Letter(s) to IstvAn (Hungary)

Letter 1

Hi dear Istvan, you never stop to amaze me with the letters. I can tell to you with feeling in my heart, that I have very much got used to your letters and your thoughts which you it is fine transfer through the letter. I always like to come for work and to see from you the letter. And for me has no value short this message or big, it is always pleasant and joyful to me to feel your attention in heart. And I am grateful and very grateful to you in time given to me. My sweet sometimes there are such days when in soul very melancholy and it would be desirable to communicate, and to tell frankly at me happens such often... As you already know from my last letters at me few my congenial souls and not always near there is that person with which it is possible to talk on themes exciting me, will share the thoughts and experiences, emotions and feelings which are in my soul... But more recently I have understood, and have caught myself on such thoughts. ... That when I write you the letter, I try transfer to you all emotions and thoughts!!! I share with you all to that happens at me in a life, and mine soul!!! And you do not represent it became how much easier to live to me.!!! Knowing that on this planet, there is such person with whom I can to talk frankly about all. I know that this person will listen to me and will try to understand and support.... AND THIS THE MAN YOU!!!! My dear Istvan always when I see from you the letter and having read its my mood rises highly and very much for a long time!!! Dear I want will share with you the dream which has dreamt me at night!!! At this dream there was you, and it was so real that when I have woken up I some time could not understand that it was a dream.!! You have dreamt me for the first time, it was very surprising and interesting dream.... We went ashore, having joined hands. I laughed and talked to you, we enjoyed the company each other! Then we have sat down on sand (in a dream I even have felt that it was warm) and long enjoyed that as the sun disappears in water!! It was so beautiful, when the sun has half plunged into water and its reflexion has spread a path on a sea smooth surface. We sat having nestled to each other and I felt your heat... I did not wish to clear up, but through a dream I have heard a ring of the alarm clock. And my dream has been interrupted... I only wished to remain there in your hands, in comfort of your smile and attachment which we felt. I thought of you and about this dream all the day long and very much I wish to write you a poem which to me very much it is pleasant. The author it a poem the Russian poet, the name of a poem "Grief" I think that this poem reminds me my condition of soul:

Let I long,
But the grief washing is sweet!
It to me smiles with hope,
And the shade its lays down gently - gently
On belief of our meeting it is transient.

Let I long,
But my grief only about you!
It to me pleasure delivers,
When I will think, that someone
In silence as I, dream of you!

Let I long,
I am not free over the reason!
And I dream that was my defender …
Only you, only you, only you!

Let I long,
When you smile in a dream,
Whether but me? To me?
So who you - my dream
Or a life reality?

Let I long,
After all nearby there is no you,
You do not visit the house me!
And I on everything, on all am ready,
Only there would be you always with me!

Let I long,
I to be I want your favourite ideal,
I wish to see your image,
Same tender, native,
And the grief washing will leave down with.!!!

Very much I hope that you will like this poem. I with impatience expect your letter...
Elena.

Letter 2

Hello my honey Istvan......!!!!

As you today as your day has begun!? I'm fine, today early in the morning I do gymnastics. I try every day in the morning do gymnastics and from this I have very good mood and I feel vigorous all the day long :). Dear Istvan I on work have already adult woman familiar Christina she. She the doctor the cardiologist, and today during a lunch break we with her talked about ours to you to correspondence through the Internet!! She has told to me, that during their times there was no Internet and the computer and consequently many people had no possibility to find the love on any point of a planet, but now it to find second half for one thousand kilometres more really. After that Christina has smiled and had a joke, she has told that soon all people will turn to the robot and will be very lazy. But I have asked her why she so thinks!? And she has answered me, that she acquaintance through the Internet not seriously thinks. She has told to me, that I as the small child dream. I have told Christina that she is not right and has become outdated in the outlooks on life. She has asked me: many people get acquainted through the Internet!? I have answered her, that hundreds, thousand people from all world get acquainted with each other through the Internet. And also I have told her about my girlfriend which through the Internet have got acquainted with the foreign man and now lives in Spain. I have explained her that it very much even really, and have told to Christina about set of telecasts where speak and represent examples about many happy families which have created serious relations through the Internet and now live together. Also I have told her that she underestimates technical progress and possibilities modern the Internet!! And after that Christina has smiled and has told to me that that I am really right!! She has told that much today has found out for the first time from me about a modern life.!! She has wished my of good luck and mutual understanding in ours with you further relations :), and sent you regards!!! My dear I really understand, that Christina already adult person and her it is very difficult to believe in that that people can have any feelings to each other through the Internet. She and now lives memoirs of the youth and consequently all it her seems not real. When I talked with her I laughed much because she listened to me as though I told her a fantasy. Honey to tell fairly sometimes to me too this all seems a beautiful fantastic dream, but I ask the God and I pray that this dream when did not stop!! You cannot imagine as strongly I have changed inside during dialogue with you!! I began to feel in myself the romanticism and inspiration those feelings from which intercepts breath and it becomes difficult to breathe!! These feelings I so did not have not enough last time in my daily life!! On these feelings I have missed and now feel as in the first class as which little girl the boy which has liked sits on the next school desk at school!! Very much it would be desirable to write now to you something warm and gentle. That this letter has a little warmed you, your soul. It would be desirable, that from my words to you it became pleasant, good, joyful in your heart. Someone considers, that daily vanity it also is a life, true a reality..... And all the rest - dreams, romanticism, is unrealistic illusions. But I so do not think.... After all the life is, first of all the moments, instants when you worry sensations of pleasure, delight, excitement, happiness and love. For the sake of such instants also it is necessary to live. Yes, it is possible consider something unearthly. But what then in general all experiences, feelings which are tested by the person?? Especially, it at all a deceit, not a phantom, not a Mirage which will thaw without a trace. After all it is a reality - my thoughts, words, the phrases addressed to you, my liking.... And as a reality - those sensations and feelings which cause my and your letters in ours souls. I would like to cause the words in you good and warm emotions. To calm you if something disturbs, to instal optimism will share the pleasure. dear and I have understood mine.... All that happens is not casual!!! I have understood, that I LOVE YOU!!! I have understood that all emotions in the letter, go from LOVE To YOU!!! Actually the life is fine also it really so!!! Recollect Istvan after all in the childhood we enjoyed a life and for what did not long. Why, becoming adults, we do not become happier!?? After all the world around has not changed almost. Probably, all business only in ourselves... In that what we as we concern a life and surrounding people. Sometimes so it would be desirable to live one emotions and feelings, not counting something, not to call in question, and completely to trust not to reason, and the feelings. Some people think that it is necessary to live reasonably!? But I think that it is necessary to live happily.!!! After all the happiness without feelings does not happen, and the reason seldom gives us a happiness condition. . In the world it is so much reasons, that all life consider itself unfortunate, and so, apparently, it is not enough to be happy, now when I write you this letter I mentally I represent myself near to you. My honey Istvan, I represent as have sat down near you and silently I look, I try to make out lines of yours face and I observe, how you read this letter. I observe, how yours face, expression and a sight vary in process of perusal of these lines. As it would be desirable to guess, whether touch these words your heart and if - yes, that you feel and you worry now!? Let not I, but my words and thoughts to touch gently and tenderly you. My love, feel it warmly, let it as is possible longer not leave you. It is pleasant to realise, that now we with you one, you and I. Reading it lines, you involuntarily think of me. Let the instant, but now for you is not present anybody, except me. And not only my words, but also my thoughts which I transfer the letters, gently and tenderly embrace you. Whether it is quiet and good to you in these embraces, my love!? I ask, forget about the past, be not anxious about the future. That was and that will be - now completely not important. Live the present, live these instants and be happy my sweet.! Forever your Elena.

P.S. I send you photos, I hope they to you will like :)!!!

Letter 3

Hello my honey Istvan!!

How are you today!? As your mood!? I'm fine, and mood excellent!!! Thanks for your letter, I very much it waited. I was happy when I it have seen!!! Dear Istvan you represent today on work I read a horoscope and to me it has very much liked!! There it has been written that soon I am am expected by a meeting which I wait, and this meeting will be very important for all my life!! I think that it is a good sign, and probably this meeting it is necessary with you...!!! Yes, a horoscope it is very interesting I sometimes I read the forecast and I trust this. That write much it is true and at me happened!! Istvan and you trust in a horoscope!? My dear today in this letter I want touch very serious theme for me. And I very much hope that you will understand all correctly as it is very important. My honey sometimes I asked a question as so it has turned out that I have started to correspond with you!! I cannot this make exact definition why it wanted to me to write that to you, it was instinctively and now I think that it is destiny....!!! Honey I think that in our life all not casually, and I am HAPPY and I THANK DESTINY for that that it has acquainted me with YOU!!! I feel the female heart that you which that person I waited, that man with which to me would be desirable to construct a family...!!! You understand..., to tell frankly I HAS FALLEN IN LOVE in your LETTERS and THOUGHTS, and I very much would like to open and understand myself up to the end completely. But I am am upset very much with that fact that I cannot see now yours face, your beautiful eyes and feel your heat in the person..... From for this I cannot understand up to the end myself and understand the feelings!!! I understand that I should see you to feel proceeding heat not only from your letters, but also warmly starting with depth of your heart!!! I know that when I will see you it there will be last step that my sincere feelings could be pulled out from my female heart!!! My honey, I mentally thank every day the God for that that I had a fine man "YOU". I very long dreamt of such man as you....!! Thanks you, that you write me letters. You cannot present, that they mean for me. I am ready to inform all world, on the pleasure. You have won my heart. I feel the happiest woman in the world. Recently at me such sensation, that I know you all life. I all time think of how you spend the day and of what you think. My sweet I trust you, and I can tell with confidence to you, that you my DREAM. I think that with you nearby I will feel as behind a stone wall, YOU KINDNESS, GENTLE, COURAGEOUS I with you not that will not be are afraid also to me it will not be terrible!! I like it, and I very much wish to feel true the woman (fragile and gentle) near to YOU!! But I wish to tell to you that I too very proof girl and not when I will not be afraid if we with you will be threatened with danger, I will always protect the family...!! When you have started to write me letters, I have felt at once in your letters, something native for myself. And I was not mistaken. To tell under the truth, earlier I did not think, that it is possible to test any feelings, corresponding with the person who is far from me. But now I know, that it possible... As you think, possible for us to see each other in the person!? Write to me, that you think in this occasion...!? I you whole am gentle, gentle in your lovely cheek and the most treasured dream, for me now it is a meeting with you!! I with impatience will wait for your answer...!!! Yours Elena.

Letter 4

Hello my love Istvan!!!

I with big impatience waited your letter. Honey Istvan, my day is not full without your thoughts!! I always very much wait for that moment when at last that at me will appear time and I can see the eyes pleasant lines of the letter stating your thoughts. My love, these days I thought of us and about ours relations much. I have understood that mine relations and my love to you my sweet, more and more every day... And from this my soul sings and heart blossoms as a bud of roses... But I cannot will reconcile to thought, that "YOU" that man which give me HEAT sea, and the HOPE ocean is so far from me... I am am frightened very much by thought on that that I when I can not see you, touch hands and hear words and thoughts not only from your letters but also from your sweet lips. Mine honey in this letter I wish to tell to you, very seriously, that I am going to arrive to you!! I dear just this month at me begins holiday on work. On work once in a year it is possible to take holiday from me, and just I yet have not taken advantage of it!! I understand, that it is very serious step for my part, to arrive to the person who lives very far from me. But I all the same cannot contradict the desire and very much I wish to see you and to feel the presents relations proceeding not from the computer monitor. I very much wish to get acquainted with your relatives, to look at your life, therefore I have decided to go to you on a visit I very much it I want.!!! My love my desires all about you and consequently I very much wish to see you in the person. After all our correspondence can be infinite, if we cannot meet. In the letters to you I try to express completely myself and the thoughts. And I think, you feel it. Most of all, I am am disturbed now by yours relation to me. My sweet, one of these days I talked to the aunt about you. I told to it some parts of your letters. She it is very glad for me, and says, that recently I very joyful and happy ;). She has asked me: Elena you love!? And I answer: YES I very much LOVE!!!!! I know precisely when I wake up I I think of you when I take a shower I I think of you when I on work I too think of you when I go to bed you in my thoughts, you all time in my thoughts!! And consequently I know precisely, that you are not indifferent to me and I love you!!!! I cannot wait, I wish to be near to you because I love you mine honey! I am grateful to you for sincerity and for support which you gave me in the letters! I would like to tell about my love to you because it so is difficult for hiding, and it should not be hidden! I love you my sweet, and I wish to speak it always! I cannot without your letters now, your letters necessary for me, I cannot be on such big distance from which man I love! I LOVE YOU MY SWEET Istvan!!! Now I would like to reduce all distances to be near to you, and all to tell to you! My girlfriends, and relatives were very glad, when have found out about our feelings because you already became for them the friend! I have found sense of the life, I love you, and I without you melancholy my dear. I can receive 48 days of rest with my work, and we should start to plan my trips to you. I spoke today with the chief that we could define date my vacation from work. And he has told that it will be in the beginning to the next week. I never was abroad, and it will be improbable trips for me! Can to you will seem strange, that I write to you about this, but it is all so..... My love Istvan, me will be very much, very much, painfully if I am mistaken in the choice (in you). But if you tell to me "YES" I will be the happiest person in the world and to a smog to make you the happy man!!! I could give you all love, caress and care. I very good housewife also will create a house cosiness. I very much would like to wake up every morning near to you and while you sleep to make a tasty breakfast... Then I will awake you with a gentle kiss and when you on work I could clean the house. On holidays and days off we could go with you to the Cinema, go on the nature, go on walk on fresh air. I am ready on all difficulties of a life if I will be near to you. I am ready to divide with you all good and bad moments of a life. And also I will be for you the good friend and the good wife. At me very good speciality and I could be arranged for good work to fill up the family budget... From these all thoughts my head goes around and I cannot wait any more for our meeting I very much it I want!!! My love I has called on last night mum of my best girlfriend and was late at it!! I already wrote to you about my best girlfriend which also have got acquainted with the husband through the Internet and now lives in Spain!! At her now very amicable and happy family!! Her parents live absolutely near to my house and as I them very much know for a long time that has decided to come to her to mum and will share the female secrets!! :) She has very joyfully met me as I very much do not have free time and I very seldom visit her!! She has invited to come into the house and to turn grey to have a drink coffee with sweets and to talk about our female affairs!! We with her have very lovely sat and have frankly communicated!! :) I found out much from this that happen in their family!! And also I her have told about ours with you to correspondence and about our serious relations!! She very much was delighted for us and even had a joke: She has told that soon in Russia there will be no Russian girls because all girls will be taken away by foreign men and will take away to itself abroad:0))!! Honey I found out at her a lot of the interesting information concerning departure of citizens from Russia!! There is it not so difficultly as I thought!! She has very in detail explained all to me and even has given the travel agency address in which her daughter made all papers and did the visa to a trip to Spain!! Still she has told that this travel agency very good, and economical and is better will address for registration of all necessary documents and the visa there! I have spent yesterday very pleasant evening and have very pleasantly communicated!! :) My sweet I think of our meeting constantly, and very much I wait when this wonderful day will come. I want to tell you that tomorrow I will go in travel agency and I shall start to make documents and visa for your country. I promise that we shall together very soon. I love you very much!!! And I so wait day when I can tell to you these words looking in your eyes :) Ok I will stop now but will write to you again soon. My most kisses for your sweet lips and my my warm hugs for you!!! Know, that I the happiest woman, and you of the composer my happiness! I love you my sweet man!!!!! You always in my heart! Always yours Elena

P.S. My love I has brought today new photos. I very much would like to make to you pleasantly and that to you on soul it became pleasant and warmly!! :)...

Letter 5

Greetings my sweet Istvan!!
I have come to the cafe Internet, I even flied here as on wings!!! I so am happy last days, from that that you exist in my life!! I cannot transfer to you all words, but to you I will whisper in it ear gently gently when I will be with you!! I love you, I want you, I wait for our meeting as happiest day in my life!!! On work all speak to me: You that such happy?! And I am afraid to tell about the happiness :) Simply there is a sign that it is not necessary to speak much about the pleasure, and that it can leave. Therefore I answer all shortly: I am glad because I had love a man :)!! Me ask well tell to us what at you relations, I try to hold back. I tell only to close people, with the girlfriend we speak about you I all much I tell her I am not afraid to speak about this!! She sincerely rejoices to our happiness!! You my happiness you my man, I love you and it is not important how old are you, in our country there is a saying, all age are obedient to love, I agree that to your parents not necessarily to know about our relations and we can meet in the Great Britain!! Yesterday wished to come into the cafe Internet to write to you the letter but after work was already late and I have hastened home, have got tired very much. From thoughts on you my heart beats, very much very quickly and is ready to blow up for pleasure!!! I love you, I love mine Istvan!! I can not more without you, please give we will fast make our meeting!! You have kindled my heart, I wish to meet dawn and to see off a decline in your embraces!! Very much I love you and I miss I wait from you for letters!! Your Elena

Letter 6

Greetings my sweet Istvan!!
I have come to the cafe Internet, I even flied here as on wings!!! I so am happy last days, from that that you exist in my life!! I cannot transfer to you all words, but to you I will whisper in it ear gently gently when I will be with you!! I love you, I want you, I wait for our meeting as happiest day in my life!!! On work all speak to me: You that such happy?! And I am afraid to tell about the happiness :) Simply there is a sign that it is not necessary to speak much about the pleasure, and that it can leave. Therefore I answer all shortly: I am glad because I had love a man :)!! Me ask well tell to us what at you relations, I try to hold back. I tell only to close people, with the girlfriend we speak about you I all much I tell her I am not afraid to speak about this!! She sincerely rejoices to our happiness!! You my happiness you my man, I love you and it is not important how old are you, in our country there is a saying, all age are obedient to love, I agree that to your parents not necessarily to know about our relations and we can meet in the Great Britain!! Yesterday wished to come into the cafe Internet to write to you the letter but after work was already late and I have hastened home, have got tired very much. From thoughts on you my heart beats, very much very quickly and is ready to blow up for pleasure!!! I love you, I love mine Istvan!! I can not more without you, please give we will fast make our meeting!! You have kindled my heart, I wish to meet dawn and to see off a decline in your embraces!! Very much I love you and I miss I wait from you for letters!! Your Elena