I sent you this letter 3 days ago, but have not received your answer.
I do not know probably you very busy or simply have not received my letter, but I hope to continue the correspondence with you. I send you again my letter, I hope you receive it this time.
It's my letter:
Thanks for your letter. I had no opportunity to write to you sooner.
I hope you remember me (smile). I wanted to answer at once to not keep you waiting for my answer, but I got access to a computer only now.
My friend, you do not tell me, what is your name? While I will name you the friend, I hope you will not take offence (smile).
Probably first of all I should write the most important thing. I'm real woman with brains in a head and heart in a chest.
I live in Russia. Now I live in village of Kostylevka.
It's a small settlement, where live a few hundreds inhabitants.
Kostylevka near to such known cities as Shakhty, Rostov on Don, Taganrog, Novocherkassk. I am gynecologist, I began to get education in the comprehensive school with a medical bias. After ending school I entered the Medical University. Now I work in a clinic.
I work as an gynecologist. My height is 5'6, weight is 120 pounds.
I'm 34 years old. My birthday is September, 8, 1986.
I understand that all people have various tastes and interests, but I sincerely hope that my picture and my appearance will be pleasant for you. But if my appearance doesn't conform to your tastes and interests, I will understand you, of course. I the optimist at heart and it's often help me in my life. I already adult woman; and I look at the life with a philosophical shade. But as though I did not try to inspire myself that I absolutely happy woman, I can't do it. I have fine lady friends, I have job and my apartment. But there are things without which people cannot be happy. And for me it's not material things. If you are really serious in your search, I with pleasure shall continue correspondence with you. Anyhow, I hope that you, just as I, have interest in our dialogue, and I will wait your answer. In the end of my letter I want to ask you the most banal questions: what music you like, what movies you prefer. These questions are really interesting for me because I like movies and music very much. I with pleasure will tell to you about it in my next letter if you really want to learn more about me. Do you like your job? Had you ever had experience in correspondence with a friend from other country? Maybe you are more skilled in this than I am? It is simply my female curiosity. Again I send you some pictures, I will be very grateful to you also if you will send me your pictures. And at last time I have sent you the letter from my another e-mail address, please answer me on anna_doc@kostylevka.ru it's my personal mail address and I use it more often.
With the best regards, Anna.

Hi Steve!
How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when I have received your letter I really was glad. Many thanks. At once I want to tell to you about my opportunities to write letters to you. I write letters on my job because I have no the personal computer. The computer is in an accounting department. Lady who works with a computer will allow me to use a computer in my interests sometimes. It depends not from me, unfortunately. I work from Monday till Friday. It is Russian standard.
Therefore I will not be able to write you and to receive your letters Saturday and on Sunday. But sometimes I work Saturday and even Sunday.
In fact any pain hasn't schedules(smile). Therefore, maybe I will be able to write letters in weekends.
Your age is not a problem for me. The age is not main thing.
The age of the person is defined by his appearance and a condition of his soul. I have always believed that age is just a number.
I will hope to receive your pics soon. I will be very grateful to you.
Well, I will tell you more about my interests. I like various types of music. I like to listen to classical music. I like Dire Straits.
I like very much Sting. But my favorite is Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is a great band. I like Queen, Madonna and many others. I like Russian musicians but likely you do not know them. Have you ever heard of Gorky Park? They are Russians who sang in America. OK, movie!
I like works of such Russian directors as Konchalovsky, Mikhalkov. My favorite movies are "The Barber of Siberia" and "Burnt by the Sun".
It's masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The American movie in Russia is considered like the greatest. I like American movies very much.
I like various films. I like dramas: Mystic River, American Beauty, 21 gramme, A Perfect World, One Flew Over Cuckoos Nest, The Shawshank Redemption; fantasy: K-PAX, Star Wars, Sin City, the Lord of the Rings, Dragonfly, melodramas: Love Actually, Scent Of a Woman, Forrest Gump, Cast Away, The Notebook, I am Sam; sports movies: Raging Bull, Cinderella Man; thrillers: Seven, Fight club, and many others, such as Godfather, Deadman, Once upon a time in America, Family man, The Insider, Erin Brockovich, Brave Heart, the Sixth Sense, Rainman, Groundhog Day. I like very much movies Quentin Tarantino: Reservoir Dogs, Pulp Fiction, **** Bill.
My favorite actors - Bruce Willis, Al Pacino, Robert De Niro, Kevin Costner, Samuel L. Jackson, Uma Thurman, Tom Hanks, Kevin Spacey, Morgan Freeman, Denzel Washington, Jack Nicholson, Clint Eastwood.
My hobby, if it's possible to tell so - the English language. I have loved English long ago, when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I have entered in group of the English language and I am happy that I made it. I like this language very much. After school, I continued studying English at the university. I like this language. I have been studying English language for 18 years. I want to know this language perfectly. Of course I speak English. I only hope that you would love my Russian accent that I have without any doubts. I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you won't angry. But my biggest predilection that will be with me during all my life is the knitting!
My mom has taught me to knit in the childhood, and now I knit sweaters, jackets and waistcoats for myself and for my friends. I like to knit very much, and I like woolen clothes very much. Basically all warm sweaters that I have, I have made by my own hands. I do not know if in your country the knitting is popular, but here it is very popular. What else to tell about me? I have no children and I was never married, though of course I was in relationship and even thought that it will lead me to the happy future. But now I haven't anything except of bad and painful memoirs.
Steve, how you would describe your character? I never tried to describe features of my character to somebody. I live with a smile on my face and with hope in my heart. I think I can consider myself an optimist.
And maybe it has helped me to dare to write you. I saw a great deal in my life, and for 34 years I have passed through a lot of vital tests.
And I know that I do not need many things to be happy. All I need is a man, friend, soul-mate, love. And my life has led me to the fact that now I seeks it in such way. And I do not think it is bad. How do you think? I live honestly, and it brings pleasure to me. I know that happiness not requires many things. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love cannot be happy. And I speak not only about love between a man and a woman, but also about love to a family for example. I have no family anymore and it really oppresses me. I always recollect my family. Steve, you meet your family often? I very much want to return that time when I had family.
Are you looking for the soul mate or just a friend? What are you looking for in a soulmate, Steve, if you are looking for? I hope to receive your letter soon. Sincerely and with the best regards.
Anna.

Hi Steve! Today definitely good day - day of dialogue with my friend Steve! (Smile). How it is wonderful to receive something that you really wait. And in a case with me it of course your letter!
Today was a difficult day, and dialogue with you removes my physical weariness. The quantity of patients has considerably increased for some last years. Here many people lives in the remote areas, impassable districts. They lives even without an electricity in absolutely unsuitable conditions for a life. And it certainly becomes the reason of a plenty of diseases. The sad fact. Sometimes I want our president to live here instead of the Kremlin, simply to understand what life is. Maybe in this case all wars would end much faster? Forgive me that I tell you about our problems, simply I write all what in my head. If you do not like to read about it - simply tell me. I am still waiting for your pictures!
I sincerely regret about your parents. I know what you feel.
By the way Steve I have asked you about your family in my last letter because it really interestingly for me, as all my family has passed away.
My parents were military, mom was the military doctor, father was the officer and we hadn't constant house because they very often got the notice about new place of service, in places with the military conflict.
Therefore my childhood was not very cheerful. We lived in temporary habitation outside of zone of conflict, therefore sometimes I did not see my parents some weeks, and I was at home absolutely alone, being an eight-year girl. Therefore since the early childhood I am able to cook, sew, knit and do any heavy physical work. Now I absolutely agree that it's correctly said that:"Thing that does not **** us makes us stronger".
Don't you agree Steve? When father got new place of service near to Kazakhstan, I have gone to study in the good medical university in Tomsk.
I lived in student's hotel on distance of 600 kilometers from my parents.
But we had meeting some times in the year. Later my parents got new place of service and have left to live in the Kostylevka. And I saw my parents only once in one year. At university for the first time in my life I have found a true friend (it is Elena) who is my best and reliable friend till now. We have together passed through a hard time when have been compelled to study and work in the evening and at night,- just to support itself. After ending of university I was to get direction for intern in Tomsk area, but I have received the letter from mom where she informed that daddy has been killed in military collision. There is nothing worse than to find out about death of the parent from the letter.
After that I began to live with mom because I was afraid to leave her lone at such difficult period. One and a half year ago my mom has passed away.
I will not describe all pain and suffering which I had at that time.
Simply I want to tell that all ups and downs, all pleasures and misfortunes that were in my life have led me to who I am now. The destiny was not tender with me, but I am grateful to my destiny for my parents, I am grateful to my destiny for my friend Elena, because it really a gift of destiny. And I hope Steve you are not angry with me that I talk to you about it? It is my life and it is a part of me. And how you would learn me more if I would not tell you it, really? And I as well would be glad to learn more about you. Your life is very interesting to me. Are you grateful to destiny for anything in your life Steve? How often you become tired? Do you like the nature, rivers and lakes, woods and mountains? Are you religious person Steve? I will wait for your letter so please write me soon! Sincerely and with the best regards.
Your friend Anna.
PS. Hello in Russian is Privet , Good-bye in Russian is Do Svidania.

Hi Steve! Today I had so much work that I was afraid that I wouldn't have time to get your letter. And I have to say that it is distressed me.
But now I have found free time and very glad. Thank you for your letter.
My last letter was sad. That's why today I will try not to write about sad things. How there were your day? Now I am smiling and have a good mood, because today we found out that in two days into Shakhty will be coming big exhibition of rare breeds of cats and dogs. It is great news because at this exhibition there will be the best representatives of rare breeds, collected from all of Russia. Everybody wants to visit this exhibition because it will last only for several days. I like animals very much. Can you imagine that I never was in a zoo? It is my dream. Have you ever been in zoo? We have here several small menageries, but I dream to see giraffes and rhinoceroses, hippopotamuses and bears. I never saw tigers and elephants in real life. Have you ever seen a tiger or a bear?
The biggest animal I saw in my life is a horse. I like horses very much and think that these are the most beautiful animals in the planet.
As matter of fact I have always dreamt to have some pets.
Unfortunately a horse hardly would be placed in my apartment (smile).
I dreamt to have cat or dog. But when I think that a little puppy will wait for me home, alone, I feel pity. That's why I don't have pets.
What else to tell about myself? I always very much get tired on work. And though my work is not heavy physical work but like any doctor, I am in constant concentration and an internal moral strenuousness, because the health of people depends on my attention. I am always waiting weekends with impatience. Weekends are the only one possibility for me to get a rest and to get new forces. Weekends I spend variously.
Sometimes I want simply to rest in my apartment. I live alone in my apartment. I have the one-room apartment with a toilet and kitchen.
I like my apartment - small and cozy. On weekends I always clean apartment properly. I like purity. And though I always try to keep clean my apartment, all the same, always in the weekends I find what work to make in an apartment. But when I want really to relax I listen to music or read books. I like to read books especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I like to spend time with my friends. I have two best lady friends. When we meet, the air is filling with laughter. We like to walk and to talk; we go to cinema and walk in the park. If you want I can tell you about my friends.
I like very much to spend time in nature in the open air. I like the sea.
I live not very far away from the sea, but should tell that I have been there very seldom. I like woods, mountains, lakes and the rivers more.
Camping in Russia is very popular. I adore to go to the forest and to live in a tent though now I have such opportunity seldom. I like to look at night illumination and cars headlights. I like very much to look at the stars. In August our sky abound with stars. It is incredible beautifully. I like to cook on the fire. There is nothing more wonderful than when the fragrances of forest, mountain rivers and smoke mix together in the air. I am romantic undoubtedly. I really like to cook. I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood.
My mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well doesn't have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the man's heart (smile). May be she was right. We have In Russia many national dishes, such as an okroshka, uha, borsch, golubtsy, pelmeni. I am not sure if you know such dishes. These are Russian national dishes. Also I like Italian food (pizza, spaghetti), I like sea foods. Once I even tried sushi. What dishes do you prefer Steve? Looking back at your life would you like to change something? I have to finish. I hope my letter was not stodgy and uninteresting.
I will wait for your letter with impatience. I wish you peace and kindness. Anna.

Hi my dear Steve!
Thank you for your letter. Day by day I feel more need in getting your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I should say that when I have good mood I hear gratitude from my patients much more often (smile). Therefore, now the health of a Russian women depend on your letters (smile again).
As for coronavirus in our area, fortunately here the situation is much better than in all Russia and the big cities.
If you will arrive to Russia, you will be my dear guest!
I can find lodging for you! And I know so many beautiful places.
The major city for an international airport I think - Moscow.
We have here other airports(Rostov on Don or Shakhty), but these are the small airports, which serve only local flights.
Ok, now I will tell to you about Russian foods. The borsch (you know)
is soup with boiled beet, a potato, meat, cabbage, onions, pepper and a bay leaf. Golubtsy it is meat mince with the onions, wrapped up in cabbage sheets and stewed in an oven. It is incredibly tasty dish.
It sounds much worse than it is actually. The basic components of okroshka: sausage, hard-boiled eggs, boiled potato, sour cream, onions and the most important - kvass. I am sure that kvass cook only in Russia.
Kvass is a freshening drink that cooks from a mix of rye and barley malt, rye flour or rye zwiebacks, sugar and water with the subsequent fermentation. But it is not an alcoholic drink!
Uha is a fish-soup. But this soup cooks on a fire in caldron. The fish should be just caught right before. As a rule it is the perch, pike or a ruff. In soup will put only a fish, a potato and onions; the salt to taste.
To my regret I could not visit an exhibition. Last days was a lot of work and I could not go to Shakhty. But it not death (smile).
By the way when I came to work today, my mood was bad, because my friend Elena fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 34 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But I have already talked with a doctor and I will be allowed to spend evening in her chamber. In the evening I will bake a cake, I will buy balloons and go to the hospital.
I hope very much that she will have good mood on her birthday.
She is my best friend. By the way, she works with me in the clinic.
Elena the doctor the otolaryngologist in our clinic. As a matter of fact I have only two real friends - Elena and Irina. Elena is a lady who is in the hospital. Irina is our friend already for several years. Elena and I are like sisters. We like to take a walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I don't know if you have seen such houses. It is the houses which were built before the Second World War, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which don't have bath and running water.
So people have to take water outside in the well. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. There she grows the potato, tomatoes and cucumbers not to buy them in the market. Every winter Elena, Irina and I together build a big Snowman in her vegetable garden, using a big snow spheres. We put carrot instead of nose, and potatoes instead of eyes. It is very funny. All neighbor's children came to see it. By the way, if we want to fool about, we put carrots not only instead of a nose but also below..... (hint and smile) First time we made such Snowman 10 years ago.
Since that time we do it every year. It is a tradition for us. We poured it with water to cover with ice. So it could stand for the whole winter.
I like Kostylevka. Almost all people in our village know each other.
We have little buildings - maximum 2 floors. Elena says that she wants to live in a big city. I don't know where is better. Big city is a big traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning's of shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres.
It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our village is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfortable, cozy, quiet place, no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there was no criminality, it would be paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately the crime in Russia is on a very high level. But I don't want to tell about sad things. Several times, Elena, Irina and I went to the festival of bard song. This is a place on the coast of the river where a lot of people come from all country. At night the coast is covered with thousand fires lights. The scene is a huge raft having the form of a guitar and established right on water and everybody who wants to sing together with famous bard singers, goes on this raft and starts to sing. And all thousands people become silent and listen to this singer even if he is absolutely unknown. It is the unique festival. I have to finish my letter.
I don't want but I have to do it. Today when I will come to Elena we will talk about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Steve? What was the best gift from a woman you got? Sincerely your, and with best wishes.
Anna.

Hi Steve!
At once I want to tell that Elena sends you her greetings. I was in hospital and we have spent her birthday very well. I wanted to bake a small cake, but it has turned out on the contrary. The cake was huge. It weighed two kg. When I have brought it to hospital, we have divided this into set of pieces; and all doctors and some patients that were in this small branch are drank tea and ate a pie together with us and everyone was glad and happy. I have brought a lot of balloons. She was very glad and grateful to me. The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. The sun is shining all the day. To add to all this I have got your letter and my happiness doesn't have limits. So what about your weather? May be today after work I will take a walk. I like to walk along the street and to breathe the fresh air, especially when the weather is warm, even in the winter. As a matter of fact I don't want to go home. At home is very boringly and lonesomely. Sometimes I don't notice it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. But my apartment is empty and I have to be in full loneliness. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down into the armchair and look at the window. And when the silence deafens me, when I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment the hoop of loneliness compresses my heart.
I can listen to music or read a book. I can go to my friends. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to talk about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I don't want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But I think enough about it.
Thank you for your answers to my questions. I like what you have written about the best gift from a woman. Of course I am sure that we will meet. I would not start such relations if did not think of a meeting. Without a meeting there can not be any future.
Now we write to each other and we tell about ourselves. Ours dialogue helps us to learn each other, to understand thoughts, feelings. Our dialogue helps us to express by means of words our sensations, feelings, to tell about life experience, to share the kind moments of a life. It undoubtedly helps us to become big friends and more, you agree?
Hi Steve, again. I began writing the letter in the morning.
Now already 5 pm. Can you imagine? Today was heavy working day. My working day comes to an end soon. But, one employee has brought here her small son, and she has asked me to look after him because she should leave urgently for some hours. The boy knows me very well. He already some times remained with me and spent time. As our clinic works till 10 pm, we can be here up to the end of work day. His mom works in our clinic only a few months and she has no friends or relatives here. That's why I already some times helped her. Her son is amusing boy. He told to me that tomorrow he with mom should go to dentist to treat his ill tooth. I asked him: What do you dream about?
He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups don't have problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often recollect childhood.
I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups don't have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we should not sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for a long time. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Our dreams come true not always. It happens that you use all energy, all aspiration to make dream come true. But irrespective of how strenuously you try, not everything in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, dream ceases to be the star, that was for you a lighthouse in the ocean of the life. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreams and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. Our dreams force us to think, analyze, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope are eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, we remember joy of the victories better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. Don't you agree?
I'm surprised that I write all this to you. I have never had a man, with whom I felt conveniently in sharing my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Can I ask some small questions? Do you like to sleep, or get up early in the morning? Do you like to kiss? (smile)
Are you a good kisser? (smile) Do you like when your friends come to your home or you prefer to go to friends. I adore when Elena or Irina come to my apartment. What clothes do you like to see in a lady? I will wait for your letter with impatience.
Anna.

Hi Steve.
I am very glad that you have written me. Thank you very much. You cannot imagine how much I wait for messages from you! Your letters became a part of my days! Now in my thoughts always only one question - "When I will get an opportunity to read your letter and to write my?"... And when I hear a favorite phrase: "Anna, you can jump, you has received the letter!" (A lady who works with a computer says exactly this phrase) I really become joyful very much and start to smile involuntarily. Therefore thank you!!!
Of course I will say your congratulations to Elena. I am sure, she will be happy to find out that you rendered her such sign of attention.
Oh yes! I like to kiss! (I want to intrigue you! I could?) I think that a kiss it in general the most romantic and sensual way of expression of the love, tenderness and desire. People allow to each other to learn a internal world and taste of each other; people exchange breath.
It is very sensual moment and of course it brings pleasure to any person.
Today at night there was a little rain. In the morning I have come out to the street to jog and I have seen that all footpaths and roads completely are filled with water. But I like such a weather. I like any weather. Many people do not notice beauty that surrounded them. In my soul such a weather wakens the big energy and fine mood. I like all seasons.
I like autumn. Yellow leaves, gold trees. It is so wonderful to walk in the park and to listen to how leaves rustle under feet; to see the clouds that float in the sky, to see birds departing to the warm lands. And at night the sky begins to cry. The rain knocks on windows and roofs. A lightning illuminates for shares of second the empty streets. It is wonderful. How it would be wonderful in such a weather to appear with beloved in a small room with a warm fireplace; weak light and singing of a cricket. How you think Steve? What can be finer than romantic evening in rainy day? I at all do not know what season I like more. Russian winter is delightful. The all world around is white. And falls of snow bewitches, especially in the evening. When you see flows of light from a window, and on a background of black sky small snowflakes are similar to stars. And if for a long time you look at the sky, then it seems that you are flying through these wonderful snowflakes towards something unknown. I like spring. The world as though is born again. Air is filled with freshness. All troubles and failures thaws together with snow. The sounds of the baby birds chirping for the first time. Summer is a fine mood, the desire to learn the world, to have a rest and enjoy life. I feel that I rambling on (smile).
By the way, I jog for many years. I really have good health because I always try to support my figure and I jog every morning. I try to spend time in the air as much as possible. I have no car and I use transport extremely seldom. I get contrast shower - alternation of a stream of cold and hot water. I since the childhood lived in conditions of cold winter and damp autumn. Such climate is toughening health very well. I do not smoke and I do not drink alcoholic drinks. I really love a healthy way of life. And I am proud of it. I love sports very much. Though should admit that I never played golf, football and basketball, never boxed. But I could surprise you, if I had opportunity to compete with you in beach volleyball. By the way, when I studied at university, I visited section of swimming and have reached good results. Some times I participated in swim competitions. Swimming - till now my favorite kind of sports.
I have to finish. With the best regards and with thoughts of you.
I hope you like my pictures (wink). Anna.

Hi my dear Steve!!!
I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks. You have again raised my mood and have placed a happy smile into my face. Yes kiss it's display of feelings. By means of a kiss is possible to tell very much. It is very important part of relationship. Any displays of feelings, kiss or embrace are very important. It is the basic factor of relationship.
I think the more, the better. I like to be kissed in a neck! It is my magic place! Also shoulders, hands, a stomach and of course lips!!!!!
By the way Steve, today I went to job being absolutely confident that your letter waits for me. Earlier I always went with thought that you probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with thought that your letter already waits for me. I went along the street with the smile on my face. I could not hide my smile. People that went past of me looked back and looked at me. Here already many employees know that I have found such a wonderful friend, and nobody is surprised that my friend lives in other country. Everybody only are glad. Nobody here is surprised if the woman searches for not Russian man. I think the cultural distinction is a wonderful thing. I don't understand Russian men and their culture of dialogue with woman. They are not able to appreciate woman's feelings, her fidelity, love. They do not appreciate sincerity and aspiration of woman to do for a man absolutely everything. The only thing she need - the warmth and caress, which she wants to get from a man. It is the problem of Russian men. Russian lady does everything for a man but doesn't get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple of tender words and gentle touching of his arms. Really it is so difficult?
Really it is difficult to present for your lady a romantic evening and a supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady to man, but not man to lady. You say that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not considered like a beautiful lady. I am usual and simple woman with usual appearance. Russian men, practically all of them, usually show disrespect to ladies. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash cloths and entertain a man when he wants. For Russian man to offend a woman is a usual thing. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I don't want to offend all men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few of them. Men very often say ***** words (not normative lexicon) when they talk with lady and consider that there is nothing bad in it. I want to tell you about my ex-boyfriend. I feel that you will understand me. I had boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink.
When he got ***** he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me by bad and ***** words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became another person - rude and evil, even when did not drink.
He has found the big interest in beating of me. He began to beat me very often and cruelly. He often knocked me in my face by fist and even kicked me by foot when I already was on a floor. And every time when I being on a floor looked in to his eyes, and with tears in my eyes asked him - WHY? - he just responded that any man is a King and a place of any woman - under foot of a true man. But the next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing had happened. In public he was very delicate, polite. All people considered that he is a true gentleman. But when he found oneself at home, everything was on the contrary. I very much was afraid of him and I have left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldn't make myself get acquainted with another man. I don't trust Russian men. I am afraid to give my love, but back to get roughness instead of love. I have told to you about it because I want you to know that I open to you my soul. And I want you to know about my ex-relationship with my ex-boyfriend. I feel that I can tell to you about this because I feel that you have very kind heart. By the way, today Elena leaves hospital! And though she will spend some more days at home, all the same it is much better than in hospital.
If you have disagreements with lady, can you apply roughness?
Are you able to transform quarrel into the peace, pleasure and a smile?
I have to finish. With all my kindness and tenderness.
Your Anna.

Hi Steve!
How is your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but after my letter your mood became superfine (smile) Likely I am too self-confident. But I am happy again because I have again received your letter. I so waited for this minute,- when I can write to you.
Our friendship became the important part of my life, and I hope that in your life as well. Sometimes I understand that the thread that connects me with you now is not most strong. But I do not want this thread to be torn. Right now I sit and I smile simply because I am glad that again I can to share with you my thoughts. Sometimes I so want you to see my smile during the similar moment because I think it is the most sincere smile! But sometimes my smile leaves me because I know that now the only thing that connects us is our thoughts, that we send to each other,- thoughts, transformed into a letters that are not able to show all depth of thoughts. But at the same time I understand that nobody knows what waits for us in the future. Maybe you even think just as I...
Thanks for all your words. I am very glad that you have expressed to me your opinion. It is pleasant for me to realize that I have a friend a true man.
I have feelings and I had no such a feelings too long. You are now a part of my life! You have changed my life! I think of you and I think of us. I see us together and it makes me happy. I enjoy thoughts on you and I miss you every minute of my day and night (wink).
Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Probably tomorrow I will work outside of clinic. We call it - "the ride working day".
Elena also goes with us. She already is completely healthy and begins work.
It is difficult day. At this day several doctors and specialists of our clinic are going on the special medical bus to various remote small settlements, small villages in a thicket of the forest. These are poor villages which are located far away from the big cities and settlements. In these villages there are no doctors and clinics and people cannot visit clinic at any moment. In such villages there is always a lot of people who need the doctor but cannot reach clinic by self. Often it is a people who are not able to live without help of other people, - basically are small children or old and weak feeble people. We go in these villages on the bus with all necessary equipment. People in these villages love us and wait more than anything. But it is really the hard work if to take into account that we are going there at 6 am, and we come back sometimes even after 10 pm!
But I will wait your letter because our friendship gives force to me, and our dialogue is a rest for my soul! I have to go!
Sincerely and with thoughts about you.
Your Anna.

Hi Steve! Your letter means so much for me. Thank you. I so waited your letter and so wanted to find out what you will tell me.
Ohh, my breakfast - coffee and a sandwich with cheese.
I like red roses but my favorite of a lily, you know such flowers?
Steve, today I write to you with special worry but as well with pleasure and hope. I really hope that everything that I will tell you today will make you happy. Last time when I wrote you my honest letter I had the big sadness in my heart, and even though I tried to not show it, I think you have noticed it. Steve, I was sad because the boss informed me that approximately in three weeks the accounting department will be closed for full re-equipment and repair. And when he have told me it, I thought my heart will stop, because when it will take place, I will not be able to communicate with you during several months! And it has brought infinite sadness into my heart. But after my boss informed me about close of accounting department, the accounting department informed me that approximately in three weeks I will get my vacation! When I thought that I can lose you for some months, inside my soul I at once have felt that I can't simply accept it. And I have felt that together with sadness in my heart has appeared an other feeling - feeling of confidence, desire to make new steps instead of simply waiting for something. I have understood that our relations are important for me much more than I thought. And it so wonderfully. I had no vacation for two years. And now I will have vacation. But a thoughts that I will not be able to communicate with you, to receive your letters and to write mine,- all these thoughts has brought a pain to me, pain that I can't endure. I talked with Elena and she has asked me what I think to do.
And when she has asked me it, I have understood that inside my soul I already know the answer to this question. And I have told that I do not want to spend such a long-awaited vacation in loneliness. I can't accept a thought that I will not talk to you Steve during of month or two. And I have told that I want to meet you Steve! I have told her that I want to spend my vacation with you Steve! I can come to you, and we can spend time together if you want. And first I was afraid that if I will tell you about it in the letter, you will write me that you do not want to see me or can not meet me. And it would hurt my heart. But Elena have told, that you Steve and I are such a good friends, our relations are built on sincerity, therefore Steve will be happy to spend time with me. And I really think that it would be delightfully. So, what you will say, Steve, if I will offer you a meeting? Would you be happy to see me and to spend with me several days? I cannot imagine at all how it would be wonderful.
You would show me your life, we would learn each other in a real life.
We would look into the eyes of each other, we could hold our hands, tell each other silly stories, laugh and tease each other, watch the stars in the night sky and have romantic evening, go to the movie or we could simply sit on a bench in the park, and who knows what else we could do together...
I would be happy to do all this together with you, instead of again be lonely without you and our friendship. I simply want to meet you.
I already knew and I have been told earlier, but I have found out again all I need to do to come to you. I already have the passport. And I will avoid usual procedure of visa's approval. Being the doctor, I can ask the visa on behalf of our Ministry of Health, because if the applicant have good official support from official bodies, if the applicant have official recommendations and directions to various sorts of conference, seminars, - it will relieve of necessity to wait for some months the decision of the commission, and will remove all problems connected with necessity to prove that the purpose of travel is not emigration. Being the doctor I will have support and guarantees from Ministry of Health of Russian Federation, and it is certainly the best guarantor. Of course I must visit improbable quantity of the departments, to collect improbable quantity of documents, to find as many as possibly of other official legal persons, institutions and people for support; to get petitions. But if I will quickly collect all necessary documents, I will get the visa in one or two weeks! So I have filed an application for the visa, Steve, with happiness and with hope that you will be happy to spend some days with me!
I do not ask you about anything. I will use my monetary savings and I will make everything by self. It is my vacation and I will not be a burden.
Would you be happy to spend some days with me soon, Steve? Anyway, we must meet. It is possible to wait eternally. But I believe that I will get my vacation not accidentally; and I believe that the accounting department will be closed at the same time not accidentally as well. It is not coincidence!
It is time to make a choice, to make the decision, to take new step. Maybe such opportunity will not be repeated again. I so long waited my vacation and I want my vacation to be especial. What can be better than a meeting of two friends? The first meeting. It is simply delightful and I thank destiny that I have got such an opportunity,- an opportunity to meet my dear friend, the opportunity to learn each other in real life, the opportunity to enjoy time which we can spend together. And I believe that it can become the beginning of something new in our lifes and in our relations. And I am really happy to get a vacation because it is time which I can spend in any way I want, and I want to spend this vacation with you Steve! So what will you tell?
Would you like to spend time with me? Would you be glad to meet me?
Would you be happy to have the first meeting at your airport?
I will wait for your answer with pleasure.
Your sincere Anna.

Hi my dear Steve!
Today is a fine day. Already in the morning I knew that I today I will get an opportunity to write to you. And all the rest become unimportant for me. Today I really haven't opportunity to write much.
But I have enough time to tell to you that I thought of you and waited when I will get opportunity to write you.
"The ride working day" difficult day was. We have passed many villages, I have come back home already in 10,30 pm. I so is tired, have lain on a bed and have fallen asleep at once, but I have had time to think of you.
And I have time to tell the main thing. I do not know why, but today I have woken up earlier than usually. I could not fall asleep again.
I simply sat near window and looked at the sky. Suddenly, a small birdie appeared on my window. It was very beautiful birdie. This birdie looked at me, and started to twitter. It was so unusually and beautifully. It was a beautiful song. I looked at this small birdie and thought, that you Steve now somewhere far away; maybe you sleep and see me in your sleep-dream. And I so wanted you to see this small birdie and to hear her delightful song. And I have whispered: "Fly off, my little birdie, fly to my friend Steve, and tell to him that one girl, that is so far away, thinks of him and sends to him this song. And at this moment the birdie has flinched and flew away as if this birdie has heard my words!
And I have thought, if today you Steve will see a small birdie singing beautiful song, - be sure that it is my birdie I sent to you!
Now I have to go. I send you my kiss. Your Anna.