Letter(s) to Philip (Spain)

Letter 1

Phil I'm so sorry you are having only problems with me... I swear if I were with you now I would make everything to make you happy and I would do everything you wish.... but I can't do it... I'm so far away....
You've done so much to help me and you probably have regrets you've met this Russian girl online and you are having so many problems because of me.
Money is a fiction. Please put great importance on the money. But actually happiness cannot be bought for the money. Money do not make people more happy. But in our case due to money it is possible to reduce the distance between us...
Phil nobody done so many good things to me and I'm very thankful to you. You've never met me and you care so much about me.... I don't want to miss this chance in my life to meet so good man as you... but I don't have an access to any money, I'm not in my native city now, I'm lonely here in Moscow... I'm just a country girl who came to the big city...
Maybe it will be possible for you to find this money, so I will buy tickets finally for my trip to you. You see I need to buy only ticket now and I will fly to you on Friday!
Please don't hate me. I love you so much. I know it's impossible to love someone you've never met but I just write how I feel.
I hate the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without you.
I know you are looking at the stars at another part of the world and I just want to kill myselff because I can't be with you now and it's my best desire to be with you...
Phil my mum didn`t allow to take my photo camera to moscow, so I`m sending you some of my old photos!
I will cross my fingers hoping for help and start to dream about our meeting..
Yours only Elena