Letter(s) from Ksenia Milaha to Aaron (USA)

Letter 1

How are your day ??
I hope at you everything fine !!
I am ok !!
You can ask, who is you? Be not surprised, I saw yours e-mail on site polishwomen.com.
I really liked your profile and I would like to start a nice friendship with you.
This is my email: ksenimilaha@gmail.com
I love to get outdoors, camping, a river, lake and sea, I am protector of the animals and nature, i do not like injustice and I help people who really want a hand.
I'm here on this site and I think our time the internet is like your leaving your house and meet a person and start a beautiful friendship. What do you think of this ??
Better write me to my email and I'll send you more photos and tell to you more about myself.

Today I have and a smile on my face for writing my words to you.
Take care !!
And you know you already have a fan and new friend.
I await your response !!
See You !!!

Letter 2

Hello, Aaron! I am very pleased, that you have answered on my e-mail. Thank you that you have found time write me letter. Sorry, i have no Viber. How are you? I hope all good with you. At me all fine, because today i have a good mood :). I think you have many questions to me.
I will try describe myself. I do not know what tell you in the beginning... Well, let's begin! My name is Kseniya.
You can call me Kseniya, Ksyusha, it is ok also. I'm 28 year old. My birthday on May, 14th, a Taurus on a horoscope. If you trust in a horoscope you can check up our compatibility. My height - 5, 7 (171 cm). My weight - 118 (54 kg).
I hope that you like my photos.
As you see in my photos, I have green eyes, and i am brunette.
I have serious intentions, and I do not want to make a wrong choice...
We begin our corresponding. I want to be fair with you. I will honest with you always.
Please be frank with me too.
I live in Russia, in city Krasnodar. Did you heard about this city? Krasnodar is located in 1340 kilometers from Moscow, in the south of Russia, located on the right coast of the river Kuban, on distance of 120-150 kilometres from Black Sea.

Little about me. I have higher education. I started my education in secondary school, in Krasnodar.
After I have finished it, I have received study Economic Faculty of Technical University. I have finished it 5 years ago. Now I work as a accountant. I am engaged in financial affairs of our firm. This firm not so big. I work here enough long time, about 4 year.
I really would like to know your interests, languages which you speak, hobbies? Tell me little bit more about you. I also will tell you more about me in the next letter. I hope my letter will not afflict you.
I will wait for your letter and your picture with impatience. But if you are not interested, drop me some words. It is important for me.
May be your new friend Kseniya!

Letter 3

Hello Aaron! I am very glad to receive the letter from you today. I am very glad that you still have desire write to me. It is very good that does not confuse you, that I live in Russia. You seems to me very interesting and i am very glad know more about you.
Sorry, i have no Viber, I never use and know it as to do it. I have no Internet on phone. Thanks for nice photos of your dog. I like dog also.
Aaron, as you already know I work as the bookkeeper in small firm.
I am engaged in calculation of financial charges, expenses of this firm, various debits, the credits. I am engaged in distribution of monetary stream of our firm. In general all accounts department.. I hope you understand about what I speak.
We live far each other... It is a very big distance for both of us.
But this distance only seems a big. It at all doesn't frighten me. It seems to me especially interesting. Don't you think so? I am done not disturbed by the big distance. We live in the modern world and there is nothing impossible. Thanks for planes which were thought up by our scientists :).
I am for the first time have correspondence through Internet. And for me it is extremely interesting to learn about the man from another country where another culture, another tradition.
Now I wish tell you about me directly. I have never been married, have not children. A little about my family. I have mum, daddy, 1 brother.
My parents live in village near to my city, about 50 km. My brother older me, to him 32 years and he is married, has 1 son.

What I search in the man, most especial - honesty, respect, trust. I do not like to argue,altercate in a various occasion. I want meet somebody who wants find also soul mate, second half. I need somebody who is fair, care, warm.
The most important parts of relations - love, trust and communication. But, without trust others two thing does not matter. You cannot contact someone irrespective even you love him or her, but not trusting him or her.
Of course you have a question, "Why Russian women search man in other countries”. You probably think, because i search for the best life abroad?
For me it is not so! There can be other girls do it, but not I. Russian man do not wish to have and care of a family. They very lazy. They start to drink alcohol and become angry. It enters into divorce. In our country amount of women is more than men. There is an opinion that Russian men in degradation now.
I want to have an ordinary, calm life. These are only a few reasons why I am still single, I think it is better to be lonely than to be with someone and be miserable. So, my search for that perfect man continues.

I would like to send today still more photos. I already much written today.
I hope to you be interested read my letter. I will wait your answer. Kseniya

Letter 4

Hello again Aaron
Thank you again for your letter. I would like to answer your questions.
1. Do you speak, write English? or use interpreter?
I speak on English, i know English very good.
2. How did you get my email, if they do not post it. I am glad you figured it out!
Vip to users on a site are visible e-mail others member.
3. Understand that there are lots of Untrustworthy people on the internet.
I need to confirm that you are you.
There has to be a way to confirm that we are chatting with each other.
I am real and you can trust to me. I can call to you if you want.
4. I asked you to tell me your daily routine and you have not.
When I will to have more time, I will tell you my daily routine
5. And last but not least. I am looking for serious relationship with marriage.
I did NOT hear from you all weekend including Friday so that is a red flag to me.
Sorry, that I did not write to you to this weekend. I was at my parents, in village.
I celebrated the International Women's day together with a family.
I am very sad, that you do not trust me! I am REAL! Why you doubt me?
Unless I have given you an occasion to doubt in me? What I have made incorrectly???
Please tell to me. As I have deserved that you do not trust me now. What is the problem?
If you will not trust me we cannot construct serious relation.
Serious relation should be based on mutual trust!!
I have long thought about what to tell you today.
I would like write to you as I spend my days, about my hobby and entertainment.
When I have free time after my work, I watch TV, go cinema or go out with friends in cafe.
I love various love stories, detectives and very much I love classical russian literature. Also I love various music. I like almost all music, all depends on mood. When I'm sad I listen slow, sensual music. Jazz and blues. When I have good mood I listen modern music. I like pop, rock, dance.
American music very pleasant to me (Jennifer Lopez "Baby I love You" and Aerosmith "I Don't Want To Miss A Thing", and many others.) I like Russian songs also. Bi-2, Rondo are Russian rock-groups, Serebro, TATU - russian pop musics.
You can listen on youtube my favourite Russian songs also.
Western film also in Russia has huge popularity. I like very much all series "Twilight".
Special popularity for me is film Titanik also.
I also very much like to ski and the skates. In Russia skis and the skates are very popular. Our sportsmen always were on top among figure skating and skis.
I like to play bowling very much.
So what do you do, when you have free time? My hobby if it is possible to tell so - English language. I have loved English for a long time when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I entered in group of the English language and I am still happy that I've made it. After school, I continued studying English language in the institute.
It is a very soft and easily-memorized language for me.
How can I not send a photo of my life again :).
I wait your answer, Aaron. I have many ideas, about what probably to write and communicate but I do not want to rush this precious moment when two souls are looking towards each other across the continents for an everlasting friendship. Your friend Kseniya.

Letter 5

Hi Aaron! How are you today? I hope you were pleased to receive my letter because when I'm receiving your letter, I really was admire.
Many thanks to you. I have perfectly understood everything you wrote to me. Also thanks for your nice photos, you very beautiful man and i like you.
I live one in apartment. I rent one-room apartment. I already sent you a photo from my apartment. As soon as I will have possibility, I will to send a photo from my work. My last relation with ex boyfriend has ended almost one year ago.
I did not speak to my family about you yet.
I work from Monday till Friday and very much often on Saturday. My working day begins at 8:00 and last to 17:00. Sometimes I'm working till 19.00.
But it is not difficult, I very much like my work. My colleagues very good people. It is most important for me. We have very quickly found common interests. I have some friends. But now I have found you, Aaron! I am very pleased, and I found you. I tried to find love and happiness here, but I have felt lie. We have proverb in Russia: Bitter truth is better than sweet lie. I think, that you are fair man. I am right?
The most important never put your hands. It is necessary to go next level. I understood it for a long time. Don't you think so? It is true! Now I have a good life, I have friends. Good work. It is rather good here. I rent my apartment. I pay for it. I have no opportunity to buy it. It's very expensive for me here. I should work to have my own apartment 10 years!
I can hope only for myself. But sometimes I so want feel a strong shoulder near to me... Yes, I want real man for creation serious relation. Aaron, I have the most serious intentions. Very hard to meet gentlemen... Unfortunately. Therefore I am very glad that have met you. To me very pleasant our dialogue. These days I so strong wait for your letter. It helps me to distract from all. It as a sweet dream...
It is other world for me. Forgive me, if my letter was sad, big and uninteresting to you. Just I wanted to tell you about my life. You should know about it. Now I should finish my letter. I send you a photo of me. I wait with hope your answer. Also I want ask you: had you ever friend from other country? Is it important for you a nationality? Your friend Kseniya.

Letter 6

Hi my dear friend Aaron. I waited this minute to answer you with impatience. I am very glad my letter was pleasant to you.
You asked to buy phone with the chamber and the Internet. Unfortunately such phones stand very expensively. I not the rich girl. I have money only to survive. If you wish to speak on the phone with me, that give me your phone number and i will call to you itself. I write to you from my home. I have the Internet at home.
I belive in love at first sight. But it's not a love as everyone think. It is such strange feeling... You feel that this person is pleasant to you also you want to communicate with him or her. Just you only think that it's love. Happens more often, that you or this person will be disappointed...

Your letters become so close to my heart, and I am pleased to see them like a child. You write very pleasant letters. Your words are so pleasant, I feel myself...in heavens. Please, write me every day, even two words, I must know with you everything is good. I will be sure for you and I will not worry. Your first e-mail was small light of sun when I have opened door on the other hand was the whole new world, which I never saw earlier. Beautiful, absolutely another and full of surprises. These relations, which we have begun through e-mail - begining new long friendship which could develop something more?
Sometime.... Love is such intoxicating narcotic, which makes do mad, but sometimes funny actions. Only person in love can fill the whole bath with champaign, only person in love can give one million scarlet roses or stand whole night under balcony of the loved woman singing serenades. I have the most dear person, you Aaron, I have understood it clearly yesterday when I went in park and thought about you. I have closed my eyes and thought about you. A wind was blowing, it scutched my hairs and enveloped my body by its chilly freshness. I don't know why, but I thought that you changed in wind, and you tenderly touched my hairs with you invisible hands. It seemed to me that I am situated somewhere near you. And my heart began beating as never before. I was so pleasant and I was ready to yell from happiness. People who were passing near me, probably thought, I am a strange lady, they saw me sitting on the bench with closed eye and smiling. But I didn't think about their opinion. I went and thought about you. It so, so heated my mood. I like to go along the street and breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. Actually I do not want to go home. It is very boringly and alone at home. Aaron, sometimes I do not mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I very much want to speak, to share ideas with anyone, to have an entertainment. But my apartment is empty, and I should be in full loneliness. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit in an armchair and I look at a window or I prepare for a meal, may be somebody will come to me? But I have to eat all independently. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as my blood flows in my veins, I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I don't know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it.
But Aaron, enough about it. I should perform my work. I having not enough time. I will wait for your letter tomorrow. I will wait your pleasant words. Also i send to you some mine photos. Your faithfully Kseniya.

Letter 7

Hi, again Aaron. I'm glad to see your letter today. I dreamed during my childhood, and I'm dreaming now. Of course, world of dreams - illusory world. But it is only thing I can do.
Also thanks for your nice photos, you very beautiful man and i like you.
Also thanks for your phone number, i will try call to you soon.
I think we could meet easy. Make a travel will not be a problem for me. One reasons will not allow me arrive to you right now.
This reason - I know about you not so much, and you too know about me a little. We are know each other only some days. But probably, these days the best time in my daily life. You became very much and very important close to me! I began understand it now when I'm waiting for your letters with impatience. Aaron, I very much worry when I'm reading your letters... My heart is beaten so quick! We should be sure in our desires. We should be completely ready to our meeting. It is very serious step, I think you agree with me? We should be sure in each other... Trust - the most important thing in relations! I do not know what will be "TOMORROW", we'll see...
We live in a real life, therefore we cannot plunge into the world of dreams and imaginations long time.
When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true.
But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which will be for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which will illuminate your way. But anyway Aaron, I think that it is impossible to live without dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me? I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, Aaron, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. Aaron, do you like when your friends come to your home? And are you the quick-tempered person? I have a very warm feeling inside from all the things you have said about, how you feel when you think about me? Aaron, I send you my photos. My day brightens tremendously whenever I see an e-mail from you. I will wait for your letter with impatience.

Kseniya, waiting for you...

Letter 8

Hello my dear Aaron! I am very glad to receive your letter today. It was so pleasant to see yours letter in inbox. Thank you that you do not forget about me and write me. It's so very pleasant.
Also thanks for your nice photos, you very beautiful man and i like you.
Yes, I saw your photo on motorcycle, but there there was no video, only a photo. I could not download yours video, I do not know why.
To me very it is pleasant, that you had a dream about me. I want that your dream has come true once. Yes, i feel that i can wake up and go to bed each and every night with you.
Thank you that you are very attentive to me and also attentively read my letters. Thank you for your attention. The attention and care - is very much high qualities. In our fast life we have no time for all this. But reading your letters, I see that you are not such as all others men... Your letters are filled with good feelings. I read it and I feel myself absolutely in another way. I do not know how explain it to you... I always wait your letters with impatience. It always brings to me so much delightful feelings. I am very glad that have met you . Warm and tenderness - only thing I need. It is a problem of Russian men. Russian women makes everything for the man, for family. But she does not receive anything from him.
Every woman needs in some sensitive words and touch of his hands, and... understanding. This thing does not suffice in our life.
Aaron, really it is so difficult? I think, that not so difficult to present your lady romantic evening and a dinner with candles, but in Russia, as a rule, woman gives such gift, not man... When woman carries heavy bags in the street, any man will not help her, he only will reject his sight and will go further. Why he should help woman?
For this reason Russian woman never feels yourself HAPPY LADY in her heart. I don't think I am a beautiful lady, Russian men usually see in women sexual object. They believe, that the woman only should work, cooking and entertain the man when he wants it. Offend the woman - a usual thing for Russian men. Very much frequently meets, that the man beats his wife in house. Any respect, only in dream... Again dreams...
Aaron as you know, I like to cook, but sometimes I would like to receive simple tenderness, love and attention. I do not want to offend all men, there are good men, but not enough. Very difficultly quickly determine, see a internal world of the man. Men very difficult essences. They try to hide their qualities. It is necessary to spend a lot of time... and then becomes known that this person not worthy your attention. I had relations with men of course. In my life were men.
They were lovely, cheerful. When I started speak about serious intentions... They gradually leave my life. But only with one person I wanted to create family... This man deceived me. He slept with other women, even when he has suggested me to be his wife. I have found out about it later. It was seemed that he is very serious in his intentions... When he told me, that he could not constantly be with one woman. I could not suffer it anymore. My soul and heart was wounded very much and broken. Since this moment I'm very seriously concern to relations with men. I do not want to suffer all my life because of them! Aaron I hope you understand everything I told you. Because I do not want any more come back to this theme...
I want to ask you, what makes you happy? What was the best gift which you received from the woman? I am timid, but I have kissed you hotly. With the best regard, sincerely your Kseniya.

Letter 9

Hi my dear Aaron. Many thanks for your letter. It was the long-awaited letter. I am really madly glad to receive your letter.
Today I could open yours video. I like your video very much.
Sorry, i have no video camera and can not send to you video.
I will try call to you today. Please take phone and wait my call.
I am really glad that I have found you. I should tell you I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell you what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you.
I should tell you that it was necessary a lot of time to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didn't want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it's really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that.
I speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think about you. I have never done this in my life (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. Aaron, I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you close your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. Aaron, I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Aaron, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. Aaron I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience....
With tenderness Kseniya.

Letter 10

Hello my dear Aaron. Thank you for your warm letter. My heart calms, when I receive your letter. I called to you yesterday, but could not phone to you. On first number I have not understood, that the operator speaks. With second number there was no connection, number void. I can give you my phone number, but my number not accessible international calls and therefore I think that you can not call me. Here my cell phone number: +79030513780. I am very sad, that you doubt my reality and sincerity. If between us there will be no trust we cannot construct serious relation. I saw a photo of dishes which you to prepared and I very much would like to try these dishes. I cannot tell you what I'm feeling in that moment. And every day I hope you feel the same as me. I always dreamed find somebody who would really special for me, who will come into my life! The one, who would understand me, encourages my efforts and shares my dreams. As a little girl I dreamed about man which will make me smile and laughter. Whom I could trust, who will never injure me.
Aaron, today I want describe to you my usual daily day, since morning and till night. At 6:00 roars my alarm clock. I'm not so love my alarm clock. Because it so loudly roars, every time my head began break up from this noise. It was earlier... But in last days I wake up quickly because today I'll see your lovely letter. And because I saw you in dream. At 6:05 I'm going in bath, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! I wash and I clean a teeth. At 6:15 I make a small and not so long exercise and during it I THINK OF YOU! At 6:30 I prepare for a breakfast, as a rule strong tea or coffee and I warm up a meal, which I have prepared yesterday, if I haven't it I make a sandwich. I drink tea, I watch TV and I THINK ABOUT YOU! At 7:15 I leave my apartment and I go to my work. Usually, if weather good, I'm walking small distance, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! I like morning walk. I live far from my work, therefore sometime I go by bus. I arrive to work vigorous and cheerful. At 7:55 I go to my cabinet. As rule there already wait for me my colleagues (all of them my friends). If I have opportunity, I check my mail. If there is no your message, I receive it later. And when Aaron I see your letter it always, always brings to me so many positive emotions. It makes all my day CELEBRATING HOLLYDAY. It is the most long-awaited moment of my day. But I cannot write to you on work. Therefore I look forward evening to answer your letter. At 8:00 I began work, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! My letter for you should be written with my soul, well written. At 12:00 a lunch break and we going in cafe in building near ours. At 13:00 I go again engage in working affairs, and I CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT YOU! At 15:30, I with my colleagues make a small break, we drink tea, probably everybody make it. And I again THINK ABOUT YOU! At 17:00 I go home.
Sometimes it happens later, about 19.00. We with my colleagues leave a work place and we go on a busstop. I sit in the bus with ideas ABOUT YOU. I think what you do now... May be you have written to me new letter. After I leave bus and I'm going slowly. I feel myself very well because I THINK ABOUT YOU! I come into apartment... There nobody... Nobody waits for me there... Sometimes I feel very sadly. I change clothes, I take a shower, and I imagine that YOU WITH ME! (Smile) After that I have a little rest.
And it is final the important part of my day, I again check my e-mail and I read all your letters and write you the answer.
Then I make a supper, alone, but I smile, because I imagine, that YOU sit OPPOSITE TO ME! Sometimes come to me my friends, (but it happens not so often).
I THINK ABOUT YOU! Sometimes I go for walk. If no, I listen to music, I read book, I watch TV, I make various homework, and I THINK ABOUT YOU! (of course not all simultaneously). (Smile) At 22:00 I go to bed. During this moment I THINK ONLY ABOUT YOU! And during this moment very much frequently I cry... Because you are not with me... But tomorrow I will receive your new letter. And I easily fall asleep, may be in dream I'll see you.
Only let me send you a kiss from Russian woman who thinking about you very often, even if far from you.. .. I kiss you Aaron, and I with impatience wait for your answer.
Your girlfriend Kseniya waits for you.

Letter 11

Hi my most desired Aaron. I am very glad to receive your letter again.
Thank you that you do not forget about me and always continue write me. Thanks for your nice and beautiful photos. I never lay and I will not lie to you! I am sad, that you doubt my sincerity. I have no car and a driving licence. I do not know as could help you with deliver car.
I have received your vocal message. I see that you tried to call to me.
But I spoke to you already, that on my phone number are not accessible international calls. At first I should connect a paid package deal.
I will try call to you again today from public phone.
I am very glad that have met you! Your letters always radiate so much light in my dark sky. Thank you for your fine words. Today as well as always I have seen you in my dreams again!!! You were going to me but you will not kiss me, you only look and smile, you put your hand upon my face and look into my eyes. It is a loving feeling but yet you hold back, not knowing what to do. It is a wonderful feeling, one of contentment, one of security. I felt myself very strange, I wanted embrace you my arms, to gently kiss you and tell you everything will be ok, to feel our passion, to share all things in our beautiful in life. I would be your sweet heart and soul if you would wish to be in this way. Aaron, you know, in the childhood I dreamed to find the Prince, with whom I can go on THE Edge OF THE EARTH. Only later, after many years I understood: in real life I cannot meet prince, only in dream... and in a fairy tales. There is NO ideal men. But very similar to an ideal match which is necessary for you, you can find. I can confidentially tell you, that you are - man of my dreams... I can not explain an origin of love. I can not explain why woman draws to the man. And I can not explain why man draws to the woman. It occurs at a subconscious level. Aaron, I know that you feel something to me, and I feel that my heart is open for you. I need you very much. I do not present my life without your letters. I know that I want to give you all my tenderness, which for a long time I saved inside me. Nothing can be compared to this feeling of filling up somebody's life. The excitement, which tortures me while I'm waiting for your letters every day. The feeling, which fills every corner of my heart. Every step I make is safe, because I feel you around me. You are my dream, you are my angel, you are my soul, you are my life! I want to be your "Lady in red", about which sang Chris De Burgh. And I want you to know, that I have never felt like this before. You brighten my days and give me the strength to carry on, fighting every day for you. You have shown me deepest emotions and feelings I've kept inside of me for so long. I feel that our relations with you develop into something greater... It so excites my mood. I don't know what I will do without your letters... I every day with impatience wait your letters. I always worry when I see your letter in inbox. These feelings are not similar on anything.
I want to ask you Aaron, what we will do further... I think that we should undertake some steps... Because I cannot, I will not sustain long dialogue through letters.
Every day I understand that you borrow more, more and more places in my heart. I for a long time was alone. And our dialogue becomes bigger than simple dialogue. I am so glad that have met you! You seem to me man of my dream. And I very much want my dream came true... Aaron, think about it. I will wait for your letter... As well as always.
Kseniya dreaming about you...

Letter 12

Hi my love Aaron!!!!
I am glad to receive the letter from you. It was very pleasant to me to read your lovely words. I have get your letters from your other e-mail also.
My darling, I was very glad to speak on the phone with you yesterday and to hear your voice. I like your voice very much. Wow, we spoke on the phone in a real life, and heard our voices, our excitement in our hearts!!! I like very much our dialogue by phone, for me it was as though we speak looking in eyes each other. I hope that you trust me completely now. I am happy, that you like my voice.
Thanks for your desire to send for me good phone with the Internet and camera. But I do not trust post service.
Many things do not reach the addressee. Therefore it will be better, if you present to me phone at personal meeting.
I also remove my profile from websites. I do not want another man! I have found you and very much happy. I want that we were as boyfriend and girlfriend.
I have the usual computer - not Notebook or Laptop. I use the old desktop computer with the big monitor. You understand? I use windows 7.
I do not know as use Skype or Viber, I never use it. Also I have very bad, slow speed of the Internet. I have no Internet on phone and I can not use Viber or Skype there.
I think about you very much, I think about our future. And I thought about our meeting very much. A meeting is necessary for development of our relation. Because without a real meeting it is impossible to have serious relation.
I already know about you much, and completely can trust you. We became better to know each other. You agree with me?
I have the big interest to you. You are very lovely for me. Your letters bring to me happiness. Your words kindle fire and hope of real love in my soul. You know that I am girl, which wants the serious relation, love, a happy life with the good man. And to understand, whether you approach for me and whether I love you really, we should meet.
But before meeting I want that you promised to me one. You promise to love and care of me? You promise, what never will hurt me?
I know that you will promise me all it in your next letter. Because I believe, that you good man. If I did not trust you, I never would disagree on such serious step - arrive to your country and to meet you personally.
I wish to hear your promises to love and care of me because tomorrow I wish to talk to my parents and to tell about ours relation.
I think that already has come time to share with mine parents about our love, about our mutual desire to be together!
My darling if you are ready also as well as I to our meeting, if you are ready that I have arrived to you, I will ask a vacation on work tomorrow.
I will inform you date of mine a vacation and I want that you also have planned to have time for a meeting with me.
You are now far from me and me it very strongly afflicts. But I hope that together we can overcome all, we will in the future go hand in hand and a smile on our faces.
I can not correspond all life with you on the Internet. I want our real meeting.
I want it, I want that we were close to each other. That we could take walk together conversation on us, to check up our feelings, our emotions. I want to check our destiny. What do you think about it? You want at the same, my darling Aaron?
May be I hurry up very much and you will be frightened of my words, but I really want it. You are my destiny with which I do not want to leave.
My feelings to you already become love and to strengthen this feeling I need a meeting in a real life.
I with impatience will wait for your letter.
Kisses and love.
Your girlfriend Kseniya

Letter 13

Hello my lovely angel Aaron! Also thanks for your past 15 years of Acting Pictures, you very beautiful man and i like you. Yes, I would like to have children and a happy family with you. I love children and i can have children. If you want children also, that we will to have children. Yes, I name you an angel because now I want that you were mine a guardian angel! I wish to be together with you, to feel as behind a stone wall and never to be afraid, that someone can offend me. Because I know that you always will protect me, to care of me and to love till the end of days of our life! I very happy that have found you in this big world, annoy 1000 men. You remember as our relation developed, with what began? And all as has turned the big, mutual feeling - to love! I even did not think that it can happens, when wrote you the first message! But it has occurred and I am grateful to the God, destiny, that we know each other now and we live for each other! It is meaning of the life, so? You agree with me Aaron?
My dear how there has passed your day today? What did you do? You thought about me, the dream about me, about our first meeting? If yes, do not forget to describe to me this dream and I will compare my dreams to your dream about our first treasured, long-awaited meeting!
My darling, I wish to tell in this letter what news I have for you. First, I spoke with my parents about you. I have found time to visit my parents and had nice time. We had good family dinner. When I have met my parents, they have noticed at once change in me. They have seen that I to look became better, I became cheerful, happy and began to smile much. During time dinner behind a table, I have dared to tell to my family about you. I have told that the reason of that I am so happy now that in my life has appeared very much good man which loves me is and wishes to be together with me. I can write much about conversation with parents, about what questions they had to me, about that what them there was a reaction and so on. But to describe a meeting with parents, I need a lot of time, all will not go in in one letter :). But I can tell one, the most important - my parents have blest ours relation and have agreed to our meeting! I was very glad, I shine with happiness! You are happy, my love Aaron?
One more news! How you think it will be good or bad news??? :). Of course good news! Unless I can afflict you with bad news??? Never my dear Aaron! I always want that you had good mood, were glad and happy. Therefore I have today only good news! The second news is a conversation with mine boss on work. I have run for 20 minutes to mine boss in his house and have told that I need in a vacation urgently. Because I need to leave in other country on a personal question. At first mine boss did not wish to give a vacation and spoke to me that a vacation as a rule gives in the summer. But I have persuaded mine boss that he have given me a vacation in the near future. Because I very much wish to be together with you as soon as possible. As a result I could agree with mine boss that I will receive a vacation for 30 days. Date of mine a vacation from May, 1 till May, 30. My darling, you is glad to these news? I very much hope that you will be happy to hear these good news that we can to meet and be together already soon! Only please do not say to me, that you cannot meet me at this time because you will be very much busy. If you will tell so, I will be very sad and afflicted. Because I have done the utmost to persuade mine boss to give me a vacation. I hope that you can organise free time at this time and can meet me. I very much hope for it! I hope that my hopes will be justified and I will see from you the consent to meet on my vacation.
My darling, I do not know as to finish my letter because I wish to write and to write still more, at at me so a lot of thoughts and ideas on our meeting. But I cannot express all my emotions and feelings only in one letter! It will be better if we wait our meeting and then already in a real life we will please each other and we will have remarkably, fine, magnificent time together! I finish my letter today. I will wait with excitement your letter. Why with excitement because I am afraid a little that you will give up to me in a meeting! I love you. I give you my sweet, damp and hot kisses! With love and care yours Kseniya

Letter 14

Hi my dear Aaron, my best man in the world. I am very glad to receive your letter today it's always very pleasant for me. Thank you for your very pleasant letter, for your gentle words about me. I already wrote to you, that my family lives in 50 km from me. Sorry, I have no on the computer of a photo with my family. I the first letter I sent a photo of my friend. I have casually attached her photos instead of my photos.
It was only the random error, forgive me. I do not understand, why you want that I sent you a copy of my passport. Ok, I will satisfy your request and I will send a copy of my passport. I already wrote to you, that I have no on the computer of a photo with my family. I already explained to you, that I have no access to international calls. At first I should connect a paid package deal or buy new sim card. I already explained to you, that it was my friend. I had phone with camera before, but my phone has broken several months ago.
I am very glad that you are agree to meet me. I am very glad that you are ready to make our meeting a reality. I am very glad that we can to lead unforgettable time together. My holidays will last within 1 months. I can spend this time together with you. I think that it is big term and it will be enough to learn each other very, very well. I'm sure that it will be unforgettable time for both of us. The idea about our meeting forces my heart to beat very strong and quick. It seems that it's ready to jump from my body. I am very grateful to destiny, that I have found you, my love! Each day brings to me huge pleasure when I see your letter! Aaron, your letters mean for me something greater, than just a letter! When I wake up in the morning I think about you, my lovely!
When I fall asleep I think about you!!! When we will together I will the happiest woman on the Earth! I very much want to be with you, my lovely! And for me the most important man it's YOU!!! I'm already now present you meeting me at the airport with flowers. With my favourite roses... It's so bewitches my mood. I'm very glad that we have got acquainted!!! Our time will come soon. And we can go to our meet!!!
It is grandiose!!!!!!
On Monday Aaron, I will find out in travel agency about cost of tickets fly to you. I would like to stay with you forever, but I should buy a return ticket! Necessarily!!! Otherwise, to me will not allow to fly to you. I think that the Government of Russia does it to constrain quantity of emigrants in other countries. Otherwise in Russia nobody will live and all will depart to abroad :). I not the citizen of your country and consequently can stay in your country only for a vacation as the tourist.
But I learn more detailed information on all rules of a trip tomorrow in travel agency.
My darling, at me only one small request. I have correctly understood, that I should fly to airport Los Angles??? I will check tickets from the airport Krasnodar to your airport. But this flight will be through Moscow because almost all flights in abroad pass through Moscow. And also write me your full name, address. I will call to you and tell about all details which I have learnt.
Aaron, I really have serious intentions about our meeting. I think of you constantly. Even there behind 1000 miles I feel your presence near to me. Millions kisses for you, my lovely Aaron!!!
Your loving Kseniya.