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Romance scam letter(s) from Natalia Gedgagoiva to John (Brazil)
Letter 1
Thanks that have answered my message. WHAT IS YOUR NAME? My name Natalya. To me of 29 years. I the sociable and cheerful person. But my life is similar to the night sky without stars. As in my life there is no the most important, love. In searches of the man of all my life. It seems to me to communicate through letters, very romantically and as it allows to learn much better the person before a meeting. I already communicated through the Internet, but it has not crowned success as men asked to send them my naked photos, for me it was first attribute of their frivolous attitude. And on it I have stopped dialogue with them. I think, that you will agree with me in that that the decent girl not when I will not send similar photos on e mail. The rectilinear and fair person, I search only for serious attitudes, only the present feelings. I think what to construct attitudes, it not a simple problem and if you are ready to it I shall be glad to continue dialogue with you. If for you, it is simple entertainment, I do not see sense to continue our correspondence. I apologize, if I something have offended you. But I do not have time for games. I wait your answer! Natalya.
Letter 2
John, I'm glad to see your latter! Thanks for the answer! I am very glad you're looking for a serious relationship. Now we can continue our talking. John, I think it's will fun! I want to learn about you and your life. I'm 29 years old. I was born 1 May 1988. John, when is your birthday? I'm 168 cm tall. I weigh 50 kg. My hair is fair. My eyes is blue. I enjoy reading and listening to music. My favorite color is green. I live in Tatarsk, that's in Siberia, Russia. I'm single never been married, no children and I'm not in relationship now. Because I haven't found the right men. I was in relationship when I was student. It was 7 years ago. It's relationship ended! I had bitter experience!
I work for social service! I help retired people and children from unsuccessful families. My work takes a lot of energy. I'm worry very often. But when I can see result of my work then I become very happy! I make people happy and it make me happy! It makes me smile! I love to smile. Many people think I'm very happy woman, but it's not true! Because, I'm so lonely! I think loneliness and happy it's different things! John, I need in man who can make me happy! I want to meet man with whom we will have true love! I want to be like a school girl getting that note from the pretty boy that turns her stomach into butterflies when they meet eyes. I believe I will meet such a person.
Because Love it's very important in our life! I think love will live forever! What do you think about it? Do you believe in true love? I hope for early reply!! Natalya.
Letter 3
I am glad to see your answer to my letter. John, I had fine day. Today there was a good weather. I very much love, when the sun shines! It always lifts my mood. I am very glad that you like my photos! Thanks for compliments to me is very pleasant! Thanks for your photo! You also are very fine! It is very a pity to me to hear about your girlfriend! I perfectly understand as it hard to lose close people! John that has told thanks me about your loneliness. I understand that you feel also I understand the reason on which you have gone on a site of acquaintances. Such good person is very a pity to me that as you can test loneliness. The life really is not fair. But we should struggle for were happy. In fact the happiness, is very big work. Who not happy becomes simple so. We can Sometimes look at the person and see that it is happy, it has all that wishes. But who does not know what work to it this happiness has got. Who does not know through what it had to pass to achieve this happiness. Therefore I think when it is not necessary to surrender. It is necessary to battle always were happy. You agree with me in it? For me the age because I look from an internal part really does not matter. The age has no value while there is a real fair attachment, and love! The Love does not know any distinction of age in my opinion. Thanks that you are opened before me! It is very pleasant to me to learn little bit more about you and your life! You very interesting the man! John if my loved person will not want the child I shall devote all life for the beloved. If my beloved will wish to have children I shall be very happy to become mum for our kids. I have been surprised by similarities in searches of the American men and Russian women. In this clause it has been described, what the American women think about marriage and creation of family. I never could think, that women in your country are interested in career, instead of family. In my country each woman dreams of family, about marriage, about wedding. But men in Russia for a long time have lost interest to it! The Most part of men in my country find interest in alcohol and an idle way of life. Therefore I am lonely. I want with me was reliable the man which loves and respects with the woman. For me it is very important, that the man had only serious relations! For me it is important that my man was true to me. John, I do not wish to spend my life for the person who in any opportunity can exchange me for other woman. John, in my opinion the American men, are closer to that I search in the man. Therefore I have decided to use Dating Site.
John, tell to me, please, that in your country think of Russian women? Whether it is valid women in your country interest only money and career? I hope, that in the following letter we can continue this theme. Your friend Natalya.
Letter 4


Hello! John, I am glad to see your answer. How there was your day? How is the weather in your city? I had good day. I am very glad that you like my photo! Thanks for compliments, me is very pleasant! John, for me the age is not important! I think, that the senior men know how to address with the girl, their intentions are serious. And the senior men have experience in attitudes! I wish to be happy, and I shall be happy only near to loved by the man! To me the opinion of others the main thing is not important that we were happy! For me it is not important where I shall live, the main thing with my loved person! I think, that we should write each other more to learn each other better.
Today I wish to tell to you more about my life. I was born and have grown in the city of Minino. In 2004, I have left school. After leaving school I should choose my trade. I always wished to make the world better and to help people. Having consulted to mum, I have made a decision to act in Tatarsk, Tatar State University for the Humanities and Pedagogy. I have chosen the sociologist. In 2009, I have ended institute. After the ending of institute I have returned to my native city. I have tried to find work in Minino. I wished to be closer to my mum, but could not find work in my native city. After that I have made a decision to come back back in Tatarsk. Because in Tatarsk, I had more chances to find work. I have collected my things and have gone to a way. Having arrived in Tatarsk, I was arranged to live in a hostel, after I went on labour exchange and have left there my resume. I long could not find anything suitable, and I had to work as the waitress in cafe. It was very heavy work. But it allowed me to pay my residing. In four months to me have offered work in Housing and communal services, on a post “ the worker with the public ”. I was very glad to this offer and there and then it have accepted. I worked in this company during six years, before closing. Then I had to search for work again. I have found work in a social service where I work now. To me brings pleasure my work. I think, that I have very successfully chosen a trade! My trade allows me to be realized. It seems to me that self-realization is very important thing as it allows to feel a life really. John, what do you do? What about your profession? Do you like your profession? John, I hope, that my today's letter has allowed you to imagine I wash a life is little bit better. I shall wait for your following letter and I hope, that you also to me will tell your biography. Natalya
Letter 5
Hello John! To Me very sadly to not receive your letter! I very much hope that at you all well and tomorrow you will write to me your letter! Natalya!
Letter 6
I am glad to see your letter. John, I am very glad that we communicate and we find much in common. I very much would wish to learn you in the further. It is very a pity to me but I have not received your letters! I very much hope that tomorrow you will send me again your letters! I shall be very glad to see your letters! Today in my letter I wish to tell to you about my family and about my close people. I was born and have grown in family of the military officer and the dressmaker. My father's name is Georgy, and my mother's name is Lubov. My father has devoted all life to service to the native land. In 1994 during war in the Chechen Republic he was lost. My mum told about my father much. She told that the father was very strong and brave the man. He did not know compromises and always struggled for the truth and validity. He was the true patriot of my country. Mum told, when I was born, he has left military service as very much was afraid to leave us one. But after on war in the Chechen Republic his close comrade was lost, he could not remain more at home. My father did not sleep at the nights, has ceased to eat! Mine mum saw his experiences as my father suffered from inactivity. My father could not stand aside, and in December 1994 has gone to the Chechen Republic. He wrote to mum of the letter and spoke that he's fine. But in February 1995 to us there has home arrived the chief of a staff and has told, that the father was lost on for special mission in city Terrible. I have remembered clearly this moment! But I did not wish to trust and constantly repeated to mum, that the father soon to us will return. Even after we have buried my father, in my heart there lived hope that is all a lie. Only becoming more adult, I have finally understood, that more never I shall see my daddy. After death of the father, mum long could not come in itself. It was very heavy period in our life. We with mum madly loved the father, and long could not be measured with loss. But my mum very strong woman! Mum tried, that our life was adjusted, and tried to make all for this purpose! She has made all to give me good education. I remember, that she worked at a textile factory! And after work late, Mom sewed clothes for sale. I tried to help with all to her, we together went with her on the market to sell things which she murder will out.
My mum has learned me to be strong and never to surrender, even if it will be heavy. She always spoke, that the daddy looks at us from heavens and we should be strong. I am madly grateful to my mum because she has much made for me. She has learned me to much. I know that to her it was heavy, I saw it. She for me always was and will be an ideal of the true woman. True mum! Now my mother is 61 years old, six years ago she retired. But she continues to work. Mum, often sews dresses for me. And I am very glad to it. I try to visit my mum more often. My mum the most close and most dear person. I madly love and I respect with my mum. She not only my mum, she my close friend. I can talk with her on any themes! I know, that she always will support me and will give correct advice. Now my mum lives, with her senior sister! She is my aunt. My aunt's name is Lyudmila. Lyudmila, was married, but never had children! After death of her husband she has moved to live to my mum.
My aunt is 67 years old. Lyudmila the fine person also it is very tasty prepares. I am assured, that you would love her pancakes with a bilberry. I hope, that it was interesting to you to learn about my family. I hope, that you will tell to me more about your family in following letters. I put a photo on which you can see my daddy to the letter. John, I shall wait for your answer. Your friend Natalya.
Letter 7
John, today I had very busy day. In the morning I had adventures! When I went for work at me the heel has broken! I came back home, therefore I was not late nearly. I do not like to be late. Therefore I had to run to be in time for work. You only imagine it!! In the morning all people in a dozing condition go for work, and I on heels run by them. Probably passers-by have thought that I the madwoman.
John, me it was very ridiculous, but I could not be late. It was mad day! I am very glad that to you have liked a photo of my parents! I do not know where which you have sent your letters to me! I to you have told that I did not receive your letters and very much I hope that you will send me your letters again! I shall be very glad to see them! I am very glad that you like my photos! I am very glad that you had excellent fishing! I also very much like to fish! Thanks for a photo! Very beautiful photo! It is very a pity to me to hear about your father! It is very awful! I perfectly understand as it hard to lose close people! I shall explain to you more about my work! I want that you understood, what I do. I already spoke you, I work in the Social service. I have irregular working hours, sometimes I work from 8.00 to 19.00. I work five days a week. But sometimes I have to work at weekend. I work as specialist in social work. I should check in-home conditions of a life retired people, if necessary render them the various help. Sometimes it is cleaning of their house, sometimes delivery of necessary products and medicines, and I sometimes simply hours sit at my wards and I talk to them about a life. As people whom I visit in are lonely also they have no anybody to speak. I like to listen to histories from their life, it gives many lessons for me. John, I very much love my work because I have an opportunity to benefit people. Certainly my work, as well as any another has complexities. Many people are not able to appreciate the help which him appears. For example, today I visited the old grandfather. His name is Valentin. He has very nasty character. He something is constant is not happy! Today he has started me to abuse because I have not brought to him vodka. I have explained, that our company does not render such services and that he cannot drink vodka! Because he has very much poor health, and he can die. But he has started to shout at me. To me it was very insulting, because I care of him, and he does not respect with it. With similar situations, I should collide very often! First time I often cried. But then I have learned to concern to it little bit easier. John, I hope that you understand what I spoke you about my job. John, are there the Social service in your country? I shall be glad to learn more about your job. I hope for your fast reply! Natalya
Letter 8
John how there was your day? I am glad to see your answer. I like to talk to you. You very interesting interlocutor. It is very a pity to me to hear about your girlfriend! I understand as it hard! John, I understand your laughter above my situation. If you me saw that you really would laugh loudly. I am very glad that you liked my photo! For the sake of the beloved of the man I am ready on all! To me it is not important where we shall live, the main thing together with loved by the man! If we shall want to be together that I can arrive to you!
John, I think, that in a life there are two most important things it is love and friendship. We test both these feelings to people who in due course appear in our life. The true love in a life of each person one! I think, that the true friends cannot be much. I have people whom I can name the true friends. And I am grateful to destiny, that I have the true friends. My best friends name are Marina, Christina, Liza. I am familiar with Marina since the childhood. We studied at one school and lived in the neighbourhood. Now Marina, also lives in Tatarsk. She married also works as the teacher at school. I have got acquainted with Christina in institute. We studied with her in one group. Now Christina, lives to Surgut. She was married twice. her first marriage was unsuccessful because her husband had problems with alcohol. She has divorced from it several years ago. Now she again married also is very happy. Last time I met with Christina three months ago then she came to me on a visit. With Liza, we together work. She very good and sympathetic person. When I started to work, I had difficult situations, in which did not know how to act. Liza, always gave me advice and supported me. She works in our office as the psychologist. Now she is 37 years old, she married also has two children, the boy and the girl. John, I am assured, if once you can meet Marina, Christina, Liza. You would have liked them. They really fine people. For me they are very important. I am grateful to them because they can always support a difficult minute of my life. I hope, that it was interesting to you to learn about my friends. I shall wait for your answer. I shall be glad if you will tell to me about your friends. Your friend Natalya.
Letter 9
John, with each our letter to each other we all become closer. I very much like that at us dialogue turns out. I am very glad to learn more about you and your life! I very much hope, that this feeling is mutual. I think to us while early to speak about our meeting. Because we know each other insufficiently. We should communicate and learn more each other. And to be assured that we really wish to meet. And if we become close enough, I think that without problems we can meet. You agree with me? It is very pleasant to me to learn about your friend! In what language you speak in your country? Thanks for a photo of your house! It is very beautiful! I do not send such photos! I already spoke you I the open person! I do not love an innuendo in dialogue. I wish to tell to you about my last relations. To me this theme is not pleasant, but I think you should know about it. John, I already spoke you in 2004, I have entered the institute. Then I was 17 years old.
Then my friends already had boyfriends. Sometimes they laughed over me because I never kissed. And I was 18 years old. I did not try to meet the guy, and thought that it very much early for me. In institute every year we had ball. On these balls chose king and queen. I always was the ferial girl, and never tried to be the focus of attention! I have been very surprised, when me have chosen queen. First I did not wish to go on a stage, but my friends have insisted on it. Then sounded the name of the king of the ball, it was Dmitry! We should dance. I remember, that I felt awkwardly because I never danced with the man. I remember, that I have reddened and have escaped therefrom. After that I weigh evening cried in a room. It was very a shame to me. Christina has calmed me, we long with her talked! Then I have forgotten about this unsuccessful ball. Next day Dmitry, has come to my group with flowers and has invited to appointment, but I have given up to it. After that he long looked after me, and tried to achieve my attention. Then I was too naive and have thought, that I have fallen in love with him!
We have started to meet him, when I was 19 years old. First in our relations all was good, we understood and about respect concerned to each other. But when we last year training, he has started to drink often, he shirked lessons. In institute wished him to deduct. Then I have suggested him to correct a situation and began to help with study. Then I lived in a hostel with friends. Dmitry, often came to me to a room, and I helped it with study. And once having come to my room I have seen Dmitry and my friend, her called Svetlana! They were together in a bed. My heart has stood, to me was madly sick from seen. I have escaped therefrom! I did not wish to come back more there and to see their faces. To me was sick to realize, that he spoke me about love, looking in eyes! To me it was sick that he has exchanged me for my friend. I could not believe that Svetlana, could betray me. In fact we lived together five years, and I always tried to help her with all. I never bore her malice. I long experienced from happened, I have moved to live in other room and avoided a meeting with Dmitry and Svetlana.
Later week, I have gone home and have talked about this situation to mum. Then she has given me advice! She has told, that there was no love and friendship. My mum has advised to forget this situation, and to continue to live further. I have made as my mum has told. But I have solved, that my new relations will be only with the man who will be more senior than me! Because the senior the man knows as to address with the woman. John, for me the most important in relations, is sincerity, honesty and confidence. John, these things also are important for you? What exactly for you is important in relations? I shall understand if for you it was unpleasant to hear about it. But I want that you knew all about me. I do not want, that between us there were secrets. I hope, that you with me agree. Your friend Natalya
Letter 10
Hello John!!! How there was your day? John as soon as we shall understand that we wish to be together! I am very glad that you have feelings for me! John, my feelings grow every day I very much I hope that soon my feelings will open for you! John, I want too you to know more about Russia. In my country there is a saying - in order to understand Russia you need to live in Russia. I will try to explain to you what kind of life in my country. Russia - it is the biggest country in the world, in my country 83 regions of the Russian Federation. It is like in your country 50 states. In Russia there are 180 various nations. Each nation has her history, culture, language and traditions. All together, this is big and great history of Russia. We have are known poets Pushkin, Esenin, Tolstoy. Do you know about them much? In Russia many various crafts. I send you some photos. The first photo are valenoks. It is Old Russian footwear. The second photo - it gzhel and hohloma. It a little prophetic which associate with Russia. I hope, that it will be interesting to you. John, often on TV programs about what foreigners are saying about my country. Sometimes it makes me laugh. Because many are mistaken in his statements about Russia. Really, Russia has a lot of problems. But Russia is a wonderful country. I love Russia, with all its advantages and disadvantages. And I think everyone should love homeland! What do you think? am I right? I hope, that it was interesting to you to learn about my country. You can tell to me more about your country? Yours faithfully Natalya. p.s. I am sending you a poem by Pushkin. " WINTER MORNING " Frost and the sun; day wonderful!
Still you doze, the friend charming-
It is time, a beauty, wake up:
Open looks are closed by luxury
Towards to northern Aurora,
Star the north be! Evening, you remember, the blizzard was angry,
In the muddy sky the haze rushed;
The moon, as a pale spot,
Through clouds gloomy turned yellow,
And you sad sat-
And now..... Have a look in a window: Under blue heavens
Magnificent carpets,
Shining on the sun, a snow lays;
The transparent wood one blackens,
And the fur-tree through hoarfrost turns green,
And the small river under an ice shines. All room amber shine
It is lit up. A cheerful crash
The flooded furnace cracks.
It is pleasant to think at a stove bench.
But you know: whether to order in sled
Mare brown harnessed? Sliding on a morning snow,
The friend the darling, we shall be betraid to run
Impatient horse
Also we shall visit fields empty,
Woods, recently so dense,
And coast, lovely for me.
Letter 11
John how there was you today? How your state of health? Whence you know Russian? I understand that your niece will have wedding! I hope that you will go on its wedding and will be very happy to see your family! Thanks for a photo! Very beautiful beach! It is very pleasant to me to learn about your travel to Russia! I hope that you will have excellent travel and to see your native! Today my day has passed very well.
Since the morning I had an excellent mood. Having woken up, I have looked in a window, there was an excellent weather. Speak, that as you will begin day so it and you will lead. I very much love, when my morning begins with a smile. I read in one very cognitive book, that the person even in a unpleasant situation should speak itself, that could be and worse than now. On the one hand it looks ridiculously. John, but it really helps to motivate itself and to not be upset on trifles. I very much like to read, and often books in which attitude of people is discussed, their attitude to problems come across to me. John, tell, and how you concern to problems in a life? What helps you to struggle, and to not lose courage in a complex situation? You share with someone the ideas and experiences? Personally I cannot hold all of a problem in myself. I almost about all talk to my mum, or Marina. Today I just have met with Marina in grocery shop. We were very glad to a meeting, and have gone what to have a bite in cafe. We have talked that new has occured from our last meeting. Marina, married, they for a long time with the husband wished to get the child, at last Marina has become pregnant. It has told, that already on the second month of pregnancy. I was madly glad to this news, I have congratulated it on so significant event. Then we long talked and about the past. John, I have told Marina, that I communicate with you. It has started me to ask, about you. I have told to it, that I very much am pleasant like with you, and that you very decent the man. It has told to me to be cautious and that heard bad histories about girls who marry foreigners much. It has started to tell to me various unpleasant histories, but I have stopped it and have asked to not lift this conversation henceforth. I have explained Marina, that it is not necessary to experience for me, you very good person, besides we at present simply learn, about each other. John, do not take offence on Marina, it only experiences for me. Marina, very good, kind and sympathetic person, it always supports me a difficult minute, and shows care of me. I hope, that you will understand its experiences. John, and you, spoke with someone what you write to me? If yes, I would like to know opinion of your relatives and friends about ours with you dialogue. Relatives, always care of us, and try to warn us, I always listen to their opinion, but I do how I consider it necessary. Therefore as it is my life, and to live it to me. I am deeply confident that ourselves we build the destiny. And all in our life depends only on ourselves! In the end of our conversation Marina, has invited me on a visit to itself next week. It has told, that wishes me to treat with a new dish of own preparation. I as very much like to prepare, and we is frequent with it we exchange experience. John, I would like too for something to surprise Marina, you could tell to me about kitchen in the USA, and give any recipe? I would be very grateful to you. On it I shall finish the letter, I hope, that at you all is good, and soon I shall see your answer. Your friend Natalya
Letter 12
John, how are you? Today I have received the letter from unfamiliar email addresses. I thought it you have written to me from another email.
But when I have read through your letter I have understood, that it was written by one of those of the man who wrote to me earlier. He again asked naked photos and called me the robot. I have not understood, that he wished to tell it. I am not interested in it. I have removed its letter. I hope, that he will not write to me anymore. I am surprised that men happen are very impudent! I do not understand, how they can ask a naked photo from the girl? Unless the man does not understand, what he offends by it the decent woman??? Probably, I do not understand something. I am brought well up also I shall never send naked photos. I think that the woman should belong only to one man! I was brought up by my mum, and I am assured, that it is correct. Much in the world varies, it seems to me, that gradually people go mad. I think that people lose feelings of conscience, shame, modesty and fidelity! Sometimes I think, that many people have forgot to love. People have replaced light feelings with false values. People gradually become heartless! John, I am very grateful to my mum, that she has given me good education! Maybe, I am a little old-fashioned, but I know that I have heart! I know, that my conscience is pure. I know, that I have people who sincerely loves me. And for me it is important!!! John, I search here for the present love! John but before it is opened my feelings for you we should to know each other! I hope that you understand me! I very much hope that we shall continue to learn each other and our feelings will grow the friend for the friend! I hope that your trip will be excellent! I hope to receive your letter! John, tomorrow 19.07, my aunt's birthday. I have taken the day off on work, and I shall go to them in Minino to make a surprise. I have prepared for a gift for aunt Lyudmila. My gift is the room flower "Eucalyptus." This flower possesses, bright aroma and allows to leave air in a room pure and fresh. I think, that she will like this gift! She very much loves room flowers. I hope, that I was not mistaken with a choice. John, I shall finish my letter, I need to go on the bus to go in Minino. Forgive, today I have no photo to send you! I shall send a photo when I shall return. I shall wait for your following letter. Your friend Natalya.
Letter 13
John, I am glad to see your answer. I spoke you that, I went in Minino. Today I have returned in Tatarsk. I had a good trip. My aunt Lyudmila, liked my gift. She said she would put "Eucalyptus" next to the bed. John, I was happy to see my aunt's smile. I think that in a life very important, to see happiness of close people. I had good time in the house of my mum. We made a celebratory supper. It was cheerful. We prepared salad "Olivie", pot roast and cake for dessert. It was very tasty. I liked the cake, we baked it mother's prescription. It is called " fallen leaves ". This pie gathers from several cake becomes covered by a special cream. John, do you like sweets? If you love sweet then you would love this pie. John, would you like to try it? My aunt very intelligent person. She worked as the teacher of Russian and the literature at school. She read us poems of Pushkin and Yesenin. Sometimes I think, that she knows all Russian poetry by heart. My mum and Lyudmila have asked me about my private life. I have told about ours with you dialogue. They have been very surprised, that there were opportunities to speak with someone from other country! They also have been surprised that I speak with the man from other country. Mum has started to ask me about you, I have told that you very good person. I have told, that Kind, Careful, Sympathetic, Good. My mum, has told that I never forgot about education which she have given me!!! She wants that I always remained the decent girl! My mum is glad that I have dared to build relations and family. She has advised to do, that speaks my heart. She has asked to show your photo next time. I have promised, that I shall make it. John, can I show your photos to my mother? John, my mum asked that I spent the night in her house. But I have returned in Tatarsk because I do not wish to leave your letter without the answer. John, me it is very pleasant, that I am familiar with you! Your letters and your life are very interesting to me. John, I hope to see your answer tomorrow.
Natalya
Letter 14
John, all day I thought of my mother's words. My mum has told, that when I shall meet my destiny then my life completely to change. And I should be ready to these changes. Mum has told to me history as she have got acquainted with my daddy. Then, my mum lived with parents in Orenburg. She worked in a sewing factory. Once, when mum has gone to cinema she has met the father. Mum speaks, that remembers his image, he was big strong, beautiful the man! She could not take her eyes off him. The father also noticed my mother and asked her to hold up home. My mother has agreed! Thus began the love story of my parents. My father was 12 years older than my mother. Then he was the officer of the Soviet Army. And after 6 months their dating, he was sent to serve in Minino. My mum had to leave parents and work to be together with my father. She has gone together with the father in Minino. My mother told me that it is very hard to be an officer's wife. But my mum never regretted that has left all to be together with my father. Mum was very happy, when told to me it. Mum has told, that together with the father she was happy every day and every minute. It is really big and complex step to leave all for the sake of the beloved. Today I spent the whole day thinking would be I able to do also? It is valid not the simple decision! But I think that I could make it. John, can you leave everything for your beloved? Can you start life with a clean slate? I shall wait your letter. I hope, you will answer my questions, it is important for me. Your friend Natalya
Letter 15
John, I am glad to see your letter! John, I had very intense day on work today. I went to check Smirnov's family. It is having many children and unsuccessful family. I watch this family. I visit their time in two weeks. I check their conditions of a life, health of children and a condition of mother. They live without the father, he has left them two years ago. Galina it is mum of this family. Galina had problems with alcohol. It is very a pity to me of her children. I try to explain Galina that she has refused alcohol and have regretted children! But she never listened to me. One month ago her wished to deprive with the parental rights. But then she has promised that will be corrected. Today I have been surprised that, all have changed. Galina did cleaning the house, her children were neatly dressed and smiling at me. She has cooked a tasty dinner and has invited me to have a dinner with them. I have agreed. Galina has thanked me, that I have opened to her eyes on her problems. She has told to me, that very much worried, when her husband has left them!! She very much was afraid, that there was one with problems. I am very glad, that Galina have found forces and have solved this problem. After a dinner when I left their house to me has approached Anna. Anna oldest Galina's daughter. Anna has told to me, that they are very grateful, because I have returned to them mum! She has given me the curtailed leaf. She has asked to not forget and visit them. I have promised, that them I shall visit more often. When I have left the house then I have opened a leaf it there was a figure. On it their family has been represented. On a leaf It has been written “ for Natalya “ me very much has touched and has forced to shed a few tears! I was very pleased to feel necessary person! Today I was once again convinced of necessity of my work! I understand that my work is very important for people. I believe that Smirnov's family is now all is well. John, tell to me about your day? Your friend Natalya.
Letter 16
Hello dear John!!! Who that has stolen my photos! I never was on that site! Yesterday I long could not fall asleep. Because I have met Dmitry. When I saw his, my heart is not trembled. Earlier I very long would think of this meeting. But now I do not wish even to think of those gloomy memoirs. I long thought that has changed my consciousness??? John, many of my coworkers say that to my face smile never disappears, and I became even more vigorously. John, I did not give to it value. But after a meeting with Dmitry, I have understood that I very much have changed. John if I have met Dmitry earlier, I again would think of those bad memoirs. But now I do not wish to long and think of the past. John, you have helped to forget to me about the last relations. I have learned to see many negative things on the other hand. I am assured, it you have helped me! John, you are open person, you are cheerful and wise. I have learned much at you. Our dialogue to me gives to confidence and allows me to feel as princess. I never tested such care and man's attention to me. It is very pleasant! John, I am assured, that any woman with you would be happy. You are an amazing man! I am surprised, that you have great heart. Such people as you very little! I am very happy because I can communicate with you. John, thanks that you have appeared in my life! I never had such friend as you.
You are a lovely person and a wonderful man. Natalya.
Letter 17
John, I today have woken up very happy!!! You came to me in my dream. John, we were together. You held my hand and looked in my eyes. It was very real dream! I have remembered your words. John, you have told to me “ NATALYA I LOVE YOU ”. It was perfectly! I did not want, that it came to an end. But when I have woken up I have understood that it was a dream. This dream was fine!!! Today I have a smile all the day long. I with impatience waited when I can go to library to read through your letter. Now I read your letter and I have tears in my opinion.
John, it is tears of pleasure. I am happy to read your letter. Your letters this all that are at me. But this all finest, that was with me.
John, I was never happy, as now. I look forward to your letters like a school girl getting that note from the pretty boy that turns his stomach into butterflies. John, I cannot describe, that I test. I very much wish to shout!!! I very much wish to shout that you have heard me! I want that you have heard about my love! I LOVE YOU JOHN! I am assured of it! I feel it my body and my soul! I am assured, that you the man which I waited all my life. I am assured, that only you can make me happy! John, your love is necessary to me! You are necessary to me only! John, my black and white world has turned into color. John, I never tested such feelings! I understand that, at last the love has come to my life! This love heats me from within! This love is capable to change all my life! John, thanks, that you are in my life! Thanks, that you have learned me to love! I very much wish to look in your eyes and to tell to you about my love! John, do you want that my dream become a reality? John, do you want us to be together? To me it is very sad about your former wife! I perfectly understand as it hard to lose close people! John, I am very glad the nobility that I have brought to you feelings! JOHN, MY LOVE I WILL WAIT FOR YOUR LETTER WITH IMPATIENCE! I
AM HAPPY, THANKS YOU FOR IT! Yours and only yours Natalya.
Letter 18
I am happy, that my feelings are mutual. I trust, that we shall be the happiest pair in the world! John, we needed to meet. John, I am grateful to destiny that she has given us chance to become happy! John, we with you have deserved love! We have deserved the right fortunately! We suffered in a life much! Time for our happiness has now come! John, now we shall begin our new happy life! John, I have good mood. John do you know what happened yesterday? Yesterday you came again to me in a dream. It was so beautiful. John, each time my dreams become more and more real! I never was on the sea! John, but today we were together on a beautiful beach! It was the sea, the sun, white sand and we! JUST US! JUST YOU AND ME! We laid and looked against each other! I saw my reflection in your eyes. You whispered something to me, but I could not understand it. I have come nearer to you to hear, what you speak. And we have merged in a passionate kiss. You caressed my shoulders and hair!!! You kissed my neck …. Each your kiss burnt me!!! When I have opened eyes I felt this heat. John, it was so fine dream! I have tried to fall asleep again. I wished to appear again together with you! But I could not fall asleep again … John, I very much want that my dreams were carried out! I want that we were together. I wish to be together with you and to feel your breath. For me it does not matter how and where we will live. John, for me it is important that we were together! That's all I want! John, I wish to roll in your embraces. I LOVE YOU MINE JOHN!!! I send you millions air kisses! I hope, my letter will warm you! Yours and only yours Natalya
Letter 19
John how was your day? I had good day. In the morning I had meeting on work. This meeting was prolonged till a dinner. After a dinner I have borrowed in detour of my wards. I have visited Smirnov family. Galinas was absent at home, she was on work. But its children have met me.
They were all right, it is very pleased me! I have a little talked to children and have gone further. After I have visited Tatiana Sergeevna and Nina Yurievna. These are two women who are older than 80 years. The last month we have occupied them in a hostel because in their houses there were conditions not suitable for residing. I have brought for them products and medicines. I have talked about their health. After Tatiana Sergeevna has told to me, that I sparkle as a brilliant on the sun! She has noticed, that I am very happy! She has told that never saw me such! Tatiana Sergeevna has told, that she at once has understood that I have fallen in love. I was surprised and have asked her why she so thinks? She has told, that enamoured difficultly to not notice. And then I have told to her about you. Tatiana Sergeevna it has been surprised, that we have got acquainted through internet. She was is very surprised that two persons from the different countries can to communicate without problems with each other. I have told to her, that I think of a meeting with you. Tatiana Sergeevna has told, that I act correctly and that I should listen to my heart then I can become happy. But conversation has entered Nina Yurievna. Nina Yurievna has told, that does not trust, that it is possible to grow fond of the person of whom never met. I have explained to her, that I read your letters! I have told that I know your ideas and I feel you my heart! I and have enough of it. I have told also have told that for me the soul of the person is important. Because only the person with the big soul can love really! Tatiana Sergeevna has supported me! She asked that Nina Yurievna did not give me any advice. Then I have returned for work. When the working day has ended I has gone home! I thought of conversation with Tatiana Sergeevna and Nina Yurievna. John, I think that Nina Yurievna never loved, because she thinks that the true love cannot exist on distance. I think, that for the true love there is no distance and barrier. John, what do you think about this? Thanks for your photo! You very beautiful, thanks for a photo of colors, very beautiful flowers! I LOVE YOU JOHN!!! The whole! I shall wait for your letter. I miss you! Yours and only yours Natalya.
Letter 20
John, I am glad to see your letter! Your letters warm my soul! John, how was your day? What is your weather like? I am very glad to read about your feelings for me! John, every day my love to you all becomes stronger. I cannot think of what except for you. John, every minute I think only of you. I very long thought about Tatiana Sergeevna's words. John, I think, we should meet. In my opinion it is necessary for opinion for us. John when we shall meet we we can discuss all event between us! Then we can understand that we are necessary the friend for the friend. John, in my heart there are no doubts about my feelings for you. I am assured, that we are created the friend for the friend. We can feel all only when we shall meet! What do you think about our meeting?? John, I very much worry that think your close people of me? They will be happy for us, if we are together? What do you think? John, very important for me to know about it! That about my close people, do not worry. John, my mom and my friends are very good to you. John, for my close people it is important, that I was happy. I shall be happy only with you!!! I shall wait for your letter and answers to my questions! I hope that we want the same! I LOVE YOU JOHN!!! Yours and only yours Natalya.
Letter 21
I am glad to see your letter. That you have written thanks me. John, I love you, I miss you, I need you. Only your letters give me a smile.
I shall learn about a trip! As I learn I all I shall inform you on it in my letter! Today I have woken up early! Then I have gone to visit my friend. We had a breakfast! Then we decided go shopping. John, I wished to make a few purchases to update my wardrobe. I have bought a dress, jeans and a few shirts. A dress very beautiful, I am assured you will like that. I have bought this dress specially for our first meeting. John, for me our meeting is very important! I want to look good, for you like me. Therefore I very long chose a dress! I tried to choose the most beautiful dress. Marina, said she was tired to go shopping with me. She has told, that I never chose things long. I have told to her that earlier I bought my things for me. Now I want that it was pleasant to you. And consequently the choice became much more difficult. After we have come into cafe, and had some coffee. Then we have gone home. John when we shall be together, we shall be the happiest pair in the world! John, I shall make everything that you always smiled. When you smile, you are happy, and if you are happy, I am happy also! It is the simple formula of our happiness. John, tell me how you imagine our first meeting? I with impatience shall wait for your answer. Yours and only yours Natalya.
Letter 22
My love John! I am very glad to see your letter! Each your word warms my heart and soul. You can not imagine, how I am glad to read your letter. I miss you so much when I do not see your letters. That today you have written thanks me! John, your words sound so pleasantly to my heart. I would like to feel your gentle strong embraces more likely already! I cannot wait to appear in your hands! It will be very pleasant to me to become a part of your life. And I wish to make you happy! I very much love your dream! I very much hope what be very fast we can together and carry out all our dreams! John, I think that I shall not answer these questions, it is a personal question! John, I think, that our meeting should come nearer. In my town there is travel agency. I shall learn more about my trip to you in travel agency. I will need in your information. Please give me your full name, your address, the name of your closest airport. I think, that it will be necessary in travel agency. I hope you will give me your information in your letter. John, I am glad, that we have found each other. I am assured, together we shall be the happiest pair in the world. You are necessary to me only and only your love! John, I shall soon in your embraces!
Then we can carry out all our dreams. I promise you, you will always have a smile in your face. I shall make everything that you were happy!
When I close eyes, I imagine us together. Only you in my ideas! Only love to you in my heart John!!! John, very soon we shall together! I think only of it. John, I am so sorry but I should go! Now I shall go to mum in Minino! I shall inform my mum, that we have decided to meet and soon I shall go to you. I shall write to you my letter when I shall return. I love you John!!! The whole! Yours forever Natalya
Letter 23
John how there was your day? I had good day! I have returned from Minino. I have told to my mum about my trip to you. John, my mum all over again had tears in her eyes! But then she has told to me that will miss very much. I have told to her, that we necessarily shall arrive to visit her. Can we do it John??? My mum very much worries, but she has told that she is very happy for us with you. My mum has approved my step. She has told that together with you I shall be happy. John, for me it was very important to know her opinion. I was very much pleased with her reaction to my news. John, you very much like my mum. She responds about you very well. Mum speaks "Hello" for you!!! John when I have returned Minino, I at once have gone to library to write to you the letter. I did not receive your letter about yellow dress! Thanks for your personal information! I save it. I very much hope that it will help us for our meeting! John give me your phone number! To me not important we shall have what bed-clothes! I am glad, that we can soon speak about love looking an eye in the face. I LOVE YOU JOHN!!! I am happy, that soon we shall together! Tomorrow I shall learn what I will need for my trip to you. I send you millions air kisses! I want that my kisses have warmed you at this night! I very soon can warm you every night! I cannot wait to read through your letter Yours and only yours Natalya
Letter 24
It pains me to talk about it. I can not come to you. John, it is very expensive for me. When I found out about the cost of the trip, I almost fainted. John, I asked them why the prices are very expensive? They explained to me that if I make all of the documents themselves, then the cost will be even greater. So how to get the documents I need more time and money. A travel agency dealing with this for a long time, and they will be able to make my trip a cheaper and faster. They asked me if I wanted to sign a contract for the registration of my trip. But I refused. John, I am sorry! I am sorry that I told you that soon we will be able to be together. I believe in our love and I believe that all dreams are achievable. John, I do not know what to tell you! I realize that I am guilty before you. But if you'll forgive me, we can continue our dialogue. And in the future we'll see what we do with our meeting. I love you with all my heart! I want to scream about my love for you is very loud so you hear about it!! I need you and your love!! I beg you, forgive me! I am sorry that I was silly and did not know in advance of my trip. I thought that my savings will be enough, but it is not enough. I just did not know about it. Forgive me John! You have an amazing heart! And I hope that you will try to understand me. I very much hope that you will forgive me! My life has no meaning if you will not be in my life! I love you! John, I hope to see your letter! I LOVE YOU! I do not want to live without you! I created only for you! Your loving Natalya.
Letter 25
Hello my love John! I write to you my letter and my eyes are full some tears! Thanks, that you have forgiven me! Thanks! I cannot imagine my life without you. My heart is broken off from a pain. I never felt such strong pain in my heart. John, you the man of all my life! I love you. You are necessary to me and now I choke without you and your love! John, thanks that you do not leave me one with this problem. Thanks, that you want that we were together. I love you. John, I thought what be fast we can together. I imagined our first meeting, your first kiss! John but when I have learned about cost of a trip to me it became very bad. I could not keep my tears, the pain has filled my heart! I could not tell words. To me it is very bad! I cannot believe that I cannot make anything to be together with you and to carry out all our dreams! In travel agency to me have told that I could travel to you to me it is necessary to pay documents and tickets. Cost of documents - 830 US dollars. In this cost it is included: Passport 130 of dollars, The visa of 227 dollars, Trip to Moscow 205 dollars, Residing at Moscow 213 dollars, Medical examination of 55 dollars. John, also to me have told cost of the ticket in Sao Paulo, Brazil - 617 US dollars.
The total cost of the trip - 1447 US dollars. John, I have only 140 US dollars. It very much a greater sum and I have no means to pay mine a trip. I am very grateful to you that you want that we were together. John, tomorrow the bank will not work, on Monday I shall learn about the bank account! I very much hope that it will work for us and we can carry out all our dreams! I do not know what to do! I never can pay my trip!!! In fact if I had means I could arrive to you in two weeks. In travel agency to me have told that if I can pay my trip that all documents will be ready in two weeks then I need to pay the ticket and I can fly to you. I do not know that now to me to do! And my heart is broken off from a pain! John, only with you I can become the happiest! I wish to be yours forever!! Now I shall write to you my letter and I shall go home where I am am waited again with a cold bed, a lonely room, grief, grief and loneliness..... I very much want that the house in which we shall be together always have been filled by your laughter and smiles that in our house it was always warm from ours with you of love and passions. But in fact now it is dreams, I very much want that ours with you dreams became a reality! I wish to live together with you all my life. I wish to be together with you to my death! To me to become even worse when I start think that I cannot to make anything to embody all ours with you dreams in a reality, from it my eyes are even more filled with tears, my heart is even more filled with a pain. I very much hope that tomorrow I can read through your letter, in fact only your letter for me as a beam of the sun in the cloudy sky. I love you with all heart and with all soul! I yours and only yours forever Natalya.
Letter 26
John, I am glad to see your letter! Thanks for your lines, they warm my heart. John, I did not know that my money will not suffice to pay my trip! John, today I went to learn how you can help us. I have gone to bank, and talked to its employee. It has told and that they have a branch of company MoneyGram. To me have told about this company. John, this company is engaged in remittances worldwide. Branches MoneyGram, are worldwide. John, whether you heard about such company? I hope, that MoneyGram, can help us. John, I hope, that we can unite our efforts and soon we shall meet. I madly love you! John, I am assured that the destiny has specially put before us this barrier. The destiny checks us and our feelings! John, we should sustain this check! We should struggle for us and our future! We suffered enough, now our time to be happy! John, I with impatience shall wait for your letter. I hope that the information about which I have learned, will help us to meet!
Yours and only yours Natalya
Letter 27
Hello my love John! I do not know how I used to live without you. My life began only when you decorate it with your presence. I am happy with you. And I do not need another man. I never think of another man! My thoughts are programmed only to you, and that is associated with you. Only you in my huge heart. I love you.... The aroma of my love - all over: in the sky, the clouds, the sun, the earth, in the air....
And in every letter, every word that you see in this letter. I am writing to you to believe, I really miss you. Every molecule of my body missing... John, I also am grateful to you that you want that we were together. Thanks, that you do not leave me one with this problem and you wish to carry out our dreams. I hope that your fishing will be excellent! To me I am very sad that not together with you! I very much would like to go with you to fish! John, when I learned about Money Gram, I was told that in order for you to be able to use this company you will have to know: my full name - Natalya Gedgagoiva, and address of Money Gram in my city: Russia, Tatarsk, Zakrievskogo 1, 632122. So that I was able to get the funds I need: your full name, address of the bank that you will be using, exact amount of the transfer, and control number. John, I very much hope that it will help us! If now I had 830 US dollars then I could begin documents and our meeting would be closer with each minute. We could be together in two weeks! You only imagine it! We can carry out all our dreams. John, tell me what you dream? I am sure I will try to fulfill all your dreams. I want to do to prove to you the power of my love. It is - infinite. You - my very dear man. I feel like the days are painfully separated from you. Who came up with all these distances? I love you. I love all your photos! I like to look at your photos, it helps me. I want to feel taste of your tender lips! I want to feel like they are fabulously caress my body.
I have all my life I will remember every second, spent with you. Thank you for what you did to me. Yes, you are close, despite the distance.
I see your eyes, when I close my! Your eyes are so beautiful, so charming! John, I very much hope that you can write your letter tomorrow. I send you the sea of the kisses! I yours and only yours forever Natalya.
Letter 28
Hello my love John! I do not know how I used to live without you. My life began only when you decorate it with your presence. I am happy with you. And I do not need another man. I never think of another man! My thoughts are programmed only to you, and that is associated with
you. Only you in my huge heart. I love you.... The aroma of my love - all over: in the sky, the clouds, the sun, the earth, in the air....
And in every letter, every word that you see in this letter. I am writing to you to believe, I really miss you. Every molecule of my body missing... John, I also am grateful to you that you want that we were together. Thanks, that you do not leave me one with this problem and you wish to carry out our dreams. I hope that your fishing will be excellent! To me I am very sad that not together with you! I very much would like to go with you to fish! John, when I learned about Money Gram, I was told that in order for you to be able to use this company you will have to know: my full name - Natalya Gedgagoiva, and address of Money Gram in my city: Russia, Tatarsk, Zakrievskogo 1, 632122. So that I was able to get the funds I need: your full name, address of the bank that you will be using, exact amount of the transfer, and control number. John, I very much hope that it will help us! If now I had 830 US dollars then I could begin documents and our meeting would be closer with each minute. We could be together in two weeks! You only imagine it! We can carry out all our dreams. John, tell me what you dream? I am sure I will try to fulfill all your dreams. I want to do to prove to you the power of my love. It is - infinite. You - my very dear man. I feel like the days are painfully separated from you. Who came up with all these distances? I love you. I love all your photos! I like to look at your photos, it helps me. I want to feel taste of your tender lips! I want to feel like they are fabulously caress my body.
I have all my life I will remember every second, spent with you. Thank you for what you did to me. Yes, you are close, despite the distance.
I see your eyes, when I close my! Your eyes are so beautiful, so charming! John, I very much hope that you can write your letter tomorrow. I send you the sea of the kisses! I yours and only yours forever Natalya.
Letter 29
John how I could trust in you? The truth speak, that the love is blind. And my love did not become exception. John, I idolized you, have put on a pedestal, have told all about the feelings. And you are indifferent have concerned, as if it you does not concern. Such sensation, that I told not about the feelings, and about the recipe of a new pie which I subtracted in magazine. To you was as deeply to spit. How you could so to act? I before you have opened a soul, and you in it have spat, moreover and were trampled, as though, and it was necessary. To me painfully and very sadly from your behaviour. Insult very deeply in heart. But nevertheless I love you, and my love does not pass. I love and I hate simultaneously. Me pulls to you as a magnet, and I cannot do anything with myself. Recollecting our conversation, I feel disgust for you and for, that you so with me have acted, but I continue you to love, not looking, on what. Here is how you so can? fell in love me in itself, and has then killed the indifference. You know, that without you I do not live, and I exist. The feeling of insult eats me from a nutria, and the love restores all after a fire. And so proceeds day after day. And this fire will not abate, as it cannot destroy everything because this all is restored. The eternal flame, soul is broken off on slices, and heart is smashed. For what you so with me? I in fact simply love you and I ask nothing in exchange, only a droplet of sympathy. But you and on it are not capable. You can destroy only! Sometime you will understand, that such to be crushed favourite the person. Understand, that I simply do not know, that to me to think! YOU have confused me! I do not know now, that you feel to me! John I do not know how to name our attitudes! I do not know, that to me to do further!
Natalya.
Letter 30
John when I read your letter, I did not know about what to me to think. I read your letter with tears on eyes! You do not imagine as me were sick to see it! I do not imagine as you can speak me it John! I do not know about what to me now to think John! I never could think that you can not trust me! I always thought that we with you have the present love! But what can be love if you at all do not trust me? How you could admit to me love if you at all do not trust me? Love is a positive feeling. If it is tainted by mistrust, jealousy, insecurity or spitefulness it is not really love but merely a pale copy. Love is the total surrender of your heart to another person with the security of knowing they will treat it better than you will. Love should feel good. It should not feel bad. Love should make you want to be a better person, it should not lead you to do something self destructive. Love is not demanding of your spirit but lifts it and makes it glow. Love is a good thing. Anything less is lust, deep friendship or attraction. And now, after I had a problem when I wished to arrive to you, you have simply turned away from me! Here in Russia we have a saying " the friend is learnt in a trouble ". Now I see what really at you there were feelings to me. This all for you was simple game, and now you simply wish to make all so that I was guilty in all! You cannot accuse me! I never did nothing for you bad! I simply could not make anything because I have grown fond of you! And you simply played with me! How you can speak me such? I was ready to leave for the sake of you here all! My house, my mum, my friends! I was ready leave them only for that we could to be together! And now you try to make all that I was guilty!!! I do not imagine about what to me now to think! John, I never could think that you can so to act! I always trusted you! I have grown fond of you! And now I see that you played with me, you played time with my feelings of all this! Now I see that words " I love you " for you only words, and it nothing means for you! But for me these words mean very much much!! I have grown fond of you, I thought that we have been created each other! I trusted you with all heart! And now I see such letter from you! You ask me to send you a naked photo! You in the mind? You Remember to me spoke about people which ask naked photos!
You turn out that same awful the man? I never deceived to you! I did not speak you that I have bought a yellow dress! I have sent these photos simply! To me it is very sick from your mistrust! And it only because of that I had a problem when I wished to arrive to you! I at all do not understand you! I do not know that to me now to do. I never could think that you can speak me such words.....
Letter 31


Hello John. All this time, I thought of you, about us and about our attitudes. I had many ideas. And the help of my mum was necessary to me.
I was at mum. I have told to it everything, that has occured between us. We long talked. My mum has told, that I do not need to fly to you if you do not trust. It spoke, that mistrust, it is an attribute not the present love. If in heart there is a mistrust then there are doubts, checks, insults and other bad things which can damage attitudes and a joint life. My mum always wished good luck for me. And now it has given me many advice. But the decision remains behind my heart. John, I am very surprised to see these photos! To me it is sad that bad people have stolen my photos!! I have sent you my photo with a leaf! Unless it is not enough? I called to you but you do not take your phone! I shall not send a naked photo! One very important reason. It that to me the manager of library helps to load pictures, and it can see all that I send you. And on it I would not want that it saw pictures which I shall send you. In fact it is very personal pictures and if it will see it it will start to speak all that I send sexual pictures. And about me will start to speak that I the prostitute. I do not want it, and on it I shall not begin to send you similar pictures. I do not know that you want?? What feels your heart? What do you feel to me?
To me was very sick to see insulting things which you spoke about me. To me it was sick from your checks. I have really believed to you and was ready to leave everything, for the sake of us and our happiness. But now my heart hurts also I am afraid to make a decision. I do not know that to me to do! What to me to do John??? What shall we do now? I very much hope, that you can tell about it. I do not understand, for what the destiny has given us such heavy test! Sometimes it seems to me, that my forces on an outcome!
Letter 32
I read your letter and my eyes are full some tears! To me it is very sick that your love simply game! To me it is very sick that you ask me what that proofs! We built our love together, and now you have destroyed all! I never could think that you will to ask me a naked photo! To me it is very sick from your mistrust. John, I was ready to leave favourite mum, the aunt, friends, the house, the Country, and all for the sake of you, I have found a way to call to you, I yesterday called to you but you even did not begin to take a tube! You speak that you love me but how you can speak about love if you at all do not trust me that I am real? All means your words about love were empty! I now write to you my letter and my soul is turned out on a wrong side. John, I never could think, that can so to act with me! I cannot keep my tears! I cry that you have betraid me. To me it is very sick! I never could think that you can be awful the man! I always thought that you have very beautiful heart and a great soul, really I was mistaken??????? I do not wish to believe in it! Now for me it as a dreadful dream, I try to wake up, but I cannot. I cannot keep my tears!!!!! Tell why you can speak about me so badly??? To me it is very sick! John, today I shall call to you I hope that you will take phone if I really for you that that I stand. To me all is very sick that so occurs plaintive Natalya..........
Created: 2017-08-24    Last updated: 2017-10-19    Views: 501