because I knew you were so close. It was something special, the feeling, the passion I had and love.
Do you dream about me? Can you tell me of them if it is not too private for you?
You know, probably, it is too silly to say, but I feel like I could have created a strong family with you. Do you like children?
Would you like to have them? I think they should be given birth only after the decision of both father and mother, and then the family will be happy.
My husband will always be on the first place for me. If in case he will not want to have children, well than, I will do whatever he says me to do.
Take care, my dear, I am waiting fro your reply.


Letter 2

Hi, darling... I am not in a mood today. Just somehow I feel tired and exhausted.
You know, actually, I am fed up with my work. I work for 9, sometimes even more hours a day.
My job requires me to be calm and patient, you know.
Being a waitress you should be polite with clients,
smile when they tell you some vulgar joke and be welcoming to those who are in the restaurant for the first time.
My salary is about 200 dollars a month which is not as high-high as I would like it to be.
I am not afraid of work, but I know that my work should be more paid.
To tell the truth, these 200 dollars are good enough just for bills-paying, no money is left, I would like to have a PC, but still, it costs a lot.
Just I imagine how it could be if I would have one. Write you every day, one two three letters...
I also cannot write you so often because of our stupid rules here – one should pay for every received and sent letter.
What a shame! We live in such a modern world! I am really sorry for complaining, just you are the only one I can do this.
I hope you will understand me. That is some kind of nervous breakdown.
Every single letter I get from you makes me feel better, much better. It raises my mood.
Please, tell me more about your country. Are there any stupid rules like here? I am interested in every single thing you are connected with.
Here in this country I feel unprotected, vulnerable, and poor sometimes. It is like you work and work every day, but earn nothing.
It is because of this the people here are unfriendly and rude. It is fantastic to have you in my life.
You are so patient and understanding.
I want to thank you for everything you have done for me! And thank you for being with me all this time. You are my only friend.
I already miss you...

P.S. Can you say me your full name and
the name of the city where you live

Mine is
Natalya Bespalova
Saint-Petersburg, Russia

P.P.S. I am sending you my new pic, what do you think of it?...
Natalya Bespalova
Saint-Petersburg, Russia

Letter 3

So why you did not write to me...
Please do it...
Here are very hard to me without your letters and without your support....
I need it every day every minute...
I want to be with you...
Understand me I am alone and I am afraid would be alone


My sweetheart !!!
I would like to start my letter by saying you that I apologize for what I have written you yesterday. I should not have complained.
It happened spontaneously… Probably that is because you are very close to me and I feel I can open my heart.
Here it is difficult to find an understanding person, first of all because he may just laugh at you, or envy you…
Sorry once again, I promise not to do this anymore. You have your own problems and just it is silly of me to give you mine.
Long time ago your letters, your thoughts became a part of my life. You yourself became a part of me.
I appreciate your kindness and composure very much. I appreciate your support which you demonstrate in every your letter.
You know, I have recently come to one thought – it became difficult for me to rely on someone.
I have lost the ability of trusting to the people. It is a cruel world, yes it is. I have not an easy life.
I should think on my own for my living, and definitely, it makes me stronger.
You know, I am not sure I told you, but I was betrayed once by a very close person.
It hurted and it still hurts sometimes, but not because I have lost him, just because the closest people hurt more than anything else.
My love story it not a complicated one, it is the most wide spread story in the world.
I was completely in love but he cheated, found someone else and left me.
And I saw that girl, I saw her with him and just could not figure out what was so special in her?
What was her goal? What had she that I didn’t have?
These are the questions that move on in everybody’s head when you know you are betrayed.
Still I don’t want to talk about it. Today is a present day, these things were in my past life.
We have letters only to contact with each other, but I still hope that you trust me as I trust you.
And I really do. I never thought that it is possible to find someone, to be in love with him, and find him on the Internet.
For me it is a device for information, for mailing, nothing more.
I am glad that my destiny has given me the chance to know you. You are a great person, good friend, nice and beautiful man.
I feel that I can trust you, I know you are honest with me.
It is silly because I have never met you in a real life, but I often imagine us holding hands, saying sweet words to each other, staying together.
I would very much like to visit you. I would like to see you, I want to know for sure who you are, feel that you are real.
If you don’t mind – I could come to your country, I could visit you.
I just believe that we can make it true. Just imagine, all the things I wrote you can be said…in person.
It is a serious step, and it can change a lot. Are you ready to know who am I?
Life is short to waste time so desperately like we do this.
If you are really interested in me, I will come to stay with you for 10-15 days.
Still, it depends on you, I don’t want persuade anybody. We know each other and we both should feel the same.
If you feel that you are not ready for anything serious right now, I will just come to see you, I will still want to be your friend!!!
It is our chance, let us not lose it. As for me I fell that it is the time I can be with somebody whom I can devote myself.
If you liked the things I said, let’s talk about it.
Missing you.......

P.S. I can send you some pics of me in bikini, what do you think about it???
Natalya Bespalova
Saint-Petersburg, Russia

Letter 4

Hello my dearest one!!!
How are you today? As for me I am not really in the mood.
I have a feeling that I did something wrong.
I have never thought this could happen to me. That I could fell in love with the person I have never seen in my life.
I want to less the distance between us so much, to take your hand, to look into your eyes and to see that you understand my naive soul. I know I shouldn't be so open. I have to be strong and keep everything inside.
I am too emotional but I don't want you to be scared and run away. If I could be closer to you and if I could show you my feelings. I want you so much to see me, to feel my touch.
I would kiss your eyes and say how I love you.
Again I am acting like a silly little girl. I am mad at myself.
But at the same time I can't stop. I want you to know my feelings. I even thought of coming to you. And I have even went the tourist agency to check about the visas. And now I know that the best way for me to come to you is to get a tourist visa. It will not take much time.
And they told me at the tourist agency that I have a very good chance to get it. And it is a very good reason for giving me a visa. I've checked that a visa will cost $400.
(400$ for visa, passport, medical insurance and for all documents)
But if you can please send some extra for food and etc.....
You know with my salary I just can't afford it. And I will need your help. It's up to you, of course. But I really hope you will be able to help me with getting visa.
Please, think about it and let me know.
Do you want me to come to you?
Do you want to meet with me at last? I want it very much.
Hope you too.
I will give you the information for the case you decide to do it.
The best way to send money is to do it via Western Union or Money Gram. It is an easy and quick way to get it.
It is necessary to know the full name of receiver.

My full name is Natalya Bespalova.
Saint-Petersburg, Russia

And after sending money, the one who is getting money should know an MTCN (Money Transfer Control Number) - 10 digits or Reference number (for Money Gram) - 8 digits, the sum of money that was sent and the full name of the sender and the city where you are living.

Also you can send money on-line!!!
(please visit http://www.westernunion.com and http://www.moneygram.com for more information)
Well, I hope that you will think on this information.
You have lots of food for thought.
Please, write me as soon as possible. I am waiting for your reply.
Love you.

P.S. You can send money to any Western Union or Money Gram of Saint-Petersburg, Russia.
Here is the closest Money Gram and Western Union office:

Saint-Petersburg, 190031, Russia

P.P.S. Also I have asked to copy the following instruction for you:

While you're sending the wire transfer you might be asked to provide information concerning transfer purpose and destination.
In order to speed up the process please reply that these funds are sent to your friend, relative, business partner and etc.
Please do specify that the receiver is known by you personally and also note that these funds are your own money.
Main reason for this request is financial regulations in receiver’s country, so be serious and answer teller’s questions carefully because incorrect answers could cause a significant delay for the wire to be processed.

Natalya Bespalova
Saint-Petersburg, Russia

Letter 5

I offer to you that we should worry about our future meeting very soon, because I think we will be more sure if I begin the process of getting visa right now. This process can take about 1 week or more... My darling, I will stay for three months, so we can have lot of time to be together...
I don't know but maybe if we decide to be together, I can stay forever with you, my dear!!!
What do you think about???
I want to be with you....
Please help me to be with you...
You are the man who was made specially for me...you are very strong man and I like you a lot!!!!!!
Natalya Bespalova
Saint-Petersburg, Russia