Letter(s) from Marina Kushakova to Terry (USA)

Letter 1

Hi Terry!
I am very glad that I have chosen you from all the others who were at the site. I had no a lot of time to look all profiles on a site. I have chosen the first profile which I like. Probably my hand was directed with success. It was experiment. I have caught fortune for its tail. Smile!!! My friend Brenda has helped me to register profile and I am very grateful to her for it. Brenda is that student about whom I wrote to you. I did not know how to do it and Brenda has made all. I am surprised, that she has written the American city, instead of my Russian city. Probably it is a mistake, or it is joke of Brenda. I don't know it, because now she works in Japan, and we haven't communicated yet.
I work as a trainer in one of the fitness-clubs of Kislovodsk. I have a sport education, as I graduated from the Institute, Sport's Faculty. I train many people and so I communicate with different people of different age.I noticed that I better speak with the people who older than me. They are more polite, intelligent and suave, so it is possible to hear bad words from young people, they are louts and boors. I never have been married and I want to marry the men who is older than I. I am sure that men of this age are good husbands and fathers. What I am looking for in a man especially is friendship, long term friendship. But, I dislike arguing, bickering and that type of stuff, someone easy going is good. I want someone who wants to have fun, but understands life is not always fun. I need someone who is honest and caring,warm and sexy. I believe there needs to be a good attraction between the two people too. I want to have a boyfriend for a while who later if everything is right could be more. The most important parts of a relationship is love, trust and communication. But, without trust the other two do not matter. You cannot communicate with someone, no matter how much you love him or her, without trusting them. Love is important, but you have to trust the other person implicitly to truly love them, because you need to know they love you back for it to be real.
You have a question ’’Why Russian women look for their husbands abroad”. I think there are a lot of reasons and I will start with an economic level of Russia. Our country is not rich and it’s very difficult to find a good job. Russian men can’t earn enough money to keep their family. They begin to drink alcohol and become angry. It gets on divorce. Even if they get much money, they also begin to waste them on alcohol or other women. They are all “the ladies’ men”. In our country a number of women is more than men. Besides from the ancient times in Russia there is an opinion, that men have more rights than women. Even there is a proverb ” A hen is not a bird, a woman is not a person”. So men try to low women, though a woman is stronger physically and psychologically . She manages a household, brings up children and has a constant work in the same time. There is an opinion that Russian men in degradation now. I want to get married abroad as I’m concerned about my future. I want to have an ordinary, calm life though I must leave my friends and change culture. It’s very difficult.There are many men here that would like to be a part of my life but a lot of them have been married before and have kids and are bitter about marriage all together. Some of them have trouble opening up and showing there true feelings and there are the ones who lie, cheat and disrespect any man they get involved with. These are only a few reasons why I am still single, I think it is better to be lonely than to be with someone and be miserable. So, my search for that perfect man continues, maybe my searching will end with you. I want to tell you about my opportunities to write letters to you. I hadn't time to say about it in my last letter, because I write letters to you on my job as I have no a personal computer. The computer is in an accounting department. Lady who works with a computer will allow me to use a computer sometimes in my interests, but only when she has a free time. It depends not on me unfortunately. I work five days in a week - from Monday till Friday. It is the standard established in Russia. On this I shall not be capable to write to you and to receive your letters on Saturday and on Sunday. But sometimes I work on Saturday and even on Sunday. It is called - maintenance standby. I like my job; I spend much time in the gymnasium, doing aerobics and shaping.
I have no children but I would like to have them.I think that I would be a good mother. I have never seen my parents. I grew in the orphanage where there was a lack of parent's warm. I know, how it is hard to not have relatives. So I am ready to give my future husband and children everything. They won't be lonely, because I will encircle them with warm and love. Living in orphanage I've understood the real values of the life: do kindness to people and it will come back to you doubled. There are a lot of problems in Russia. People became evil and closed. That's why I decided to find a friend abroad Russia. So I have told you my dreams. May be they will not come true but these are my dreams. And what about your dreams? I like to listen to classical music:Dunaevski And Chajkovsky. I like to listen simply instrumental music. Such music allows to relax and have a rest. Under such music I like to think. I like to listen to guitar masterpieces of Joe Satriani. And my favourite movies - Siberian Barber and Tired by the Sun. They are masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The American movies in Russia have a huge popularity. They are considered to be the greatest. I like very much the American movies and I like many American actors.
I often walk in the forest, I like to go camping or by bicycle on Summer. In Winter I go skiing and skating. All these distract me from everyday problems. So what do you do, when you have problems and when you are sad? My hobby, if it's possible to tell so is the English language. I have loved English long ago, when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I entered in group of the English language and I am still happy that I've made it. I like very much your language. After school, I continued studying of English language in the institute. It is a very soft and easily-memorized language for me. Now I attend courses of the English language. I've been studing your language for 18 years. I want to learn this language perfectly. I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you won't angry.
I have spent all my working day what to write this letter.(Smale) I am waiting your response Terry.I have many ideas, but I do not want to rush this precious moment when two souls are looking towards each other across the continents for an everlasting friendship.
Yours friend Olga.

Letter 2

Hi my distant friend(English), Terry!!!!!!! Privet moy dal'nii priyatel'(Russian), Terry!!!!!!! How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when I have received your letter I really was delighted. Many thanks. I beg you please forgive me, that I didn't answer your letter earlier. As you know, I don't have a computer at home and that's why I am writing you from my job. But it is not easy too, because my boss doesn't let use the computer with private purposes. There is only one computer at my job. Therefore it's always occupied with someone on work. We do not have unlimited Internet access on a work, because we don't need in it. I use computer secretly to write you(when my boss is not at the office). Internet is expensive in Russia. Some months ago, when I was looking for my relatives with the help of Internet, my boss has subtracted from my salary all the expenses for the Internet. Unfortunately I haven't found anybody. My monthly earnings of 4500 roubles, it about 150 American dollars. But this money suffices me and even is possible save my money.
I have few friends. But now I have found you, Terry! I am very glad and I shall think of you. I tried to find love and happiness here, but I have tested man's roughness and disrespect. It has wounded me. I want to find the partner in life, together to enjoy life and to go in the future. I want to find the man, with whom we shall create the world of love, kindness and honesty. In the guy I want to see honesty and kindness. These are the main things because the lie and a rage spoil any relations. I like cheerful people. I do not love men who do not have self-respect. The heart of the man is most important. I want to be honest and frank with you, that's why I ask you not to deceive me. There is a proverb in Russia: Bitter truth is better than sweet lie. I am sure that you are an honest man and you can't lie. Am I right? After all my stories you may think, that everything is bad, but it is not true. When I lived in orphanage one elder person came to us. Her name was ANASTASIYA and she brought us different cloths and gave money to the orphanage. We were great friends with her. When I have grown up and have left the orphanage, our friendship became bigger. Now I helped her: I went shopping for products, I lead her to the hospital ( she was an old and sick person), I kept her house and looked after her. Two years ago when she was 79 years old she died. She was a Great person. ANASTASIYA was a very intellectual and educated woman. She taught me many things: how to lay the table correctly, how to behave at the table, to put the tablewears, to behave in mundane society and many other things. She taught me manner to be dressed and to go correct and beautifully. Also she taught me to sew and kneet, people do it in Russia long ago. My ANASTASIYA dreamt to bring me up as an honest and decent lady. She has got all her knowledge from her ancestors. She loved me like a daughter and I loved her like my mother.And I tried to do all to be worthy daughter, to be worthy her love. And I hope that I became such a lady as my ANASTASIYA wanted to see me. Now I appreciate the difficulties of that time in a different way. Difficulties train the character. I lived without help and support, I went through different difficulties about which I don't want to speak. But I have gone through these difficulties and remember this I feel that everything I have done correctly. My ANASTASIYA always told me that one should look at difficulties with smile, not mentioning that there is a shout of despair in the throat and there are tears in eyes. One should be strong and proud - as my ANASTASIYA was. She didn't have her own children and her husband died during Second World War.
After his death she didn't married again, because she loved only him. ANASTASIYA has bequeathed me everything that she had: this is an apartment and old-time jewelry which she has got from her great-grandmother. This is a very beautiful necklace ring set with a stone and bracelet. This is a historical value, and I cherish it very much. It is very offensive for Russia. When Russia loses such people such as ANASTASIYA, it's loses the particle of its great culture. Forgive me that I have told you about this so in detail. But I say about my mother seldom. But when I say about her I can't do it in couple words. I loved her very much and that's why I told you little things about her. Forgive me. I decided to share my recollections with you as with a friend, because I didn't speak about her with anybody for a long time. Forgive me that my letter is sad, big and uninteresting. Simply when I begin to say about my ANASTASIYA I can't stop. But I promise not to write such letters anymore. Yes, I would like to see your picture.
Now I must finish my letter. I wait anxiously for your answer. Also I want to ask, have you ever had a friend from the other country? Is it important for you the nationality of the person ?
Yours friend Olga. Tvoy drug (Russian)Olga.

Letter 3

Hi my heart and my soul Terry! I have a friend Terry, and I always think of him, I want to know all about him. Absolutely all! (Smile). Tell me about your thoughts and dreams. And now I'll do it.
Yesterday my boss informed me that I would have a vacation approximately in 2-3 weeks, but I wasn't pleased. I didn't expect that I would receive a vacation. But schedule, that constituted by boss canÒt be change. I have begun to cry, because it means that I can't write to you, I can't use a computer. I was so frightened that I can lose you. I imagined that I should spend this vacation in my apartment, between four walls. I should sit in loneliness and think of you. I should aimlessly wander on streets and fall asleep with tears on eyes every night. I have been waiting for my vacation during long 3 years and now I receive them but they don't bring pleasure to me. I imagined that I should spend some weeks without you and awful emptiness had appeared in my heart. All world around became uninteresting for me and I told myself:" NO! It is not for me!" Last night I thought of us. About you and about me-about us together. I couldn't fall asleep. I had been crying for a long time because of despair. My thoughts were mixed, like inking waves during a storm, and I, like a small ship was sank in the sea of despair. With the rising of sun I calmed and hold on myself. And I have put a hard aim, the aim of all my life-to be with a man who loves me and I love him by all my heart. I thought what I can do to see you. I decided to spend this vacation with you. I thought what I can do to meet you. Simply to meet. That's all what I want now. I have passport, and also I need an American visa. Today I have addressed in firm where the visas are made.To me advised to use tourist visa B1/B2. My visa will allow me to be in the USA 6 months. I wondered how much it would cost for me. They told me that this service would cost 380 USD. I said it was very big money, and visa couldn't be cost so much. They told that I could make all directly in Moscow where an American consulate was. But I have considered that if I shall make directly in Moscow, I will squander more money. The way to Moscow and back also residing there will cost much. I shall squander more money than 380 USD if I go there. Besides if my application isn't approved, it will turn out that I squander all money for nothing. I have been explained that it will be necessary to visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions both in Kislovodsk, and in Moscow. I must wait for a long time the queue.. This agency allows to avoid many problems and to make all for faster term. I asked how long it would take to make the visa. I was answered that it would take about a week or may be 2 if there were some troubles because of the terrible terrorist acts in USA and the conflict with Iraq. And in this agency I was told, that they need information about me from the police. If I am a law-abiding citizen, I shall get the visa. I have never outraged the law. And I have never done anything unlawful. I shall have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the visa. I understand that our relations are not long yet, but I trust you. And I very hope so you are, as I love you. Many years I ask myself a question:Ò Why everything depends on money? I think that the money is not main thing in life. The main is when the people can and want to understand each other. I have some savings. And I think that it be enough to come to you, my sweetheart.
Our love will overcome any distances. Live for LOVE! When you Love, do it with all your might, all your Devotion and for all eternity! I really think it's better to love and fail and not having fallen in love at all. Since I started talking to you, I just can't stop thinking of you Terry.

Letter 4

Hi my heart and my soul Terry!
How are you? I'm wonderful! Excuse me, that my letter will not be so long(smile). I have not enough time with official registration of papers. I spend all my lunch time for this purpose. To begin carry out our meeting I'll be engaged in the international documents, passage of a medical commission and other things to prepare the document of travel in your country.
Last night after my job I went to the church. I put a candle for ours with you happiness. I think that God will help us.
I'm thinking about you. I'm thinking about you constantly. At my job everybody are surprised why I'm so merry. They don't know that I'm corresponding with you. Do you believe in love? One love and forever till the end of life. I believe.
I believe in love. There are no the barriers for love. The age and distance are not important. When the people love he doesn't notice it. Do you know the name of the highest mountain of America? So I will climb this mountain and will shout: Terry! I love you! And the mountains will answer me: love-you-love-you-love-you. I believe that the day will come and our hearts will join. And the people will envy our happiness. Because we will come ourselves to our happiness. Nothing will happen if you sit and do nothing. And I believe that we will build our happiness. We will build it of the small bricks as Egyptian the Pharaones built their pyramids. And we will build our pyramid. And we will call it the love pyramid of Terry and Olga. I love you, my prince Terry.
I have written this letter and recalled. I have forgotten to send you my kiss. I'm kissing you my love. KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS. Your forever Olga.

Letter 5

Hi my love Terry!!!!
Every day I think about you and about our love. Our love resembles me a little beautiful flower, which is entrenching through dry ground and is stretching to the sun. Our love is watered by a rain of kindness, tenderness and trust. Every day our flower is becoming stronger and harder. Our love takes force from our letters. This is a thin thread which has connected us. I am very glad that we build our small world of love together. Our world of love will be strong, because we build it from Devotion, Probity, Respects and Trust. Love - this is world for two persons, to which any stranger can't come in, otherwise everything will be ruined. And then it will be impossible to collect rebuilt the splinters of the love. In Russia people say that Love is a great force. Love can overcome all the barriers and distances. Two loving hearts are streatching to each other like two magnets. Our hearts are tired from loneliness, that's why they must be together and beat like one heart. Our hearts are like two great oceans. They are vast and very deep yet calm an peaceful on the surface. Our feeling run very deep and they are very strong. Sometimes we get afraid we will be pulled under by the current. I dream that our two oceans will meet in a powerfull wave that will shake the very earth. And when all is done there will be one vast beautiful ocean, beauitful, powerful and forever...(one heart, one ocean). Elena had quinsy, yes now she feels like better.
In me it is so much feelings with which I would like will share with you, but my boss has not allowed to use the Internet. Now he frequently checks me. He is not kind to me.
I want to tell to you what happened yesterday. I went to an orphanage for children. It orphanage in which I grew. I and my girlfriends help these children. Children which live there have no parents.
Several times a week we visit this orphanage to give help of various sort. The state allocates very few money for the maintenance and contents of orphanages. Buildings are very old. But children don't have anybody to help them and to give them financial support. That's why some people voluntary render the feasible help. We help to repair in a building. Many walls don't have even wall-paper. Stucco has fallen off. The floors and beds are very old. The conditions are terrible. The meal is awful. The children practically have no toys. When I look at all this there are tears in my eyes . I am very for these children. My girl friends and I help to do repair. We glue wall-paper and paint the windows. We bring children new toys. You cannot imagine how children are pleased when we come. And they are glad not only because they wait for new toys, they wait for us. They require kindness and caress very much.
When we glued new wall-papers, a little boy approached to me. His name was Nikita. He is such a charming boy! He is 6 years old. He took my hand and said:Olga , we were looking a cartoon, but the TV broke. I understand nothing in electronics. I wanted to find somebody from men. But basically women work in the orphanage. There are two men, but they work only till 18:00. In the evening and at night there are only a few women - teachers. I didn't want refuse to Nikita. He looked in my eyes and so hoped that I would repair the TV-set.And I decided to try. It was a very old tv-set. Small electronic lamps are used there. This tv-set was used for 20 years.
It broke not for the first time. Once I saw how a repairman repaired such a tv-set. He moved some big electronic lamp and after that the tv-set began to work again. The repairman told that all contacts had burnt and smashed up and it was necessary to clean them. I decided to try to move that lamp in hope that it would help again. I took a spoon(a spoon is metal, but I forgot that metal passes an electricity) and stretched a hand to this lamp. But during this moment the big spark flashed and I got an electric current. It was so unexpectedly and hurt. I screamed and flew away from the tv-set as though on me have poured boiled water.Can you imagine it? After that I sat on the floor and laughed for a long time. I regret that you did not see it. I think that you will laugh seeing how I put the metal spoon into the tv-set . It was really very cheerful. I ask to forgive me if I have told you something wrong, but these were my thoughts. May be I haven't answer some your questions. When I get your letter I am so happy that i am forgetting about everything. I write you not with the mind but with the heart.
At this moment my mind is situated with you.
At this moment I am under your hipnosses.
My thoughts are only about you and soon we will be together.
P.S This picture was made in the summer Kislovodsk.

Letter 6

Hi my soul Terry!
I with trembling heart waited your letter. Thank you for told all what you think. Thanks for your letter. You have written to me and it means that one more day I will be lived with good mood.
I dream again with you in my sleep. We went to the beach and walked by the water. We picked up shells. You were very happy and I too enjoyed the day. Night fell and we lay on a blanket looking up at the moon and stars. We picked out a star and it was to be our star. I will look to the sky and try and find our star when it is dark again. I know I will find it as it was special to me that we liked the same one. That was all to the dream I wish there to be more but that was all for last night.
I want to describe to you my day completely, since morning and till the night.
At 6:30 rattle my alarm clock. I do not love my alarm clock. Because it so loudly rattle, that each time I jump as scalded. I rise with good mood because in dream I saw you.
At 6:35 I go to a bathroom And I THINK OF YOU! I wash and I clean a teeth.
At 6:45 I dress my sports suit, I go on street And I THINK OF YOU! I jog. I run in the mornings always when it is not cold to support myself in the good form. When in the street coldly, I sleep till 7:00.
At 7:20 I cook a breakfast, as a rule strong tea or coffee and a sandwich. I drink tea and I THINK OF YOU!
At 7:30 I go to work. Usually, if weather good, I go on foot And I THINK OF YOU! I like to go on foot since morning. Air clean and fresh. To job I come vigorous and cheerful.
At 7:55 I go to a cabinet where works my girlfriend . As a rule she already on work at this time. If there is an opportunity I receive your letter. If the opportunity is not present I receive it later. At 8:00 I start to work And I THINK OF YOU! At 10:00 I go on street and I THINK OF YOU! I breathe fresh air of 10 minutes and come back to work.
At 12:30 a dining break. I go home for a dinner And I THINK OF YOU! I reach up to a house by a bus.
At 13:00 I eat and at 13:10 I go again for work And I THINK OF YOU! I go by a bus but I abandon a bus earlier, than it is necessary, to again take a walk on fresh air And TO THINK OF YOU! At 13:30 I again work And I THINK OF YOU! (though in my work is impossible be distracted and think about something another except for work)(smile)
At 15:30 we with my employees do a small break and we drink tea for have a rest. I was not capable to drink tea because I THINK OF YOU! During the working day when there is an opportunity I answer your letter.
At 17:00 I go home. I go on foot, slowly. I feel itself perfectly because I THINK OF YOU!
At 17:40 I take a shower and I imagine that YOU WITH ME! (Smile) At 18:00 I have supper, alone, but I smile, because I imagine that YOU SIT OPPOSITE TO ME!
At 19:00 I go for walk with my lady-friend (but it happens seldom). We walk in park. She thinks Where is possible to buy ice-cream, BUT I THINK OF YOU! If I do not go for walk, I listen to music, I read the book, I watch TV, I knit, I make various homework And I THINK OF YOU! (of course not all simultaneously)(smile). At 23:00 I lie down to sleep. Usually I fall asleep very quickly because I THINK OF YOU!
Only do not think that all my days pass so. It is an approximate variant. Every day passes on miscellaneous.
But is that peculiar to each my day: IT'S MY THOUGHTS OF YOU!!!
Your and only your Olga.
P.S. Unfortunately in my work the scanner has broken. I shall wait when will repair the scanner and I shall send again pictures.

Letter 7

Privet moya lyubov. (Russia)
Hi my love. (English)
How are you, my love Terry?
When I see your letter, my heart is similar to a bird in a cage. Wants to depart a breast and to fly to you. I never experience before similar. Thanks for new picture. I already spoke, that you a handsome man. Your new picture confirm my words. You really very charming and attractive a man and to look at you is very pleasant.
Today I speculate about you and about me. It so is surprising. As a matter of fact we live on the different sides of our planet, but we are so similar. I never was even outside of my country. To travel outside the seas and oceans for me in general outside a reality. I cannot imagine it as though I not tried. And always, as likely many people Never seeing anything except for native house, I console myself by thought, that you have the same blue sky and the same life. Maybe life behind ocean is more cheerful and rich, paints are brighter and the summer is warmer. But also as here, people cry when they feel a pain, people suffer when lose close people, women in torments give birth to children. It is identical everywhere. You and I have the same cares and problems. Every day I try to imagine that occurs in your heart, do you worry or not, do you think of me or not, do you imagine us or not.
It is so unusual to me, and in same time I feel so conveniently as if I know you the whole eternity. And I am sure that it not accidentally. And it is not important what waits for me in the nearest future, I know that I already have found a remarkable, kind and good man and a friend. And if I will see him, if I meet him and I can look in his eyes, I can tell to him everything what I cannot tell in letters, I will be madly happy. Now, today, this minute not important, where will bring me this way. I know that it is true road. I live not by the future,- I live today, and exactly today I live by bright and happy life.
I'm missing you. When I go to bed I'm thinking about you. I'm thinking about your letters. I think how it's good that I have met you in the Internet. If I was told before, that I will meet my love in the Internet, I would not believe this man. I would think, that this man is crazy or joker. But it has happened. It has happened not to somebody but to me. And I'm glad that the people invented the Internet. I didn't think that it's possible to find my only love in the Internet. But I have found. Please, don't give me up. It will be a strong pain for me. I won't simply go through it. But I believe that you won't do it. Excuse me for this short letter.
But today I have hardly found an opportunity to write even slightly. With all my love. (English)
So vsey moey lyubov`yu. (Russia)

Letter 8

Hello, my king Terry!
How was your day? I'm wonderful. Every day I wait with impatience for your letters.
Yesterday in the evening I learnt to cook a new dish. It's a pancakes with meat. It were so tasty. Sometime I will cook only for you. You wake up in the morning and I bring you coffee. You get up, take a shower, come to the kitchen and there is ready meal there. In the evening we will have supper with candles.
I yesterday went in orphanage, to treat children pancakes. If you saw as they were glad. I was glad doubly. Very much it is pleasant to me when these children are happy. It is necessary for them for happiness a little. I am very happy, that I shall soon with the beloved, and I want to divide happiness with somebody else. I'm sending you a small poem. Tell me if you like it. OK?

Bright, eyes
like heaven's stars,
Lips so full
I need to know -
when will be he mine
for all of time?

His name is Terry
He is my Prince
I shall take him to the ball
to dance in front of all.
Midnight will come
though he will not run.
He will be mine
to the end of time.

I've prayed so long
for one as this.
With him beside me
we will have bliss.

Yesterday I began to knit a sweater for you. It will be my gift. I knit a sweater of Angora wool. Do you like a sweater? Do you like wear a sweater when in the street cool? But I am absolutely sure that you will like this sweater. I make it with such big love. I make it so studiously. It will be the best sweater in America. Color - is slightly darkest than white. Very beautiful color. I want to make on a forward part of a sweater an inscription - a name. First I wanted to make name - Olga. But now I want to make a name - Olga. And I do not know that you want. The name will be not big. You have 3 days to make the decision - what name you want to see on a breast. If you do not write to me, I will take the decision by itself, but I will not tell you. I will give you this sweater at the Airport. Do you like my idea?
Soon we will be together and it will be wonderful. If we fated to become single whole, I believe that it will be. Our hearts are like two great oceans. They are vast and very deep yet calm an peaceful on the surface. Our feeling run very deep and they are very strong. Sometimes we get afraid we will be pulled under by the current. I dream that our two oceans will meet in a powerfull wave that will shake the very earth. And when all is done there will be one vast beautiful ocean, beautiful, powerful and forever...one heart, one ocean. Terry you have given me much more than you can realize. You are my prayer, my shelter from hopelessness and despair, only you can keep the spark in my soul burning bright.
Write back as soon as possible. I'm waiting for your letter. And I'm thinking about you.
Kiss you.
My question to you.What do you not like in yourself? Your Olga.
P.S. Please write the full name of the airport closest to you.

Letter 9

Hi Terry. I can't still believe and I am afraid to whammy but it seems to me that my dream is beginning to come true. That's why I say:
Hello, my long-awaited Terry!
Now I think all the nights that soon I will see you. I have already imagined for thousands times this meeting, but even now I can't describe what our meeting will be. I am sure in one thing that it will be one of the most beautiful days in my life.
Now, when I think about it my heart begins beating strong in my breast and I feel a nice trembling in my body. I can't wait for the moment when I sit into the plane which will take me through thousands kilometres to you Terry, to my dream.
Here in my town last time the days are so long and boring. But I think that nothing can spoil my mood, because I am far away from here in my thoughts, because all my dreams are about you Terry and about our meeting.
I want to close my eyes and open them only at the moment when you meet me at the airport. I imagine how I go down on stairway and you are coming to me. And I want to rush to your embrace hear your voice, feel your smell and tell you in both languages what I will feel at this moment. I so really imagine all this. I am full with feeling that all this is happening now. And I feel for the first time that I am a beloved and desired. And I am ready to thaw in your embrace. I am thawing already now.
Thanks for the new picture. You are very handsome the man. My day was wonderful.I want to tell you my sleep-dream this night. It was something. It was greatful.
Everything began in the morning(It already my dream). I didn't understand what day it was. But I think it was a weekend because you did not go to work. We woke up, took a shower, had breakfast and you offered to spend the day on nature. I didn't refuse your suggestion. We have gone to garage. But there were no automobiles in garage. There there were two big, beautiful, magnificent horses. They were so wonderful. You have sat on your horse and I sat on my. You said: Well, horse of cowboy Terry, let's go. I loved and said: Well, little horse of lady Olga, let's catch up cowboy Terry. We went out of the garage and we shouted - LET'S GO!!!!!!!!!!
I looked back and understood that I saw the house for the first time. It was a wonderful building.
We were riding for a long time. We overtook each other and then we reached a forest. The trees greeted us making noise with leaves. The grass near the road bended down as if it greeted us. I was surprised. It seemed to me that we got into a magic forest. The road on which we rode led to the river.
We stopped. You offered to walk. I agreed with you. We went along the river and saw a water-falls.The water was falling very beautifuly. But then I saw that there is a stone in the middle of the water-fall. We came nearer and notice that the stone looked like a heart. Then you said: Darling Olga, even the nature greets you. Then I answered you: No, the nature greets you, Terry. We argued and laughed. We decided that the nature greeted both of us. We were happy.
I stood and watched the water falling. Suddenly I felt that something laid on my shoulder. It was your hand. I turned to you. I wanted to kiss you very much. And only I prepared.............I heard some ringing. I woke up. It was my alarm-clock. It was time to get up. I was so disappointed. How is it?
So pity that it was only a dream. But soon we will embody all our dreams in a reality.
Your love forever Olga.

Letter 10

Hi my beloved Terry.
This letter is from the almost lucky lady. Why is ''almost''?
As today after my work I went to visas firm. I was told that my visa was ready at last, (I send you it's SCAN). I was most happy the person at that time. But this firm not only makes visas, it also reserve tickets. I decided to use their service again. I was told that the flight to Huntsville costed 1201.70 USD.
It was too expensive for me, and I asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they offered. It would be on the 24 August and cost 1150.50 USD. I wondered if it was possible to reserve a ticket and to pay for it a part of the money this time and the other part later. But they refused and I was in despair. I asked them to help me so long that tears came to my eyes.
And they agreed. I wasted all my money, but it wasn't enough. So I went to pawnshop and pawned silver and gold embellishments which I had from ANASTASIYA. I got 200 USD and that was enough for initial payment. I have paid in whole 700.50 USD.
It was my last money. The number of the flight on which I resevered the ticket is 8:15 am Depart Moscow (SVO) Aeroflot-Russian International Airlines 215 SAS 909 Continental 2525 Connect in Copenhagen (Kastrup), Newark (EWR) Arrive Huntsville (HSV) 8:08 pm.
It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything I can. I paid visa. I have bought the ticket on a train up to Moscow. I paid a part of the ticket. But this money is not enough. I don't want to burden you. I want to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I have failed. Now I have to pay the remaining part. It is only 450 USD. I must pay this money before August 21, Otherwise I will lose my money. If you love me, if you trust me and if you want to see me soon, please, send the money for the ticket before August 19, tomorrow morning.
I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Any union without trust is impossible if it is a union of wife and husband or a union of boy-friend and girl-friend or a union of business partners. I don't want to be hypocritical. That's why I want to tell you following: I do not think that you would like to give the love to the woman whom you don't trust. So I am. It's a first check for us. And much depends upon it, may be everything. We must trust each other. That's why I was the first who made first step. Step to you.
Of course if you don't want you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. IT IS TOO BAD BUT NOT TOO FATAL .
I speak so because I am in despair and confusion. Now, when we are divided only with one step, I am afraid. I am afraid that you will not help, and all my diligence will be gone. I love you and I want to be with you and the word of honour, your help is necessary for me. I have not calculated my forces. But together we are much stronger. It is much easier to go through difficulties and barrier together. I want to present you all my infinite love and fidelity. I did not want to ask you. I thought, that I can make all itself. The loneliness has made me strong. I have got used to live without the help, and to rely only on myself. I very seldom address to somebody for the help, but now I ask you to help me. I have made a step forward. Make also you a step towards to me. I hope that has not offended you. I love you and I trust. I know, that you will not throw me now when there is only one step.
Tell me Terry, can you help me? If you have an opportunity please help me. I wonder how it is possible to do.
There is an International Western Union (by the way, they have a website, called www.westernunion.com). You may send me money using Western Union according following data: Dialog-Optim Bank, Tereshkovoi,26, Mineralnye Vody. 357212. Mineralnye Vody this town is very close to my city Kislovodsk.
For Olga Zhukova.
To get the money, I should tell the employee of bank your full name, full address, exact amount and some confidential numbers (Money Transfer Control Number), which will be given to you, when you send the money.
I love you very much! I think about you Terry every time.
Forever yours Olga.