Letter(s) from Margarita Kiselyova to Brad (USA)

Letter 1

Hi Brad! All I can say is "what a wonderful evening after the hard day!"
I am so glad to receive your letter , because I thought that I will not be able to receive your letter today, because it's already evening now, and I has just returned to the clinic. And your letter is a real surprise!
We had "the outside work day". It is a day of a hard work.
Every week some our employees - several doctors of various specializations and laboratory assistants who take all analyses, are going all together on a special bus to various small villages which are located far away from big cities, usually in a thicket of a forest.
Here there are a lot of such villages. The public transport is not going to such villages and people living there have no opportunity to visit clinic at any moment and to receive necessary medicaments. And these people cannot go to big cities and settlements because these people have no personal transport.
In these villages there are many sick people, basically they are small children or old and weak feeble people, whose lives completely depend on other people and medicines. Therefore we go on the specially-equipped bus directly to these villages, and we render the medical aid to all needy people right in their apartments or in the bus. All these people already know us personally, and love us very much. But it is really the hard work because we are going there at 6 am, and we come back sometimes even after 10 pm!
That is why now I have no forces even to smile. That is why I have told you, that your letter is really a wonderful surprise, even though now I hardly will come home earlier 11 pm as I write to you this letter! :) .
I feel that I began to say silly things?

Brad I am afraid that I will be writing to you during all night, because for me our dialogue is a rest for my soul and body! It is good that tomorrow I can sleep so long as I want, because after "outside work day" we can come to the clinic after a lunch break. My favourite day of a week is Friday, because next two days - days off (though not always) and I can restore my vital forces and energy. So the days off - a holiday for me! Though now I do not feel pleasure when I think of the days off because these are days when I maybe can't receive the letter from my friend Brad! :) . But you likely will be happy when the days off will come, because these are days when you will not receive boring letters from one boring woman whose name is Margarita!:)
Am I right? Brad can you imagine, while I write you right now this letter, Nataly has fallen asleep right in the armchair opposite me!
She works together with me and we always work in the one group in "outside work day". Nataly said hello to you! She told she would wait till I finish to write my letter to you Brad and now she simply sleeps!
She is a true friend. But I will not talk about her as I am not sure if you want to hear about my friends. But she is really now the dearest person in my life, like a sister. She waits for me because she lives not far from me. Frequently we spend the days off together. I spoke that I like nature very much. I always spend a lot of time in the open air though I seldom have such an opportunity . I like to walk simply in the park or simply to be in my bed all day long :) . camping, sunsets and sunrises, life in a tent, the smell of the river and bulrushes, a rustle of a small waterfall; night starry sky and amazing brilliance of a fish dissecting a water surface of a small lake under captivating moon light. It is very beautiful and romantic. Brad do you like to be romantic with your woman?
I hope yes. I am romantic:) I like fire and I am sure that there is nothing more tasty than a meal cooked on a fire or firebrands. And when air is filled with fregrance of the forest and timber raspberry, river freshness and a smoke of the campfire, all this brings into my soul the feeling of freedom, and untamable desire to live. I know I already talked about my love to cooking.
I know many recipes and I like our national cuisine. "Uha", "Okroshka", "Golubtsy", "Borshch"(soup), "Gribovnitsa" (mushroom's soup)! My favorite is "Okroshka"! I like peppery meal, meal with seasonings, Russian Georgian cuisine. Here it is very popular. Brad do you love a tasty meal?
Say more about meal you like? Does the way to your heart lay through the stomach? :)
If so, I think I have good chances! :) Have you ever tasted Russian Cuisine?

Brad I must go, because the darkness has already covered all around and if I miss the latest bus from the clinic, I will need to go on foot some kilometers in absolutely deserted terrible places and Almost through a forest, and it is very dangerous. Certainly I together with Nataly, but just like me, she is simply the woman. What is the funnest thing that you like?
What event in your life you till now remember with laughter?
Oh, I have promised you to finish my letter, but instead of it I write again and again. Please, forgive me :) I will wait for your letter with hope!
I hope your day will be filled with sun warmth and human kindness!
Your friend Margarita.

P.S. Dear, i did some pics for you, it's here

Letter 2

Brad today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried not show it, I think you have noticed it. Brad I was sad because the boss informed me that approximately in two weeks the laboratory will be closed for full re-equipment and repair. And when he told me it, I thought my heart would stop, because when it takes place, I will not be able to communicate with you again for months! And it has brought infinite sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of the cabinet, the accounting department informed me that approximately in two weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept it.
And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart another feeling - feeling of confidence has appeared, desire to make new steps instead of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it is so wonderful.
But a thought that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I talked to Nataly and she asked me what I think to do. And when she asked me it, I understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I told that I do not want to spend such a vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you during of month or two. And I told that I want to meet you Brad! I told her that I want to spend my vacation with you Brad! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Nataly said, that you Brad and I are such good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore you will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightful. So, what you will say Brad if I offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend several days with me?
I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful. You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life. We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together... I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you.
I know all I need to do to come to your country. I have the passport.
But I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable quantity of documents, for travel and probable work in your country, find as many as possibly of other official legal people, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I quickly collect all the necessary documents. I will get the all papers in two weeks!
And being the doctor I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of the Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor.
If the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some weeks the decision of the commission. But as soon as I am in your country, I shall have an opportunity to work, also there will be an opportunity, at desire, to prolong the visa or even to receive citizenship, If I want :) ... Brad with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me! I do not ask you about anything.
I will make everything by myself. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden. Would you be happy to spend some time with me soon, Brad?
Anyway, we must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the laboratory will be closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence! It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take a new step.
Maybe such an opportunity will not be repeated again. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity, - an opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lives and in our relations.
And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is the time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this time with you Brad!
So what will you say? Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me? Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure.

With Love
Sincere Your Margarita.

PS:I have bought two new bathing suits for summer, I hope you like it on the photos))?

Letter 3

Hi my prince Brad!!!! How important it is for me to get your letters.
I don't feel well because of the latest events. Vadim had to spend the night in my flat while my door is being restored. We spoke a lot about the misfortune. It is so terrible.
I must admit Brad I feel comfortable only if I receive your letters.
I wanna to embrace you right now so you can feel my Heart ;)
What about your place Brad? What is the weather like there now?
however I have good news as well.
Oh, Brad I want to tell you that I have collected almost all the characteristics and petitions from different people. Soon I will have a meeting with the notary at the notary office to legalize all the documents.
Vadim was able to reach agreement with the municipal department. Now he must get all the documents about my family and me. It turned out that not all the people are unselfish, but the essential thing is that we will get these documents.
The rest is not important at all.
My relatives are very happy, you know they like that we communicate with you. My brother and friends say hello to you! Today while sleeping dreamt my parents. My parents were very good people and Mum always gave me "freedom of choice" mum told me in the past: "Margarita, it is your life, you can try everything you want, you can find love, just remember,my dear that your father and I want you to be happy" I loved my parents.
It it so sad they are not with us now.
Well, we walk all the time now and enjoy this season. I think it is very important to spend some time in the open air. Well, my mood is very fine now, I know
that soon we will walk outside together, it would be great Brad :)
Looking forward to being with you tonight in my dreams :)

With Love and Kisses
Your Margarita.

P.S. I took pic for you these days, hope you like them )

Letter 4

Hi Brad! How glad I am that I have an opportunity to write you now.
My dear Brad! I have bad news! I became the drug addict! And my drug is you Brad! :) I have a little time. I came here only to write you some lines. I don't have even one free minute. Now each minute of my day is devoted to you Brad! Every minute of my day I use to come our meeting true. Every minute of my day I think of you and about our meeting.
I give all my diligence and forces to meet you. I read your letters and cried, because they touched my heart and soul. You hit me in the heart.
I cannot find the words to express all my feelings. I cannot find the words to explain what I feel. You won my heart. Nobody could do that before.

I am happy, that I have found you. I have already found happiness. If I see you face to face, I will go mad. Well, I think that a new feeling was born the in my heart. This feeling is called ...
No, I will not tell you it yet. I will say it when I meet you. I will explain it when I see your deep eyes and when you see mine, and when we hug each other Finally, I got almost all the papers today!!! I am definitely going to Moscow!
It is the most important point for me. I have been preparing for this for so long.
After the interview at the Embassy I will find out the final decision! I don't want to say "IF", but it is really a very difficult and tense moment. And I am simply not sure if I have enough confidence and self-control. But I have to calm down. My worry and fear are our enemies.
I think I am ready. I feel that I can do everything well, and we will definitely meet! And now just be with me in your thoughts! I need it.
I really need your support. I'm so nervous and stressed. I want to put my head on your knees and feel your warm hand on my cheek. For the sake of it I am ready to collect all my forces and reach the goal!!!!!! My family and friends help me greatly, they wanna see me happy.
My door had been restored at last. But I can't feel safe.
However I am well because I am thinking of you Brad! It helps me overcome difficulties.
Last evening Kate came to my home and we decided to bake a cake,- just to relax after a difficult day. You know we created a new recipe and started the preparations. I wish you saw this cake! There is not on Earth any cake with such a number of components like this! :) Between the layers of soft gentle biscuit we placed mush of kiwi and bananas.
The sour cream with a strawberry and juice of fresh lemon was turned into magnificent cake-cream. We decorated the cake with a cherry, and when we were going to taste our cake, we suddenly realised that we hadn't given the name to it. I do not know if there is such a tradition in your country ,in Russia each cake has a name, for example - "Cinderella", or "Ant Hill" or "Autumn Waltz". So we began to look attentively at our cake, and think what name is suitable for this cake. Kate began to offer various names - "Palette" or "Rainbow". But I said that all those were too banal and ordinary. There are millions of cakes with similar names. Then she offered "Flying Hippopotamus" or "Drunk Fakir"! I asked her - why "Drunk Fakir"? And she answered that it was unusually, and there is hardly a country in the world where you would find a cake with the similar name! :)
But I said that it was too foolish! Kate offered dozens of names, but I found them either too foolishly, banal, or too ordinary, uninteresting. Finally Kate said: "All right Margarita, if you are so clever, maybe you will offer anything not banal, unusual, not foolish and interesting?" And then I answered: "Look at this cake! This cake is appetizing just like Brad!!!! I want to name this cake - Brad!":)
I wish you saw Kate at that moment! She fell onto a floor and began to laugh loudly! I could hardly stop her! She said: "Margarita, you are an absolutely crazy Russian woman, but I love the name Brad!!!!" :))
We laughed loudly together the whole evening, we drank tea and ate the delightful cake with the name Brad!!! :) I hope you are not offended that I called the cake your name? It is a beautiful, sweet, gentle, and very tasty cake!!!
sorry, Brad, I have to go now. I hope you dream and think of me as often as I do it! :) I shall write you before my departure to Moscow.
Please, write me the letter! I beg you, do not forget about me now! :)
and, tell me that you wait for me with impatience :) Please, tell me that you are dreaming to embrace me at the airport! :)
Brad, if a lady wanted to be with you while your beloved woman won't see you, what would you tell that lady? Forgive me, I have to go. But only because I want to meet you as soon as possible!!!!:)
Your Darling Margarita!


Letter 5

Hi my dear and beloved Brad, As for me it is the happiest day to see your letter. I'm in Moscow! You can't imagine how happy I am because I have already started my trip to you! Moscow is a really big city! I arrived in Moscow by train... it seemed to me that the way was so long...because I can't wait to meet you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When I got off the train in Moscow, the policeman asked me to show my passport and he looked at me as if I were an enemy ))) I think all people here are a little bit crazy. Everything is very expensive here, not like in my city... and there are big crowds of people everywhere!
I feel ill at ease because of it but I hope I will be OK soon.
I couldn't find a cheap hotel, everything is extremely expensive in Moscow.
I managed to find my old friend, Tatyana here... We studied at the university together.
She allowed me to stop in her house. She lives with her mum.
Some time before we lived in one and the same city, but later they moved to Moscow.
We had many conversations, spoke about you much. Tatyana was very glad to see me! She spent the whole day with me..
And then she accompanied me to the Internet cafe, then she went to work.
Brad let me tell you the most important thing I should!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had the interview at the Embassy!!!!!! I knew that it would be a difficult interview, but I could not imagine at all that I must answer so many questions.At the beginning of the interview I was so frightened, so worried. But as soon as they asked the first question, I became absolutely calm. I just sat, and answered all the questions.
I said what I think honestly. They asked me almost about everything!
They asked me about my life, about my childhood, about terrorism, about my job, about my latest relations. They read all the documents I had collected before. They asked me about my faith.
I often watched their faces and realised that they didn't expect such answers, but I didn't want to tell beautiful lies which are pleasant to listen to. I just answered sincerely and told them everything what's in my heart.
At first I thought that my answers had not satisfied them but they told that it was very pleasant and unusual to hear my answers.
They said that "bitter" sincerity was always better than "sweet" lies. Besides, I had already had experience of getting visa and they were really impressed by the fact that I had such a great support from so many people and establishments. And maybe in some hours all the papers will be in my hands !!!!! I can't believe it.I'm nervous and I have butterflies in my stomach.
But at the same time I'm happy because I feel that I did everything correctly.
Brad I should also ask you a very important question once again.
When I arrive to you, will there be a place in your house where I can stay?
Or should I stay at the hotel? But I don't wanna stay in the hotel.
I don't like hotels, I even hate them. But I have found some variants. Just in case.
And dear, don't forget to send me all the information.
1. Your full name
2. Your full home address.
3. Also once again the nearest airport where you will precisely meet me.
Brad today I saw my parents in my sleep-dream, and they smiled to me.
I know that it is their approval. I see my parents in sleep-dream very seldom!
I always knew that dream will never simply fall into hands from the sky. I always knew that if you want the dream to come true, you must do for this purpose all what is in your forces. I know that it is necessary to believe, hope and struggle. And I really struggled Brad, I tried to do all what in my forces. And I hope God will help us. after all difficulties, after all efforts I believe that Everything will be fine! I really feel that I did everything well.
Brad I worry very much, but my heart says to me that I should smile.
And I smile today. I feel that I will meet you. I feel that the meeting at the airport will be beautiful and romantic. I will tell you everything what I will feel at that moment, and you will tell me. And then we will leave the airport and we will chatter and laugh. I will tell you how I endured the flight on board the plane and what I was thinking about.
You will tell me how you waited for me at the airport. And then we will have great time together. We will walk, spend evenings, watch funny and scary movies, - and I will hide under your hand at the most scary moments... We will meet together the first beams of the sun and will see off a magnificent sunset. We will sit by the window and drink hot tea while it's cold outside. I do want to have breakfast together and supper with candles. I do want to shout together with you at the stadium during football or hockey matches; or just lay on bed, and tell each other stories from our lives.

Brad probably in some days we shall be together:)
SOON WE WILL BE TOGETHER!!!!! But now I have to go! My legs shiver as if I were a schoolgirl! :) . Wish me luck and think of me!

Your Margarita.

PS I took some pictures. Hope you'll like it)

Letter 6

Hi, my Brad! My dear, excuse, for a delay of the answer! I even do not know what to tell first. I simply hope that you will be happy! The most important, finest news - I did it! I GOT THE VISA! I am very happy Brad!!!!
Brad today, quite by accident, I saw a tape Dictaphone, in home at my girlfriend) she allowed me to use these devices. I was able to record a voice message to you. I hope you can understand my English) sorry I can not talk with you right now:(
My prince I have not stopped on it and later we with my girlfriend at whom I have stopped in Moscow have gone to office of this airline, company that reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach DETROIT and how much it costs. They've told me that the roundtrip flight to your airport cost 2187 US dollars. It was too expensive for me and I've asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they've offered. It would be on the Jun 30 I have learned, that cost of tickets up to in one party will make 685 dollars, I was wondered if it was possible to reserve a ticket and to pay for it a part of the funds this time and the other part later, because other people can buy the cheap ticket and I'm not. But they've refused and I was in despair! I've asked them to help me so long time that tears have come to my eyes! And they've agreed! I have learned, that now return tickets are necessary for the proof of that I independently can return to Russia.
But there is an opportunity to change return the ticket on money in your country, or to change date. To me have told, that if will take return tickets the discount at a rate of 5% is given, it turns out that 685+685=1370 dollars and will subtract 5% these are 68 dollars that will make 1302 dollars, but still it is necessary to add to this sum of 10% from cost for registration of tickets and meal, it will turn out 1432 dollars, 6:45 am Depart Moscow (SVO)
Arrive DETROIT 8:40 pm Jun 30
I will give you my flight number information, as soon as i have it in my hand. The dollar exchange rate has fallen in our country and it is the cheapest tickets of an economic class, is cheaper a way to arrive to you I is not present. It was the best variant for me. They have told that I can pay a part of money now, and the other part later. it is possible, but I will be limited by term. And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket within of this term, I will lose already nested money. I have agreed because it is the only chance for me, because I must give to anti-emigration committee a data about my payment. By this moment I had only the concrete sum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid 770 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what and I could do - I pawned my gold earrings and rings In a pawnshop and I got 178 USD. That is all I could do.
I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did, I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through so many difficulties, and I have overcome the most difficult.
But all the same I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise.
I am always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at the same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation.
To get the visa and all papers I have spent much more money than I expected.
But people were ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than 500 dollars to get all documents, I paid in municipal committee, in the ministry. Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay for their help. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. But I have received only a part. We get other part a vacation payment in three weeks. Besides, I have been compelled to buy new door for my apartment. But I cannot leave my apartment with broken door. And of course I have been compelled to pay much for it. I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting. But I must pay remaining sum. It is 491 usd. And I must pay funds before Jun 28, morning. Otherwise I will lose my nested funds and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travel completely.
But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand that it is big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And 500 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 948 $ that I have given for the ticket also I restored a door in an apartment before departure. It all are huge funds for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of us, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, transfer funds to the help before Jun 28, morning.
I do not know if you want to help me or already not.
But i think you have told that I should let you know if there is anything you can do to help me. I believe you even though I am afraid to ask. But I have no other exit. I need you Brad. If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Here we have remittance system.
And I have addressed to the most convenient bank. I have been told that they use the systems "WesternUnion" and "MoneyGram". They have told that it is the American systems. And there I can receive your help very fast and I will be absolutely safety. You should transfer them into any office(bank) here in Moscow for my full name - Margarita Kiselyova. For an example, near there is a office: Moscow VTB24 Bank; Aviamotornaya st, 14; Moscow, 125130 Russia.
491 dollars. I send you the view of my ID document. If the additional data will be necessary for you. There I have been told, that to get the money, we must tell to employee of bank(agent) your full name, your full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers - Reference Number.
You will get this number in your office if you will send your help.
Only with presence of all this information I can get your help. Also hey have told that funds it is possible to send online through a site WesternUnion.com And I will give you back all your funds at the earliest opportunity probably in 1-2 weeks. I think about you Brad all the time! I think about a meaning of funds, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play a main role in the life but it's not right! I do not know what answer I will get from you Brad. I very much am afraid that you will not help me. But I want to tell, that I really need you, and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. Are you with me?

Write to me soon!
With love, Your Margarita.

Letter 7

Good evening Brad! Glad to write you again.
Hope you are happy to hear from me again. How are you doing?
What is the weather like today in your town? Here it is a bit warm today.
Spring covers everything, it seems that the nature wants to start everything with the blank list. I like Spring. What about you Brad?
Spring is a very beautiful season here.
I would like to know what month is the best there in your place?
I would like to know more about your place. It's very interesting for me.
You know my town is rather old. There are a lot of churches, cathedrals here. I like going to church because it brings calm and piece.
I believe in God. I am Christian. I was baptised when I was a baby.My parents believed in God as well and wanted me to be blessed by God. My faith helps me greatly in my life. When I don't know the way out I always pray and in the end I come up to the conclusion.I am absolutely sure people should have the faith.
Do you agree with me? What about your Faith?
My city is small but it is very green. Here we have parks. There are a lot of trees all over the streets and it is very nice here especially in warm seasons of the year when everything is in blossom. We have a lot of forests around the town.We like going to the country and fry meat or sausages on the grill, sometimes we make fire and bake potatoes (very delicious). Have you ever tasted such a dish?
As for my family, it was always important for me. I have a younger brother.His name is Vadim. He is 25, married.He is a firefighter.He saves people's lives.
His wife and I always worry very much when he is at work. There are always dangerous situations.
Once I lost my parents. I won't be able to live if I loose him.
His wife is a wonderful lady, her name is Anna. She is a librarian. She reads much that's why she is a very interesting interlocutor.
We are friends, spend much time together, give advice each other. They have an adorable daughter, her name is Zina. She is a little angel. they are really the most important part of my life. I think many people don't understand completely that family is a big treasure. Unfortunately we realize it when it is too late and nothing can be done. I know it for sure.My both parents passed away.
I always loved them and now I miss them very much. They died when I was only 16.
It was a car accident. My mom was a doctor. She worked in a local hospital.
But also she visited nearest villages to cure people. Once a woman called and implored to come because her sister had been seriously injured. My mom couldn't refused. My offered her to give her a lift, they sat into the car and .....we never saw them alive again.It was a terrible car accident. I will never forget it.
They were not guilty in it.... but they died...... That was why I being a little girl was able to do everything by myself, I cooked meals, sewed clothes to help my brother. That is why my brother is much more than just a younger brother. He is like a son for me. I am a mom, Dad and sister for him.
I had to study and work in the evening to support us.
It was a hard time but that does not kill us makes us stronger.
Well I survived and now I can do almost everything.
And I hope I became the very person, lady that my parents wanted me to become.
I think that those pleasures and griefs, successes and difficulties that were in my life made me who I am now. Now it seems to me that I was saying to my mom about my love too seldom, and now I so regret about it.
What can you tell me about your family? Is it valuable for you?
Also we have grandparents, she are 83 years old, her name Maria,
They live in the country about 100 kilometres from me. I like visiting them.
They are too old and it is difficult for them to do everithing themselves. That's why Vadim and I help them. We offered them to move to our places many times but they don't want to do it because they spent the whole life there and as they say they want to die in their old house. We can do nothing to convince them to move.
In the future I hope that we'll exchange telephone numbers of each other. To hear a voice of each of us. But at first we should find out each other a little bit more. As I consider that telephone conversation will be more serious contact to the man. Therefore I should find out you better before giving you my telephone number. I hope that's not bad for you. Unfortunately I have some bad experience, but I do not want to speak about it. You should understand me. As it's just a question of some time.
Well, I have to go now. I promised to cook supper for my brother and his family :)
they are visiting me tonight.I am going to cook something special. My little princess Zina likes cakes and pies. When they come to my apartment she is running to the kitchenand looking for something tasty.
I will wait for your next letter with impatience. Have a nice day Brad!

P.S. I Hope you like pics with my Relatives :)
(on a pics I'm with my brother, Anna, Zina and my Mom)

Letter 8

My dear Brad , how are you doing? I am so happy to hear from you, I miss you so badly all these days, I am so pleased with an opportunity to meet you soon, and I want it very much. I’ll do it because I’ve found you !!! Brad I’ve done everything I can, you know? If you love me, if you trust me and if you want to see me soon, please help do it as soon as possible! I will be sure in meeting with you if I will have the ticket to you Brad! And I don't want that they’ll sell the cheap ticket to other people. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of a wife and a husband or a union of a boy-friend and a girl-friend or a union of business partners! I don't want to be hypocritical! That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman who you don't trust, so as I am. It's a first check for us.
And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other!
That's why I was the first who made first step. Step to you.
I confused that money plays a great role in a meeting of two people who love each other. So I need your help, because I have some money and I've counted all. It's the best way to buy the ticket because it's cheaper if we will buy the ticket separately. I want to be with you Brad all my heart and I do all for it, you see! So I need your help and we'll be together!!!! You must always remember that I trust you.
Maybe it's our future and I see that our future will be very wonderful. We'll be together very soon, I must buy the ticket and I will be yours and you will be mine!!!!!! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, PLEASE DON'T FORGET IT!!!!!!!!! Of course if you don't want, you can not help me.
It is bad but not fatal. I will lose you. IT WILL BE TOO BAD...
I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when we are divided only with one step, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will be gone. I love you and I want to be with you and the word of honour, your help is necessary for me.
I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger.
It is much easier to go through difficulties and barriers together.
I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I did not want to ask you. I thought, that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without the help, and to rely only on myself. I very seldom address to somebody for the help, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make also you a step towards to me. I hope that has not offended you. I love you and I trust you. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step.Tell me Brad, can you help me? If you have an opportunity please do it. Only 490 usd!
I love you very much! I think about you Brad all the time!
I think about a sense of money, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play a main role in the life but it's not right! I'm sure. And the quantity of funds was, is and will not important to me. I have always not aspired to the material enrichment and don't search specially for rich man!
I appreciate human qualities and relations and I need you Brad!!!
I love you with all my heart, I want to be with you now...
I want to be with you forever! If it's mutually we will be very happy in our life! I think you love me too and we will meet very soon.
You are my love Brad. My heart is yours. I'm waiting good news from you, I hope everything will be all right and we will be together soon.
Every day I think about our meeting, and I think it's real, we must use this chance of destiny.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!
Forever your.