Letter(s) from Margarita Kiselyova to Clayton (USA)

Letter 1

Hi, my Clayton! My dear excuse me for the answer's delay!
Clayton I hope you were really able to hear that message from me, left on your answering machine, and to understand my English:) It is a pity, that it was not possible to speak to each other, but I was glad, that it was possible to dial!
I even do not know what to tell you first. I simply hope that you will be happy! The most important and finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am extremely happy Clayton!!!!
My prince I didn't give it up and later my friend from Moscow and I went to the office of this airlines, company that reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Chicago ILLINOIS and how much it costs. They told me that the roundtrip flight to your airport costs 2187 US dollars. It was too expensive for me and I asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they offered. It would be on October 16 the price of one way tickets will make 730 dollars, I was wondered if it was possible to reserve one way ticket and to pay a part of the funds for it now and the other part later, because other people can buy expensive tickets and I can't. But they refused and I was in despair! I asked them to help me so long that tears came to my eyes! And they agreed! I learned that now return tickets are necessary to prove that I can return to Russia independently.
But there is an opportunity to exchange the return ticket on money in your country, or to change the date. I was said if I take return tickets the discount of 5% is given, it turns out that 730+730=1460 dollars and will subtract 5% is 73 dollars that will make 1387 dollars, but still it is necessary to add to this sum 10% from the cost for ticket registration and meal, it will make 1525 dollars, 6:45 am Depart Moscow (SVO)
Arrive Chicago O'Hare International Airport ORD 8:40 pm October 16
I will give you my flight number information, as soon as i have it.
The dollar exchange rate has fallen in our country and it is the cheapest tickets of the economic class, the cheapest variant which exists.
It was the best variant for me. They said that I can pay the part of money now, and the other part I will pay later. It is possible, but I will be limited in time. And if I do not pay the full cost of the ticket within the limits till the deadline, I will lose paid money. I agreed because it is the only chance for me, because I must give the data about my payment to anti-emigration committee. By that moment I had only the definite sum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid 870 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what and I could do - I pawned my gold earrings and rings in a pawnshop and I got 162 USD. That is all I could do.
I know that probably I simply must say that I can't come to you because I haven't the neccessary sum. I know that I promised to do everything myself, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I could, I cannot simply tell you that I will not come to you. I have overcome so many difficulties.
But all the same I have a disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise.
I am always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at the same time I understand that any person could be in such a situation.
To get the visa and all the papers I spent much more money than I expected.
But people were ready to help me only if I paid them. I paid more than 500 dollars to get all the documents, I paid in the municipal committee, in the ministry. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. But I have received only a part. We get other part a vacation payment in three weeks. Besides,I did not want to tell you this before but I have to now. When I was robbed when they took jewellery and the icon they stole my money....Fortunately it was only the part of my money the rest was in a bank.
I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent us from our meeting. But I must pay remaining sum. It is 493 usd. And I must pay funds before October 15 morning. Otherwise I will lose the paid funds and my jewellery will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet you because I could not provide my travel completely.
But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand that it is a big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And 500 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 1032 $ that I have given for the ticket.
All this is huge funds for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for our sake, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, transfer funds to the help before October 15, morning.
I do not know if you want to help me or already not.
But i think you have told that I should let you know if there is anything you can do to help me. I believe you even though I am afraid to ask. But I have no other ways out. I need you Clayton. If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Here we have transfer systems.
And I have addressed to the most convenient bank. I have been told that they use the systems "WesternUnion" and "MoneyGram". They have told that they are the American systems. And there I can receive your help very fast and I will be absolutely safe. You should transfer them into any office(bank) here in Moscow for my name - Valeriya Kalinichencko . For an example, near there is an office: Moscow Navigator Bank; The 2 Vladimirskaya st, 7; Moscow, 125130 Russia.
I send you the view of my ID document. If the additional data will be necessary for you. There I have been told, that to get the money, I must inform the employee of bank(agent) about your full name, your full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers - Reference Number.
You will get this number in your office if you send your help.
Only with presence of all this information I can get your help. Also they have told that funds are possible to send online through a site WesternUnion.com And I will give you back all your funds at the earliest opportunity probably in 2-3 weeks. I think about you Clayton all the time! I think about the meaning of funds, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play the main role in the life but it's not right! I do not know what answer I will get from you Clayton. I am very afraid that you will not help me. But I want to say that I really need you, and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. I need the 493 USD
to come to you and be happy together.
Are you with me?

Write me soon!
With love, Your Valeriya.

Letter 2

Good afternoon my dear and beloved Clayton, As for me it is the happiest day to see your letter. I'm in Moscow! You can't imagine how happy I am because I have already started my trip to you! Moscow is a really big city! I arrived in Moscow by train... the way was so long...
When I got off the train in Moscow, the policeman asked me about my passport and he looked at me as if I were an enemy ))) I think all people here are a little bit crazy. Everything is very expensive here, not like in my city... and there are big crowds of people everywhere!
I feel ill at ease because of it but I hope I will be OK soon.
I couldn't find a cheap hotel, everything is extremely expensive in Moscow.
I managed to find a room which costs $70... but I found it expensive as well.
I managed to find my friend, Karina here... We studied at the university together.
She allowed me to stop in her house. She lives with her mum.
Some time before we lived in one and the same city, but later they moved to Moscow.
We had many conversations, spoke about you much. Karina was very glad to me! She spent the whole day with me..
And in the evening she accompanied me to the Internet cafe, then she went to work.
Clayton I think that the most difficult part of preparations has finished!
I had the interview at the Embassy! I knew that it would be a difficult interview, but I could not imagine at all that I must answer so many questions.At the beginning of the interview I was so frightened, so worried. But as soon as they asked the first question, I became absolutely calm. I just sat, and answered all the questions.
I said what I think honestly. They asked me almost about everything!
They asked me about my life, about my childhood, about terrorism, about my job, about my latest relations. They read all the documents I had collected before. They asked me about my faith.
I often watched their faces and realised that they didn'texpected such answers, but I didn't want to tell beautiful lies which are pleasant to listen to. I just answered sincerely and told them everything what's in my heart.
At first I thought that my answers had not satisfied them but they told that it was very pleasant and unusual to hear my answers.
They said that "bitter" sincerity was always better than "sweet" lies. Besides, I had already had experience of getting visa and they were really impressed by the fact that I had such a great support from so many people and establishments. And maybe in some hours all the papers will be in my hands !!!!! I can't believe it.I'm nervous and I have butterflies in my stomach.
But at the same time I'm happy because I feel that I did everything correctly.
Clayton I should also ask you a very important question once again.
When I arrive to you, will there be a place in your house where I can stay?
Or should I stay at the hotel? But I don't wanna stay in the hotel.
I don't like hotel, I even hate them. But I have found some variants. Just in case.
And dear, dont forget to send me all the information.
1. Your full name
2. Your full home address.
3. Also once again the nearest airport where you will precisely meet me.
Clayton today I saw my parents in my sleep-dream, and they smiled to me.
I know that it is their approval. I see my parents in sleep-dream very seldom!
I always knew that dream will never simply fall into hands from the sky. I always knew that if you want the dream to come true, you must do for this purpose all what in your forces. I know that it is necessary to believe, hope and struggle. And I really struggled Clayton, I tried to do all what in my forces. And I hope god will help us. after all difficulties, after all efforts I believe that Everything will be fine! I really feel that I did everything well.
Clayton I worry very much, but my heart says to me that I should smile.
And I smile today. I feel that I will meet you. I feel that the meeting at the airport will be beautiful and romantic. I will tell you everything what I will feel at that moment, and you will tell me. And then we will leave the airport and we will chatter and laugh. I will tell you how I endured the flight on board the plane and what I was thinking about.
You will tell me how you waited for me at the airport. And then we will have great time together. We will walk, spend evenings, watch funny and scary movies, - and I will hide under your hand at the most scary moment... We will meet together the first beams of the sun and will see off a magnificent sunset. We will sit by the window and drink hot tea while it's cold outside. I do want to have breakfast together and supper with candles. I do want to shout together with you at the stadium during football or hockey matches; or just lay on bed, and tell each other stories from our lives.
If everything is fine, I will start the most difficult process - packing my suitcase! :) .
Clayton probably in a week we shall be together:)
SOON WE WILL BE TOGETHER!!!!! But now I have to go! My legs shiver as if I were a schoolgirl! :) . Wish me luck and think of me!

Your Valeriya.

PS I took some pictures. Hope you'll like

Letter 3

Hi my prince Clayton!!!! How important it is for me to get your letters.
I don't feel well because of the latest events. Oleg had to spend the night in my flat while my door is being restored. We spoke a lot about the misfortune. It is so terrible.
I must admit Clayton I feel comfortable only if I receive your letters.
I wanna to embrace you right now so you can feel my Heart ;)
What about your place Clayton? What is the weather like there now?
however I have good news as well.
Oh, Clayton I want to tell you that I have collected almost all the characteristics and petitions from different people. Soon I will have a meeting with the notary at the notary office to legalize all the documents.
Oleg was able to reach agreement with the municipal department. Now he must get all the documents about my family and me. It turned out that not all the people are unselfish, but the essential thing is that we will get these documents.
The rest is not important at all.
My relatives are very happy, you know they like that we communicate with you. My brother and friends say hello to you! Today while sleeping dreamt my parents. My parents were very good people and Mum always gave me "freedom of choice" mum told me in the past: "Valeriya, it is your life, you can try everything you want, you can find love, just remember,my dear that your father and I want you to be happy" I loved my parents.
It it so sad they are not with us now.
Well, we walk all the time now and enjoy this season. I think it is very important to spend some time in the open air. Well, my mood is very fine now, I know that soon we will walk outside together, it would be great Clayton :)
Looking forward to being with you tonight in my dreams :)

With Love and Kisses
Your Valeriya.

P.S. I took some pics for you

Letter 4

Hello dearest Clayton!
Glad to write you today . Hope you are feeling well. Miss you so much.
Especially this days. I would love you to be here with me.
You know it is my birthday on September,11.It is already tomorrow. I am 29.
We have decided to celebrate my birthday in the cafe with my girlfriends.
I have invited my close friends, Oleg with his wife. We are planning the menu. We want to have a very tasty dinner . I bought good wine.
It is my holiday. I hope you also drink a glass of good wine and tell me a toast for health and our friendship which will never end.
My niece Yana wants me to order a cake with 29 candles . She wants me to wish a desire in my mind and blow the candles out to make my dream come true.
I know what desire I will wish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I can't tell you about it because it won't come true.
Thank you that now you are in my life. I know I will get many presents, different books and flowers because my friends know that I like reading, but I am sure that the main present for me - you Clayton!!!
I told all my family that I would like to meet you in future.
My dear if you would like, I will be happy to get a small bouquet, not expensive.
Attention - this is what really important for me. But you know, post office does not work well here and when I tried to send flowers from the USA to my girlfriend for The Day of Medical workers (the day when everybody congratulates doctors) and it could not go through also, I tried 3 times with different sites and at least i sent nice flowers in time through this site: www.gift-love.com So you can use the same site if you want.
i do not need expensive one I just hope you understand me.
My address : Russia, Ulyanovsky region
Full name: Valeriya Kalinichenko
Street : Suvorova St. 49A-17
City: Dimitrovgrad
Postal code(zip code): 433500
Do not get me wrong, but I just want you to care about me and I want to feel that you think of me as I need you. Here is not easy for me now and if you could hold my hand with yours it would make me happy.
Oh, Clayton I wish you were here !!! But I am so grateful for your interesting letters. I am always upset, that I have no enough time to write you all what I want. I shall write you as soon as I return to work..

With kisses
Your Valeriya.