Letter(s) from Victoria Dolgusheva to S. H. (USA)

Letter 1

Hello, Friend!

I am very glad, that you have become interested in me. And I shall try to make so that you were not disappointed in me and have know about me more, as is possible. But also I want to know about you more. You seem very beautiful person for me, I hope, that you also very good person, and we can know each other better. Well, I will briefly write about myself. My name - Vika! This usual Russian name. Yes, unfortunately, I am so faraway from you. I live in the European part of Russia, in city Nijniy Nobgorod. I don't know why, but I couldn't be registered on this site of acquaintances from the country. I was tryed many times to make registration from the country, but for some reason at me that has failed. Probably it is a mistake of a site of acquaintances. I hope, it will not frighten you, and on the contrary will interest. New acquaintances to the person from other country, with absolutly other culture is seems very fascinating to me. By the way, have you any friends in Russia? You, certainly, now have thought of that distance between us. If you are frightened with this difficulty write about it at once. But that distance which separates us seems to me, that, will not be of great importance in our dialogue.

I the just a girl, practically am distinguished by nothing from others. Probably, to describe myself it would be easier, if I would not do it for the first time. Probably, words and ideas are a little mixed, because I nerous a little. I sitting on work behind a computer and I don't know about what still to write. Excuse me,if I have done many mistakes in the letter. If something is not clear to you, can ask me about it in the next letters. About myself … As i was to saying before, i'm 28 years. I was never married And, unfortunately, I do not have children. But I want to have the child. I want to bring up him and to transfer all experience of a life to him. I don't know, how many children I want, while in it I was not determined. I don't have harmful habits, I don't smoke, I take alcoholic drinks only sometimes in a small amount. Most of all from alcoholic drinks I prefer red wine. From food - the European kitchen. I have finished University on a speciality of the economist. But I have not found in myself a calling to work on this speciality, and now I work as the advertising agent. The agency in which I work, has been based be relative recently. I like to work and put here the skills in its further development.

It is a little about my character: I am a cheerful person, I try to enjoy each moment of the life and to overcome with a smile all difficulties meeting on my way. I use such way of acquaintance because I have not enough free time. But i'm sure that i will have enough time for you.

I will glad very much , if you will answer to me as soon as possible. Write to me a little bit about yourself: what are you doing all days, do you like your job? are you the one child in your family? Have You already experience of internet-meeting? What your frends liking in you? With impatience I will wait for the letter from you. Sincerely yours the friend Vika!

P.S. It will be very pleasant for me to receive a photos from you. I hope, to see it in your answer.

Letter 2

Hello my love!

I am very happy, to accept your letter today, it of full sincere heat and sympathy to me. I think, that for that time that we with you are copied we very much were pulled together and between us the feeling has appeared, I think, that we are necessary each other. I constantly think of you, you have occupied a place in my heart. At work I became slightly inattentive also my girlfriends speak, that I am in love. I was never so is happy. I absolutely have changed; my girlfriends and familiar speak about it. It is all because of you, dear. I as though fly in heavens. I yesterday thought of our relations and concerning our feelings. I already so have become attached to you, that I miss each day without your letters. I always, think of you. I nothing can to make with myself. I think that I am in love. I talked about it to the mum, and she speaks, that it is good, she thinks, that I shall be happy. I have told to the mum, that you the best man and that I completely trust you. She speaks me, that I should not be mistaken. She speaks, that we owe even closer study each other. She to love me. And she is simple my native mother. I think that you understand me. She wishes to us happiness and large love. I think, that we should meet, we should see each other, look in eyes, because through the Internet the emotions and difficultly are lost to understand each other. We became frank with you, and I think, that you want to learn about my sexual experience. In Russia all men dream only to drag you in bed, but I do not want it, I to not want to be given back to the first passer, that he has taken pleasure. Love it something more than she gives to the man to learn happiness in this life, and the men represent her only as sex, I think, that it is not correct also I hope, that you with me agree. I want to be with the sole man, with which I shall feel favorite. I of the ladies itself to him completely both body and soul. We together learn all depths of pleasure. Our passion will be poured out for limits of love, and we shall enjoy the friend the friend all life up to last moment of our existence.

Tomorrow I want to take day off at work to go in Embassy of. the embassy is in Moscow city. Also I want all in detail to find out, that it will be necessary to me to make, that I could arrive to you. And tomorrow I shall write to you to you about my campaign in embassy. I feel, what our hearts are beaten in one rhythm, and you feel it? I wait for your letter, whether it is important to me to know you share my ideas. Forever yours Vika.

Letter 3

Hello my love.

I waited for the moment when I again shall receive from you the letter and this happy moment has come, and I can learn, that you think of my previous letter. Your letters fill my life by sense. I to start to understand, that my life, it does not mean without you because I love you.

I have told about us with you to the girlfriends, they are very glad, that I have found the happiness, and that I shall leave to you. Certainly, they will miss on me, as well as my parents. It seems to me, that we already on are close with each other, we as if the husband and the wife only, unfortunately, divided in huge distance so much. But, not looking on we should continue to love it each other and to trust each other, you with me agree?

my day was very intense and is very tired. I reached in Office of agency also signed with them the contract. According to The contract, the agency will prepare me for all documents for Travel to buy for me the ticket and to result me in the plane. From my city there are no planes to you and consequently all over again it will be necessary for me To reach to Moscow, and therefrom already to you. It is required to my agent Today I paid in him the first Part of money, for the visa and other documents to travel. It was in Some times it is more, than I thought. I planned, that the all travel a will be To cost for me about 800 $, but because of difficulties for her reception-It was for me 1700$. My parents have told to me, that there is an opportunity to take a credit in bank. And I will take this chance to pay other part. So I will not have problems with payment.

I that can not do with myself, it is love, she sings in me as a bird in the spring sky, I think, that it is destiny it can be dangerous, but I am madly in love with you. Your letters are filled with such heat and care, and at me tears of pleasure sometimes run. I think "My God, thank, that you have helped me to find my unique person, and I hope, that we shall incorporate to it and we shall be happy". I dream of our meeting and how we shall walk with you to keep for hands as we shall look after one after another and as we shall do love. Unfortunately, we can not meet you yet. Because I can not while find money to the visa.

I LOVE YOU, I WANT YOU, YOU FOR EVER IN MY HEART, IN MY IDEAS. I dream, how you will carry me on hands to embrace me, to kiss and caress my gentle body. It is a pity, that it only dreams and whether is fated to them to come true the God knows only. I hope soon to see your letter. Yours forever Vika!!!

Letter 4

Hello my love!

I waited for that moment when I shall accept again from you the letter and this happy moment have come, and I want to learn, that you think of my last letter. I try to find out as much as possible how to arrive to you and to meet you. I do not have not enough patience to wait for this light moment in our life, I want to meet you more soon to jump to you on a neck, to kiss on the mouth you in, to look to you in eyes and to tell you I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

Today we with Masha went to bank, there have met with her familiar. He informed, that I should write the application on reception of money and then bank will consider my request and will solve, allow to me of money whether or not. But he has told, that it will not cause what problems and that he will help with it. To know what sum to take in bank I has taken an interest in agency how many tickets will cost. They have told, that the prices for tickets very much frequently vary, and probably tickets will cost from 900 up to 1600 dollars. I have filled in the application on 38000 roubles. It approximately 1420 dollars. Now I need to wait some days and then to go in bank.

When you are far, I feel lonely, you are necessary for me. Ideas about our fast meeting heat to me soul, they support me when at me bad mood, and make me happy. My girlfriends too have noticed that I began to look happier and cheerful, they speak, that too would like to leave, but they already have boys whom they love. I am happy, that I have you. My love boils as a volcano woken by god Eros; it tries to escape outside, but does not find an exit in absence of you. I wait for our meeting, as the young schoolgirl of the first appointment in life. I think that I am similar on Juliet which waits for a meeting with beloved. But I hope that at us with you all will be at all so is sad as at them. I Hope soon to see you.

Your love Vika...

Letter 5

My gentle sweet baby.

I am very happy to receive from you the letter. Lovely, you very much advanced and clever. Your mental abilities are boundless also I understand that to me far up to you. I re-read your letter some times that all well to understand and write to you answers to your questions. I am amazed above that as you express the love to me. You such romantic, you seem to me the poet.... Sweet, how your affairs? How your health? How your mood? I very much missed on you and very much grieved under your letters.

Sweet, I very much want that the god of us has more likely met. I dream of it every day and when from you there are no letters, I start to worry and experience for you. At me as though the ground leaves under legs when I do not read your letters and inside that - that is torn.

My dear, now at us good weather keeps. Every day the sun, but it is not important for me, because is not present a number of you. The sun seems to me dark from that that I suffer from separation from you. Before going to bed I dream of that as we with you together. I present as we with you we prepare for dream. We with you come in souls. Before including water we merge with you in a gentle, passionate deep French kiss. So we cost very for a long time while at us air will not end. Then you slowly remove from me an easy silk dressing gown. I remain absolutely naked. Our lips again merge in a kiss during which I of you I undress. Now you too remain naked. We admire bodies each other. I start to kiss slowly you language in your neck, I tickle you behind your ears. Your skin cover small a shiver. I see as you start to be raised and everyone are more damp whole your skin, your strong breast, your stomach yet I shall not reach your member. I see that you completely are excited. Lovely, I not so know about that how to satisfy you with language because time did not do similar, but I very much would want to make pleasant to you thus... I think that we with you shall study in all to pleasures sex and we shall reach the greatest harmony and satisfaction in the future. Lovely I continue: when both of us reach full excitation, you accurately take me for a waist and penetrate in me. Both of us groan as lunatics of ecstasy.... Our genitals approach each other as a key to the lock, as meal to a stomach. That moment which also approaches forces us to move so crazy as the piston in the engine as drops of a rain fall from the sky at a strong wind... We finish with you simultaneously and again our lips merge in a sweet kiss while our hearts will not calm down from prompt palpation. Then we mine each other, doing massage and to go to bed.... My love, after these ideas I fall asleep so is sweet and all the night long I see about you erotic dreams. I do not want that you thought that I anxious, but I am valid so strongly I love you, that my body wants you, my soul asks calmness, my heart requires your tender words, in your gentle touches... Still so it is a lot of reasons that I wanted to be with you, but for them I will not have not enough day and night to write to you....

Road, yes we with you became in love without a meeting. I am not surprised to this. When I for the first time have seen you at once has understood that I already have fallen in love with you. I have understood that it you my knight on which white horse I waited all life. The god of us for a long time has married us in heavens because we are created the friend for the friend. I am given birth on this light for the sake of you, to love you, to be your second half and to divide with you the life. You for me are very dear also I do not know as I before a vein not knowing you. I know, that if we would know each other would be happy together earlier our lives for a long time would be connected also we. But I am grateful to the god for that that it has given me you and for that that it has met us. Sweet, at us still ahead and I know, that if we shall try, we shall be together and we shall be pleased to each day... You understand me? You want that it was so?

Dear, I want that I was for you the beloved. You understand me? My love, I has made copies of your photos and now I carry one of them always with myself. Sometimes I sometimes has very difficult moments and then I look at you and calm down. You for me as a guardian angel and from you always proceed that good and curative energy which is necessary for me. I know that your presence helps me and your photo - for me as an image from which I can follow an example to whom I can complain and whom I strongly love. My love, the base of our love already starts to develop, but it demands time. We with you shall build our relations and this building will be soon constructed. And we should lodge in it full of love and happiness. And we shall mark this house warming by that that we shall meet you and we shall not leave each other when. And this building will be very strong and strong. I know, that our love very strong and can go through any problems and misfortunes.

Dear, I love you very strongly and very much I want from you it. I understand us many difficulties in the future wait, but we should transfer it, helping each other. And the first difficulty is a distance. I very much want a meeting with you. I understand, that you are very much borrowed and from you not enough time...

Love, I very much would want that you have made all that in a reality about what you write to me. Yes, your words force me to wish our meeting more and more. I am very much excited when you speak to me about such kisses which would cover all my body and I speak you, that not only I, but also all women of the world could not resist to such tendernesses as yours. I very much would want, that these words were devoted only to me and they would be told aloud.....

I want to become your beloved, your friend in a life, your business partner, your support and to be your wife and mother of your children in one person. I want to carry out all your desires and even small questions. My lovely, I want that between us there was a firm and dry ground. I completely trust you and I believe in you. I completely give you myself and I think that you carefully will concern with my gentle and fragile heart. I do not want that it was game. Understand, for me each your word, each your point, a point is for me full gravity. And I want that these beautiful words were the full truth and were only for me. You understand me?

At me not so good news to you. Since the morning I had excellent, cheerful mood. But it has very strongly deteriorated after I have visited bank. Today I went in bank and to me have given up with the loan. I was simply in a shock! I could not assume such situation. I trusted, that this the man can help me. I have asked him why to me cannot give money and he has answered, that it precisely does not know why such has taken place. Bank that has not told. Probably all they were afraid of that at me the small salary and that I cannot pay to them this money. In our country and in our banks very much frequently people take money and then cannot pay up to the end to bank that money which have taken, and most likely, they were afraid, that with me there will be a same situation, as with others. At me remained about 200 dollars. But where to me to take 1250 more??? I need to pay money to agency. But at me they are not present!!! I very much hoped to the aid bank, but he has denied assistance to me!!! It is very difficult for me to tell you about it. But I have done everything that I could. I paid visa. I have spent a lot of time and nerves when waited the visa. But this money is not enough. I did not want to burden you. I wanted to reach you with my own money but unfortunately I failed. Now I should pay the rest of the sum to agency. It is only 1450 $ dollars. It is very a shame to me to speak about it because I do not know that to me to do, where to me to get such big sum? And now I still had last hope, it you, please, help me with the money on ticket. I understand that it is a difficult decision for you, but we must trust each other. Of course if you do not want, you can not help me. It is bad but not fatal. I will lose my money. I cannot arrive to you. IT IS BAD TOO BUT NOT FATAL TOO. I paid for making visa. It is big money for me, but MONEY IS NOT THE MAIN THING IN THE LIFE. I trust you, and I know that YOU ARE A MAN OF HONOUR AND YOU ARE A GENTLEMAN. If you can help me, write to me about it in the following letter!!!

Well, my baby, I need to finish this letter because that time which I today comes to an end has bought here.

I shall wait very much from you for the new letter. If you cannot answer at all to me soon I shall understand it and I shall wait all the same for that time when your letter will reach me. Once again - remember that here so far from you there is that girl who loves you and thirsts for the same from you. I kiss you strong and ardently. I hope that all were correctly written also by you can understand all in the letter.

Yours always and on always loving and adoring Vika.