Hello my dearest Jose, I have good news, very well for me and for you! I wanted to call to you and to explain all by phone. But I am afraid, that you become angry on me and will refuse to help me, therefore I have decided to write to you. Today in the morning I have come to travel agency where to me informed good news. I have got the visa. Now it is necessary for me to buy the ticket to you and to go in Moscow behind the visa and to wait day of my start. I'm immensely happy. I will be able to see you in person!!!
Dear I it is very good to speak in English you to not worry for us. I addressed the company which sells tickets for plans. I asked them how, as to me have explained to me it is necessary to have the ticket to you I would be able to go Leonardo da Vinci International Airport on the March, 21th and how much it would cost. They said that the ticket would cost 933 euros. I asked them to find a cheaper ticket, because the price is too high for me. But as it turned out I would not be able to have a cheaper ticket so quickly, the date is too early. Tickets must be reserved long beforehand. I asked them to offer me other variants of the flight. We found the most suitable one. The flight is on March, 21th. The ticket costs 285 euros I asked the to reserve the ticket for me. But they refused to do it having said that they had a lot of clients. They cannot reserve my ticket without advance money. I was imploring them. But it did not work. They said that they would help me with great pleasure but they couldn't. The rules are so. I was in a panic, I was so disappointed. Then I asked them if I could give just a part of the money. But they did not agree again. I asked them for a long time saying that my fiance Jose is waiting for me. If I asked them a little bit longer I would burst out of crying.
Maybe God heard my prayers, and the service worked agreed to reserve the ticket on my conditions. But I have too little time to pay, for the ticket. They said if I did not day the rest of the ticket price, I would loose the money I'd already given to them. I was angry, but they explained that it would be very difficult to sell the ticket for the plane which is flying. They would have to lower the price. I agreed.
They told me to pay 723 euros. But it was too much for me, because I had only 225 euros. I asked to wait for me during 12 hours. I went out of the room. Marina met me at the door. I told her everything. She understood everything and advised me to **** our treasures to a pawnshop. It was very difficult for me to agree to do it. I did not want to burden Marina. But at the same time I want to meet you. We pawned the treasures, I got 90 euros and I paid the part of the ticket price 315 euros. It was my last money, it was for the plane by which I'm going to come to you. It was very difficult for me to tell you this story. I have done all what I could. I have paid for the visa. I have paid for the part of the ticket. But this was not enough. The money was not enough. I did not want to burden you. I wanted to come to you with nobody's help. I thought my money would be enough. But I failed. Now I feel guilty myself. I did not manage to do all myself for our meeting. I thought nothing would prevent me from meeting you.
But I must pay the rest of the money for the ticket It's just 408 euros. I must pay it till the March, 20th. Otherwise I will loose the money I have paid and i will loose the chance to see you. And our treasures will be sold by the pawnshop. Now I feel guilty that I could not do what i promised to come to you with my own money. I always do what I promise. I feel at ease now, I'm ashamed of asking you to help me. Unfortunately the clinic did not pay me the money I'd earned. I really hoped to get this money. But I'll get the money from the clinic in a month or two. Because it's very typical for Russia to hold up the payments of salary. I asked the clinic to give me my money earlier, but they refused to do it. Now the clinic does not have the money necessary for me. Our clinic depends on the budget, it did not get money for a longtime. I think it's because of the financial crisis and terrorist acts. I must say to you that I will not be able to meet you because I will not be able to pay the whole sum of money myself. Of course I realize that I should not ask you to give me the money.
But at the time I cannot just that I will not come to you. I have done too much to organize our meeting. If I refuse to meet you it will mean that everything was in vain. It's terrible for me to refuse to come to you, I have done all what I could. Now I want you to help me and I think there is nothing horrible if I ask you to help me. Of course I realize that may be you have no feelings to me and may be you're not interested in our meeting. I understand that the sum of money is too big. I know it and that's why it's more difficult for me to ask it from you. But at the same time any person can find himself in my conditions. And now there is only one thing which I can do. I just must say that I will never come to you. But I do not want to say so, because I want to meet you. That's why I must be honest, I need your help. Of course I understand that I must not do it. But I'm an honest person. I'm ashamed of asking you to help me, but life is a difficult thing, everything can happen. Of course it's up to you to decide if you want to help me or not. It's bad, but not fatal. I will loose my money. It's bad but not mortal either. 390 euros which I have paid for the visa and 315 euros which I have paid for the ticket are too much for me. But I'm not sorry for what I have done for our meeting. In fact money is just paper, our treasures are just metal details. That's why I was the first who decided to meet each other. But I do not want all my efforts to be spent in vain. If you really want to meet me, if you can help me to organize our meeting please send me the money till the morning of the March, 20th. Please forgive me my words. I say so because I'm in despair. Now when just one step can connect us, I'm afraid. I need you, I want to be with you, I need you help, believe me, I'm honest with you. I did not manage to estimate my forces. And all my efforts spent in vain. I understand that the sum of money is too big for you. I did not want to ask you. I can do everything myself. My loneliness made me strong. I had always been living with my own efforts I always relied on myself. I asked somebody to help me very seldom, but now I ask you to help me. I will give you all the money back as soon as I'm able. Maybe I made you offended. But I need you. I do not know if my letter you disappointed. But I have written you an honest letter. I'm looking forward to you answer. I hope for you. I ask you to not worry. Flight details: Moscow - Domodedovo 23:45 March, 21st
Kishinev - Chisinau 00:50 March, 22nd Flight: 9U176
Airbus A320
Moldova Ae? Change: 12? 30i Kishinev - Chisinau 13:20 March, 22nd
Rome - Leonardo D... 14:40 March, 22nd Flight: 9U891
Airbus A319
Moldova Ae? Anna

Hi my dear Jose, Dear, I was very glad to receive your letter. My visa is available, but I can take away her only after I shall redeem the ticket in your country. Tomorrow or after tomorrow, I shall buy the ticket in your country but only after to me inform from travel agency, and will tell, that my documents are completely ready. For arrival to you. I tried to call to you hundred times. I can call within my country, but perators do not do the international communications. The special tariff is for this purpose necessary and it has very high price. I every day think of our meeting with you. I know how it is to be thinking about someone all the time, I have felt that as well. So then I try to keep myself busy doing other things and it helps. I guess that's how I've been able to get along all this time without somebody special in my life. I keep myself busy with study, with friends. I have become used to it now, but not entirely. Some times I get along doing chores around the house, listening to music, or helping other people with their problems. It has been so many times that I wanted to be with someone. So as time went on, little by little I had to learn how to not feel lonely. But I have also learned that it's not all that possible. And in the same way I try to avoid getting hurt, as it has happened to me before. And that too is not all that possible. On the other side I have seen other peoples mistakes and I like to think that I wont make the same ones. I try to think of many possible results, I like to be cautious and to think ahead, but I have learned that as careful that I may be, there is always something that can go wrong. So why should I continue to hold back and not live my life like others, by going ahead with what my heart says and being as cautious as possible, right? We are only human and imperfect, all I can try is to do the best I can, with the person that best fits my way of thinking.
And it would seem so strange that I could find such a person on the other side of the planet. Imagine if the Internet didn't exist, I would have never known about you and I would probably continue to live the same way forever. There is only so much happiness that one can achieve alone, but I would like to think that I could achieve so much more with you. It would be wonderful to stop dreaming about it and make it come true. So at the same time, I also think about what would be needed to make a relationship work and how to provide for as much as possible. It's not easy when other pressures are felt in a relationship. So if at first we should decide to take this beyond what it has become so far, I think it will be like awaking from a dream and trying our best to make the dream come true. Like I said before, there is a lot to talk about, a lot to learn and understand. The feeling of love is great, but it takes little bit more to have a place to live, to be healthy and have a family. I know that these are subjects that can't be decided or solved in a week, but the most important thing will be addressed, how well we get along. There is one thing that I know for sure, I like you very much and we will have a wonderful time together. Your words in every letter have shown me that we think the same way, so I truly believe that something great and long lasting will come out of this. I think about you every day and wish you were near me already. I will just have to be patient and wait for that moment to come true. With hugs and tender kisses, Yours Anna...

Hello my Jose, Dear Jose, I have received your electronic letter. I was very glad to read him. Your letters install to me unlimited quantity of confidence.
Having read them I become the omnipotent person. Very much has changed from the moment of our acquaintance. I, think, that I began to live only after acquaintance to you. Till this time I only existed. After our acquaintance my life has sharply changed in the best side. It has noticed not only I. My fellow workers, my friends, even my patients - all have noticed change in my life. Everyone ask the same question. It is interesting to all why I look so happy.... I have phone. But it now under repair. I have dropped it in water when erased clothes. And it does not work now. As soon as I will take away it. I will give you my number. For now if you wish to hear my voice.
I could call to you from post phone. For this purpose I need to know your telephone number. Dear yesterday I could not write to you because all the day long was in a way. I have arrived to Kirov late at night. From road I am very tired. I as have reached a house and have gone to bed. I think that I knowingly have visited to Moscow. From trip I still had many positive emotions. I when did not go on so important affairs, therefore strongly worried. On road to Moscow I with anybody did not communicate because thought of interview in embassy. I experienced that any failure can visit me. I was afraid that can give up to me in reception of the visa. But my experiences appeared are vain. On interview to me did not give the exact answer. In a corridor I have waited the person which was in the commission and he has told, that I should not worry.
Has told that in two or three days representatives of embassy will contact travel agency and will cause me to Moscow for reception of the visa. Therefore I have gone home with quiet soul. Now I need to wait the answer from embassy then it is necessary to buy the ticket in your country, to go again to Moscow to receive the visa and to wait day of a start. The second trip to Moscow does not deliver me of inconvenience. The ticket to me will need to be bought in Kirov from representatives of travel agency. To take off I should from the Moscow airport because I will need to come in embassy and to receive the visa. It would be convenient for me to take off from the Kirov airport but for this purpose to me some days in Moscow should to live and to wait for readiness of the visa. Moscow not city familiar to me. Hotels cost very dearly and it is terrible to me to be in Moscow one.
Therefore I have chosen not absolutely convenient, but a safe variant.
Today I went to travel agency and told him about trip to Moscow. They sincerely were glad for me. Unfortunately the Embassy yet did not contact travel agency. I think that has passed not enough time. I think tomorrow or the day after tomorrow representatives of embassy will cause me for reception of the visa. I want that it has taken place as soon as possible. I want to buy as soon as possible the ticket to you and to wait for day of a start. Dear if tomorrow or the day after tomorrow me will cause for reception of the visa I shall buy the ticket to you. I shall buy the ticket with a stock of 5-6 days. I shall better lead these days pending. Suddenly there will be unforeseen circumstances. Dear, I finish the letter and I shall go home. I need to prepare much for all for the period of the absence. I love you and I want to be only with you. The feeling of love amplifies every new day. Your love Anna.

Hi my dearest Jose, I have more recently left embassy and at once have decided to write to you. I write to you the letter and I smile. I'm so glad! If I could, I would speak with you for a long time. But unfortunately now it is impossible. But I am confident, that our meeting will take place also we shall speak in person. I want to tell to you about the commission in Moscow. I hope to you it interestingly!!! Tomorrow I shall already write to you from native city. I shall arrive to Kirov most likely tomorrow in the evening. I can probably have the visa. Because I tried for it much. I worry, you should understand it. I never thought that the commission will ask such unusual questions. They asked about my ****** life, they asked about children, about work, about patriotism, about my attitude to your country, about my conversance and awareness of events which happened in the world and in your country, about my religion and belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about very thing fairly how it's really. To me have told that my answers are unexpected and as a rule applicants don't answer such questions so directly and openly. They haven't got used to hear such answers, but they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more pleasant than words which come not from heart and reason. Children from the orphanages also have made the big impression and rendered the big influence on the commission. To me have told that I the first lady who have such support from children - orphans. Now I should wait the decision. I hope, that my visa will be ready within the next few days.
The representative of embassy at once informs about it to travel agency. After that I shall buy the ticket in your country. After I shall buy the ticket I shall inform date of the start. Now I agree with expression: "Expectation of death is worse than the death" I can't concentrate on anything. My heart so worry, I can't work. They have told that the decision will be accepted in several days. I so worry. I so want that this small dream was come true. I simply want to see my lovely friend. I think the God will help me. I simply want to meet you. I already see us together and I sink in dreams. I want to construct with you the ship to float under sails in boundless ocean. I want to meet with you a dawn and to see off a sundown. We will float on our ship and our love will illuminate our way. We will look at night at stars, we'll be pleased in the afternoon to the sun. If there will be a storm, our love will protect us. If there will be a calm, our love will be a wind. Our love will be a beacon for us. We will be floating at ocean of love and oblivion and nothing can separate us. We'll name our ship - Dream. It will be the small ship, but very strong. Because we will make our ship from belief, hope and love. It's impossible to wait, when your dream will fall to you from the sky. It's necessary to go to the dream. It's necessary to clear and build the road itself. If in heart there is a belief and dream, if in heart there is a love and hope, it is necessary to achieve the dream by all means. I always go to the dream.
I don't sit on a place. In my life there were very few light moments.
On this I try to make everything that my dreams have come true. I understand that now it's only dreams. But these dreams brighten my life. I hope that yours also. Nothing will keep me to arrive to you!!! With tenderness your Anna.

Hi my dear Jose, Dear Jose, I was glad to receive your letter. Thanks you for all given information. Today I have arrived to Moscow. I am very tired, and could not write to you is a lot. Dear, I informed you some times that cause me to Moscow on interview Now I near Embassy the in internet-cafe. I write to you the letter and I worry. I think, that my destiny tomorrow is solved. Hope to me' give the visa and I can meet you. It will be the greatest day in my life!! It's a pity, that I cannot write for a long time. Because I am very strongly tired. I hope, that I can soon write to you about results of visit to Embassy.
If I cannot write from Moscow I shall write from Kirov. With love yours and only yours Anna. Hello my honey Jose, Dear Jose, I was happy to receive the letter from you. Today my letter will be short. At me not so it is a lot of time. I want, that you have sent me your full home address, a phone number and the nearest airport where you will be capable to meet me. This the information necessary for embassy in Moscow. I have just left travel agency, and have decided to inform you good news at once. Me cause to Moscow on interview in embassy. Tomorrow I should leave to Moscow. It seems to me, that I waited for this moment the whole eternity. The travel agency has carried out the task earlier than I thought. It can is connected to that sum of money which I have paid for acceleration of readiness of documents. Now it is not of great importance. I go to embassy!!! Probably tomorrow or the day after tomorrow I can receive documents which are necessary for arrival in your country. Tomorrow I shall write to you from Internet - cafe of the city of Moscow. I shall inform you all news which will concern my trip. After I shall receive documents, I will need to return back to native city, to collect necessary things and to buy the ticket in your country. Trip to Moscow costs not cheaply, therefore I wanted to go to Moscow, to pass interview in embassy and to wait for day of a start.
But in the contract it is told, that in your country I can buy the ticket only in travel agency which helps me to collect necessary documents. From superstition I shall not begin to buy the ticket before reception of documents. Of agency of me convince, that it is possible to buy the ticket, and, then to pass interview. They have told to me, that many people do so. But it seems to me wrong. Dear, I was probable next week can inform you date of my start. I believe that next week I can take off to you. How you concern to this?
I think that you too will be glad. I shall finish the letter. I shall go to collect things home. I shall call to you if there will be urgent questions. I hope to receive from you the answer which will bring to me encouragement. Your love Anna...