Letter(s) from Irina Nett to Robin (USA)

Letter 1

Hi my Robin! I waited for your letter with fear and with pleasure at the same time! And I am very happy to receive your letter! I am ready to jump and dance, laugh and sing songs! And the reason - you Robin!
Thank you for your letter and your thoughts. I am so happy that we can meet.
Now I have the ocean of emotions and I at all do not know what to say.
I am worried very much. I very much hope that we can perfectly spend time together. I only am afraid, that if we will meet, I will asks so many questions and to chatter unceasingly, that you soon will escape from me.
My vacation will begin approximately in two weeks. At this time I can arrive to you. But unfortunately the schedule of my vacation is not flexible.
Therefore I hope you will be glad to meet me at this time. If you have not enough time, I will be happy all the same. I will be happy in any case.
It is better to wait when you will come from work, than to sit in my apartment and to know that nobody will come!!! Duration of my vacation is 34 workdays. But quantity of days which I can spent with you depends on when I will get my vacation and when I will order the ticket. However at desire I can prolong vacation at own expense. But I at all would not want to leave you :) How many days you want to be with me? I think preparation for travel will be about two weeks. Complexity of approval of the papers, visa will be reduced to a minimum as I will have petitions and characteristics from a work place, from respected organizations and legal persons; guarantee documents and a various sort of the information and inquiry, which will be given to commissions I will get the petition and a testimonial from Ministry of Health! Except of that I will pay for preparation for the commission.
Every day I think - what my friend Robin will tell me today, what mood he will have today? And as soon as I get free minute, I rush to analyses's cabinet to find out if you have written to me or not. And when I receive your letter, I start to smile from ear to ear anticipating the best time of my day - time when I read your letter and when I write to you the all my thoughts. These are the most important minutes of my day. And these minutes I don't hear anything and I don't see anything except of lines and paragraphs which in my mind will be transformed into small movie, movie about you, my dear Robin. And you cannot imagine at all how it wonderfully!
Sometimes I think, what would be if I have not found the boldness in myself to write you? What would be if I didn't believe that I can find a man in such a way? I always want to think that I the courageous woman, but I feel that actually it is not so. I am ready to give my life for the sake of person who are close and dear for me, I am ready to donate my well-being for the sake of well-being of other person but when I think of myself, I often become timid and all my boldness disperses like the fire's smoke.
I am often afraid to make something, to take some step simply because of fear that it will be an incorrect step. I am often afraid to ask people about anything simply because of fear to get the negative answer.
Not always, but it happens. What would happen, if you have not answered my letter? Nothing would happen! And grey monotonous days again would lie on a way of my life by infinite impenetrable veil. Do you want to know what I did today? First off, I should tell that I slept with a smile on my face!
At least when I have woken up and have looked at the mirror, I have noticed that I smile! Then, I cleaned a teeth and I had smile! Then, I jog and I smiled as if actually I watched funny movie. Then, I have cooked a breakfast and drank a coffee with a smile on my face! Then, I have come to clinic, and I could not hide my smile. I was ready to laugh and I at all had no desire to work! It is a very bad symptom for the doctor! :)
Everything around have seemed to me a beautiful and wonderful. And even the severe boss, when have seen that I look at him and I smile, he began to survey himself attentively and even have come near to the mirror to see if anything wrong! He has thought that something wrong with his clothes! All the day I work with smile on my face! Anastasia looks at me and smiles as well.
Of course she understands the reason, and it makes her happy as well! And when time of sleep will come, I will lie in my bed with the same smile on my face! And if you till now have not understood why I smile, I will tell you!
I smile because I think of you, Robin! And it brings joy! I am so happy that I have in my life such a man as you! Thank you that you are in my life!
I have to go. Now I will not have a lot of time after work because after work I will have one more working day!:) You may ask what I mean?
The preparation for my trip! You cannot imagine at all how many deals I must do for our meeting! I even have asked the boss to reduce my working day or to allow me to take some hours off in the middle of day to make some things, because after 5pm not all departments works! Of course now I should work in the days off to have more of free time at week-days. But thoughts about our meeting give me force and energy! I am sure that everything will be perfectly! I will wait your letter! Please, write me because I need your letters and support more than ever!

With Love and more Kisses!
Always your Anjela!

Letter 2

Hi My Robin! You became the most dazzling moment of my day!
I just now spent some time with Julia in clinic. We had tea, And dialogue only about us Robin :) How I wish you saw how Julia is happy that we will meet!
She is sure that our meeting will make us happy. It is simply impossible to talk to her now! :). She has now only one theme for conversation - you Robin!
She constantly asks about you, asks - what I will do together with you, she asks - what I will do at the airport, she asks - what I will cook for you.
She asks how I am going to impress you, to intrigue! She even asks how I will tempt you! :)) . She say that I do everything correctly and I should not be afraid of anything at all. To conquer the road can only one who goes on this road. Julia is very glad that I have found you, and she sends you her friendly greetings and a wishes of happy expectation of me!:).
Probably I the most successful woman on our planet because I have found a kindest and gentle man who is capable to make so that my heart have been overflow with feelings and my soul aspires to cross space and ocean and to rush into his life, to be united in a single whole with his soul.

My dear! I am not sure that I can arrive exactly, in two weeks.
Maybe I will arrive a little later, because it is an approximate time of beginning of my vacation and it can change. You will wait for me all the same?
Please, don't be angry with me if I cannot write you much now. I hope you understand that I even after my working day in clinic must do too much for our meeting. Today I will go to Ministry of Health. I think this is one of the most important deals for me right now. I will give them the all my medical documents and tomorrow I will probably get all documents and forms of petitions which I must fill out as soon as possible. Then I will go to Army Garrison where were working my father. They must collect for me all the information about my father, about history of the death of my father.
I must have data about work of my father not only in this Army Garrison, but also in all others Garrisons where my father worked during all life.
To make it extremely difficultly, if to take into account that my father worked in Army Garrisons in various points of our huge country. But I am sure that I will get the information because here many officers who remember my father, and I hope they will be glad to help me.
Robin today I feel that I start to worry more than I even could imagine.
I am very glad that I do all this. And I think of our meeting every minute.
The meeting at the airport... I don't think that many people on our planet have an opportunity to enjoy such a delightful moment - the moment of the first meeting at the airport. It is so beautiful. I feel that it will be very touching moment for each of us. It calms me down.
I see us together, I see us walking in the park; I see us speaking about serious and about silly things, or playing cards or a checkers (and the one who lose will execute any desire of the winner :)), I see wonderful dinners at home and outside! I see you sitting on a sofa with a juicy peach in your hand and I see me dancing in front of you beautiful dance, or maybe even erotic dance:), How about Belly dance? :). I do it stunningly!:).
I see us swimming; I see us on a roof of a house, watching the full moon; I see us fighting by pillows; I see us in the evening at home, with romantic light of candles; I see us cooking together Ours pelmenies and Yours pizzas :) ; I see me in your embraces. All this waits for us in the near future; and I enjoy, anticipating this delightful time together!
Do you feel the same, Robin? Oh, would you like to give me massage of my back? I would like to give you massage! But I must warn you, that if you want to give me massage, you should not touch my ribs! :)
The reason - I the most ticklish woman in country :) Robin I madly am afraid of titillation! If someone tickles my foot or ribs, I begin to laugh loudly, to kick and to scratch, to squeal and to jump! Therefore if you will give me massage and you will tickle me, you will feel like a cowboy on a wild undomesticated mare on the rodeo! :) . By the way Robin, are you ticklish? Do you snore? (Forgive me for this question. Do not answer, if you do not want. Maybe one day I will find out all this all the same! :)).
Will you sing serenades for me? I would be happy if you would sing serenades and songs for me! I would remunerate you by kisses! :) .
Robin I should finish the letter. I must do much so that you had an opportunity to give me massage and to get the massage from me! :) . Please, write me because now I need you and your letters very very strongly, because I worry so much...

All your, Anjela.

Letter 3

Hi my prince Robin!!!! How your letters is necessary for me,
To me is difficult because of the past events. Now I live in an house of the Boris's while restore windows.
I must admit Robin I feel truly comfortably only if I have received your letter.
I wanna to embrace you right now so you can feel my Heart ;) The weather here is colder!
What about your area Robin? How is the weather there now?
Oh, Robin at once I want to tell that Besides prowhose I have collected almost all characteristics and petitions from people. Now I will have a meeting with the notary at notary office to legalize all documents.
Boris was able to agree with municipal department. Now he must get all documents about my family and me. Of course contrary to my expectations not all people are unselfish, but the main thing is that we will get these documents.
The rest is not the most important.
You know I live at the brother and I spend some time with our friends.
My relatives are very happy, you know they like that we comunicate with you, My brother and girlfriends say to you Hi! Today in dreams I saw my parents. My parents were very good people and Mum always gave me "free of choice" mum told me in the past: "Anjela, it is your life, you can try everything you want, you can find love, just know that I and your The father in heavens want you to be happy" I loved my parents.
So sad they are not with us now.
Well, we walk all the time now and enjoy it season. I think it is very important to spend some time on the open air. Well, my mood is very fine now, I know
that soon we will go to open air together, it would begreat Robin :)
Looking forward to be with you this night In my dreams :)

With Love and Kisses
Your Anjela.

Letter 4

Hi Robin! How I am glad that I have an opportunity to write you now.
My dear Robin! I have bad news! I became the drug addict! And my drug - you Robin! :) I have a little time. I has come here only to write you some lines. I haven't even one free minute. Now the each minute of my day is devoted to you Robin! Every minute of my day I use to make our meeting come true. Every minute of my day I think of you and about our meeting.
I give off all my diligence and forces to meet you. I read your letters and cried, because you have touched my heart and soul. You have hit me in the heart.
I cannot find the words to express all my feelings to you. I cannot find the words to explain what I feel. You have won my heart. It was not possible to anybody. I am happy, that I have found you. I have already found happiness. Likely if I will see you, I will go mad. I think, yes, I think that in my heart was born the new feeling, which people call...
No, I will not tell it now. I will tell it when I meet you. I will tell it when I will see your eyes and when you will see my eyes.
Today I finally got almost all papers! ! I shall go to Kiev!
It is the most important point for me. I prepared to this for a long time.
After I will have conversation in embassy I will find out the final decision! I don't want to say "IF", but it is really a very difficult and tense moment. And I am simply not sure if I will have confidence and self-control. But I have to calm down myself. My worry - our enemy.
I think I am ready. I feel that I can do everything correctly, and we will meet! You should be with me in your thoughts. Without you I so am afraid! Be with me in your thoughts. I so worry. I so want to put my head onto your knees and to feel your warm hand on my face. For the sake of it I am ready to give off all my forces! And Family and girlfriends gives all her forces for our meeting. My windows were restored, and I have come back in my house. But I on former cannot feel like in safety However I am well because I am thinking of you Robin!
And that I felt better in my apartment, after all event here.
Last night Juliya has come to my home and she have suggested to bake a cake,- simply to relax after difficult day. We have together invented the new recipe and have started to make a cake. I wish you saw this cake! There is not on the Earth any cake with such a quantity of components! :) Between of layers of a soft gentle biscuit we placed mush of kiwi and bananas.
The sour cream with a strawberry and juice of fresh lemon have turned into a magnificent cake-cream. We have decorated a cake with a cherry, and when we already wanted to try our cake, we have suddenly understood that we forgot to give a name for our pie. I do not know if is in your country such a tradition, but in Russia each cake have the name, like - "Cinderella", or "Ant Hill" or "Autumn Waltz". So we began to look attentively at our cake, and to think,- what name this cake must have. Juliya began to offer various names - "Palette" or "Rainbow". But I said that all this is banal and too ordinary. There is millions cakes with similar names. Then she has offered the name - "Flying Hippopotamus" or "Drunk Fakir"! I have asked her - why "Drunk Fakir"? And she has answered that it is unusually, and in any country of the world I never would find a pie with the similar name! :)
But I said that it is too foolishly! Juliya offered tens of names, but to each her offer I answered that it is too foolishly, or too banal, or too ordinary, or it is not interesting. Finally Juliya has told: "All right Anjela, if you are so clever, maybe you will offer anything not banal, unusual, not foolish and interesting?" And then I have told: "Look at this cake! This cake is appetizing just as Robin!!!! I want to name this cake - Robin!":)
I wish you saw Juliya during that moment! She has fallen onto a floor and began to laugh loudly! I could not stop her at all! She has told: "Anjela, you are absolutely crazy woman, but I love the name Robin!!!!" :))
We together laughed loudly all the evening, we drank tea and ate a delightful cake with the name Robin!!! :) I hope you are not offended that I have named a cake by your name? It is a beautiful, sweet, gentle, and very tasty cake!!! Robin, I have to go. I hope you dream and think of me as often as I think of you! :) I shall write to you before departure to Kiev.
Please, write me the letter! I beg you, do not forget about me now! :)
and, tell me that you wait for me with impatience :) Please, tell me that you are dreaming to embrace me at the airport! :) Robin, if some lady would want to be with you while your beloved woman don't see you, what would you tell that lady? Forgive me, I have to go. But only because I want to meet you as soon as possible!!!!:)
Your Darling Anjela!


Letter 5

Hello my prince!!! I cannot write much.
I only have come for some minutes here, and I have some minutes to write to you!
My dear, you know now I have all necessary papers.. and tomorrow in the morning I shall go to Kiev :) To me informed that probably next week I can be with you :) I can write to you from Kiev in 2-3 days...
As soon as I shall find out in Kiev the Internet of cafe I shall write to you.
Robin You cannot imagine what occurs in my heart and in my soul!
Thoughts about our meeting make me happy! I even am happy when I alone in my apartment! Do you know why? I know that we will meet Robin, and I simply I have no words. My heart completely obeys you! You are my man!
Yesterday I began to knit a sweater for you. It will be my gift. I knit a sweater of Angora wool. Do you like a sweater? Do you like to wear sweater when cold in the street? I am absolutely sure that you will like this sweater.
I make it with such big love. I make it so studiously. It will be the best sweater in country. :) Color - is slightly darkest than white. - Very beautiful color. I want to make on a front part of a sweater an inscription - the name. First I wanted to make name - "Anjela".
But now I want to make a name - Robin. And I do not know what do you want.
The name will be not big. Probably male's sweater must be with male's name.
Or maybe you want me to not make any names at all? I can make simply a sweater, without any inscriptions. You have 3 days to make the decision - what name you want to see on a chest. If you do not write to me, I will take the decision by myself, but I will not tell you. I will give you this sweater at the Airport. Do you like my idea Robin? I assure you, you will admired! :) . We several times knited similar sweaters; and we used for a base the pictures from modern magazines of clothes. But your sweater will be the best! Because I will do it with special love. It will be one of my gifts for you! Julia helped me so that I have time to finish it before my arrival to you! Robin could you tell me the volume of your chest, and the length of your hand from a shoulder up to a wrist? Or simply a size of clothes that you wear? It will help me! By the way, I as well will bring for you a small national souvenir! And some other souvenirs for other people who are dear for you! I hope you will be glad! I do not know how to thank you for everything. You have changed my life Robin. I am so happy.
Now I should finish the letter :( Wish me of good luck :) I wish to you successful day. If you know how it is lonely here without you...

With Love and Kisses
Your Anjela.

Letter 6

Good afternoon mine dear and loved Robin, for me it is very happy day to see your letter. I'm in Kiev! You can't imagine how happy I am because I already started my trip to you! Kiev is a really big city! From my city I went by train... it was so long way...
about 23 hours. When I got off the train in Kiev, policeman asked me about passport and he looked at me like I am an enemy ))) I think all people here are a little crazy. Everything here is very expensive, not like in my city... and everywhere are big crowds of people!
Everywhere is so many people! I feel uncomfortable because of it but I hope I will be OK soon. I couldn't find a cheap hotel, everything is so expensive in Kiev. I managed to find number for $70.. but I have counted it also expensive. I managed to find my girlfriend, Olga...
We studied at university. She has allowed me to stop in her house.
We had many conversations, spoke about you much. Olga it is very glad for me! Today she has carried out all the day long with me..
And by the evening accompanied to the Internet of cafe, then has gone for work.
Robin I think that everything most difficult has remained behind us!
I had the conversation in embassy! I knew that it would be a difficult conversation, but I could not imagine at all that I must answer to so many questions. And prior to the beginning of I have been so frightened, I so worried. But as soon as they have asked the first question, I at once became absolutely calmed down. I simply sat, and straight answered to questions. I spoke everything what I think, in all sincerity, as always. They asked me actually about everything!
They asked me about my life, about my childhood,, about terrorism, about my work, about my last relationship. They have read all documents which I has collected. They asked me about my belief in god.
and often I saw on their faces that they expected from me not such the answers, but I didn't want to speak beautiful things which pleasantly to listen to. I simply spoke sincerely all what in my heart.
And first I thought that my answers have not satisfied them, but they have told that to listen to my answers very pleasantly and unusually.
They have told that "bitter" sincerity always better than "sweet" flattery. Besides, I already had experience of reception of the visa and they really have been impressed with fact that I had such a great support from many people and establishments. And maybe in some hours All papers will be in my hands !!!!! I can't believe. I feel that I did all correctly.
Robin I should also ask you the very important question once again.
When I'll arrive to you, there is a place, I however can be stop at your home?
Or however I should live in the hotel? But I dont want stop in the hotel.
dont like hotel. But I have found some variants. Just in case.
And dear, dont forget send me all information.
1. Your full name
2. Your full home address.
3. Also once again nearest airport . Where you will precisely meet me.
Robin today I saw my parents in my sleep-dream, and they smiled to me.
I know that it is their approval. I see my parents in sleep-dream very seldom!
I always knew that dream will never simply fall into hands from the sky. I always knew that if you want the dream to come true, you must do for this purpose all what in your forces. I know that it is necessary to believe, hope and struggle. And I really struggled Robin, I tried to do all what in my forces. And I hope god will help us. after all difficulties, after all efforts I believe that Everything will be fine! I really feel that I did everything well.
Robin I worry very much, but my heart say to me that I should smile.
And I smile today. I feel that I will meet you. I feel that the meeting at the airport will be beautiful and romantic. I will tell you everything what I will feel at that moment, and you will tell me. And then we will leave the airport and we will chatter and laugh. I will tell you how I endured the flight in the plane and what I was thinking about.
You will tell me how you waited for me at the airport. And then we will have a wonderful time together. We will walk, spend evenings, to watch funny and scary movies, - and I will hide under your hand at the most scary moment... We will meet together the first beams of the sun and will see off a magnificent sunset. We will sit near a window and to drink hot tea while in the street will be a cold. How I want to have a breakfast together and a supper with candles. How I want to shout together with you at the stadium; or simply to lay on a bed, and to tell each other about a life. How I want all this - simple things which will bring to us so many joy. If everything will be fine, I will start the most difficult process - preparation of my suitcase! :) .
Robin probable by during week we shall be together:)
SOON WE WILL BE TOGETHER!!!!! But now I have to go! My legs shiver as if I the schoolgirl! :) . Wish me luck and think of me!

Your Anjela.

PS I made some pictures. Hope you like it)

Letter 7

Hi, my Robin! My dear, excuse, for a delay of the answer! I even do not know what to tell first. I simply hope that you will be happy! The most important, finest news - I did it! I got the visa! I am very happy Robin!!!!
My prince I have not stopped on it and later we with my girlfriend at whom I have stopped in Kiev have gone to office of this airline, company that reserves airway tickets. I asked them how I can reach Orlando and how much it costs. They've told me that the roundtrip flight to your airport cost 2187 US dollars. It was too expensive for me and I've asked them to find the cheapest variant. And they've offered. It would be on the March 2 I have learned, that cost of tickets up to in one party will make 685 dollars, I was wondered if it was possible to reserve a ticket and to pay for it a part of the funds this time and the other part later, because other people can buy the cheap ticket and I'm not. But they've refused and I was in despair! I've asked them to help me so long time that tears have come to my eyes! And they've agreed! I have learned, that now return tickets are necessary for the proof of that I independently can return to Ukraine.
But there is an opportunity to change return the ticket on money in your country, or to change date. To me have told, that if will take return tickets the discount at a rate of 5% is given, it turns out that 685+685=1370 dollars and will subtract 5% these are 68 dollars that will make 1302 dollars, but still it is necessary to add to this sum of 10% from cost for registration of tickets and meal, it will turn out 1432 dollars, 6:45 am Depart Kiev (KBP)
Arrive Orlando MCO 8:40 pm 2 March
The dollar exchange rate has fallen in our country and it is the cheapest tickets of an economic class, is cheaper a way to arrive to you I is not present. It was the best variant for me. They have told that I can pay a part of money now, and the other part later. it is possible, but I will be limited by term. And if I will not pay the full cost of the ticket within of this term, I will lose already nested money. I have agreed because it is the only chance for me, because I must give to anti-emigration committee a data about my payment. By this moment I had only the concrete sum of money which I had after all my expenses. I paid 770 USD. But it was not enough for them. In a panic, all what and I could do - I pawned my gold earrings and rings In a pawnshop and I got 178 USD. That is all I could do.
I know that probably I simply must tell that I can't come to you because I haven't the remaining sum. I know that I promised to do all by self, and I was sure that I can. I did not want to ask you. But after I did everything I did, I cannot simply tell that I will not come to you. I have passed through so many difficulties, and I have overcome the most difficult.
But all the same I have disgusting feeling that I could not fulfill the promise.
I am always ready to do all what is possible,- to fulfill my promises, but at the same time I understand that any person could get in such a situation.
To get the visa and all papers I have spent much more money than I expected.
But people were ready to help me only if I will pay them. I paid more than 500 dollars to get all documents, I paid in municipal committee, in the ministry. Even officers in army garrison have compelled me to pay for their help. I did not expect all this, but up to the last moment I was sure that I still can make everything. I expected that I can get a vacation payment. But I have received only a part. We get other part a vacation payment in three weeks. Besides, I have been compelled to buy new windows for my apartment. But I cannot leave my apartment with broken windows. And of course I have been compelled to pay much for it. I feel so guilty. I was sure that nothing can prevent our meeting. But I must pay remaining sum. It is 481 USD. And I must pay funds before February 28, morning. Otherwise I will lose my nested funds and our jewelry will be sold out simply in vain. I know that I should not ask you, and I am very ashamed to do it. And maybe I really simply had to tell you that I can't meet with you because I could not provide my travel completely.
But I cannot simply refuse our meeting because then all my diligence, forces, nerves, means will be spent in vain. I understand that it is big sum to lend me. You are not obliged to help me. And 500 dollars which I have spent to get the visa, and 948 $ that I have given for the ticket also I restored a windows in an apartment before departure. It all are huge funds for me. But I want you to know that I have given everything not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of us, for the sake of you and me. And I was happy all this time. If you want to meet me, to help me to make our meeting, please, transfer funds to the help before February 28, morning.
I do not know if you want to help me or already not.
But i think you have told that I should let you know if there is anything you can do to help me. I believe you even though I am afraid to ask. But I have no other exit. I need you Robin. If you can help me I will tell you what I have found out. Here we have remittance system.
And I have addressed to the most convenient bank. I have been told that they use the systems "WesternUnion" and "MoneyGram". They have told that it is the American systems. And there I can receive your help very fast and I will be absolutely safety. You should transfer them into any office(bank) here in Kiev for Anjela Abramian. For an example, near there is a Office: Privatbank. Frunze St. 104a Kiev, 04080 Ukraine
My home registration address: Ukraine; Kiev. str. Yridika 10-15 code:80600.
I send you the view of my visa. If the additional data will be necessary for you. There I have been told, that to get the money, we must tell to employee of bank(agent) your full name, your full address, exact sum which I should receive and some confidential numbers - Reference Number.
You will get this number in your office if you will send your help.
Only with presence of all this information I can get your help. Also hey have told that funds it is possible to send online through a site WesternUnion.com And I will give you back all your funds at the earliest opportunity probably in 2-3 weeks. I think about you Robin all the time! I think about a meaning of funds, and I'm very sad if these papers can prevent people to meet each other. In most cases the funds play a main role in the life but it's not right! I do not know what answer I will get from you Robin. I very much am afraid that you will not help me. But I want to tell, that I really need you, and I simply can't endure the thought that I did almost everything, but I will not meet you. I have given all my forces, but together we are stronger. Are you with me?

Write to me soon!
With love, Your Anjela.