Letter(s) to Ferdinand (Philippines)

Letter 1

Hello! How are you? I am really glad to write the letter to you. Dear Ferd, I like traveling and have visited many countries, but I never had any friends outside Russia. It is very interesting for me, and I hope that it will be the begining of a big and true friendship, and possibly something more serious! Dear Ferd, the first question I would like to ask you after viewing your profile - Why do you use internet dating service, do you not have an opportunity to meet someone in a real world??? Possibly you would like to ask me the same question? Ok, I will try to answer. I am a very busy person, last 6 years of my life were dedicated to the job and career. I worked extra hard, somedays I was working 12-14 And now work as an teacher of mathematics in primary school!. Now that I achieved, what I wanted, when I got a good job, I realized that I have a lot of love and tenderness. I realized, that I need a man that will love me and look after me. I need a man that we will have dinner with candles, take a walk holding hands, kiss at the back seats in a film theatre, spend long and sleepless nights togeather! I need a man that will love me throughout all our life togeather. I need a man that we will build a house with, raise our children. I want to find my true love!!! Sincere and trully love!!! My day starts at 6:00am and ends up at midnight. I have a very tense schedule and very little free time. I have learned to value every minute of my spare time and decided to apply for the dating agency in order to find my prince! Dear Ferd, I really want to know more of you. Where do you live? Do you have any photos of that place, so I can see what kind of a place it is? What education do you have? What do you do and where do you work? What do you like to do for entertainment? What do you do in your free time off work? I hope that it is not too much questions for you :) Ok, I will be impatiently wait for your answer and will gladly answer all your questions!

Take care, Ekaterina from russianeuro

Letter 2

Dear Ferd, thank you very much for your reply. It is a very interesting start for our introduction! It is really interesting for me to read what other people think. Everybody is different and everyone has their own opinions and life positions. New encounters are always exciting, and this one is even more exciting, because you live in a different country. I always was fascinated how people live in other countries, what feelings and thoughts do they have in their soul! Ok, I will try to tell you more about myself. I am very opened and energetic person. Yes, I can say that I am intellectually curious and always tend to fulfill my knowledge. I like reading and the amount of books been read by me already passed the thousand line. I am always interested in new ideas. I enjoy intellectual conversations. I am fond of world economy and politics, science and education! Yes, I am very energetic and communicative, but I am not a materialist! Deep down, I am very romantic! What is inside and family values are the things that more important for me. I am a woman with a great and loving heart. I need my own family happy and loving. I need a man, that can see my soul, the treasury of sincere love and passion! I love classical music! I think that is the most amazing and romantic genre. When I listen to Beethoven, Bach, Chaikovsky, Mozart, Chopin or Rochmaninov, there is a wonderful garden blossoms inside of me, my soul frolics and sings. I think that is the love music and only two people should listen to it together!!! Man and woman should enjoy this wonderful music, love and endearments! Dear Ferd, I am always full of life curiosity, because life is interesting and fascinating. To enjoy life in a whole sense, I am living a healthy life and trying to be in a perfect shape. When I studied in the institute, I went into athletics and swimming. And even now when I have spare moment, I put on my sports uniform and go to the nearest park, to enjoy jogging. And more to say, as every woman I like to dance very much! I think that the real dance - is a little story about onself, about one's feelings and emotions. The dance doesn't exist without the emanations of love, the aroma that makes you drunk spreading around people dancing. Where else you can so passionately and brightly, without words, show your real self, your understanding of life, tell the story of your life... I am crazy of the latin-american dances, because they are very incendiary, bright and sexy. Dear Ferd, do you like to dance? What dances attracts you most of all? Well, I think that my letter, will make your impression of me more complete. I sincerely glad our acquaintance and with great anticipation I await your next letter.

With best wishes, Ekaterina.

Letter 3

Hello! I have just got back home and decided to check my mailbox, with a hope to get a letter from you. You know, your letter are starting to add a lot of positive emotions to me. Our acquaintance is like a fresh sea breeze, in a hot desert. Dear Ferd, you are the only person I can speak about anything, beside work. Yes, it is exactly like that, I don't have anybody I can share my feelings, love, music and lyrics, nature and traveling, about cinema, theatre and all the routine things, that all normal people have in their lives. There is a saying: "People don't value happiness, because it costs nothing!". In recent years, I didn't have happiness, conversations and love in my life. And now I know the real value of happiness. And I really appreciate our acquaintance and our correspondence. You seem very attractive to me and I hope, that our relationships will grow! I am all alone in my apartment right now, only romantic music and thoughts about you, lights my fire. How lonely it is without a man in my house, a man that will hug and kiss me when I come home. How I miss the noise and a joyful laugh of a child... I miss breakfasts and dinners together, just the two of us! Dear Ferd, you should know, that I am a good cook and can make amazing meals. Shrims soup, spaghetti with salmon sauce, a bottle of good french wine and just two of us together! I think that a dinner like this will be a great interlude for a passionate and wild night! You can not even imagine how I would love to get to sleep being embraced by a man I love, to wake up from him caressing and kissing me... Yes, I would like to find not just a man, but a real love with an ocean of feelings, joy, happiness and positive emotions!!! Now I will take a shower, order a pizza and will watch some love story alone :). When I was coming back home, I bought a dvd with a film "Love mood". They say it is one of the top 20 love films. I wanted to watch that film long ago and today I made myself a little present. Dear Ferd, how do you spend your normal evening? How do you relax after work?

Take care,

Ekaterina.

Letter 4

Dear Ferd, I had really a great day today. I was enjoying good weather, good mood and smiles on people's faces! When I studied at university, me and my friends spent a lot of time in the park, near University. Those were really happy days of my life! We had a lot of fun and laughs, were going on camping and discos, ate millions of cakes at the university cafe and tons of ice cream in the park. Today I passed by the central park of our town and decided to walk in. This park was very much alike the one in my student years. Even the benches at this park were exactly the same, as we had near our university. I was remembering, when we were sitting on that bench, singing guitar songs, laughed a lot and dreamed about true love! I remembered what I was dreaming of back then and started to laugh out loud. Even the people walking by turned their heads on me :) Dear Ferd, most of what I dreamed of came true, and I have that in my life. Now I only have one dream... A dream about true love! Dear Ferd, before I met you I started to loose my faith in love, and I wasn't sure that there is something out there for me. Our encounter returned my faith in love. Now I feel love is more real and truthful, than I ever thought before... I want to thank you for the hope that you give for my heart! I hope, that our correspondence will last as an enchanting, long story. I hope that we can see our souls, feel the need and warmth of our hearts. I really want to meet you in person, look in your eyes, enjoy romantic and intellectual conversation with you! But I think that we have to know each other well, understand and feel each other, to build any kind of plans. Dear Ferd, how was your day? Perhaps you had something special today? How is your family?

A lot of kisses,

Yours Ekaterina.

Letter 5

Every letter from you - it's the thoughts about love and happiness with a loved ones. It is good to know that you are thought of thousand miles away. Dear Ferd, yesterday was a great weather and bright sky. I saw thousand stars on the sky. I was watching sky and all I was thinking was of you... I enjoyed the beauty of a star sky for so long and saw a star falling. They say, when you see a star falling, you have to make a wish. I wished a very romantic one, but I can not tell you about it, because if I do, it will not become true. And I really want it to do. My dear Ferd, all those stars from thousand miles from me, but I feel they are very close to me, just a little bit and I can touch them with my hand and give it to you. You are closer to me than those stars. We live on the same planet and bereeze the same air. But I can not fondle you with my eyesight and see you, as I see those pretty stars. I really want to be closer to you and physically feel the warmth of your body! How I want to exhale your sense, such fresh and so warm, to get closer to your neck. To fall asleep, having my head on your knees and feel your finger tips touching my spine. To walk a street hand in hand with you, interminably clutch your fingers, so you can warm them up. To be close to you, to feel that you are close to me, because I am so tired, and all the obstacles we can go through together. To blow on you, so that you can turn around and kiss me. To watch the film having my chin in your chest. To fall asleep, to be awaken from your warm breath. To die from tenderness, falling in your embrace. I want it to be very soon and always! I am passionately await your every single letter. That is why if you do not want to break my beautiful heart, do not forget to send few tender and kind words to me...

Kiss you,

Ekaterina.

Letter 6

My dear Ferd, when I read your letter, when I think about you, I plunge into mirages of desires and emotional enjoyments. My love oriented soul, willing spiritual joy and happiness, sings from the overwhelming amount of kindness and passion towards you, my honey. My body and soul is burning with heat ... My heart is full of love and weary expectation. Both of us are angels with only one wing. And we can only fly embracing one another. My dear Ferd, I feel that you are my angel! And I want to fly with you on our wings of love. I want you beside me, that you become my dear, loved and only man. My dear Ferd, I would like to ask you one question... What is tenderness? Perhaps, it is a little kitten, that comes to you at night, lay next to you on the pillow, purrs (they tend to when they young) and touching your nose with it's paw, it silently creeps into your soul, touches the heart, sits there for about 5 minutes, on the very edge, and stays there all night? Or perhaps tenderness - is a soft spring breeze, that tangles in your hair and stays there with the sunny smell of spring, that you can not confuse with anything else? What is tenderness? My dear Ferd, now I know what real happiness is! It is to have a family and sincere love! I have love in my heart! It is there and it already means alot. I do not want to evaluate love, do not want to know it's price and value. My love is my light, my gift, my reward and my freedom! I want to carry my love softly and carefully, because it is the only valuable thing that I have at the moment. I would like to share that treasure with you, and I am very thankful that I have met you and got to know you, my dear Ferd. Our love - only ours, our meaning of life and our award. And only for us it is very important, because it was gifted to us only. We have to take care of our love, to look after ourselves in the name of love, to guard our loved ones. There is a light in it! There is life in it! We have to follow our love, and it will teach you alot, in fact it will teach you everything that life can teach you - the most powerful force in the Universe. With gladness and gratitude I accept love, that blessed our hearts! I am truly happy, I want to rejoice and feel happy, because when the love came, with it along came God into our hearts and souls. God visited us, enlightened and blessed. God gave us something, no life has a meaning with, because only love fills it to the brim, and then overfill and spill flowing with life over our personal, individual story. My feelings are so powerful and sincere, that they can illuminate the whole world! I want to become phoenix - the bird of happiness, to overcome the distance, that separates us and give my love to you and true happiness.

With sincere love,

Yours Ekaterina.

Letter 7

My sweet Ferd, you can not even imagine how happy I am, when I read your magic words and thoughts. Every word from you, every thought fills my heart with happiness and love. My dear Ferd, my feelings are bigger that love, I feel the connection with your inner world, with your existence, with the inside of you. Dear Ferd, I don't know how to explain this, but I will try to do it. Try to listen to the sounds of your favorite melody - just the melody alone, not the lyrics. How long have you been listening to it? How many tones have you discovered in it for the past years? What palette of emotions do you feel, listening to it? It is exactly how it feels with emotional connection with a person. It is very hard to describe it in words. You can only feel it. Relations based on emotional connection are the most sincere and strong. Exactly the kind of relations are the true love! And those relations can not be disconnected from the way you treat yourself. It is the love to another with the overwhelming amount of love in ones heart. The kind of love that can not fade away with years. The real happiness is when two people have the kind of feeling to each other. Do you agree with me? Dear Ferd, every morning I get up turning my PC on. I do it and watch your photo. My dear Ferd, the greatness of your wonderful, attractive sight, touches even angels and awakes the desire to conquer your heart. My honey, the luster of your eyes amazes, and lights a fire in my heart and all I dream of is to praise you and your type. I watch your beautiful face and smile. I smile imagining you will smile back at me. I imagine your eyes, such happy and joy. The calmness and happiness in your eyes, because you feel the magic presence of a woman, that really loves you and feel great responsibility for you, tenderness and respect. A woman like this is capable of loving and seducing you! My dear Ferd, I really want that my love and passionate desire to you, forever light your heart, soul and body. My honey, if you know the power of my love, the taste of my lips and sweetness of my caress and kisses, you will love only me. Are you ready for this kind of love? Romantic and tender, passionate and wild? Now when I finish writing, it is very late at night, and the only thing I need right now, is to have you in my bed! To enjoy your gentle and deeply-emotional caresses! My honey, have mercy on me, I am burning from the love to you! I want to be close to you!

With sincere love,

Yours Ekaterina.

Letter 8

My dear Ferd, I am going crazy from the love to you... Twenty times a day I log into my account and read every letter from you. This feelings are uncomparable to anything. Dear Ferd, to my great regret, my phone is broken. As soon as I find a solution to this problem, then be sure to let you my phone number. I hope for your understanding. My dear Ferd, you may not imagine how I expect your new letter. Awaiting for your mail... Not any long awaited meeting, not even waiting for a most happy holiday can not be compared to it. Never, not even in moments of anxiety or worries - I had my heart beating so fast, and my soul was breaking free. In this moments the madness reaches it's climax, and I am going crazy, thinking that I would give a moment of my life for your letter... Your letter is like a magic cure, heals the exhausted of waiting soul, brings life to it, allots hope and faith. How little I appeared to need, to feel happy just for the moment - one letter from you, letter with your love to me. God! How I want to be with you. Living my life together. Be always close to you. Every day. Every minute. I think about you every second. My thoughts are all about you 24 hours a day. If you only knew how much I love you!!! Nobody, I swear, nobody loves and will love you stronger than me! My dear Ferd, I remember when I first time saw your profile at the dating site. I liked your wonderful appearance at once. Yes, I thought you are a nice person and was glad to have met you. But few letters after I realized that you are an Angel. I was watching your photo and was drowning in the sky sight of the most amazing eyes in the world! Honey, every letter I felt my heart filled with happiness, and warmth flowing all over my body. A little later I realized I felt in love with you. In love with your wonderful eyes, your sight, smile - you as you are. My heart is happy being in the cradle of your feelings, and it loves. Loves with the clear, bright, undemanding love. It doesn't need nothing but opportunity to be close to you. And that is what I need too... be close to you, feel the warmth of your body, tenderness of your hands, smell your intoxicated sense, to melt in your embrace, to feel the taste of your kisses. I have the need of falling asleep and waking up next to you, caress you and understand that it is pleasant for you what I do. I want to relax in your arms and be blessed with the happiness, that you present me. "There is only one life. And you want to live it the way you will not feel sorry for, years past". Now I can not imagine how could I keep for so long without you?! And how to live without you at all? Every day I need your eyes, sparking with joy and tenderness, I feel the need in your hands and tender touches. Never before I have met you, I could feel the warmth and happiness in my soul, just because I know someone is watching my photos and there is love singing in his soul. I would like to rejoice together with you, when you are fine, to grieve or feel sad, when something is wrong, to feel needed in your life. You are the most wonderful, bright, kind thing that happened in my life lately. No. Not like that. Not lately, just in my life. "Life is what you get building your future plans". Love is the most powerful and have no limits, it strength is not dependant on the time of the year, century, technical progress... Hearts meet and the feeling is born, beautiful, deep and all consuming, it had been and will always be like this... My dear Ferd, my heart is now your heart.

Yours Pretty Girl,

Ekaterina.

Letter 9

My dear Ferd, I love every letter from you. With great impatience I am waiting for your respond, to enjoy every word. My dear Ferd, my love to you is growing stronger and stronger. My heart and my soul want to be close to you. My body wishes your caresses and touches. My honey, I am not ashame to tell you this, because I trust you and the words you say. I love you and now you are my life. My dear Ferd, my love is so pure and sincere, my passion is so fiery and wild, my body wants your hot cuddles and kisses, that strong I even saw you in my dream. Yes, my dear Ferd, you were in my dream and we made love...We were in my room. Just you and me my dear Ferd! There were candles, we were drinking wine and looking at each other. You put down your glass and came close to me, touched my face softly with your fingers, and I wished it would have lasted forever...I closed my eyes, and appeared in blackness, so mysterious and excitingly magical, even though there were candles in the room, a lot of them, but I was alone in the dark...I did not want to see the light, I wanted you...and feel your hands...You tenderly touched my lips, I even suddenly flinched. Softly, but demandingly you touched my lips, dry of excitement, with your tongue, slowly turning to a kiss full of warmth...I suddenly felt in not enough. I put my hands up, moving along yours, on to your face, softly taking your head in thaem, returned the kiss back with the unspent passion...It all started to turning, began to whirl, like someone watches the film in frames, and there I was, closely snuggling to you with my body, taking clothes off you. Kisses rate's increased and the craziness too, I started to breath more hard and abruptly, my heart wanted to break free. And me, not being responsible for the actions, laying on my bed, bestrewed in roses. And you next to me. Then your lips left me alone, you froze, your tongue touched my neck, and your hands tenderly playing with my breast. Your kisses did not stop, just started to go lower and lower on my hot body. When your lips touched my belly, some force made my body to bend in extasy, and I moaned passionately. It was becoming unbearably sweet, tender. It was...exotic. You...You did not stop. You continued playing with me like a wind with a leaf. You took an armful of rose petals, scattering them over my body. And it was unexpectedly. Amazing plastic awaked in my body, it became extremely hot, like candles turned in to a burning south sun...your lips..it's magic...your hands were all over, touching all my parts: my legs, my hands, my back and little lower still remembers your touches! It was so erotic, wonderfully pleasant, unreally vivd dream. I remember like bright flowers something passed me by, I suddenly stoped breathing, my heart stoped at one beat with the overflow of emotions... My dear Ferd, you can not even imagine how cruelly it was to wake up alone! My body was hot and all I wished for in that morning was you to be close to me, in my bed! My dear Ferd, I know, I believe, that we will still have the same I had in my dream and my desires: see, sand, moon, stars and two naked bodies cuddling each other...And one day, perhaps very soon, I will whisper in your ear, that I madly in love with you! Love is such an amazing thing: even it makes our eyes spark brighter that any diamonds, makes us smile and be happy with life. And this unpredictable love, you have to guard.

Yours Pretty Girl,

Ekaterina

Letter 10

My dear Ferd, every day, I watch your photos. When I see your photos, I imagine you in that moment. I imagine your caresses and your kisses, and it helps me to overcome the hardship of us being apart. When I am at home, I switch on my computer many times, just to see your eyes. They are so calm, not having the bottom. They cover with the light unweight tenderness. I can watch them unlimited. They have no evil, no insult, just kindness. Your smile is sincere. Somewhere in the tips of your smile hidden childish naivety. Your smile gives me an impression of something magical in my soul, something I want to live. When I watch your photos, my eyes drown in the tenderness of your sight. Your eyes bewitch with the magic light tenderness and burning passion... When I think about you, my feelings overwhelmed with emotional desire, my body wants to enjoy the tenderness and fantasy of your caress. Every moment of my life there is a desire - to be with you. The desire of my love is so huge and hot, that my body and heart will not handle the heath. It will just burn of my passion. My dear Ferd, it is hurting to feel the need of such love, emotional desires and to know, that my loved one is so far away from me. This evening I was trying to relax of the past few days. I visited a pool club with my friends. We played pool, smoked a hookah and drunk light Spanish wine. I enjoyed good evening and the company of my friends, but my thoughts were far away from that place, from that pool club, and they were far away from Russia. They were close to you. I would sacrifice all the treasures of the world, just to be with you in that evening. To drink wine with you, to kiss you in your sweet lips and feed you with grapes from my hands. We could even play pool. We would enjoy each others company that evening. And the night would make our dreams and desires come true. It would have been the night of love and heaven's enjoyment. And from that same night, our hearts, our thoughts and our bodies would belong to each other. For the rest of our life we would enjoy our love. With every day it would grow stronger and stronger. My dear Ferd, we have the valuable gift in our hearts and the depth of our souls. We have the love, the sincere love, and most importantly passionate and mutual. It is very rare for the people to love each other like that. Love is great only when feelings are mutual. We have such love and have to be thankful for it. We should not miss the chance, given to us by the almighty. Our hearts, souls and bodies, should become one passionately with our love. We should not waste a minute, to acknowledge the happiness of our love, to enjoy our love. We should become closer to each other.

Tender hugs and a lot of kisses,

Yours Ekaterina.

Letter 11

My dear Ferd, I really enjoyed reading your letter. In it I see a great amount of love and thirst to slake our desires. My love, my dear Ferd, I can tell you I have such feelings to you. Just my love is stronger and my passion is really wild. I feel the undescribable desire. I want to be with you my dear Ferd, want to enjoy your love. Only your love and caresses will calm my soul and my hot body. I really need you. My dear Ferd, you are my passion, my love, you are my man! You became the purpose of my life. My love, you can not imagine what kind of emotions are going through me, you can not imagine my thirst for love and strength of desires. My dear Ferd, never in my life...Do you understand, dear Ferd? Never in my life I loved so strongly. Our love is heavens gift, because loving like this, as I love you, only angels can. I love every bit of you, I love your letters, because it is your thoughts. I am ready to become your shadow, to be close to you forever. My dear Ferd, I adore you, I worship you, I love you, because you are my only and sincere love. I can not think of anything else but you, all my thoughts and desires about you! My dear Ferd, you are my man and you have to do something, to stop my heart suffer from us being apart. I feel my heart will die, if we are not together. I need you as oxygen. I breathe only our love. My heart beats only because our love. My dear Ferd, if you do not wish the death for my heart, that loves you so much, you have to do something. My dear Ferd, since the day we have met, we will always be together...We will live a happy life and enjoy our love. I am sure, even after we die, our souls will be together. God saw us and gifted us with the love we have, true, sincere...This love FOREVER!

Always yours Ekaterina.

Letter 12

My dear Ferd, I am writing you this letter to tell you that my love for you is so real that I can't find any words to describe my feelings for you. My love for you has grown so strong that I can never imagine a life without you now. You are the best man any woman could ever ask for. My dear prince, I am honestly happy your invitation and gratefully accept it! I deeply appreciate your seriousness and sincere care about our relations. My dear Ferd, I hope that our meeting will light up the fire of our passion and love. I think we will have good time together and can really enjoy life and our company. Honey, I know the procedure of getting visa to Europe and think, that I will not have any obstacles in getting one! My prince, as you know I do not have a lot of spare time, and therefore I would suggest it to be better if I apply via travel company. I have used their facilities few times already. They can prepare my visa within 14-16 days. My dear Ferd, tomorrow I will visit the company, to determine the details of my trip. My honey, I will need your exact address, full name and the closest airport location (I mean it's name). I hope you can provide the necessary information. Dear Ferd, tomorrow I will speak to my director, to have 3 or 4 weeks off, for my travel to you. This is the most difficult part of organisation our meeting, because my director is very strict and responsible and there is a lot of work. It will be difficult, but I will do my best to have those 4 weeks holidays given to me, my dear Ferd! Ok, now that we have done a few steps towards meeting each other and I hope that very soon I will be able to hold your hands and kiss your sweet lips! My soul and heart will sing from enormous love to you. My darling Ferd, being away from you drives me crazy and makes me want to be with you right at this very instant. This feeling of love that I hold within my heart for you runs deeper than any ocean or sea; I just wish you could see how much you mean to me. If only you could hold me, then maybe you would feel my love for you that burns with a flame high enough to last. If only you could hear my heart beat, then maybe you would understand the language of love with which it speaks. If only you could kiss me then maybe you would taste my love for you that's so sweet. From the very first moment I saw you, I knew you were my destiny. No man had ever captured my attention and my heart so fully. I had no doubt you were the man God made especially for me. You take my breath away with the feelings you have for me and I have for you. I look forward to seeing you soon. I know that our feelings will only grow with each passing day. I hope that no matter what happens to us, that you will be happy. That would mean more to me than anything. Your happiness makes me feel whole and happy too. I need to know that you are okay. I know our life will only get better once we meet. I know, we are meant to be together for the rest of our lives. When I think of you, my heart is so full of love and passion for you that I can hardly contain myself. I think of spending every minute of every day with you and holding you so close to me. Whenever you think of me, please know that no matter how many miles separate us or how much of our lives comes between us, you are and always will be the love of my life and I will never love anyone as much again. I thank God everyday for letting me meet you and for you falling in love with me because I know that it would never be as perfect any other way. I love you with all that I am.

Love always, Ekaterina.

Letter 13

My dear Ferd, I got all the required information about traveling to your country. My honey, I deeply regret to say this. My dear Ferd, my love is very strong to you, I highly value your feelings and that you are very sincere to me, that is Why I have to tell you straight away. My dear Ferd, I do not have an opportunity to visit you. My sweet, my tender Ferd, please understand me. I do not say - NO, I do not decline our meeting. My love, I miss you so much and wish us to meet every seccond. But I really can not travel to you for several reasons. I have international passport to travel and I think that visa will not be a problem. But the amount that we are talking about (the price of the trip to Philippines is 1100 dollars) is really high, at the moment for me. My dear Ferd, I do not want you to think bad about me. It just the circumstances. I will try to explain the situation, for you to understand my motives. Two years ago I applied for a house loan at the state bank. I think you are familiar with it, and know what I am talking about. I signed it to buy flat. The government offered me about 38 thousand dollars to buy a flat. I bought it, and now I have to repay around 300 dollars a month, to cover the loan. My monthly salary is about 600 dollars and most of it goes towards the loan repayments. My love, as you can see now financially wise I can not travel to you. My dear Ferd, I hope you understand my situation and see that only financial difficulties prevent me from flying over to you, my love. My feelings are sincere, they are like water from the clear source. The are so clear and transparent. I really love you and do not want you to think that I played with your feelings. My soul is clear and opened to you, my dear Ferd. We will definatelly meet eachother, and despite that I am very fragile woman, I will do my best for our meeting to happen in closest date. We will meet eachother surely in some time, and will be able to enjoy our love, sweetness of our cuddles, caresses and kisses.

With thoughts about our meeting,

Yours Ekaterina!

Letter 14

Dear Ferd, unfortunately, I have no opportunity, to learn ways of installing any messenger on to my computer and ways to operate it. Dear Ferd, I already told you before that I am a very busy person, work wise, and have very little spare time. If you feel the enormous desire, to see me, my magical eyes and wonderful, white smile, I think you will find a way to meet me face to face, not trying to observe me over the screen of your computer. I am looking for a man that is not feared of a flight and not scared to meet me face to face, as I am not into long correspondence. I prefer face-to-face conversations about significant decisions. Dear Ferd, Days go by with thoughts of you in my mind. I know you are cute, but every time I would see you, you'd tend to look even cuter than ever. When I think of you and see your photo, I say to myself, God is really good, the greatest architect ever, to design and create such wonderful eyes as bright as the stars in the sky, on a dark and lonely night. A smile of exquisiteness brightens up my world. If you are mine for real, I will put you on top of my most valuable goods, I will put you in a glass showcase by yourself, and polish you every day, keep you glittering and I will honor, cherish, squeeze and hold you tight. At night, I will let you carry me and place me on your pillow, right by your side, and afterwards, kiss you goodnight, and hold you all through the night, and do it right. I'd give all I can to keep you. I love you so much, Ferd. I was thinking so much about that, when I will meet you at the airport. I am getting butterflies in my stomach just at the thought of seeing you. You make everything complete and I can't imagine spending time with someone else and having these feelings for anyone else. I am anxious to see you my Ferd. Time is ticking, and it is going by really slow. My days and especially my nights are so empty without you! I look forward to waking up to the softness of your skin against mine. I can feel you breathing as if you were a part of my own body. Looking at you as you dream, gently "waking" you to the soft caresses of my hands and your body yielding to me. I miss you every single second. You have rekindled the flame called love in me. You have given one more reason to look forward to tomorrow. Now, you are a significant part of my life and I look forward to the day when we can make it permanent. I love you so much. I love you for your kindness, for your caring and giving nature, for your beauty - both inner and outer, and most of all I love you because you are you.

Eternally,

Yours Ekaterina.

Letter 15

Dear Ferd, I miss you so much. I understand you! I will be waiting! I know right now we can't be together but I will be waiting for you when God reviews us. I pray every night and day that he sees the love I have for you. I feel like I can't breathe. I have never been so in love with a man the way I love you. I am so free when I read your letter. You let me be me and make me feel so special. I know God has something good in store for us. He is not an evil God but a loving God. And when we are in each other's arms, that love will be more amazing than what we have now. Dear Ferd, today I was sitting at my school thinking about you. I was thinking about you and suddenly felt how lonely I am without you. I felt how much I need you. Dear Ferd, you and only you are the purpose of my life. I need you and your love. Dear Ferd, I thought about you and there were tears running down my cheeks. Those were the tears of happiness, because of us having our love and tears of sadness and loneliness from you being far away from me and can not gift me your love, tender caresses and hot kisses. I am very emotional and touching woman. When there is a lot of love in my heart and unspent tenderness, emotions and feelings overwhelm myself. I become deeply susceptible to be hurt, capable of crying from anything. Dear Ferd, my eyes are full of tears, because my heart is overfilled with love to you. I know that you are perfect for me. We are perfect for each other, in every way. Every night I dream about you, and every morning you seem to dissolve before my eyes when I first open them. I want you to be the one I wake up in the morning and see next to me, someone who I can take care of. I will always be here waiting, no matter how long it takes to find you. Love has no limit, no set time...it comes when you decide to let it. You are like God's dove, so beautiful, so pretty, so loving, caring, and that's what I love, the fact that you love me for who I am. Thank you, God, for this special man, you gave me - I can't thank him enough for the love and beauty that I found. The existence of our love is the best thing that ever happened to me. I will always be the most tender, beautiful and sexy woman for you. I know one important thing... I know that I love you, and it will never change.

Love always,

Ekaterina

Letter 16

My dear Ferd, I do not know where to begin, I am in a horrible shock right now after what happened. I thought I tell you this, because you are the only person I can share everything with and you were a great support for me since the day we have met. Honey, my love Ferd, yesterday I returned home just to find my flat burned out! Everything is completely in ruins and the flat is a total mess. I never thought about fire. As I drove to my house - I saw fire brigade's truck standing, and I felt deadly freeze all over my body. I went pale breaking through the standing crown of watchers and straight to my floor - the foamy water was running down the staircase and one of the firefighters stopped me and said that it still might be dangerous to come up. I asked him which flat was it and got the dreadful reply - it was mine! I felt weak in my legs and slowly started to slide down the wall I leaned on to. Luckily I was grabbed by the firefighters and they gave me some strong liquid to sniff that suddenly brought me back. I asked how bad were the damages- and they told me that it is still early to estimate, because there still was a threat and the emergency situation was not called off. The only thing I was left to do is just go down and wait. After they cleared the property and evacuated the fire - I was allowed in. It was like a real nightmare - water everywhere, furniture some burned out, some just touched, everything was turned upside down. I went hysterical and it took me about 10-15 minutes to calm down. They even called for the medical assistant. I was given the medication but still felt shocked. Everything was wrecked! The firefighters wrote a report, and asked me if I had a place to stay for the night - I could only think of one place to go to - my friend. She lives not far from me in a hired flat and she hospitably agreed to help me in this situation to give me a place to stay. The firefighters sealed the flat, because they could not find the reason that caused the fire and it required the police investigation and also the insurance specialists to evaluate the damages. I walked to my friend, I decided to take a walk there, because I needed some time to ponder what could start the fire and what to do next. I spend the night over my friends house and in the morning went to work as usual, I told my director that I need a day off, because of what happened and he generously signed it. I was at the insurance company and they assured me that, when I signed for a property loan, in the contract there was a compulsory insurance included. The insurance I signed for was a good bargain, because it covered the valuables inside the flat, but only the ones I have receipts proving the fact of them being bought by me, and luckily I didn't keep them at my flat - they are at my parent's house. The insurance officer told me that I will get 80 percent of all the damages in recovery costs. That calmed me down a little bit. Still I was like in a cloud of smoke. My dear Ferd, I went back to work to write you this letter. All this time I could think only about you straight. I do not want to tell my parents, because my father have a weak heart and it is highly unrecompensed for him to worry. Honey, my sweet Ferd, I am staying at my friends for 2-3 days, because I cause her great inconvenience as she lives in a very small room of a rented flat and I do not want to put her in trouble with her landlord. My flat will be sealed for at least a month, so I was told. My dear Ferd, I have nobody else to ask for help, you are the only person I can trust and rely on. You became very close to me and several times you wrote that you will always help and support me. In any other case I would never ask you, it is not in my life principles, because I was brought up this way by my parents. They always were telling me that I need to rely only on myself and nobody else. So I followed this way up until now, because I am in a no way out situation right now. I can not ask my parents for help, because firstly they will start to worry and I do not want nothing to happen to them, because I will not survive otherwise, secondly they are not rich and also live off the small salaries, I normally help them with money. My love, I am calling for your understanding, I would like to ask for your help. I would need to move out from my friend and find a room for myself for about 1 month, till everything is sorted. Honey, please tell me if you could help me, I count only on you, my dear Ferd! Otherwise I do not know what am I going to do... I am waiting for you answer dear. All the time thinking about you, because it would make my life much easier if I have a strong man's shoulder right now. The man that I could just cry to and the one that would kiss me and comfort. The man that is you, my dear Ferd!

I love you,

Kisses

Ekaterina!

Letter 17

My dear Ferd, my heart tears into million pieces. Your words, your thoughts are the magical lotion for my heart, but my inbox is empty for several days. My love, I think, I understood the reason, why you stoped writing to me. Perhaps my troubles with a flat and inability to fly to you for our meeting is a reason to stop contacting me. My dear Ferd, please tell me about it, if your feelings have not faded to me. Yes, it will be hard for me to hear this and accept this truth, because I really love you and want to be your woman, that you will love with all your heart. But I do not want any games in our relationships. Sour truth is better than sweet lies...My dear Ferd, please tell me your thoughts, your attitude towards me...Please do not make me wait long, because I still love you and it is hard for me not having any news from you.

Always and Forever,

Yours Ekaterina!