Letter(s) from Natalia Isaeva to Jon (USA)

Letter 1

Hi, Jon! It is me, Tatyana. First of all I Want to say ''Thank You'' for your answer! I was sincerely glad to receive your answer, and I am very grateful to you that you have found time for writing to me. Please, forgive me for my delay in the answer... We had some failures with an electricity, and computer did not work... So I could not answer you till this minute... I am so sorry... I hope you still remember me? I think right now I must write at least the most important things about myself. I want to say that I want very much to find a friend, but my desire is diluted with absence of any experience in dialogue via Internet. But I am sure that time will help me and you, if you feel the same. As you already know, my name is Tatyana. And my nationality is Russian. To be honest, I was afraid that you will not write me, being disappointed with my nationality and residence. And if my nationality have saddened you; or if the distance for you is the main thing in a friendship and relationship, I'll try to understand you. But I sincerely think that there are no borders and distances for friendship.
Besides in the near future I am going to travel to the USA, and who knows, maybe we would become big friends or even more...
That is why I want to communicate with you, and I sincerely hope that you too will be glad to have a female friend from Russia. Have you ever been to Russia, Jon? I live in the North-Caucasian area of Russia - in Republic Severnaya Osetia-Alania. I live in the small settlement - Chernoyarskiy. It is near to the such a big cities as Mozdok, Nalchik, Beslan, Vladikavkaz. Jon, I am not a wonderful American woman who lives nearby to you, but I too have the soul and kind heart, like any woman I have the tears when someone gives me a pain; I as well have a smile on my face when I am glad. And I hope very much that your interest in woman does not submit to distances and borders.
Jon, I am sure that presence of my picture in the letter made you look at my picture before you began to read my letter, am I wrong? (smile). Well, I hope that my appearance will be pleasant for you. I am 30 years old. My birthday is March, 20 1978. I got the higher education and the degree of dental specialist. I work as the dentist in the small clinic.
Jon, I feel that I should finish my letter because I even don't know if you are still interested in dialogue with me or not. But before I finish, I want to tell you that I have written to you not for fun. And though I had a strong desire to find a friend via Internet, however I do not want to turn it simply into a game. I'm trying such a communication for the first time in my life, and this decision is a brave decision for me. I am a usual woman, I try to enjoy what I have. But in my 30 years old I know this life, I know enough to understand that happiness is not always defined by things which surround us and which we have. I like my life, I have various things, - own apartment, profession, interests and hobbies, I have heart and mind. But I would lie to myself if I would say that I am happy, because not the material world makes people happy. I very much want to have a man, a partner and a friend of course. I could not find mutual understanding that is so important for me. Friendship is above all because I think that the friendship is a base of any relations. I would like to try to find out more about you. And I hope you are interested in our dialogue just as I. We have the chance to learn each other, to become friends and maybe more. Who knows. But if you think that I am not worthy of you, if you have no desire to talk to me anymore, please, at least, write me about it. Jon, assuming that you will write me again, may I ask you some questions? (Smile). Do you like your work? Where is your home? What kind of music do you like, and, in general, what are your interests? These questions are banal, but wouldn't you like to know about me the same things as well? (Smile). And by the way, I will be glad to have your pictures! Therefore do not hesitate to send me sometimes your pictures! Thank you! I hope you want to talk to me and I hope I will get your answer. Will I? (Smile).
With the best regards.
P.S. I have been told that our Internet is low-speed, so when you will send me pictures, please make your pictures not very much sizeable :)

Letter 2

Hi Jon!
I am so very glad to receive your letter! Thank you!! You have answered and it means that your heart is open for new friends. I think it's Great, because the friendship brighten life! Probably you have already noticed that I'm not able to keep my emotions inside of me. Really, I always try to share my joy with other people, I try to give my smile and good mood to all people. I never show to people that I am grieved or have any problems. And all people, who know me are sure that everything in my life is perfectly, that I am a happy woman, that I have no any disappointments, and all my dreams always come true.. But unfortunately it is not so, because when you are lonely, nothing can cure sadness. And if you, Jon, ever felt the same, you understand what I mean.
Jon, I must tell that I try to write in English as good as possibly. And I hope you understand everything I write. I study English for more than 18 years, but since I study this language in the Russian-speaking country, I know that my English is not quite correct. Therefore I ask you to not punish me for my mistakes (Smile). Earlier I dreamed to be the Linguist or Interpreter. Well, I've become the dental specialist, but I am happy that I have chosen English language for studying, because the knowledge of English has opened for me the whole world of the wonderful beautiful poetry of English-speaking musicians. I like western music very much. Pink Floyd is a Greatest band! I like Keane, Joe Cocker, Mark Knopfler, Radiohead and many other delightful musicians. In Russia as well there are many good musicians, but I bet you don't know about it (smile). Well, I think that there are many others things about myself that I must tell.
Thank you for the fine judicious informative, kind letter. I like to learn you more. By reading your letters I start to understand your heart, your soul. I am glad to find out your thoughts and reasoning's. Thanks for sharing with me of your thoughts.
I cannot visit your site to see your pictures because I cannot use the Internet at any time. I can only receive your letters and write mine. So I ask you to send me your pictures in the letter.
In general, if to speak about my nature, I must tell that I'm a versatile person. I like sports, I like reading, I like to listen to music, to play piano, to watch movies.- Scent Of A Woman, Notebook, Stepmother, Love Actually, Mystic River, 21 gramme, Dragonfly, K-PAX, Forrest Gump. Of course, I can't list all movies I like - there is too many good films. I adore cooking, I knit warm clothes. Actually, here any woman can knit. I like camping, swimming. I have no children and I was never married, though I was in a relationship and I thought that it will lead me to the happy future. But now I haven't anything except of bad and painful memoirs. (All in all it was just a brick in the wall ... - these are good words that I like very much). But I live with a smile on my face and with hope in my heart. I am optimist and I do not need many things to be happy. All I need is a man, friend, soul-mate... Jon, if there is anything you want to know, I will be glad to tell you. I wanted to ask you, Jon, what are the basic features of your character? As for me, I really can tell that I have a kind heart, and I am a good listener. I always appreciate sincerity and honesty; I am able to forgive and I hate anger and roughness. I am very active and sociable. And I am a very gentle and sensual. Jon, what you are looking for in a woman? How often you tried to find a friend or soul-mate via Internet? Probably you have many female friends in the Internet?
I had boyfriend. But I have tested roughness and disrespect. I do not want to talk about him now. I will tell you later if you don't mind. But I can say, that I am looking for a man with the kind heart; I am looking for a man who will respect lady. Russian guys have disappointed me in this sense. I am tired to live in the roughness, disrespect, a rage, on which many ladies have got used to not pay attention. I want to hear the kind words told in all sincerity. I do not want to hear more dirty curses which here are considered like a norm. Therefore I am looking for not the person first of all but heart. And I am afraid of man roughness very much. Many men, at least here think that true force of a man in his hands, muscles and in abilities to humiliate. But I think that true force of a man is his heart. A man should win love and tenderness of the woman by beauty of heart, but not by force of hands.
Jon, I hope my letters are not too big for you? If they are too big, please forgive me. It is my demerit - I can't state my thoughts briefly... I hope you are not angry? Probably I am too talkative, but I hope it does not irritate you? Anyhow, you should know that I am an open book, and I am always sincerely ready to tell you more about me, and to find out new things about you. Such I am ... I have to finish, Jon, but I wanted to tell you that I use computer at the clinic. I work from Monday till Friday. But sometimes I work Saturday and Sunday. So, maybe I will be able to write letters in weekends, if you want (smile). This computer is located in cabinet of medical analyses. We get the access to the Internet only few times in a day,- for sending analyses and receiving result. Well, now this computer will be also used for my dialogue with Jon! (smile). I wanted also to ask you about your family, Jon. I miss my family too much, but nothing can help me.. Jon, I hope to receive your letter soon. I send you more pictures of me, I hope you like these pictures! By the way, Jon, I have brought into clinic all my pictures; and our programmer has placed them into the computer. So I have many pictures here and if you wish, I will be glad to send you more my pictures!
Sincerely and with the best regards. Tatyana.
P.S. I will hope to receive your picture soon. I will be very grateful to you!

Letter 3

Hi Jon! I am smiling right now! I waited to receive your email, and when I got your letter, it was a better time! I was working with lots of stress today. Today we had to receive medicines and all pharmaceutical materials, including anesthetics. But for some reasons the bus with medicines again has not come to our clinic. I have declared to all patients that I can work but only without anesthetics. And there were many people who were ready to cure tooth even without anesthesia because there is no guarantee that the bus will come tomorrow. So, today was the twice difficult working day because not anyone can endure pain, especially children. Anyway, I took a break and I have been informed that I got the letter. And I forgot about all my worries with work. So, thank you for your letter, Jon! Forgive me for talking about teeth and about my work. I bet you got unpleasant feeling while reading about anesthesia... (smile) I know that all men are afraid of dentists, but let me to assure you, that as a woman I am absolutely undangerous and harmless for you! (smile). Thank you for your picture. It is a fine picture. You are a strong and handsome man. I very much like this picture. It is wonderful, when a man combines force and charm. It happens so seldom. Forgive me for my frank words. But I always speak what I think. I think there is nothing bad in it. You have pleasant appearance and it is wonderful.
I admire with your kind heart, your wisdom and understanding of sense of the life. I liked how you have written about qualities that your woman must have. You are wise man and it is wonderful.
I also want to tell you, that I have asked you in my last letter about your family because it was always important for me. I think many people don't understand completely that family it is a big riches. Many people understand value of family only when lose it. I always loved my parents and now I miss them very much. Both my parents have passed away. Daddy has died when I was a child. He has been killed in a military conflict. Mom has died when I was 16 years old. After daddy's death she always was sick and spent a lot of time in hospitals. Being a little girl I was doing everything by myself,- I cooked a meal, sewed clothes, etc. I studied at school, and I worked as a nurse in the evening to support us. It was a hard time but it made me stronger. At this time I have found a friend - her name is Elena. She helped me in any ways she could. She is my best friend now and the closest person in my life. When mom has died I was frightened very much. But I tried to do everything to be the worthy daughter, to be worthy of her love. Together with Elena we have finished medical university, we together got the specialization and worked as interns. I really hope I became a woman that my parents wanted me to become. I think that those difficulties that were in my life have made me who I am now. Now I think that I was not saying often to my mom about my love to her, and I regret about it so much. Jon, forgive me that I write about it. It is my life and it is a part of me. Simply I want you to know me more, because I would be glad to know more about you as well. I wanted to ask, what is your religion? Are you religious? How you spend your weekends, Jon?
Do you like to spend time at the nature?
Jon, did I tell you that I have a dog? She is small and funny dog.
When people see my dog, they are smiling. May be soon I will send you some pictures of my dog, and you will smile as well...
Jon, today was really a good day, and right now I sit, write this letter and I'm smiling. And I hope that right now you read my letter and are smiling too.
By the way, my friends know that I am talking to you, and they start to ask questions about you! (Smile). Well, all my friends are two ladies - Elena and Svetlana. You know, one of them is working with me at our clinic.
Jon, I have to go. But I will wait your letter!
One of pictures I send you today is a picture of me in the clinic. Former patients of our clinic have made a website about our clinic as the gratitude for our work, and this picture is from that website! If you want to see this website, the address - http://usualclinic.wmsite.ru/dentistry
There you can see me and another doctors. There is three pictures of me there...
I hope you will write me soon. And then I will have again a smile on my face.
Your friend Tatyana.
P.S. I hope that right now you have smile on your face. I want you to smile, smile, smile, smile...

Letter 4

Hi Jon! Thank you so much for your letter! I was so glad to receive it!!!!! I smile because the friendship always warms hearts!
And now I am simply glad that you have written. But today I can't write much. I have an opportunity to write you only some lines, I have decided to use this opportunity. Jon, I simply want to tell you that right now I have a smile on my face, and I wanted to share my smile with you!
I simply write to make your day better.
I of course will try to answer questions you have asked...
Thank you for new pictures!!!
I sincerely regret about your father. I know what you feel, and if my words can facilitate your sufferings in any way, I want you to know that I bring to you my condolences and for me is a great honor to share your sufferings! I feel it is not fair what happened to your mother. Sometimes in our life happen things that are out of our control and we have to try to cope with it and go to the future with our lives, though very often I feel that something are too cruel and not right at all.
I never tried to drive a car! I need good teacher! I am not sure that I can simultaneously to press pedals, to twist a rudder, to look at road and in mirrors. So many deals! I dream to learn to drive!!! It is really my dream. Can you teach me? (smile) Do you have big plains where there are no constructions, buildings, pillars, cars and people? (smile).
You asked me about a possible meeting. I with pleasure will answer - Of Course! I would not start such a relations if I were not sure in it. When my heart will prompt me that I should go to your country, I will go. When I will feel that time for meeting have come, I will do everything to organize this meeting.
As for my picture - I do not understand what exactly you could not recognize, probably it is my handbag on the right and a green prop at the left...
Jon, I send you some my pictures! My dog's name is Mashka.
I got this dog from my friends as a Birthday gift many years back!
A black street-dog in a picture is a boyfriend of my dog! (Smile).
In an other pictures you can see my soft toys. I hope you love pictures.
Jon, I have to go!- Toothache does not like to wait! (Smile).
Please, write me more!!! I will be waiting...
I am very glad that we have found each other. Please, do not disappear... (Smile).
I really do not know why, - but I am glad when I find out that you have written to me!
When I will receive your new letter I promise to write more than today...
I am smiling right now!!!
Your friend Tatyana.

Letter 5

Hi Jon! All I can say is ''what a wonderful evening after the hard day!''
I am so glad to receive your letter, because right now is evening, and I only now has returned to clinic. And your letter is a true surprize! We had "out-clinic day". Every week several various doctors and some assistants(who takes analyses), are going all together on a special medical bus to various remote small villages which are located far away from big cities, usually in a thicket of a forest. The public transport is not going to such a villages and there is no any clinics out there. And people cannot go to big cities because these people have no personal transport. In these villages always there are many sick people, basically - small children or old and weak feeble people, whose life completely depends on other people. So, we go on the specially-equipped bus directly to these villages and we render medical aid to all needy people right in their homes or in the bus. All these people know us personally, and love us very much. You know, Jon, I am so tired right now that I have no forces even to smile. That is why I said, that your letter is a wonderful surprise! (smile). I feel that I began to say silly things? Likely I have already tired you? Thank you for new wonderful interesting pictures!!!
I get to clinic by bus. It is the special bus, a route of which is laid through all settlements where live all doctors and nurses. We haven't here public buses or trolley buses, and it is too long to get to clinic on foot. Therefore we have the special bus which takes each person, like school buses in America as I saw in a movie. (Smile). Therefore some people are compelled to wake up at 4 am while someone can wake up at 7,30 am. What is the time of beginning of the working day at in America? In Russia it is 8 am. Therefore on the average all people wake up at 7 am or 6:30 am.
Jon, I am afraid that I will be writing to you during all the night, because our dialogue for me is a true rest! Tomorrow I will sleep as long as I want, because after "out-clinic day" we are allowed to come to clinic at any time. You know, Jon, my favourite day of week is Friday, because two next days are days off(though not always) and I can restore my vital forces and energy. BUT now I do not feel pleasure when I think of the days off because these days I maybe can't receive letter from my friend Jon! (Smile). But you Jon likely will be happy when the days off will come, because these days you will not receive boring letters from one boring woman whose name is Tatyana! (Smile). Am I right?
Jon, can you imagine, while I write you right now this letter, Elena (I told you about her earlier) has fallen asleep right in the armchair opposite to me! She works together with me and we always work in the one group in "out-clinic day". She said she will wait me till I finish to write my letter to you Jon, and now she simply sleeps! She is a true friend, like a sister! She lives not far from me. Usually we spend the days off together.
I like to spend time on the nature. I like to read books, or simply to enjoy music and make various homework. I like to walk in the park or simply to be in my bed all day long (smile). What about you Jon??? (smile)
I like camping and to live in a tent, I like sunsets and sunrises, a smell of the river and bulrushes, a rustle of a small waterfall; night starry sky and amazing brilliance of a fish dissecting a water surface of a small lake under captivating moonlight. This all is very beautifully and romantically for me. Do you like it as well, Jon? When air fills with aromas of the forest and wild-raspberry, with river freshness and campfire's smoke, this all brings into my soul the feeling of freedom and the insuperable desire to live. By the way Jon, I like to cook and I know many recipes. Have you ever tried any Russian dishes?- ''Uha'', ''Okroshka'', ''Golubtsy'', ''borshch''. My favorite is ''Okroshka''! Jon, do you love a tasty meal? Does the way to your heart lay through the stomach? (smile) If so, I think I have good chances! (Smile). Jon, do you like to be romantic with your woman? I hope yes.
Thanks for the information about computer... I understand nothing in computers, but I will think out what you have told...
I must go Jon, because the darkness has already covered all around and if we will miss the last bus from clinic, we will need to go on foot some kilometers through the terrible places and forest,- and it is dangerous.
We are simply women and we can't protect ourself in a dark streets.
Well, what is the funnest thing that you like to do, Jon?
What event in your life you still recollect with laughter? Oh, I have promised you to finish my letter, but instead of it I write again and again. Please, forgive me. I will wait for your letter with hope!
I hope your day is filled with sun warmth and human kindness!
Your friend Tatyana.
P.S. By the way, the woman in a picture with umbrella is my friend Svetlana.