Letter(s) to Randall (Canada)

Letter 1

Hi Randall!
Your letter means so much for me. Thank you. I so waited your letter and so wanted to find out what you will tell me.
I read your letter and was raised. I never so was not raised. I wanted to feel and go through everything that you have written. You asked also - would I enjoy a dancing? Probably there are no such ladies who would not enjoy it. Of course I can't tell that I a great dancer. I like to dance, but I do it not often. Thanks for a picture. Randall, today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried to not show it, I think you have noticed it. Randall, I was sad because the boss informed me that approximately in three weeks the accounting department will be closed for full re-equipment and repair. And when he have told me it, I thought my heart will stop, because when it will take place, I will not be able to communicate with you during several months! And it has brought infinite sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of accounting department, the accounting department informed me that approximately in three weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept it. And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart has appeared an other feeling - feeling of confidence, desire to make new steps instead of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it so wonderfully. I had no vacation for two years. And now I will have vacation. But a thoughts that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I talked with Olga and she has asked me what I think to do. And when she has asked me it, I have understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I have told that I do not want to spend such a long-awaited vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you Randall during of month or two. And I have told that I want to meet you Randall! I have told her that I want to spend my vacation with you Randall! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Olga have told, that you Randall and I are such a good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore Randall will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightfully. So, what you will say, Randall, if I will offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend with me several days? I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful. You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life. We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together... I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you. I already knew and I have been told earlier, but I have found out again all I need to do to come to your country. I already have the passport. And I will avoid usual procedure of visa's approval. Being the doctor, I can ask the visa on behalf of our Ministry of Health, because if the applicant have good official support from official bodies, if the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some months the decision of the commission, and will remove all problems connected with necessity to prove that the purpose of travel is not emigration. Being the doctor I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor. Of course I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable quantity of documents, to find as many as possibly of other official legal persons, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I will quickly collect all necessary documents, I will get the visa in one or two weeks! So I have filed an application for the visa, Randall, with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me! I do not ask you about anything. I will use my monetary savings and I will make everything by self. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden. Would you be happy to spend some days with me soon, Randall? Anyway, we must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the accounting department will be closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence! It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take new step. Maybe such opportunity will not be repeated again. I so long waited my vacation and I want my vacation to be especial. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity,- an opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lifes and in our relations. And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this vacation with you Randall! So what will you tell?
Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me?
Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure. Your sincere Julia.

Letter 2

Hi, my far, but dear friend Randall.
Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you. I want to tell you today so much.
I have feelings and I had no such a feelings too long. You are now a part of my life! You have changed my life! I think of you and I think of us. I see us together and it makes me happy. I enjoy thoughts of you and I miss you every minute of my day and night. Unfortunately on a computer there is no play an MP3. I cannot hear yours a song. My favorite color - it's pink, though in general I like all colors, each shade is fine. Favorite day week Friday!!! I have no nickname, but friends name me Julka. Today I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I always speak directly from my heart but sometimes, words must be chosen carefully. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), but I am more than willing to learn whatever is need to succeed, if it is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I don't know if my word and thoughts make sense to you; and for me so hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to be ready for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life in loving, to better value him, respect him and cherish the love that he would give me; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I wish to know you on the more intimate level, I would like you to share your true dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond simply friendship. Please don't think that I am fool for thinking these things, I believe that to succeed in anything, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you seriously close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like,- the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams really come true for the people that dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them enough hard, dreams could become in reality. Here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Randall, I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world. It is a type of beauty that is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This is what for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. I think that you are truly handsome, in the sence of what beauty should be. I want to reduce essence of my entire letter only to one thought. I don't know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It's the way I feel. I'll look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
I hope that your reply will not have of a harsh nature, and I look forward of its arrival. With tenderness, Your Julia.

Letter 3

Hi my dear Randall!
Today is a fine day. Already in the morning I knew that I today I will get an opportunity to write to you. And all the rest become unimportant for me. Today I really haven't opportunity to write much.
But I have enough time to tell to you that I thought of you and waited when I will get opportunity to write you.
And I have time to tell the main thing. I do not know why, but today I have woken up earlier than usually. I could not fall asleep again.
I simply sat near window and looked at the sky. Suddenly, a small birdie appeared on my window. It was very beautiful birdie. This birdie looked at me, and started to twitter. It was so unusually and beautifully. It was a beautiful song. I looked at this small birdie and thought, that you Randall now somewhere far away; maybe you sleep and see me in your sleep-dream. And I so wanted you to see this small birdie and to hear her delightful song. And I have whispered: "Fly off, my little birdie, fly to my friend Randall, and tell to him that one girl, that is so far away, thinks of him and sends to him this song. And at this moment the birdie has flinched and flew away as if this birdie has heard my words!
And I have thought, if today you Randall will see a small birdie singing beautiful song, - be sure that it is my birdie I sent to you!
Forgive me, but I have to go. I want to send you my kiss if you do not mind.
Your Julia.

Letter 4

Hi, Randall!
How is your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but after my letter your mood became superfine (smile) Likely I am too self-confident. But I am happy again because I have again received your letter. I so waited for this minute,- when I can write to you. Our friendship became the important part of my life, and I hope that in your life as well. Sometimes I understand that the thread that connects me with you now is not most strong. But I do not want this thread to be torn. Right now I sit and I smile simply because I am glad that again I can to share with you my thoughts. Sometimes I so want you to see my smile during the similar moment because I think it is the most sincere smile! But sometimes my smile leaves me because I know that now the only thing that connects us is our thoughts, that we send to each other,- thoughts, transformed into a letters that are not able to show all depth of thoughts. But at the same time I understand that nobody knows what waits for us in the future. I hope my words do not offend you and maybe you even think just as I...
Thanks for the picture. Every time after I receive your picture, appear traces of lipsticks on the screen of the monitor (smile). You play for me?
Thanks for all your words. I am very glad that you have expressed to me your opinion. It is pleasant for me to realize that I have a friend - a true man. I really do not understand how people can be very angry if they love each other. I do not remember when at last time I became angry. I do not like to be angry and I do not like to quarrel. I know absolutely precisely that any disagreements can be solved with a smile on the face. I try never to raise a voice. To force me to cry easier than to make me mad. I like to conciliate people and when my friends in the quarrel, I always act as conciliator. When I am upset, it can be understood on my eyes. Olga says that when I am upset, I have such sad eyes that after looking at me she wants to cry. Probably it is the truth because when I am upset, everyone notices it. I become silent and imperceptible. I as always talk with people, I smile, but all the same everyone see that something wrong with me. To carry quarrel into the bed or to leave problem on tomorrow 's day is wrong. I never would do that. I never can be in a disagreement more than several minutes. I feel very much not comfortably if I am in a disagreement. Therefore I always try to reconcile at once. If people love each other and respect feelings and interests of each other, I am sure that serious disagreements cannot be the case. I always take into account an opinion of other people; therefore I very seldom have disagreements with somebody. I respect any mind. And I am sure that any quarrel can be discussed simply in quiet conversation. It is enough to express your opinion and attentively and respectfully to listen to opinion of your beloved. And the decision will come. And what can be more pleasant than a soft kiss after a short disagreement? Really?
Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Probably tomorrow I will work outside of clinic. We call it - "the ride working day". It is difficult day. At this day several doctors and specialists of our clinic are going on the special medical bus to various remote small settlements, small villages in a thicket of the forest. These are poor villages which are located far away from the big cities and settlements. In these villages there are no doctors and clinics and people cannot visit clinic at any moment. In such villages there is always a lot of people who need the doctor but cannot reach clinic by self. Often it is a people who are not able to live without help of other people, - basically are small children or old and weak feeble people. We go in these villages on the bus with all necessary equipment. People in these villages love us and wait more than anything. But it is really the hard work if to take into account that we are going there at 6 am, and we come back sometimes even after 10 pm! But I will wait your letter because our friendship gives force to me, and our dialogue is a rest for my soul!
My dear friend Randall! I have to go! Sincerely and with thoughts about you.

Letter 5

Hi my dear friend, Randall!!!!
I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks. You have again raised my mood and have placed a happy smile into my face.
As for a meeting if I will decide to meet you, that only there where you live or there where I live. I would not like to have the first meeting in other country. Only there where your house, or there where mine. Nothing will force me to meet in the country where I do not know language, where a man with whom I meet has no home and address and where I do not know anybody to addressed in case of any difficulties or troubles. By the way Randall, today I went to job being absolutely confident that your letter waits for me. Earlier I always went with thought that you probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with thought that your letter already waits for me. I went along the street with the smile on my face. I could not hide my smile. People that went past of me looked back and looked at me. Here already many employees know that I have found such a wonderful friend, and nobody is surprised that my friend lives in other country. Everybody only are glad. Nobody here is surprised if the woman searches for not Russian man. I think the cultural distinction is a wonderful thing. I don't understand Russian men and their culture of dialogue with woman. They are not able to appreciate woman's feelings, her fidelity, love. They do not appreciate sincerity and aspiration of woman to do for a man absolutely everything. The only thing she need - the warmth and caress, which she wants to get from a man. It is the problem of Russian men. Russian lady does everything for a man but doesn't get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple of tender words and gentle touching of his arms. Really it is so difficult? Really it is difficult to present for your lady a romantic evening and a supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady to man, but not man to lady. You say that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not considered like a beautiful lady. I am usual and simple woman with usual appearance. Russian men, practically all of them, usually show disrespect to ladies. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash cloths and entertain a man when he wants. For Russian man to offend a woman is a usual thing. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few of them. Men very often say dirty words (not normative lexicon) when they talk with lady and consider that there is nothing bad in it. I want to tell you about my ex-boyfriend. I feel that you will understand me. I had boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me by bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became another person - rude and evil, even when did not drink. He has found the big interest in beating of me. He began to beat me very often and cruelly. He often knocked me in my face by fist and even kicked me by foot when I already was on a floor. And every time when I being on a floor looked in to his eyes, and with tears in my eyes asked him - WHY? - he just responded that any man is a King and a place of any woman - under foot of a true man. But the next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing had happened. In public he was very delicate, polite. All people considered that he is a true gentleman. But when he found oneself at home, everything was on the contrary. I very much was afraid of him and I have left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make myself get acquainted with another man. I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid to give my love, but back to get roughness instead of love. I have told to you about it because I want you to know that I open to you my soul. And I want you to know about my ex-relationship with my ex-boyfriend. I feel that I can tell to you about this because I feel that you have very kind heart. By the way, today Olga leaves hospital! And though she will spend some more days at home, all the same it is much better than in hospital.
If you have disagreements with lady, can you apply roughness?
Are you able to transform quarrel into the peace, pleasure and a smile?
I have to finish. With all my kindness and tenderness.

Letter 6

Hi, Randall.
I am very glad that you have written me. Thank you very much. You cannot imagine how much I wait for messages from you! Your letters became a part of my days! Now in my thoughts always only one question - "When I will get an opportunity to read your letter and to write my?"... And when I hear a favorite phrase: "Julia, you can jump, you has received the letter!" (A lady who works with a computer says exactly this phrase) I really become joyful very much and start to smile involuntarily. Therefore thank you!!! Today is a good day and to clinic I have come already with good mood. Today at night there was a little rain. In the morning I have come out to the street to jog and I have seen that all footpaths and roads completely are filled with water . But I like such a weather. I like any weather. Many people do not notice beauty that surrounded them. In my soul such a weather wakens the big energy and fine mood. I like all seasons. I like autumn. Yellow leaves, gold trees. It is so wonderful to walk in the park and to listen to how leaves rustle under feet; to see the clouds that float in the sky, to see birds departing to the warm lands. And at night the sky begins to cry. The rain knocks on windows and roofs. A lightning illuminates for shares of second the empty streets. It is wonderful. How it would be wonderful in such a weather to appear with beloved in a small room with a warm fireplace; weak light and singing of a cricket. How you think Randall? What can be finer than romantic evening in rainy day? I at all do not know what season I like more. Russian winter is delightful. The all world around is white. And falls of snow bewitches, especially in the evening. When you see flows of light from a window, and on a background of black sky small snowflakes are similar to stars. And if for a long time you look at the sky, then it seems that you are flying through these wonderful snowflakes towards something unknown. I like spring. The world as though is born again. Air is filled with freshness. All troubles and failures thaws together with snow. The sounds of the baby birds chirping for the first time. Summer is a fine mood, the desire to learn the world, to have a rest and enjoy life. I feel that I rambling on.
Thank you for your answers to my questions.
By the way, I jog for many years. I really have good health because I always try to support my figure and I jog every morning. I try to spend time in the air as much as possible. I have no car and I use transport extremely seldom. I get contrast shower - alternation of a stream of cold and hot water. I since the childhood lived in conditions of cold winter and damp autumn. Such climate is toughening health very well. I do not smoke and I do not drink alcoholic drinks. I really love a healthy way of life. And I am proud of it. I love sports very much. Though should admit that I never played golf, football and basketball, never boxed. But I could surprise you, if I had opportunity to compete with you in beach volleyball. By the way, when I studied at university, I visited section of swimming and have reached good results. Some times I participated in swim competitions. Swimming - till now my favorite kind of sports.
Randall, I have to finish.With the best regards and with thoughts of you.

Letter 7

Hi Randall!
At once I want to tell that Olga sends you her greetings. I was in hospital and we have spent her birthday very well. I wanted to bake a small cake, but it has turned out on the contrary. The cake was huge. It weighed two kg. When I have brought it to hospital, we have divided this into set of pieces; and all doctors and some patients that were in this small branch are drank tea and ate a pie together with us and everyone was glad and happy. I have brought a lot of balloons. She was very glad and grateful to me. The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. The sun is shining all the day. To add to all this I have got your letter and my happiness doesn't have limits. So what about your weather? May be today after work I will take a walk. I like to walk along the street and to breathe the fresh air, especially when the weather is warm, even in the winter. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. At home is very boringly and lonesomely. Sometimes I don't notice it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. But my apartment is empty and I have to be in full loneliness. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down into the armchair and look at the window. And when the silence deafens me, when I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment the hoop of loneliness compresses my heart. I can listen to music or read a book. I can go to my friends. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to talk about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But I think enough about it. Thanks for the picture. You are incredibly handsome and attractive a man. I am sure that any woman get unimaginable pleasure looking on you. I am not exception. I have been in love but only once. The longest my relations I had with the guy about which I have told to you. We were not in a marriage but we were together for almost five years.
Therefore, all what it is connected to my last relations is connected to this guy. I really had strong feelings, but in vain.
Hi Randall, again. I began writing the letter in the morning. Now already 5 p.m. Can you imagine? Today was heavy working day. My working day comes to an end soon. But, one employee has brought here her small son, and she has asked me to look after him because she should leave urgently for some hours. The boy knows me very well. He already some times remained with me and spent time. As our clinic works till 22.00, we can be here up to the end of work day. His mom works in our clinic only a few months and she has no friends or relatives here. That's why I already some times helped her. Her son is amusing boy. He told to me that tomorrow he with mom should go to dentist to treat his ill tooth. I asked him: What do you dream about? He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't have problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often recollect childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we should not sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for a long time. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Our dreams come true not always. It happens that you use all energy, all aspiration to make dream come true. But irrespective of how strenuously you try, not everything in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, dream ceases to be the star, that was for you a lighthouse in the ocean of the life. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. Our dreams force us to think, analyze, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope are eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, we remember joy of the victories better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. Don't you agree? I'm surprised that I write all this to you. I have never had a man, with whom I felt conveniently in sharing my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Can I ask some small questions? Do you like to sleep, or get up early in the morning? Do you like to kiss? (smile) Are you a good kisser? (smile) Do you like when your friends come to your home or you prefer to go to friends. I adore when Olga or Irina come to my apartment. What clothes do you like to see in a lady? I will wait for your letter with impatience.

Letter 8

Hi, my dear friend Randall!
Thank you for your letter. Day by day I feel more need in getting your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I should say that when I have good mood I hear gratitude from my patients much more often (smile). Therefore, now the health of a Russian women depend on your letters (smile again).
I very much like your pictures. I very much like to look at you. I really enjoy. I am sure that you use the big popularity among ladies.
The borsch is soup with boiled beet, a potato, meat, cabbage, onions, pepper and a bay leaf. Golubtsy it is meat mince with the onions, wrapped up in cabbage sheets and stewed in an oven. It is incredibly tasty dish. It sounds much worse than it is actually. The basic components of okroshka: sausage, hard-boiled eggs, boiled potato, sour cream, onions and the most important - kvass. I am sure that kvass cook only in Russia. Kvass is a freshening drink that cooks from a mix of rye and barley malt, rye flour or rye zwiebacks, sugar and water with the subsequent fermentation. But it is not an alcoholic drink!
Uha is a fish-soup. But this soup cooks on a fire in caldron. The fish should be just caught right before. As a rule it is the perch, pike or a ruff. In soup will put only a fish, a potato and onions; the salt to taste. To my regret I could not visit an exhibition. Last days was a lot of work and I could not go to Shahty. But it not death (smile). By the way, when I came to work today, my mood was bad, because my friend Olga fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 30 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But I have already talked with a doctor and I will be allowed to spend evening in her chamber. In the evening I will bake a cake, I will buy balloons and go to the hospital. I hope very much that she will have good mood on her birthday. She is my best friend. By the way, she works with me in the clinic.
Olga the doctor the otolaryngologist in our clinic. As a matter of fact I have only two real friends - Olga and Irina. Olga is a lady who is in the hospital. Irina is our friend already for several years. Olga and I are like sisters. We like to take a walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Olga vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. It is the houses which were built before the Second World War, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Olga vegetable garden. There she grows the potato, tomatoes and cucumbers not to buy them in the market. Every winter Olga, Irina and I together build a big Snowman in her vegetable garden, using a big snow spheres. We put carrot instead of nose, and potatoes instead of eyes. It is very funny. All neighbor's children came to see it. By the way, if we want to fool about, we put carrots not only instead of a nose but also below..... (hint and smile) First time we made such Snowman 10 years ago. Since that time we do it every year. It is a tradition for us. We poured it with water to cover with ice. So it could stand for the whole winter. I like Bogatov. Almost all people in our village know each other. We have little buildings - maximum 2 floors. Olga says that she wants to live in a big city. I don't know where is better. Big city is a big traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning's of shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres. It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our village is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfortable, cozy, quiet place, no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there was no criminality, it would be paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately the crime in Russia is on a very high level. But I don't want to tell about sad things. Several times, Olga, Irina and I went to the festival of bard song. This is a place on the coast of the river where a lot of people come from all country. At night the coast is covered with thousand fires lights. The scene is a huge raft having the form of a guitar and established right on water and everybody who wants to sing together with famous bard singers, goes on this raft and starts to sing. And all thousands people become silent and listen to this singer even if he is absolutely unknown. It is the unique festival. I have to finish my letter. I don't want but I have to do it. Today when I will come to Olga we will talk about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Randall? What was the best gift from a woman you got? Sincerely your, and with best wishes.

Letter 9

Hi, Randall! Today I had so much work that I was afraid that I wouldn't have time to get your letter. And I have to say that it is distressed me. But now I have found free time and very glad. Thank you for your kind letter. My last letter was sad. That's why today I will try not to write about sad things. How there were your day? Now I am smiling and have a good mood, because today we found out that in two days into Shahty will be coming big exhibition of rare breeds of cats and snakes. It is great news because at this exhibition there will be the best representatives of rare breeds, collected from all of Russia. Everybody wants to visit this exhibition because it will last only for several days. I like animals very much. Can you imagine that I never was in a zoo? It is my dream. Have you ever been in zoo? We have here several small menageries, but I dream to see giraffes and rhinoceroses, hippopotamuses and bears. I never saw tigers and elephants in real life. Have you ever seen a tiger or a bear? The biggest animal I saw in my life is a horse. I like horses very much and think that these are the most beautiful animals in the planet. As matter of fact I have always dreamt to have some pets. Unfortunately a horse hardly would be placed in my apartment (smile). I dreamt to have cat or dog. But when I think that a little puppy will wait for me home, alone, I feel pity. That's why I don't have pets. I have no opportunity to use the Internet. I cannot visit your website, unfortunately. I have an opportunity simply to receive your letters and to send you mine. Therefore I ask you again, please send me your picture. Unless it is difficult for you? What else to tell about myself? I always very much get tired on work. And though my work is not heavy physical work but like any doctor, I am in constant concentration and an internal moral strenuousness, because the health of people depends on my attention. I am always waiting weekends with impatience. Weekends are the only one possibility for me to get a rest and to get new forces. Weekends I spend variously. Sometimes I want simply to rest in my apartment. I live alone in my apartment. I have the one-room apartment with a toilet and kitchen. I like my apartment - small and cozy. On weekends I always clean apartment properly. I like purity. And though I always try to keep clean my apartment, all the same, always in the weekends I find what work to make in an apartment. But when I want really to relax I listen to music or read books. I like to read books especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I like to spend time with my female friends. I have two best lady friends. When we meet, the air is filling with laughter. We like to walk and to talk; we go to cinema and walk in the park. If you want I can tell you about my friends. I like very much to spend time in nature in the open air. I like the sea. I live not very far away from the sea, but should tell that I have been there very seldom. I like woods, mountains, lakes and the rivers more. Camping in Russia is very popular. I adore to go to the forest and to live in a tent though now I have such opportunity seldom. I like to look at night illumination and cars headlights. I like very much to look at the stars. In August our sky abound with stars. It is incredible beautifully. I like to cook on the fire. There is nothing more wonderful than when the fragrances of forest, mountain rivers and smoke mix together in the air. I am romantic undoubtedly. I really like to cook. I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well doesn't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the man's heart (smile). May be she was right. We have In Russia many national dishes, such as an okroshka, uha, borsch, golubtsy. I am not sure if you know such dishes. These are Russian national dishes. What dishes do you prefer Randall? Looking back at your life would you like to change something? I have to finish. I hope my letter was not stodgy and uninteresting. I will wait for your letter with impatience.
I wish you peace and kindness. Julia.

Letter 10

Hi Randall! Today definitely good day - day of dialogue with my friend Randall! (Smile). How it is wonderful to receive something that you really wait. And in a case with me it of course your letter! Thank you! Today was a difficult day, and dialogue with you removes my physical weariness. The quantity of patients has considerably increased for some last years. Here many people lives in the remote areas, impassable districts. They lives even without an electricity in absolutely unsuitable conditions for a life. And it certainly becomes the reason of a plenty of diseases. The sad fact. Sometimes I want our president to live here instead of the Kremlin, simply to understand what life is. Maybe in this case all wars would end much faster? Forgive me that I tell you about our problems, simply I write all what in my head. If you do not like to read about it - simply tell me.
Thank you for new pictures. I already spoke, that you are a handsome man.
You asked me if I ever traveled to another country. My knowledge of other countries is limited by television show. Unfortunately outside Russia I was not. Likely it is very interesting. When I leave somewhere from city even if it is not far from my city, I am glad very much. Hardly this can be named travel. But, for me is so.
By the way Randall I have asked you about your family in my last letter because it really interestingly for me, as all my family has passed away.
My parents were military, mom was the military doctor, father was the officer and we hadn't constant house because they very often got the notice about new place of service, in places with the military conflict. Therefore my childhood was not very cheerful. We lived in temporary habitation outside of zone of conflict, therefore sometimes I did not see my parents some weeks, and I was at home absolutely alone, being an eight-year girl. Therefore since the early childhood I am able to cook, sew, knit and do any heavy physical work. Now I absolutely agree that it's correctly said that:"Thing that does not kill us makes us stronger". Don't you agree Randall? When father got new place of service near to Kazakhstan, I have gone to study in the good medical university in Tomsk. I lived in student's hotel on distance of 600 kilometers from my parents. But we had meeting some times in the year. Later my parents got new place of service and have left to live in the Bogatov. And I saw my parents only once in one year. At university for the first time in my life I have found a true friend (it is Olga) who is my best and reliable friend till now. We have together passed through a hard time when have been compelled to study and work in the evening and at night,- just to support itself. After ending of university I was to get direction for intern in Tomsk area, but I have received the letter from mom where she informed that daddy has been killed in military collision. There is nothing worse than to find out about death of the parent from the letter. After that I began to live with mom because I was afraid to leave her lone at such difficult period. One and a half year ago my mom has passed away. I will not describe all pain and suffering which I had at that time. Simply I want to tell that all ups and downs, all pleasures and misfortunes that were in my life have led me to who I am now. The destiny was not tender with me, but I am grateful to my destiny for my parents, I am grateful to my destiny for my friend Olga, because it really a gift of destiny. And I hope Randall you are not angry with me that I talk to you about it? It is my life and it is a part of me. And how you would learn me more if I would not tell you it, really? And I as well would be glad to learn more about you. Your life is very interesting to me. Are you grateful to destiny for anything in your life Randall? How often you become tired? Do you like the nature, rivers and lakes, woods and mountains? Are you religious person Randall? I will wait for your letter so please write me soon! Sincerely and with the best regards.
Your friend (I hope) Julia.

Letter 11

Hi Randall!
How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when I have received your letter I really was glad. Many thanks. At once I want to tell to you about my opportunities to write letters to you. I write letters on my job because I have no the personal computer. The computer is in an accounting department. Lady who works with a computer will allow me to use a computer in my interests sometimes. It depends not from me, unfortunately. I work from Monday till Friday. It is Russian standard. Therefore I will not be able to write you and to receive your letters Saturday and on Sunday. But sometimes I work Saturday and even Sunday. In fact any pain hasn't schedules(smile). Therefore, maybe I will be able to write letters in the Saturday or Sunday.
Thank you for your picture. It is a fine picture. You are a strong and handsome man. I very much like this picture. It is wonderful, when a man combines force and charm. It happens so seldom. Forgive me for my frank words. But I always speak what I think. I think there is nothing bad in it.
You have pleasant appearance and it is wonderful.
But my friend! The size of your pic was extremely big! And our service mail unloaded during one hour. Can you make pictures of small volume? Forgive me, but I had a problem because of the size of your letter. Your letter was 3 Mbytes! It is too much for our system of the Internet. I want to find the partner in life to enjoy life together and to go in the future together. I want to find a man who will be my support and protection. I want to find a man, with whom we will create the world of love, kindness and honesty. I want to see in a man - honesty and kindness. It's main thing because the lie and a rage spoil any relations. I want to find the guy who in reply to my love will present to me his love. Heart of a man is most important.
I am so sorry that you had so a lot of negative experience in dialogue with people. I do not understand people which put material values above spiritual. I hate lie and of course I understand you as you have been deceived so often. I sincerely regret. For me the material world is absolutely not important. I adult lady and I know the value of a life. Well, I will tell you more about my interests. I like various types of music. I like to listen to classical music. I like Dire Straits. But my favorite is Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is a great band. I like Robbie Williams, Madonna and many others. In America there are a lot of great musicians. I like Russian musicians but likely you do not know them. OK, movie! I like works of such Russian directors as Konchalovsky, Mikhalkov. My favorite movies are "The Barber of Siberia" and "Burnt by the Sun". It's masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The American movie in Russia is considered like the greatest. I like American movies very much. Brave Heart, the Sixth Sense, Rainman, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, the Godfather, Groundhog Day, the Scent of a Woman, Dragonfly. My favorite actors - Bruce Willis, Al Pacino, Kevin Costner, Samuel L. Jackson, Uma Thurman, Tom Hanks, Kevin Spacey. My hobby, if it's possible to tell so - the English language. I have loved English long ago, when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I have entered in group of the English language and I am happy that I made it. I like your language very much. After school, I continued studying English at the university. I like this language. I have been studying your language for 18 years. I want to know this language perfectly. I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you won't angry. But my biggest predilection that will be with me during all my life is the knitting! My mom has taught me to knit in the childhood, and now I knit sweaters, jackets and waistcoats for myself and for my friends. I like to knit very much, and I like woolen clothes very much. Basically all warm sweaters that I have, I have made by my own hands. I do not know if in your country the knitting is popular, but here it is very popular. What else to tell about me? I have no children and I was never married, though of course I was in relationship and even thought that it will lead me to the happy future. But now I haven't anything except of bad and painful memoirs. Randall, how you would describe your character? I never tried to describe features of my character to somebody. I live with a smile on my face and with hope in my heart. I think I can consider myself an optimist. And maybe it has helped me to dare to write you. I saw a great deal in my life, and for 29 years I have passed through a lot of vital tests. And I know that I do not need many things to be happy. All I need is a man, friend, soul-mate, love. And my life has led me to the fact that now I seeks it in such way. And I do not think it is bad. How do you think? I live honestly, and it brings pleasure to me. I know that happiness not requires many things. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love cannot be happy. And I speak not only about love between a man and a woman, but also about love to a family for example. I have no family anymore and it really oppresses me. I always recollect my family. Randall, you meet your family often? I very much want to return that time when I had family. Are you looking for the soul mate or just a friend? What are you looking for in a soulmate, Randall, if you are looking for? I hope to receive your letter soon. Sincerely and with the best regards.

Letter 12

Hi Randall!
First of all I want to apologize for my delay with my answer. Please do not be angry with me. Unfortunately I had no opportunity to write to you sooner. I hope you remember me? I have written to you the short letter and you have answered me. I wanted to answer at once to not keep you waiting for my answer, but I got access to a computer only now. Please, forgive me. I am very glad that you have answered to my letter. Thank you that you have found time for answer. Probably first of all I should write the most important thing. I hope and I think you are not very much afflicted that I live not in your country (I think you already know about it). But I very much hope that it does not frighten you, because I am the same lady like many other ladies living in the different countries. I am the same person with heart and soul. I very much am afraid that my nationality and my residence will disappoint you and you will not write to me more, but at the same time I sincerely hope that nationality and distinction of cultures for you is not the most important things in a lady. I sincerely think that there are no borders and distances for friendship. And if your interest is not limited by distance or borders, I really will be very glad. My country is Russia. Now I live in village of Bogatov. It's a small settlement, where live a few hundreds inhabitants. Probably if you want to have the best understanding about where I live, I should tell you that my village is located close to the big city - Shahty. It is a city located in Rostov area - in a southern part of the European Russia, near to such known cities as Semikarakorsk, Novoshahtinsk. In the childhood I dreamed to be a translator of the English language. I dreamed to work with our President to know all state and international secrets! (smile). But the destiny has disposed differently. I think our president doesn't need my services now because I am gynecologist, and I think that our president would not allow me to examine him (smile)! I began to get education in the comprehensive school with a medical bias. After ending school I entered the Medical University. Now I work in a clinic. I work as an gynecologist. I already said that my name is Julia. Randall, I promised to share with you my picture, I fulfils my promise with worry and with pleasure. In addition to a picture I want to tell that color of my hair is fair-haired, though sometimes I like to change color of hair. I hope you are not disappointed very much that I am a blonde, because I know that all men love more brunettes? It is a question!!! (smile). My height is 5 feet 6 inches. My weight is 115 pounds. And of course you should know that I am 29 years old. My birthday is 18 November 1979. I understand that all people have various tastes and interests, but I sincerely hope that my picture and my appearance will be pleasant for you. But if my appearance doesn't conform to your tastes and interests, I will understand you, of course. I the optimist at heart and it's often help me in my life. I already adult woman; and I look at the life with a philosophical shade. But as though I did not try to inspire myself that I absolutely happy woman, I can't do it. I have fine lady friend, I have job and my apartment. But there are things without which people cannot be happy. And for me it's not material things. I have written to you the first and it means that I am ready to share with you my thoughts. I am very glad and grateful to you for that that you have answered me. Anyhow, I hope that you, just as I, have interest in our dialogue, and I will wait your answer. In the end of my letter I want to ask you the most banal questions: what music you like, what movies you prefer. These questions are really interesting for me because I like movies and music very much. I with pleasure will tell to you about it in my next letter if you really want to learn more about me. Do you like your job, Randall? Had you ever had experience in correspondence with a friend from other country? Maybe you are more skilled in this than I am? If you do not want to answer these questions, please do not answer. It is simply my female curiosity. I will be very grateful to you also if you will send me your pictures. I will be happy to have your pictures in the computer. With the best regards.

Letter 13

Hi, my Randall.
I even do not know what to tell first. I simply hope that you will be happy!The most important, finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am very happy!!!!I as well have found out that I will get vacation October, 15, 2009.I have been to the company that reserves airway tickets. I askedthem how I can reach Vancouver (YVR) and how much it costs. They have offered to me the roundtrip ticket that costs $1274 USD. I asked them to find cheapest ticket, because this price is expensive for me. They have answered that they have a cheaper ticket and the beginning of the flight October, 20, 2009. It costs $ 1169 USD. It was the best variant for me. I asked them to reserve a ticket. But they refused, because they can't reserve the ticket without advance payment. I must pay full cost. I have asked if I can pay a part of money now, andthe other part later. They have told that it is possible, but I will belimited by term. And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket withinof this term, I will lose already nested money. I have agreed because itis the only chance for me, because I must give to anti-emigrationcommittee a data about my payment. By this moment I had only the concretesum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid $ 720 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what Olgaand I could do - we pawned our gold earrings and rings and I got $ 136 USD. That is all I could do. The number of the flight on which I will get the ticket is 417 Aeroflot-Russian International AirlinesThe time of departure from Moscow is 5:50 am. The time of arrival in Vancouver is 4:25 pm.I will change a plan in Amsterdam, number of the flight Northwest 8681. After this I will fly to Vancouver, to you.I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did, I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through somany difficulties, and I have overcome the most difficult. But all thesame I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise. I amalways ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but atthe same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation.To get the visa I have spent much more money than I expected. But peoplewere ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than 500dollars to get all documents, I paid in municipal committee, in theministry. Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay fortheir help. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I wassure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get avacation payment. We get a vacation payment after ending of a vacation.I asked to give me this money now because I need this money urgently. But,at the last moment I have got the answer that I can get this money urgently only in case of serious illness or for example in case of death of therelative. I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting.But I must pay remaining sum. It is $ 313 USD. And I must pay moneybefore October, 9 evening. Otherwise I will lose my nested money and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not askyou, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had to tellyou that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travelcompletely. But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all mydiligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand thatfor you it is too big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And500 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 856 $ that I havegiven for the ticket are huge money for me. But I want you to know that Ihave given everything not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of us,for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want tomeet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, send money to the helpbefore October, 9 evening. I want you to be confident in my sincerity,that is why I send you the view of my visa. I want you to see the result of my efforts.If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Olga said that you can help me with the help of remittance system. So I have addressed to the nearest bank. I have been told that they use the system ''Western Union''.They have told that it is very convenient office for me; and this system works always and reliably. I give you necessary elements for sending moneywith the help of ''Western Union'':The name of bank:DONKHLEBBANK SHEVCHENKO, 135 SHAHTY , 346500 for Bessergeneva Julia. In bank I have been told, that to get the money, I must tell to employee of bank your full name, your full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers - Money Transfer Control Number. You will get this number in your bank if you will send your help. Only with presence of all this informationI can get your help.I do not know what answer I will get from you. I very much am afraid that you will not help me. But I want to tell, that I really need you, and I simply can't endurethe thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I understand thatit is big money. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. I really ask you to help me. I will give you back all your money at the earliest opportunity.
I have written you honestly and sincerely. Are you with me?
Your Julia.