Letter(s) to Gerald (USA)

Letter 1

We never intended it
to go this far
We never were seeking love
or even romance
We never dreamed this
would happen to us

We began as strangers
that grew to be friends
We began by being
reticent and careful
We began to grow
more open and candid

We revealed our thoughts
and our emotions
We revealed our bodies through
descriptive words
We revealed our desires
our longings, our wants

But I will never experience
the scent of her desire
I will never hear her
moans of pleasure
I will never caress
her creamy skin

We live over a
thousand miles apart
We each live bound
permanently to another
We live connected only
by a thin copper wire

If only we had met
many years ago
If only we had met
when we were both free
If only cyberspace
were real space
...... my life is full of shit and i feel so lonely