Letter(s) to Michael (USA)

Letter 1

Hi, my Michael! My dear, excuse, for a delay of the answer! I even do not know what to tell first. I simply hope that you will be happy! The most important, finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am very happy Michael!!!!
My prince I have not stopped on it and later we with my girlfriend at whom I have stopped in Moscow have gone to office of this airline, company that reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Kansas City and how much it costs. They've told me that the roundtrip flight to your airport cost 2287 US dollars. It was too expensive for me and I've asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they've offered. It would be on the December 14 I have learned, that cost of tickets up to in one party will make 685 dollars, I was wondered if it was possible to reserve a ticket and to pay for it a part of the funds this time and the other part later, because other people can buy the cheap ticket and I'm not. But they've refused and I was in despair! I've asked them to help me so long time that tears have come to my eyes! And they've agreed! I have learned, that now return tickets are necessary for the proof of that I independently can return to Russia.
But there is an opportunity to change return the ticket on money in your country, or to change date. To me have told, that if will take return tickets the discount at a rate of 5 is given, it turns out that 685+685=1370 dollars and will subtract 5 these are 68 dollars that will make 1302 dollars, but still it is necessary to add to this sum of 10 from cost for registration of tickets and meal, it will turn out 1432 dollars,
The dollar exchange rate has fallen in our country and it is the cheapest tickets of an economic class, is cheaper a way to arrive to you I is not present. It was the best variant for me. They have told that I can pay a part of money now, and the other part later. it is possible, but I will be limited by term. And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket within of this term, I will lose already nested money. I have agreed because it is the only chance for me, because I must give to anti-emigration committee a data about my payment. By this moment I had only the concrete sum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid 770 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what and I could do - I pawned my gold earrings and rings In a pawnshop and I got 178 USD. That is all I could do.
10:40 am Depart Moscow (SVO)
Arrive Kansas City (MCI) 8:56 pm
Mon 14-Dec
Duration: 19hr 16mn
The number of the flight on which I will get the ticket is
Aeroflot-Russian Airlines 229 Northwest 245 / 2247
Connect in Amsterdam (AMS), Minneapolis (Minneapolis - St. Paul Intl.)
I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did, I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through so many difficulties, and I have overcome the most difficult.
But all the same I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise.
I am always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at the same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation.
To get the visa and all papers I have spent much more money than I expected.
But people were ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than 500 dollars to get all documents, I paid in municipal committee, in the ministry. Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay for their help. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. But I have received only a part. We get other part a vacation payment after arrivals in your country. Besides, you know, the part of funds was stolen from my apartment, and it yet have not returned to me. They Have subscribed in police to transfer to me funds in three weeks to your country, in three weeks, and I can return it. I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting. But I must pay remaining sum. It is 481 USD.
And I must pay funds before December 12, morning. Otherwise I will lose my nested funds and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travel completely. But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain.
I understand that it is big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And 500 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 948 $ that I have given for the ticket also I restored a door in an apartment before departure. It all are huge funds for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of us, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, transfer funds to the help before December 12, morning. I do not know if you want to help me or already not.
But i think you have told that I should let you know if there is anything you can do to help me. I believe you even though I am afraid to ask. But I have no other exit. I need you Michael. If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Here we have remittance system.
And I have addressed to the most convenient bank. I have been told that they use the systems "WesternUnion" and "MoneyGram". They have told that it is the American systems. And there I can receive your help very fast and I will be absolutely safety. You should transfer them into any office(bank) here in Moscow for Diana Bendak.. For an example, near there is a bank: Alfa Bank. Tverskaya St. 27 Stroenie 1-2 Moscow, 103050.
My registration address : Russia; Kamyshin City; Gorky street 7-18 code: 396576.
I send you the view of my passport. If the additional data will be necessary for you. There I have been told, that to get the money, we must tell to employee of bank(agent) your full name, your full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers - Reference Number.
You will get this number in your office if you will send your help.
Only with presence of all this information I can get your help. Also hey have told that funds it is possible to send online through a site www.WesternUnion.com And I will give you back all your funds at the earliest opportunity probably in 2-3 weeks. I think about you Michael all the time! I think about a meaning of funds, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play a main role in the life but it's not right! I do not know what answer I will get from you Michael. I very much am afraid that you will not help me. But I want to tell, that I really need you, and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. Are you with me?

Write to me soon!
With love, Your Diana.

Letter 2

Hi my Michael! When I waited your letter, I was so tense. I really was afraid to ask the help because people in Russia do not like to help each other.
Now in my life there are two people who I can rely completely on. Now in my life there are you and I feel myself as behind a stone wall. I am afraid of nothing.
I know that we will be together and I can thank you not by words but my feelings.
I can prove to you that you are worthy of most best in this life and if I can give you the best, I will make it. I ask you the help, and it is really necessary for me. Your words gave calmness to my heart. My dear! Your words have convinced me that I meet you and I will be happy as never before.
My dear, you frequently speak about scam. to me very unpleasantly it!
I do not force you to write to me the letter If you do not trust me, finish to write me.. Or If you will speak about mistrust to me again, I shall cease to write to you.. As It really offends me. sorry.
Michael my time is limited. I am obliged to pay full cost. I spend all the day trying to come up with any help but everything were possible it I got telegram from Maria and she with my brother is sending 5500 roubles ($183) to support me here,it is all they had Also I could borrow 3000 roubles (100 $) from girlfriend, here in Moscow. And we need about 190 more, I ask you only what I really need. But I want you to know, that I would be grateful to you in any case. I am grateful to you already now. Any your help is a big support for me. I will be grateful to you for any help.
I did not want to put you into inconvenient position. Please forgive me once again. The word of honor if I could do without your help, I would not began to ask you about the help. You are the last person to whom I has addressed for the help. I think nevertheless I must explain why I have addressed to you. I want you to understand that I really did all what I could.
I expected that I could convince the boss of mine to give me vacation payment now.
If I could receive this money now, I would pay my travel completely.
But I was refused. Also, I have been compelled to buy new door for my apartment.
But I cannot leave my apartment with broken door. That's why I have bought a Steel door and have employed the repairman to fix it. I could not make it by myself. And of course I have been compelled to pay for his work.
In Russia nobody will make it free-of-charge. Also you know, that thieves have stolen funds from my apartment. And they, still have not returned it..
But they have subscribed that will transfer to me funds in three weeks and I can compensate to you. I have paid for all papers for travel and a basic part of tickets. I did not want to tell to you about all these things.
But I want you to understand that I did not want to ask you. I really tried to make everything what in my forces. But I did not expect all these unforeseen circumstances. But now I have you, you are my hope and support, and I think that if I ask you the help, it is not a sin. I really want to be with you. I understand that I must do all by self. But I could not and I leave my destiny in your hands. I need you and I wait your answer, your love and your help. Once again forgive me. I so want to thank you.
I'm so happy that I will see you. Simply know, that I am sincerely grateful to you and I will prove to you it when I will arrive to you. I have given all what I could. And all what I have now are my Feelings, the sincerity of which I think I has proved; and Hope that you will not throw me now when the most difficult things are behind. Only $190 and we shall be together.
Please Michael I'm happy that I will see you. Now I am sure in it on 1000.
And it so calms me. Together we are much stronger, and to go thru obstacles together is much easier. I really haven't anybody more except of you.
My dear, I long time did not fly in a plane . And I should tell that I am afraid. I so often saw in TV-news about accidents, planes falling when all passengers perish. Are you afraid to fly by plane? I am really afraid.
And I am afraid that I will have feeling of a nausea. You should teach me how to not worry in a plane! I hope for you.
Your yesterday, your today, your for ever - Diana!

Letter 3

Michael today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried to not show it, I think you have noticed it. Michael I was sad because the boss informed me that approximately in two weeks the dentist cabinet will be closed for full re-equipment and repair. And when he have told me it, I thought my heart will stop, because when it will take place, I will not be able to communicate with you again for months! And it has brought infinite sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of the cabinet, the accounting department informed me that approximately in two weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept it.
And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart has appeared an other feeling - feeling of confidence, desire to make new steps instead of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it so wonderfully.
But a thought that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I talked with Maria and she asked me what I think to do. And when she has asked me it, I have understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I have told that I do not want to spend such a vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you during of month or two. And I have told that I want to meet you Michael! I have told her that I want to spend my vacation with you Michael! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Maria have told, that you Michael and I are such a good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore you will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightfully. So, what you will say Michael if I will offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend with me several days?
I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful. You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life. We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together... I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you.
I know all I need to do to come to your country. I have the passport.
But I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable quantity of documents, for travel and probable work in your country, find as many as possibly of other official legal persons, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I will quickly collect all necessary documents. I will get the all papers in two weeks!
And being the doctor I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor.
If the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some weeks the decision of the commission. But as soon as I shall be in your country, I shall have an opportunity to work, also there will be an opportunity, at desire, to prolong the visa or even to receive citizenship, If I shall want :) ... Michael with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me! I do not ask you about anything.
I will make everything by self. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden. Would you be happy to spend some time with me soon, Michael?
Anyway, we must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the medical cabinet will be closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence! It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take new step.
Maybe such opportunity will not be repeated again. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity, - an opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lifes and in our relations.
And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this time with you Michael!
So what will you tell? Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me? Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure.

With Love
Sincere Your Diana.

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