Letter(s) to Edwin (USA)

Letter 1

Dear
Thank you so much for your letter,i'm very very glad to get it.Haven't you noticed that we became very close to each other thought we've written not so much letters but i think there really exist some kind of link between some people,and maybe we are those people?...
Today i have to tell you not very pleasant news...I won't be able to write you anymore but you should know that it's not because i don't want but because i just can't afford it...I'm afraid a little bit to tell you about because i know that you'll think bad about me...please don't think bad...
But just imagine what would you do if you were me?...I think that it'd be difficult to answer this question...
Just don't judge me for that but help if you can.I'm sure that you don't want to lose me as i don't want to lose you.I was never happy in my relations with men and hoped that you can help me with it...Can you?...
I won't tell you anything else because i'm ashamed of this letter but what else can i do?I do it because i can't just dissapear and lose you forever.
Here is the address of the translation firm i use : translating2000@mail.ru you can ask them any questions and maybe you'll decide to continue our correspondence.
Waiting with a glim of hope in my heart,
Ira