sorry I am having problems with my email address. do you receive this letter???
I just got it back... here is a pic of me with my passport.
hope this will prove that I am real.
I will also send you a pic with your email on it in next letter. === I want to share with you in this letter why I don't have a man close to me. Most of men take me as a beautiful doll and they don't care about my human female qualities.
I think you like me as a person first of all and my appearance is on the second place for you. I notice it from your letters and it makes me feel comfortable and free with you.
I like you more and more after each your letter to me. We have many similar thoughts and interests. I hope if we meet we will fit one another perfect.
I spend a lot of time now for getting my student visa. There are still a lot of work to do and too many documents to prepare.
But I am sure when I get student visa and come to your country everything will be ideal. I am ready to do everything for a student visa and I'll get it.
When I come to your country are you going to meet me? Do you feel that there is something special in our relations?
You have become a close friend of mine and I like you a lot.
Of course we still do not know one another perfectly but I want to meet you and to speak with you.
I want to know you better and I hope you have the same wishes and feelings to me.
Let's imagine how we can spend time together.
When we meet we will be able to do many things, for example: walking, cooking, watching cinema, sitting close to one another in a pleasant silence.
It's wonderful that we can start our acquaintance with the help of letters and the second step must be meeting.
When people see each other, feel their bodies close and touch one another only in such way they can understand their real feelings.
I am interested to know your opinion about our possible meeting. We are already friends and it is great.
When I come to your country I need someone who I can rely on. I am always honest with you and you can trust me too.
Would you please write me your thoughts about our meeting? Do you want to meet me? It is important for me. I want to meet you in reality very much.
I want to have possibility to talk to you and to know you better. Letters are not enough for me. I hope I can rely on you.
As you know my friend Vika always makes my photos and she always praises my body.
I think she makes really good photos and it is very pleasant for me to pose for her.
We work in shops which are situated not far from one another; she is a shop-assistant too. That's why we usually go to our work together.
I am going to get more information about my visa today and I know that they have to tell me very important things.
I really want to get good news about my visa. I'll have meeting for about in a half an hour and I'll know all the information. P.S. when is your birthday? Mine is 1 of Aug! As you know my friend Vika always makes my photos and she always praises my body. I think she makes really good photos and it is very pleasant for me to pose for her. We work in shops which are situated not far from one another; she is a shop-assistant too. That's why we usually go to our work together. When we met with her today she made 2 photos of me and my passport. I am going to send it to you in the next letter. I am going to get more information about my visa today and I know that they have to tell me very important things. I really want to get good news about my visa. I'll have meeting for about in a half an hour and I'll know all the information. ==
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Olga
shutovaolga2@gmail.com

I am glad that we have got acquainted in this big world of Internet and we can communicate here easyly now.
My day is very bad today. I had very unpleasant situation at work.
One of the buyers started to quarrel with because she was not satisfied with clothes’ quality.
For pity rich Russian people always think that if they have money they are allowed to do everything and to humble service staff.
She cried at me and even outraged me.
She didn’t want to understand that I am not the owner of the shop but just a shop-assistant who wants to help with clothes selection.
Sometimes life in Russia disappoints me more and more.
I can’t embody my dreams here, can’t earn enough money for living or for buying an apartment.
I have the possibility to earn some money for renting tiny apartment with small sum of cash for living.
It is very often here when prices at shops rise and salaries stay at the same level.
I have had a shock last time at a shop when I have seen the one liter of milk costs more than 2 USD already. I don’t earn so much!
My salary is 300 USD and half of it I spend for apartment rent and I have only 150 USD for other expenses. That is not enough.
Now you can understand why I want to leave Russia so much. I want to life in a good developing country and I save money for my trip very active.
I do not afraid to get new profession abroad and to find a good work. That’s why I am getting a student visa now.
Moreover I will study and work at your country simultaneously because I have to pay for education and living by myself.
I’ll choose the University soon, I just need some time to get enough information about University and then to make the right choice.
It would be wonderful if my university is situated close to your place of living.
Preparation of the documents for visa is in process now.
They promise that I’ll get visa in a month and I’ll tell you this news as soon as I am informed.
I wish I would live in a stable country with beloved husband in a strong family.
These are the most important things for me. Now I am saving money for my future happy life.
I want to apologize because maybe it’s not correct to write you about these from my side.
But I really need someone who will support me in my life. It’s hard to live and to decide everything on my own.
I think you will support me with good words because I feel that we have become good friend for now and I can rely on you.
It is a hard day for me today and I am going to have relaxing bath at home to forget about my troubles.
Actually I consider that when a man and woman take the bath together it is very romantic. Do you think so too?
Would you like to take bath with me? What will you tell me about this? Do you have any dreams?
I am waiting for you reply as soon as possible!
Have a nice day!

All photos which you have received from me are made by my best friend.
Her name is Valeriya (Val) she is keen on photography.
I like when she makes my photos and my photos too.
Today I am writing to you from internet-cafe as usual.
As you know I have plans to go to your country for study.
Now I am trying to choose right college. When I make the decision and choose the college you’ll be the first who know the name of it.
I should decide this in a week. And in a month I hope to be at your country already and to start my study.
Today I’ve already been to a post office and I’ve send a letter to my parents.
No matter what kind of relation we have, I am their daughter and I love them.
I have a younger brother and I always know that parents love him more than me.
Parents wanted a son very much and my mother tried to get pregnant for a long period.
After the birth of my brother all love of my parents went to him and my mother finally became happy.
Of course you understand how much unpleasant to be unloved child.
Parents are not interested in my life and in my personal feelings.
But I am trying to understand them and not to be angry.
I am happy that they live in happiness and love with my younger brother.
When I came back from Australia to Russia I got a pedagogical education and went to work to a kindergarten as an educator.
This was very interesting work and I liked it.
But salary was so small and not enough for living that I should have found something more high-paid.
I was alone in a big city and no one took care about me. I did everything by myself.
Of course I met different men in my life but I was only interested in relations where people have mutual love and respect.
I tried do not depend on men.
In every real relations I devote myself to a beloved man unfortunately not everyone can appreciate this.
I can have *** with a man only if we have serious relations and we are both ready to be honesty and faithful.
Unfortunately there are many men who prefer to have 2 women in their life as a wife and a lover.
I don’t understand such relations and I don’t ever want to enter in such relations.
When I love a man I can have *** only with my beloved.
I hope that you understand me right. I mean I am not a ****** and I like *** a lot.
But I can’t have *** relations with several men at the same period.
I can devote myself only to one beloved man.
I had my last relations long ago approximately 2 years ago.
My man preferred to spend time with his friends but not with me. And I even felt sometimes that I was just a beautiful doll for him.
That is why I finished our relations.
Excuse me but I don’t want to write about *** anymore because there are many people behind me who is walking in internet-cafe and can watch my PC and moreover we do not know one another good enough to write about it so frankly.
Unfortunately I have to finish my letter now. Today there are so many people in this internet-cafe and I have had only 15 minute to write you a letter.
You know there are tables in internet-cafe connected to Internet and people can use them for a definite payment.
It was much easier in Australia. I could go to a local library and use computer with internet there for free and without time limit.
We don’t have the same in Russia and there are many people who don’t have their PC at home and need internet.
If it is acceptable for you will you tell me about your family and about your relations with parents?
Have a nice day! P.S. Could you write me your post address? I wish to send you a paper letter with my photo in it or maybe a nice card. It is very pleasant to get mail by post P.P.S. I attached picture with my best friend Val.
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Olga
shutovaolga2@gmail.com