Letter(s) to Jeffrey (Australia)

Letter 1

Hello Jeff!!!

I am pleased to get the letter from You. I to want to hear You more and I hope that find the good friend. My name is a Rufina to me 29 years. I much want to find the good friend hope, the satellite during life You understand me and we can correspond with you? I should like to report small about itself, this for me for the first time I never got acquainted through Internet but I think do the exception for itself. I have finished university, I doctor (the surgeon medicine) work in clinic of 4 years. I much love the nature. I live one in house in which there is 2 rooms, I have a small dog by name Chipa. I have much friends. I much love to spend its free time with them. I very pleased that I have a good friends... I think that friends very important for each person. write me little about itself as You, conduct its free time that You love. I wait anxiously your answer.

Your friend Rufina ...

Letter 2

Hello Jeff!

You have written the letter to me, it is very pleasant. Thanks, that you have found, that minute has answered me. Sincerely conversation I Could not hope for it. I do not know what to tell in my first letter because I never got acquainted through the Internet before. It - something new and unusual to me. But I shall try, write good letters to you. I assume, that you will be capable to understand mine Words also that I shall tell to you. I think, that will be correct if I start to speak you about mine all over again because it was I Who started to write. I am not confident, that you will love my letters, that they will be interesting to you but if it will not be so You will write to me about it. Well? Probably you will be surprised, that I do not live in your country. But I hope, that it does not shake You. Same I similarly to many other ladies in other countries in the world. I am a usual woman who has hands, legs, main a Heart which is the most important. I think, that my heart is very sensitive. I hope, that you will understand it from my letters. I shall be very happy, if the distance between us does not do afraid you, and you will answer me. Please not be too strict to My mistakes in words, the English language - not my native language. But I Assume, that I know it well. Well, my name - Rufina, as you To know. You can name me as you like. I shall not be disappointed. To me of 29 years. My birthday - on 28 -th of May. I was Given birth in 1981 . My height - 169 see. My weight - 52 kg. I live in city Kazan . Kazan known city of Russia. Kazan - very much beutive city. I assume, that you would like city if you saw it. I dreamed to become an actress in my childhood. Probably it - dream of many girls. But my dream did not become true. It is serious The validity of a life. I have finished medical university. My formation will consist of 3 levels: school, college, university. I Studied within 18 years. All 18 years I have studied the English language also. I have finished university in age 25. How to me gave with a medal for excellent results during my studying. Do not think, that I brag (Smile). Than I worked as the second surgeon in small clinic within 4 years. It was very much intresting and in the same Time responsable. I was happy to give health of people, to help them. Many things depend on me during actions. I think in The future I will be capable the surgeon to become independent. You think, what it - good dream? Probably that I shall work in Clinic, as the basic surgeon. Now I have the small house with a small garden. I live one for this reason I am not capable to Work in a garden it is constant. But however my garden is very beautiful and pleasant. I like to raise flowers because They the most beautiful which have been created by the nature. I live one, I have no neither children, nor the boyfriend. Sometimes I Feel like very lonely in my house. Perhaps, for this reason I have decided to get acquainted with you. To me already 28, also I take a life philosophically. I have the house, work, friends, but I cannot tell, that I am happy. I have was not present Many who I can my best half. I have written to you all over again, it means, that I can divide my ideas and feelings with you. I hope, that you will not be Laughter. And we shall write many letters to each other. I am very pleased and grateful, that you have answered my letter, because I Decided to try to get acquainted through the Internet only once. And it was a miracle for me when you have written to me the letter. If it Was not, so I shall never try to do friends through e-mail once again. I never get acquainted before in such a way. I cannot Understand completely as it works because I have no computer. I - only beginer in work of the Internet. But I hope, that I shall be Be capable to write to you constantly. I hope, that you are interested in our dialogue, as I. I would like to ask you some questions. If you do not want to answer them, you could not to make it, I shall not be offended. What do you do? What your trade? Make you Similarly to this? Who - nambers your family? I ask to tell it in more detail. With whom you live? You can tell to me About all of you, that you want. I shall be pleased to know all about your life. It - only female curiosity. The hope will not offend it You. I understand, that tastes differ, but I hope, that my image will be pleasant for you. But I should tell, That I cannot receive the big files. I shall have trouble. As I use a computer on work. I hope, that your letters will not be Will be more than 0,5 mbytes, at us very expensive Internet. If not I shall understand and I shall not be angry. I hope, that you will write to me soon. I thank you Beforehand. With the best regards.

Rufina ....

Letter 3

Hello Jeff!!!

How - you today? I hope, that all - is good. I also am happy today because I have the letter from you. I have written to me! I very happy. Now I work, and I write the letter to you. Last time I have not had time to add to you the letter. I hope this time to me will not prevent to make it. And so. I did not write to you about my family. But I think that you should know about it, and now I am going to make it. I have been given birth also dews to Kazan. Now I live here. I do not make remember my father because he did not live with us. I was grown only by my mother. We were the best friends on the ground, we were very much the friend close to the friend. But my mum had a cancer of a stomach, and she has died in 2002. Year was horrable for me. I, though I was the unique person on the whole planet. It was awful and incredible. I could not understand it for long time. I was empty. It is difficult to imafine for ideas in my head and my feelings. Even now I remember my mum very much frequently. You know, that I had very happy childhood. My mum and I went in park together. We play together various games. We spoke much. Only than, several years I started to understand last, that she felt qulity because I had no father with me. But I have received news from other people, that it was no mistake of my mother. My father (I cannot name his "daddy") never loved my mum. Me has left her lonely when he has learned , that my mum was the pregnant woman. It was very difficult for her to bring up me, to feec me to buy me of a dress for this reason I do not carry bosh. We lived only her tiny earnings. But we never complained of our life - we have solved all problems together. But if we were happy, that we tried to tell about our success to our neighbours. My mum always spoke me, that I should marry the person which I shall love. She adviced I to besure in the person before movement to marry him. I think the same. I shall remember the moment during long time. I shall never forget mine eyes of mother when my leg has been broken also I couldn " t, go. Then we were far from our house up to, collects berries. Only my mum and I. But she has taken me on her hands and bore mine to our house. You can imagine it? To me there were 12 years when my mum was carry of me duringan hour. I have understood, that it was difficult to her, but she did not want to leave me alone in a wood to go in the house, to ask whom - that the help. She was afraid, that something awful happen with me in a wood. I hope which you understand, that memory of my mum road for me. After death of my mum I feel very much lonly because I have no neither sisters, nor brothers. To be more exact, I have no any relatives . But I have girlfriends. They Elena and Masha . They are remarkable girls. We can name us sisters because we are friends more than 15 years, and we help each other. I - confident absolotely, that if I ask Elena, Masha to help me they will never refuse. Our attitudes are very strong, Time has checked up them. One year ago Elena married, and her husband has taken her to his native city. We write letters each other very much frequently, but it is a pity, that we cannot see the most part the friend from the friend. But Elena has arrived to us in the spring. I taljed very much the whole week, but it was too little, we could not tell each other all events. Now Masha and I wait for Elena the following arrival . And you, make you hawer such friends? Also In the summer for entertainment I work in my small garden. I raise flowers. But as a hobby it certainly flowers. Roses, orchids, tulips, an aster and it is a lot of others. But main the place in a garden has my favourite flowers, has raised also an orchid. The hope you can sometime see it. It is a pity, I can write more. I hope, that you will answer my letter. I also hope, that you are interested in our connection. I shall tell to you more about my life in my ambassador of letters. I think, that you are tolerant (smile).

Sincerely yours Rufina .

Letter 4

Hi Jeff!

How are you? What is the weather like today in your country? I hope all is well. Today it was small a rain. But it did not last long. Now the air is fresh outside and I'm glad that I can sit near the window and write a letter to you. Today I have had a difficult day, but now i'm free and I can spend my time writing you. Today it is cloudy outdoors that's why I am in a lyrical mood. By the way I'm sorry for my previous letter. It was sad. I did not want to make you disappointed. I hope you did not get offended to my story about the mother. Well, I'm in a good mood and I want to tell you about my hobbies. I like listening to different music. It depends on my mood and feelings. I like Russian composers such as Dunaevskiy and Chajkovsky. But I also like listening to Mozart and Bach. I think they are great composers and no body will surpass them. I like Joe Satriane as well. I suppose he is a magnificent guitar player. I hope you agree with me. I like the group “ Dire Straits ” very much. I like “ Pink Floyd ”. They are not similar to any others. There are a great number of popular musicians abroad. But I remember Russians as well. May be you heard about the Russian group "Spleen" or "Chaif." But I think the most famous Russian group abroad is “ Gorky Park ”. Probably you've heard about it. They had a great success at the beginning of 90s. By the way I like going to the cinema very much. I like Russian directors such as Tarkovsky, Konchalovsky and Mihalkov. Now days a lot of foreign films are on the screen in Russia. Foreign cinema is widely spread in Russia. I like such old American films as Gladiator, Brave Heart. Mel Gibson is a good actor. New films are also interesting to me. I have seen “ The chronicles of Riddick ” and “ Another vs Predator ” recently. I liked it. I have some favourite shows. For example - "Wildlife" from BBC. They show the most beautiful views of nature and animals. I like to watch programs about nature and animals very mach. I also prefer to watch NBA games. They are fantastic shows. But unfortunately NBA games are not very often shown on Russian TV. Criminal programs have the biggest rating on TV, because here TV reporters tell about crimes occurring during a day or a week, they tell about leaders and authorities of criminal business in Russia, juvenile murderers and racists, addicts, maniacs, etc. You know the level of crimes is extremely high in Russia. The majority of our country like to watch these programs. But I hate to do it. I prefer to watch some musical and entertaining shows, and as a rule they are our Russian programs and of course they are not known to you. Now you think that I spend my time in front of the TV screen with my mouth full of popcorn and it takes me the whole day (smile.) But it's not true. Actually I watch TV very seldom, once in a blue moon. I have no time and forces to do it. My health is the most important thing for me. I do not boast. My health is really good, and I always try to be in a good form. I jag every morning, try to spend as much times as possible in the open air. I have no car and I take a bus or whatever I mean transport very seldom. I take cold - not shower. I have been living in the conditions of rather cold winters and damp autumn since my childhood. Such king of climate helps to toughen my health. I do not smoke and do not take alcoholic drinks. I prefer a healthy way of life and I'm proud of it. Sewing and knitting are my hobbies if it's possible to say so. I also like to spend my free time gardening and gathering much rooms and berries. I love to ski and to skate in winter. I can speak about my hobbies for a long time. But I also want to say that I do not like some things. I do not like artful and envious people. I hate when somebody lies and deceives. I do not love cruelty and roughness. I'm not interested in people, who prefer to spend their time drinking alcohol a lot. I also do not like bad untasty meal and cloudy days (smile.) Jeff I shall be glad, if you tell about you many various things for me. I want to know about you more and more. Because you my FRIEND. You agree? Friends always should know well each other.

Your Rufina...

Letter 5

Hi my Jeff !

The day is wonderful today and I’m in high spirits and how are you? I hope all is well. Thanks for photos I am very glad to receive it. Yesterday I was in a bad mood. It was rain all day long. I like when it’s rain but yesterday it was pouring and it didn’t make me happy. I’ve already told you that I live in my own house. It’s very beautiful and comfortable, but it’s too old. The roofa is very old too and that’s why there are some holes in it. I’m disappointed that during the rain. The water goes through the hotels in the roof and makes the house full of water. I asked a specialist’s help, and he tried to repair some parts of the roof for many times but it didn’t help, because it’s necessary to repair the whole roof, I have to change the roof. And yesterday I come to the conclusion that I have to do it as soon as possible. More than it at this moment it’s necessary. My girlfriend Masha promised me to help. She always help me. I’m very glad to have such a girlfriend. She is very close to me and we often spend time together. By the way I told her about you ans she is happy that we write letters to each other. Masha says that I need a man who will help me and who will really love me. You know I really feel lonely very often but I believe in god luck. I believe in God, he always helps. I don’t remember if I told you or not about my dog. Its name is Chipa. He the boy, his breed chihuahua. It is very handsome. I like to play with it, I like to feed it, so I like to take care of it. Chipa is very tender, and it loves me too. Every evening it meets me near the house, and every morning it goes with me to the clinic and that it returns. You will laugh at me, but I must be sure that somebody or something waits for me in the house, no matter if it’s just my dog. I hope you do. I heard if a person has a pet in a house and if he takes a good care of it the person is a very good house keeper. I belive it. Masha has a dog at home too, and our dog like to play together. But sometimes dog fight. I’m sorry that I pay too much attention to it in my letters and may be you are not interested in it at all, but I want to tell you about the dearest living being in my life. I shall wait your pictures . In weekend I was in a cinema. Because this session began late. I and Masha looked “Wedding Weekend” . This very entertainment american movie. I like this movie. Masha was delight also. After arrival from cinema I to cook my favorite a dish - pancakes. I made it with jam a gooseberry. Very tasty. It's a pity, that I cannot treat you. Probably during week I will prepare for future house repair. I’ll look for people who will help me with it. I imagine my house after repair. It will be very cosy and nice, if everything will go well. I’m sorry, probably my letter is sad but I think you’ll be interested in thoughts and feelings. Tell me, if something will be interesting for you. I’ll tell you it in detail.
With best regards.

Rufina....

Letter 6

Hi my dear Jeff!

Thank you very much for your letter. It brightens my day! I hope that you have the same feeling when you receive mine. And of course, I enjoy our correspondence and I am serious. I consider you to be my friend, I think that you understand me in lots of things and it's easy for me to talk to you on many topics. You can ask me any questions you want. I think that this is very important for the relationship, if both of the partners want the relationship to grow. Trust is also very important, no relationship can be strong without it. Thank you for being honest with me and from my side I can say that I will be honest with you also. I think we should try to tell each other as much as we can.

I would like to know you better from inside, Jeff, because you seem very interesting to me, so I have a question for you: What qualities do you appreciate in people the most? In my opinion, honesty, faithfulness, kindness, sincere and understanding are very important in people. I also think that in every relationship trust plays the main role. That's why I think that 100 trust should be between man and woman, they should be able to say every single thing to each other, share all their joys and sorrows. If they have a problem they should try to find a solvation together. What do you think, Jeff? What is your opinion?

You know, Jeff, I think that age is very important in the relationships. I think that the man should be older than the woman. As for me I prefer my future husband to be older than I am. Older men know how to treat the girl right, they know what the girl wants. It’s much more interesting to talk to them. And there is one more thing. I am looking for the serious relationships and guys of my age they normally want just to have fun, they don’t have any serious intentions, they don’t think about future. I don’t like it. I am not against fun, of course, every person needs rest, but not all the time.
You probably understand me. What do you think am I right, Jeff?

My dear Jeff, please, tell me more about you. What are your goals and dreams? What are you looking for? And what are your intentions? It will be very interesting for me to know. If it's not hard, please, answer these questions for me. And feel free to ask me anything, I'll answer you with great pleasure.

I will be looking forward to your letter!!!!
Sincerely,

Rufina.....

Letter 7

Hi my dear Jeff !!

Thank you very much for your letter and your tender words and care.
You are so sweet to me, it is so pleasant for me to read your letters, when I close my eyes I can see you saying this to me, it makes me feel very good. That's a great feeling, I am thanking God that you are in my life. Even though we are far from each other in reality, in my dreams we are together, we are walking together at some nice place in the nature holding hands and saying tender and warm words to each other. I feel that you are very special to me, I need to read your letters like I need air or water for living. I couldn't even think that something like that could happen to me. Thank you that you are, Jeff .

You know, Jeff, I don't think that the outside beauty is the most important thing, you can be beautiful for some time, even the most beautiful, but in some years this beauty will go away, there will be other people who are going to be looking better. I think that the real beauty is inside your soul, that what stays forever. The person should be beautiful from inside, in my opinion. Don't you agree with me, Jeff ?

Jeff , I see in you the person who I can talk easily with, who is interesting for me, the one who is making me want to know you more and more. I would like to know your soul, I would like to know everything about you. I see that you are not playing with me or joking around, many of our thoughts are the same, our values are very close and we are looking for the same things, we both are looking for the special one. I see that I can establish the emotional connection with you, I can talk to you on any topic, it's very easy for me, it seems like I know you for a long time.

I like your thoughts about life and relationships between man and woman. By your letters I can say that you are a decent man with serious intentions. I like that in you. I think that we are even a little bit alike in that. I am also serious about our correspondence. I like to read your letters and I think that I will really like to talk to you in person, you seem to be an intelligent and well educated person. I hope that some time we are going to meet.

OK, Jeff , I am finishing my letter now and I hope that you are having a great day!

I am thinking about you and I am really happy that we've met! This thought makes me smile :)

Hope to hear from you soon!

With hugs, Rufina ...

Letter 8

Hi my dear Jeff !!!

It was very pleasant for me to receive your letter. Thanks for photos I am very glad to receive them. At you very beautiful daughters. This is really so, in my opinion, the combination of nice appearance and tender heart are your qualities. I am very happy that I've got acquainted with you, Jeff . We started our correspondence not long time ago, but I like your letters so much, it seems to me like I know you for a long time, your thoughts are so close to mine. I hope that in the future we will become very good friends or even more.

You know, Jeff , I was thinking a lot about my future life and I think that I would like to move to another country to live, there are few reasons for that. I can tell you why. First of all I should say that I want stability in my life. I think that it’s very hard to get this here in Russia. There are several reasons for that. I don’t have anything against Russia. Russia is a wonderful country, that’s my Motherland and I love it, but the economical situation here is very bad, you can’t be sure in the next day, but I am thinking about my future. Sometime in the nearest future I am going to have a family and children and I want my future children to be safe, I want them to have everything they want. In my opinion, this is very important. What is your opinion, Jeff ? And there is a second reason for my intention to move to live to another country. I would like to find my soul mate, the person I can trust completely, the person who is going to be near me all the time, love me and take care of me. Russian men have lots of bad habbits, they drink a lot. My dad used to drink a lot. It gave my mom much pain. I don’t want this to happen to me. So, I think now you understand why I would like to move somewhere from Russia.

I would really like to have a good and strong family based on good emotional connection first of all and understanding and surely love. I think that these things are the most important. I would like to have my second half near me to feel that I am safe, that I am loved and that I have a person near me whom I can give all my tenderness and care that is inside of me. I do have a lot to give, but for right now there is no one special whom I can give it to and I don't want to waste it just for someone, I want to meet my only one, my special one.

I am thinking a lot about you, Jeff , and I would like to hear from you soon. Ok, I am finishing my letter now and I will be looking forward to your fast reply!

With warm hugs,

Rufina ...

Letter 9

Hi my Jeff !!

I'm very glad that you have written to me. I need your letters more and more often. They make me happy. Now about my family. My mum had no sisters and brothers. Therefore I've no cousins. To me it's sometimes very lonely. But I'm glad, that I have Elena and Masha. Jeff I was determined with work in clinic! I shall be the surgeon. I shall soon have 40 days a free time. I shall work as the surgeon. Hope, that you is glad for me because the surgeon is my favourite trade. Today I have been late for work. When I woke up in the morning, my neighbour came to me. She is an old woman and she is a very good and king woman. we address each other when we need something. Today she came to me because she had a problem. The door to her house has been broken and she couldn’t close it. She lives alone as well, her husband died 5 years ago and now nobody is ready to help her. So, I went to have a look at the door. We tried to repair it but we could do nothing. I am a bad carpenter (smile). As it turned out something was wrong with a lock, it was necessary to ask a specialist’s help. Klava (this is my neighbour’s name) was very disappointed, what we could do, we are women, and it was clear that a specialist’s help was necessary. I tried to calm down my neighbour because she doesn’t feel well and it’s very dangerous for her to be nervous. She had to be hospitalized, but she refused to do it and now she has to take injections every day. I promised to ask for a carpenter. In our clinic there is a man, who is responsible for repair, if something is wrong with the clinic. He drinks alcohol a lot, but he has “golden hands” (in Russia it means that a person with “golden hands” can do all the things very good) I want to ask him to help my neighbour with her door. I want, that he attempt to repair my roof. I do not know whether he will agree. I shall hope for his help. I can’t find him now but as soon as I see him I’ll ask. It is very important to help old people. More than it our government doesn't treat old people well. Pensions are tiny. They don’t get any social aid. Our medicine is not free of charge. Old people have to spend all the money on medicines. Of course it is not good, it’s unfair, unjust. But the economic situation in Russia is not highly developed. Well I am not interested in politics but the question about social aid is very important for me.I wish to have the children 2 better three if the god will give. But only from the husband. I want in marriage once. And to live with my husband up to the end of a life. To bring up children and grandsons. It is my dream. I do not remember I wrote to you about my diploma? I have the diploma the Europe-standard. This diploma entitles to work as the doctor in your country.

Your Rufina

Letter 10

Hi my Jeff!!!!

Thank you very much for your letter, I was very glad to receive it as usual because your letters always put me in a good mood and make me smile :) Thanks for a photo I am very glad to receive it. I am thinking a lot about you and I like to read from you, Jeff. I am very glad that you understand me. You the unique person which to worry about me. You know, Jeff, I need to tell you something. I think that friendship is very important in the relationships. Let me explain what I mean here. I think that passion and affection are very good, but two people that decide to be together need to know how deal with each other in everyday life. You know what I mean? And I think that friendship between them will help a lot. I would like to see a very good, I can say the best friend in my soul mate. I think that emotional connection is very important, so that two people will feel very comfortable with each other. How do you think, Jeff?

When I am reading your letters, Jeff, I feel that you are honest and sincere with me, you are telling me a lot about you, so I want to give you the same thing. You know, I have a dream. I would like to find a true love, a special person who is going to love and take care of me and I will do the same for him. I want our love to be forever. I think that when I meet that special one I will give him all of my tenderness, care and love. And what is your dream? What do you want the most from life, Jeff? Please, tell me. It will be very interesting for me to know what you are thinking and dreaming about.

You know, Jeff, I need to tell you something. I have never thought before that this is possible to find a very good friend, somebody special with the help of Internet. But now I can say that this happened to me, I’ve met you and it seems to me like I know you for a long time even though we exchanged only a few letters. Now I can say that there is a person in the world who understands me, my life position, whose dreams and intentions are close to mine. You should know that you are dear to my heart, I am always ready to listen, understand and try to help you if you need that. Ok, I am finishing my letter now and I will be looking forward to your reply, Jeff!!!

I am thinking about you!!! :)

With tender hugs and kisses

Rufina...

Letter 11

Hi my dear Jeff!!!!!

Thank you very much for your letter, I was very glad to receive it. Honey, you know, yesterday when I was online and when I was thinking about you :) I’ve seen that story, that I would like to share with you. I hope you will like it, tell me your opinion on that, ok? Here it is: Whenever it rains, it is a very spectacular sight to behold. It can be a mild shower, a fierce thunderstorm, a light drizzle or even a display of lightning amidst a backdrop of scenic landscape, but all that I ask for is that when it rains, I want you to be by my side to admire and take in the beauty of life - water. An essential element that has kept us alive to this very day to continue being in love. Whenever raindrops fall from the sky, big or small, I can be assured that heaven is tearing for the sins of this world. And with every single tear comes drops of forgiveness and it is this act of forgiving that enables the human race to sustain an existence on this living hell and it is this forgiveness that gave rise to love which is the biggest forgiver of all. Watching the rain with you is like a very special ritual. When two minds are deep in thoughts, when two hearts are deep in love, when two people are not speaking but just enjoying the silence of the moment save the thoughts of heaven raining upon green pastures in front of us, we are able to hear each other better. We are able to think more about each other, care more for each other. Like a hand across your shoulders, a gentle massage on the neck, a kiss on the cheek or just the thoughts of each other. Every time when it rains, I feel so warm both physically and emotionally. You will be there with me, holding me tight, feeling the rain splattering against our faces, huddling on to each other for warmth when we hug and kiss in the rain. It is such sheer rejuvenation, experiencing what it is like to be refreshed and free from all burdens and worries, just being with the girl I love, in the rain. The chill of the wind might sear through my heart, the sky might be all gloomy and dark but I am sure that there will always be a rainbow after the rain. It will be a beautiful sight to appreciate in awe as the ray of seven colors stretches from horizon to horizon making it the most majestic view from afar. The warmth of the sun as it re-emerges, the chirping of the bird as they start to feed, the swaying of the tress in the gentle breeze are all but part of the picturesque scenery with us standing in the foreground, completing the picture, just like you complete me, feeling every single gap in my heart just like water filling up an empty glass till it overflows, with your love. The rainbow way above us, coupled with the landscape we are part of is our world of beauty but the greatest beauty of all is the one I will only ever love, standing beside me, with me. That will be you. This very special moment in time spent and shared together is liken to a celebration of our love that is everlasting and eternal, tried but true, encapsulated in the purest form of patience, kindness, understanding, concern, respect, trust and faith in our hearts forever... I hope you liked it, Jeff. This story made me think about you, hun :) I am finishing my letter now and I will be looking forward to your reply!!!

With hugs and tender kisses,

Letter 12

Hi my Jeff!

Now I'm writing to your letter and I'm happy. It's very pleasant that I have such a the close person as you are. It's a pity that you are far from me. But I will hope that we will meet one day. I think we will be glad to see each other when we know each other better. Masha ask me about you every day. I say to her that I'm constantly thinking about you Jeff. She is glad for me, and she always asks me to remember her to you. Earlier I didn't manage to find the carpenter. But today I have seen him in the morning and I asked him to repair the door in the Klava house. In the afternoon he came and said that he had done everything and changed the lock. I thanked him but he said: "Never mind" becouse he is always ready to help old people. My neighour came a little bit later and told me about the carpenter. It turned out that he refused to take money for his work. Klava tried to give him some money but he said that he would be offended if she didn't stop doing it. Klava said: "He has gone with nothing". By the way he and his college will repair my roof in the house. You know many people in Russia help other people and don't take money for it, if they know that the people have to money. I think it's the only good feature of character of the Russian people which roots go to the old far USSR. It's a pity that many Russian men became alcoholics. I remember that many-many years ago my mum and I had to make a fence around our house. But what could we do? My mum and I? When my mother came to a shop to buy nails, three men asked her what for she needed nails. She told them and they began laughing, when learnt that a young lady and her little daughter wanted to do. They came to our house together with my mom and everything was ready in the evening. They repesed to teke money. The only thing we could do for them just to feed them with pancakes after their work. By the way since that time it is my favorite food. One of the man asked if the had something to paint the fence. My mum answered that she would buy paint a little bit leter. Bu the very next day in the morning the 2 men came and they brought their own paint and paited the fence. We wanted to pay them for it some money, but they refused.They said that the paint was left after the painting of their fence. Yesterday in the evening I was thinking of my future work in the clinic. I'm happy that I will get my favorite job. I should not study, because I have the diploma of the surgeon of the European standard. I don't know how to spend this month, I don't want to waste my time uselessy. I must think it over. Of course I will write letters to you. But it will take only the part of my day. What to do in the rest? I must find a decision. I hope Jeff, you are not sick and tired of my letter.But I want to tell you much. I think you are not against of it, because I suppose you are my friend. Don't forget to write letters to me.

Your Rufina.

Letter 13

Hello my dear Jeff !!!!!!

Today the weather is good here. Thanks for photos at you the fine house. I have spent all my day outside. When I came internet cafe, I decided to check my e-mail right away, it was very pleasant for me as usual to receive a letter from you, I have been waiting for it impatiently!!! Jeff , your letters always bring me joy and good mood :) I am really very happy that I’ve got acquainted with you. You are like a wonderful dream that came into my life, I think and dream about you very often! :)

My dear Jeff , I think that there is something between us that make me trust you and open my heart for you, I would like to give you my full trust because I see in your letters how sincere and serious you are towards me.

Honey, I can’t describe you all of my feelings, the thought that the person like you have appeared in my life makes me feel so excited!!! You are far from me now, but I feel that my happiness is somewhere near me. I hope that we’ll be happy together. Sweetheart, all I’ve told you is very true, all of my words are coming from my heart and soul!

I wish you and the people who are close to you to be healthy and fine.
I am finishing my letter now and I will be looking forward to your reply.

I send you my tender kiss

Rufina...

P.S The country Russia
The city of Kazan.
Tatarstan Resp.
The house 29
Street pribrezhnaya

Letter 14

Hi my Jeff !

How are you? Thanks for a photo I am glad to receive it. Today I've the big desire to write to you. Hope you don't object? I suppose I can tell you about my bad experience in relations. If you are not interested in it you may stop reading the letter. I won't be offended. I think I can tell you the story because you have become very very close to me recently. I hope you have an idea of the problem with alcohol in Russia and I suppose you understand why I don't want to look for a husband in Russia. Let's begin since the very first day of the acquaintance. I worked in the clinic as a surgeon's assistant. I was going home after my work but it began raining and I could not go because I had left my umbrella at home. It was summer but never the less I didn't want to get wet and to take a cold. I was standing under the roof of the building waiting till the rain would stop. But the rain was not going to stop and I wanted to go home in the rain. But a young man was going in my direction with an umbrella. He saw that I couldn't go with an umbrella and offered me to take his one. I asked him: "And what about you?" He said that he would spend some time in the clinic and may be the rain would stop soon. I asked how I would be able to return him the umbrella. he said his adress to me and his name. His name is Vladimir. It was not far from the clinic. I wrote down his adress and promised to give him the umbrella the next day in the evening. On my home I thanked the yuong man and asked the God to stop the rain. But it was raining the whole night. I cursed myself that I had taken the umbrella and that he was wet to the skin because of me. I didn't sleep a wink at night. The next day in the clinic was so long for me. I was looking forward to finishing my work to give the umbrella back to Vladimir. I wanted to learn how he was. As soon as my working day was over, I chanded my working clother and left my work. Vladimir was standing at the door smiling. It turned out that he remembered the time when my work was over. He came to meet me. I asked about his health at once. he said that everything was all right. He didn't get too wet because he was running home. Then we walked for a long time. we talked a lot. My mum had died already and i was alone. He was the dearest and the closest man in the world for me at that time. He saw much of each other at time. But i didn't invite him my house I wanted to check him. Once we were invited to a Birthday party of his friend. I agreed to go to see his friends, as i wanted to know more about him. Vladimir didn't drink even champagne. I thought it was because of me, because I didn't drink as well. But his friends told me that Vladimir really didn't drink alcohol. I liked Vladimir. I think so did he. we became more than friends and he began to live in my house. First 2 months we were very happy, we were on the seveth heaven. But then he got a very good job. He became a lawyer. he made much money. But he began drinking alcohol. At first a little bit - then more and more. he didn't sleep at home at night. When he was drunk he began beating me. I tolerated, I beared it. I thought he change for the better, that he would the same he had been before. But nothing chanded. Once I was beaten by him bitterly and left my house. He didn't came back 9 days. Our friends told me that they had seen Vladimir with other girls. I came to the conclusion that it was enough to bear it. When he came back he even wasn't sorry and didn't apologize. I don't think that he had forgotten that he had beaten me. I didn't say a word in the evening. I started the talk in the morning when he was sober. So I made him leave my house forever. He was shouting, screaming and he even broke a foto in the frame where my mom and I were. I saad to him that I would call a police, well he had gone. Forever. Now I am happy that I didn't marry him. don't want such relations once again. Almost all Russian men drink alcohol alot that's why I don't want to have any relations with them. I suppose you understand me, Jeff . I'm sorry my letter is too long. But I wanted to show you what I am feeling. I am very happy that I got acquainted with you. I hope our communication will never stop. Masha has told to you "Hi". I have to finish me letter. Thanks that you write me. With all my heart, your Rufina.

P.S. By the way, I have overlooked to tell to you. Today carpenters have repaired my roof. I am happy! It is very little necessary for the lonely woman for happiness!!! (smile) My roof was repaired by the same carpenter who repaired Klava door. He has again refused to take the money. I have told, that I indignant. But nevertheless I could present him two bottles of vodka. The carpenter has agreed to take only it.

Letter 15

Hello my dear Jeff I am sorry, I could not write to you earlier!!!!!!

I would like to tell you that your letters bring me much joy and make me happier day by day! You are the dearest man to my heart, I am always looking forward to your letters. When I received your letter today, I was very happy.

We are far away from each other now, but I am sure that we need each other, I am sure that the fact that we’ve met was meant to be. Who knows, may be we are two halfs of one? ;) I can’t find words that can describe my feelings to you, you are making me the happiest woman in the world! Jeff , I would like to thank you for your love and care, I know that you are serious and sincere with me, from my side I’ll try to do my best to make you happy. Because deep in my heart I feel that you are a very special man who is dear to my heart so much!

I am finishing my letter to you and I will be looking forward to your reply!

With hugs,

Rufina.....

Letter 16

Hello my dear chris !!!!!!
I long thought and have solved, what if I shall arrive to you during my holiday??? If you agree to find out that I that for this purpose can is necessary.

Letter 17

Dear mine Jeff I am sorry for my error to name you other name.!!!

Today I went in travel agency and have learned , that it to be necessary for me for arrival in your country. People have convinced me of travel agency, that we can be together. I am in good mood. I wondered how much it would cost for me to make visa. They said that only the examination of application for visa will cost me 30 usd. This money won't be returned even if the application is rejected. To gat visa I must go to Moscow where is the Embassy. I'll to visit a lot of agencies, offices and organization in Kazan in Moscow. This is the usual way to get visa, it may take me many months. I said to them that I could wait for a long time. And they offered me to solve the problem and it will take me less time if I use Full Package of Service (FPS). FPS includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for interview with commission. FPS costs 360 usd, but the visas agency remove all the problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excessive delays (I can get a visa in a week or two). I thought for a long time and came to the conclusion that this variant is the only right for me.Whether I do not know correctly has made, having paid such money. Probably I needed to consult to you all over again. But I have thought that other exit is not present. For a cheap payment documents are very for a long time made . We do not have time to wait. I agreed and registered my application for visa, hoping that you'll be glad to meet me. Can you imagine that we'll spend some weeks together Or even can all life. It is not important for me where to live if I shall be sure in your feelings for 100 percent{interests} my loved and native I without any meditations shall stay to live in a place with you. For the sake of happiness and family I am ready on many things. I very much would dream that you all life were only near to me. . I'm immensely happy when I'm thinking about the opportunity. I'll be everything myself? May be you think I try to do too quickly, probably you suppose it's too earty everything us to meet each other. But I can't wait for ages, I'm happy now at present time. Necessary to begin moving to howe something in your life, it's important to go ahead, to overcome difficulties to take aim. Very soon I'll leave the work and I'll be able to spend my vacation with my Loved , Jeff . I have never been abroad. but now I have a chance to meet you. It's a dream. You are my friend, and friend sometimes meet each other. I think it will be great, wonderful, fantastic. I hope you don't think that I'm too impudent. I just want to met you and to spend some time with you. I suppose you haven't changed your attitude towards me after this letter. I'm looking forward to seeing to calm down my heart. Please tell me you be able to meet me? Will you be happy to face me? I hope you'll!!!

Your love Rufina.

Letter 18

Hi my dear Jeff!

I talked to Masha about you Jeff for a long time yesterday in the evening. I told her that I wanted to meet you. Masha supported me in my desire. She said that I could't miss a chanse to see you. Masha is very glad that I've got acquainted with you. She wants me to be happy. I hope, Jeff, that one day you and Masha will be friends. I believe that Masha'll be as close to you as to me. Now I often think of you before sleeping. I am glad, that you were not against I have chosen Full Package of Service. I very much experienced. But I so would like to speed up process and somewhat quicker to be near to you... I do not think your feelings premature. Because I too test to you strong feelings. I not hesitating can tell that I love you. For me a great honor to get acquainted with such fair, open, kind person as you.... Now I with impatience wait for the notice from travel agency. For me days became very long. I want that have faster flown by days of expectation. I want to inform you date of my start faster..I think about our letters to each other. I often ask myself what will be then, when we'll fase. Jeff, you know I have a flower Herbicin at home. It's very beautiful, and it needs much care. Now I call it Jeff. I hope you are not againstof it. Every morning I say to it "Good morning, Jeff". It's pity that it can't speak to me. It's very interesting how long would we be able to talk when we met for the first time. What do you think of it? It seems to me that I want to tell you much and it will take me several days to tell all about myself.But I'm shy and can be confused when I'll meet you for the first time. But I think that we are mare than friends that is why we will be able to speak of what we want. I saw a plane not long ago. And I thought that these "Iron birds" allow to meet million peaple who are happy to see each other every day (for example Jeff and I). But when I think about my future flight on board the blane I can't forget last catastropher of two planes. These incidents were in September. It was terrible to see grief and tears of relatives of the dead people. Now our government is sure that terrorist acts took place hare. I believe that guilty people were severely punished. They have no right to prevent peaceful people from living. I hate terrorism and violence! You should know that fear of terrorists will never stop me. I'll be able to fly on board the plane and to be afraid of nothing. In my childnood I was flyining by plane. But people sai that flights are if it's true. I heard that passangers are very well served during the flight. I'm interested to see it. Sorry, but now I don't know exact date when I can arrive to you. But I shall necessarily inform when I can. Hope you can patiently wait? I'm ready to give much to know precisely when I can see you.

Your love Rufina.

Letter 19

Dear my Jeff !!!!

Thanks you for your letters, is very pleasant for me, that you have appeared in my life. You became dear to my heart. Dear tomorrow I cannot call to you. I found out it is necessary to call in the middle of week because in the days off the network is overloaded. I any more do not see the life without you. Yesterday I went on film. "CLASH OF THE TITANS". You looked this film? I have not absolutely understood sense of it cinema because thought absolutely about the friend. I all the day think of our meeting. I cannot more about anything think. I am glad that you approve my act. It is difficult for me . Therefore I always wait for your approval. After your approval I receive moral simplification. I have paid for promptness because I want to be with you as soon as possible. I had this feeling long before our conversation on a meeting. After I have sped up this process, I began to experience. It seemed to me, that you can count me as the impudent woman. I experienced that . Now I every day go to travel agency and I try to find out I skin the information concerning readiness of my documents. Today to me have told that probably tomorrow the day after tomorrow me will cause silt on interview in embassy. I was very glad to receive such information. Now day for me lasts as a month as I think all about our long-awaited meetings. I finish the my dear letter.

With love Rufina,

Letter 20

Hello my honey Jeff !!!

Dear Jeff , I was happy to receive the letter from you. Today my letter will be short. At me not so it is a lot of time. I have just left travel agency, and have decided to inform you good news at once. Me cause to Moscow on interview in embassy. Tomorrow I should leave to Moscow. It seems to me, that I waited for this moment the whole eternity. The travel agency has carried out the task earlier than I thought. It can is connected to that sum of money which I have paid for acceleration of readiness of documents. Now it is not of great importance. I go to embassy!!! Probably tomorrow or the day after tomorrow I can receive documents which are necessary for arrival in your country. Tomorrow I shall write to you from Internet - cafe of the city of Moscow. I shall inform you all news which will concern my trip. After I shall receive documents, I will need to return back to native city, to collect necessary things and to buy the ticket in your country. Trip to Moscow costs not cheaply, therefore I wanted to go to Moscow, to pass interview in embassy and to wait for day of a start. But in the contract it is told, that in your country I can buy the ticket only in travel agency which helps me to collect necessary documents. From superstition I shall not begin to buy the ticket before reception of documents. Of agency of me convince, that it is possible to buy the ticket, and, then to pass interview. They have told to me, that many people do so. But it seems to me wrong. Dear, I was probable next week can inform you date of my start. I believe that next week I can take off to you. How you concern to this? I think that you too will be glad. I shall finish the letter. I shall go to collect things home. I want, that you have sent me your full home address , the data on the nearest to you of the airports and phone number. I shall call to you if there will be urgent questions. I hope to receive from you the answer which will bring to me encouragement.

Your love Rufina,

Letter 21

Hi my dear Jeff !!!!

Yesterday I have arrived to Moscow. I am very tired, and could not write to you is a lot . Dear, I informed you some times that cause me to Moscow on interview Now I near Embassy in internet-cafe. I write to you the letter and I worry. I think, that my destiny tomorrow is solved. Hope to me' give the visa and I can meet you. It will be the greatest day in my life!! It's a pity, that I cannot write for a long time. Probably soon it's necessary for me to go in Embassy. Here it's a lot of people. I never thought, that many people want to arrive in the Australia forever. I hope, that I can soon write to you about results of visit to Embassy. If I can't write from Moscow I shall write from Kazan.

With love yours and only yours Rufina,

Letter 22

Hi my dearest Jeff!

Excuse that did not write some days, we did not have an Internet in city. But now all is good also I write to you. I have more recently left embassy and at once have decided to write to you. I write to you the letter and I smile. I'm so glad! If I could, I would speak with you for a long time . But unfortunately now it is impossible. But I am confident, that our meeting will take place also we shall speak in person. Jeff, I want to tell to you about the commission in Moscow. I hope to you it interestingly!!! Tomorrow I shall already write to you from native city. I shall arrive to Kazan most likely tomorrow in the evening. I can probably have the visa. Because I tried for it much. I worry, you should understand it. I never thought that the commission will ask such unusual questions. They asked about my sexual life, they asked about children, about work, about patriotism, about my attitude to , about my conversance and awareness of events which happened in the world, about my religion and belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about verything fairly how it's really. To me have told that my answers are unexpected and as a rule applicants don't answer such questions so directly and openly. They haven't got used to hear such answers, but they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Children from the orphanages also have made the big impression and rendered the big influence on the commission. To me have told that I the first lady who have such support from children - orphans. Now I should wait the decision. I hope, that my visa will be ready within the next few days. The representative of embassy at once informs about it to travel agency. After that I shall buy the ticket in your country. After I shall buy the ticket I shall inform date of the start. Now I agree with expression: "Expectation of death is worse than the death" I can't concentrate on anything. My heart so worry, I can't work. They have told that the decision will be accepted in several days. I so worry. I so want that this small dream was come true. I simply want to see my lovely friend. I think the God will help me. I simply want to meet you. I already see us together and I sink in dreams. I want to construct with you the ship to float under sails in boundless ocean. I want to meet with you a dawn and to see off a sundown. We will float on our ship and our love will illuminate our way. We will look at night at stars, we'll be pleased in the afternoon to the sun. If there will be a storm, our love will protect us. If there will be a calm, our love will be a wind. Our love will be a beacon for us. We will be floating at ocean of love and oblivion and nothing can separate us. We'll name our ship - Dream. It will be the small ship, but very strong. Because we will make our ship from belief, hope and love. It's impossible to wait, when your dream will fall to you from the sky. It's necessary to go to the dream. It's necessary to clear and build the road itself. If in heart there is a belief and dream, if in heart there is a love and hope, it is necessary to achieve the dream by all means. I always go to the dream. I don't sit on a place. In my life there were very few light moments. On this I try to make everything that my dreams have come true. I understand that now it's only dreams. But these dreams brighten my life. I hope that yours also. Nothing will keep me to arrive to you Jeff!!!

With tenderness your Rufina.

Letter 23

Hello my love Jeff .

I could not write to you earlier owing to the illness. Next day after a spelling to you of the letter I have strongly caught a cold. Two days I laid in a bed and could not even go at me there was a high temperature. Dear Jeff , I have received your electronic letter . I was very glad to read him . Your letters install to me unlimited quantity of confidence. Having read them I become the omnipotent person. Very much has changed from the moment of our acquaintance. I, think, that I began to live only after acquaintance to you. Till this time I only existed. After our acquaintance my life has sharply changed in the best side. It has noticed not only I. My fellow workers, my friends, even my patients - all have noticed change in my life. Everyone ask the same question. It is interesting to all why I look so happy.... Dear yesterday I could not write to you because all the day long was in a way. I have arrived to Kazan late at night. From road I am very tired. I as have reached a house and have gone to bed. I think that I knowingly have visited to Moscow. From trip I still had many positive emotions. I when did not go on so important affairs, therefore strongly worried. On road to Moscow I with anybody did not communicate because thought of interview in embassy. I experienced that any failure can visit me. I was afraid that can give up to me in reception of the visa. But my experiences appeared are vain. On interview to me did not give the exact answer. In a corridor I have waited the person which was in the commission and he has told, that I should not worry. Has told that in two or three days representatives of embassy will contact travel agency and will cause me to Moscow for reception of the visa. Therefore I have gone home with quiet soul. Now I need to wait the answer from embassy then it is necessary to buy the ticket in your country, to go again to Moscow to receive the visa and to wait day of a start. The second trip to Moscow does not deliver me of inconvenience. The ticket to me will need to be bought in Kazan from representatives of travel agency. To take off I should from the Moscow airport because I will need to come in embassy and to receive the visa. It would be convenient for me to take off from the Kazan airport but for this purpose to me some days in Moscow should to live and to wait for readiness of the visa. Moscow not city familiar to me. Hotels cost very dearly and it is terrible to me to be in Moscow one. Therefore I have chosen not absolutely convenient, but a safe variant. Today I went to travel agency and told him about trip to Moscow. They sincerely were glad for me. Unfortunately the Embassy yet did not contact travel agency. I think that has passed not enough time. I think tomorrow or the day after tomorrow representatives of embassy will cause me for reception of the visa. I want that it has taken place as soon as possible. I want to buy as soon as possible the ticket to you and to wait for day of a start. Dear if tomorrow or the day after tomorrow me will cause for reception of the visa I shall buy the ticket to you for July, 22 or 23 . I shall buy the ticket with a stock of 5-6 days. I shall better lead these days pending. Suddenly there will be unforeseen circumstances. Dear, I finish the letter and I shall go home. I need to prepare much for all for the period of the absence. I love you and I want to be only with you. The feeling of love amplifies every new day .

Your love Rufina.

Letter 24

Hi my dear Jeff !!!

Dear, I was very glad to receive your letter. My visa is available, but I can take away her only after I shall redeem the ticket in your country. Tomorrow or after tomorrow, I shall buy the ticket in your country but only after to me inform from travel agency, and will tell, that my documents are completely ready. For arrival to you. I every day think of our meeting with you. I know how it is to be thinking about someone all the time, I have felt that as well. So then I try to keep myself busy doing other things and it helps. I guess that's how I've been able to get along all this time without somebody special in my life. I keep myself busy with study, with friends. I have become used to it now, but not entirely. Some times I get along doing chores around the house, listening to music, or helping other people with their problems. It has been so many times that I wanted to be with someone. So as time went on, little by little I had to learn how to not feel lonely. But I have also learned that it's not all that possible. And in the same way I try to avoid getting hurt, as it has happened to me before. And that too is not all that possible.

On the other side I have seen other peoples mistakes and I like to think that I wont make the same ones. I try to think of many possible results, I like to be cautious and to think ahead, but I have learned that as careful that I may be, there is always something that can go wrong. So why should I continue to hold back and not live my life like others, by going ahead with what my heart says and being as cautious as possible, right? We are only human and imperfect, all I can try is to do the best I can, with the person that best fits my way of thinking. And it would seem so strange that I could find such a person on the other side of the planet. Imagine if the Internet didn't exist, I would have never known about you and I would probably continue to live the same way forever. There is only so much happiness that one can achieve alone, but I would like to think that I could achieve so much more with you. It would be wonderful to stop dreaming about it and make it come true.

So at the same time, I also think about what would be needed to make a relationship work and how to provide for as much as possible. It's not easy when other pressures are felt in a relationship. So if at first we should decide to take this beyond what it has become so far, I think it will be like awaking from a dream and trying our best to make the dream come true. Like I said before, there is a lot to talk about, a lot to learn and understand. The feeling of love is great, but it takes little bit more to have a place to live, to be healthy and have a family. I know that these are subjects that can't be decided or solved in a week, but the most important thing will be addressed, how well we get along.

There is one thing that I know for sure, I like you very much and we will have a wonderful time together. Your words in every letter have shown me that we think the same way, so I truly believe that something great and long lasting will come out of this. I think about you every day and wish you were near me already. I will just have to be patient and wait for that moment to come true.

With hugs and tender kisses, Yours

Rufina ...

Letter 25

Hello my dearest Jeff !

Today in the morning I have come to travel agency where to me informed good news. I have got the visa. Now it is necessary for me to buy the ticket to you and to go in Moscow behind the visa and to wait day of my start. I'm immensely happy. I will be able to see you in person!!! I addressed the company which sells tickets for plans. I asked them how,as to me have explained to me it is necessary to have the ticket to you I would be able to go to Adelaide the 28 of August, and how much it would cost. They said that the ticket would cost $1300 USD. I asked them to find a cheaper ticket, because the price is too high for me. But as it turned out I would not be able to have a cheaper ticket so quicly, the date is too early. Tickets must be reserved long beforehand. I asked them to offer me other variants of the flight. We found the most suitable one. The flight, is on the 30 of August . The ticket costs $1080 USD. I asked the to reserve the ticket for me. But they refused to do it having said that they had a lot of clients. They cannot reserve my ticket without adwanced money. I was imploring them. But it did not work. They said that they would help me with great pleasure but they couldn't. The rules are so. I was in a panic, I was so disappointed. Then I asked themif I could give just a part of the money. But they did not agree again. I asked them for a long time saying that my fiance Jeff is waiting for me. If I asked them a little bit longer I would burst out of crying. Maybe God heard my prayers, and the service worked agreed to reserve the ticket on my conditions. But I have too little time to pay, for the ticket. They said if I did not day the rest of the ticket price, I would loose the money I'd already given to them. I was angry, but they explained that it would be very difficult to sell the ticket for the plane which is flying. They would have to lower the price. I agreed. They told me to pay $368 USD. But it was too much for me, because I had only $240. I asked to wait for me during 11 hours. I went out of the room. Masha met me at the door. I told her everything. She understood everything and adviced me to pawn our treasures to a pawnshop. Jeff , it was very difficult for me to agree to do it. I did not want to burden Masha. But at the same time I want to meet you, Jeff very much. We pawned the treasures, I got $128 USD and I paid the part of the ticket price $368 USD. It was my last money, it was for the plane by which I'm going to come to you. It was very difficult for me to tell you this story. I have done all what I could. I have paid for the visa. I have paid for the part of the ticket. But this was not enough. The money was not enough. I did not want to burden you. I wanted to come to you with nobody's help. I thought my money would be enough. But I failed. Now I feel guilty muself. I did not manage to do all myselffor our meeting. I thought nothing would prevent me from meeting you. But I must pay the rest of the money for the ticket It's just $712 USD. I must pay it till the 28 of August. Otherwise I will loose the money I have paid and i will loose the chance to see you. And our treasures will be soldby the pawnshop. Now I feel guilty that I could not do what i promised to come to you with my own money. I always do what I promise. I feel at ease now, I'm ashamed of asking you to help me.
Unfortunately the clinic did not pay me the money I'd earned. I really hoped to get this money. It would solve all . But I'll get the money from the clinic in a month or two. Because it's very typical for Russia to hold up the payments of salary. I asked the clinic to give me my money earlier, but thay refused to do it. Now the clinic does not have the money necessary for me. Our clinic depends on the budget, it did not get money for a long time. I think it's because of the financial crisis and terrorist acts in in Northern Ossetia. I must say to you that I will not be able to meet you becouse I will not be able to pay the whole sum of money myself. Of course I realize that I should not ask you to give me the money. But at the time I cannot just that I will not come to you. I have done too much to organize our meeting. If I refuse to meet you it will mean that everything was in voun. It's torrible for me to refuse to come to you, I have done all what I could. Now I want you to help me and I think there is nothing horable if I ask you to help me. Of course I realize that may be you have no feelings to me and may be you're not interested in our meeting. I understsnd that the sum of money is too big. I know itand that's why it's more difficult for me to ask it from you. But at the same time any person can find himself in my conditions. And now there is only one thing which I can do. I just must say that I will never come to you. But I do not want to say so, because I want to meet you. That's why I must be honest, I need your help. Of course I understend that I must not do it. But I'm an honest person. I'm ashaned of asking you to help me, but life is a difficult thing, everything can happen. Of course it's up to you to decide if you want to help me or not. It's bad, but not fatal. I will loose my money. It's bad but not mortal either. $360 USD which I have paid for the visa and $368 USD which I have paid for the ticket are too much for me. But I'm not sorry for what I have done for our meeting. In fact money is just paper, our treasures are just metal details. That's why I was the first who decided to meet each other. But I do not want all my efforts to be spent in vain. If you really want to meet me, if you can help me to organize our meeting please send me the money till the morning of the 28 of August . Please forgive me my words. I say so because I'm in despair. Now when just one step can connect us, I'm afraid. I need you, I want to be with you, I need you help, believe me, I'm honest with you. I did not manage to estimate my forces. And all my efforts spent in vain. I understand that the sum of money is too big for you. I did not want to ask you. I can do everything myself. My loneliness made me strong. I had always been living with my own efforts I always relied on myself. I asked somebody to help me very selcom , but now I ask you to help me. I will give you all the money back as soon as I'm able. Maybe I made you offended. But I need you. I do not know if my letter satisfacted you or disappointed. But I have written you an honest letter. I'm looking forwarol to you answer. I hope for you . I ask you to not worry. I send data of my flight.

Start: MOSCOW (DOMODEDOVO) 00:40 on August, 30th 2010
Arrival: DUBAI (DUBAI) 05:40 on August, 30th 2010
Airline: Emirates, flight: EK 132, the plane: Boeing 777-300
Start: DUBAI (DUBAI) 10:10 on August, 30th 2010
Arrival: MELBOURNE (ESSENDON) 05:30 on August, 31st 2010
Airline: Emirates, flight: EK 406, the plane: 77W
Start: MELBOURNE (ESSENDON) 08:05 on August, 31st 2010
Arrival: ADELAIDE (ADELAIDE) 09:00 on August, 31st 2010
Airline: Virgin Blue, flight: DJ 213, the plane: 73W
Time in a way: 26 hour. 50 minutes

your Rufina .

Letter 26

Dear Jeff , I have received your letter. It has afflicted me. You have not understood Me! Money are necessary not for my own needs, they are necessary for ours Meetings!!!!! You understand it????? The clinic has detained to me The earned money. The clinic could not pay to me money in time, Therefore it was necessary to me will address to you behind the help. After I Has addressed to you for the help, you have written to me very heavy letter. I Could not read him without tears. Then you write to me about a deceit. Yes as you have enough conscience to write to me such letters??????????? What for this time you have made??? YOU sat at home and waited when I shall arrive to you. And now you have decided to accuse me and to leave to the mercy of fate. The idea about our meeting was It is thought up both you, and me. I began to do everything, that ours The meeting has taken place. I have bypassed many travel agencies and Has chosen the most suitable travel agency. Then I have paid For speed of manufacturing of documents, has paid for consular services .. Has paid State Taxes, has paid for travel to Moscow on Interview, has paid for hotel in Moscow. Has paid for travel Back from Moscow up to Kazan. I bore very big charges. I did All for our meeting. What did you make???????????? That you did for That our meeting has taken place????????????? You sat and waited My letters!!!!! You sat and waited for results!!!!!! After to me Your help was necessary, you started to accuse me of swindle. You yourself respect after that letters?????? You Started to doubt from me. You started to equate me to Bad category of people!!! It is your gratitude in relation to that .. What have I made???????????? You so thank me after only. That I have made???? Better at all do not write to me the letter, than such Humiliating as last letter. After reading last letter, I Has felt a beggar, has felt the beggar. I not I am going to persuade you, to help our meeting. Let all Remain on your conscience. It is not a pity to me of the money spent by me. To me Time which I have spent for preparation for our meeting is a pity. To me It is a pity, that you appeared such person. You have not correctly understood all Situation. You thought only of yourself. You did not think only of the Interests. And you have thought of me????????????? No!!!!!!! Dear I talked to a tour agency they have told that at me with them the contract and all questions will be solved only with me. They do not have time to speak by with you to phone. I am very upset now. If you have badly understood me I can call to you and To talk to you the Call to your country costs very expensively. At me Almost does not remain money, therefore it will be difficult to me to call to you but if you insist I shall find a way to speak with you. I want that our meeting took place as it is possible More likely

Letter 27

Dear, I am glad to that you have started to understand me. After I have received your letters, I at once have gone to travel agency. I have told him, that my love will help me. I asked them about the fastest way of payment for the ticket. They have told, that if you will transfer money into account travel agency it will occupy long time. Money can come after day of flight. They advised to use Money Gram or services of the Western Union. They have told, that in your city there are branches of the Western Union and Money Gram. These companies are engaged in instant remittance. If you will take advantage of their services money will come during fifteen minutes. I could receive your help and pay for tickets. You can send money or for my name, or addressed to the tourist agent. I hope this way will be convenient for you. The tourist agent spoke, that many people use the western union or Money Gram and can quickly pay for tickets. That you could send money to you it is necessary will to specify my name as Rufina, a surname as Vashtovitts, the country as Russia and city as Kazan. If you want to send the help addressed to the tourist agent I shall shall find out in detail his data and I shall write them to you. If you have badly understood me I can call to you and talk to you the Bell in your country costs very dearly. At me almost did not remain money, therefore it will be difficult for me to call to you but if you insist I shall find a way to speak with with you. I want that our meeting has taken place as soon as possible. The travel agency also waits for payment for the ticket as soon as possible. I spoke them, that all depends from my loved. I have told him, that I shall consult on you. I hope, that you can help me with purchase of the ticket. I hope, that soon we shall together. If you will insist on phone call to you I shall find a way to call you. Please do not detain the answer. I shall wait in the Internet of cafe all the day for your answer. I hope, that our destinies will soon change in the best party and we shall be together. I love you. Your Rufina.

Letter 28

Dear I it is glad that you can to help me. I shall not bring you, I promise that at all of us will be good also we soon we shall together. Dear at us now 7 one o'clock in the evening. I needed to pay for the ticket 712 $ USD, I do not know how many it is your money. I hope that tomorrow you can help me. I have made much for an our meeting, I have sold even gold. But I am happy in fact soon I can to embrace you. I very much wait for your letter. With love yours Rufina

Letter 29

Dear I it is glad that all of you have found out so soon. The name of a tour agency "Alba" their address, Russia, the city of Kazant, street Vaxitova the house 44a. Dear I hope that this all that is necessary for you. I shall wait from you for the letter soon. With love yours Rufina.

Letter 30

Dear I is glad to receive from you the letter. I wish to tell to you that it is a payment for the ticket to you. I shall buy the ticket itself, masha will send me of money in a week or two. I have left to her the power of attorney she can receive money which to me the clinic should. Dear all will be good. I very much experience for our meeting. I have made to arrive much to you, I have spent all the money to arrive to you. Dear I very much hope for your help. I shall look forward to to your reply soon. The postal index 420000. Dear you should use only the western union because at me is not present more what branches. I shall wait for your letter. With love yours Rufina.

Letter 31

I am dearly glad to receive your letter. I wish to tell that you have made all not correctly. I spoke you before that at me the contract with a tour agency, I cannot take tickets in other place as they have helped to make to me the visa in your country very quickly. I should buy the ticket from them, this condition of the contract. Otherwise I cannot will receive the visa. My visa to be in embassy, to me it will hand out after I shall have the ticket for hands. You understand it??? Therefore I asked you to help me and to send money. I could redeem the ticket to go in Moscow and to take away the visa. Dear I hope that you understand me. A unique way it to buy tickets here and to go to you. I hope that all of you have understood. I shall wait from you for the answer soon. With love yours Rufina

Letter 32

It seems to Dear me that you do not trust me. I am very upset now. I spoke you very easy way to arrive to you. At us other laws, and a tour agency can earn money as wants. I have concluded with them the contract and I can not break it. At us not so it is a lot of time that all to be in time. Dear I has spent many money and time to arrive to you. You tell to me will assist me or not??? I shall look forward to hearing from you soon. Yours Rufina