Letter(s) to Darrell (USA)

Letter 1

Hi my dear friend Darrell. I waited this minute to answer you with impatience. I am very glad my letter was pleasant to you. I belive in love at first sight. But it's not a love as everyone think. It is such strange feeling... You feel that this person is pleasant to you also you want to communicate with him or her. Just you only think that it's love. Happens more often, that you or this person will be disappointed... Darrell, today I was late for work. My alarm clock has broken. But my boss did not saw my delay. Till this time he has not come. I always rise early in the morning. The rhythm of my life in which I live, forces me to be the morning person. My alarm clock does not ask me what is my nature. I always rise early, and I go to bed not so late. Your letters become so close to my heart, and I am pleased to see them like a child. You write very pleasant letters. Your words are so pleasant, I feel myself...in heavens. Please, write me every day,
even two words, I must know with you everything - is good. I shall be sure for you and I shall not worry. Your first e-mail was small light of sun when I have opened door on the other hand was the whole new world, which I never saw earlier. Beautiful, absolutely another and full of surprises. These relations, which we have begun through e-mail - begining new long friendship which could develop something more? As you already know Darrell, I was not for a long time in your country. I was in the USA 9 months ago. I went there as the tourist. I had Tourist visa B-2. Term of my visa has ended. Term of my visa was 6 months. All my charges on trip were paid by firm in which I worked. I could not pay it independently. But it is firm does not exist any more. And I do not go any more in the USA. But I hope visit again your country. I very much liked your country. It is absolute other country,
not similar as ours. I very much would want to begin a life in your country. Sometime.... Love is such intoxicating narcotic, which makes do mad, but sometimes funny actions. Only person in love can fill the whole bath with champaign, only person in love can give one million scarlet roses or stand whole night under balcony of the loved woman singing serenades. In our city there is an Internet - cafe, but it is very far from my house. I live on surburb of city. I should pass about 1 hour by bus to reach Internet - cafe. Today I spoke with my boss, I have asked him to use the Internet at least 25-30 minutes in day. He promised to think about it. I cant let him deprive me my private life how much it cost me. I have the most dear person, you Darrell, I have understood it clearly yesterday when I went in park and thought about you. I have closed my eyes and thought about you. A wind was blowing,
it scutched my hairs and enveloped my body by its chilly freshness. I don't know why, but I thought that you changed in wind, and you tenderly touched my hairs with you invisible hands. It seemed to me that I am situated somewhere near you. And my heart began beating as never before. I was so pleasant and I was ready to yell from happiness. People who were passing near me, probably thought, I am a strange lady, they saw me sitting on the bench with closed eye and smiling. But I didn't think about their opinion. I went and thought about you. It so, so heated my mood. I like to go along the street and breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. Actually I do not want to go home. It is very boringly and alone at home. Darrell,
sometimes I do not mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I very much want to speak, to share ideas with anyone, to have an entertainment. But my apartment is empty, and I should be in full loneliness. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit in an armchair and I look at a window or I prepare for a meal, may be somebody will come to me? But I nave to eat all independently. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as my blood flows in my veins,
I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I don't know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me,
with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself.
I want somebody to appreciate it. But Darrell, enough about it. I should perform my work. I having not enough time. I shall wait for your letter tomorrow. I shall wait your pleasant words.
Yours faithfully Olga

Letter 2

Hi, again Darrell. I'm glad to see your letter today. I dreamed during my childhood, and I'm dreaming now. Of course, world of dreams - illusory world. But it is only thing I can do. Now Darrell, you know that I visited your country. As I know, it is very difficult receive visa in your country. But I have advantages. I was in your country and because of it will be not so difficult for me receive visa in your country. I found out about it during travel to the USA. I can arrive in your country someday... I'm dreaming again (smile!). But it's only an opportunity. We still a little know about each other (it's really so!). Make a travel will not be a problem for me. Two reasons will not allow me arrive to you right now. 1)The first reason - I know about you not so much, and you too know about me a little. We are know each other only some days. But probably, these days the best time in my daily and not so interesting life. You became very much and very important close to me! I began understand it now when I'm waiting for your letters with impatience. Darrell, I very much worry when I'm reading your letters... My heart is beaten so quick! We should be sure in our desires. We should be completely ready to our meeting. It is very serious step, I think you agree with me? We should be sure in each other... Trust - the most important thing in relations! 2)Second reason of impossibility make our meeting in reality - money (it's the most foolish reason... I think). I have no money for purchase of tickets now. Even now I do not plan a meeting, especially earlier I did not think about it. Therefore I did not start save money for trip.
I do not know what will be "TOMORROW", we'll see... We live in a real life, therefore we cannot plunge into the world of dreams and imaginations long time. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which will be for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which will illuminate your way. But anyway Darrell, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. he dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes.
And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me?I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts.
But now I have found you, Darrell, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please.
Darrell, do you like when your friends come to your home? And are you the quick-tempered person? I have a very warm feeling inside from all the things you have said about, how you feel when you think about me?
My day brightens tremendously whenever I see an e-mail from you. I will wait for your letter with impatience.
Olga, waiting for you...

Letter 3

Hi my most desired Darrell. I am very glad to receive your letter again. Thank you that you do not forget about me and always continue write me, even if I cannot answer you. Thank you Darrell, for your address. Tomorrow I shall send you my letter with photos. Only I do not know how quickly you will receive it. I send you my address, now you too can send me your tender letter... It would be very pleasant for me. I am very glad that have met you! Your letters always radiate so much light in my dark sky. Thank you for your fine words. Today as well as always I have seen you in my dreams again!!! You were going to me but you will not kiss me, you only look and smile, you put your hand upon my face and look into my eyes. It is a loving feeling but yet you hold back, not knowing what to do. It is a wonderful feeling,
one of contentment, one of security. I felt myself very strange, I wanted embrace you my arms, to gently kiss you and tell you everything will be ok, to feel our passion, to share all things in our beautiful in life. I would be your sweet heart and soul if you would wish to be in this way. Darrell, you know, in the childhood I dreamed to find the Prince, with whom I can go on THE Edge OF THE EARTH. Only later, after many years I understood: in real life I cannot meet prince, only in dream... and in a fairy tales. There is NO ideal men. But very similar to an ideal match which is necessary for you, you can find. I can confidentially tell you, that you are - man of my dreams... I can not explain an origin of love. I can not explain why woman draws to the man. And I can not explain why man draws to the woman. It occurs at a subconscious level. Darrell, I know that you feel something to me, and I feel that my heart is open for your. I need you very much. I do not present my life without your letters. I know that I want to give you all my tenderness, which for a long time I saved inside me. Nothing can be compared to this feeling of filling up somebody's life. The excitement, which tortures me while I'm waiting for your letters every day. The feeling, which fills every corner of my heart. Every step I make is safe, because I feel you around me. You are my dream, you are my angel, you are my soul, you are my life! I want to be your "Lady in red", about which sang Chris De Burgh. And I want you to know, that I have never felt like this before. You brighten my days and give me the strength to carry on, fighting every day for you. You have shown me deepest emotions and feelings I've kept inside of me for so long. I feel that our relations with you develop into something greater... It so excites my mood. I don't know what I shall do without your letters... I every day with impatience wait your letters. I always worry when I see your letter in inbox. These feelings are not similar on anything. I want to ask you Darrell, what we shall do further... I think that we should undertake some steps... Because I cannot, I shall not sustain long dialogue through letters. Every day I understand that you borrow more, more and more places in my heart. I for a long time was alone. And our dialogue becomes bigger than simple dialogue. I am so glad that have met you! You seem to me man of my dream. And I very much want my dream came true... Darrell, think about it. I shall wait for your letter... As well as always.
Olga dreaming about you...

Letter 4

Hi my lovely and the most gentle Darrell. I am glad to see your letter. Every day I wait for your letter. It always like destiny's gift. Every time it's like for the first time!! It so bewitches and intrigues me. I am very glad. If you only see now my face. Each time I am glad like child, like little girl. Darrell today I went to agency of travel and had conversation concerning travel to the USA. 9 months ago I travelled in the USA using this agency. The firm in which I worked earlier concluded the contract with this agency of travel.
Therefore I decided to work with them. Darrell I found out, that now I shall travel as the tourist, as in past time. In agency I found out that receive the visa in the USA difficultly (I knew it), but I had the visa not so long time and consequently I can receive the visa easily, even without interview. In past time I went in USA embassy.
But now I be able not to go to Moscow for conversation with embassy.
It is remarkable news Darrell. I am very glad. In agency I found out,
that reception of the visa will borrow about 1 week (last time I waited 1 month!!!) Today very good day for me, for us. I had no passport and old visa. And because of it only tomorrow I shall go to conclude the contract with agency. I am very glad and pleased. I did not think that it will be so quickly. People meet once. They get acquainted. They begin to meet. Some force of them draws. They want to be together to learn each other better to like each other. Some people when learned other person, they have enough of it, and anything does not occur any more... " The Book became read "... "Book" put on a shelf in a case. Either for him or her it is necessary other "book..." Some people all life loving, they reading this "book" all theirs life.
Other people when will read this "book", do not put it on a shelf in a case, and they writes itself continuation of this book. Everyone is the writer of his or her life if he or she wants... I am "writer." I hope you too... Let's write our book together. I very much would want to meet you! Darrell you already in my heart... And I do not want you left from there. I want to see you every day, to feel you, to speak with you, to breathe aroma of your body, to feel heat of your strong hands... I so wish to kiss you... I think you too have same desires.
Darrell, I'm not little girl anymore, and I want to be near strong,
loving, kind man... And which would wish me as the woman. I do not want to be alone anymore, I want to be happy... Darrell, I want to make you happiest man in the world! I think it is possible! And lawful... (Smile.) I definitely want to be with you! Thousand the most gentle and passionate kisses.
Yours loving Olga

Letter 5

Hello my dear Darrell. Thank you for your warm letter. My heart calms,
when I receive your letter. I cannot tell you what I'm feeling in that moment. And every day I hope you feel the same as me. I always dreamed find somebody who would really special for me, who will come into my life! The one, who would understand me, encourages my efforts and shares my dreams. As a little girl I dreamed about man which will make me smile and laughter. Whom I could trust, who will never injure me.
My lovely thanks for a photo Darrell, today I want describe to you my usual daily day, since morning and till night. At 6:00 roars my alarm clock. I'm not so love my alarm clock. Because it so loudly roars,
every time my head began break up from this noise. It was earlier...
But in last days I wake up quickly because today I'll see your lovely letter. And because I saw you in dream. At 6:05 I'm going in bath, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! I wash and I clean a teeth. At 6:15 I make a small and not so long exercize and during it I THINK OF YOU! At 6:30 I prepare for a breakfast, as a rule strong tea or coffee and I warm up a meal, which I have prepared yesterday, if I haven't it I make a sandwich. I drink tea, I watch TV and I THINK ABOUT YOU! At 7:15 I leave my apartment and I go to my work. Usually, if weather good, I'm walking small distance, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! I like morning walk. I live very far from my work, anyway then I go by bus. I arrive to work vigorous and cheerful. At 7:55 I go to my cabinet. As rule there already wait for me my colleagues (all of them my friends). If I have opportunity, I check my mail. If there is no your message, I receive it later. And when Darrell I see your letter it always, always brings to me so many positive emotions. It makes all my day CELEBRATING HOLLYDAY. It is the most long-awaited moment of my day. At 8:00 I began work, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! I think what I will write you today. I work and I think up my answer. Because I have no opportunity at once write to you. I should work. Sometimes I have a lot of work and I cannot write letter quickly. My letter for you should be written with my soul, wellwritten. Therefore it borrows a lot of time. At 12:00 a lunch break and we going in cafe in building near ours.
Usually after dinner I write to you if I didn't do it earlier. Ohh...
How strong I worry during this moment spelling letter for you... My heart beat more stronger and faster. This such strange sensation... At 13:00 I go again engage in working affairs, and I CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT YOU! At 15:30, I with my colleagues make a small break, we drink tea, probably everybody make it. And I again THINK ABOUT YOU! At 17:00 I go home. Sometimes it happens later, about 19.00. We with my colleagues leave a building and we go on a busstop. I sit in the bus with ideas ABOUT YOU. I think what you do now... May be you have written to me new letter. Darrell, I think about it even after sending you my new letter. But I do not hurry to check it. Because tomorrow I shall check again it and I shall wait it with the big impatience.
After I leave bus and I'm going slowly. I feel myself very well because I THINK ABOUT YOU! I come into apartment... There nobody...
Nobody waits for me there... Sometimes I feel very sadly. I change clothes, I take a shower, and I imagine that YOU WITH ME! (Smile)
After that I have a little rest. Then I make a supper, alone, but I smile, because I imagine, that YOU SIT OPPOSITE TO ME! Sometimes come to me my friends, (but it happens not so often). Then I prepare for something especial for them. I THINK ABOUT YOU! Sometimes I go for walk. If no, I listen to music, I read book, I watch TV, I make various homework, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! (of course not all simultaneously). (Smile) At 22:00 I go to bed. During this moment I THINK ONLY ABOUT YOU! And during this moment very much frequently I cry... Because you are not with me... But tomorrow I shall receive your new letter. And I easily fall asleep, may be in dream I'll see you. By the way Darrell, write me please your full home address, I want to send you letter through a usual mail, I have more photos in my photoalbum, and I want you feel a smell of my aroma. Well, my most dear Darrell, I should go now to work. Only let me send you a kiss from Russian woman who thinking about you very often being far from you.. .. I kiss you Darrell, and I with impatience wait for your answer.
Olga waits for you

Letter 6

Hello my dear Darrell! I am very glad to receive your letter today. It was so pleasant to see yours letter in inbox. Thank you Darrell that you do not forget about me and write me constantly. It's so very pleasant. It was so good learning you have desire to meet me in the future. Thank you Darrell for every your words. The idea about our possible meeting in the future makes me crazy!!! I never could think earlier that I shall have the friend abroad, such remarkable person as you Darrell. I think we should develop our relations. We'll see what will be further. Thank you Darrell that you are very attentive to me and also attentively read my letters. Thank you Darrell for your attention. The attention and care - is very much high qualities. In our fast life we have no time for all this. But reading your letters,
I see that you are not such as all others men... Your letters are filled with good feelings. I read it and I feel myself absolutely in another way. I do not know how explain it to you... I always wait your letters with impatience. It always brings to me so much delightful feelings. I am very glad that have met you Darrell. Warm and tenderness - only thing I need. It is a problem of Russian men.
Russian women makes everything for the man, for family. But she does not receive anything from him. Yes, the majority of women devoted to loved favourite man, I am sure, American women same. Only need to woman - some sensitive words and touch of his hands, and...
understanding. This thing does not suffice in our life. Darrell,
really it is so difficult? I think, that not so difficult present your lady romantic evening and a supper with candles, but in Russia, as a rule, woman gives such gift, not the man... When woman carries heavy bags in the street, any man will not help her, he only will reject his sight and will go further. Why he should help woman? For this reason Russian woman never feels yourself HAPPY LADY in her heart. I don't think I am a beautiful lady, Russian men usually see in women sexual object. They believe, that the woman only should work, prepare and entertain the man when he wants it. Offend the woman - a usual thing for Russian men. Very much frequently meets, that the man beats his wife in house. Any respect, only in dream... Again dreams... Darrell as you know, I like to prepare, but sometimes I would like to receive simple tenderness, love and attention. I do not want to offend all men, there are good men, but not enough. Very difficultly quickly determine, see a internal world of the man. Men very difficult essences. They try to hide their qualities. It is necessary to spend a lot of time... and then becomes known that this person not worthy your attention. I had relations with men of course. In my life were men.
They were lovely, cheerful. When I started speak about serious intentions... They gradually leave my life. But only with one person I wanted to create family... This man deceived me. He slept with other women, even when he has suggested me to be his wife. I have found out about it later. It was seemed that he is very serious in his intentions... When he told me, that he could not constantly be with one woman. I could not suffer it anymore. My soul was wounded very much and broken. Since this moment I'm very seriously concern to relations with men. Majority of men which I met, still boys in their soul even in 35 years... I do not want to suffer all my life because of them! Darrell I hope you understand everything I told you. Because I do not want any more come back to this theme... Now I would like to tell you about our beautiful city. As you already know I live in Nizhniy Novgorod. It is located on river Volga, it is the biggest river in Europe. Our city very ancient, it has been based in 1221 year! Our city has Kreml. It is the big stone wall which was constructed around of old city. This construction has been constructed for defense, for protection against enemies. It is very beautiful construction. But in other part of our city absolutely other, is located new city. It is very modern, expensive city. In our city about 1,361,500 thousand inhabitants. I think you understand it is the big city. The big city has the big movement, a fast rhythm of a life, a garland of fires, easy show-windows, high buildings, fountains,
cinemas, parks, theatres and temptations. It is wonderful, of course I love it. But we have so good places a zone of rest, a beach, parks.
They are very beautiful. If was not any criminal, this place could be as paradise. But alas, criminal in the big cities, and in small - the worse part of our life. Unfortunately the criminal in Russia is located in very high level. But I do not want to tell you about these sad things. I should finish my letter. I want to ask you Darrell, what makes you happy? What was the best gift which you received from the woman? I am timid, but I have kissed you hotly.
With the best regard, sincerely yours Olga

Letter 7

Hello my dear Darrell! I am very glad to receive your letter today. It was so pleasant to see yours letter in inbox. Thank you Darrell that you do not forget about me and write me constantly. It's so very pleasant. It was so good learning you have desire to meet me in the future. Thank you Darrell for every your words. The idea about our possible meeting in the future makes me crazy!!! I never could think earlier that I shall have the friend abroad, such remarkable person as you Darrell. I think we should develop our relations. We'll see what will be further. Thank you Darrell that you are very attentive to me and also attentively read my letters. Thank you Darrell for your attention. The attention and care - is very much high qualities. In our fast life we have no time for all this. But reading your letters,
I see that you are not such as all others men... Your letters are filled with good feelings. I read it and I feel myself absolutely in another way. I do not know how explain it to you... I always wait your letters with impatience. It always brings to me so much delightful feelings. I am very glad that have met you Darrell. Warm and tenderness - only thing I need. It is a problem of Russian men.
Russian women makes everything for the man, for family. But she does not receive anything from him. Yes, the majority of women devoted to loved favourite man, I am sure, American women same. Only need to woman - some sensitive words and touch of his hands, and...
understanding. This thing does not suffice in our life. Darrell,
really it is so difficult? I think, that not so difficult present your lady romantic evening and a supper with candles, but in Russia, as a rule, woman gives such gift, not the man... When woman carries heavy bags in the street, any man will not help her, he only will reject his sight and will go further. Why he should help woman? For this reason Russian woman never feels yourself HAPPY LADY in her heart. I don't think I am a beautiful lady, Russian men usually see in women sexual object. They believe, that the woman only should work, prepare and entertain the man when he wants it. Offend the woman - a usual thing for Russian men. Very much frequently meets, that the man beats his wife in house. Any respect, only in dream... Again dreams... Darrell as you know, I like to prepare, but sometimes I would like to receive simple tenderness, love and attention. I do not want to offend all men, there are good men, but not enough. Very difficultly quickly determine, see a internal world of the man. Men very difficult essences. They try to hide their qualities. It is necessary to spend a lot of time... and then becomes known that this person not worthy your attention. I had relations with men of course. In my life were men.
They were lovely, cheerful. When I started speak about serious intentions... They gradually leave my life. But only with one person I wanted to create family... This man deceived me. He slept with other women, even when he has suggested me to be his wife. I have found out about it later. It was seemed that he is very serious in his intentions... When he told me, that he could not constantly be with one woman. I could not suffer it anymore. My soul was wounded very much and broken. Since this moment I'm very seriously concern to relations with men. Majority of men which I met, still boys in their soul even in 35 years... I do not want to suffer all my life because of them! Darrell I hope you understand everything I told you. Because I do not want any more come back to this theme... Now I would like to tell you about our beautiful city. As you already know I live in Nizhniy Novgorod. It is located on river Volga, it is the biggest river in Europe. Our city very ancient, it has been based in 1221 year! Our city has Kreml. It is the big stone wall which was constructed around of old city. This construction has been constructed for defense, for protection against enemies. It is very beautiful construction. But in other part of our city absolutely other, is located new city. It is very modern, expensive city. In our city about 1,361,500 thousand inhabitants. I think you understand it is the big city. The big city has the big movement, a fast rhythm of a life, a garland of fires, easy show-windows, high buildings, fountains,
cinemas, parks, theatres and temptations. It is wonderful, of course I love it. But we have so good places a zone of rest, a beach, parks.
They are very beautiful. If was not any criminal, this place could be as paradise. But alas, criminal in the big cities, and in small - the worse part of our life. Unfortunately the criminal in Russia is located in very high level. But I do not want to tell you about these sad things. I should finish my letter. I want to ask you Darrell, what makes you happy? What was the best gift which you received from the woman? I am timid, but I have kissed you hotly.
With the best regard, sincerely yours Olga

Letter 8

Hi my dear friend Darrell. I waited this minute to answer you with impatience. I am very glad my letter was pleasant to you. I belive in love at first sight. But it's not a love as everyone think. It is such strange feeling... You feel that this person is pleasant to you also you want to communicate with him or her. Just you only think that it's love. Happens more often, that you or this person will be disappointed... Darrell, today I was late for work. My alarm clock has broken. But my boss did not saw my delay. Till this time he has not come. I always rise early in the morning. The rhythm of my life in which I live, forces me to be the morning person. My alarm clock does not ask me what is my nature. I always rise early, and I go to bed not so late. Your letters become so close to my heart, and I am pleased to see them like a child. You write very pleasant letters. Your words are so pleasant, I feel myself...in heavens. Please, write me every day,
even two words, I must know with you everything - is good. I shall be sure for you and I shall not worry. Your first e-mail was small light of sun when I have opened door on the other hand was the whole new world, which I never saw earlier. Beautiful, absolutely another and full of surprises. These relations, which we have begun through e-mail - begining new long friendship which could develop something more? As you already know Darrell, I was not for a long time in your country. I was in the USA 9 months ago. I went there as the tourist. I had Tourist visa B-2. Term of my visa has ended. Term of my visa was 6 months. All my charges on trip were paid by firm in which I worked. I could not pay it independently. But it is firm does not exist any more. And I do not go any more in the USA. But I hope visit again your country. I very much liked your country. It is absolute other country,
not similar as ours. I very much would want to begin a life in your country. Sometime.... Love is such intoxicating narcotic, which makes do mad, but sometimes funny actions. Only person in love can fill the whole bath with champaign, only person in love can give one million scarlet roses or stand whole night under balcony of the loved woman singing serenades. In our city there is an Internet - cafe, but it is very far from my house. I live on surburb of city. I should pass about 1 hour by bus to reach Internet - cafe. Today I spoke with my boss, I have asked him to use the Internet at least 25-30 minutes in day. He promised to think about it. I cant let him deprive me my private life how much it cost me. I have the most dear person, you Darrell, I have understood it clearly yesterday when I went in park and thought about you. I have closed my eyes and thought about you. A wind was blowing,
it scutched my hairs and enveloped my body by its chilly freshness. I don't know why, but I thought that you changed in wind, and you tenderly touched my hairs with you invisible hands. It seemed to me that I am situated somewhere near you. And my heart began beating as never before. I was so pleasant and I was ready to yell from happiness. People who were passing near me, probably thought, I am a strange lady, they saw me sitting on the bench with closed eye and smiling. But I didn't think about their opinion. I went and thought about you. It so, so heated my mood. I like to go along the street and breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. Actually I do not want to go home. It is very boringly and alone at home. Darrell,
sometimes I do not mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I very much want to speak, to share ideas with anyone, to have an entertainment. But my apartment is empty, and I should be in full loneliness. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit in an armchair and I look at a window or I prepare for a meal, may be somebody will come to me? But I nave to eat all independently. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as my blood flows in my veins,
I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I don't know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me,
with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself.
I want somebody to appreciate it. But Darrell, enough about it. I should perform my work. I having not enough time. I shall wait for your letter tomorrow. I shall wait your pleasant words.
Yours faithfully Olga

Letter 9

Hi Darrell! How are you today? I hope you were pleased to receive my letter because when I'm receiving your letter, I really was admire.
Many thanks to you. I have perfectly understood everything you wroteto me. As I already spoke you I know English rather well. Darrell, as you already know, I have no computer in my house and for this reason I'm writing to you from my work. Therefore I'm sorry, if not so quickly answered your letter. I work from Monday till Friday and very much often on Saturday. My working day begins at 8:00 and last to 17:00.
Sometimes I'm working till 19.00. But it's not easy, because my boss doesn't let use the computer with private purposes. We do not have unlimited Internet access on a work. I use a computer secretly to write HI to you (when my boss - not in office). Internet is expensive in Russia. My monthly income - 8000 roubles, it about 280 American dollars. But this money suffices me and even is possible save my money. I can safely tell, that I adore travelling. I travelled in Russia, I saw Moscow, Samara, Saint-Petersburg, Sochi. But I have never been in Europe. Also I was in the USA!!! Yes Darrell, I have been in USA not so long time ago. Nine months ago. I went there because of my work. About 2 years I worked in a Advertising Agency. 5 person from our firm have gone to the USA for training. We went in Advertising Education Institute "News and Media Relations", Dallas ,
Texas, USA. You heard about company "Temerlin"? There we training. It was very interesting and cognitive for me. I have the certificate which allows me to work in the USA. I have gone there as financial director. Other my colleagues by other professions. Now I do not work in this firm any more. This firm has ceased to exist (broken up) about 5 months ago. Now I am usual bookkeeper in small firm. But it is not difficult, I very much like my work. My new colleagues very good people. It is most important for me. We have very quickly found common interests. I have some friends. But now I have found you, Darrell! I am very pleased, and I shall think about you. I tried to find love and happiness here, but I have felt lie. We have proverb in Russia: Bitter truth is better than sweet lie. I think, that you are fair man. Am I right? After all my histories you may think, that everything is bad,
but it is not true. I have already told you, that my parents have left me in a orphanage. But, my childhood was not so difficult. I'm so think. Only it was very lonely without parents. I had many friends. I had very interesting childhood. When I became more adult... then I had more difficulties. Not only me. I think you understand, that it's hard for lonely kid in this severe world... But the most important never put your hands. It is necessary to go next level. I understood it for a long time. Don't you think so? It is true! Now I have a good life, I have friends. Good work. It is rather good here. I rent my apartment.
I pay for it. I have no opportunity to buy it. It's very expensive for me here. I should work to have my own apartment 10 years! Darrell, I make all independently: man's and female duties. I can hammer nails,
carry heavy bags.... By the way I'm quite good plumber (sanitary technician). Life everything has learned me... I can hope only for myself. But sometimes I so want feel a strong shoulder near to me...
Yes, I want real man for creation family. Darrell, I have the most serious intentions. Very hard to meet geantlemen... Unfortunately.
Therefore I am very glad that have met you. To me very pleasant our dialogue. For me not so important age distinction. Even if you would be 50 or 60 years old, it would not be important for me. These days I so strong wait for your letter. It helps me to distract from all. It as a sweet dream... It is other world for me. Forgive me, if my letter was sad, big and uninteresting to you. Just I wanted to tell you about my life. You should know about it. I promise you not write such letters anymore. And I... I very much would want to learn about your family. How many do you have relatives? Do you love them? How do you think, did they very much help you in your life? It is very, very interesting to me. If you do not want to speak about it... I shall understand... Now I should finish my letter. I wait with alarm your answer. Also I want ask you: had you ever friend from other country?
Is it important for you a nationality? Darrell, what foodstuff do you like? I would like to discuss it with you tomorrow.
Yours friend Olga

Letter 10

Hello my lovely, most desired and gentle Darrell. I am very glad to receive your letter. All night long I thought about you my dear Darrell. I didn't slept because of different ideas in my head. I was grasped with ideas about our meeting. And I have much joyful emotions,
I fell myself very strange. It was like I am small child. I have recollected my childhood when I waited every day and hoped that in my life will appear mummy and daddy. It was hope, hope about happy and absolutely another life... Now I have felt similar sensation. But it differs. Now it's similar to a reality. We think about meeting. It's so fine! I am very glad. I have such excitement and with big impatience expect this day. You have brought the whole sea of emotions in my life Darrell, and it is difficult to me explain it, but I can tell you, that it is pleasant and gave me a new push and purpose for life. I think, my lovely, that it is necessary for us to arrange our meeting so that there were no difficulties and inconveniences in our affairs. I can arrange on my work, I can have some free days for me,
in a month probably. Darrell, and your work will be to allow you to make it? Probably you have the intense schedule with your work also you should be absent. Then we can meet more close from you or even I could arrive to you to be with you some days. I'll not have problems to make longer travel. If such way more convenient for you and my arrival will not create inconvenience for you Darrell, let's choose this plan. It is much better for me, because I can see how you live,
your friends, you can show me your city and various places which you like visit. And if for you it is necessary to visit your work, I can be with your friends or wait for you in your home, if you want... My work not so important also there can manage without me, therefore I do not worry about affairs. Inform me dear, your opinion! If it is a good way for you too, I shall make preparations for travel. Forgive me if something in my letter was not pleasant to you. Simply, I have shared with you my ideas. It was frank letter. I did not want to offend you by anything. I like a tree, grow due beams of your sun, I grow upwards to you. Let it warmly lasts always. My kisses and embraces to you.
Yours Olga

Letter 11

Hello my dear Darrell. Thank you for your warm letter. My heart calms,
when I receive your letter. I cannot tell you what I'm feeling in that moment. And every day I hope you feel the same as me. I always dreamed find somebody who would really special for me, who will come into my life! The one, who would understand me, encourages my efforts and shares my dreams. As a little girl I dreamed about man which will make me smile and laughter. Whom I could trust, who will never injure me.
My lovely thanks for a photo Darrell, today I want describe to you my usual daily day, since morning and till night. At 6:00 roars my alarm clock. I'm not so love my alarm clock. Because it so loudly roars,
every time my head began break up from this noise. It was earlier...
But in last days I wake up quickly because today I'll see your lovely letter. And because I saw you in dream. At 6:05 I'm going in bath, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! I wash and I clean a teeth. At 6:15 I make a small and not so long exercize and during it I THINK OF YOU! At 6:30 I prepare for a breakfast, as a rule strong tea or coffee and I warm up a meal, which I have prepared yesterday, if I haven't it I make a sandwich. I drink tea, I watch TV and I THINK ABOUT YOU! At 7:15 I leave my apartment and I go to my work. Usually, if weather good, I'm walking small distance, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! I like morning walk. I live very far from my work, anyway then I go by bus. I arrive to work vigorous and cheerful. At 7:55 I go to my cabinet. As rule there already wait for me my colleagues (all of them my friends). If I have opportunity, I check my mail. If there is no your message, I receive it later. And when Darrell I see your letter it always, always brings to me so many positive emotions. It makes all my day CELEBRATING HOLLYDAY. It is the most long-awaited moment of my day. At 8:00 I began work, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! I think what I will write you today. I work and I think up my answer. Because I have no opportunity at once write to you. I should work. Sometimes I have a lot of work and I cannot write letter quickly. My letter for you should be written with my soul, wellwritten. Therefore it borrows a lot of time. At 12:00 a lunch break and we going in cafe in building near ours.
Usually after dinner I write to you if I didn't do it earlier. Ohh...
How strong I worry during this moment spelling letter for you... My heart beat more stronger and faster. This such strange sensation... At 13:00 I go again engage in working affairs, and I CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT YOU! At 15:30, I with my colleagues make a small break, we drink tea, probably everybody make it. And I again THINK ABOUT YOU! At 17:00 I go home. Sometimes it happens later, about 19.00. We with my colleagues leave a building and we go on a busstop. I sit in the bus with ideas ABOUT YOU. I think what you do now... May be you have written to me new letter. Darrell, I think about it even after sending you my new letter. But I do not hurry to check it. Because tomorrow I shall check again it and I shall wait it with the big impatience.
After I leave bus and I'm going slowly. I feel myself very well because I THINK ABOUT YOU! I come into apartment... There nobody...
Nobody waits for me there... Sometimes I feel very sadly. I change clothes, I take a shower, and I imagine that YOU WITH ME! (Smile)
After that I have a little rest. Then I make a supper, alone, but I smile, because I imagine, that YOU SIT OPPOSITE TO ME! Sometimes come to me my friends, (but it happens not so often). Then I prepare for something especial for them. I THINK ABOUT YOU! Sometimes I go for walk. If no, I listen to music, I read book, I watch TV, I make various homework, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! (of course not all simultaneously). (Smile) At 22:00 I go to bed. During this moment I THINK ONLY ABOUT YOU! And during this moment very much frequently I cry... Because you are not with me... But tomorrow I shall receive your new letter. And I easily fall asleep, may be in dream I'll see you. By the way Darrell, write me please your full home address, I want to send you letter through a usual mail, I have more photos in my photoalbum, and I want you feel a smell of my aroma. Well, my most dear Darrell, I should go now to work. Only let me send you a kiss from Russian woman who thinking about you very often being far from you.. .. I kiss you Darrell, and I with impatience wait for your answer.
Olga waits for you

Letter 12

Hi dear friend Darrell. Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter. I am really glad that I have found you. I should tell you I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell you what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. My lovely thanks for a photo I should tell you that it was required a lot of time to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it's really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. Darrell, I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think about you. I have never done this in my life (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world),
and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. Darrell, I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me,
I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things,
I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. Darrell,
I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Darrell, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. Darrell, I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
With tenderness Olga

Letter 13

Hello Darrell! I am very glad to receive the letter from you today. I am very glad that you still have desire write to me. It is very good that does not confuse you, that I live in Russia. Your country seems to me very interesting and completely another than ours. USA is on other half of our planet. I do not know a difference in time between us, but I precisely know that a difference in time with New York 8 hours. My dear thanks for a photo Darrell, as you already know I work as a bookkeeper in small firm. I am engaged in calculation of financial charges, expenses of this firm, various debits, the credits.
I am engaged in distribution of monetary stream of our firm. In general all accounts department.. I hope you understand about what I speak. We live far each other... It is a very big distance for both of us. But this distance only seems a big. It at all does not frighten me. It seems to me especially interesting. Don't you think so? I have read in newspaper (it was already probably for a long time ago) that in other advanced countries (Europe and Northern America) meets situation, that women are more thoughtless (not so serious) than men.
Is it true? I very much would like to learn your opinion, also why do you search for the woman on the Internet? I am for the first time have acquaintance through the Internet. Now I wish tell you about me directly. I have never been married, and I want to marry. What I search in the man, most especial - friendship. I do not like to argue,
altercate in a various occasion. I want meet somebody - who wants to have an entertainment, but understands, that life - is not always an entertainment. I need somebody who is fair, also care, warm and sexual. Also I believe there requirement good appeal between these two people. I want to have friend which later (if everything will be correct) could be more than just a friend. The most important parts of relations - love, trust and communication. But, without trust others two thing does not matter. You cannot contact someone irrespective even you love him or her, but not trusting him or her. The love is important, but you should trust blindly to other person, really love them because you should know they real love you back. Of course you have a question, "Why Russian women search husbands in other countries”. Because of many reasons, I think, and first of all - economic level of Russia. Our country is not rich and it is very difficult to find good work. Russian men cannot earn enough money to hold their family. They very lazy. They start to drink alcohol and become angry. It enters into divorce. Of course there are a lot of good men. Yes Darrell, it is true. But they are already married. If they receive many money, anyway they also start spending all for nothing to drink alcohol or other women. All of them like "Kasanova".
In our country amount of women is more than men. So men try to low women, though a woman is stronger physically and psychologically. She manages a household, brings up children and has a constant work in the same time. There is an opinion that Russian men in degradation now. I want to get married abroad as I’m concerned about my future. I want to have an ordinary, calm life, though I must leave my friends and change culture. It's very difficult. There are many men here which would like to be a part of my life, but a lot of them have been married before,
have kids and are bitter about marriage all together. Some of them have trouble opening up and showing there true feelings and there are the ones who lie, cheat and disrespect any man they get involved with.
These are only a few reasons why I am still single, I think it is better to be lonely than to be with someone and be miserable. So, my search for that perfect man continues. I had no time tell you,
Darrell, about it in my this letter because I write letters to you on my work as I have no a personal computer. I have no children but I would like to have them. I think, that I would be good mother. I never saw my parents. My parents have left me in a orphanage. I have no relatives, at least I did not know them. It is unpleasant for me to recollect my childhood. I grew in a orphanage, where lack of parent's warm... I know, how it is hard to not have relatives. So I am ready to give my future husband and children everything. They will not be lonely, because I shall surround them with warm and love. Living in orphanage I've understood the real values of the life: do kindness to people and it will come back to you doubled. There are many problems in Russia. People became evil and closed. That's why I decided to find a husband abroad Russia. If I'll have opportunity to leave from here for the best life, I'll do it... I will leave Russia. I shall not have a problems with it. Darrell, I already have been in the USA! So I have told you about my dreams. May be they will not come true but these are my dreams. And what about your dreams? I like to visit cinema. Oh, I love it! I like to read books. I have many free time after my work,
therefore I have an opportunity to read. I love various love stories,
detectives and very, very much I love classical russian literature.
Also I love various music. I like different music, all depends on mood. When I'm sad I listen slow, sensual music. Jazz and blues. When I have good mood I listen modern music. I like pop, rock, dance.
American music very pleasant to me (Jennifer Lopez "Baby I love You" and Aerosmith "I Don't Want To Miss A Thing", and many others.), as well as Russian. Bi-2, Rondo are Russian rock-groups, but it is not all my favorite groups, it's a lot of, at once all of them will not remember. Jeniffer Lopez, Aerosmith, Moby and other American groups.
The American film in Russia has huge popularity. They, as believe, are the greatest. I love American films, and I love many American actors.
I frequently go hiking in a wood, I like camping, BBQ or I like to go by bicycle on summer. I have own bicycle. In Winter I go skiing and skating. All these distract me from everyday problems. So what do you do, when you have problems and when you are sad? My hobby if it is possible to tell so - English language. I have loved English for a long time when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I entered in group of the English language and I am still happy that I've made it. I like very much your language. After school,
I continued studying English language in the institute. It is a very soft and easily-memorized language for me. Now I attend courses of the English language. I've been studing your language for 16 years. I want to learn this language perfectly. I know that now I admit mistakes,
but I hope you won't angry. I spent a lot time to write this letter. I wait your answer Darrell. I have many ideas, but I do not want to rush this precious moment when two souls are looking towards each other across the continents for an everlasting friendship. Darrell, I send you other my pictures.
Your friend Olga

Letter 14

Spending your life,
don't forget to live....

Hello, my new friend! I am very pleased, that you have answered my letter. First of all I want to apologize for my not fast reply. I have no computer in my house. Yes, it's really pity... I can't answer you in the same moment as you. Thank you that you have found time write me letter. I think you have many questions to me. I shall try describe myself. I do not know what tell you in the beginning... Well, let's begin! I would like you call me Olga. I'm 27. My birthday - August, 20 1978. My height - 5 foots 7 inches. My weight - 116 pounds.
As you see in my photo, I have blue eyes, and color of my hair - brown. I have serious intentions, and I do not want to make a wrong choice... I tried write to you, and now I see, that you answered. We can start our corresponding, I think so... I want to be fair with you.
Be fair with me too. I live in Russia, in city Nizhniy Novgorod. Did you heard about it? It is very ancient city. Nizhniy Novgorod is located in 600 kilometers from Moscow. Nizhniy Novgorod the big and wellknown city in Russia, it is located on the river Volga. I thought in beginning to write that I live in Russia. But.. you would not write me. Anybody would not decide write me. Therefore I have put random figures in zip code of USA. Forgive to me this small lie.Services of this acquaintances site very expensive. Don't you think so? I made payment using Western Union. I hope that it was not vain... We are two persons who want to meet someone ONLY for serious relations. I'm right? We can try to know better each other, but if you do not want,
it is your choice... Little about me. I have higher education. I started my education in secondary school, in Nizhniy Novgorod. After I have finished it, I have entered Economic Faculty of Technical University. I have finished it 5 years ago. Now I work as a bookkeeper. I am engaged in financial affairs of our firm. This firm not so big. I work here not so long time, about 4 months. During work day I can use a computer and write letters. It is more convenient for me. I really would like to know your interests, your race, languages which you speak, hobbies? Tell me little bit more about you. I also shall tell you more about me in the following letter. I send you my pictures. I hope my letter will not afflict you. I shall wait for your letter and your picture with impatience. But if you are not interested, drop me some words. It is important for me.
May be your new friend Olga!

Letter 15

Hi my lovely Darrell. Thank you for the pleasant letter. I want to tell you again I am glad to see your letters every day, because it is so. But today your letter was especially pleasant. Today in our city remarkable weather. The sun shines. I have magic mood. Your letter very much lifted my mood. Thank you for beautiful and very good words.
I love it. Every woman requires in respect, attention and of cause love. In your letters I see it and it.. it is very pleasant. You like man... man of my dream. I so think. In the last letter Darrell, I asked you what will be further... Because our correspondence becomes more especial for me day by day. I hope for you too... I think, that we should think up something, I think we should develop our relations... I very much would want to meet you sometime... I told my girlfriends about you. They have been surprised that we till now write each other. They spoke me that it will not be prolonged for a long time. But we still write each other. They asked about you, about your appearance about your habits, work and life in the USA. I told them you are very lovely, gentle and careful. You have worthy earnings and you dear person for the friends and familiar. They were very pleased and glad for me. I think it would be very good to spend even some days together. It will help us to understand better each other and to promote development and strengthening of our relations. Darrell probably in the NEXT month, may be earlier we could meet. In the USA or in Europe. I do not want that you came to Russia. Most likely, you will have awful impression about my country. Many people leave Russia.
Because here very bad conditions for Russian citizens. Here only deceivers, liars, thieves and gangsters live very well. I do not want that you were their victim if you will seen it, you would understand me. I do not want that you had such presentation about Russia and about me. I think in Europe or in the USA will be a good place, more civilized. How do you think, my lovely Darrell. I want to develop our relations. Darrell you and your letters borrow day by day more and more places in my heart. It is very much pleasant to me. I want to see your eyes opposite to mine. I want to feel your presence... It does not suffice me so. I only see your letters, your words. I think we should HEAR it. Already now I wait for your letter, though I still have not sent this letter. I shall miss and wait for your answer with impatience. I think about you... Every second.
Yours Olga

Letter 16

Hi my lovely Darrell. Thank you for the pleasant letter. I want to tell you again I am glad to see your letters every day, because it is so. But today your letter was especially pleasant. Today in our city remarkable weather. The sun shines. I have magic mood. Your letter very much lifted my mood. Thank you for beautiful and very good words.
I love it. Every woman requires in respect, attention and of cause love. In your letters I see it and it.. it is very pleasant. You like man... man of my dream. I so think. In the last letter Darrell, I asked you what will be further... Because our correspondence becomes more especial for me day by day. I hope for you too... I think, that we should think up something, I think we should develop our relations... I very much would want to meet you sometime... I told my girlfriends about you. They have been surprised that we till now write each other. They spoke me that it will not be prolonged for a long time. But we still write each other. They asked about you, about your appearance about your habits, work and life in the USA. I told them you are very lovely, gentle and careful. You have worthy earnings and you dear person for the friends and familiar. They were very pleased and glad for me. I think it would be very good to spend even some days together. It will help us to understand better each other and to promote development and strengthening of our relations. Darrell probably in the NEXT month, may be earlier we could meet. In the USA or in Europe. I do not want that you came to Russia. Most likely, you will have awful impression about my country. Many people leave Russia.
Because here very bad conditions for Russian citizens. Here only deceivers, liars, thieves and gangsters live very well. I do not want that you were their victim if you will seen it, you would understand me. I do not want that you had such presentation about Russia and about me. I think in Europe or in the USA will be a good place, more civilized. How do you think, my lovely Darrell. I want to develop our relations. Darrell you and your letters borrow day by day more and more places in my heart. It is very much pleasant to me. I want to see your eyes opposite to mine. I want to feel your presence... It does not suffice me so. I only see your letters, your words. I think we should HEAR it. Already now I wait for your letter, though I still have not sent this letter. I shall miss and wait for your answer with impatience. I think about you... Every second.
Yours Olga

Letter 17

Hi my most dear friend Darrell. My dear thanks for a photo. I very pleased to see your letter, and I think you'll pleased to see mine also. I'm always very glad receive your letters. I very much liked your country. It was very interesting and useful trip. I will remember your country for ever. I hope sometime again to go there. We have studied much all useful, our dialogue was very easy, people were very polite with us. It is very pleasant. Today I would like to talk with you about meal. I very much like preparing. If I don't work as a bookkeeper, probably I'll be cook (smi-ile!). Cooking is basis of health, cherishing life of family. I know many recipes of dishes. I love tasty and healthy foodstuffs. Yes, meal should be useful for health, it is most important. Darrell, I very much love potato and various, diversified dishes from this vegetable. When I come home, at first I go on kitchen and I start preparing for myself something tasty. Mhh... I very much love those moments when my friends come to me. Always I trying to prepare for them any various fishes delicacy, a different kind of meat. I always try my friends estimated my abilities in cooking, and almost always it happen. Also I very much like to bake pies. Darrell, do you know what is it "russian pies"? It is a stuffing grocery, wrapped up in a dough, and baked in an oven. The most important not use a microwave. Otherwise taste becomes absolutely another, besides it is badly baked thoroughly. If everything make correctly it is divine taste!!! You should eat this thing sometime...
All my friends for a long time have estimated it. I began to prepare when I was 9 years, in a orphanage. I helped our cooks on kitchen.
They have learned me almost for everything, that they knew. I am very grateful to them for it. But no one can estimate it, except for my friends. I very much love my friends. Now YOU in my life... You my friend too. Can I so think? I very much would want think you my FRIEND. I really want to know you, to speak with you, to take your hand and see your eyes. Probably it is very sincere now, but it is true, and I do not want to hide it. I always speak true and I do not like, when people - lie. I hate it. I very much like to dream. I am a dreamer.... I do not know good it is or bad. Since the childhood I dreamed. My teacher somehow told to us: "You must forget about your dreams!" She has told, that dreams do not bring happiness. She has told, that dreams bring only a pain and disappointment. May be she was right. Actually dreams come true not always. It happens, you have to do everything, all forces and all your aspiration to reach this purpose. But frequently it is not enough. Not everything in this life depends on us. Destiny! Her strong and invisible hands easily rearrange lives and hearts people. And then dream stops to be a desirable star, when it is failed during long time. But anyhow, I think, that impossible live, without dream and hope. When you have dream, our lifes is filled with sense. Dreaming, life becomes more interesting and more various. You start to think, analyze, choose and make decision. And each small victory, each defeated obstacle on your way to dream, each following step to your dream brings great pleasure.
Your heart is filled with belief and hope. And you are inspired with thing, which waits for you in the end. You remember pleasure of victories and the defeated purposes better than a pain of losses and disappointments. For this reason I like to dream, though my dreams comes true not so often as I want. I am surprised, that I write to you all this. Darrell, I never had the person with whom I could share my ideas. But now I have found you, and I am very pleased. I don't judge people whence they - or what color of skin they are. Sometime I would like to leave Russia. But only, I do not know when? Nobody waits for me there. Darrell, your letters is the only thing now for me, outside of Russia. Your letters - a part of my life now. I very much would want so think. And I estimate it very much. You became very important for me. And to be frank, I am afraid to lose you. Forgive me for my frankness. If I offended you anyhow, or caused inconveniences, forgive me please. Do not stop write me. Write me every day, even if I cannot answer you every day. I shall answer you anyway. Darrell, your letters give me forces, and my day is filled with pleasure. I hope, that you have not become angry. I shall wait for your letter with impatience.
And now I want to ask you some questions: do you love people and what do you think about children living in a orphanage? Darrell, I heard,
that in the USA, women don't like to prepare for tasty and healthy food and make homeworks, is it valid so? Do you belive in love? Love at first sight? I'm waiting for your letter.
Yours Olga...

Letter 18

Hi my most dear friend Darrell. My dear thanks for a photo. I very pleased to see your letter, and I think you'll pleased to see mine also. I'm always very glad receive your letters. I very much liked your country. It was very interesting and useful trip. I will remember your country for ever. I hope sometime again to go there. We have studied much all useful, our dialogue was very easy, people were very polite with us. It is very pleasant. Today I would like to talk with you about meal. I very much like preparing. If I don't work as a bookkeeper, probably I'll be cook (smi-ile!). Cooking is basis of health, cherishing life of family. I know many recipes of dishes. I love tasty and healthy foodstuffs. Yes, meal should be useful for health, it is most important. Darrell, I very much love potato and various, diversified dishes from this vegetable. When I come home, at first I go on kitchen and I start preparing for myself something tasty. Mhh... I very much love those moments when my friends come to me. Always I trying to prepare for them any various fishes delicacy, a different kind of meat. I always try my friends estimated my abilities in cooking, and almost always it happen. Also I very much like to bake pies. Darrell, do you know what is it "russian pies"? It is a stuffing grocery, wrapped up in a dough, and baked in an oven. The most important not use a microwave. Otherwise taste becomes absolutely another, besides it is badly baked thoroughly. If everything make correctly it is divine taste!!! You should eat this thing sometime...
All my friends for a long time have estimated it. I began to prepare when I was 9 years, in a orphanage. I helped our cooks on kitchen.
They have learned me almost for everything, that they knew. I am very grateful to them for it. But no one can estimate it, except for my friends. I very much love my friends. Now YOU in my life... You my friend too. Can I so think? I very much would want think you my FRIEND. I really want to know you, to speak with you, to take your hand and see your eyes. Probably it is very sincere now, but it is true, and I do not want to hide it. I always speak true and I do not like, when people - lie. I hate it. I very much like to dream. I am a dreamer.... I do not know good it is or bad. Since the childhood I dreamed. My teacher somehow told to us: "You must forget about your dreams!" She has told, that dreams do not bring happiness. She has told, that dreams bring only a pain and disappointment. May be she was right. Actually dreams come true not always. It happens, you have to do everything, all forces and all your aspiration to reach this purpose. But frequently it is not enough. Not everything in this life depends on us. Destiny! Her strong and invisible hands easily rearrange lives and hearts people. And then dream stops to be a desirable star, when it is failed during long time. But anyhow, I think, that impossible live, without dream and hope. When you have dream, our lifes is filled with sense. Dreaming, life becomes more interesting and more various. You start to think, analyze, choose and make decision. And each small victory, each defeated obstacle on your way to dream, each following step to your dream brings great pleasure.
Your heart is filled with belief and hope. And you are inspired with thing, which waits for you in the end. You remember pleasure of victories and the defeated purposes better than a pain of losses and disappointments. For this reason I like to dream, though my dreams comes true not so often as I want. I am surprised, that I write to you all this. Darrell, I never had the person with whom I could share my ideas. But now I have found you, and I am very pleased. I don't judge people whence they - or what color of skin they are. Sometime I would like to leave Russia. But only, I do not know when? Nobody waits for me there. Darrell, your letters is the only thing now for me, outside of Russia. Your letters - a part of my life now. I very much would want so think. And I estimate it very much. You became very important for me. And to be frank, I am afraid to lose you. Forgive me for my frankness. If I offended you anyhow, or caused inconveniences, forgive me please. Do not stop write me. Write me every day, even if I cannot answer you every day. I shall answer you anyway. Darrell, your letters give me forces, and my day is filled with pleasure. I hope, that you have not become angry. I shall wait for your letter with impatience.
And now I want to ask you some questions: do you love people and what do you think about children living in a orphanage? Darrell, I heard,
that in the USA, women don't like to prepare for tasty and healthy food and make homeworks, is it valid so? Do you belive in love? Love at first sight? I'm waiting for your letter.
Yours Olga...

Letter 19

Hi my lovely Darrell. I am glad to see your letter again. It was especial for me. As well as always. Today was very good day and I spent it useful. Since the morning my mood is very joyful. Day by day we close and closer to each other!!! We are going to meet our destiny.
Darrell today I went to agency and concluded the contract with agency of travel. It was very fast. Yesterday I very much worried and time seemed very long like eternity. But today it was very easy and pleasant. My agent told that process of reception of the visa and registration of round in the USA for me will be fast and painless (smile). I shall receive the visa in next week. He told me to come in agency day after tomorrow. Just in case. He should have communication with me because I have no phone. So it will be better for everyone. I have made a payment for registration of all papers and payment for consideration of the visa. About 100 dollars. Process began.... Day after tomorrow I should know the exact name of the airport where I should fly. My agent should order tickets to you in the USA. Therefore Darrell I ask you to inform me the name of the nearest airport for you. Write me it tomorrow. O.K.? I am so glad. I have magic mood!!! It is so fine... Mhh... Darrell. I am so glad that you are ready to meet me. We shall spend at least 4 weeks together. I think that it is big term and it will be enough to learn each other very, very well. I'm sure that it will be unforgettable time for both of us. The idea about our meeting forces my heart to beat very strong and quick. It seems that it's ready to jump from my body. I am very grateful to destiny,
that I have found you, my love! Each day brings to me huge pleasure when I see your letter! Darrell, your letters mean for me something greater, than just a letter! When I wake up in the morning I think about you, my lovely! When I fall asleep I think about you!!! When we shall be together I shall be the happiest woman on the Earth! I very much want to be with you, my lovely! And for me the most important man it's YOU!!! I'm already now present you meeting me at the airport with flowers. With my favourite tulips... It's so bewitches my mood. I'm very glad that we have got acquainted!!! Our time will come soon. And we shall meet!!! It is grandiose!!!!!! I have written in the last letter to you about my "book". I hope you estimated it. Darrell, I really have serious intentions about our meeting. I very much would want that we have written our book together. I would not want that it came to an end sometime... I think of you constantly. Even there behind ocean I feel your presence near to me. Millions kisses for you,
my lovely Darrell!!!
Olga thinking about you

Letter 20

Hello my dear Darrell! I am so pleased to see yours e-mail. It is very pleasant for me to learn, that you support idea to meet and spend time with me. It's such remarkable news, I am so glad. I cannot describe it in words. If you will be with me.... I think, that in our following messages we can discuss about our meeting in more detail, and establish time and place for this purpose. I want to tell you dear Darrell, that it is very pleasant for me to be convinced that exist the man, it's you Darrell, which waits and want to hold me. Such idea influences opinions of the woman and her behaviour. Therefore thank you Darrell, that you have given me to feel it. Also what ideas and imagination do you have about that day when you will meet me? It's very interesting to me. Dear, I have a set of ideas how we can spend our time together. I present myself how we going along the street...
There are many people going towards... But I do not pay attention anybody. I don't see them... I feel heat of your hand... I hear even your breath. I present myself our long conversation, we are talking about many things. It's so amusing and... it's so pleasant. I am constant think about something, I dream. But from the moment of our acquaintance, I think only about you. Even now I hear you tell me about your childhood, about your friends, family, about everything you want. Though, I do not know how sounds your voice. It's so fascinating. May be you think about it too... I present how we are going with you for a long time, very long time. Also we talking. I want to tell you so many words... I want to tell you about everything.
I feel you that man... Which I waited since my childhood. Darrell in my head various ideas, desires and dreams... About you and to be with you. May be it will seem to you fondly and childly, but it's I am. You too such, as well as your letters. I think it wonderfully. I hope to meet you... Let big blue sky above your head will be my joyful smile,
which will remind you about me. And let big night sky will be your lips and millions, billions stars - my kisses to you. Only for you.
Yours tender Olga...

Letter 21

Hello my dear NAME! I am so pleased to see yours e-mail. It is very pleasant for me to learn, that you support idea to meet and spend time with me. It's such remarkable news, I am so glad. I cannot describe it in words. If you will be with me.... I think, that in our following messages we can discuss about our meeting in more detail, and establish time and place for this purpose. I want to tell you dear Darrell, that it is very pleasant for me to be convinced that exist the man, it's you Darrell, which waits and want to hold me. Such idea influences opinions of the woman and her behaviour. Therefore thank you Darrell, that you have given me to feel it. Also what ideas and imagination do you have about that day when you will meet me? It's very interesting to me. Dear, I have a set of ideas how we can spend our time together. I present myself how we going along the street...
There are many people going towards... But I do not pay attention anybody. I don't see them... I feel heat of your hand... I hear even your breath. I present myself our long conversation, we are talking about many things. It's so amusing and... it's so pleasant. I am constant think about something, I dream. But from the moment of our acquaintance, I think only about you. Even now I hear you tell me about your childhood, about your friends, family, about everything you want. Though, I do not know how sounds your voice. It's so fascinating. May be you think about it too... I present how we are going with you for a long time, very long time. Also we talking. I want to tell you so many words... I want to tell you about everything.
I feel you that man... Which I waited since my childhood. NAME in my head various ideas, desires and dreams... About you and to be with you. May be it will seem to you fondly and childly, but it's I am. You too such, as well as your letters. I think it wonderfully. I hope to meet you... Let big blue sky above your head will be my joyful smile,
which will remind you about me. And let big night sky will be your lips and millions, billions stars - my kisses to you. Only for you.
Yours tender Olga...

Letter 22

Hi, again %TOFNAME. I'm glad to see your letter today. I dreamed during my childhood, and I'm dreaming now. Of course, world of dreams - illusory world.
But it is only thing I can do.

(îòâåòû íà âîïðîñû)

Now %TOFNAME, you know that I visited your country. As I know, it is very difficult receive visa in your country. But I have advantages. I was in your country and because of it will be not so difficult for me receive visa in your country. I found out about it during travel to the USA. I can arrive in your country someday... I'm dreaming again (smile!). But it's only an opportunity. We still a little know about each other (it's really so!). Make a travel will not be a problem for me. Two reasons will not allow me arrive to you right now.
1)The first reason - I know about you not so much, and you too know about me a little. We are know each other only some days. But probably, these days the best time in my daily and not so interesting life. You became very much and very important close to me! I began understand it now when I'm waiting for your letters with impatience. %TOFNAME, I very much worry when I'm reading your letters... My heart is beaten so quick! We should be sure in our desires. We should be completely ready to our meeting. It is very serious step, I think you agree with me? We should be sure in each other... Trust - the most important thing in relations! 2)Second reason of impossibility make our meeting in reality - money (it's the most foolish reason... I think). I have no money for purchase of tickets now. Even now I do not plan a meeting, especially earlier I did not think about it. Therefore I did not start save money for trip. I do not know what will be "TOMORROW", we'll see...

We live in a real life, therefore we cannot plunge into the world of dreams and imaginations long time. When a dream becomes obsession,
it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which will be for you lighthouse in ocean of the life,
which will illuminate your way. But anyway %TOFNAME, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. he dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me?I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person,
with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, %TOFNAME, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. %TOFNAME, do you like when your friends come to your home?
And are you the quick-tempered person? I have a very warm feeling inside from all the things you have said about, how you feel when you think about me? My day brightens tremendously whenever I see an e-mail from you. I will wait for your letter with impatience.

%FROMFNAME, waiting for you...

%SUBJECT="Your letters dissect sunlight in my sky"

Letter 23

Hi my lovely and gentle Darrell. I am so glad to see again your letter today. Now it is very important to see your letters and read it. Now I need your support, especially now.... It is so important for me. Now I feel small uncertainty in that I do. I feel that this meeting, not just a meeting - it is very important step for both of us. Today I went to agency. Thanks Darrell that you informed me the name of the airport where I should fly. Seattle-Tacoma International Airport (SEA)
Darrell my agent also has chosen to me date of flight it will be 16.07.2006 It is wonderful that soon we shall be together. He informed me the price of the ticket and payment of services of agency. It will cost for me approximately 1150 dollars. Everything, all charges are included in this sum. It is the insurance, the ticket up to Moscow,
support up to the airport. Recently in our country was very big scandal because of several travel agencies which deceived tourists,
they at all had no the license for work in tourist sphere. Therefore behind work of travel companies and agencies is conducted very steadfast supervision. Now they are obliged by law to care of clients,
they must give a full spectrum of services for their clients. And because of it the prices raise. My agent explained everything to me.
But all the same it was a little unexpected for me to hear it. But I didn't told anything to my agent of travel. I told that in 5-6 days I shall make a payment. I will be glad that process of cooperation with agency fruitful and successful. Agent told, that I SHOULD BUY TICKETS IN THEIR AGENCY. Now it is OBLIGATORY condition for all agencies in Russia!!! And Darrell I cannot make payment completely independently.
I did not speak you earlier how much money I have now. I have only 200 dollars. But it will be insufficiently for payment. You know that my salary very small. 280 dollars per month. I did not ask you for the help earlier. Because I did not know how much money this travel will precisely cost for me. Now I ask you for the help with payment of my contract. Yes, I agree, that it was not so fair. I did not speak you about money. Forgive me please. Darrell I ask you for the help. I ask you to send me other money (950 dollars) for payment of my contract.
Darrell I have very strong desire to meet you. I very much want you to see and be with you, even some days. But I know that I shall not want to leave you. I am just the woman which want to be happy and to make happy you!!! I want to be with you! I very much want that everything in our meeting and a our lifes was wonderful and very good. And your words make me more bravely, more safely. I feel your support and it is very pleasant. Thank you Darrell that you such remarkable, very gentle and careful. I feel that I have made a correct choice. I'm thinking about you every time.
Yours gentle Olga...