Letter(s) from Anastasia Rusinova to David (USA)

Letter 1

Hello David! Today I started to write you the letter in the morning as soon as I have come for work.
I have written some offers and to me patients have come. I have just cured a teeth of the little boy.
That he was not afraid, I have asked his about his dreams.
He has answered that Dreams to become adults because adults do not have problems with a teeth. :-)
It was so amusing. I often recollect the childhood. I always dreamt To become adults as soon as possible.
As each child I believed, that adults in general do not have problems. I liked to dream in the childhood and I love we dream now.
Certainly, the world of dreams the illusory world, but we live actually, therefore to dream it is necessary very seldom :-)
It become always a pity that our dreams not a reality.
The person applies many efforts and aspires to that his the dream has come true, but not all in this life depends on us.
When the dream during long time does not come true, the dream stops to be that star, which was for you a beacon at ocean of a life which shined Your way.
But anyhow, I think, that it is impossible to live without dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense.
Dreams - those things which do us by people, it Distinguishes us from fauna.
Dreams bring a variety in a usual and grey life.
Dreams force to think, to analyze, come to conclusion. Belief and Hope - eternal companions of our life.
David, you agree with me? I am surprised, that I write you all it.
I never had the person with whom I could divide the thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad.
Forgive to me for my frankness. If I have told something superfluous, forgive me please.

Tell, it is pleasant to you when your friends come to your house?
It is pleasant to me very much when my friends come to me.
I like to prepare and for this reason I treat with their various tasty dishes.
Elena too well prepares, and shi often helps me.
We often prepare Various dishes also it is treated each other.
I usually like the Russian dishes - pel'menis, soups, pancakes. But I also love kitchen of the near east.

David, I have told to you, that I have visited Elena in hospital.
I was there approximately two hours and Elena were very happy, that I have spent its birthday together with his.
I have brought Elene a chocolate pie, flowers and balloons.
Balloons were different colours, Elene it is pleasant, when many different colours.
Wash favourite colour - dark blue.
And what colour is pleasant to you? Elena and I spoke about you. I Has told, that you are very good person.
Elena asked to send you regards and has wished good luck In my relations with you.

I will look forward your letter. Julia

Letter 2

Hello my distant but dear friend David.
Than'k you so much for your email, it was really long-expected. And i'am very happy to get it.
I'am full of emotions that idid't have before i found you.
My heart and my mind say me that i have to tell you about all my feelings now because it's a part of our relationship and i must share it with you.
I want to add that i've spent the whole day to wright it because i want to explain clear what i think.
I don't want to offend you but i was worried that you will understand me not wright. I 'am always speaking from my heart, but sometimes one should choose the words.
I feel devastated when i cant use the computer to read your letter. I feel wonderful only when i think about you.
I felt it only when my husband was alive. And now i have such feelings again.
I have never tried it up in my life (i mean to make friends with a foreighner).
I dont know if you have a desire to start making relationship with person from other country but i hope that you want it too.
I think that people in couple must be best friends, who trust each other and share with feelings.
I am trying to wright so that you'll understand me.

I trust in God and i think i must face difficulties before i will meet my beloved man with whom i will stay all my life, valuing, loving him and taking his love, which he could give me.
Hope that my words arenor boring for you, but it's more than words-theese are my thoughts and feelings and i'am sending them to you.
I'am anxious that you will find the same feelings in your heart and that you are ready to build relationship with me. I want to know you closer.
I also want you to share your dreams, hopes and feelings with me.
I really want us become closer than simple friends.
Please don't call me stupid because i think so.

David, when i talk or think about you it doesn't matter what the others think.
You are very handsome for me. I mean that you are not only an attractive person but i'am also talking about the beauty of your soul, but unfortunatelly one can meat this type of beautyvery rare.
Most men have handsome appearance and bad soul. It's very important for me.
Your words show your soul. I am sure you are really beautiful and i can't express all my feelings.
I feel that we are becoming closer and i am enjoying our friendship.
I'm trying to learn everything about you and i hope you also think that our relationship can be more than simple friendship.

Today i have good news. Elena was let go home. She visited me at work.
Soon she'll start working. I was happy to know i will see her more often.
I told her about mobile car, and she was upset because she couldn't help me.
But it was ok. Our car was broken when we were in the village but it will be repaired soon and we continue to help people.

David, looking forward for your letter, with tender Julia.

Letter 3

hello my darling.
how are you today?
I have not received your letter. Tell to me that happens? Why you have not written to me?
Write to me please if you wish to continue to communicate with me.
Your Julia

Letter 4

I with the big excitement waited your letter. Thanks that you have told all that you think.
Thanks for your letter. You have written to me, and it means that one more day will be lived by me with good mood. I wish to describe to you to write how there passes my day, since morning and till the night. I wake up approximately at 6:30. I rise with good mood because in a dream I saw you :-). At 6:35 I go to a bathroom, And I THINK Of YOU David! I wash, and I clean a teeth. At 6:45 I dress the sports form, I go on street And I THINK Of YOU! I run in the mornings always if temperature not more low-10s, to support itself in the good form. When in the street it is cold, I sleep till 7:00.
At 7:20 I make a breakfast, as a rule it is strong tea or coffee and a sandwich.
I drink tea, and I THINK Of YOU David! At 7:30 I go for work. Usually, if good weather, I go on foot And I THINK Of YOU! I like to go on foot since morning.
For work I come vigorous and cheerful. At 7:55 I go to an office where my girlfriend works.
As a rule it already on work at this time. If there is a possibility, I receive your letter.
If possibility is not present, I receive it later. At 8:00 I start to work, And I THINK Of YOU David! At 12:30 a lunch break. I go home for a dinner And I THINK Of YOU! I go home ?a a trolley bus. At 13:00 I have dinner, and at 13:20 I again go for work And I THINK Of YOU! At 13:50 I again work, And I THINK Of YOU! (Though in my work it is impossible to be distracted and to think about something, except work) :-) At 15:30 we with my employees do a small break, and we drink tea. But today I did not drink tea because I THOUGHT Of YOU!
Within the working day when there is a possibility, I answer your letter.
At 17:00 I go home. I go on foot. I feel perfectly because I THINK Of YOU!
At 17:40 I take a shower also I represent that YOU WITH me!
:-) At 18:00 I have supper, one, but I smile, because I represent, that YOU SIT OPPOSITE TO me! At 19:00 I go
On walk with my girlfriend (but it seldom happens). We walk in park and I THINK Of YOU!
If I do not go on walk, I listen to music, I read books, I watch TV, I knit, I do various homework, And I THINK Of YOU!
(Certainly not all simultaneously) :-) At 23:00 I go to bed.
Usually I fall asleep very quickly because I THINK Of YOU David!

Today we have gone with Elena to bank to learn all necessary that I could receive money of the husband, me have informed, that I should fill some papers.
Then in bank will consider my statements and if there will be no problems, I can take money which my husband stored in bank. Now I should wait some days and then go to bank.
There is one more important detail. I hope, that my statement for the visa will approve, therefore it is necessary for me to know
The international airport closest to you in which you can meet me. I hope that you write me it!!!!
Only do not think, that all my days pass so. It is an approximate variant.
Every day presents a miscellaneous. But that specific to each my day: THESE ARE my THOUGHTS On YOU!!!
David, I Your and only your Julia.

Letter 5

Good day, my David!

Thanks for your letter. I am so happy! Thoughts on you warm mine Heart.
I very much waited for this possibility to write to you to tell that happens today. Today very important day.
I very much worry.
Today I have received the invitation to conversation with the commission which solves whether it is possible for the client to give out the visa.
It is the most important in process visa receptions. The commission will make the final decision after Conversations - to give me the visa or not.
The conversation very difficult, but I was prepared.
It is the difficult test. But I am ready. I very much wish to meet you, and my desire will be To help me.
Where there is a desire there is a way.
Children from shelters to which I already help within several years, together with instructors have written commission letters to my support.
It will help me, When the commission will make the decision. I am assured, that all will be as it should be.
I will finish the letter. I send you all tenderness David. In mine THOUGHTS And SHOWER - ONLY YOU!
I kiss you 100000 times.
Yours Julia.

Letter 6

Hi my dear David!

Today at us on work sanitary day. All offices of our polyclinic will be Are cleared by a special chemical solution to destroy all microbes.
This procedure happens every month. I cannot long use the computer, therefore my letter will be small.
Today I passed the commission! :-) I did not think, that the commission will be to set such unusual questions.
They asked about my sexual life, about children, about work, about patriotism, about my relation to your country, about my religion and belief.
I have told all about Mine a life in detail. I spoke about all all truth.
To me have told, that my answers became unexpectedness for them because usually applicants do not answer such questions so directly and openly.
They have not got used to hear such answers, but they have told what to hear sincere and truthful answers more pleasantly than words which speak to gain the commission.
Children from shelters also Have made the big impression and have made the big impact on the commission.
To me have told, that I the first girl who has such support from children - orphans.
Now I should wait the decision. Now I agree with expression: "death Expectation, is worse than death".
I on what cannot concentrate. They have told that the decision will be accepted tomorrow.
I so worry. I so want that this small dream was carried out. I simply wish to see my fine friend.
I think the God will help me. I wish to meet you David. I never worried so before.
Excuse, but I should finish my letter. I very much worry. While my love!
Yours Julia.

Letter 7

Hello my dear David Today is a wonderful day only because i'v got your letter!
I don't care about anything else. Today i woke up earlier than usual.
I couldn't sleep any more. It was dark in the street. I looked at the window.
But suddenly a small bird fly to me and began to sing very beautiful.
I looked and thought that you are so far. May be you sleep and see me in your dreams.
If i were a bird i will fly to you and sing. I told the bird to fly to you and to say hello to my close friend David Tell him that i thought about him.
She flied as understood my words. If you will see my...
a bird near you singing a beautiful song remember that i asked her to visit you:))

David I have good news. Today i was at the agency they told that i can come to Moscow because I've got my visa. There is no embassy at Nizhni-Novgorod.
They will prepare my tickets tomorrow. Tomorrow i will learn the details.
everything is going on fine. Destiny helps me to be close by you.
Blue sky, bright sun, stars and your letters make me happy.
I like to read them and they make me smile. Sorry but i must go.
Send you all my kisses. Yours Julia.....

Letter 8

My greetings David! Thanks for your letter. My heart calms down, when I receive your letter.

Sometimes I look out of the window, there, where the sky and the earth Merge in a single whole.
I try to be lost in this prospective world, I feel that you where that there, is absolutely close with me and I see you, I see as you move along the street, I mentally represent as your street looks, though I absolutely have no concept as your street looks.
But I see you David, I see, how you smile, as at cinema in the slowed down image, you move to me and smile, and your image becomes more and more accurate.
You that speak that to me, but I do not hear you. But I read your words on your lips, I understand that that you say my name.
And these your words a plait me from within. Sometimes occurs so I absorb the world of illusions, that I simply stop to distinguish where illusion, and where the validity.
But the next second all interrupts and Again on my eyes the sky becomes grey, there are people who at all do not suspect that occurs in my heart.
It is so unusual to me, And at the same time I feel pleasant sensation inside. And I am assured that it not casually.
And it not it is important, that waits for me in the closest future, I know that there are you, the kind and good person and as my friend.
And if I see you David if I meet you David, and I can look in your eyes, I can to tell to you everything, that I cannot tell in letters, I will madly the happy.
Now, today, this minute not important where will result me this way.
I know, that it is true road. I live not in the next afternoon, - I live in this afternoon and as today I live a bright and happy life.

I would go to agency for this purpose what to learn cost of my trip to you. The ticket for me will cost 2030 dollars.
It in one party and back. As soon as I will pay this money they to me at once all data of my plane (departure time, flight number, and other data) will tell.
I should pay this money in agency.
As soon as I will receive this money, I will go at once to agency and I will buy the ticket!
What as soon as possible to be with you!
I should finish the letter. In relations from the lady you David dominate?
I have in view of - you like to be more the leader and to make all decisions personally or to you it is pleasant to discuss questions from the lady and to make the decision together?
I think, that it is good when problems are solved together. Even if one has a problem from spouses.
I think, that it is good, when spouses speak each other their problems.
Yours Julia

Letter 9

Hello my dear Dave!!!

Today at me bad news. Since morning I had a good, cheerful mood. But it has very much worsened after I have visited bank. Today I have gone to bank, and to me have told, that I cannot discount money of the husband. I was simply in a shock! I could not think that the such can happens. I have asked why to me Cannot give money, and to me have answered, that my husband had a will about which I did not know.
I have gone to the notary and he has confirmed, that my husband has made the will.
He to me has allowed to familiarise with it. There it has been written, that he bequeaths all money to my registered husband. That is, whoever was my husband, he can discount money. But I cannot take advantage of money. My husband always said to me, that I should not work, I should keep order in the house.
All that is connected money, the husband should earn.
It seems to me for this reason he bequeathed all money to my husband.
As he was my husband, he could receive money. But now, that I could receive money, I need to marry. And only then, my future husband can discount money.

I still had 400 dollars. But where to me to take 1630??? I should pay money to agency.
I have been assured, that to a smog to discount money, but it has appeared thaI cannot make it!!!
It is very difficult
For me to tell to you about it. But I have made everything, that could.
I have paid for the visa. I have spent a lot of time and nerves when waited for approval.
I did not wish to burden you. I wished to pay for all itself and to arrive to you at own expense, but unfortunately I have failed. Now I should pay other part of the sum to agency. It makes 1630 + 400$. It is very a shame to me to speak about it because I do not know where to me to take such big sum. Now I still had last hope, it you.
Please, help me with money for the ticket. I understand, that this difficult decision for you.
Certainly, if you do not want, you can not help me. It is bad, but is not deadly.
I will lose the money. I cannot arrive to you. IT is bad, BUT TOO is not deadly.
I have paid 465$ for that to me have made the visa. These are the big money for me, but MONEY NOT the MAIN THING In the LIFE. I trust you, and I know, that YOU are a PERSON of HONOUR, And YOU are a GENTLEMAN. If you Can help me, write to me about it in the following letter!!!

Dave, please forgive me all my words. I speak so, on that that I in despair.
Now, when only one step separates us, I am afraid. I am afraid, that you will not help me, and all my diligence
Will be useless. I require you Dave, and I wish to be with you.
I have not calculated the possibilities.
But together we are much stronger. We will pass through difficulties and a barrier, it is much easier to make it together. I wish to present you all my infinite love and fidelity.
I understand, that it is big
Money. I did not wish to ask you money. I thought, that I can make all.
The loneliness has made me strong. I lived without support of the man, and could rely only on myself.
I ask the help from somebody very seldom, but now I ask, that you have helped me.
I have made a step to you towards. Now I wait that you will answer the same.
I hope, that I have not offended you Dave. I require you, and I trust you.
I know, that you will not throw me now when we are divided only by one step.
I look forward to hearing from you.

Kiss you. Yours Julia.