Scam Letter(s) from Dilyara Gusainova to James (Canada)

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Letter 1

Hi my name is Dilara, and I live in Azerbaijan.
I am looking for a man who would not think that a woman does not have a rights. Looking for someone who knows what love is, what is the care. And of course, know what loyalty.
I am lonely, and I do not want more to be so in future. I want to be happy like many people on the planet.
And that's why, I now write you.
I am a beautiful, intelligent, love to read books. I like good movies, and music.
I can give you my picture, if you answer me. And if I cause you concern. You can be sure that I'm very beautiful.
I also hope that you will not ask of me naked photos, because I did not give it to you, and even more about me you do not hear.
Now I will wait for a response.
Dilara.

Letter 2

I am very glad to see your reply today Jay. I confess that I expected that you write! For a start, it's not bad to see your reply and your interest to continue our communication and dating. I just want you to know that I do not want to play with feelings and just waste yours and mine time. It's really bad when people plays with feelings! And I hope you'll agree with me? It is not necessary to run forward too fast. We must first get to know each other better! And let me begin do it.

I was born and lived up to 5 years in Malaysia. But then, my parents divorced, and my mother took me to her home, in the country where she was born and lived before she met my father, it's the country Azerbaijan. I'll give you a web link to my country, you can visit the web site of Wikipedia and make the request of the country Azerbaijan.
And there you can read about it yourself and learn more. I also want you to understand from the beginning that Azerbaijan is absolute independent country. It's NOT a Russia.

But then, when I was little girl it was very difficult to relocate for me. I was need to study language, culture. But I tried, I did not have friends at first, and all the time I spent with books. They have become my friends. Just spending time with my mother and her parents, my grandparents. They always took care of me. And I remember them.
They were very good people, but the time has come and they gone. I miss them, but I understand that this is life, and it is difficult to change something in it.

I want you to know also, that Azerbaijan is a country not so far gone in the progress of electronics, as European or some other countries.
And we do not have free internet in the public access. Few people have a home computer. And that is why I am writing you from internet cafe.
The development of the Internet is very limited in my country. Few people use various social networks such as Face Book. The reason for this is the religion of my country. This is Islam. And that's why now I can only write you a letters. But this does not mean that I'm going to write only the letter and not do something other! I think that in the future I will be able to call you by phone. To speak with you. And as soon as I get a chance, I will tell you about it so you expect my call. While I do not have and don't need to have a cell phone or home phone. And yet, if you are satisfied with the letters conversations, in which we can learn more about each other, I'll be happy to continue.

As for you, I receive your mail in the dating agency, which came to our town together with internet cafe. This is a novelty for us, and I'm one of the first people who decided to use their services. And paying a little money, I received several e-mail addresses, including yours. I chose, and now I see your answer. And you and I already have a chat. I write you from different e-mail address, since first letter you got from the e-mail, which gave me this dating agency. And today I already use my personal e-mail and only I have access to it.

My name is Dilara, but my friends call me Dila, I live in a small town Astara. This is a very small town. But I like to live in it! I also have a job, and it is the doctor's assistant. Nurse - I taught this in medical school. And I'm glad that I can provide myself in everything. And not to depend on somebody. I was always been a good student, and I can talk in other languages, such as English, German.
But I warn you right away that I often use a translator! To speak and understand a lot easier than to read and write words. And it may have got a problem with the translation of my letter. And I hope that you can understand all of what I'm trying to say.

My birthday is July 19, 1986. And as you have already understood I'm now 30 years old. You know, age is just a years, the numbers. And I am very worried that for you it can be a problem in our communication.
But I hasten to reassure you. Suppose we have an age difference! But believe me, for me the years that does not mean anything, no matter how old you are. The main thing for me is that you be a good man, and even if we just be friends, anyway, I would be very nice to have good friends who will always be able to help me, advise, and support morally in the difficult life moments. That in turn I will be the same good friend. But my main aim is to find my soul mate, the person whom I love and who love me. I want one man till the end of my life.

And now I'm alone. Yes, I'm lonely, and believe it is very difficult to find the right person with whom you will not only be loved, but also be a true friend. From which you will not have secrets. And you will always appreciate it not for its beauty, but for his heart and soul. God gave me good looks, but could not find for me a man who might be next to me yet. And who would love not only my face and body, but me totally ! My soul, my heart, my thoughts. And as the last hope I decided to write you, a man whom I did not even see in real. And maybe I'll find the one I need. And let he not be from my country.
The main thing is that we both will be happy.

At this point I think that I finish my letter. I also send you one of my current photo. And I'll be very pleased to wait for yours letter and new pictures! And I ask you not to send me a large size photos, because the Internet is not very fast here, and I will need a lot of time, so I can open it. So I hope you will write me soon. Not just two, three lines. And of course tell me what you do, where you live, and much more. See you. Dila.

Letter 3

I have a nice day Jay, good mood, and I think that even the fact that you write me a letter, your answer, it is a pleasant continuation of this day.
I would like to know, how are you today? What is new in your life ? And more important question!
What do you think about of our communication, I understand that it's only beginning, but still very interested.
But I understand that it will take time to get more impressions from our communication.
We need more time to learn more about each other and most importantly, to see whether we can talk further.
Believe me, I want to know more about you, to know you. I find it very interesting and curious. Recognizing that in my country there is!
Learn manners and customs. I'm a little jealous that you have more life options than I have here. And you've got friends, your family.
There are those with whom you could share your thoughts.
I do not have, any one, and it's really difficult for me. And that's why I'm writing you a letter, because .... because I just do not have anyone to do it.
And so I want to talk to, learn something else, something I do not have, in my life, in my country. And want to share what I've been kept in itself.
With a man like you, from another country, I think it's much easier to do.
I have also family… or I had the family would be more correct . I have a mother, which I love, and my father whom I love as well. But I can not forgive his betrayal.
The fact that he left us, and went to another woman. And because of that we are back in the home country of my mother, Azerbaijan.

But I left my mother's house also for another reason. I learned, and I could not live in this household.
My mother was married to another man after we came here, and that man was raised by old traditions of religion in this country. which in my opinion are not relevant in our time.
And for you understand this better I have a lot to tell you what I could do, and what I could not!
I could not watch movies that I wanted, some TV program. I couldn't dress as I want, and the most important thing I couldn't be friends with boys, and of course couldn't fall in love with some one.
And all because my stepfather had tried to marry me off. And was trying to do it, when I was only 15 years old. It's funny ?!
No, I did not marry that time, but he conditionally agreed with his friend that his son marry me when I will be 18 years old. And what could I do?
And while I was living in my parents' house in Azerbaijan, I always tried to live the way I want, to dress what I want, and to communicate with those whom I liked, with those with whom I communicate well.
Even I was a small girl, I remember it very well. That's why it was hard here in Azerbaijan for me, and my mom saw it. And thanks to her, I went to medical college (she persuaded me to let go by stepfather).
After college, I didn't back home to my mother and stepfather, wrote a letter that I'm fine, but I do not want that my life instead of me build others people.
And moved to another city, I got a job and started to live independently. But it's hard when you have no one there, and when you since childhood, prohibits many things.

You probably heard about the horrible tradition of my (or any other Muslim) country, that women could marry when they were only 12 years old! And believe me, it is reality here, it's all in our modern time.
I still do not understand why it is so, at this time, I thought that the Middle Ages already left in the past (smile).
I agree, if I had to know before the man who should become my husband. And the age different for me that does not matter. This is my position. For me age difference it's just a digits, and it can't be a problem for love.

I am different, and I do not want my stepfather made me so, like many Muslim women. But many people do not understand me about it here. I did not want to live with a man whom I do not love. Do you agree with me ?
What to live with someone you do not give your heart - it's awful! I read a lot of books, and I imagine the love differently. And not as a sale or a preliminary agreement!
Love is when you know it without words. You wake up before it to make a delicious dinner, you want to always have a concern about it. And looking at him saying how much you care about it, and how much you love him.
Of course there are quarrels, but so will the world. We will learn more and more about each other. And most importantly, a man whom I will love, will have not only my body. He will have my heart and my soul.
And I will be faithful to him until the end of my days.
This is Love! This feeling! But no the fact that in 14 years old you can be given to the man that you do not know at all. And even if he is young, it will be even worse.
Young people want just one. And they do not know the words such as honor, loyalty, and love. True love. An old man who is experienced, knows the value of every moment of life, a man will always be with you.
And do not betray you! And that's why I do not worry about the age difference. The main thing that a man has opened his heart to me if I open mine.
And it will be understood that first and foremost I am a girl who is not afraid of work and problems, but is afraid to be alone the rest of my days!

I have nothing more to talk about my family. Forgive me, my life is gray, without bright color. And now, I took one step, a step that would give me learn a lot. to be friends with you.
And who knows what will be next ... On this issue, I'm afraid that I have no answer.

Oh, I forgot to tell you the schedule of Internet cafes.
It is open from Monday to Saturday. From 8 am to 21 pm. And on Sunday, I can not come and write you a letter.
I'm so glad that I have the opportunity to write letters, which you do not have to wait many weeks or month, but immediately by e-mail.
Now I think that I will finish my letter. And again, I will put it in my photo! I hope that you will really like it. And I hope you're just going to send me your photo.
But I remind you that I could receive them, and see, I ask you not to send their large size pictures, otherwise I can not receive and open them.
Have a nice day.
Dila.

Letter 4

Thank you, you answered me Jay. Yes, here it is and I can see it. I read it and think this is really very interesting. And of course I think that you maybe still do not believe in all this.

I myself have not fully believe yet! And still very afraid that this could be a joke. For me it's the first time, to communicate by such way. By e-mail, by letters. Maybe this is a dream?
No, pinching myself, I was hurt, so I do not sleep! And you ? (smile).
You know, I read a lot of books, and I personally believe that the thoughts expressed in the letter is much easier and better. Also, you can open up, to show your identity. Show who you are!
I do not know whether you agree with me or not?! You can say, but to express emotions, words can not convey! And in letters everything is possible.

But back to our fellowship. I as you also have a lot of questions, I'm curious to know more, and if you're interested ... to communicate with me, continue to write me, and to learn something new, share ideas, be friends, I will be happy that we will communicate.
Everyday ! Of course except Sunday (smile). I told you that in a Sunday, I can not write you and see your letters. Since the Internet cafes closed, but I think that one day, that does not change too much.

You know, this reading the letters and writing the answers it's like to read a book every day, page by page. And when you do not know what will happen next, you really want to know the continuation more and more.
You know the feeling when it's late in the evening, you are reading, you realize that it is already time to sleep, but you can not stop reading, because you want to know what will happen next, what will happen on the next page.
So what we have now, I think it' really like the book. I will read you, and you me! Maybe a strange comparison? But what do you expect from a girl whose best friends - are book's (smile)?

You know about me, about my past, my family why I left them, and also you know about some of my hobbies. But this is only a small fraction of 1 page. And if you are ready to continue, then we start?

As cellular communication. I have a usual cell phone, it's old type phone, not a smartphone. And it's work only inside of my country. It doesn't accept incoming calls from abroad.
But we have the ability to call from the post office. And I can make calls to other countries ?! I do not know, and yet I see no reason to know.
Because all about what we can talk, we can be friends by e-mail and write all this in letters. Is not it ?! But later, after I know you better, we can discuss it again.

How many people wrote letters in earlier ages, was waiting for a response for several months. Letters that can express all anxiety, joy, expectation, happiness, pain.
Probably worth the time to return, but it is not necessary to wait for several months, it is necessary to wait 1 day. And guess what will be the answer! I think it's fascinating! And it attracts. And what do you think ?

Now, in many part of life joined the technology, and it makes life easier. So many people think, and does not deprive the technologies of this life?
No, that feeling of what it was before, when you know a little something, and it seemed that not all was so bad. Now, one has only to turn on the TV, to see what you do not want to see. War, suffering, religious clashes.
And then ask yourself why some people hate others? just because they have a different religion. The answer lies in the fact that all are trying to say that one nation is bad and the other is good. And it makes life easier? No, it is even worse to live.

And that's why I do not like to watch TV, I like to read, listen to music, and I love to look at nature, untouched nature. And I hope that this "old", "primitive", and all the forgotten letters will be interesting for us, and lead to a good friendship.

Who am I ? I am a simple girl. I do not smoke, do not like alcohol. A lot of reading, and well studied in the past. And now I work. While studying really wanted to learn a foreign language.
First, I think about the French, but still, my teacher insisted that I chose English. And I do not regret this choice. I admit, my English is not so bad.
Even at the university lecturer told me that I speak well and understand, but is very difficult to read and write. I hope later I will start to teach some other language.

What else to tell about myself ?!

I am simple. But not all. I'm looking for my life, my happiness, for which I am ready to fight. And do silly things. As I have already said that any nonsense, any act can lead you to various results.
And if you live as they require from you, then you do not live and just exist !!! Do you agree with me ?

My height is 165 cm, weight about 54 kilograms. My face is always smile, because it warms me smile.

I told you already about my work. So I really like to help people. I feel some good after it and that's why I chose this profession and work in hospital.

What else can I say about myself. Religion....
My religion is Islam. I know you've heard about it. And I know that maybe whole world thinks that we are all bad, terrorists, and even many people don't like us. But it is not so.
In every religion there are bad people, there are those who can do evil, and there are those who can do good. For me, religion is very important. It lives in us, in our hearts.
And no matter you are reading the Bible, or the Koran. The main thing that you are a good person. That you understood the value of life. And glad by that you have.
So I think, but how do you think?

And further. Age. I young by heart, but not by years. I am 30 years old, and it enough I think. But the years are not important! And you must agree with me.
What is more important is how you feel inside your soul. If in your heart is a fire, you want to live, want to take the world in your hands, it does not matter how old you are 20 or 30, or 60, and maybe more.
The main thing is that you are young by heart and soul. And willing to be who you are ...

In the end, I want you to realize once again that this is not a game. I open my world to you, and would like to gain an understanding of you.
I'm not asking you to write as much as I do, but I'm asking you if you are really ready to get to know me, ready to be friends, to try to be friends. Be open for me.

You should not play with me, do not expect from me of something .... Come on. If you dream to see me get naked or mock me, laugh, and just to hurt me then it is not necessary.
Life has hurt me already several times. I try to remember it every day, betrayal of my father, stepfather education, and life in solitude. And that you just uncover my wound healed. Think before you answer.

At this point I will finish my letter. And I will wait for a response.
Have a nice day.
Dila.

Letter 5

How nice to come back to internet cafe, and the most important thing is to know that I expect a letter. A letter from you Jay! It is very nice.
In my last letter I told you about my family. And also why I'm alone now.
Sometimes I think that maybe I was wrong, and that may be my life would be much better if I follow all traditions of my country?
If I would live as others people told me to live? But I think it is not a real life. And I could not accept this way.
I breathe, I see, I hear, I live, I'm not like the beast that carry the team, I want to choose my own life, to make mistakes and learn from it something.
And I would not blame anyone for some results, because I did it, and it was only my decision.

Today I will be nurse (smile). My friend asked me to sit with her daughter. She upbringing her alone, since her husband died, he had a car accident.
And with them (friend and her daughter), I celebrated this new year.
It was fun, we painted, read books (her daughter), and then took to the streets, many people used the fireworks, and we looked at the starry sky, and saw in it the beautiful effects.
I can not say that it was just great, and as they show on TV, but still, it's better than nothing. I'm sorry, I left a bit of my story.
I understand that already enough time spent after this holiday, but memories about it still bright and live in my memory.

The husband of my friend died. She loved him, but fate was cruel to her. And in the tradition of my country, she can not marry again.
Only if a brother of her ex-husband, but he had no brothers. He was the only one son. And his parents were killed in 1992, when it was a terrorist attack in Baku in metro.
And now she has to bring up her daughter alone.
she told me a lot about her husband, he was a good man, he also loved her. And she said, as if their life was like a fairy tale of the most beautiful stories.
He was older than her 28 years. But my friend was lucky, they lived together with love! And she told me that it was the happiest time for her.
He gave her gifts, helped with some things in the house, and told her about some difficulties or problem. That rarely happens in modern world.
Men, you are always trying to keep it a secret inside your self, and do not like to share problems and think that only you can solve them all.
But sometimes the advice of a friend, an acquaintance or a close person can help you. And to solve all the problems.
It is a pity that such as her husband .... very few of them, and even more sorry that he left so early, and left them .... But all is the will of heaven.

And since that times she does not have the help and support from anyone, she often ask me to sit with her daughter, when she can not. And I always try to help her, and I enjoy it. I like kids.
And I'm sure I can be a good mother if I have the child one day. But all this will not depend only on me, but on the man who will be next to me. If he want it, then I agree, and I will give him a child.
But if not, I humbly agree with this. True, I believe that children are the most valuable it is, and give life to another child is doing a great person!

I want to tell you more about my friend and her daughter. Mia and Guli. Mia is a very beautiful name for a girl. Do you agree ?
And it was very difficult when she lost her father, and I try to help her understand that life is a lot of good and bad, but always have to believe only in the fact that everything will be fine!
When we sit together we draw, sing, play games. And I tell her stories. She is very curious. And because I read a lot, sometimes I myself come up with different stories.
I used when it is already established characters from other books. And I think we will spend a good time with Mia.
Have you ever been an nurse? How do you spend time with kids? And do you love them much?

Yes, I forgot. Yesterday I cooked pies. I can not go to visit my friend without a gift! And yesterday, when I was preparing dinner, I could cook a small pies.
I think I told you earlier that I love to cook. And a lot of experimenting with it. One day maybe I can cook you some delicious. And you can tell me you liked it or not?
Also, you should understand that sometimes I have small problems with the translation and reading your letters. And I may lose some of your questions that were important to you.
And for this, I ask you not to take offense at me. And write questions in this order again....
1) .....
2) .....
3) .....
And I can see everything I missed your question and I will answer it.
Now, you probably want to know more about me, my home address, my part of life!
All this I do not hide, but I believe it is too early for some things. And because now I live in an apartment rented. And just I can not say whether I will live in it soon, here or not.
But as soon as I know for sure, I'll give you my address. I do not want to deceive you, do not want to tell a lie, and I do not want you to think badly of me. I do not want and can not hurt you.
And further. Look, I was raised in a way that I observe the laws, to listen to men. And most importantly, never cheat. To tell the truth is easier than to deceive!
And because sooner or later, the lies will be revealed, and that I can inflict very severe pain that is difficult to heal!

I'm sending you photo from the new year and my pies, hope you will like it.

All right, now I'll be back to finish my letter, and I will go to visit my friend to sit with her daughter Mia.
I hope that soon I will see your letter, and to see the new images. And further! Since I can not call you, and I do not have a phone, I try to find a way to call you later.
And I think that in a couple of weeks I will be able to call you. And maybe sooner (smile).
Bye.
Dila.

Letter 6

One more new wonderful day Jay! That day when I went to my friend and her child, I had a fun day and evening (smile). Mia was active as always.
We played without a break, drawing, and spent a good time! She was very curious and kept asking me how my day passed? And what I have a new in my life?
I said that my life is almost the same as before. I have a lot of work and a lot of people, who come to the hospital and ask me to help them and their children.
I personally watch over Mia's health, for her I like her aunt, friend, and of course she thinks that I'm her older sister.
She tells me a lot as it is difficult after she lost her father, and that she is still waiting for him, but realizes that he will not come ever..
Very sad to see her eyes, hear these words, but I do not how I can help her, except that I'm there, and always try to listen to her. It is not very easy, and I understand it like nobody else.
I always tell her that after a walk, she should wash hands, wear warmer when it's a strong wind. And anyway, that she need cares about herself and her health.
I say it as a nanny and her friend (smile), she always nodding her head, and understand what I say.

Yesterday Mia said that, her mother told her, that I often go to the Internet cafe, and talk to some man (with you). And Mia asked, me why you and I not together?
Here I had time to explain that you are not in our city, and even live in another country. And then I also need someone to share my life, and learn something new.
She had offended a lot at first, and she thought that I changed her for you (smile), but I was able to explain her that she still small, and some things worth talking about,
and discussed only with those who are older and more mature.
And I promised her, that when she grows up, I'll be with her just to chat and share as you are now. Yes, a little difficult to explain to children what is for us easy to understand.
She's were asking about you. She asked who you are, where and how we found each other? I was not hiding and told her, of course by more understandable words that a child could understand.

I told her all the things that I think of you. The truth is that I do not much know about you. But every day, you and I know each other more better.
And on this, I told her just what you're smart, good, beautiful, cheerful and interesting man. We talked for a long time. And I did not notice how time has come to her bed.
We went to the bathroom, she washed her face, and went to her room. I told her favorite fairy tale "Beauty and the Beast." And she fell asleep fast.
Meanwhile, I went into another room and read a book, waiting for my friend.

When she came home after work, we sat in the kitchen, drank tea, and agreed to meet today. To do some walk, talk, and drink coffee.
And today, as soon as I finish work, I will meet again with my friend and her daughter. I think that today it is a good day again. And I have a good time.
It's nice when I'm not alone, and that I can forget for a while about my loneliness, and spend good time.
How do you usually spent your free time? What's new do you have in your life?

You know, I did not tell you that sometimes I write poetry! I think this is also one of my hobbies. And I would like to dedicate to you one verse.
I can not be sure that you understand it correctly, as the translate can be no rhyme. But words must let you know my thoughts.

A lone, beautiful bird was in a cage.
In the sun shine, I watched, and could not fly away.
No man could understand me before.
And all the loneliness that is in my heart.
This bird wants to find a friend, someone who will be there.
who not betray, do not cheat and do not hurt ever.
A friend who will be next to me forever.
A friend, who is so far away now... yet.

I hope you like it. I'm not a writer, as I said, it's my passion, hobby.
I want to have a friend like you. I'm really interesting with you, I have a point of living. Perhaps you will not believe, but I really like to get a letters from you.
It's like I living in another world. World I own ranks. And in this world is you. I do not want to run forward too fast, I'm not guessing and not want to make early conclusions.
But you're really good man. I like you, I have not yet met such man as you are.
I am pleased to understand that we have a friendship ... And I'll appreciate it.

All right, now I finish my letter again. In my next letter I will tell you more about myself. And maybe I'll tell you a secret, that I had no one to share with.
Sometimes it is easier to write a letter, that to say. Huge you.
Dila.

Letter 7

Perhaps this will be the biggest of my all my previous letters, I ever wrote you James! But I think that after it, I be able to open myself more to you, my hobbies, and my life. It had to happen one day, these questions and answers, we both want to know it. And of course that's not all, there are many more other questions. But for them necessary more time, and if I ask all at once, so there will be no any interest longer! Questions and Answers that will be in letter. And now you probably know some of the facts of my life in which for you it will be maybe hard to believe, and more importantly, I would like you to be treated with respect and understanding to all this. And the most important thing it is my religion!

I am a Muslim but I did not choose it myself, and it's not my choice, but my parents. And sometimes it's difficult to live with it, when the whole world considers that all Muslims are bad people. But it is not so. There are bad people and good, the Crusaders fought and killed shouting the name of Jesus but no one remembers it, and also not understood what they were doing ..... But all say that only Muslims are bad.
Refusing to religion?! Change it!? I have not thought about it, but without religion, I can not live, without faith. When I find it difficult, I appeal to God, I believe that He exist, and that He protect us. And as I said, I respect and appreciate other opinions, and do not judge them or tell them how it's right or not. Everyone believe in what he wants to believe. It does not matter a Catholic or Buddhist, or Muslim. The main thing a person himself, what he is as a person, and what actions and things he or she does.
I do not go to the mosque, I pray at home. And do it is rare, not as most of Muslims. But still, it's a part of me and my life. And I want my friends and close people took it, and did not push me away just because of what I believe in! What do you think about it, that I am a Muslim and what I wrote you here? I hope that you understand, that not all people are bad in my religion! I remember that I have already asked you this, but I want to be sure that it will not be a barrier for our communication or possible relations!
And if you compare me to others, I think, I'm more developed, and does not try to follow the old traditions.
I do not wear clothes from head to toe, you can see it in the photos. I try to be more modern, and to be the same as many of other girls. Yes there is, I have something that I was taught from childhood to respect the family, appreciate, listen to man, and to know that the head of the family should be a man and in relationships also. But we can discuss religion forever, and I think it is not necessary to say more about it. And I hope you understand that I'm different and you'll have a good opinion of me (smile).

I've already talked about meeting with my friend! During the meeting, we also talked about you. Yes, she asked me about you, I said, and you know, I understand that you are my friend, and a friend who communicates with me, and you know enough about me. Let's say so that she has advised me to tell you a little bit more, then you already knew ..... well you understand it yourself, when you read my questions and see my answers.

That's not all, but still a drop of what I want to know!
I ask you, and I will answer.

1) What's your favorite color? My favorite blue and green.
2) What for you it was the most insane thing in your life before? For me it was to write a first letter to you for the first time, when you was not yet familiar person for me.
3) Do you believe in miracles? (I understand, probably it's a stupid question, but I would like to know.) I believe and hope that someday in my life a miracle will happened.
4) Do you like more the sun or the rain? I love the rain, probably because it is rare in my country, and when there is heavy rain, the streets empty, and there's no people, I have a feeling that I'm alone in the world.
5) What do you value the friendship and relationship? I put loyalty and trust in the first place. Without this we can not be together, and even friends. Do you agree with me ?
6) How much do you travel? I am not at all only my country where I was born, and the country where I live now, and grew. And that is why I am very interested to know how it's in the country? And now, mastering the Internet, I can see the pictures that I take your breath away. Often it rain? How often have snow? We do this almost never happens. And for me it is an exotic (smile)
7) Can you hit a girl !? And in what cases? I can not hit anybody, probably because I have not fought ever (Smile), but if I have someone to attack me, I can scream so loud that it scared and run away (smile).
8) Do you drive car? I'm not and don't have drive license, but sometimes I want to try it, go quickly by road to face the wind was blowing, and the front be a good, clean way (smile). I guess I'm very much looking movies (smile).
9) Did you see the sea? I saw it a few times, and even bathing. For you perhaps it sounds like the words of a child, but I do not travel a lot, and well, that in my country there is. And it's beautiful, especially the sound of the waves beating on the shore.
10) Your hobbies and interests that you most like? I've already said that I like to read, listen to music, but I also like to run through the parks, I like sports, I like to live. And smiling all the troubles is a hobby? (smile).
11)What was the worst moment of your life? I guess the fact that my parents divorced. And the loss of people close to me, grandparents, friends.
12) Do you dream of living in another place? And where ? I wanted to, but I want to live where is sun, there is a forest, there are good people, who see you smile and response to you either.
13) Do you like animals? I love and I even had a cat, but its time has come, and after I have someone does not start, the more the mistress of the room that I rented, she is against animals.
14) As you know I work as a doctor, and I love children! Do you love them? And that means to you children?
15) I'm not talking, not saying that tomorrow, I'll just talk, would you like to meet one day? I think that, yes, it would be cool. But I do not want it to be soon. I want to know you better first! And you ?

And now the questions that I very much would like to know the answers. And just to answer.

1) What do you expect from our communication?
Personally, I hope to get a friendship, at least. At least this, because as I said, I do not think I'll find someone who will need me as much as the air. No, I'm not saying that it's not you. Just, you ... you're too good for me. Yes, and we are far away, and that is important, I do not want to rush its findings. I want to share with you my life.

2) I do not know how to find the words that I could express to you ....... I hope that you will understand and accept this right. And most importantly you will not laugh, because I'm sure for you it will sound strange, and not very real in our time, especially in your country. But! Understand, I am innocent! Yes, I'm virgin, and I did not have intimacy with a man before. I kissed, but no more than it. Why ? I do not know, maybe because I did not feel that I want to open up completely and in my religion girls do it only after marriage. And on this, I want you to know! And how do you feel about it?

You know, I'm glad that we started first to write letters, because at any moment I stop to think about everything and write you. Write more correctly, and most importantly to share all my thoughts. Feelings are that in me now. And it can transfer only a letter. Words can say a lot. But those words can be very little use. They can be as wind. Fly and imposing only dust. A letter they were before in ancient ages, they are now, and I think for a long time, they will be in demand in our lives. No matter what science, electronics stepped very far.

You know dear !? Do you mind that I call you "dear"? Dear friend! Just one that sounds like something "just" a dear friend, is someone who is interesting. that is, you (smile). I began to smile a lot lately. As if I had found my personal psychologist. Please, do not misunderstand me, I say that, because I have very few people with whom I can share my lives.
Even sometimes I think I'm more talking than you (smile). Forgive me, but for all time, I have accumulated a lot feelings and thoughts. And I just had no one to discuss it. My friend with her .... I said the same, but it is not why it seems to me that she have so many her own problems, and all I said to her, sometimes she just does not listen to me. But I do not mind, I understand it. And I wanted for a long time to find a man who would be with me. What I said, understood and listened to.
For example you, but you're a friend, and you're far away.

Time will show and the time that we will give us a lot to understand. And just as your answers.
Maybe one day we can meet in real life. But not now (smile).
This concludes my long letter again, and I'll wait for your answer. (smile) I'll try to write much less at other times. But it is very hard (smile)
See you. Dear friend.
Dila.

Letter 8

Why all my thoughts only about you James? Why would I want to see your letter so much and so often? Why would I want to be with you and talk? These questions are in my head already for several days. Yes, I will not hide it, I think of you. And I think myself that I do it more than it's necessary. And I'm scared! As if I'm getting used to you. And I believe that for friends it is bad. I'm not absolute sure friendship it's or something more between us. And what do you think ?
No, I'm not afraid of you. But I'm afraid to get attached to you. Get used to your words, which, oddly enough cause my emotions. I'm afraid that I'll want something more! More than just our communication. But due to the fact that we are different, I think that you will not want to change your life. More precisely to do something crazy. That's what I'm afraid.
Fear, that I will be betrayed or hurt and cause so will get much pain that I do not want to at least someone felt it, felt that I had something, even my enemy.
And I try by all means to find answers to my questions, and most importantly do not ..... Do not fall in love with your letters, with your image I have in my head. I am sure that you laugh when you read it, but in vain. Word is much more hugs and kisses. Words can express affection, love, pain, suffering and joy. Word - a powerful "weapon" and a beautiful "bouquet of flowers". As if I fall in love with the main character of the book, which I read every day. And it is ridiculous of course, but it is a fact.
Betrayal in my life was, and I thought of it and do not really like to remember and speak. Because by remembering the past, we begin to live in the past again. And I do not want that.
My father left our family, betrayed me. And I though he was not next to us, I have forgiven him. But still, I believe that he betrayed, and it was very painful.
I have no family, no man, nothing. And probably if I think about it much, then on my face already no longer smile. My whole world, my whole life would collapse. And all because I will be living in the past.
Believe me, I try to forget a lot of that was and to start from the beginning. But it is not so simple. And a decent man is not so easy to find.
Did you hear what happened in Berlin and other European countries! What do Arab men did? Do you think they are calm here?
No! Well, I live in a small town, here everyone knows each other and do not let this happen. But believe me, man, a lot of men in my country think only about sex, not educated, do not appreciate or anything other than your friends, yourself, and money. And did not notice that I will look good for him, he will always think that I'm doing it for someone else. Not to say thank you for a delicious dinner. And do not do what I want. Watch the movie, or spend time on a walk. And on this, I'm still alone, and the fact that I did not have intimacy with that, you understand everything.
I think that being with a person, whom you love, that you are ready to give all of myself, my heart, my life, and give the value that you took care of this one. And just to sleep .... I think it's stupid.
And on this, and I probably have another! In my life there is no this "dirt" which now is in the world. And on this, I am open, trusting, and I ask you not to use it, and to respect and appreciate it!
When I recovered, after all, I began to notice that my life is on the plot of the movie "Groundhog Day." And believe me, when every day is similar to the last, and the last one on, I realized that I never will break away from this "world". One and the same person, people, and the same fear .... When someone shows me sympathy, I was afraid and repelled each one. And the more I did not like when somebody was trying to "buy" me, if I'm toy thing. When shown a beautiful car, and said that they have big houses. They tried to give a big bouquet of flowers. But they did not understand that I do not look at this world greedy eyes. Money does not warm up, if they do not burn. Metal will not give you of heat, which will close to you. A pearl and diamonds are not take away the tears in your eyes when you're hurt.
For many years, I realized one thing. What in this life, at this time it is necessary to appreciate the loyalty, devotion, love, and care. The money is paper, gold is metal. And the warmth of the soul, warm heart, the heart that you love, it does not have a price. Do not have weight. It is priceless.
And that's when I thought that my life has not changed when I decided to do an act which is now completely changes my opinion. Yes, I write you, and began to notice that I want to talk to you, write you, and may be become near. Not now, not tomorrow, when be the right time. Sit and discuss all ..... just talk or listen to music, look at this world as well as you, and understand that life does not stand on the same place. And what is more happiness .... And now, you're my happiness.
Your letters, your words.
And now I'm afraid to fall in love with you. Because I don't know you very well, and not sure that you're the person who wrote me letters, and that in real life is not different. I'm afraid that if I get used to you and fall in love (perhaps), then you can not believe it, and push me. Open with the old wounds. And then, I would feel again what I wanted so much to forget and what I had almost forgotten.
Sorry, you're probably confused now, but I want to say only one thing. I will by all means try not to destroy our communication with you, and do not go beyond what is permitted to friends. I also understand that we are different people from different countries, and it is very difficult to love a girl such as I'm with so big distance.
At this point I probably will finish my letter, and I'm sorry that wrote that. I do not share with anyone, you know that.
And you are the one who knows perhaps almost everything about me.
And I ask you, how do I do? Should I put a ban? And how would you do on my place? And could you see me next to you? Please help me to find answers to these questions. If you will not be difficult to help a friend (smile).
I'm waiting for your letters with impatience.
Friendly kiss.
Dila.

Letter 9

Have you ever noticed that when you have a lot of questions, and you're trying to find answers, time go very slowly James? I noticed it. Last night was one of such moment. When I tried to find answers to questions, and it seemed that it spent whole eternity.
I thought a lot, could not sleep, and I was trying to understand .... understand myself first of all! At first I tried to sleep, but I realized that I can't do it, I decided to spend the night with profit. Made a tea, I sat down by the window and looked at the sky and was thinking. First, about you, about why I can not leave you out of my mind? And if I try something to imagine, I see you. This is strange. Personally, I think so.
You just such a good, kind, understanding. And even the feeling that you're just not real! It seems to me that these man do not exist, you're so perfect. And it scares me. Scary, what if I continue to know you better, then I maybe I would know something bad about you. There are no perfect people, and everybody has a strangeness. And what a strange thing of you?
And then I just froze .....
How long tine ago have you lifted your eyes to the sky at night? How long time ago have you admiring its beauty, infinity?
I looked and I thought that maybe on the other side of the planet, right now you stand and look the same in the sky, and think of me (smile). Sorry, this is absurd. I understand that I impose on you the extra problems that they do not have any concern you. We are never meet, we do to each other almost nothing. And maybe not even see in future each other. Why create these difficulties? Why live by this illusions and dreams? I am sure that you yourself are not ready for that !? Not ready to change my life, because I know that you are satisfied! And I, this one far away, in another country (smile).
But you probably still wondering what I got, what I was thinking about all this, what conclusions did, and what I wanted!? To begin with, I want only one thing. Happiness. Happiness about which I red in books and saw in the movies. Fortunately, it is understood that in this world I do not just exist but live, breathe, and enjoy life.
And the most important thing .... I do not have a precise answer. (Smiling) And now I just ask you, and answer myself, as I did it in one of my previous letters where I asked you some questions.
1) Am I willing to try to be more than just friends? Honestly, I do not know, but most part of me says it's worth the risk, is to do it, because I live once in this world, we both live once, and what will happen if we just try to be together? And I wanted to live my life with those who loves me, values, and give him all of myself in return, my feelings, and my life. It does not matter that we have differences, countries, languages and age. I never think that it can be a hindrance. My mother is from the same country, my dad from another. My dad was older than my mother for 10 years, and it did not prevent them to be together. Be happy. Let it was not for a long time, though not until the end of his days. But when I visited my mother and together we watched old photos, she always smiled and held her hand over Dad's face in the photo. And I knew that her love for him till the end ...
I thought that my hasty conclusions, and that we need more time. To know each other and communicate! But time does not stand on one place. And every minute may be the last. And this last minute, I want to spend next to my beloved man. Last minute, to be happy. No one knows when that moment will be, and many feel that their time has not come yet, but many are wrong. And that moment, only one moment, and everything finished, no past, no present and no future. And what think those people who are always afraid to live. They were afraid to make ourselves happy?
What do we lose? What do we get? What do we do wrong? We obtain the moments in which we can be happy, and perhaps for the rest of life to be like that! We did not lose that, only just acquired. Only bad do those who once dreamed to see us in tears, but it will be seen together, will see our happiness and to realize that his intent was unsuccessful. That's all just in words, but it is difficult to understand all this and decide to solve .... you and me.
And I understand that to lose time, it lose the opportunity to live, to be happy, to be loved. Now this mistake I will not repeat it. Now, I appreciate even seconds. And if I'm happy, I'll be ready to take my departure to another world, knowing that every moment I lived and enjoyed this time. I am enjoying the life that I have lived side by side with the person who gave me this happy time.
I can learn you long, day after day, week after week, and every day I would be not enough. And I hope that you are, you also have not enough of our communication. And because of this we can lose this moment, a moment in which we can be happy. We are talking about. The moment that will change our lives in a good way! Read each other like books, looking at each other in the eye, talk to each other, and enjoy it.
I know what kind of person you are, how you're a man, and that's enough for me to have warm feelings for you. Yes, we know no enough, but what if we had studied each other for years? What does it lead to? That will give us many letters? Only dreams, thoughts and desires that we are unlikely to become a reality. Because we love the words that we write letters, and dreams that are built into them. And the reality disappear.
We are already not young, as it was before. And if we had those extra years (smile), perhaps we could easily spend them in a void. But I want to waste my and your time for more, spend it on the moments worth living, to build a dream. And even know, let not as good as you wanted, but this life is much better the old, old loneliness! Fear and pain. Gray world, and eternal monotony.
We are not children, to hide our feelings, and hope that you will be able to understand them in my hints. I can understand yours. To speak openly, to write, that's what they do. Letters that can all change today, our world, our life. It is necessary to decide for yourself whether we are ready to do this? Change it! Now! No, not right now (smile), but try to do it.
I watched a wonderful movie created on a real basis. This is called "untouchables (1 + 1)." This is the story of an aristocrat with disabilities and about his friend who helped him. Good movie, good storey and sometimes funny. And in this film (if you watched it), there is a moment when the main character wrote letters to a girl he never see, and only had a photo. And then he saw the photo, after months of communication. He loved her, they wrote like us, week after week. And I am confident that the girl loved him for his words and for his understanding. For the fact that he, as no one listened, valued and respected. Their letters were on paper, and they had to wait several weeks to get a response. And we can get it instantly! And this time, waiting, we're not spending it! Do not waste time!
It was, in reality, they have created a family, they have children. And before the meeting they were losing time, they wrote, and wrote, and wrote, and only his friend Driss (the name of the movie) helped him. He made this meeting a real, when Philip (the main character, a disabled aristocrat), very afraid of this.
But things have changed, they became happy!
And I do not want to lose this precious time. Indeed, in the world there is no more valuable then time. Especially the time we have lost, and never will be able to return. Because you can have it all.
And I realized that your letters enough for me to introduce you to what you are. Who you are! And I realized that you had a problem like me (we both know it), we do not want to be alone. Loneliness, it is very painful, cold and sad. And why we're not try ourselves in the role of people who are together? And become more than just friends! Dream and try to fulfill all your dreams come true. Maybe try to create a family !? To have children ?! Meet! And touch each other!
I ask you, you think. My word, it's just - my words. Your decision as to have a big role for me. And what do you say, what you are ready, you have to understand! And it is good to think about.
I understand you have a question why it's you? Why is no one else?
My answer - why not you? Why do you think that you can not be with me? Or try to be together?
Sometimes people only look at the appearance, and I look at the soul. And many times, I just do not want to see, because it does not change a man, his soul, his character. And if a person is good, he will be the same no matter how much time and years pass.
I want you to know one thing. I'm ready to open my heart to you. Open my soul, and trust you. Are you ready for this?
I know the "weight" of my words, they are not just wind. And if I now want to be with you, it will not change tomorrow or next week or whenever. Of course, if you do not do this for me to hate you! And for that, you ought to no more. Betrayal. Offense. I will not tolerate this any where!
If I give my heart to you, then I will give you my life. And I'll trust you completely. Your words, your promises. And I believe everything that you're going to talk to me.
And in return, you receive my love, my warmth, loyalty, and above all my trust.
I ask you, you think, are you ready? Ready to go till the end? Change your world, your life, your future? And most importantly .. are you ready to take my heart ?! And spend your time with me ?!
Now I'll wait for your letter with trembling.
I want to write "love" you, but do not want to ... I do not want to say it now, without knowing whether these mutual feelings?! Sincere? Or is it just my imagination, fairy tale, where I live now? I don't know.
I know only one thing, that if you are sincere to me, and I sincerely to you.
Your Dila.

Letter 10

Again, I did not sleep well last night James. Sleeping well, I think I'm starting to forget how it should be (smile). Because lately I have so many questions in my head and so few answers on it, sometimes I do not even sleep for a long time(smile).
Still, I find the strength to force myself and to sleep. If not sleeping, you probably would have gone crazy (smile). .....
Although it seems that this has already happened to me. It depends on your letters, by your words and live the dream is this normal?
Today at work I wanted to sleep, but a cup of tea saved me. All the time I was watching the children, I realized how lucky they are. They have no problems, no sorrow, only a smile and joy, which raise my spirit also, but also to everybody who see it. And now, after work, I enjoy the fact that really brings me joy, sincere smile. This is your message (smile).
Thoughts of you do not leave me already for a few days. And still it is difficult to decide on the words that you probably would like to listen to. But understand, these words is like an oath, and if you tell it, you shall observe it to the end.
And to understand all the "weight" of these words. Many people may say, many can listen to. But only a few people understand the whole point of this. Of these words.
For some, it is folly for whom it is a big step.
Yes, I repeat, I like you, you're smart, intelligent man. Which is just like an arrow pierced my heart, and the fragments captured my mind (smile). And it is difficult to be measured from the fact that all this is real, it's happening to me, and it's not just a movie or a dream! And now, pinching myself, I realized that I do not sleep and what it all really! And we can safely delete the assumption that this is all a dream (smile).
You know James, I thought, why in the world there are difficulties? A simple example. All those around me were either very stupid or they wanted only one thing from me, I think you know what I mean! And that's when I found quite by chance, I met you, I knew you, the one with whom I want to be, want to love. But you're not here. And it just makes me angry at fate, and to think that it is always playing with us. Why could not it do so that we were close !? Why is everything so difficult?
On these question, I think that I never find the answer.
You know what I want?
I want to come home, and know that this evening I'm not alone for dinner!
When I walk and I will be cold, I'll know that I will be embraced, will warm!
When I go to sleep, I will not freeze. I will hug and I will every night to feel the kiss on my face, and wish sweet dreams.
When I'm cooking dinner, lunch or breakfast, I'll know that my food, all I have to cook one for whom I do it all. And invest not only spices but also of his love of the soul.
And every day, every moment I will live and know that I am not alone. It is what I mean to live by full life, not just to exist as it did a few years before.
For somebody the value are papers, gold and jewelry. And for me the value, it is warm, caring and love. The love that I'm ready to share, and is ready to live side by side and in sorrow and in joy to those who will look at me and say to himself that he was the happiest in the world. And for that I will do everything in my power. Every day every night.
And if someone asks me what to appreciate in this life now? What I say most loyalty, love, family, and time! Yes, time.
We are looking for the whole life than the income, and do not notice the beauty around us, we do not notice the warmth of loved ones, and their time is running out. And you can not get it back. And wasting time, we lose the opportunity to be happy.
Do you want to lose this time? Me not!
You want to be happy? I yes!
Do you want to be with me ? I wanna be with you.
What would not have thought that would not talk, but now I'm with you. We are together, it is my personal opinion. And I want you to take it.
Do I have you. But now, we are.
We - as it sounds. 2 letters 2 Heart 2 life. It turned into one word, one life, one love .........
And yes, yesterday I hesitated, but not now. I love you! And let it be what will happen. If I lose everything, it means that it should be so. And if I right, I'll have something that I waited so long. Love, pure and sincere.
And on this I end my letter, and I'll wait for your answer. Again, I will wait for another letter, which warms my heart. And that gives me a sincere smile on my face. This is happiness.
Dila.

Letter 11

I have been thinking from what words to begin this my letter with James? And decided that the will be good to start with words of my famous song (which I really like).
Listen to your heart © Roxette! And what is it tell you? What does it feel? Understand whether it is that now there are changes, and that it is no longer lonely as before? Do you understand now that your heart and mine beat in one rhythm? I very much hope that you yourself happy, and most importantly take all my words seriously and not as some sort of game. I'm no longer a little girl to play some games and joke with the feelings, mine and yours.
How are you, my friend!? No, I think now I can write another words, as I want to and because it tells me my feelings. How are you, my love ? I hope you are fine. And hope that you are very happy to see my letter again. Again, I want to get one step closer to each other. And perhaps one day be so close that the hand extended forward, we both will be able to touch each other. And there will be neither any barriers nor distance problems.
You'll look in my eyes, see in them the shine, and understand that it is a reality, I am near and we can begin to build a new real life together.
But it's time to "come down" from heaven, and return to reality. So far, only letters, while only dreams and desires. But you must agree that if we do not dream, then it means we have no goals! The goal to which we want to come to, and this goal will be our meeting. Let not today and not tomorrow, it will be. I want this. And you ?
You know James, for me still hard to believe that we are taking a step to something more serious, step that will change our lives! Life where there is no place for loneliness, betrayal, brutality and pain. But there is always a place for love, loyalty, smile and joy. The world that we construct ourselves, you and me. And in this world we can be very happy people who love each other.
Can you listen to your heart? I can. I hear it's knocking, and I understand what it wants! When I see your words, my heart beat faster, and the feeling that I feel is not just words. Joy, excitement, happiness, all in one. And this is have no explanation. I hope you understand.
Darling, you must understand, I'm ready right now for a lot. Perhaps the most insane to commit an act of my life! Although much crazier, fall in love with a man by letters. Thinking about you all the time and you have all place busy in my head. And for a moment cease to dream. And let someone tell you that it's not real. I will refute their words. Let someone will say that this can not be real! And I'll prove it otherwise.
Believe me, I'll try to tell to myself also that it's not real. But no, I'm here, you're there, and I feel you as if you are next to me! And it seemed to me that I never feel all this, but I feel it now. And I quietly. It's warm, and it's true. That's why, after all that I have experienced the feeling, I have come to one conclusion and decision. Yes, I love you, and I told you about it. If it may not be a true?
It can and it's true. It does not matter how we live, what we eat, what our age and what our religion. No, I think it's not as important as how we both look at this world, and what we really want. And we want to be happy and not be lonely!
And if you're willing to accept me, and to be open also for me, I'll be mutual. But if not, then we should not make further steps. Believe me I'm not a special. No, I'm quite a simple girl.
And I ask you only one thing. God gave me a good look, and many only look at it. But believe me, appearance is not so important, but important mind and soul. I open for you my soul. And you. I'm not a genius, but not stupid. And on this, I understand where the deception, and where is not.
Well, I ask you, are you ready to go forward and not look back? Do not look to the past, not to think about what happened when you just think about what will happen! Are you ready to take my heart and protect it till the end?
Forgive me for such loud words, but I want to be sure not to make mistakes that cause me nothing but pain. Believe me, I am very afraid to make a mistake.
I want to be sure that you do not betray me and not make hurt, you will not change me to another girl.
I want to be sure that you, in your male hands I'm not a toy, for which you use and throw. It is not the right thing. As trash. This is very painful. This is my fear, which now prevents me to be sure 100 percent. confident in you.
Honey, not so long ago I met one of my friend. Long time ago we went to school together, and now she lives in another city. And she came to my town to stay with relatives.I have not seen her for long time, and went to the cafe to talk to her. She questioned me about me, about my life and my person, a loved one. I did not hide, I told her about you, that you are from another country, and I like you madly.
You're cute, intelligent, kind and caring. Yes, we different from you, but we fit together. I think so. She listened to me, and said that in her city was very bad case, that even were shown on TV here, and there were no large rallies.
A girl from a wealthy family met with a man from another country. They also talked by letters every day, she had the opportunity, as her parents were provided with money, and she could write letters from home.
One day a man asked her to come to his country, somewhere in Europe, and if I'm not mistaken that somewhere in Italy.
She agreed without thinking. He sent her some papers, a letter of invitation to his country, he bought a plane ticket for her, and sent her all this by mail. And she went to him. And within 1 year after it of her nobody heard. Her parents looked for her everywhere, but never found, and only a miracle enabled her to come back, but she returned in a very terrible state.
The fact was that she came to the man, who was a sadist and a pervert. As she spoke, he first loved her, gave flowers, and courted. But once he was drinking with his friends, and she made a remark to him, it was too late and his friends should to go home. Then the man began to beat her, and when she did not resist, he abused her and raped her. He offered to do the same to his drunken friends. They took advantage of it.
When I listened to it on my face were tears, I was very sorry for this girl. And my friend continued ...
That man kept her in the cellar for several months, and every day he abused her, raped and humiliated. He could drink a few days, and did not feed her. For him, it was like a dog. And the girl had thought was going to die. And when he again drank with his friends, neighbors called the police because of the noise, and they rescued her when they heard the cry in the basement.
For a long time she was in the hospital, and that they did not know who she is and from which country. But that man at once went to jail, he hanged himself, made a suicide. He knew that he would be judged strictly, and that maybe her parents will want to avenge her.
And when she came to, she was told that she had passed through, and how to handle her man. She told where she lives and where, and it immediately brought back to our country. And I think that now she will not admit to herself or anyone, nor any man, because. that she would be afraid of. I know this because after the betrayal, I myself or someone did not want to admit to itself. But with this girl, I can not imagine ....
This story now is all the time in my head. And be sure interfere, confident in you. But I try to overcome my fear, and I say to myself that if I was destined to the same fate, I'm not as can not change it. And if I believe you, then it's my decision. And if it is my mistake, but I'll be to blame.
Still, I believe you said that you talk to me. Yes, it is talking about, because now reading your letter is your goal in my head, and I hear your words ....
And every word, I believe. And I'm sure that you never will cause me pain, suffering, and certainly the same fate that poor girl, I tell you.
It's true ?! I hope it's true that you never hurt me.
And I hope that you answer me. And I believe you said, because faith and trust, it is one of the most important to people.
And I finished this letter, the words that come from my heart.
I want to kiss you, but you do not next to me. But I send you with this letter, and I hope that as soon as you will read it, you feel it .....
Now I'll wait for a response from you.
Your Dila.

Letter 12

Hello my dear, dear James. I am very glad that once again I can see your letter, and believe me, today .... what we do with you today, what I was thinking lately about the next serious step, that actually will change our lives, change our view on this world. And I see that you are ready, and now I think we should speak about the date of our meeting! About the time when I be able to touch you, I will kiss you'll love. And I ask you just one thing, do not make me hurt.
And one more, very important. As you already know me, my words are not just a wind. I tell you all what I think of all that in my heart. I share this with you. And believe my words - this is not an empty phrase. If I tell you that I love you, I prove it. Show you first what you did for me is very important and necessary. And I feel bad that we now face a "wall" is the distance that is very difficult to break. But as I told you, together we can do it.
Break it, and will have no any barriers will no longer distances, but we must be ready for it, ready for the main solution ready for a changes in our lives.
No more lonely, no more need to sleep alone. We'll be together. I will be with you, you will be with me, and when we're together we have no one will be able to separate us. I will always fight for you, you're my air .... I live now, my world in which I can feel better. And the more, I already do not look in the past, now I only live for you, live in real. And I can not be anymore far apart from you, I want to take another step and I hope that you will go with me.
Do not be afraid, you will not doubt it. You'll believe just as I told you. Trust me, and I trust you. And so we show each other how strong are our feelings. And how we need each other.
I do not want to wait any longer, and I think that you want the same. Time that we lose, we could be spending with each other. In fact, as we dream. A walk in the park together, hiking in the cafe on the environment. New feelings that are very difficult to survive in the letters. For example kiss that I want so badly! Feel your warmth! Be with you, be yours. Make love. Believe me, I want this, I want to be given to you, to let you know how I need you, I love you and I want to be with you.
I thought a lot, and believe me, to decide on is not so easy. Meeting, it is very exciting, and I can say that it is just as scary. It is scare me that I may not justify your expectations, may be you will not like how I cook for dinner, or not like that I have no experience in bed. And how much I do not struggle, fear is always with me.
Even now, my dear, I'm sorry, but the story about a girl that I told you before, it's still scare me, I'm afraid, but I trust you. And I think I know you never will you do me a pain! Because I believe your words, I trust you. And I ask you the same thing, trust me. And we'll be together and happy. The main thing to believe and strive for. Do not be afraid of any problems, understand that this meeting will change our lives, and only together we will be happy.
What is the happiness?
I think happiness is when near to you, there are those, who love you and who is willing to love you in every difficult moment, and no matter what happened to you. Love and give warmth. To love and be loved. Love and appreciate this moment, a moment of true happiness.
And now, I'm very worried, but I can not wait any longer, I can not and do not want. It is difficult to lose precious time, that goes so fast, that I'm afraid to regret it, do not talk to you about this before.
I want to meet you soon, I want to see you, hug you, be with you, and give you my love. But for this you have to want it, to understand that you can not wait any longer. And we must be ready to take me to my love.
And yet, if we meet, I believe that it is better to do it in your country. It is much more convenient it will be for you and for me. I can see you, you can show me your country, and to acquaint with your loved ones. So it will be a lot easier for you. In my country, we will be much more difficult. I talk about the walks, we can not do much, even hold your hand, will not be able to kiss. And I will not be alone, because I will fear. Fear for you.
Here in my country, people do not like foreigners. Due to the fact that many of them come to our country, and "buy" girls. I know that you're not on of such man, but others do not know about it, and I would very much worry for you. And it would be easier for me to come to you, because I can feel free. I can do much more things with you. Or am I mistaken? Or you're not ready? . That is, I want to tell you that at first we can meet for a while to learn - if we can be together or not??
What do you think about this? And if we meet and have 100 confidence will approach each other, thereby to live together. Then we'll talk about a wedding also!
I love you very much and would gladly have you also met. I'll wait for your answer to this cute!!!!
Yet if we meet. I say - this is different, this is not a letters. Letters bring a lot of joy and a lot of desire, a lot of dreams!! But they can not show all those feelings that I have for you. All those emotions and my mind! You can not look at my eyes. That's why I say it's all you now!
I understand if you say it's still too early for a meeting. I can understand that. But I want to understand my thoughts correctly. Now our relationship in the sweetest period. We are at the beginning of a path that can lead us to happiness. Now we have the most vivid feelings and emotions. And I want it to be developed to bring it even more fun and joy.
Honey, I can see by your letters, that you want to be with me. But why is my heart tells me that you do not believe still in all this? My heart tells me that you do not trust 100 percent me, my words, my dream and my love to you. It is strange to feel and understand. Painfully aware of it. But I'll make you believe my words, believe my dream, and believe what I chose you for a reason.
Our meeting .... If it was not have a place, then perhaps there would not be what we now have. Are you happy that I write you letters? I'm happy! Are you happy, knowing that think of you and sharing with you all the most personal things? I'm really happy!
Are you glad to realize that in this big world, in which you felt alone, there was one who was alone just like you. And most importantly, we both see the world at a glance. I found, found you.
And now I think it was my best right thing to write you a letter. I do not argue, and do not want to lie. I know that you're afraid I'm going to ask you for money, or that I just want to escape from my country in the hope for the best. No it's not so! Believe me.
The money, if I really was needed it, I would be able to find a rich man who would give me expensive gifts, to pay for my life here in my country. But what I would receive in return? I've already said that I would give you my soul. Not! My soul I will give only to whom, who will take care of it and treat it with dignity. And not as a commodity! Thoughts to leave the country! Yes, you might think so and I'm sure of it. But why ? If I wanted to do it, I would long ago have done it.
But no, before I met you I lived well at home. It's not as bad as it seems, but lonely. And it is very difficult to live where you are not happy. But it is my country and my city. And I'll leave it only when I know that I'm really want and ready to do it. And because somewhere I can be happy, I love, and I will be the same. And I will have a family. That's what can make me leave my country.
If we meet - then all that we write to each other can do, and we can make into reality. We can make love in bed and can walk on different streets and the most beautiful places. We can each evening to bring each other pleasure to be happy. I would like to massage you constantly, every time as when you're tired. I would like to make love to you, every time our common desire. To all that I write you could also do it! You write as you love me. We can do it soon!
I thought yesterday that stop dreaming, because it is even more desire to meet. We can start a new life, which we lacked. But we'll start it together already. You and me.
I will eagerly wait for your letter! And I want tell you I love you. Dila

Letter 13

And here again, I'm writing you a letter James. Again, seeing your answer, I understand that you're willing to take this step. Step to be together. And if you are completely sure that , then let me begin to learn and all about move towards our meeting.
I have to go to Baku to the capital of my country, and learn about everything, what documents I need, I will have to visit a few travel agencies, and of course to know how much it will cost for me all this trip. I think it will be not so expensive.
And my savings should be enough for it.

But for a start all this, I need to know the 4 main things from you.
1) Your telephone number
2) Your nearest international airport. I have to know the exact name for we had no problems during the meeting.
3) And I need to know if I fly to you, would you meet me at the airport?
4) Are you sure you are ready with me to take this step?!

And I very much hope that you give me all the answers to my questions. And by that very soon I will be able to tell you all that I learned.
Pick it change our lives, we will be together. And we will continue to recognize each other. We will be together, and I'll give you a kiss. Our first kiss, our first touch. Its' so romantic.
But in all this there is a beautiful and fear!
Yes, I am very afraid that something might go wrong. To be more precise. Now you tell me that you love and you want to be with me, but I'll be there .... I am afraid that you may change your opinion after it.
Believe me, my heart is confident in you 100 percent, and my thoughts, but my mind just trying to protect me. And it said, I need some more time to learn you.
But because of this, we lose time, our precious time, which we could dedicate to each other, our dreams, fantasies, which become real!
We can start a family, we can be happy.
How nice it's to dream about it! Dreaming about what we have together.
But as you know, and I understand also that when we are together we will have intimacy. Yes, I know it, and I want to. I'm really ready for it. When you never had such experience it's so excitement .
Reading books, watching movies, and keep track of all that is happening. Emotion, passion. And know this feeling only in theory but not in practice ........ very very stupid for me. But I have thought there is a fantasy that I would like to share with you.
Thus proving to you that I am fully prepared to be there to be yours. And I hope that you will accept it as a gift of my love, fidelity.
I've told you about the feelings of the joy of life. But unless sex is not feeling? We've both been thinking about this, it seems to me that it is time to share with you what I want, and what I dream about. Touching your hands in my body, kissing.
Honey, I want ..... I want before you continue read this my letter you turned on the music. Well, some melodic and quiet. At this point, you might enjoy my dreams, desires, and feelings that I will try to convey in this letter.
The feelings that I want to release, I'm ready. And I had already decided what you are worthy to take the most precious thing I have.
You're sitting on the couch reading a book, you know that I'm with you at the kitchen, I'm have some dishes that I prepare. You did not expect that, but, you know, I'm standing behind you, my hands hug you from behind and patted you, your body.
You're nice, you put me on your knees, and want to kiss.
I looked into your eyes, gently touch my hand to your lips. And my hand lower on your body. I do not take my eyes off you, could see that you like it. My lips are next with yours, and you are waiting for a kiss, you felt them.
Passion, desire, we possess us. But you do not get that kiss. I pressed my lips to your ear, you can hear my breath, you roll your eyes, you like it. And here we are again looking at each other.
I blinked slowly, stood up and turned back to you. You notice that I light as a feather coat. And it does not hide all of the features of my body. I was standing with my back to you, turned my head, winked at you, and went into the bedroom.
You saw me look, and saw that while you go with me, like silk sleeping gown. It fell like a petal from a tree. Gently and slowly. And you see that I keep going, but I'm naked, I'm totally naked. Even at this distance I can hear the sound of your heart. I can hear you breathing.
And now, almost reaching the bed room, and almost disappeared from your kind, I stop, turn you sideways and stretch out my hand. And gently, slowly entice you by finger. I want you followed me.
You get up and you go, every step in the room, your heart beat faster, your mind is empty, you do not think about anything. You only imagine what awaits you soon.
And the closer you come, you hear music, soft music, the music pulls you like more. And you reached the room you realize that there is no glare. Only small lights illuminate the room, bed, and me. Candles, so few of them to see everything well, but enough to see me naked!
I lay on the bed, holding two glasses of wine.
You sit next to me. I extend to you one glass and you take it. At this point I start to drink my own, and not finishing until the end, I throw it away, and I kiss you. I am sharing with you my passion, and the wine is in my mouth.
This taste, sweet taste of my mouth, and the strong taste of the wine made you switch off if you are out of control.
I lay you on a bed, and sit on top. You see me, my body, my breasts. And at this moment, I'm holding your hand as if chained to the bed and am bringing my lips to your ear and ask to let me love you!
You can not tell any sound, you just nodded. And I realized that you agree .......
My hands are like bird feathers, slipped under your clothes, you feel their warmth, they are soft and tender, they caress you.
Your eyes never for a moment off from me. You see what I'm doing, I have no more turning into the side of my head, began to tear off your buttons, one after the other. Throwing open your shirt, I stroked your body, and I have not hurt or anything.
Head bowed to you, our lips were close again, and again you are so keen to kiss, but it was not. I'm just the tip of my tongue licked your lips, which were ready to pierce mine. But no, I never thought in a hurry.
I started to go down no more, my hair stroked your face like rose petals. You're not having to breathe felt like burns on my body, which had been hot and cold at the same time. I opened my eyes I saw you, I kiss you, your body, your chest. I kiss and caress you with my mouth and hands.
And slowly descend to the bottom leaving a wet trail on your pants, where I was sitting ... I very much wanted you ....
You are ready to break, but you promised me that you give me the opportunity to make you pleased. And I knew that I could do what you had been hoping for.
I stopped when the tongue gently down to you to the pants. I looked at you, I see your eyes, your desire, your imagination. And at this moment, my hands already unbuttoned your pants, and I got "it", I took it, hot in my hand. At this point, you've noticed that my eyes rolled back.
Like I experienced orgasm. But returning to the world again, I looked at you. and tenderly kissed “him”. My eyes never left you never left your eyes. You look, you see, and I'm even more plants.
I gently took the "it" in the mouth, and begin to move up and down, and I heard your sighs. I understand that you like it, you do not want me to stop. I felt it, I felt in my mouth as it moves, and my tongue caressed him like I eat candy. I not hide, I myself like this mad .....
And I understand that you want more, you want to enter into me, I'll get over you, and slowly I will sit you to see how "he" comes to me in my wet "pussy." And I will make slow movements, I want to enjoy everything, every second, every breath. "She" will envelop "it", it will be moist, wet, and I feel it ........ a.
And I understand that you already want to finish, I will say that I dream to become one with you completely. And start to move stronger and stronger. And I feel like me will start to pulsate "he", and out of my pussy will "milk", which completely cover it, and will do even more crude.
You must understand that all this is just my imagination, lines from books, that I read and the plot of the film. But I want to make this a reality, try and experience all the feelings, about which so much has been written, so much made movies. I want to have to understand what it's like to make love.
And of course you will have questions. And I'll tell you. I believe that sex should not be a limitation. There must not be a limit. Or something that you could not try. Oral, anal, or joy with a little rude. All this is necessary to try and translate into reality. And I hope that we will try to do it together.
Honey, I hope that my fantasy you are not scared, and I think I have enough to read books about sex .. And then I'll go crazy (smile). I so much want you, if you only knew ......
Now you will have time to think and to dream as well as I do. As long as I get to know all about our meeting.
I love you, your Dila.

Letter 14

Hi my love James!
I read your letter, and I see this, your determination and the desire to be with me! Make that change our lives.
My letter which I wrote you last time, I hope it was not too vulgar? I wrote just what I really wanted. What I felt and what I wanted to tell you. So you could understand what I feel for you.
Yes, there are moments that we have not decided yet, but I believe that if all our life we will write letters, what do we get at the end? More precisely, what will happen to us? I'm afraid we will just waste time. And every day we will lose the time that could be the most important for us.
Yes, not so much time passes, and we do not notice how time passed from the moment when I decided to write you first time. And now. Now we are planning our meeting, our future and our common live.
You will see me, I will see you, and then ... Then the life will show us everything and our close communion, and of course our hearts.
To fall in love and fall in love with only 10 seconds. 1 view, 1 moment 1 feel for life .... If we don't want this? I want! I really want to be happy and I think that it is only when I am close to you. I feel so, and for this, I am eager to implement the meeting.
I'm ready, and I have made this step for now. I'll tell you all that I have learned. I told you in my last letter, I was going to find out how can I come to you and be with you. And believe me, my dear, I did it. I carry my words into reality. I have not written you the words that were empty.
And I think my world is just where you are. And if you remember, I have already written you that two lives can create one. One family. I'm not talking about marriage (although I want to bind their lives in marriage with you, but it should be your also decision)
I'm talking about the fact that people can be together without marriage, and live the same good life.
And the main thing to be happy. Forget the past, which left a wound and pain. Forget loneliness, and most importantly remember that the soul was a "hole" that do not close or that. No gifts, no food, no rest. Feeling like there is something that as part of the soul.
And this feeling will pass only when we both be near, and you will understand that this is not a dream, it's reality.

So, I took off a day, and was in Baku. I went into the city and went to several travel agencies. I was looking for the most popular, well known in my country, which is working and has branches in Europe and Asia. I found really good one.
It is a travel agency I was advised by a few friends. And I liked the fact that when my friends used the services of this travel company, they did not have any complaints. And yet, I liked how I was met there, liked their service. And when I came to other agencies, I felt as I'm invisible.
And now, after talking with a travel agent, I learned everything I needed to know.
I told to the travel agent that I want to leave my country. What's going to go to your house. And wanted to know what I need, what documents are necessary to make the agency and how much it will cost.
At the beginning of the conversation, I was asked if I was ready to go to another country alone?
They also say that it is not very safety, because so many bad people are in other countries. I am a young single woman, I am going to fly to you, a man whom I had only seen on the photo, a man whom I loved, and if I'm ready to risk everything for you?
They remind me of the story I told you about the girl who was like in a prison.
I told them that I know and have heard about it. I admit that I have a fear, but love that motivates me is now much stronger than that fear! And I'm willing to risk it, because I'm no longer able to live in this world of gray to me. And if fate favorable to me, then we'll be fine. And we'll be happy.
And if not, you hurt me ... then it be also my choice, my decision, and I know what I'm going on what I have decided to move.
I asked them how long it would be valid a visa? How can I renew it in your country, if I want to stay there longer? What documents do I need? How much is the total cost ? And how long will prepare a visa?
On all these issues, I got a response from them. The visa will be valid for 90 days, I can extend it in your country (if I decide to remain with you), the main things I need to give them is my passport documents, paper from place of work, and several other papers.
And all the documents required for this trip will be prepared about 10-14 days.
This are passport, visa, 2 ways tickets (this is optional, but I was told that if I stay, I will be able to take one ticket and get back its cost). Any way at first time I have to book 2 ways tickets to get the visa without problem.
This is my first trip and I decided if I'm going to go to you, then it should be as a tourist. A travel agency will know where I'm going to stay and take full responsibility for myself and my life. I will not take the hotel, in the hope that you will be with me, and I will be in your house.
I confess, I am very worried, I still I have a little fear. No offense, my dear, but now I risk everything, and perhaps even by my life. I believe you, trust you, I love you. But the bad thoughts do not leave me. And I think about it.
But as I said, for what I should to live if not to take serious steps that can change my life for the better !? And I'm willing to risk it. For the future, our future.
I love you and this is important, I believe, and if I meet you and we will be together - then I become the happiest girl on the planet. I will never leave you, my love, my man! I never think badly of you. I am a girl who knows how to forgive, and if there are mistakes, then I will not be offended - you always can correct them!
It will also be present at my side, and depend on me and on, if you can forgive. You can not doubt my words. As I write you only what I think and what I dream! And all my promises - it is not just empty words! It's true, and if it properly understood, then you can see the real me! I'm sure you already know me.
You know my feelings for you, you know my hobbies, and many of my thoughts! When I come to you, I'll tell you much more! You'll be able to see me, watch me. You be able to see and feel all my feelings for you. I really want it! I want to give you my love, and also to see and feel your love for me!
I hope it will develop into a very large and serious sense. We may even be able to create a family. And if between us will be those feelings and complete trust. Then we meet, no matter what. I'd like to feel you soon stroking you and show all my care and love for you, my caring prince. I realize now that my life depends on you!
And I think that you look at it from the right side! I want to see you, to be your loved woman. So you will never abandon me !!
You have to remember, for the love, I'm ready for anything!
By the way I got their mail e-mail address of travel agency also as this is the only thing that I have. And now, I'll give them the name of the airport, and they will tell me how much it costs. I think that will be sufficient in 900 manat. I think that if I calculate it into dollars US, you will be much easier to understand.
This is about 540-550 usd., I hope and I am a long time saved this money, and sometimes indulged in something. I've been saving, but did not know for what. And now the day has come (smile). Now I'm worried, and waiting for an answer.
Back there is no way, and I myself do not want to step back. in front of me waiting for you, a new life, the future, and I hope that the family is waiting for me. And for the rest of our lives, all we've been through God made sure that we found each other, two hearts, two lonely people, a man and a woman. And we're together.
I will tell you everything that I know.

I love you, your Dila.

Letter 15

Hi my love prince James!
I've been thinking a lot and decide about our future, our meeting. And this letter I want to dedicate to a dream ... a dream that maybe can not ever become a real! And I try to explain to you.
Reading your letter, I realized that you're ready for something more than just writing e-mails. Ready for real meeting, which we have talked a lot lately. You are very much love me, and I answer to you in return with the same feeling.
And believe me, find a man as you, it's like to find the large and beautiful diamond. It's hard to put it all in words. You're a good man, you're a smart, pleasant, and most importantly, you know a lot .. even that, what others simply do not understand.
And it add you more charisma, courage, kindness, and above all clever ideas and thoughts. Which is very rare to meet nowadays. The honor and dignity have been forgotten, but you remember it.
And we began to build you a new "world" our "world" in which we could live happily ever after. To be together forever and be very happy. Build a family, raise children, and above all love each other. And perhaps we would have envied, and many places us as an example of a happy family.
But I'm afraid it all will remain only a dream. You can ask me, why? I will answer.
I can not come to you soon on my own, because I do not have enough money, all what I have, for me it is not enough. The total cost of the trip is very high and for I could earn that kind of money, I will need about 1 year.
Given the fact that I'm going to live here all this time, eat and pay the rent. Ask your financial help I do not want. Because I do not want you to think that I'm ......one of those girls who only ask for money, but do not come and just deceiving.
Yes, I know about them, I read on the Internet, and I know that maybe you're afraid that I am such one. But it is not so. You have seen my letters, saw my answers, and there is no one "black." I read some of that stories that write that bad girls who wants only the money.
Long story, but I've seen such a letters. It were thoughts like a robot, such a letter is not have "soul," as if they were dead, dead words. And I can not believe that in such words believe some good men .... And these words destroy the heart.
Believe me, I thought it was going to cost not as expensive as I learned, and reading your letter, I realized that now I gave you hope, I gave you a false dream that I can not do a real soon. As much as I tried. And no matter how much I did not want it.
Believe me, now I'd give a lot, just to make my speech, our dream come true. Touch you, and be next to you. With those whom I fell in love .... And I confess, fell in love with you for your letter, your words, your heart. and your soul.
Not many people realize this, and many will think that this is not real and funny. But I'm not laughing now I'm crying, it hurt me.
Yes, it should not hide the tears, I think you just need to understand that it is a reality, and it's a cruel world in which money rules and regulations that we may not be able to change now.
I myself believed that these dreams, the letters, the words that we have written will become real, and not only in our imagination. The lines in which I wanted to kiss you, will be transfer into reality at a meeting at the airport. Dreams of carrying with you in the evening, night.
The world that we have built will be real. You, me .... But now it hurts.
And I even tried to find, borrow money, in the hope that when I'm with you, maybe I could help a lot, and I could return it all back. Or helped to find a job so I could make it, make money, and just come back often. But no one has that kind of money.
Someone I did not ask. I even called my mother and talked to her. She said she was ready to give all that she have, but it's too little, that can give a woman with a pension of 50 dollars (I pass you to better understand). And take the last I just can not, and do not want.
Believe me, I'm afraid to ask your help. I am afraid that you will think that I need only your money. But I ... I ... I have no choice. And I want that yourself want it. And the main thing to believe me.
Still, I'll try to explain what I need, how much, and you decide for yourself what to do. Trying to earn the most here at my home country, and wait .... Or help me to be together, and as I said, I can make you and bring you back after I earn it!
Ticket reservation doing immediately, when documents are submitted for visa. That is a travel agency reserve tickets, and after the visa is ready, they are buying these tickets. And so I will get all the documents and tickets just before departure.
Just because of the great problems with migrants around the world, your country will not be able to keep me on the invitation. I learned this, and I can fly to you only as a tourist. This is the most secure and reliable way. That will allow me to get a visa without any problems.
And I told you that by the invitation I could not leave my country. It will be able to find a reason to refuse documents. (The story of a girl who was raped and tortured by).
With the visa will be no problems, I have only short time to collect the necessary documents from work, from my place living and take them to the agency. I can do it during 1-2 days.
And now the whole problem. As I wrote above, the total price of the trip, it is very much for me. I do not know how that's your opinion, what opportunities you have. Because for me before, it was not matter.
And if we consider the cheapest option, the total cost of this will be 1880 dollars. And if I have to put my money 550 dollars, anyway, I have to find more 1330 dollars.
Economy class, with 1-2 stops, departure from Baku, Azerbaijan. And as I fly to you like a tourist, I must have a ticket 2 ways. Certainly a return ticket, then I will be able to bounce back and thus give you back the part of money immediately, and the rest be able to earn.
In the event that I will remain with you, and your country will do this for me. And further. There is good news, of which I knew.
At the end of the visa, I have to go back, but there are a few points that may allow me to stay in your country, but that we should discuss in person at the meeting.
And even if we did not get it done, I should go back to back just for 5-10 days to extend a visa, or having several documents that together we can do it, I can get permission to extend the visa in your country are not taking off back to Azerbaijan.
In any case, I will still be with you. But it does take time, and the collection of documents that we can only do together, and in your country where we will have our meeting!
And that you knew me, and believe me, I do not want you to send me money, or something else. No, if you want to help me, then you can pay everything yourself. You can contact with my travel agency, and so to pay for everything to them. And I will not be relevant to your money.
And for me it will be much easier and safer for you. Of cause if you don't think that I'm one of those, who wish to get rich on the broken hearts, I can not change your mind!
But if you do not have the possibility, as well as I do, that we can only dream! Dream and live by that dream.
I admit, it is difficult to think that you know what it's all be real but due to a problem, you can not make those dreams a reality.
And sad to realize that from the "paper" our future depends, and a dream come true.
Now I'll wait for your response, and on it I will understand what to do and how to move on!
I'll be waiting for your letter.
I love you, your Dila.

Letter 16

Hello my dear James!!
I'm glad to see your letter today. I am glad that you show concern for me and want to help me. I am glad that
you have these agencies in your country that can do the air tickets to people from another country. And this is good.
But there is one thing. And I want to tell you about it at once. As I have told you before. In our country there are laws that may not seem correct for people from other countries. You must live in Azerbaijan to understand it. So. In our country there are laws on travel abroad for the citizens of Azerbaijan. And these laws are also all about our travel agencies operate. And according to the laws of our country all documents and tickets should be
bought in our country. Because, even if you send me a ticket from your agency or buy it on-live. I can not leave my country. Such laws we have. And on the one hand they may seem wild. On the other hand it's enough correct. Because the government take care of its citizens. But in order for I buy it all (documents, passport, tickets and other documents necessary for the trip) I
have just 2 options.

The first option: I will have to show a lot of information and my income, health, and the documents about place where I live. For,
my travel documents have been made very fast. But as salary's in our country are not very big, my certificate of income will not be a guarantee for travel agencies, so they started making my documents at once. Because this is a very expensive trip for me. And my salary is quite enough just to life here. You can even check our currency rate and compare it to yours. But still we have here the money is enough only for life. But it's very little to pay for the whole trip. If I could do it all myself, then believe me, I would do it immediately, and I would not have to ask for your help. But I can not live without her now.

But also there is a second option: I have to immediately pay for all of the documents and air tickets. And then after it, do it all, it will be easier, I can leave my country and fly to you my love !!

And only these two options can be used to ensure that I'm able to come to you, my dear.

Now I hope you understand the whole situation. And then I do not know how you'd react to this letter. But I want you to know that I love you !! And miss you!!! And I want to be with you !!!! But all these laws stand obstacle for us !! I want to tell you right away, my dear, whatever decision you have not accepted, you will always stay in my heart, and I will remember you. But even if our dream and our meeting is not destined to be fulfilled, I will love you !!

But I do not want to think about the bad things. I want to be with you and come to you soon. And also, I think, that if you contact my travel agency, and send them directly the money to pay for my trip. That it will also secure and guarantee for you. Because it is a travel agency has offices in Europe and a great experience. They can even give you a written guarantee that all will be well. I very much hope that this option will be sounding good for you.

Your Dila !!!!

Letter 17

Hi my love James!
I read your letter, and I see this, your determination and the desire to be with me! Make that change our lives.
My letter which I wrote you last time, I hope it was not too vulgar? I wrote just what I really wanted. What I felt and what I wanted to tell you. So you could understand what I feel for you.
Yes, there are moments that we have not decided yet, but I believe that if all our life we will write letters, what do we get at the end? More precisely, what will happen to us? I'm afraid we will just waste time. And every day we will lose the time that could be the most important for us.
Yes, not so much time passes, and we do not notice how time passed from the moment when I decided to write you first time. And now. Now we are planning our meeting, our future and our common live.
You will see me, I will see you, and then ... Then the life will show us everything and our close communion, and of course our hearts.
To fall in love and fall in love with only 10 seconds. 1 view, 1 moment 1 feel for life .... If we don't want this? I want! I really want to be happy and I think that it is only when I am close to you. I feel so, and for this, I am eager to implement the meeting.
I'm ready, and I have made this step for now. I'll tell you all that I have learned. I told you in my last letter, I was going to find out how can I come to you and be with you. And believe me, my dear, I did it. I carry my words into reality. I have not written you the words that were empty.
And I think my world is just where you are. And if you remember, I have already written you that two lives can create one. One family. I'm not talking about marriage (although I want to bind their lives in marriage with you, but it should be your also decision)
I'm talking about the fact that people can be together without marriage, and live the same good life.
And the main thing to be happy. Forget the past, which left a wound and pain. Forget loneliness, and most importantly remember that the soul was a "hole" that do not close or that. No gifts, no food, no rest. Feeling like there is something that as part of the soul.
And this feeling will pass only when we both be near, and you will understand that this is not a dream, it's reality.

So, I took off a day, and was in Baku. I went into the city and went to several travel agencies. I was looking for the most popular, well known in my country, which is working and has branches in Europe and Asia. I found really good one.
It is a travel agency I was advised by a few friends. And I liked the fact that when my friends used the services of this travel company, they did not have any complaints. And yet, I liked how I was met there, liked their service. And when I came to other agencies, I felt as I'm invisible.
And now, after talking with a travel agent, I learned everything I needed to know.
I told to the travel agent that I want to leave my country. What's going to go to your house. And wanted to know what I need, what documents are necessary to make the agency and how much it will cost.
At the beginning of the conversation, I was asked if I was ready to go to another country alone?
They also say that it is not very safety, because so many bad people are in other countries. I am a young single woman, I am going to fly to you, a man whom I had only seen on the photo, a man whom I loved, and if I'm ready to risk everything for you?
They remind me of the story I told you about the girl who was like in a prison.
I told them that I know and have heard about it. I admit that I have a fear, but love that motivates me is now much stronger than that fear! And I'm willing to risk it, because I'm no longer able to live in this world of gray to me. And if fate favorable to me, then we'll be fine. And we'll be happy.
And if not, you hurt me ... then it be also my choice, my decision, and I know what I'm going on what I have decided to move.
I asked them how long it would be valid a visa? How can I renew it in your country, if I want to stay there longer? What documents do I need? How much is the total cost ? And how long will prepare a visa?
On all these issues, I got a response from them. The visa will be valid for 90 days, I can extend it in your country (if I decide to remain with you), the main things I need to give them is my passport documents, paper from place of work, and several other papers.
And all the documents required for this trip will be prepared about 10-14 days.
This are passport, visa, 2 ways tickets (this is optional, but I was told that if I stay, I will be able to take one ticket and get back its cost). Any way at first time I have to book 2 ways tickets to get the visa without problem.
This is my first trip and I decided if I'm going to go to you, then it should be as a tourist. A travel agency will know where I'm going to stay and take full responsibility for myself and my life. I will not take the hotel, in the hope that you will be with me, and I will be in your house.
I confess, I am very worried, I still I have a little fear. No offense, my dear, but now I risk everything, and perhaps even by my life. I believe you, trust you, I love you. But the bad thoughts do not leave me. And I think about it.
But as I said, for what I should to live if not to take serious steps that can change my life for the better !? And I'm willing to risk it. For the future, our future.
I love you and this is important, I believe, and if I meet you and we will be together - then I become the happiest girl on the planet. I will never leave you, my love, my man! I never think badly of you. I am a girl who knows how to forgive, and if there are mistakes, then I will not be offended - you always can correct them!
It will also be present at my side, and depend on me and on, if you can forgive. You can not doubt my words. As I write you only what I think and what I dream! And all my promises - it is not just empty words! It's true, and if it properly understood, then you can see the real me! I'm sure you already know me.
You know my feelings for you, you know my hobbies, and many of my thoughts! When I come to you, I'll tell you much more! You'll be able to see me, watch me. You be able to see and feel all my feelings for you. I really want it! I want to give you my love, and also to see and feel your love for me!
I hope it will develop into a very large and serious sense. We may even be able to create a family. And if between us will be those feelings and complete trust. Then we meet, no matter what. I'd like to feel you soon stroking you and show all my care and love for you, my caring prince. I realize now that my life depends on you!
And I think that you look at it from the right side! I want to see you, to be your loved woman. So you will never abandon me !!
You have to remember, for the love, I'm ready for anything!
By the way I got their mail e-mail address of travel agency also as this is the only thing that I have. And now, I'll give them the name of the airport, and they will tell me how much it costs. I think that will be sufficient in 900 manat. I think that if I calculate it into dollars US, you will be much easier to understand.
This is about 540-550 usd., I hope and I am a long time saved this money, and sometimes indulged in something. I've been saving, but did not know for what. And now the day has come (smile). Now I'm worried, and waiting for an answer.
Back there is no way, and I myself do not want to step back. in front of me waiting for you, a new life, the future, and I hope that the family is waiting for me. And for the rest of our lives, all we've been through God made sure that we found each other, two hearts, two lonely people, a man and a woman. And we're together.
I will tell you everything that I know.
I love you, your Dila.

Letter 18

My lovely husband James, I am very pleased to see your letter, and most importantly to see what you say.
You gave me the love, you gave me joy and happiness, a smile on my face. But the main thing you gave me a hope now! Yes, that is what I have now.
The hope is that we'll be together soon. And that all of what we wrote, and dreamed of talking to each other can become a reality. We can change our lives, here and now, together with you. And start a new life where you and I will.
I am glad that you are ready to take this step, and I understand .... honestly, I understand how difficult for you to make it. Trust me 100 percent. No, probably trust me 1,000 percent. And believe me, I will justify your trust !

I never thought that I will be so happy , that I will smile so often, and will know what is the real love. And most importantly, I will dream again, and all my dreams become real .....
If you were here, you probably heard the sound of my heart. I'm so excited, I understand that this is a very important step for us. And what is this ....... I want to, we both want.
Let us do this, we will make our love stronger, our real touch and our kisses daily. I want this, I want to feel you close, to hear your voice and your breath. Loving you, and give my warmth every day.

And now I don't want you just could only help me with payments, but also watch out for all the work of my documents. For you have no any have questions to which I can not answer, and most importantly you have a warranty. Since it's your money, and you're helping me.
I give you my e-mail Travel Agency I wrote you before.

Mail: tourism@elite-travel-az.com

And so I would like you to write them today. Just tell them that you write about me and my trip to you, you can call them my details and they will know for sure, that you write them about me. Here is my details:
Address: Azerbaijan, city Astara.
Full Name: Dilara Gusainova

And they can help you to make this payment. They will say how can you pay for everything.
And most importantly, I would like you to pay directly to the travel agency. And I have several reasons for it.

1) I told you that you can write to travel agency in my country. And they help us to make our dream come true, our meeting. They will answer all the questions that you will be interesting, and as my flight which relate to you.
2) How can you help me with the money to pay and where to send?! This question faces us. And I want to tell you that I am very afraid for your money. I'm afraid that if you're going to send them to me personally, I have to go to Baku, and only there I'll be able to receive it. And then there are a few problems.
a) Due to the fact that I have to walk a lot, I'm afraid to lose your money.
I can be robed. This amount of money is very large for my country, and there is someone who wants to get rich quickly and easily. And perhaps I will be their goal. They can trace after me from bank, and then to rob me.
And the beat during a robbery, or worse. And this, I fear for my health. And again, I'm afraid for your money.
And on this, I ask you to write in a travel agency and pay them directly. They can provide you different types of payment. And so they can give you a guarantee. And you choose what is more comfortable for you.

If I do everything myself (with your financial help), and fly to you as a tourist, I have no problems with obtaining a visa in your country. I could easily get it and do not have no problems. After I walk into migration service, and receive permission to leave my country.
When we meet, and after a few weeks, we will go to your embassy to apply for an extension of my presence in your country. Since we met on one of the tours (we can't say that we did not know each other before), and began to chat, make friends, and love each other.
Show them photos, and everything else. And we will not have more problems.
So I was advised the agency, because we'll be together forever.

But if you're going to do without the help of my local travel agency, then the passage of the migration service may have questions and concerns. And in general can forbid me to fly.
Even if I still get to fly to you, and I will be with you. Your government can deny me a visa extension, relying on the fact that I just want you to stay in your country and that I have no feelings for you (which not true). And then there will be problems that we can not decide!

Now everything is in your hands. And I hope that you will do everything to ensure that we be together. And I can give you my love, your warmth, your life.
I love you, your Dila. kiss

Letter 19

Hi my love James! I come to the Internet of cafe in expectation of your letter. Why you do not answer me? Are you well? You do not want our meeting? Or you do not wish to help me?
Tell me the truth please. I take any your decision. I worry very much. I miss on you and your letters. I think much of you. I hope, that you will answer me soon. I love you!
Yours Dila. kiss

   

   

Created: 2017-03-06    Last updated: 2017-03-06    Views: 230