Letter(s) from Ksenia Shaverdina to Eric (Canada)

Letter 1

Hello again Eric.
I am very glad to hear from you. Thank you for paying attentionand for writing back. I am going to write to you 3 timesa week so we could get to know each other better. You can call me Munya. My name is Kseniya,But all my friends call me Munya. it is my nickname...I want you to understand one thing. I really like you, I aminterested in you but not your money. I feel sorry you had anegative experience. But don’t judge before you know the truth.Not all women are the same.I am going to tell you a little bit more about my lifestyle. My apartment is rather small but very cozy. It is veryexpensive here to rent an apartment. So this is what I canafford to myself now – one room, no phone and a small kitchen. But my friends say it is very comfortable. It is difficultto live alone and do all by myself. My parents live in anothercity. I moved from there when I was 17. And I don’t see themoften. We are not in very good relations with them. But anytime they need my help, I will come and do what I can for them. Though I am 28 y.o. I am ready to settle down, to have family,to give all my time to my husband. I think that every personneeds a place he could come and feel easy and comfortable. This is what I am looking for and what I need. I don’t wantto be lonely any more. I was disappointed several times. AndI don’t trust men here any more. By the way, how it happenedthat you still haven’t found your second half? You are a veryinteresting person and a good man. And I am sure you break hearts.You already know that I am trying to get a student visa toyour country. And it could be a very good opportunity forus to meet if we like each other through letters and findthat we match each other. The situation in our country isvery uncomfortable now. With our president Putin we have nodemocracy. And our new president Medvedev same as Putin.There are no good laws; we live like it was duringthe Soviet times. And I don’t like it at all. Other countriesare developing fast. But we are still on the same level asit was many years ago. And consequences of an economic crisishave very painfully struck Russia. I liked living in Australia.It is a big and well developed country with lots of opportunitiesfor good life. I lived there for 1,2 years. But unfortunately,I had to go back because of my visa. I was there in 1997-1998.And it was a very good time for me. I enjoyed it. I worked as a nurse with children. And I liked the familyI lived in very much. They are good people and they helpedthe first time a lot. My language skill was not good andthey helped me to speak and understand it better. My livingthere helped to write and speak English fluently. So therewill be no problems with our communication. I told youalready in my previous letter that a man I hadthere just left me and I don’t want to anything to remindme about this again.I am going to tell you about interests and hobbies inmy next letter. I have to stop here as the time in the internetcafe is limited. I don’t have my personal computer at homeas most people in Russia do. Well, I will better stop here for now.Kseniya.P.S.I will try to send you my pics with each letter.I hope you don't mind? I added my first letter once again in case if you did not get it-This is me again. As I promised I am going to tell you moreabout myself now. My name is Kseniya.I am 28 years old. I have never been married and I have no children. My height is 5.4 and my weigh is 120. You can have an impressionabout it from my picture.I am a very affectionate person. I believe in a life full ofphysical, emotional and spiritual happiness. And I want to sharesuch a life with a person who wants the same.I love the outdoors, spending time at home with a beloved person.I love nature, water, picnics.But I don’t do this as often as I would like it to be as I don’thave the one who could share it with me. I am honestly ready to open my heart to a person who couldreally appreciate this. I work as a shop-assistant and do sell clothes for women (skirts,trousers, blouses ). I really like my job. It is great when youcan help someone to look more beautiful and I like to be aroundpeople. I live in Russia. The city is called Tomsk. If you look at themap, you will find it close to the center, in the beginning ofSibiria. but somewhere I am going to get a studentvisa and I am going to come to your country. I thought a lot about it and hadcome to such decision. I love Russia but I do really want to move to a more stablecountry. The life is very complicated here. I know it will notbe easy in a foreign country. But I am sure I can do much morein your country. I am a hard-working person and I am not afraidof difficulties, so with the opportunities that your countrygives I can do more than I do here. I already have some experience living and working in a foreigncountry. Some years ago I worked in Australia and I should sayI liked it very much. So I know what is waiting for me and Idon’t want to waste time. And I decided to try and find aperson I could rely on, the one who will be with me in joyand sorrows. We all work a lot now and it takes so much timethat we miss the most important in this life – love relationsand family. Living in Australia I had relations with a man. But I had togo back to my country as my visa was over. He didn’t want towait for me any longer. It was too difficult for him. It wasa very hard period for me but I could handle it. And now Iam ready to fall in love and to have new relations. I triedto have correspondence with foreigners. But as soon as theyget to know I was from Russia they disappeared. They thoughtI was a scammer. I hope that you are not scared that I amfrom Russia.I want you to understand, I am not a scammer. I don’t needmoney from you. I heard much about it and I really feel sorryfor women who are true and want to find their happiness. All this is so wrong as there are so many people who reallywant to find their second halves. And internet is a very goodopportunity for this. I hope that you like my picture. I am not a model, of course.I am just an average Russian girl who is truly seeking her love...I hope that you are interested in me and I will hear back fromyou. And perhaps, in the future we will have an opportunity tomeet. I go to the internet cafe 3 times a week. That is whyI am going to write to you in a day.Well, I hope that now you understand me better and I will bew aiting impatiently for your reply.

Letter 2

Hi Eric,
It’s me again. I am very glad to see your reply...I have some time and I decided to tell you more about myself.I really like you and I would like to know you well. And Iwant you to understand me better too, to know how I live,what I do in my spare time.Well, I like cooking very much. This is one of the thingsthat make me relax and forget about all the bad things thathappen during the day. Salads, different soups, pasta,souses, cakes and pies– it is just a short list of whatI cook. I like very much to try new things. It is always niceto go to a good restaurant or to a nice pizza place, cafe.I do it seldom, usually it happens when we celebrate someone’sbirthday. I very like sushi.I like trying new cuisine and trying to guess what are theingredients. What’s favorite dish?I like pool? do you like pool?I like Bowling? do you like Bowling?What’s is your favorite colour ? Mine is red and black.I like animals a lot. Also I like watching programmes on TVabout animals. I do love cats and dogs. Also I have a dream tomake a horse ride. I think it is very exciting.I have no pets. But my best friend Vika has a dog and a cat.We often walk with them along the street.Watching movies is one of my adorable things to do, especiallyat the weekend. It is always so nice to rent some movie, to cook somethingtasty or something sweet, to invite someone of my friends andenjoy the time together. It is especially nice doing it in thecold winter evening with a warm blanket and a cup of hot teaor coffee. What’s favorite movie? Any favorite actress and actor?I like Brad Pitt and Charlize Theron very much. I think shegorgeous. And I always try not to miss a new movie with them. Also I like studying languages. I try to improve my English andalso I would like to learn French some day. I have a phrase bookand trying to learn something though sometimesit is rather hard. I always try to find time to read something. The last bookI’ve read was “Loneliness in the internet” by Vishnevskiy.I liked it very much though it is sad but it shows the true lifeof people. I also like to read classical things by Tolstoy,Bernard Show, Dostoevskiy and others. I regularly go into aerobics. And I also I go twice a week tothe swimming-pool. It helps me to stay in a good shape and tobe healthy. I try to lead a healthy life style, don’t have any bad habbits. Music helps me to be a in good spirit. I like ballads very muchthough sometimes I can listen to a fast music. I like Lara Fabianvery much and Darren Hayes.I like to have long walks in parks.I like to drive on a bicycle.I have no it, but often take for rent bicycle.What about you? What are your prefers? Tell me, please, moreabout you and your interests. I have one question for you. Do you know any colleges and universitiesclose to your place? I could check them in advance and enter thenwhen I go to your country.I wish to arrive to your country. I wish to receive the visa next month.I have already started to collect documents necessary for a trip.I wish to study and live near with you, that we could meet.I wish to study as the medical worker or the bookkeeper.I like both trades. But I can choose and any other branch of formation.Well, I have to close here. But will be waiting very much foryour reply.

Letter 3

Hello Eric,
I am glad, to receive your answer.Unfortunately, I can’t talk to you on-line, as I write lettersto you from the internet cafe and the time is limited there.I wish I could chat with you but right now it is just impossibleas I don’t have a personal PC.But I shall continue to send you email letters and pics.I am going to send you my address here. As I already told youI rent my apartment and I don’t have a phone there. But hereis my address, in case you decide to send me a card or ahand-written letter: - to Kseniya,Osipenko street – 8, apartment –2.Tomsk, 634034, Russia. Yes, I am going to come to your country. Somewherein a month. I am going to enter the Universityor college. I am doing all the paperwork for this now. That'swhy I asked you about the colleges or Universities close toyour place. So I could study and meet with you there.I shall live in campus.Do you want it?Do not forget to send me your photos.As soon as I finish this letter I will go and have a short walk.You know walking is one of the things I adore. It is so nice tohave a long walk and then find some small cafe and get a cupof coffee there. I don’t have a car and I don’t really want tohave it right now. And it is too expensive for me. I have no moneyto buy a car. I have never tried to drive a car and I have no license. Walking is much more pleasant. Unfortunately, most of the timesI have to walk alone. All my friends are married and they tryto spend more time with their families. I also like to go to themovie a lot. But do it rather seldom. Usually I go there with myfriends, but they don’t do this often. They try to spend moretime with their husbands and children. As I don’t have childrenand a husband, I try not to bother them often. Sometimes I feelrather lonely but I try not to think of this often. Any way, my city is too beautiful not to walk. My city is verybeautiful. There are so many places of culture there, lots ofmonuments. It is very green. It is especially beautiful inspring and in summer time when everything is awaken afterthe winter. There are also many parks and we have one boulevard with fountains.And it is gorgeous. Also we have some really beautiful churches. I am Christianbut I am not really religious. I have my own faith inside.And I go to the church but do it seldom. I am not fanaticabout this. I like nature very much and it is always a please to go somewhereto the country-side and to spend a day there. I like picnics,camping a lot. It is great to spend a day on the fresh air,especially when you are with friends or family. I try to enjoyit every time we do it but sometimes I feel very sad as I missnot having my second half near. Well, I am not going to be sad, as I am sure everything will be fine. Please, tell me about your city? What is it?
What’s interesting there? Kseniya.

Letter 4

Dear Eric!
Thank you so much for sending me your picture.> When you asked me in your letter " Do you want it? ".-I asked, you wish to see me? You want that we met.I decided to come to the Internet cafe again to write you.I shall arrive to you in a month.I still choose college in which I shall go to study.I shall inform you the name when I shall know...I am going from the post office. I decided to send my parentsa letter. As I already told you I am not really in good relationswith them. But any way, they are my parents and I love them. I also havea brother and he is younger than me and they give him all thelove they have. They always loved him more than me and didn’t paymuch attention to me. My mum wanted to have a son very much andshe couldn’t get pregnant for a long time and she was very happywhen she got to know she was going to have a son. Of course,it hurts to know that they love him a lot and are not veryinterested in my life. But if they are happy, I am glad for them.I moved to Tomsk when I was 19. I entered the Pedagogical Instituteand studied for an educator. I worked as an educator in thekindergarten as soon as I finished it. Though I like childrena lot, the salary was too small to continue working there. Youknow it is rather difficult to live alone when you don’t haveany help from anyone. That’s why I decided to try and find another job. I had relationswith men in my life. But I can’t depend on a man.When I love I give all of myself to this person.Unfortunately, men can’t always appreciate this. I like sex butI think that when you are in relations with someone you shouldbe faithful and do not betray the one who lives with you.Unfortunately, men here want to have everything, a faithful wifeand another woman as a lover. I am a very devoted and faithfulperson and this I can’t accept. Hope you understand me. Sex is very good but I accept it only with the person thatI love. I am not a virgin but at the same time I am not a slut.My last relations were 2 years ago. Unfortunately, it didn’twork out as he was too busy spending good time with his friendsall the time and he almost paid no attention to me. I was justlike a beautiful thing for him and nothing more. Since that timeI had no relations with other men. Well, it is not really comfortable to talk about sex right now.You know that I write from the internet cafe and there arelots of people around me. And also I don’t know you too goodyet to discuss this topic. I have to go now. People are coming and coming to the internetcafe and you know my time is limited. Internet cafe is a placewhere everyone can come and use a computer there. We have topay for such a service. It is not a library where you can usecomputers free of charge. When I lived in Australia I oftenwent to the library and could use computer there as long asI needed. But here the time is limited as there are too manypeople who need to use them. Please, tell me about your family.What relations do you have with them? Enjoy you day!!!All the best to you. Kseniya.P.S. I asked you in my previous letter to send me your address. I want to send you a card and my picture. Or perhaps, I will send you a hand written letter.

Letter 5

Hello Eric, I like pics. You do look real nice there.You seem to be a very good and caring person.I am so glad I have you in my life and I have an opportunityto come to the Internet cafe and talk to you...I am not really in a good spirit today.I had a very bad conflict at work. Some people here in Russiathink that if they have lots of money they can do and sayeverything they want. I had a conflict with one very rich womanat work. She didn’t like the quality of the clothes. And wasso rude with me. But I am just a shop-assistant. I am not theowner and I just sell things.Sometimes I feel that I am very tired from my life in Russia.I have nothing. I rent a very small apartment and can’t affordanything better. I get a very small salary and prices increasehere every year. But salaries are still the same. I was shockedwhen I get to the store to buy some food yesterday. Theyincreased prices again for milk products. Milk costs about oneUS dollar which is too much. For-example, my salary is 120 USdollars a month. And a half of it I pay for the apartment.And what is left I spend for food. Very seldom I can affordmyself to buy something from clothes.Therefore I wish to leave to live in other country.Therefore I save money for a trip.I am just tired from a hard life here. And I want to move toa foreign country. I want to get another education, to finda good job there. That is why I am trying to get a student visa.I haven't decided yet what University I am going to come to. I am still searching information. I would like it to be close to you. I am doing the paperwork now. And as they told me my visa would be ready in a month. But I don't knowthe exact dates. It is just the way things are done here. As soon as I know everything, I will let you know.I want to have a more stable life for me and my future family.And what is more important I want have a strong man near meand to have a comfortable life for us. So I am trying to savemoney any way I can for my trip and studies. Please, forgive me for writing this to you. But I need to talkto you. It is sometimes so hard to be just by myself. Andsometimes I need a strong shoulder and a friend to cry and toget an advice. I know that you are a very understanding person. So, please,try to understand me. You are my friend and I trust you.Now I shall go to a bathroom. I like to lay in bathing with foam.It would be great to take a bath together. It is veryrelaxing. And I think it is rather romantic.PLease,let me know what you think of this.Write me your thoughts and your dreams.I have attached pics. It is made in Tomsk.I have made it in September, 2008. You love autumn?Write a replay to me. Your letter will make me glad. I will wait with hope. Kseniya.

Letter 6

Hi dear Eric,
In the first lines of this message I want to apologise forcomplaining in my previous letter. I don’t really want to complain and I don’t want to talk aboutmoney any more. This was the first and the last time I did it.I was just in a very bad spiring while writing my last letterto you. Sometimes we have bad periods in life and we need a strong shoulderof a friend. I hope that you let me think you are my friend. AndI trust you that is why I decided to share my thoughts with you.If you ever need to talk and if you ever need a friend, you canalways talk to me...I have been thinking a lot about our meeting and I want tomeet with you a lot. I am doing all the paperwork now to get a student visa. AndI do hope to get it. So if I get it I will be in your country.and I think it is really a very good opportunity forus to meet.I shall arrive to you after June, 1th.Please, tell me do you really want to see me? Do you want meto visit you? Do you think that we could like each other and betogether in the future? Please, be honest with me and tell methe truth. I know that you are being tired with this question. But youshould understand my concerns. This is a very major decision tomove to the other country.Perhaps, you wonder why I have such a big desire to move fromhere. The reason is very simple. I have nobody and nothing tostay here. I will miss my friends, but they already have theirfamilies and they live with their own lives. I have parents butyou know we are not in good relations with them. And I thinkthey will not miss me. I have no good job, have no stability. I have no family. It isvery hard to live in Russia and I don’t think it will ever bebetter. And I am really tired from this life. That’s why I havesuch a strong desire to get a student visa, to come there, toget a new education, to settle down and already to have a family. I hope that you understand me and that you support me in my decision. Please, don’t be offended if I don’t always answer your questions.I do it because my time in the internet cafe is limited. I don’talways answer your questions because I am in a rush when Ianswer your letters. I come here 3 times a week and haveonly 15 minutes to write to you.

Letter 7

Hello dear Eric.
I love your photos! Today I am writting to you why I am alone. I am so tired thatmales sees on me as on beautiful pic only but not on woman.I think you like my spirit mainly not my appearance.That's why I feel so easy myself with you. I have never feltit with another males. I feel that you like my spirit firstlyand then appearance.I want you to understand that I do really like you very much.And I think that we have much in common and may be if meet wewill understand that we are a good match. I am trying to get more information about the student visaand I am doing a paperwork that is neccesary for it. There areso many things that I should do for this but I think it is worth it. I am going to come to your country. I am sure I will get my visa.And I want to know will you meet me there? You are my friendand you are a very close person to me already. And I like youvery much. I feel that there is something between us.I hope you too have the same feelings. Of course, I can’t saythat I know you very well. But I feel that you are close to me.I wish to know you better. I wonder how it can be to spendtime with you, to be with you, to cook together, to have dinnertogether, to watch movies, to walk holding hands. Letters are good, they help to understand people better. Butonly meeting can show the real feelings. When you can touch, lookinto each other’s eyes, it says a lot. Please, tell me what you think of this. Would you like to meet me?Any way you can be my friend. I will be in a foreign country andI will need a person I can trust. And I trust you already andI hope you do the same. Please, think on this and let me know if you too want to meetwith me. I want it very much. I want to see you in real life,to talk to you, to know you real but not only through the letters.I think, I can trust you? And nobody will see my picture.You promise?I have attached my naked picture in this letter. This pictureare made 3 years ago. It picture has made my friend Vika.She says I have a beautiful body.She is a very talanted photographer and I like to be her model.She is my friend and is a very good girl. She usually takes picsof me. We went to work together.She works close to my place. She is a shop-assistant too.Also today she has made 2 pics me and my passport.I shall attach to you it in the following letter.It was only once when she did take my naked picture. I hopeyou are not angry with me for this? I send you such picture asI trust you. And I also want to show you that I have a beautifulbody. But please, don't ask me to take any other naked pictures.I don't have any and I won't take any. Please, remember thatI am writing to you from the Internet cafe and I don't wantanyone to see my naked pictures. Just tell me your thoughtsabout the picture. Hope you don't judge me for it?I will go now to get more information about visa.I am going to get very important information.I hope to hear good news. I shall have information approximately in half an hour.

Letter 8

Hello my dear Eric! I have all the information about my visa now. And I will getit without any problems. It will be so great to come to yourcountry at last and to see you. I even can’t believe thiscould happen some day! Yes, perhaps, I act like a silly girl.But I already dream of our meeting. I try to imagine how thiscould be. How I will touch your hand, look into your eyes.So now I have to do is to show them all the papers and topay for it. But here I have one problem. I tried to save money. But I didn’texpect I would have to pay for visa so soon. I thought it wouldbe later. So I don’t have enough money right now.And I need your help in this if you really want to meet me.I need 240 US dollars to pay for visa. It will include medical insurance and everything that shouldbe there. Perhaps, you think why it is so expensive. Well,sum of money includes visa, insurance, medical certificateand many other papers. I already have got my passport for going abroad. I have alreadymade it and have paid for it. But I didn’t think that they wouldgive visa so soon. And if I don’t pay for it now, I could haveproblems in the future with getting visa. And I don’t want tomiss this chance. To prove you that I am real and I don’t lieto you, I am going to attach you a copy of my passport. So all I need to do now is to pay for visa. And then everythingwill be done and all we have to do is wait for the time it isissued. I have only 7-10 to pay for it and I will get itwithout any problems.This visa allows me to stay in your country for 3 months.And to enter any university during 3 months. I can stay forlonger is I enter the university. But if I find a job I canstay for the rest of the time in your country if I find ajob when I finish my education. But I also plan to work therewhile I study. I don't want to depend on any one.I’ve got to know that the best way for you to send moneythrough Western Union or Money gram. Please, don’t send memoney by regular mail. First, for sure I will not get it asthey steal money and things here. And also it will take longtime for the mail to come. And then I will miss my chancewith visa already.So, please, use WU or Money gram for sending money. It isan easy and quick way to get it.You already know my address, I’ve sent it to you already.And my full name is Kseniya Shaverdina.You better check WesternUnion.com or Moneygram.com to getmore information and also offices that are close to you.You can send money to any Western Union of Tomsk.Please, understand my problem and send me 240 dollars. So, please, let me know if you can help me in this. Kseniya.

Letter 9

Dear Eric, I do not know what to start my letter with. I feel shame andoffended. I just want to tell you that I am completely serious.I have serious intentions to come to you and I am not goingto lie to you. I am not a silly little girl that plays gamesto get money. Can’t you see it from my letters? I understandthat I should settle down already and that is why I am going tomove to another country. I know that in Russia I will not beable to have a strong family and good job. I will be unhappy.Here men don’t look at women as you do it. I have decided tomove long time ago. But couldn’t start doing it before I metyou. I didn’t want to go to your country without love. .I need about 600 USD to buy tickets. But I don't need it now.I will need to buy the ticket when I shall receive the visa. I will try to find money by this time. I understand what you think now. If I can't find 240 USD then how could I find 600 USD. It is easy. I am going to sell my fur coat. It is a very expensive fur and I can sell it for 600-800 USD. I have already made an advertisement of sale. But I may not be able to sell it for some days. If I do not do it now, then they could just refuse me in it. Don't worry! I will have money for the ticket. I promise you!I asked you to send me 240 USD. And I feel shame for this. ButI had no other choice then to ask you. The problem is that I haveonly 7-10 days to pay for my visa. I didn’t realize I would needthe money so urgently. They took my papers and told me that Iwouldn’t pay in 7-10 days, they would just refuse me. And thenI will not have another chance to get visa to your country.It was a shock for me . I thought that I could just leave thepapers and then pay for it before the trip. I thinkI would be able to find the money by that time. But it wasbeyond my forces/ I was shocked. I went to all my friends andacquaintances. But all refused to me. They don’t give such abig sum of money. I don’t ask my parents as they just don’tgive me money. When the last time I asked them to help me,they refused me. They told me they had to support myBrother and themselves. It hurt me. That is why I do not askthem about anything any more and I almost don’t talk to them.I asked my friend Vika to help me, but she had not such money.She is married and has a child. And recently they have boughtan apartment and took it in credit. I also went to the bankto check there. But they even didn’t listen to me. My salaryis only 120 USD. And they just can’t give me 240 USD. I hadtears. That is why I decided to ask you. And I feel shamefor this. I understand that it is very difficult for you totrust the girl you have never seen before. Lots of Russianwomen lied to foreigners. But I am not the same. I am real.And I am not going to lie to you! I promise!I know that 240 USD is not such a big sum of money in yourcountry. And I ask you this money not as A present to me,I am going to give them back to you. As soonas I come there and start working I will give you moneyback. I told you I was going to study and to work. I willbe able to pay for my studies and for my accommodation.I already told you I was going to get a student visa for3 months. I will be able to come to your country and tochoose any university or college. I have 3 months to enterit. And I can stay there as soon as I finish it. I am goingto choose the one that is close to you to be able to see youoften and perhaps we could get married.You are really a very dear person to me and I want to bewith you and if you fall in love with me, we can get marriedin the future. If we are together, we will build our futuretogether. I am not the one who wants to get everything inat once. WE will work together and pay our bills. I understandthat family is for the rest of the life in joy and sorrows.And I will understand if you decide not to have a family withme, and we can just be friends. I will understand if you fallin love with another woman. You can’t order your heart who tolove. I understand that you can like me through the lettersbut in real life you may not fall in love with me.I ask you one more time, please, understand me and send me 240USD.I already told you that you have to send me money to my city.You should use Western Union or Money Gram for this.And use my address that I have sent to you.You should send money to Tomsk for my name.My full name - Kseniya Shaverdina.Kseniya this is my nameShaverdina is my last name.You can send money through Western Union:TOMSKPROMSTROYBANKLENINA 193,TOMSK, 634009, RUSSIA.orPROMSVJAZBANKROZY LYUKSEMBURG, 15TOMSK, 634009, RUSSIA.You don’t need anything else to send the money.As soon as you send the money they will give you secret number( MTCN or Reference Number ). And you’ll have to tell me it.Or I will not be able to get the money without it.As I already told you could get all the information andthe address of the office at the site -westernunion.comormoneygram.com.I don’t know what else to say for you to send me money assoon as possible as my time is limited.Next time they will just refuse me in visa. I wrote you allthe truth in this letter. I am sincere and open with you.I hope that you will understand me and decide to meet withme. Please, believe me and send me 240 USD. And please, rememberthat I have only 7-10 days to pay for it.
P.S. I was in such a rush that I forgot to take pics withme. I will send them next time. I promise you. Kseniya.