Letter(s) from Ekaterina Lukina to Glory (USA)

Letter 1

Hi, Glory! First of all want to apologize before you, that has not written to you at once. Communication with a person from other country gets me interested in. I would like to tell you about me in detail. I should love you to get to know about my enthusiasm and the things I have a fancy for as a whole. I live in Latvia in city of Riga. This city is located on border with Russia. Therefore in our city a lot of Russian. On a nationality I too Russian. My parents have moved to this city distribution to work after the termination of university in 1980. After the USSR has broken up our family appeared abroad. So we also live in Latvia. I have finished Russian school and institute in city of Tallin. Now I work in the city of Riga. I start off with my hobby and keenness on music. I am eager to listen to foreign and Russian singers. As for Russian ones I prefer Alsou, Arion, Kirkorov and Tattoo. Have you ever heard of these Russian stars? As for foreign variety performers I love Scorpions, Bon Jovi, Eminem, Michael Jacson, Natalia Oreiro and etc. By and large I am fond of listening to classic and modern style music. I want to learn which music do you like? When I was a child I was in studying music in musical school for 6 years. I played the piano. Then I attended lectures in musical high school where I contested many musical festivals. Now I often sing in karaoke and always get highest points. Tomorrow I will try to have a short song recorded to send to you. (Mind! do not laugh!)I ask do not send me the letters, on that box which was earlier. Send me the letters on this eio?ue address I to you has given JuliaLukina@land.ru. The old box has been broken, I cannot receive your mail and send you her back. Next I feel like to telling you about movie. I like watching comedies and love stories. Sometimes watching a movie I can burst out into tears. Such motion pictures are "Titanic", "Beauty", "Pearl Harbor" an lots of others. Which movies are convenient to your taste? I am absorbed in books as well. Pushkin, Esenin are the great poets deserving to be read by everyone. I take pleasure in reading poems about which I can tell a bit more. In my 16-17 I delighted visiting my granny and grandpa in the village. They live near the city-resort of Anapa. They reside in a small house but have a big orchard. This is an astonishing place like paradise especially it is beautiful in spring and summer when there flower apple-trees, cherry-trees and apricots. I rollick in waking up early in the morning and listening to birds singing and looking at trees aflower. It is a beautiful nature like nothing else on earth. It is gorgeous and marvelous in coloring. A trifle later our orchard treated us with fruits tasting deliciously. I still remember this flavor. Closing my eyes I see the picture of my orchard. My grandpa comes to my mind catching fish on the lake and we waited for him with impatience. Granny cooked a very tasteful fish soup. What is more? My granny had small goats. She milked them and gave me fresh milk. In evenings I with my friends, get together to read poems. Oh! I am just lost in warm memories of my childhood. I think one can write about them endlessly. It is much pleasant for me to correspond with you about my memories. All this takes me deeply. I enjoy swimming and from time to time I attend swimming-pool. I like going on foot. Active life is generally my cup of tea. I can write about it long and long. If you take some interest in this point of my life, I will talk to you about it in my next letters. I love a good cuisine. I am a sort of epicure but I am not disposed to stoutness. So I take my chance to taste every savory thing. My bookshelves are arranged with a good deal of cookery books where I may find any recipe. When I cook some dish I invite my friends for a party. I also have pleasure in watching TV contests on the best course. Most of all I prefer seafood - shrimps and lobsters fritter. Russian cuisine keeps up with others. I am ending my letter hereon now. Kind regards Julia.

Letter 2

Hi, Glory!
I am very glad to receive your answer again. Glory, I am very glad, that I have man, to whom I can talk frankly, without lie also of hypocrisy. Our world became more severe, and I think, that we with me agree. For this reason I am glad, that we are each other I can tell to you, Glory, everything, that occurs in my life, and I think, that you will understand me or even something will advise. Glory, I have decided to find the friend on INTERNET on advice of my girlfriend. My girlfriend, has got acquainted with the husband per student's years. And in my opinion too early has married. In a consequence at them began to occur disagreements. Its husband began to drink and began to beat strongly her. Then on advice of the mum she has thrown the husband. As we have met it also she has informed me, that corresponds on INTERNET with the man from other country. I am very glad for it, that its life varies. On its person there are more no tears, she wants to live, wants to write, and also to love. Glory, you see it she has advised to me to correspond. Now I am very glad, that has listened to her. When I write you. Glory, I as if am in the other world. I overlook about vital difficulties. Glory, in our country the men very much love to drink. This problem has touched many families. Glory, write, that you think in this occasion. I very seriously treat this problem. I love to have fun, to go in clubs, but thus it is not necessary to drink, it is possible simply to have a rest, yes. Glory. The free time I love to carry out on a nature. In years time we frequently with the mum go on our kitchen garden. There we to grow different vegetables and berries. Speak, that the women in your country do not love to dig in ground. Write to me about it more in detail, please. I very much take a great interest in colours, and I think, that it is uneasy hobby. It became a part of my life. At times it seems, that I could buy of colours in shop on all my wages. My girlfriends take from me of Rostock of colours, but a bit later ask, why at them do not grow or die flowers. And business all in a leaving. I want to tell about my family. The attitudes in our family for me are ideal. My parents live together already more than 30 years, but it only fastens their union. As I already wrote to you, my daddy works the driver, but, despite of it it is very gentle with the mum, it constantly speaks it compliments. My daddy very much works, but thus never speaks about it. The life compels so to work. My brother to study at university, and we somehow pay its study. It does not want to earn additionally, speaks, that time does not suffice. At you in USA practically all students earn additionally, whether the truth it, Glory. I for a long time want, that my parents have visited to have a rest for city. I see, that they strongly get tired, that of forces they already have not enough, and to leave there is no time the daddy speaks. It tries all for us, main, that we understand it. And for this reason, I always speak to my friends, that my parents are an ideal pair. Now, when they are well familiar with my family, they speak, that at them unearthly love. In our family it is accepted, that when there come the visitors, it is necessary to invite all for a table. And completely not important they came by the invitation or simply past passed. We consider, that the hospitality is an attribute of good family. That you, Glory, think in this occasion. Glory, tell about your target, that love to do, to that devote the free time. I love to go in cafe with the girlfriends in free that of work time. I very much love ice-cream and grapes. The time goes not appreciablly and it is time to me to go on work. I hope to see your letter, Glory, in my email in the near future. Write to me about itself and family more in detail. Write about the friends.
I wait for the answer,
Your friend from Latvia,

Letter 3

Hi, Glory.
What you do? How your businesses? At me all is normal.
Thank for your fast answer to my letter. It so is healthy, that we are copied and we learn about each other ever more and more. My parents are interested in our correspondence, and are very glad for me. I have told, that you of Glory the very interesting, good and serious man. They wish to you excellent mood, strong health. And I too. I think, that from us there will be a perfect pair. You see so much people search for the second half and can not find. And us practically was lucky. You trust in destiny? I hope, that you are the one whom I search for. I think, that you too so think. Though, for this purpose still early to speak, it is necessary to communicate, to study each other. It is very important for me. Last night I have come from work late. I have remained one. The girlfriend mine all already married, them not up to me. Having looked transfers on the TV set, I have gone to sleep. At the night, through dream, I have heard someone's rough deaf votes. Suddenly terrible roar has forced me jump up from a bed. In a corridor fight. The deaf rattle was heard children's weeping, shouts. drowse, I have thought, that there was a fire. barefoot, with a disarranged hair I have jumped out in a corridor and has seen such picture. Our neighbour alcoholic beat the wife, behind there was their small son and cried. To me became not on itself. God, mine, what I could make? I have run to myself home, has closed a door, and to go to bed. As are severe, there are people! It repeated not first time. The militia is already tired to them to come. When I doze off, noise and the shouts behind a door have stopped, the house again has plunged into dead silence. This history with the order already has bothered by all. I slept then nervously. But you do not worry of Glory for me, simply it is life, and anywhere from it to not get to. Sometimes I dream of, that we have met you of Glory, well even on the phone. That our votes became closer to each other. You see it so is good. It seems, that I as small girl shall pay for pleasure. The truth, I do not have telephone, my girlfriends live far from me and I do not have opportunity to call you from them, but it you see not a problem, if two men want to be closer to each other. It shall be possible I to you Glory to call with Post Office of Narva city . It seems, it is worthy variant. Dear my friend, Glory you, please, give me number of your telephone and I can to you at once call from The Post Office, at once as soon as I shall receive the salary. Well, please, I so want it, I want to hear your vote. Send to me your telephone number in the following yours letter, OK? Do not overlook about it. Wait to hear from you soon, Glory.
Best wishes, Julia.

Letter 4

Hello my dearest Glory!
Is very glad each time to receive from you your warm letters each time, each day, each moment. A thank for your messages. They help me now to live. I can not without your letters any more. Never leave me! Glory, you to me are very necessary! As you already could notice, in each letter I write you a lot of information on myself and about the life, because I want that you knew about me absolutely all. It is very important for me. I hope and for you too. We should know about the friend the friend everything completely to trust each other. I very much want, that we trusted each other. It is the important part of the attitudes. I want, that all was sincere. I did not write to you about the work very much, and now I want that you knew, only, please, nothing speak about it then, because I very much hesitate. I work by the teacher of physics and mathematics in junior classes. At me very interesting work, she certainly is pleasant to me but there is one BUT. My boss the not so good man. I already wrote to you, that it has shouted at me. It any little bit strange. It passes the work on the employees, and then shouts what not all was made correctly, though this work it should do itself. It very little works and receives for it very many money. And all employees, which do and still his work, receive very little. My salary is only 80 evro per one month. It is the ridiculous salary even for Latvia, only do not laugh it is necessary by me. This money usually suffices only on SURVIVING and no more. Sometimes I sit at home and I think, well what for to me such work?! I for a long time already want to find other work, but it is very dificult. At me good education. I studied at university. I studied as the manager on advertising. This very interesting and actually profitable education. But all business in that that we do not have such work, and if and is, there take " only yes ours ". This usual Latvinian expression. Means that to the simple people with excellent education to not find good work. Excuse, please, that I to you tell all this. But I should tell you it. Please, understand me correctly. You my unique man, with which I can inform to the mountain and happiness. Simply try to support me. I very much want, that also you also trusted to me, as I to you. I want that you now were with me right now and has supported me. Has embraced, has kissed. Has told, that I am necessary to you very strongly. Glory, be with me always. I very much want it! Excuse once again, that I to you now have told all about the work, forgive me. I promised you to call, but could not at once. I shall call you when I shall receive the salary. It will be at the end of the next week. Sometimes at us detain the salary, but I all the same shall try as soon as I shall receive her. Tell me, please, and what you think of me? I think, we are simply created the friend for the friend. I think of you very much. And I dream, that sometime we shall be together. Glory, I want, that you never forgot me, know that on the friend to the party of ocean there is a girl which the day and night thinks of you. I so have got used to you that already I begin to miss about you. I should go, but I promise that I shall write the letter very quickly. I wait for news from you. Kisses and hugs to you, Yours, Julia.

Letter 5

Hello my dearest Glory!
I want to say to you that as usual and usual, I'm happy so much from your answer on my last e-mail my Glory!!! I think about you my Glory all days. I so wait for your warm messages for me Glory, I want to say to you that now I cann't without you and your so feelings emails my Glory. You e-mails are so important for me, it are a part of my life, it are a source of my pleasure to my life, I want to say to you that the occurrence of you Glory is a beterest part of my lonely life now, your messages give me a great happiness and pleasure in my life Glory. Believe me Glory, that I speak this my words with my sincere care to you Glory, with my respect for you Glory. Also I want to emphasize that I thought about our feelings to you my Glory, I have come to a conclusion that we are created for each other my Glory. In last night I didn't sleep well, I couldn't do it because I thought about us my Glory, about our acquaintance on Internet, about your warm messages, and in basically about you my Glory! I thought about all my Glory, I want to say to you that I cann't without you my Glory, I want to say to you that I have fallen in love in you my Glory, yes................Glory,........yes...... I love you my dearest Glory! My Glory, it has taken place so quickly and suddenly, I didn't to expect it my darling, it's so sensual for me my Glory, I cann't without you Glory. I LOVE YOU, DARLING! I feel to you the greatest feeling on ground, it's my love to you my dear Glory. From your messages Glory, I see that we aren't indifferent to each other Glory, I hope that you will agree with me my Glory, is it for true Glory? I hope that you feel to me such great feelings to me my Glory. Also in last night I was asked to God, I thank him that we found each other my Glory, I closed my eyes and have seen the God's presence. He saw on me and I saw on him, he said me that I will happiest woman, because I found you Glory, you are my future man Glory. Also in the eyes of God that he cried, I think that he is very happy for us my Glory. I cried too Glory, because it's so happiness for us that we can be together soon, that we can to have a normal family, I so want it my Glory, because I cann't to be one my Glory, the basic part of my girlfriends are married for a long time, they asked me all time before our acquaintance with you about that why I couldn't to find a man, on their questions I couldn't answred, but I said them that I want it very much, but I cann't to begin any close feelings with any man because of my embarrassment. I am felling embarrassed girl, I said about you in my last e-mails my Glory. But I want to say to you that I feel about you not embarrassment my Glory, I feel to you all my love to you Glory! By the way I want to say to you that I said about my love feelings to my parents. My parents said me that they are very happy for us my darling Glory. In the eyes of my mom and my dad I saw a great happiness for me and for you together my Glory. They said that they hope that I did a right choice in my life and they hope that we will happy together my love Glory, also they said me that where we with you will live together. I answered them that I want to live with you in your country my darling, they asked me about that they will miss me very much, but since other side they understand that it will be better that we with you Glory will live in America because they understand that now in Estonia is difficult live situation. They said you a their warm GREETINGS to you and they wish us, my Glory, our future family happiness and great mutual love my Glory. My mother said me that they guessed about that we with you will have a love feelings since our of acquaintance to you my Glory. They are very happy about us my dear Glory, they said that you will a good boyfriend for me my Glory, and I agreed with them on 100 per cent!!! . My darling, I am At me the large light-blue eyes. Even I like my eyes. I take after my mother. She has a big blue eyes like me, or maybe I have a big blue eyes like her. Probably you interested by volume of my breast, waist and hips. Ok, my breast 89 cm, my waist 59 cm, mine hips 90 cm. At me is blond hair. You already know it. If you something else interests about my figure, you can ask all that want.
so happy for us my dear Glory. I want to say to you that I love you very much, my relatives and my friends are very happy for us very much. Also my dear Glory, I want ask you a main question, I think that it will so fairly since my side my darling. Do you have or do you write with any another women my Glory??? It's so important for me my Glory, I hope that you will understand me, because I love you and I don't want that you Glory write with other women. I want to say to you that I don't write with any other men except for you my Glory. I don't want an other man, because I love you, Glory! But more of all I don't want that any other woman will try to steal you from me my love Glory!!! I say you about it very seriously my Glory! It will so pity for me if you are having or writing with an other woman my dear Glory, and deceive me in our relations, please, say me, Glory, do you write with an other women? We must trust each other in this, ok my darling? Of courses, my darling may be you will ask me about my job when I will far from Russia. Of course, I will miss my job, about my work collegues, yes, I will miss about their, but you can see that I gave back all personal time to my job, I don't have a free time never there. I think that if I found my love and my future man, I must change my personal life in the party you my dear Glory, because I am a woman and I must have my family life as an other womans do it. Realy my Glory? My dear, how you see on this? I want to say to you that I miss you very much, and I want to say to you that you became on the first plan in my life than my work my Glory. I love you Glory and I cann't without you my darling, and I decided that I must near with you my Glory. It's so necessary for me my Glory. I so love you Glory!
All my warmth kisses,
Warmth hugs,
Your lady,

Letter 6

Hi, love mine Glory!
I have received again your warm letter with the answers to my last message. Mine by a road, my love, I have written in last letter on the sincere feelings to you. I thought all the day of it. I was confused, but I hope, that you will answer to me with reciprocity. I am very glad, that has written to you about it because I could not suffer, I have a lot of love to you. I hope, you understand, that it is very difficult to hide the feelings to favourite to the man. I very strongly love you. I am very happy that I at last has met such the man to which I can tell all and the more so tell that I it I love. So it is difficult to me now to describe the feelings by words. I am very happy, that I have you!!! I love you, Glory, and I want it to repeat hundreds time! I love you, Dear!!! I am very strong you I love. Only do not turn away from me and do not ignore my feelings to you because it is the truth!!!! I can not without your warm gentle letters, I can not without your sincere words, I can not without you!!! Mine dear Glory, I want sometime to see you in real life, to talk to you, to look in your perfect eyes, to feel your smell, and to remain with you … I hope, that we shall meet sometime soon or not so soon, but at want to look in your eyes and to tell that I you I love most of all on light, you mine unique!!! Glory, I have told to the parents, that I have met one very good man and has grown fond of it, she has asked as it call and I have told that it call Glory!!!! I already spoke by them about you, you told that the very interesting and lovely man! They ask about you very much frequently and I am very glad to this. I think, that you too have liked by them. My girlfriends too are very glad, that I have found the good man because them was not lucky in a marriage, they wish to us with you all good and that the life was sweet as a strawberry … at first together and then and with children. I very much want children, excuse that did not speak about it earlier, I simply hesitated … At us in Latvia it is impossible to find the good man. My favourite friend you probably not so have understood me, I do not live in Estonia I live in Latvia. Excuse that I did not answer your questions can be simple I of them has not noticed. Unfortunately I have no phone, I can call you, give me the phone number. I shall call you as soon as I will have opportunity. Yes you are right we should not to hurry up, our attitudes should be built gradually. YOU have simply seemed to me the kind and sensual person, I have quickly fallen in love with you. There can be it already custom … I do not know but all Latvian men drink very many alcoholic drinks. At first they speak that love and then begin to do very bad unpleasant things, therefore in Latvia there are no good men. And I want that I with you had good happy future together, number for ever. I so long would search for such man to which I could tell all that it wants to know. I do not want from anybody to hide of the feelings to you! I dream of you each moment!!!! I hope that you will answer to me with reciprocity my love! I do not have words to describe the happiness. But I simply know that you understand me and love. With each minute I want all to be closer and closer to you and to feel you. I am very strong you I love dear mine Glory!!! I would write to you thousand of words but the sense would be same. In three words I LOVE YOU!!! My darling, at this point I finish my letter to you, I wait forward your letter with my honest love!!! You have to know, Glory, how I feel so happy myself when I read your warm messages my darling! So I have to go now honey, I will think about you Glory a lot, I love you, and I want to be with you my love Glory!!!!! With great love, Hugs and kisses, Only yours, Julia.

Letter 7

Hi Glory!!!
Very much happy to get a letter from you. You know I start catch my mind on that I miss your letters. Day by day I think if you'll write me a letter or not. If not, I will feel upset. I want to talk to you today about solitude, particularly one of soul and body. Solitude is a terrible thing. As for me, being a lonely person I have no desire for opening my eyes in mornings. I don't need a fake of love. I need real love. Solitude concerns not only soul when one gets nobody to confide to, when nobody takes care of your life, your health, your mood, when one has all the days gone by in the same way. Only troubles. Such a person knows nothing but his soul, his senses and his body. My body suffers from solitude as well. I would describe the individuality that I am similar to one woman in the world. I how many am not vulgar I the timid and gentle girl, I can always listen to you if at there will be problems. It is deprived of making love with a desired man. From your letters I understand I draw to conclusion you are a deeply talented person. You are gifted. You come about to be in a situation of not being understood. Such people like you and me feel the wall of estrangement stronger and more painful. Owing to your intellect you are higher than your environment. You as well as I have some difficulty to find people of our mind for communication and mutual understanding. Even people the closest to us pretty often can't have our ideas. They try to impose their life style. But you are queer. You aren't like everyone. This doesn't always get to people's mind. You are a keen personality and make me surprised every time. You are able to occupy your head with clever thoughts. You have got nice passions filling your free time. A lonely person is a very thoughtful person. Solitude is followed by consideration. This is the lonely individual who may give an objective judgement of life values. Man rules all his life. Perhaps you draw a sad sense after reading of solitude? Every person is a brilliant star if he has one he shines for. Waiting for your answer.
Kiss you

Letter 8

My darling Glory!!!
Nice to hear from you. Recently I have felt I am getting old and life goes away. I haven't got an idea on my mind how to spend it for. Am I foolish? Shortly I'll have my birthday and I am pondering over the essence of life. Suddenly my heart wishes to have the next period of my life in a way every second would be filled out, in a way it would be fascinating to wait what the future brings, in a way me and other people would be getting on well. The saddest thing is that the time goes past and life passing by me, hits someone another with golden colors of emotional experiences. I don't want colorlessness any longer. I desire holidays. God, how much I envy the people who are able to get to cheer in this planned life movement. I mean studies, work, career, getting real estate and the same stuff. They have one serious advantage over others. They probably never think over such questions. Nevertheless they are deprived of other things. In my life I have a few people taking care and loving me. I can't lose them. You means much more to me than just a guy I speak to. You have become an origin of my joy and sadness lately. You are the person who is dear to me. I can open my heart to you. Correspondence with you fills out my life making it lighter. This is the essence. With every letter of yours I understand we come closer and closer. I think it is wonderful. I am very much glad and happy to have so nice and beloved friend as you. You are good cause you may understand and appreciate me. I assume this as a very important point of life. You simply do not represent as I is glad to receive from you the letter as I have understood my server it has been broken very bad but today I have received from you 10 letters of thanks you for it that you write so much to me. I completely understand to you as to you it was bad without native, that only it does not happen in a life both of us we are lonely also have met and have fallen in love in each other. There can be it destiny!!! All of you speak correctly in the letters other people they have already forgotten about the soul do not sit any more about one at seacoast and they do not think of a life only think as to deceive each other and to find more money. They do not see that fields the nature culture they think only of that as it is possible to earn money. It seems to me you put trust in me because writing you gives me much pleasure. I take delight in feeling friendship between us. Do you agree with me? Tell me your thoughts on this. My darling friend, I'd like you to tell me your full name and your home address. I wish to send you a small present of my creation. Looking forward to receiving your response.
Hug you

Letter 9

Hi Glory!!!
How I miss you and wait to hear from you. How annoying not to have your letter long. I am getting on fine. So what fills your day today? Mine is busy. Much work and no time off. My picture is underway. It is like an infinite field I should cultivate but I like it and won't change it. How is your working day passing by? Are you tired? I'd like to go out with you tonight, for example, to visit some pub or a small restaurant to have a chat at dinner. What are your thoughts on this? It would be great! Is it popular to be outdoors in your country? Which places do you attend after you come back from work? Which of them do you like the best? I've heard about drive-in-theatre. This is the place where families come by cars and watch movies in the open air. Sound goes like radio one by air. Am I right? It is so romantic to see a movie on the big screen at night and feel fresh air with stars in the sky. I want to get to there some day. We haven't got similar entertainment in Latvia. What else do you have that particularly characterizes your country? Have you got big, big malls with everything a person needs? You know how much I want you to share me your country's items. In this case I will have a chance to learn more about you. I much desire this. You are my beloved and darling friend. I want to tell I to you what to continue our attitudes in Latvia very badly cannot live with these bad people any more, these people only think as to deceive and steal money. I do not love such people. The best output I can arrive to you, only I do not have money to the visa you can help me with money? I was is glad to appear with you, that we would like each other every night. As you think, I can throw all for the sake of you if you to me will send 400 $ on the visa. I can give up work, friends, native only because I love you more lives. With impatience I wait for the answer to my question!!! You differ from me but you see me from inside. I think when there's an opportunity to be informed of the necessary person's background one can understand that person better and appraise his likes and dislikes. It's true, isn't it? Also I love funny stories and jokes. Are you in telling jokes or maybe are you in listening to them? Can you relate me one, please? I would be grateful and happy. I miss you, my darling. Write me as often as possible. It gives me much joy to read your letters and think of you. Thanks for raising my spirits. Waiting for your letter.
Hug you

Letter 10

Hi Glory!!!
I am so much happy listening to your words again and again. I want to say your letters become a big part of me and my life. Your e-mails help me keep living and being in high spirits. Today the weather is bad. After reading your correspondence I feel light and warm in my heart. I come to the point that I am thought of in this big world. As ever I get embarrassed what I should start from. I relish having correspondence with you. I'm just happy reading your mail. With every letter of yours I more outline you and your particular world. You draw closer to me, my darling friend, and I obtain the sense of having got acquainted with you for hundreds years. I lack of words to express my feelings well-nigh. I didn't expect to become dependent on you. My mood varies during the day subject to the news I get from you. You just can't imagine how important to me is to get to know all the events happening to you. I so much wish to take part in your life, let it be my shoulder you may cry on if needed. I want you to know there's someone tens kilometers far thinking, remembering and concerning over you. I am not up on what is going with me. Sometimes I can't believe in presence of such a wonderful, splendid, interesting and intelligent man in the world and that you are neither just a simple talker nor a product of my dream. I see this is foolish but I wanted to share my feelings with you as well as I want to tell you of other emotions. Hope you take interest in reading my mail that it seems to me became confusing. I skip from one topic to another. I am writing anything I get on my mind. What for I do write the next sentence? I have a desire to confide my secret to you. I look forward to being forgiven. If you are not ok to listen to this, tell me without fail, please, and I'll stop at once for keeps. This secret wish counts my impatience to kiss your lips when I saw the pic of you. Please, understand me in right way. I don't want to tell a sort of vulgarity. I'm simply relating my feelings I have for you. For some reason I'd like you to be informed of my thoughts wandering about you and my attitude to you. And remember I think and concern over you and want to know everything in detail about you.